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Yes, it’s also about judgement of a situation or feeling, which I still catch myself doing, although I’m immediately aware that it’s a judgement. I just thank it for letting me know. Judgement is one of those areas which I’ve been wanting to get a bit more of an understanding. And, as synchronicity would have it, in this last week Matt’s released a brand new video called “Unpacking Judgements” – you’ve got to love it when that happens, so I’m busy this weekend watching, learning and noting. Quote:
I love that kind of thing also. This is a wonderful example which I revisit from time to time. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NF7g0d4VSYQ Quote:
That reminds me of something Matt said recently which was another ‘a ha’ moment. He was saying that the reason you go from healer to healer and it doesn’t work, is because life is saying this “this is a gift not a curse”. That it is a gift called your process and to take it from you because your ego is inconvenienced, would be to take you off your path. I thought well that’s me; spending all those years trying all those different things and none of them made the slightest difference. Now I know why. That’s what led me to think that if anything heals, it’ll be because it’s in my divine plan. Though having said that, if the time – were – to be right the physical body may need a vehicle through to which to heal, so it could be right time, right therapy. And on that note, I had the first Reiki session last week. It was very interesting. I found that whilst I was discussing what I was going for, my body started heating up and she said this was the reiki already activating. I’ve had similar things happen before but it was nevertheless fascinating. The actual reiki felt like a solid warmth, there were nothing unusual which was good for me as it was a first session and I need to gain confidence. I have a further session booked for a couple of weeks. So we see where this takes me, if anywhere. Last week I had a white cross into my third eye, then a black one (yep, back to that again) and then the white cross was joined by a small white coffin. A few years back that would have seriously rattled me but I just let the images come and go with no desire to seek it’s meaning, although at a rough guess the cross would mean protection and the coffin the death of something. Anyway, on the day of the reiki I was feel anxious so decided to ask “upstairs” for protection during the session and I had the most beautfiul pink cross drop into my third eye. And it was with me all through the session. And church bells again one night during the week. Quote:
That’s two different things for me. Spirit is spirit and ‘the realm’s is where my other life was/is, although having said that, this was your term for it, so I used that for the sake of reference. I’ve not got a name for that world for me that is somewhere between spirit and my imagination. This could get very confusing! :smile: Quote:
OK, I get all that, and you’re not insane, or else both of us are! The images being there for a while is not a surprise, as they would have been there for all of my 50 years and of course I don’t know what century that little boy was on the earth plane, so in our time those images could have been hanging around for a long time. I also wondered if these two experiences I’ve had of late around the phobia have come about to try and release the fear from me – and also heal the energy that would have been left when this boy passed over. I asked my pendulum whether I should try to consciously release or try and do something to release for the boy but it said no. Thing is, this could get very confusing, as me - the child and the adult - have been affected and I don’t want to make it worse for me as it’s something I have to still cope with. And all this keeps it in my mind. I do think that if that’s what spirit have in mind, then it will play itself out. Quote:
I think my sanity left the building some years ago! :smile: To be honest, I can only guess by spiritual timeline, they mean the time in my personal divine plan. Not heard of the term before. But I like it when they use words or phrases which I’ve not come across before as I then know it isn’t me making this stuff up. Quote:
Did I say that? I can believe I did. But am excessively happy to be wrong on this occasion! What I like about listening to him and reading about the things he does as part of his own spiritual practice and abilities, I like to experiment with, see if I can do it and see how it feels to me. Quote:
I don’t spend more than 20 minutes preparing a meal. A mushroom or red onion/cheese omelette doesn’t take 10 minutes and is healthy. A friend of mine cooks up large batches of meals at the weekend, stews, bolognese etc freezes them for use in the week. It’s about routine really. Quote:
There’s no dairy at all in real chocolate. Dark chocolate is good for you. This is what I go for, usually the 70% percent. https://www.greenandblacks.co.uk/our...ange/bars.html Quote:
I have a works mobile but switch it off when I leave work. I don’t have a phone at home, only a landline for the broadband but it’s permanently switched off. I don’t like speaking on the phone when I get home and the doorbell is switched off. Once I get home, I like to sink into blissful isolation! Quote:
So how did you get on with not having any for a few days? That would be a good indicator of how things are without the influence of the pills? If it made no difference at all, then it could be that cow’s milk was the culprit and you could gradually ease off the tabs? Any news on the scan? Sometimes if it’s the right sort of scan, they and you can see what’s going on the time they’re doing it. Quote:
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Another week of sunshine, I'm lapping up every day of warmth! good afternoon Patrycia, and how is your virtual reality programme going? Mine is glitching because we've had cold winds and rain most of the week and today is no exception. Last night I started to drive home in a panic, there was an extra amber light on the dashboard that I hadn't seen before and I didn't have time to look at it initially. It turned out to be the external temperature warning light and I hadn't seen it in months. [quote=Patrycia-Rose]Yes, it’s also about judgement of a situation or feeling, which I still catch myself doing, although I’m immediately aware that it’s a judgement. I just thank it for letting me know. Judgement is one of those areas which I’ve been wanting to get a bit more of an understanding. And, as synchronicity would have it, in this last week Matt’s released a brand new video called “Unpacking Judgements” – you’ve got to love it when that happens, so I’m busy this weekend watching, learning and noting. quote]Judgement actually comes from our survival instincts, where we decide if something is good/safe or not and on iut's own judgement is that bad. It's when people then act on that judgement it becomes discrimination, and that's where the problems begin. Personally I think it's OK for us to judge "I don't want to be like that" as long as we don't treat the person any differently. Quote:
