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Emmalevine
06-03-2016, 01:29 PM
I have recently found that a lot of intense mental focus leaves me feeling very depressed and disconnected. I don't mean negative thoughts or anything like that, just a lot of academic study while I was working on a project. Now that it's over, I feel in complete limbo. More than that, I feel horribly disconnected and depressed. I sit to meditate but feel apathetic. Same when I try to read an uplifting spiritual book. Those things have helped me in the past. I'm even doubting everything I've experienced. I feel really miserable.
How can I feel my soul again? Does anyone know why this happens? As I said, it wasn't negative thinking, if it was I could understand my feelings now, but it was just a project I was working on. It's as it has pulled me away from my essence.
Baile
06-03-2016, 03:04 PM
I sit to meditate but feel apathetic.Nature! Get out and go for walks, sit by water, very cleansing and enlivening and reconnecting... observing the perfect aliveness of nature can awaken that which is asleep inside the dormant human soul. Nature simply does, it has no other choice, it is perfect in its relationship to the Now. That is the place we need to get to in our consciousness and relationship with life. That said, very hard to make that leap if one truly is suffering from depression. The depression would need to be dealt with first on some level. Sitting in nature though is easy to do even if depressed, and it is therapeutic.
The Taoist
06-03-2016, 03:21 PM
Hello' Emma:
In (intuitively and spiritually) looking into your energy patterns and your current state of focus.....it appears that you are experiencing two different energy patterns.
Now, the first pattern appears to be related to your 'subjective' focus / consciousness, which is being expressed as a 'detachment' from your normal waking conscious state, which is clearly creating most of your inner conflict.
Now; in resolving this issue, this is an opportunity for you to alter your perception, for you chose to be expressing the qualities and the energies that you utilize in this focus, and you also chose to be moving through this focus in a particular manner in relation to your educational and personal project.
Therefore, instead of perceiving this as a challenge or conflict, understand that, you have allowed yourself to move in a different direction and to actually expand your awareness and generate a greater expression of your freedom. Why shall you merely experience an exploration of one element of an experience?
Now, regarding the other pathway or focus that is currently effecting you.
It is seen and felt that you are also experiencing a subtle 'energetic interaction' with the collective consciousness / objective focus. This being defined as....your energies meging with the collective on an astral and subconscious level.
And it appears that you are sensing great upheaval in the collective which is being expressed as “shocking, confusing and desperate energy patterns”.
In other words, you are a very sensitive / psychic individual with a strong connection to this physical reality. You are picking up (psychically) on these mass consciousness energy patterns, which is causing you some subconscious grief and turmoil.
I sense and feel strong “Indigo energies: all around and in you. There is a strong spiritual energetic frequency all around you....glowing....vibrating.....as if you were a bubble of light that is amping up its energies for all to witness.
Therefore, you are currently experiencing these two different focuses / energy patterns and and being effected by both.
And so, the answer for the first focus is....change your focus / attention to other, more harmonizing and peaceful imagery and feelings. And the second answer, to the 'objective / collective focus is.....to focus on your own inner peace and remove any and all 'BELIEFS” that currently limit you.
And also, to remember to keep your energies balanced and recharged, daily. It is in this, the focusing on your own energies ( feelings, emotions, consciousness) that will keep you in a state of inner peace and calm while the world around you goes into a state of shock, confusion and fearfulness.
Remove all feelings, thoughts and most of all...BELIEFS that support or promote fear, doubt, powerlessness and hopelessness. This is your time to shine in your light. A time to learn and understand just how powerful you truly are and how you CAN manifest any wish or dream that you perceive.
Well, I hope you find clarity and understanding in this message and I wish you well in your current challenges.
In Light & Harmony The Taoist
Tanemon
06-03-2016, 03:23 PM
Nature! Get out and go for walks, sit by water, very cleansing and enlivening and reconnecting... observing the perfect aliveness of nature can awaken that which is asleep inside the dormant human soul. Nature simply does, it has no other choice, it is perfect in its relationship to the Now. That is the place we need to get to in our consciousness.
This is very good advice.
I guess I'd like to know two things... How long was your period of intense academic-mental activity? and how long, now, have you been feeling the disconnect you post about? (It seems the sense of disconnect crept in in the middle or latter part of the period of activity, so it has overlapped - but you indicate it's lasted quite a while since the intense activity came to its conclusion. ???)
In my experience, even if your sitting in meditation feels meaningless or pointless, it's still good to resume it. Given time, it will enliven again.
Also, many people feel that some sort of physical activity - running, sport, aerobics or dancing to music, cycling, or at least walking - is helpful. Is something like this part of your life?
