Negative Energy
 

I don't know where to put this, so I decided the general Spirituality forum was as good a place as any.


Less than an hour ago, for the second time in about a week, I was attacked by a negative energy while trying to fall asleep. The first time, I hadn't really fallen asleep, yet, so, while a terrible feeling, it wasn't as intense. But the best way I could describe was as though I was being raped. I could feel every movement, I felt like I was being held down, and then I could feel my abdomen swelling. Only moments later, the energy shifted and it felt like something kicking inside my stomach (having been pregnant, before, I could say that it felt very similar to a baby kicking inside of me). After ten minutes or so, everything faded away, and I was able to fall asleep, even though I was still pretty alarmed about what had happened, I no longer felt threatened.

Well, today, it was different. I woke abruptly around 3am, this morning, for no discernible reason. My son woke about five minutes later, so I just assumed that my Mommy ESP was hard at work, again, and I was anticipating his needs before he had them (we have a very close, spiritual bond). Well, I took care of him, he fell back to sleep, and then I climbed back into my bed around 3:30. I couldn't fall back to sleep, despite feeling very tired. I tossed and turned, more than usual. I felt a bit nervous, but wasn't sure why. Eventually, I did manage to drift to sleep, around 4:30.

I usually start to dream as soon as I drift to sleep. From a young age, I would describe myself as having the gift of dreams. I can sense time passing as I sleep, my dreams are very vivid and spiritual in nature, often a bit prophetic, as well. So, as my conscious mind starts to drift away, I get more and more enveloped by my subconscious dreamland. This dream started out very simple, with me walking through a forest. At first, I felt no reason to be alarmed nor did I know where the dream was heading. I was just this happy-go-lucky person, walking through trees. And then, almost instantly, it got very dark and I came to a patch of bare land, no trees, just very short, pale green grass. And I was nervous, but I continued to walk. And then, when I got to the middle of the patch, I realized that it formed a perfect circle, surrounded by trees at every point, and that it wasn't "natural." I immediately knew I had to get away, that this was a trap. I was still slightly awake at this point, I hadn't completely fallen asleep, yet. But as I tried to get away, flashes of images, none of them that made sense to me or that I can even remember, now, came running through my mind, as though I was being forced to see someone else's thoughts. I felt my chest getting heavy and I started struggling to breathe. My heart was pounding so loudly that, even now, I still have pain in my left ear from the sound of it (as though it were a sonic boom). I could just feel all lightness leaving my bedroom and I could just sense this really evil thing hovering over me, as the images continued to flash. Because I was still a bit awake, I was screaming for the rest of me to wake, as well, and I was telling myself, "This isn't right!" and trying to tell myself to get out of there. I was then able to tell myself to concentrate on being light, to become the light. I started screaming out (meditatively) "I am light! I am light! I am good!" and I imagined myself in that patch of grass, becoming a beam of light, so bright that nothing dark could get near me. Of course, it was very difficult for me and I really struggled to focus and meditate, as the dark energy continued to hold onto me. Eventually though, I was able to push it away enough to relax my body and open my eyes. I looked over at the clock, it was 4:38. So, I know it wasn't a dream, there was no time to fall asleep!

Even now, as I sit here, I can still feel the energy nearby, as though it's waiting for me to let my guard down. As tired as a I am, I don't feel strong enough to let myself try to fall asleep. I turned on the lights in my room and I have been in a constant state of trying to project lightness, even as I type this. I said a prayer for my son and mother, who both live in the home with me, because I don't want them to become the next victims after the energy failed to get ahold of me. But I still feel like I'm being watched, just seriously uncomfortable, like something is haunting me. I haven't felt this in a very long time, this has always been a safe house, no sort of energy, negative or otherwise. But I worry that my spiritual journey, becoming more aware of myself, being open, has left me and my family as a target.


I'm not really sure what to do and I don't know that I've reached a place, spiritually, to deal with this, yet. It feels way over my head and I don't know why this is happening. I would love some advice for how to protect myself and my family from further attacks. I need our home to be a safe for my son.

You need to do a cleansing ritual to banish that negative energy from the house and to renew the positive energy. If you need any advice on the type of ritual you need to perform then ask and I can point you in the right direction, I don't want to be telling you what to do if you already know.

I hope you manage to get rid of that negative energy. Have you any idea where it might have come from?

Love and light xx

I don't know anything about cleansing rituals. You're more than welcome to point me in the right direction.

I don't know where this could be coming from. I don't have any enemies, as far as I know. I mean, honestly, I'm a bit of a hermit, so there just aren't a lot of people who even know me, in the first place. I can't imagine someone going out of there way to harm me like this. I just assumed it was a random energy, but maybe not since it's happened twice in the same week.