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In Spirit Love comes so easily but here in this density not so much, it's not easy to Love that road rage driver when you're the butt of their focus, and when you're less than the epitome of perfection you have so many reasons not to Love yourself. When you Love your own warts and all???? It's the ego that feels the bruises, the Spirit sees 'tools' for development. Those warts are here to help you too, and they make you perfect in your imperfections. All of time is happening all of the time, and all of time is affecting all of time all of the time. Where things become skewed is when we think in linear timeframes - which it isn't in Spirituality or science. Which puts the kybosh on karma and Spiritual development by the way, technically. What I've learned is the those 'bad things' have made me the person I am today, so given the ability to 'bend time' what would I do? If I was conscious today that I had to go through those 'bad things' in order to be - for instance - talking to you right now, would I change anything in the past? Or, if these things hadn't happened and I was conscious that I needed to be a different person, what then? Would I have myself a causality loop? Just go have your Reiki and see where it leads you. You see, just being there will tell you so much - you said "see where this takes me, if anywhere." That tells you so much. I take it that all the 'signs' were there so allow yourself the experience and forget the rest for now. You're not dealing with treatments that didn't work any more, you're dealing with your perceptions and memories and from that perspective everything is very different. Spirit uses what's deeply rooted into our subconscious so the Christian symbolism is all about you. The cross represents divinity, protection.... etc. It also means resurrection and for Jesus that's just what it was. It wasn't about dying but rebirth, and white usually signifies purity or innocence. In dream symbolism, to dream of death means new Life which is where your coffin comes in. It can also mean the 'death' of the old self. Pink usually signifies healing, as does green. Quote:
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Good morning Mr G (or good evening),
Two days of solid rain and I'm blissfully holed up at home studying Matt's new online course. Quote:
Yes I agree with that; you can make a judgement as long as you don’t use it against yourself or other people. Quote:
This is the one area where I immediately react from the human perspective, and then apologise to the car for swearing and then the higher response follows. Quote:
I haven’t had any signs as such, other than the pink cross which I asked for. I’m glad actually that they’re not giving me loads of symbols because that happened with the Bowen and that didn’t go so well, so the absence of them with the Reiki is welcome. The only thing the guides have done is suggesting I go ahead with it, when I was having doubts. Yes, I’m aware of all the past experiences of healing and how they turned out. I think because I’ve accepted my trauma symptoms I’m going in with no real expectations, it is just an experience / experiment and see what happens. Mind you, I had some very strange reactions to the first session. I had some really angry dreams on Friday night, where I had to be restrained from attacking someone! So I think the Reiki has stirred up something and I’ve had some strange sensations in my legs ever since, particularly at night. Matt did a radio broadcast recently about how to feel good about feeling bad, really intense, in depth stuff and I just felt so much calmer listening to it, as it’s given me the bigger picture and also a coping strategy if this throws up any more strong emotions. He always seems to have a knack of providing teachings when I’m currently asking or pondering about a subject, or in this case a strategy for coping with triggered emotions when I wasn’t sure how to react to them. I needed something direct, right at the heart, and that’s what I got! So my next session is next week and am I am looking forward to it. At the moment, I feel my physical body / energy field needs to become accustomed to the Reiki energy, and I suspect there may be more to come within or after the appointment. The energy will more than likely have an accumulative effect which will either suit me or it won’t. Quote:
There’s definitely something going on around that. They’ve told me more than once that I am being ‘reborn’. They also told me several times that ‘you won’t be here much longer.’ At first I thought they meant that my time had come to pass and I was getting all excited about my dad and nan coming to collect me and seeing my cat again, and the awesome thing would be I would be there when my mum passed over. In fact, I woke up the following morning from them telling me that, slightly disappointed to find myself still here! And having to go to work!! :laughing5: Quote:
It’ll have to be something that is reviewed when I pass over. It will be a very interesting observation I'm sure. Quote:
Yes, it could be a number of things. But it was in reference to trauma being released from me, so I will take that spiritual timeline refers to my divine plan on this earthly plane. They did tell me something more about it the other night but we do have conversations at night when I’m semi awake hence unless it’s monumental, I often don’t remember it the next morning. Quote:
I don't feel it’s obvious where this is heading, in fact now I’ve mostly let go of my wants and desires, I’ve no idea where I’m heading if at all anywhere. And it’s not about the ultimate destination but more focused on the now and living from a heart centred perspective. I’m not saying it’s like that all the time, I still have the odd pang ‘I wish this or that’ but it doesn’t feel strong or frustrating like it used and it doesn’t take long for the 5D thinking/perspective to kick in. Quote:
Not sure what you mean but it sounds nice! I have heard him mention once the planet Sirius and that people from that planet see flashes of blue light. That made me sit up because I often see flashes of blue light around me. Not saying I’m from Sirius but it is an interesting perspective. Quote:
Suddenly stopping would cause a flare up which is why it would be better, when the time comes, to reduce gradually. So you would have got the scan results by now, did they show anything? Quote:
Actually, I enjoy the dark nights, I always experience them as going by really fast. It’s the cold I don’t like. Yep, and it always makes me chuckle when I'm queuing at the supermarket around Christmas and people ask me what I'm doing and I say I'm spending the day on my own, lots of good food, films etc and they all say they're dreading it etc! Believe me, I don't take it for granted. Having said that it's a time for reflection too as I remember all the great memories of Christmas with my mum and dad. LP has a new album coming out around December. Can't remember the last time I felt this excited about getting a new release! Back in the day when ever Status Quo, Genesis, Level 42, released a new album I'd get it straight away. So it does feel rather good to be anticipating the release from a (to me) brand new artist! :smile: Patrycia |
