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linen53 27-08-2019 11:26 PM

Oh thank you hazada. Very kind of you. I am often ignored for my beliefs (which I take no personal offense to).

It's nice to get a compliment sometimes.

Okay! So I have an ego that still flares up at time. I'm entitled. My Creator made me human, number one on the list of traits needed to be born here.

NightingalesFlame 31-08-2019 05:40 AM

Bluelotus

I have committed suicide in my past life. My husband in my past life died in a war. I have experimented with Wicca after his loss and I either shot or stabbed myself. I have attempted suicide in this life but did not succeed. Just as I was going through this period, I developed a mark on my chest. It now looks like a knife wound and I do not remember having any trauma there in this lifetime. I did not have a nde but I had an oobe.

Ariaecheflame 31-08-2019 10:13 PM

I recall a life where I drowned myself because I had been kept a prisoner by a man and I felt it consume my spirit.

I walked into a lake and had large rocks tied to my ankles. I was so angry that I let my anger take me down.

In this life as a child, I was terrified of the water and didn't learn to swim until I was 16. I used to feel angry around water which is funny because now I adore swimming!

I also have had a lot of lessons surrounding self sacrifice and I have anger issues directed inwards towards myself.

A gift of it all though is that I have become extremely determined in this life to heal, connect to love and learn how to be and express and advocate for my true self without compromise.

An interesting syncronicity is that in this life I am also astrologically aligned with the lessons of Libra and Aries as they are connected to my souls karma and dharma which speak to these moving through the lessons of selflessness and sacrifice into soulfulness and self expression.

Tobi 31-08-2019 10:45 PM

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Originally Posted by linen53
When I got to the other side, of course I had my life review. I was so very disappointed in myself. No one judged me, I did that all by myself. I had stayed in that lifetime, had set up for my lessons and I had ended my life early. A total waste. There is no judgement for suicide. But I just felt the waste of everything I had been through as a young girl and I ended it prematurely. I knew I would have to start all over again next time. The frustration and disappointment in myself was monumental.

I said I needed time to think.

Two guides took me to what I called the Gray Planet, far away. Sky was gray, flat, no mountains, no plants, gray everywhere you looked. The planet was inhabited with a group of people. All wore gray robes, sandals and all they did was murmur amongst themselves. I have theories about why they were there but I digress.

On the planet was a large transparent bubble. Inside was a paradise. Green trees, blue sky, a cottage, all the makings of a retreat of kinds. My guides directed me to go into the bubble. Once inside I could not get out. There was a horse by the cottage and we became great friends. I would ride for miles into valleys, and meadows, next to streams. It was kind of like the Star Trek hologram.

The murmurers came at times and would murmur amongst themselves as they watched me. When I got tired of them I would go into the cottage for privacy.

While there I thought. I had had so many failures in previous lives. It seemed I had found ways to circumvent my lessons that I reincarnated into to learn. For many lifetimes. So I was there to think of a solution on how I could successfully make it through my lessons rather than to avoid them. I was there for a very long time. Of course on the other side there is no time per se, but still, I was in the bubble for many earth years.

I finally came up with a solution. I would fill my next incarnation with so much strife and pain that I could not avoid my lessons. And so I did. I remember the reincarnation "council" was adamant that it was to much. And it was. I can tell you that now. But I said that was my choice, and so they allowed me to be born into the family that would teach me my life lessons.

Honestly, I barely made it out alive. Healing took many decades. But I did heal. I do not say I am a survivor. I cannot blame my family for lessons I chose them to teach me. I came, learned my lessons and when it's my time to go home this time, it will be because this old body of mine just gives out.

These last few years have been very painful, bodily mostly. More and more has been taken away from me. But I'm still breathing, and as long as I am breathing then I still have lessons to learn.

Let me know if this is detailed enough. If not ask questions. I am always willing to tell of my experience.


I have heard you talk of this before, Linen. Your story always moves me. Bless you, you strong Old Soul !

linen53 03-09-2019 02:44 AM

Thank you Tobi.


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