I'm gonna be completely honest.
 

I need to really ask about certain things. Sometimes i need guidance in life. I really wish if you people could give some support and give me advices. Then i can choose to think these advices may be from higher guidance. Because after all i think there could be some higher purpose for me to ask these questions.

Okay first of all one thing is the relationship thing. I don't know what i really want. I was thinking about maybe one day start dating on a spiritual dating site which i found. Yet i really don't know. I spend alot of time alone. This is due to things that happened in my life which made me learn to find peace being alone without friends. I do have friends today but the big need to be alone still stays with me. I feel if i want a relationship i need to be able to be there for my girlfriend. I don't really want to be in a relationship so i don't really want to call it girlfriend. I feel i don't want to label it. But i think sometimes about finding a spiritual friend who i fall in love with but we don't really give ourselves that label. Still, i need to be there for her.

I was thinking yesterday of creating a bigger social network by going out and meet new people but if i do that i must put up for my friends. But my extreme need to be alone hinders this. I feel that i can't just befriend people and then ignore them.

I want to really find a woman in my life but maybe i only want to have an overnight relationship with her? I mean if both of us mutually agree to that then there's no problem with that. I feel that if i like loneliness as much as i do then it might feel better for me if i get together over the night. Its nothing shameful about having needs, especially not when you never experienced any such intimacy in life. In fact i really suffer over this and think its not fair that some get to have so much intimacy in life and i don't. How does it even feel? It must be wonderful. :icon_cry:

Next thing, work areas: I have a work which i don't know if i should stay in. I've been there for many years and i feel like trying something else. I know of one work that maybe i want to try but i need to make sure first that i work everyday that i should work or else i probably won't last long in a new work. I don't have a strong work moral so to speak so i've had trouble going to work sometimes. Also another area around careers is that i feel like belonging to something greater. Like having some deeper role in the universe. Right now i work with animals and the other work i think of trying also involves animals. Sounds great right? It really is great to cuddle with them.

But i feel like i need to belong to something greater. A spiritual role in some way. Recently i was talking out loud in my apartment about the oracle card Akasha from Messages From Your Angels Oracle Cards. I was sure there was something specific about that card. Just recently when that card was shown i knew it was a confirmation from beyond.

I do like to write and i used to think about writing a book and creating a blog. But it felt too heavy. I don't feel i have the energy to do these things. I have also had a card from Magical Mermaids and Dolphins Oracle Cards 'Time to Move On' which is about letting go of the past and old things which no longer serves your highest good, things that might feel heavy to you. So i was leaving the idea of book and blog behind me. Its still not the ideal thing to do i feel. I don't know what it is i'm gonna do but i really want to feel a higher purpose. I've been thinking of visiting a spiritual association but i wish i could do that right now at the moment but its not possible at the moment. I don't know if i should visit the association or not. There's so many things i'm not sure of. Sometimes i feel strongly to do a thing and then i feel opposite feelings aswell.

I think of perhaps getting Skype. Using skype is one way to socialise with friends. I do have twitch which is one way to socialise with people who like video games like myself. I have also been thinking of maybe start playing online with other people.

I really need guidance on what to do with my life. I want a higher purpose. I am wondering what the card Akasha means to me? The card Akasha is the most important question in this thread. I want a higher spiritual purpose. Please help with my questions someone. I feel stuck.

Hello again, Stranger. The best 'guidance' I can give is in my treatise (where there's more of course, but probably more than you want to know right now):

I more than anything else recommend that you (anyone!) primarily rely on the results of your earnestly praying, that is, of your intentionally desiring and attitudinally expecting, to be shown (by capital ‘M’ Mind) whatever, if anything, you may (presently) not be seeing which it might be better for you to see (‘better’ in terms of leading you in a ‘greater’ Love and Joy Life‑Flow direction), and that you also be sparked and spurred (by capital ‘S’ Spirit) to ‘do’ whatever would be best in that case (‘best’ by virtue of your consequently becoming as Love and Joy Flow-augmenting as you can possibly be in such vein).* The rationale here being (1) that the Reality, or Nature, of (all!) Being-n-Doing is such that every soul ultimately has to ‘find’ its own way to grow and continue to flourish, that is if it is to continue to grow and flourish; and (2) that mentally and emotionally tapping into the capital ‘P’ Power of your (it is ours, really!) supranodal capital ‘S’ Soul is your (anyone’s!) ‘best bet’ in this regard.

