I don't read tarot, but was going to advise you in the fashion that Curious1 has so very well stated and advised via reading.
Feeling lost and in despair is normal at this very raw stage, but it does get better, I promise.
Assuming that your partner is at a young age and you've been together for such a long time, experimentation could be on his mind.
You can't force love... give him space to breathe and wait for events to unfold.

Take care of yourself, Artemis...

Thanks Faith33!

I know I can't force love, I will try to let go and see what will happen in the future. Hopefully the pain can go fast.

Thanks again for your caring response! Blessing!