CrystalSong
06-03-2016, 03:57 PM
I'm getting the feeling the hemisphere's of your brain are temporarily imbalanced from all the academic study. (Left -Rational/linear thought vs Right -creative intuitive thought)
Doing something creative and maybe doing some yoga or dance, reconnecting with nature or opening/cleansing and balancing the chakras would all help you to get the right Hemisphere active again and make it easier for you to perceive your connection with the Divine again.
When you go back to doing academic studies again if you can schedule in something like dance, Chi Gong or yoga or some Right Brained activity into each day for that balance in activity in the hemisphere's you won't feel as disconnected and imbalanced as this round.
Emmalevine
06-03-2016, 04:20 PM
I'm getting the feeling the hemisphere's of your brain are temporarily imbalanced from all the academic study. (Left -Rational/linear thought vs Right -creative intuitive thought)
Doing something creative and maybe doing some yoga or dance, reconnecting with nature or opening/cleansing and balancing the chakras would all help you to get the right Hemisphere active again and make it easier for you to perceive your connection with the Divine again.
When you go back to doing academic studies again if you can schedule in something like dance, Chi Gong or yoga or some Right Brained activity into each day for that balance in activity in the hemisphere's you won't feel as disconnected and imbalanced as this round.
This makes sense. Unfortunately any physical activity is out due to severe health problems so I can't do dance or yoga, although I used to like laying in the corpse pose and doing very (I mean VERY) gentle movements with my legs as that was very grounding. Maybe that's a good thing for me to get back into. I definitely think there's an imbalance that has come about.
Emmalevine
06-03-2016, 04:22 PM
This is very good advice.
I guess I'd like to know two things... How long was your period of intense academic-mental activity? and how long, now, have you been feeling the disconnect you post about? (It seems the sense of disconnect crept in in the middle or latter part of the period of activity, so it has overlapped - but you indicate it's lasted quite a while since the intense activity came to its conclusion. ???)
In my experience, even if your sitting in meditation feels meaningless or pointless, it's still good to resume it. Given time, it will enliven again.
Also, many people feel that some sort of physical activity - running, sport, aerobics or dancing to music, cycling, or at least walking - is helpful. Is something like this part of your life?
I've been studying since Oct, but the current period of intensity has been since early January. I've really pushed myself as there was a lot to do in a short space of time. I finished the project a week ago and have been feeling this way since then.
Yes I will continue with the meditation and see where that takes me. Sadly physical activity is out for me due to severe health difficulties, although as I said to someone else, I have enjoyed very gentle restorative yoga poses in the past.
Emmalevine
06-03-2016, 04:26 PM
Hello' Emma:
In (intuitively and spiritually) looking into your energy patterns and your current state of focus.....it appears that you are experiencing two different energy patterns.
Now, the first pattern appears to be related to your 'subjective' focus / consciousness, which is being expressed as a 'detachment' from your normal waking conscious state, which is clearly creating most of your inner conflict.
Now; in resolving this issue, this is an opportunity for you to alter your perception, for you chose to be expressing the qualities and the energies that you utilize in this focus, and you also chose to be moving through this focus in a particular manner in relation to your educational and personal project.
Therefore, instead of perceiving this as a challenge or conflict, understand that, you have allowed yourself to move in a different direction and to actually expand your awareness and generate a greater expression of your freedom. Why shall you merely experience an exploration of one element of an experience?
Now, regarding the other pathway or focus that is currently effecting you.
It is seen and felt that you are also experiencing a subtle 'energetic interaction' with the collective consciousness / objective focus. This being defined as....your energies meging with the collective on an astral and subconscious level.
And it appears that you are sensing great upheaval in the collective which is being expressed as “shocking, confusing and desperate energy patterns”.
In other words, you are a very sensitive / psychic individual with a strong connection to this physical reality. You are picking up (psychically) on these mass consciousness energy patterns, which is causing you some subconscious grief and turmoil.
I sense and feel strong “Indigo energies: all around and in you. There is a strong spiritual energetic frequency all around you....glowing....vibrating.....as if you were a bubble of light that is amping up its energies for all to witness.
Therefore, you are currently experiencing these two different focuses / energy patterns and and being effected by both.
And so, the answer for the first focus is....change your focus / attention to other, more harmonizing and peaceful imagery and feelings. And the second answer, to the 'objective / collective focus is.....to focus on your own inner peace and remove any and all 'BELIEFS” that currently limit you.
And also, to remember to keep your energies balanced and recharged, daily. It is in this, the focusing on your own energies ( feelings, emotions, consciousness) that will keep you in a state of inner peace and calm while the world around you goes into a state of shock, confusion and fearfulness.
