Horse
22-12-2015, 03:37 PM
When I say samsara, I mean this belief that consciousness is trapped in an endless cycle of reincarnation and suffering. Does consciousness inevitably evolve towards freedom from Samsara? In other words is it guaranteed that we will awaken from this egoic nightmare? I've been shown things in altered states which pointed at this principal, that it is inevitable. Not just that, but it happened to me 3 times where I got trapped in 1-dimensional limited reality and was forced to awaken from it by realising that what I perceived as my external environment (which I felt was conscious, sentient and my adversary) was actually me. I awakened quicker each time. Each time the realisation followed me temporarily, the realisation that whats looking through my eyes is the same thing that looks through the eyes of others, that there was never any separation, it was an illusion and that this illusion is the source of all my suffering, suffering I had lived with for so long I had forgotten there was any other way to exist.
I suppose I answered my own question there. I was going to ask another question, what is it that anchors us to Samsara. But that was revealed to me too, in a dream, I was trapped in the 2nd dimension, I was feeling pain in my back but since I had lost awareness of a 3rd dimension I couldn't comprehend the source of the pain. What happened was I started playing a 2-dimensional game, my goal was to finish it but before I realised there was no end to the game, I forgot there was anything more to existence than this 2D game so it became my reality. I believed it was important that I finish the game, but this pain gradually made me lose interest in playing this game until I eventually decided no more, I've had enough. Thats when I woke up. On waking up I realised how absolutely meaningless and pointless it was playing that game but while I was immersed in the game, it all had meaning and was important. But from a higher perspective, there was something attained through playing that game. Awareness of the nature of consciousness and the process of awakening.
I feel love as I write this. This Samsara thing is so deeply sad and at the same time so deeply beautiful. This mixture of sadness creates this piercing feeling of love in my heart. Love for all souls trapped in this thing. I've been hurting a lot today but feel better after writing this. I want the suffering of all beings to end, and at the same time I see what the pain does. It causes us to relinquish attachment to this illusory world of form. On the surface its my worst enemy. Below the surface my best friend. Why are we still here? Is it that we have no yet truly had enough?
I suppose I answered my own question there. I was going to ask another question, what is it that anchors us to Samsara. But that was revealed to me too, in a dream, I was trapped in the 2nd dimension, I was feeling pain in my back but since I had lost awareness of a 3rd dimension I couldn't comprehend the source of the pain. What happened was I started playing a 2-dimensional game, my goal was to finish it but before I realised there was no end to the game, I forgot there was anything more to existence than this 2D game so it became my reality. I believed it was important that I finish the game, but this pain gradually made me lose interest in playing this game until I eventually decided no more, I've had enough. Thats when I woke up. On waking up I realised how absolutely meaningless and pointless it was playing that game but while I was immersed in the game, it all had meaning and was important. But from a higher perspective, there was something attained through playing that game. Awareness of the nature of consciousness and the process of awakening.
I feel love as I write this. This Samsara thing is so deeply sad and at the same time so deeply beautiful. This mixture of sadness creates this piercing feeling of love in my heart. Love for all souls trapped in this thing. I've been hurting a lot today but feel better after writing this. I want the suffering of all beings to end, and at the same time I see what the pain does. It causes us to relinquish attachment to this illusory world of form. On the surface its my worst enemy. Below the surface my best friend. Why are we still here? Is it that we have no yet truly had enough?