Footnote* It is in relation to actualizing such maximum possible Love and Joy experience and expression that the advice, “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you,” (Matthew 7:7) may be put to the most ‘profitable’ use because it is then focused on ‘activating’ the primary ‘program’ of Life Itself!]

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Way too advanced english for me davidsun. I do not understand, sorry.

Dear Strangerthanfiction,

I agree with Davidsun that praying is important when we need answers and guidance. This is something we can do ourselves, we don't need anyone's help to do it.

I think it's good that you are asking questions and seeking guidance. We do need to talk to others, yet, to me, the idea is to find our own answers.

I think that when we don't know what to do with ourselves, it's good to see if we can improve our education, if at all possible.

You talked about writing a book or having a blog and that it would be too heavy. It's true, this would require a commitment, just as a job would. Other than this, what would you want to tell people, and what kind of people.

Good luck with your thoughts and finding answers.

I believe that you start form a wrong premise: you can't trust what you read online. Even more, you can't trust what others believe no matter how honest they are, no matter how guru they are.

The only way to get higher / divine / whatever ... guidance is to turn toward your inside, get in an altered state of consciousness, and ask clear questions. You'll get your answers, but be careful not to interpret them through your beliefs, emotions, wishes. Record them raw, as you get them, and from time to time return to those originals for reference when you drift away with your thinking.

By the way, in my opinion, on both your discussed wishes you are unrealistic and set yourself up for disappointment, maybe even abuse. Take small steps, don't jump into relationships or changes. Decide as you go, use common sense, and try to get higher guidance especially on important decisions. Good luck!

Thanks essvass and inavalan for your responses. I hope i can sort my life out. I made a skype account today which is atleast something.

:thumbsup: Stranger

Here's another snippet (less complicated than the last one I think, so you may find it more relatable) to guide you on your journey:

Deploying whatever talents and assets one may have been ‘gifted’ with for Love and Joy augmenting purpose(s) to whatever degree one is capable of doing so at any given place and point in time, always seeking and open to becoming wiser and more creatively adept in the process by learning from one’s ‘successes’ and ‘failures’ in said regard, is what leads to a soul's blossoming and fructifying as a Love-and-Joy-full component of Life. Said seeking and learning, of course, requires that one pay close attention to and shrewdly contemplatewhat’s actually going on in the ‘stream’ of one’s thoughts, moods, e·motions, expectations, etc. with the aim of 'seeing' whether and to what degree these are (or aren’t, as the case may be) characterized by a Flow-of-Life connecting and other co-relating ‘sense’ of Love and Joy and considering whether and how improvements (if any) may be made in said regards.

Bon Voyage, Bro.

Relationships can be tricky. If you watch day time TV, it becomes apparent there are a lot of talk shows but they are directed toward women. It is hard to find TV shows that are directed toward men. Having serious relationships can bring about a lot of problems. Relationships, in many cases, do not last very long. Your heart can be 'broken' and a good portion of your assets may no longer belong to you. You mentioned about having overnight relationships. This might be a wise decision on your part at least for now.

You mentioned you do not have a strong work moral. This is something you will have to work on but it is not mandatory. An employer is generally more interested in having team players. Having a positive attitude in front of the boss can help you to open other doors. As you develop more skills, you will get more rounded out. Do not be surprised if you have a lot of different jobs in this life time. Expect it.