Remove all feelings, thoughts and most of all...BELIEFS that support or promote fear, doubt, powerlessness and hopelessness. This is your time to shine in your light. A time to learn and understand just how powerful you truly are and how you CAN manifest any wish or dream that you perceive.
Well, I hope you find clarity and understanding in this message and I wish you well in your current challenges.
In Light & Harmony The Taoist
Thank you for the very interesting reading! Yes I can see what you're saying and resonate with it. It's true that I might be perceiving what's happening as a difficulty which is creating conflict whereas in fact it's a different sort of expression. And yes, I have experienced a greater awareness of what's going on in the world so it makes sense that it would be affecting me energetically. I will reflect on what you've said a bit more. Thanks again!
Emmalevine
06-03-2016, 04:28 PM
Nature! Get out and go for walks, sit by water, very cleansing and enlivening and reconnecting... observing the perfect aliveness of nature can awaken that which is asleep inside the dormant human soul. Nature simply does, it has no other choice, it is perfect in its relationship to the Now. That is the place we need to get to in our consciousness and relationship with life. That said, very hard to make that leap if one truly is suffering from depression. The depression would need to be dealt with first on some level. Sitting in nature though is easy to do even if depressed, and it is therapeutic.
That's such good advice. I used to do that a lot more than I do now and actually that's one thing that occurred to me earlier today. When I was in a period of grief a few years ago I sat in my back garden staring at the tree and birds for no less than 5 hours one evening - until the sun went down - and it was the most healing thing I could have done. I knew it was what I needed. Funnily enough, with the small improvement of my physical health and the ability to use a scooter to get out and about, I don't notice these small things so much. Blessings in being still, eh!
SoulsInMotion
06-03-2016, 04:42 PM
As long as you have use of your legs, I would recommend taking walks. Walking is incredibly therapeutic and healthy, even for people who consider themselves very weak. Walking is almost single handedly responsible for lifting my depression, self esteem and overall sense of vitality/energy. Start small and build yourself up in distance and duration. Through doing this you have a measurable way of literally building yourself up in body and spirit.
Thunder Bow
06-03-2016, 04:56 PM
Was the project a success? Did you get it all done, and now can move on? If so, your reaction may be based on the feeling that you do not deserve success or feel you do not deserve the credit for getting a project done. Thus keeping yourself feeling bad. My advice is to celebrate the accomplishment by treating your self to some thing you enjoy doing. It is time to affirm yourself, and be proud that you can get difficult challenges done. Good Work !
The Taoist
06-03-2016, 05:17 PM
Dear Emma:
Remember, look at the 'overview' perspective, which is what higher more spiritually evolved beings do rather than look at the specifics or details, as that is a perspective more related to lower conscious perspective.
One can get lost in all the details and infinitesimal aspects. Clearly, you ARE in a state of transition and change. But, rather than focusing on that major change and overall development...you are focusing on the imagery and detailed aspects of your transition.
This will cause you tension and conflict. Therefore, it is much more beneficial to focus on the general or world-view perspective, at this time.
A sense of.....optimism and acceptance is suggested.
Relax and enjoy your learning lesson, as this is why you are here....to learn and develop and..."KNOW SELF".
I encourage you to relax and ACCEPT your power, your choices and to focus on aligning to that higher spiritual level of awareness and harmony.
SELF-ACCEPTANCE IS KEY.
Jyotir
06-03-2016, 06:06 PM
Intense mental activity has left me disconnected
I have recently found that a lot of intense mental focus leaves me feeling very depressed and disconnected. I don't mean negative thoughts or anything like that, just a lot of academic study while I was working on a project. Now that it's over, I feel in complete limbo. More than that, I feel horribly disconnected and depressed. I sit to meditate but feel apathetic. Same when I try to read an uplifting spiritual book. Those things have helped me in the past. I'm even doubting everything I've experienced. I feel really miserable.
How can I feel my soul again? Does anyone know why this happens? As I said, it wasn't negative thinking, if it was I could understand my feelings now, but it was just a project I was working on. It's as it has pulled me away from my essence.
Hi Emmalevine,
The key is in what is bolded - the title of your thread.
Mind is only one aspect of what is available in the range of human experience.
If you isolate and emphasise one aspect to the exclusion of other and especially sacrificing integral wholeness - yes of course there will be a feeling of disconnect, etc., because that is what is actually happening.
Problem is, human beings are predominantly mental in consciousness so they 'think' that what is mental should be emphasized, or is the very definition of consciousness.
This is why balance and integral practice is useful. Use all of 'you'.
I agree with what some others said about activity and incorporating nature - but extending further, not just what is external, because there-in lies the potential for the same misdirecting tendency, to appreciate, i.e. through 'mental' inspiration.