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What I think I'm trying to point to is that you're changing in ways you perhaps hadn't noticed. The Bowen was most likely too intense for you if it was opening you up to symbols that you couldn't deal with, so you were looking at an 'overload' perhaps. So if back then you were using a crowbar and a lot of energy to crack an egg? It sounds like the Reiki is a little more in tune with you right now, if that's not so intense and is of some benefit at least. Your dreams aren't anything to worry about, the Reiki tends to get itself into the dark and dusty energetic corners so yes, it would stir things up. Dreams are often the subconscious processing and sending you information and they often need interpreting. Anger to the stage of needing restrained could be your processing of deep-rooted energies/emotions and them coming to the surface so they can be vented. The "attacking someone" may not mean a person, it could be yourself or an issue even. And you use your legs for running. So going back to your accepting your trauma symptoms and dropping your expectations - a huge leap by the way, just to acknowledge that - perhaps you were ready to release that 'anger' in your dreams. Emotions are energy in motion, and on the Path to Enlightenment we can become Enlightened. The irony is that Enlightenment means less as we Enlighten ourselves of the burdens we have become used to, and become more Enlightened to ourselves. Nothing can be released unless it's been brought to the surface, so now perhaps is as good a time as any for you to deal with what's been buried deep for a long time. Spirit is obviously working with you on this one, so there's your triangles at work right there. Its nicely tangible, which often helps. If your Guides are encouraging you then there's something there for you, and you can bet your shirt there's more to this than meets the eye. The Reiki is the context in which it's all going to happen, and the catalyst so it's not about the Reiki itself but what it will bring you. Quote:
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What's left to us sometimes is the anger that it happened that way, the sadness, the screaming at the world that this is badly wrong. Everything else goes missing, all the 'real stuff' is lost. Anyway. She's come to terms not just with her son's death but her own Life too, and she's been given messages by myself and other mediums to say he's fine. Her lasting image of him is his beating his chest to the words "Warrior! Warrior! Warrior!" In 'human terms' he is on a special mission with some other high-level beings, and that could not have happened without hie earthly experiences. It's in that space that everything changes, rhymes and reasons become so apparent. Quote:
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There's nothing wrong with playing with the idea that you're from Sirius as long as you keep it in perspective, which I know you will anyway. What can happen is that allowing hose thoughts - just allowing - can often change how we think because your mind is jumping out of the box a little. There's no reason you can't be from Sirius, there's no reason you can't allow yourself fanciful thoughts, because they might be the ones that open you up to the thoughts that will resonate deeply with you. Quote:
I don't know what's going to happen but for me, being faced with my own mortality is the coolest, most Spiritually enlightening experience. Ever ever. It's kind of like a gift. Quote:
A few years back I went mad at Mrs G, for a few years before she'd been trying to make Christmas special but it wasn't happening. She has a tendency to over-compensate and that's just what was happening. Nowadays it's more like Sunday lunch plus than Christmas, and that makes us all feel a lot better. She's not stressing about making it special, I'm not getting cranky with her stressing and everything is nicely chilled. Mrs G has the quad-biking trip all booked and paid for again. Every time we go up is like a new adventure so that's pretty cool and the guys that come with us always seem to change too so that changes the whole excursion. She says she's going to slap me if she has to try for a refund. |
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Ah yes, that’s one thing people do say is they feel safe when I’m driving. I always look after my cars, get them regularly serviced, genuine parts and I know how to look after them in terms of driving style. I have an instinct, particularly with the car I have, if something is wrong and what it is and I take it into my usual garage and tell them what’s wrong with it and 9 times out of 10 I’m right. Back in the day, I used to watch my brother and father repairing their cars and took an avid interest, so I knew my way an engine. Many years ago, me and a friend took my Escort apart and de-coked it and put it back together. That little experience taught me not to shortcut on genuine parts! That isn’t so much nowadays as cars have changed so much, but I do still have an instinct as to my current one. In testimony, I’ve been d riving since I was 21 and I’m still only on my third car! I’ve had my current car 15 years and have just repaired the central locking and digital clock myself care of a couple of Youtube videos! Has that surprised you? Quote:
I’m keeping a close eye on my dreams at the moment and it seems odd in a way because I’ve been through months of not having any at all. I used to do a lot of dream journals, so I’m accustomed to having a feel for what’s going on subconsciously by my dreams (more about that later). Quote:
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For sure, there usually is with me. And I think you’re right. I had my second session during the week. As I was walking to the appointment into my third eye came a gold box and the lid opened and this white mist came out of it. Then when I was in the waiting room I saw the word “perfect” across the door way to where the practitioners room was and then a blue cross dropped in – my protection. Three things there. The session was enjoyable, relaxing which is good in itself with subtle shifts of energy going. I felt very peaceful and content after, got home late and thought I’d finish off the evening by watching The End of Inner Conflict, which is the first of Matt’s videos that really hit home. Then, oh lord, I got up the next day, zero energy and feeling utterly depressed and low. I couldn’t seem to get a grip of 5D thinking, it seemed it had gone. But I was aware enough, just about, to just know it would pass and most likely a healing crisis. No dreams that Friday night. But, this is where the synchronicity of it all is magical. Matt had done a radio broadcast called a step beyond fear which I was just too tired to listen to, so Saturday morning, still tired, but had the time to listen. It was mostly about the breath and that when we are in a state of fear we are in a state of panic based on what we anticipate is about to change or be lost. I was listening to this and suddenly it occurred to me that the Friday when I’d felt so low, I was literally residing in ego, it was all ‘if only this’ ‘if only that’ ‘if I hadn’t’. Pure ego thoughts. And then someone rang in to speak to him and he did a repeat after me about releasing cellular memories where ‘the breath was held, 'held beyond my power,' hurt and persecuted’. This had a massive impact and I sat there crying over my computer. Because I’d noticed in the last several weeks there were moments when I noticed I wasn’t breathing, just holding my breath. So this was all timely and perfect. Really, there’s no let up. Then in the early hours of this morning, I dreamt that I was with several people (unknown) in an old house. Suddenly three men broke through the door with guns. One of them said ‘who’s the first to die?’ and went up to each person. I remember thinking ‘I might need your assistance with this one, dad’. This man pushed a gun into my forehead. I was completely calm, closed my eyes thinking OK I’m ready and the last thing I thought was wondering if I’d hear the gun go off. Then I woke up. That felt like a lucid dream it was so real. I’d stared death in the face – which a significant factor of my trauma. Still feel a little tired but back to my (new) normal. It’s all so intense! So I think the Reiki is giving me what I need (soul level) rather than what I want (ego perspective). And to top it all the two cards I pulled this morning were Moving On and Victory! So my next appointment is in three weeks time and they need to be that far apart for me to integrate all this. Quote:
