Can't seem to find my guide and 'hyper space'
 

Hey there.

Time to put experience into words!

I have been searching for my spirit guide ever since I was little and I have yet to find them, I have been silent and still, made action, pondered, yet I think that I am the only one to guide myself.

Perhaps I wont need a guide until later on my journey? Perhaps I am 'my' guide in this life from another.Multidimensional dolls inside dolls.

Who knows? but I am wanting to know?

A bit about myself I am highly intuitive, have experienced ego death - two powerful evil malicious spirits did some excruciating yet helpful spiritual surgery on my mind/astral body and the whole time, there was no guide to be found through this experience.

Even when I was screaming out in a vast continuous empty void in hyper space with no human form or conscious control, being ripped out and crushed (think steam roller flattening your body and a burning rain of scorching needles as you experience a pain beyond perhaps your wildest imagination) my ego dissipated and I experienced a very confronting beauty of silent emptiness of mind without identity or form they brought me to.

Even then I never saw my guide.
If any one could please shed light I would appreciate hearing anyones philosophy - if they are experienced with astral travel particularly or have experienced anything similar or been without a guide for awhile in their journey. Perhaps you are a spirit who does not need a guide?

I am thinking perhaps I am a shaman, or a spiritual being who does not need one and is simply here to experience this world to guide and bring back information. Only I can discover the answer but I would like help with anyone elses opinion of what they think.

Emilija
Scorpio
'92

Your spiritual number is 33?
I understand you, for my guides seemed to be silent for a long time. It seems to me that they communicate in a very silent way. Think of wisdom and folly (the artful trickster/the foolish artist), strength through silence. Your guides are probably sending you signals, you just are not making the connection it is your guides!

http://www.eaglespiritministry.com/pd/sdc/sdc3.htm
This page helped me a lot, bridging me to the knowledge I had attained but not yet understood. Part of it explains how to connect and communicate with spirit guides and angels, and ascend even further.


Good luck to you.