While in the right direction, in and of itself, that isn't 'bad', but it is not optimally integrating and utilizing what is available to divinize on Earth .... The Physical.
And for any individual this means the body.
It's a big, and even increasing problem in our globalizing & mentally externalizing culture - being sedentary and living in and through the mind.
Use and challenge the body everyday, exercise, breathe, move. This will balance the other mental activity, reduce and counteract the natural inertia of the physical, promote health and integration.
~ J
wolfgaze
06-03-2016, 06:53 PM
I'm getting the feeling the hemisphere's of your brain are temporarily imbalanced from all the academic study. (Left -Rational/linear thought vs Right -creative intuitive thought)
If this is indeed what's going on - I recommend that Emma listen to classical music while studying...
Article: Effects of Classical Music on the Brain
http://www.classicalforums.com/articles/Music_Brain.html
wolfgaze
06-03-2016, 06:54 PM
Edit: Double Post
Somnia
06-03-2016, 07:34 PM
Hi Emma...
I can relate to your experiences of feeling mentally drained, depressed, and disconnected from the spirit. This happened to me every so often during my college years. It's like information overload and can really stress you out.
I echo what other people suggested in you should try listening to uplifting classical music, or easy listening that doesn't have lyrics involved. Just focus on the music. If you are unable to do very much physical activity you might try finding a place outside that is covered, sit, and embrace nature's scenery. You don't have to climb Mount Everest to appreciate the beauty of the mountain. So small things that help get you closer to nature or listening to relaxing music and in time these feelings will slowly dissolve.
CrystalSong
06-03-2016, 08:10 PM
If this is indeed what's going on - I recommend that Emma listen to classical music while studying...
Article: Effects of Classical Music on the Brain
http://www.classicalforums.com/articles/Music_Brain.html
Classical music is a very good suggestion for helping the right brain to come back into activity again thus increasing intuition and flow of spiritual knowledge/presence.
This might also be useful for our poster or something similar - Hemi-sync (right brain left brain balance/sync)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i12SY3SQuUw
A set of ear buds/head phones under a tree after a walk to the tree and a nice sit down session might just be an excellent shift for our poster back into hemisphere balance between right and left brain consciousness.
Emmalevine
07-03-2016, 08:14 AM
Lovely suggestions thanks everyone! I'm being picked up soon to stay with someone for a few days, so I'll keep this short.
I really can't do much walking. I'm incredibly limited in a physical sense. I don't want to go into the whys of it, so you'll just have to trust me on that. If I could walk, believe me I would. I used to walk miles when I was well.
Classical music and sitting in nature are doable and I will definitely those. I have my ipod with me and I have classical music on it.
Jyotir - yes that's exactly what seemed to me to be happening. Too much use of the mental to the detriment of everything else. i'm going to try to find some balance over the next few days.
Celaris
08-03-2016, 12:48 PM
I have recently found that a lot of intense mental focus leaves me feeling very depressed and disconnected. I don't mean negative thoughts or anything like that, just a lot of academic study while I was working on a project. Now that it's over, I feel in complete limbo. More than that, I feel horribly disconnected and depressed. I sit to meditate but feel apathetic. Same when I try to read an uplifting spiritual book. Those things have helped me in the past. I'm even doubting everything I've experienced. I feel really miserable.
How can I feel my soul again? Does anyone know why this happens? As I said, it wasn't negative thinking, if it was I could understand my feelings now, but it was just a project I was working on. It's as it has pulled me away from my essence.
That's so interesting that you mention this specific type of thing. I actually find myself going through this sometimes as well. It really hits me hard when I'm working really hard at my cabin where I'm very socially isolated. I'm very focused (distracted) from myself- the sense of purpose is flowing through me. When I set the work down it's like my brain has a numb feeling at first. You know that feeling that happens when put your arm out the window of a moving car for a while- after you bring your hand back in- it's kind of numb for a while. That would be the comparison I'd use to describe the mental kind of numb-hum that happens. It's at this particular point- when my mind is tired and I am only with myself that the lonely crisis happens.
I've really been thinking about this and researching, and I believe that, for me- that I'm experiencing "Existential Loneliness" (is a new concept in philosophy and psychology. This sense of emptiness and void is really a problem within each person, not a lack of meaningful relationships.)
It is NOT the same thing as the Buddhist concept of Nirvana (emptiness/void) it's like the evil twin.
I thought about it further and realized that it came down to a lie I had believed a long time ago- and was also the source of my fear of death.
Just some thoughts about my similar experience. It's weird that this is a phenomenon. :confused: :hug3:
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