Yes, yes, yes! This is why I have been so interested in mediums and their work, since 15 when I had my first sitting. I think the work and gifts of mediums is so valuable. There was a time several years ago when I went through a phase of seeing mediums in theatre settings, I saw Tony Stockwell several times and I used to go to see others get messages. And so often, you would see people who didn’t believe in that sort of thing, who’d been dragged along by their partners and often the medium would go to the non believer and deliver such powerful messages that were awesomely accurate, that that person would literally become a believer on the spot (rather like that link I posted last week). I find that kind of experience so uplifting to watch. People can go to these events in the depths of despair, have a few minutes and messages from loved ones that they’re OK etc, it’s so healing and you can see the despair just lift from them. To me that’s magic! Quote:
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A simple question with many different facets. If you stuck me on said stage to talk about diet, nutrition, supplements, modern day health pitfalls I could do that quite happily. Also on said stage I could talk about knowledge of the afterlife, spiritual signs and experiences; I’ve a whole folder of knowledge from the spirit guide I worked with about the process of passing over, life on the other side, life on this side and everything in-between. People at work talk to me about their ‘weird’ experiences such as orbs appearing in their videos, strong smells and visitations from someone who’s passed and I’m able to give them information which assures them they’re “not going mad” and it all makes sense. They usually go away much happier. A medium told me years ago, I have a knack for giving people information and talking to them in a way that makes them feel good. But a Matt-like talk, I’m not sure I’m at that stage yet. For a couple of reasons. This is all very new to me still, despite its influence. And, this is going to be difficult to explain, it is something I Feeeeel rather than can explain in a logical, coherent and eloquent fashion. I have a friend who I’ve introduced to Matt and she says she doesn’t understand his language and loses interest very quickly with his videos (and that was an eye opener for me as in terms of fit, I find him easy to understand generally). So I try to explain it to her but I don’t do it very well, although she’s interested. I tend to talk to her in snippets of information that drop into my head and that’s enough for her. I did several years ago do a speaking in public course as I thought my path was going to be teaching my chakra healing system to others in a workshop setting. It didn’t come off, can’t remember why. So if the topic I’m discussing I’m confident about yes, I could do it but not living from a heart centred perspective, not just yet. But thank you for that, an interesting thought! Quote:
Totally agree with all that and the reason why …… I’ve always been excessively open minded, even from an early age watching all the different species of Star Trek from the bridge of the Enterprise itself to the planets they visited. You don’t watch all that without it having a deep impact. The spirit guide I would meet every Sunday morning and have direct conversations with him, he told me all about life on other planets, life in spirit, so many different things and I accepted it all, believed it all. But after the incident in which my leg was damaged, I’m not saying I changed my mind about the information he gave me, but I now like to keep myself firmly rooted on the earth. I won’t meditate or visualise going ‘ upstairs ‘ as harm can and has happened to me and I wouldn’t want to risk that happening again. So yes, whilst I hear and read about Sirius, the pleidians etc, it doesn’t actually change who I am in this lifetime. Quote:
I’m sorry to hear this; I have been thinking about this quite a bit as certain elements are a reflection of my trauma. With anything like this, there’s the grounded part of what’s happening physically which involves the medical route - and the way forward physically (which I personally believe there’s more than one way). And of course, the spiritual side. What’s this all about, what is it telling me, showing me, what experiences await me and how you decide it’s going to be met. I guess for you, the factor that needs to be taken into account with any decision, is Mrs G and your family. Anyway, I’m here for you buddy, whichever way you want to go with this. “May the blessings of men, elves and all free folk go with you.” Quote:
Nicely chilled makes for a good Christmas. I did ask a friend whether they’d like to go out for a Christmas meal this year but she declined to be with family. I wasn’t sure I was disappointed or relieved, but to me, it’s enough that I asked! Patrycia |
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As they say around here at this time of year, "The nights are fair drawin' in, eh?" It probably came fro that great Scottish philosopher Angus McCoatup who once said as a treatise on the dynamism of the Universe - "On yonder hill there stood a coo, it must've shifted cuz it's no there noo." It's stunning, how profound that is. Move over, Khan. Quote:
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Gold is one of the highest Spiritual colours, alongside purple some would say although purple is usually more associated with wealth, courtesy of the Romans. Just out of curiosity more than anything else but what does gold represent to you? Interesting that a white mist came from it too. It's possible that you 'overdosed' a little after the Reiki session, Reiki does shift your energies usually and even though it might feel subtle enough, the changes can be a lot more radical underneath. Put a video that probably has a lot of emotional attachment on top of that and you have quite a heady mix. No wonder your couldn't get a grip of 5D thinking. Essentially your reality is defined by your definitions so defining your experience as a 'healing crisis' means that it became a crisis in your reality. What really helps in situations leading to us holding our breath is being mindful in the first instance, that can give you some advanced warning if you feel yourself slipping away. When that happens, take a four-breath - inhale to the count of four, hold to the count of four and exhale to the count of four. In time it becomes automatic but just the breath and those 12 short seconds can make all the difference. There's a lot of releasing that's been going on with you especially over the past handful of weeks or so. This is going to have a bigger impact than you can imagine although I suspect it's all going to happen on a very subtle level. You're not quite done with the fireworks just yet though, so don't forget your breathing. Can't help wonder if your revelation in getting what you need rather than what you want would have had a different impact when you first started to try all those healing modalities. No judgement, just a thought that might be worth thinking about in retrospect. There's a wonderful feeling that comes with thinking "OK, I'm ready," it's a huge release and the burden seems to fall away as though it was never there in the first place. It's so liberating. But what happens when what you need becomes what you want? Yeah you will feel a little tired, it'll take the energies a while to settle back down again and for you to become used to the shift. But it's a great experience, isn't it? And when you put it into a wider perspective it can blow your socks off. Quote:
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Mrs G's collapsed in tears a few times because of it, and she's been taking Pat Lives into account as well. If the worst does come to the worst then I suppose it's fitting that my first and last Lives were 'cut short'. There's always been a feeling that this Life was 'out of sync' somehow. Other than that it's very liberating, because there's a feeling of completion and moving on to other things. In this I feel ready. My only real worry is that my daughter is getting married in August, but other than the the family will be fine, after some tears obviously. For my mother I can't say. She has dementia so in a way I'm hoping that's going to turn out to be a blessing, maybe it'll 'insulate' her. When my father was killed she almost committed suicide, she would have done if she hadn't been pregnant with me. She's been waiting to join him ever since. If she has to bury her oldest son as well.... She hasn't picked up on any of it so far, so...... I've been feeling Soul-deep tired for quite a few years now and that feeling has certainly come home the past week or so. I just want a conclusion so I can get on with it, either way. I've seriously been contemplating refusing treatment but that's going to depend on the prognosis. Once its done it's done and everybody can just get on with their Lives, including me. Thank you Patrycia, I do appreciate that. Right now it's just waiting for the results then we'll see from there but whatever happens from here, I am ready. Quote:
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How are you doing? Finally relented yesterday and turned the heating on, clocks gone back, summer's well and truly gone. If I could flick a switch and move to Australia right now, I'd go for it! Quote:
Ah so that’s what’s happening – yes it is very much feeling and experiencing. That in itself is a new experience for me as usually I’m very able to articulate my feelings / emotions. Quote:
I don’t have any particular resonance with gold, other than that was the colour of all the symbols I received as part of my initial awakening a couple of years ago. The thing with the gold box has been going on for a few weeks. When I go to bed at night, as soon as I close my eyes, I get all manner of colours, objects and things float into my third eye. But one night I kept seeing a gold box probably about half a metre wide, so quite large and each time I saw it, it was closed. I sort of wondered what was inside with no inclination to open it. Later it opened by itself and out came fairies, angels, butterflies and fairy dust. So the box was with me since then and I’ve seen colours come out of it, magenta and blue together. So the box was familiar to me at the point I saw it on the way to my appointment, but not with white mist coming out of it. Quote:
Yes, I think maybe in hindsight, not one of my brighter ideas, although well intentioned. I used the term ‘healing crisis’ as it is a common term that can be experienced after reiki, cranio sacral, acupuncture etc such as the things I was describing such as loss of energy and low mood (amongst other things). I’ve only had two sessions but each one has had a real reaction, almost like a theme to it. So it’s definitely bringing things to the surface. However re-watching one of my favourite videos did yield a little surprise. Right at the end, he made a significant observation and noticed that the time was 8.44 and said this was the perfect Fibonacci sequence. I would have ignored that the first time round but I had a look on the net for an explanation and saw the reasoning as 1, 1, 2, 3, 5 etc and by golly, I got it! Did a little online test and got it right. So really chuffed with myself. And that very night I woke at 1.23 and smiled as not only was that one of those ‘ascending’ numbers but also a Fibonacci sequence. Quote:
I would not have understood the mindset I’m in now back then. Would have dismissed it as some kind of airy fairy spiritual talk and would have become very frustrated with it. I don’t think I would have been ready for it anyway, as this would have been 13 years ago. But without a but, you introduced Matt to me at the very time it was supposed to happen. I agree a lot of releasing that seems to have been the whole theme of this phase of ascension from last December. So the Reiki is continuing the theme of releasing. The other night I had the most odd dream. I dreamt I was talking on the phone to Matt, trying to explain about my trauma and I got stuck on trying to describe the intensity of terror. At that moment (still in the dream) I was lying in bed and a white misty outline of a person was standing on the left side of my bed and a black misty outline of a person on the right side (black and white!) I tried to turn on the light and it didn’t work. I woke up at that point, feeling a tad unsettled. One of the things that’s surprising me, but not surprising me at the same time because I know this can happen, is that I’m thinking about a particular aspect or experiencing something which I could do with Matt’s help on, and he’ll release a video or do a radio broadcast, which answers my specific question or state at that moment. At first I thought it was ‘just’ a coincidence but it’s happened too many times for it to be a coincidence. It’s just become very noticeable. Quote:
I don’t think you’re alone there; I’ve seen Tyler Henry or more than one occasion very tearful not so much from the impact of who he’s doing a reading for, but more from the intensity of feeling from the spirit person. Quote:
Yes, I’ve seen how it all works for him; he’s explained it a time or too and I’ve often heard him say that he forgets a lot of what he’s been told afterwards, because he’ll refer to something he said in an earlier video but not what the entire video was about or what it was called (makes me laugh though because I can find what video he’s talking about as it’s all transcribed). But I think because there are similar themes in what he’s talking about, he’s drawing from a ‘database’ of information as it were. I think it’s just knowing your subject area well. And there has been the occasional time when I know the word he is going to use just before he uses it. Maybe I’m doing myself a slight disservice because when something happens at work, it’s not too long before I’m considering the 5D response and I can hear his voice / his words and it’s all there in my mind. But I can’t seem to answer my friend very well. I’ve heard him say a time or two that’s it not to be remembered, it’s how it feels in the body when you hear it. Quote:
I guess so, it just still all feels new and there are areas where it doesn’t come quite so easily, so to that extent, it’s a work in progress. But thank you, because living on your own and not being able to talk about it all, I don’t think about how far I’ve come. Quote:
A faith healer – would that be the same thing as psychic surgery?? I recall someone saying they had psychic surgery for fibromyalgia and it was successful. Thing is with that, you need to find someone who is genuine, you can trust and who is good. Do you have any spiritual contacts in your neck of the woods Quote:
I know that feeling - the life as the boy who died at 5 was cut short and the life in the Egyptian time, I know I was poisoned at 55, and I did wonder whether I would die in this lifetime at 55 but I’m 56 now, so that’s gone. It’s always harder on the ones left behind but I think this is where being a spiritualist comes in handy. I was quite impressed with the way I handled by dad’s funeral. The bit that completely freaked me out was the meeting afterwards and seeing relations I hadn’t seen in twenty years when I just wanted to be alone; I found that deeply disturbing, I remember bawling my eyes out on the two hour journey home. It wasn’t long after that I went to see the trusted medium I’ve seen over the last ten years and I wasn’t expecting my dad to come through as I’d gone about something else and I thought it would be too soon, but he did come through, heavily aided by my Nan and gave me some incredible information about how he had seen the light before he’d passed. And since then when I’ve seen a medium both my dad and my nan come through, sometimes together, sometimes not. Quote:
My mum’s been in a care home with full blown Alzheimer’s for six years or so. I was absolutely dreading telling my father when the day came to tell him that she’d gone. In the end I didn’t have to because he ended up going first and my mother was so far gone by that point, she wouldn’t have understood any of it. So as it worked out, neither of them had to go through the distress of hearing that the other one had gone. I’ll always consider that a gift for them as well as me. I wouldn’t tell your mother to be honest, there’s nothing to be gained; she probably wouldn’t understand depending on how far her condition has gone or it would upset her initially and then she would feel unsettled without knowing why. Her being insulated is the best thing for her, particularly given the situation with her almost committing suicide over your father. Also best for you in that you don’t have the distress of telling her and not knowing how she’ll react. Quote:
Interesting you say that; I’ve had this conversation with myself many times. I know for a fact that I would be too sensitive for chemo. So I would have an operation to remove anything that could be removed, then I would turn to CBD oil as there have been many articles in the media of people having fully recovered using CBD Oil. If you did happen to go down the chemo route, CBD oil can make it more effective and protects you against the side effects. So I wouldn’t refuse treatment, I would just refuse the chemo or radio therapy and go down the CBD front. But like you say, one step at a time. Do you have any faith healer/psychic surgery contacts? Have your guides given you any information? Patrycia |
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I'm doing OK thanks. Just finished a week off and spent pretty much all of it an my backside lol. Got my new computer up and running so that's even better. The wind's been howling almost for a week now and today it's finally stopped, but yes, winter is here now almost but you're off to Australia on your own I'm afraid. I like the changing of the seasons and what comes with them. There's nothing quite like that feeling when you come home to a warm house and a cuppa's waiting for you. It's like a metaphor for Life. Quote:
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The box is a container and gold is the highest Spiritual colour/material, which is why gold is so revered. As minerals go it's pretty abundant no it's not as though it's any kind of rare, and there are far rarer metals out there. Many cultures have associated gold with their religions across the globe and history. Similarly with the Shining Ones, they've been around in folklore since the most ancient of times - which is where the word angels come from. There's something called the collective subconsciousness which came from Jung - and it's why Spiritual people are afraid of the dark. Certain avatars as they are known have been imprinted into the collective subconsciousness, and they affect us at a very deep level and we don't even realise it. Angels, fairies and butterflies are avatars and even for people who have no interest in Spirituality they still represent something deeply Spiritual. The box was a gift for you. Quote:
I don't know why but lately I've had this 'thing' about words, their meanings and how they affect someone's reality - your reality is defined by your definitions and words have power over you so it's often best to choose carefully.I know I shouldn't but at times I just have to. It's just that 'crisis' is a strong word that comes from a certain mentality, when really it's a natural part of the progression. While it might not be fun it's necessary. On a lighter note I'd be careful with the Fibonacci sequence, you did know Trump's head and hairdo conforms to the sequence? I kid you not. The sequence is the basis for the Phi Spiral and the Golden Mean, which is into Sacred Geometry territory and if you're getting it right then you're resonating with that level of consciousness. It's also relevant to your Path because of the spiral. We don't actually walk in a straight, linear fashion - in a more picturesque Spirituality - we walk in a spiral that both extends upwards and outwards at the same time, encompassing and rising as we traverse it. This is why we often have the past coming back into our Lives and it feels as though we're back at 'Square One'. What's actually happening is that we've walked the spiral and we can observe something from both an elevated position and different perspective. It really doesn't matter if you're going to be an aficionado of Sacred Geometry or not, what does matter is that your synchronising with the Universe on a different level. If you use the Phi Spiral as a visualisation it'll help you understand. Quote:
It's about enlightenment and ascension, so you are en-lightning yourself to ascend to a new vibration of existence and en-lightening yourself of what holds you back. There is a saying - "If you want to understand Spirit you have to think like Spirit." You 'talking to Matt' is your subconsciousness' way of telling you that you're thinking more like Spirit. If you think about it you'll see that plastered across almost every word in this - and a few before - post. The Matt in your dream is a representation of what you consider as a level of Spirituality and talking/voice is vibration, so you're vibrating at his level. How well/equal the conversation went is how well you vibrate at the same level as him. Trying to tell him about the intensity of the terror is you trying to express it at that level, or understand it at that level. The two are very different vibrations. The misty people at your side represents two things. The white one is the healing process that you are aware of, and the black one is the process you don't know of. If the black/unknown presence is on your right, that means its the most dominant/strongest aspect of your healing. They are both you but 'reside' in different parts of yourself. Sometimes the black/dark side of us is known as the Shadow Self, and that's where all the stuff that we can't or won't deal with goes. Well there goes your black and white, both surprising and not surprising. Actually it never gets old, it just gets crazier. Quote:
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OK, try something with your friend. The next time you talk to her concentrate on your voice and less on the words themselves. In your mind, think that your intention is to send her your vibrations in a way that will assist her to vibrate at the same level. The problem might not be her understanding but her level of vibration, and once you raise her vibrations what you're trying to tell her will come automatically to her. What you then need to look out for is not what she says but how she says it, because her interpretations and yours will be very different. By the way, there's a reason for this behind the mask. Quote:
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I haven't asked my Guides being honest, it's not often that they come to me but that isn't a bad thing. I feel the same thing here, that this Journey is all mine and not for anyone else to influence in any way. Mrs G's been in bits because of the Past Lives connections but that just doesn't affect me in any way. It's one helluva place to be in right now because there's so much going on in my head and all of it is OK. For most people this would be a curse, for me it's one of the greatest gifts. |
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Oooh, that sounds interesting, what do you have? I have a Samsung laptop running Windows 7. I like Windows 7 and feel no rush to upgrade, we’ll have to see what I do when support ends for 7 in about 2020. I’ve rebuilt my laptop from scratch, twice after picking up a virus. I now do monthly system images as it’s a pain to put all the software and settings back on, it takes days (in-between work). Picked up a problem about the third of the way through my last rebuild and after many weeks of reading, testing, creating, pinned it down to a corrupted download of IE. I have to say, although it was tiring, I really enjoyed trying different things, My knowledge increased substantially, taking copious notes, just in case I needed to do it again. Quote:
I wouldn’t expect anything else, quite used to doing my own thing, which seems to always go against the grain of what everybody else’s thing is. Quote:
Gosh, yes that’s so true. Apart from my friend who I would like to express how it is, but can’t quite manage it. Quote:
Do you mean the Egyptian life? Gold wouldn’t have been around me so much because I was kept in the background purposely. The medium I saw told me I was gifted at predicting and they were afraid of me so they kept me in the background and tried several times to kill me by sending me off on these long and dangerous journeys on my own, hoping I’d meet my end on the way! Lovely, eh? That’s why I have a fear of travelling long distances on my own. Quote:
The collective sub-conscious – is that the same as Matt’s collective un-conscious? I had a real tangible experience of the collective unconscious back in the summer. I started to wonder whether it was time to change my car and started looking at specific models. Saw a couple I liked but they were too far away for me to go and look at and I got ridiculously stressed over ‘right car / wrong place’. I test drove two local cars but each time I just didn’t feel the excitement that I know would be there for me when buying a new car. I got quite stressed over weeks with this should I, shouldn’t I – yet every time I saw the ‘perfect’ car ie. mileage, price, colour etc, it just wasn’t happening. Eventually this intensity of having to get a new car gradually faded and I made the decision to keep my existing one. And then, I kid you not, both next door neighbours and the neighbour over the road all got new cars within a week of each other! I reckon I was picking up on the energy / thought patterns from around me. Fascinating eh? Quote:
That’s so funny, if I’m ever upset or unsettled, I like to clean, clean, clean! Quote:
I’ve been thinking about that. ‘Healing crisis’ – it’s almost an oxymoron. But definitely belongs in the old spiritual paradigm. I heard Matt describing someone’s similar experience recently and called it cellular purging. I like that much better, more accurate and also more than likely the truth. Quote:
Really, the first explanation of how it works was enough. When it started to go on about labelling something with ‘x’ and formulas, that’s it! I was just pleased that the first bit made sense to me. I had a look at the spiral, not sure how that would help me. How far I’ve come is relative to the starting point and end point, neither of which can be quantified. Quote:
Yes, I get why you would feel that. I don’t know if it’s the onset of autumn/winter, which I always feel very keenly, but I’ve been a bit wobbly the last few weeks, experiencing some very low days. My dreams have also been very detailed from ex-partners, blocked drains to not being able to remember where I’d parked my car and endlessly looking for it trying to trace my steps, painting the castors of chairs a different colour so as to differentiate them. It has been a very strange feeling, very difficult to describe apart from feeling very low with a hollow, empty type feeling. I woke up two nights ago in the middle of the night and had this feeling that something was majorly wrong to be feeling this way and nothing like my usual self. This feeling of hollowness and lowness, like a heavy energy, I could feel all through my body and particularly in the Solar area. I asked my guides and spirit to help me and I immediately saw a gold cross. When I woke up in the morning everything felt free and easy again and the hollow heavy feeling has gone from my body. The feeling has not returned. Looking through my journal this had been going on for two weeks. I have no idea what it was but the experience was very real, possibly some integration from the extreme Ascension symptoms of the summer or possibly the Reiki, I am just thankful it has gone. Quote:
The conversation went well until I started talking about my trauma. I know why I dreamt it, because I’ve thought many, many times if I ever I got to speak to him I’d want to tell him about it, with some specific questions and see where he’d go with it. Quote:
I shall try that; won’t have too long to wait neither because I’m seeing her in a few weeks. Quote:
I’ve said that a couple of times to her that she is like I was a year ago, asking the same questions. That is why I tried to explain it to her a time or two but you can’t relay a year of study in a brief conversation. She is interested in what I say and she says it’s all fascinating but for me, there’s a difference between being interested in something and throwing yourself in 100% but then that is very much my style. I also think it’s possibly about the timing as she has much on at the moment, funnily enough the same care of elderly parents I had many years ago, so I think timing is crucial and if I tell her about it, then she has it to remember and maybe one day she’ll feel ready for it and want to spend the time to understand his language and phraseology. But then also, everyone is on their own path and it may not be for her. Quote:
I guess it depends on how far her dementia has gone. If she missed your regular visits and was aware that you weren’t going, then yes some explanation may be necessary. But if she wasn’t aware that you weren’t going to visit her, that’s different, there would be no benefit to her knowing. She probably wouldn’t retain the information and would have an overall feeling of being distressed without knowing why. The fact that she’s psychic and hasn’t picked up on it, could be because she’s not being given that information by spirit. The reason she hasn’t sensed it could well be a protective factor for her (and for you). Quote:
I totally get all that, it’s kind of like time becomes focused, priorities come to the fore. The medical marijuana sounds interesting and is what I would be researching, I believe you can get this prescribed now, I think the law’s changed only recently. I did have a look some months ago on one of my Saturday morning excursions and I found a forum solely for people who were taking it for medical reasons; all swapping experiences, it was very interesting and I made a mental note of it. There's an advert on the tv currently, using the soundtrack to Solsbury Hill. Made me chuckle, was going to revisit the lyrics to see if I felt any differently about them. Patrycia |
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I have a 1TB external hard drive and anything I need to transfer over to another computer is simply copied onto there. Bookmarks are exported and the rest is a straight copy so it's a lot less palaver. I like simple and easy. Quote:
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I still haven't found a way to connect you to 'that Life, the one from before time and in a way it's so damned frustrating lol. Yeah I know, it'll happen when it's ready if ever. Quote:
Things come to us when we're ready, to use the old adage it's the bit about the half-full glass - an empty glass is full of unrealised potential. When your consciousness was focussed on not having - which is essentially what you were telling yourself - then your vibrations changed to something more compatible with allowing something else top come into your reality. Realising you could tap into the collective sub/unconsciousness couldn't happen at the vibrations of not having. But I have to admit, it's a cool feeling just the same, that you have that capability. Quote:
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The labelling comes from what Tolle said is object consciousness, or consciousness of the brain/mind combination. Sacred geometry comes from what Tolle described as Space consciousness, the consciousness that simply knows. Where Sacred Geometry and all symbolism is that the symbolism is a 'translation' of the space consciousness that can be understood by the mind. That is the difference that makes the difference. You are experiencing space consciousness - your neighbours buying new cars - but you are still using object consciousness to try and understand it. Forget trying to understand the geometry itself, look behind the geometry/symbolism and find where the knowing comes from. Quote:
Your dreams are your subconscious mind trying to communicate with you, but your subconsciousness can only use the surreal and symbolisms to communicate. You can learn things from your ex-partners, more of then than not they were their for just that reason. The drains are blocked because your mind is blocked and you still need to flush your old paradigms that no longer serve you. Not being able to find your car is not being able to find something that will move you forwards, retracing your steps is retrospection and painting the castors is differentiating aspects of your consciousness. What isn't realised is that people's energies don't change in nice graduations but in quantum leaps. There's is no sliding scale between this level and the next, there's just a flick of a switch from 'here' to 'there'. Often the changes are so subtle they're hardly noticed, then Ascension comes along and kicks you upside your head. Remember you talking about Matt saying that the consciousness knows you're already healed but the heavier, more dense energy and physicality needs a little more time? Same here. You consciousness has already adjusted to the leap but your denser self not to much, so your consciousness perceives the gap between what your energies are to match the frequency it's on with the frequency your energies are actually vibrating at. Your consciousness is a little 'ahead' of your actual energies, so it is actually very real. This translates to you as feeling hollow (full of as yet unrealised potential) and lowness as in your energies needing the time to 'catch up' with your consciousness. Quote:
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In the context of whatever she has going on in her Life being interested is perhaps the best she can hope for. Perhaps it's just not a priority for her, and perhaps you could look back on your own Journey and come to realisations in the dichotomy between you and her. You see, there's always something behind the mask. You talking to her at all and showing her some patience may well have more of an affect on her than understanding anything Matt says. It might be that she's finding it difficult to process, it happens with some people. She might not have the basis upon which you've built your understandings - there are numerous barriers and when you begin to understand those things you can start making some headway. But you see, perhaps you've missed the most important thing of all. You're spending time with her, you're showing her the patience without - hopefully - bopping her one on the nose for being so damned frustrating. That's something that you can't buy. You've found some common ground with the parents bit, that's a good place to put your feet with her. It's all about layers of relationships in the end. [quote=Patrycia-Rose]I guess it depends on how far her dementia has gone. If she missed your regular visits and was aware that you weren’t going, then yes some explanation may be necessary. But if she wasn’t aware that you weren’t going to visit her, that’s different, there would be no benefit to her knowing. She probably wouldn’t retain the information and would have an overall feeling of being distressed without knowing why. The fact that she’s psychic and hasn’t picked up on it, could be because she’s not being given that information by spirit. The reason she hasn’t sensed it could well be a protective factor for her (and for you). ]/quote]At the moment I don't know but my gut instinct says that it's not my time as yet and she'll be there waiting for me. Besides, I have a promise to keep with a little girl that I'm damned if I'm going to break. I find it hard to deal with ifs and buts so at this stage in the game there's no point in going too far down the speculation route. Things like this tend to have an affect on the jolly old perspective, and dealing with what is keeps me at least some kind of level-headed. Quote:
What's going through my mind is the heep's Beautiful Dream from Return to Fantasy, because in many was right now it is a beautiful dream. Nobody knows my name because there are no names to know. |
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