Newbie. Here’s My story
I began looking into spirituality when I thought I had found my soul mate/twin flame.
I began looking into chakras/meditation and oneness. I began reading about oneness. Eventually I would mediate and after a bit of mantra repeating, I could find myself feeling at one with the universe. I felt free However eventually I began to hallucinate. I became delusional. I would mediate for hours. Seeing visuals and hearing things. Solving supposed equations. I would meditate from sun to night fall. I thought the things I was experiencing were real. They felt real. My emotions were through the roof. How could these things not be real if I could hear them/see them so clearly in my head. Eventually I became a certain type of insane. I was forcefully put into mental institutions. I was doing no one no harm, but I was unable to be an active member of society. Until I began taking medication. And slowly the other worldly feelings faded from my head. Slowly I left my make believe world and returned to this reality once again. . Now. I no longer feel liberated by oneness. Instead I feel limited by it. Oneness does not feel right anymore. . It makes me feel like I am just a glob of playdough stuck into a giant ball of more playdough. But I do still believe that I am the universe. I believe that we attract the energy we produce. I believe our lives are what we make of them. I am happy to be alive. ANYWAY. long post sorry. Just thought I’d share my experience with spirituality! Interested in hearing similar experiences. Thank you |
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Greetings Frozenintime and welcome to SF!
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