Angel or Guide won’t contact with me.
 

This might be really long. I just want to vent and also ask a question. Maybe get some validation that I’m not crazy.

I’ll start from the beginning. When my mom (who isn’t very religious) was pregnant with me, she planned to get an abortion but she said she heard an angel tell her to have me.

When I was born, I was very sick and expected to die either in my mom’s womb or shortly after birth. Long story short, obviously I lived and I was completely fine.

My whole life has just been great, I’ve never gone through anything too “hard” yet. Miraculous things always seem to happen for me. I think I have someone otherworldly on my side.

I’ve even seen an “angel” or someone like that before and my sister seen the same thing so I know I didn’t imagine it. One night, as a teen, I woke up in the middle of the night because I felt someone lay down next to me. I turned to see who it was but it was completely dark so I didn’t see anything but I felt whoever it was, slide off the bed very slowly. I thought it was my sister but I got up to see what she was doing and no one was there, I went to her room and she was sleeping.

I thought it was my angel, but my logical mind said I was just having a hallucination of some kind.

I started feeling this presence of someone when I was around 9 years old. I believed it was an angel that was here to “play with me” and watch over me. I would talk to them and not expect an answer or anything like that.

As I got older, I have still constantly always felt this angel.

As a middle schooler, I began believing this angel was my soulmate who was watching over me and died in a previous life. It’s so weird, I don’t really believe in much spiritual stuff especially back then but I’ve always believed in this “angel”.

Anyways, I was listening to a psychic on a reading for me about a week ago or so and she said the. weirdest. thing. It freaked me out.

She said my soulmate and I had been together in a previous life but they died younger than I did. They decided not to reincarnate in this life and instead to be my guardian angel. Freaked me out.

Because originally, that was such a weird thought for me to have and so random. But then this psychic said the same thing and there is NO WAY she would know. I even stopped thinking that way long ago and believed I was just being a silly preteen having weird fantasies or something.

I have tried many, many times to contact this angel. I did have some experiences (like seeing the angel and feeling them lie next to me) but that has all stopped maybe because I’m an adult now?

I tried to contact them by speaking out loud, nothing. By asking for an appearance in a dream, nothing. Tarot cards, I can do readings on anything and it’ll make sense. But if I ask a direct question about this angel, I get nothing.

They don’t want to speak or communicate with me, or give me signs. It’s so frustrating. Especially when others say they connect with their angels. Why is mine being so closed? Especially for a “soul mate”! I’m desperate for some sort of connection or companionship or signs I’m not crazy and they give nothing.

Is it possible that some angels just don’t want to connect with you?

It is frustrating, I have been able to hear a couple of negative entities that I can't seem to get rid of for the last two years. But, I can't get anything like guide or angel to speak to me or help me with these entities. As far as I'm concerned, I might as well not have a guide. What good are they when they won't help you.

I think your strong emotion might stand in the way of communication. Try to relax and allow your soulmate/angel to speak to you when they are ready. Don't ask, just wait patiently.

thanks, i’m so glad you guys don’t think i sound delusional. about the demon, or negative entity in your life, that’s horrible :( maybe in the other world, something prevents your guide from helping you? who actually knows what it’s like on the otherside. and maybe my strong emotion does stand in the way. i try to communicate with them calmly but maybe it’s like they’re not here for the purpose of communication so they don’t do it.

Sometimes when we want something so desperately, we hold ourselves apart from it. Our energy radiates slack and non fulfillment.

I agree with Tomma about relax. As well, start finding small evidences in your world that the communication is possible in its own time. Small things to very gently shift can't to possible.

Finally, put that relationship to the side for a while and ask for an intermediary... seek communication with another light being that can help you relax into the flow of communication for you.

I have the same problem. I’ve never had anything negative come through before but the last couple of times I tried to reach my guide something evil was there and now I feel like it’s blocking my guide. One time it tried to act like my guide and I knew right off it was not and told it to go away. I haven’t tried to connect again cause I’m scared of bringing something trough.

I think we all have Jesus, after all, He came into this world to "make peace between us and God", and he came for all.I had many nightmares but every time I called for Jesus, well, the nightmare ended.