Total Recall scene in the astral dimension
 

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Please don't read if you are sensitive.

Maybe I have been shocked in my childhood about that scene, or other people around me have been and projected it on me. I was also quite like "the eye scene" in terminator.
But basically if you remember that scene on Mars, I just had this kind of dream / projection.

Two days ago, just after the Moon was in Gemini, Mars being in Gemini / Cancer, I accidentally hit, physically, the inside of my nose and there was a bit of blood.

Then during this night, I had an horrible scene.
Stop here if you are sensitive.

I happened to feel wires around my face in the astral, I started to pull them. they were melted into the tissue, so I stopped.
Things happen, later in the projection, I came back to it. I started to pull the wires again, it was like a surgery on myself, I didn't feel pain, it was just disgusting. Then at some point I couldn't really lift the tissues, so I pulled a bit harder, and ...
I removed something that was like a leaf with wires, stuck inside my eye and making the tissues quite bad :icon_eek:

I don't know if you like Schwarzenegger as a person, I'm not like him physically, but I happened to have grown up in the same freaky culture than him.
Well, you know, in my grand parent's time, people worked in the fields, manually with no machines, and there were accidents, no hospitals around, and hygiene was poor, and the wars etc etc.
Then in the 70's and 80's people drove like crazy on the roads, and there were many accidents and they considered it normal.

I understand pain and pleasures being necessary to make a good simulation, it has to feel real, but honestly, do we really need this kind of sh... to fully experience life ?!

There are experiences like these, I witnessed the flesh falling off my bones, literally, in the astral, of course it was not real and there was no real pain but the seeing of something like this can leave a deep mark on one's consciousness, like a trauma, unless you see beyond all of this, which I do but most of the people don't, like having a nightmare and being saddened by it for days. I get that you were not negatively impressed at all, which is good, just don't let these experiences get you, they are just experiences, they may have hidden meaning but it escapes our understanding. I had tons of nasty astral experiences, took me a while to see that most of these experiences were caused by what I call astral parasites, they feed with energy. You are placed in a certain situation and that situation cause a certain emotional answer from you which in turn feeds those entities.

How do you handle emotions now? Are you saying..anyway. :smile:

Yep I agree with ThatMan!

Much better but only in this area, like having a nasty experience, for I am still a novice when it comes to handling emotions in real life. I can have the nastiest experience, like really nasty, and have no problem, in the beginning it took me days to recover :D

Hey, thanks for your kind words. No worries, meditation helps a lot, I'm fine :)