Spiritual Forums - Returning to a past life

Two years ago, when I was 18 and still figuring out my spirituality stuff, I did I guided mediation that I found on youtube to remember a past life. The vision that I got was that I was a young woman in the Edwardian era, about the same age I am now, and I lost a man I loved, so I was sad. I walked in the house I was living in and saw that I had a sister, brother-in-law (though I'm wondering if it was the other way around after my second time visiting this life), and a niece. The house number was 1524 and it was a townhouse.

Last night was my third time doing a regression and in my second go at this, I saw myself as a Jewish immigrant girl who worked in a New York textile factory in the mid-1800s. So, I thought I would discover a third past life. However, I saw that I returned to the life I visited from my first regression. Since I'm more experienced spiritually now, I got more out of it.

As the voice told me to go to a light, I was becoming a girl, about 12 or so, wearing Victorian clothing. Then, I was in my bedroom. I had a little brother and my family was upper middle class. The voice told me to go to another key event in that life and I saw myself in the living room of the house, a little bit older and wearing a casual dress from the early 1900's, like something you would find in Titanic or Downton Abbey. There was a man there and we were falling in love. This was basically one of those "dates" from back then where most of the courting had to be done in the living room with the parents eavesdropping. This time, I saw how I died. I was still young and it was sometime in the 1910s. My hair was still up, but I was wearing a robe and sitting at my vanity and I used either a really sharp letter opener or small knife to slit my wrists. Then, I saw my funeral. The name that came to me was Mary Elizabeth, but the last name wasn't very clear.

How I could tell that I visited the same life is because the time that the events happened fit together and I had the same strawberry blonde hair, which is very interesting because I'm writing a story that's set in a fantasy world inspired by the Victorian era and the main character has the same color hair. I just realized that!

I also found a psychic who sold past life readings on etsy for $11. I just asked her a question, which was about why I adore France so much, and she said that I was a young woman in the early 20th century, I had a brother and a middle class family. We saved up money for years to go on a big Paris trip that was a life-changing experience for me. I don't know how legit that is because it was just a cheap etsy listing, but I just did it for the heck of it.