Well there are a few different ways of cleansing a house of negative energy, but in my opinion the most effective is smudging, using smoke to cleanse and banish the negative energy.

Before you start remember that energy is everywhere, and when energy impacts an environment it changes it for good or for bad. So using positive energy will remove the negative. It is important to enter into the cleansing process with a good attitude, one of love and happiness, not anger, fear, hatred etc.

For smudging you will need either white sage, or normal garden sage will also work well, or any type of pine. You can even use both together. You can use a wad of leaves, powered sgae or pine, or a smudge stick. carry a heatproof container in your left hand and the sage/pine in your right. When smudging a room, work in one direction, spiralling to the center. Which direction you use is up to you, or try both. Counter clockwise is usually considered banishing, clockwise is invoking. Try to start near, but not in front of the door, sweeping the smoke into all corners, up to the ceiling and down to the floor. If you use leaves or a smudge stick, knock the ashes off often, so you won't catch anything on fire. It's a good idea to keep a container of water close by, just in case.

Repeat the following, if you wish, during the smudging:


***From the Element of Fire
Comes this smoke, which is Air.
From the Element of Earth
Grows this plant, which is Water.
I call upon the Elements and the Blessings of Spirit
To please cleanse this (area, space, being, etc.)
For the good of all.***

Continue until you feel every inch of the area has been touched by the smoke. Also carry out in any areas of the house that you feel necessary. I know peoplle that just do the one room where they feel the negative energy, or others prefer to do the whole house. It might be better to do this when you are home on your own too. Intent and visualization are important. Visualizing the movement of energy adds a lot of power to the cleansing procedure.

Good luck. Love and light xx

Im sorry to hear about what you are going through , ive been going through exactly the same problems for over a year now
The biggest hold these negative energies have over you is fear , i was terrified which made the problem 3 times as bad if u can find a way to fight the fear then they wont be a strong ( i know this sounds impossible when u 1st encounter these things) u just have to keep telling yourself they CANNOT harm you , at 1 stage i thought i was losing my sanity through fear , i believe the only way they can cause harm is mentally but thats only if u let them, but physically they do not harm ..
If u need some immeadiate relief to relax u while sleeping until u can maybe try sage to smudge , u can place salt in a full circle around your bed without any breaks in it , it will stop anything "attacking you"
I trully believe myself its a mental battle though the stronger minded you are the weaker they are
If u would ever like to chat feel free to pm me anytime ..

If you wish to look at this as a gift to help you open up and grow...

When our spirit calls us to open more, we will be given experiences to help us grow and open. When we are faced with experiences like this one, it opens you to see and expereince your fears in the face of being open and connected to other realms. You can look at this from a perspective of learning how to protect yourself and knowing in the face of others and situations you do have the power within you to manage yourself in this reality. Letting down your guard/being more open will expose our deeper fears as you are being shown in this experience. Feeling threatened, invaded can often be a part of walking through this opening to let go of fears and remain open and know we have all the protection we need within us. Your dreamer showed you how you can do this, it is in you. The dream is just one situation that is revealing, that in real life, those more difficult emotions of feeling afraid in the face of others who you may perceive will harm you in some way, can be overcome. The spirit level I feel is teaching you how to manage and reveal to you, you have all the skills to be open and manage.

Worrying that your family may become a target to evil entities...is part of your fear in this...and often the very thing we fear will manifest in ways like this one to help you see ourselves more clearly in the face of those fears and how you respond in that fear....spirit will show you, you have it all in you to protect and feel safe..We manifest our deepest fears to tap into our deepest levels of self empowerment..TRUST>

That negative energy is your lower being, it's manifesting itself in your dreams, it 's awakening, most times they are mostly sleeping.

I had experience nightmares of getting chased by a demon, only to find out later that is was me, my lower being, was awakened.

Instead of me fighting it, or running from it, I learned to forgive it, and love it.
It was telling me that he was awake, and was ready to be saved, or looking for forgiveness.

Your Lower Being, may have awoken prematurely, and trying to look for an escape route, out of where he/she is now. As it is part of your soul, it's trying to take over it. don't feed it fear, as it will get stronger, feed it light, as you are stronger than he/she is.

When you say your prayer say one for your lower being also, say you love it, forgive it, and you have not forgotten about he or she.

Our demons believe it or not are quite lonely down there, in the dark, it's miserable and is looking for forgiveness. If I was part of my soul, that is down there, I would too, try to find an escape route.

I'm sure you will be OK, just give it love & forgiveness, maybe he/she will go back to sleep.