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bluebird21
08-11-2015, 01:21 AM
Hi All, first time posting on this forum.
I rarely have strong reactions to people so when I do, I take notice. I notice that the predominant strong feeling which specific people evoke in me is deep insecurity and nervousness. Around these people, I want to shrink and hide. I feel weak and small. I actually feel physically and emotionally threatened, but for no logical reason. They are men who are drawn to me on the spiritual level and sexually, and I am quite repelled by them.
What does it mean when particular people have this affect on you? I am not concerned with speculating about possible past life occurrences but would like to know what the PURPOSE of this reaction I have is aka, what is it showing me about myself and how can I grow from it and release it?
Other people make me nervous and insecure as well but there seem to be a few men who really bring it all out in me, to the point of feeling very uncomfortable.
Thanks for reading.
Deepsoul
08-11-2015, 04:18 AM
They want you energy and its too loose maybe not grounded in yourself enough ,keep building yourself so that when you are in there presence you can block there vampiraism with a full self. Just check that you are not alreay projecting I am helpless or I need filling....
Thunder Bow
08-11-2015, 04:49 PM
They might be controlling individuals that you should stay way from in the first place. Trust your feelings at all times.
bluebird21
08-11-2015, 10:52 PM
Thanks, this is helpful. I do believe Deepsoul that it all has to do with energy and Thunder Bow, as I am very intuitive, I may be sensing that they are controlling, or something else which would affect me negatively. You are right... no need to understand this, in order to trust it and act accordingly (not engage these people) so thanks for this reminder!
But, I believe that we create our own realities and that all, before you are enlightened, is a reflection of your mind/experience. On a deeper level, I believe this reaction of feeling threatened has 100% to do with me. I want to dig a little deeper. Anybody have any ideas what the root of my feeling threatened could be, which these individuals are mirroring to me?
Tanemon
09-11-2015, 01:16 AM
But, I believe that we create our own realities and that all, before you are enlightened, is a reflection of your mind/experience. On a deeper level, I believe this reaction of feeling threatened has 100% to do with me. I want to dig a little deeper. Anybody have any ideas what the root of my feeling threatened could be, which these individuals are mirroring to me?
You say you want to dig a little deeper. Okay. So please don't feel sensitive to this question.
Why, if you're female (as I believe your question kind of implies, and certainly what you've put in your personal profile on this site) - why have you chosen the icon/avatar that you're using?
bluebird21
09-11-2015, 01:29 AM
Why, if you're female (as I believe your question kind of implies, and certainly what you've put in your personal profile on this site) - why have you chosen the icon/avatar that you're using?
:D Because I think the contrast between what I post and his pic is amusing. I also observed how most have spiritual/evocative avatars and it's the little rebel in me who wanted something different and silly. Another reason is because I think it's important to not take myself very seriously... I get that some may think it's strange but I think it's funny.
Tanemon
09-11-2015, 02:13 AM
:D Because I think the contrast between what I post and his pic is amusing. I also observed how most have spiritual/evocative avatars and it's the little rebel in me who wanted something different and silly. Another reason is because I think it's important to not take myself very seriously... I get that some may think it's strange but I think it's funny.
Okay. It's your choice, and I have no problem with it.
Just wanted to ask: you feel it would have no connection to the "deep insecurity and nervousness" you sometimes feel?
bluebird21
09-11-2015, 02:37 AM
I honestly don't think so. However, I am noticing that I am feeling a bit defensive. As I have a belief that I am somehow not good enough/not ok I assume that some insecurity pervades all my experiences.
But what I am specifically talking about is this unusual feeling of being quite threatened which is invoked by a few specific men, one in particular, with whom there is this intense kind of energy between us. I feel repelled by them, clearly did not like them, yet also simultaneously was drawn to them (in the past, barely AT ALL now thank goodness).
keokutah
09-11-2015, 02:53 AM
I'm not sure if what you are feeling is a gut feeling telling you to stay away or if it's just insecurities.
Usually when I am around people that give me a bad vibe, I feel uncomfortable and like I need to remove myself as soon as possible, and sometimes it doesn't make any logical sense, because I can just feel like I am in danger or like something is really wrong, even if they don't show it. And it's not that they are bad people, once this even happened with a friend of mine and it turns out they were going through a very dark time, surrounded by bad spirits and ended up drinking soon after I saw them, and my gut just told me to stay away, despite me wanting to be there to help them out. Even my spirit guides told me it was dangerous for me to go near at the time and there was basically nothing I could do.
Some people can practice bad magic to seduce you and draw you to them, to make you think they are so amazing, it's like they wear a mask to prevent people from seeing all the bad magic they do, I wonder if that could explain how you could have bad vibes and be drawn to them at the same time. These kinds of people will try to seduce you to take away your power, they will try and get you to trust them and get you in their circle and basically use you and they like being seen as big and powerful of course.
bluebird21
09-11-2015, 03:22 AM
It's isn't just insecurities. It is a very intense and illogical feeling a few men, but one particular man, invokes in me (who I just saw yesterday, which is why I am asking). Feels like I am both physically and emotionally threatened. I am highly sensitive to energies and empathic, so I think basically I am being told to not engage... I used to be drawn to narcissistic types, and this man gives off this vibe... The reason, I just realized, I feel threatened is because I don't fully trust MYSELF to stay away, as in the past I have engaged with people who drew me in for unhealthy reasons. It's empowering to realize this :)
wolfgaze
09-11-2015, 03:54 AM
I don't know the answer, but I'll toss one perspective out there for consideration....
with whom there is this intense kind of energy between us.
With the understanding the spiritual awakening is a process that entails purging and purification... Is there a possibility that the amplification of energy that is generated in the presence of these individuals is causing preexisting emotional energy (insecurity, nervousness) to be stimulated and surface - for the purpose of being purged/released?
Do you feel these individuals may be similar to you in terms of their state of consciousness or degree of spiritual development? (I'm curious if this is the reason why there is a feeling of intensified energy experienced)
Is there something about this person that you recognise in yourself, perhaps something you havent been able to accept ? I was once very uncomfortable with a certain person that I didnt know very well, couldnt be in the same room as him. It turned out he was quite dishonest. Truth is something I feel passionate about, if you cant be honest its like standing on quicksand, no foundations can be laid for any kind of relationship. It took a while but I realised I wasnt exactly that honest myself...it was a revelation to me and something Ive become very aware of now when I interact. It wasnt that I was a prolific liar but I wasnt lily white either and I needed to see that.
Jon-Pax
09-11-2015, 05:05 AM
The Easy answer would be the visa versa maybe you are triggering it in other men and some are mirroring it to you I can tell you I used to get those feelings alot around women sure they are after energy its all energy or spirit
Flip side is when you see a guy that really rings your bell you become that way and now are moving past it so your playing this out
bluebird21
09-11-2015, 07:06 AM
Do you feel these individuals may be similar to you in terms of their state of consciousness or degree of spiritual development?
Yes they are.
bluebird21
09-11-2015, 07:49 AM
Ugh, I just typed up the backstory to this post and it got deleted. Ok, long story short: This Saturday, I ran into three people separately. Two men, who are both going through awakenings and who I have some weird history of short lived interactions (platonic, spiritual, they both are very drawn to me and make me uncomfortable but one does in particular). The woman I ran into is, get this, the person who bullied me back in middle school... I live 2,000 miles away from where I grew up and she's the first person I have ran into from my childhood out here. Then, that night I was contacted by a guy who I haven't talked to in over a year who was very drawn to me, there was some energy between us and he made me feel icky.
SO anyways, I want to emphasize that I RARELY have strong reactions to people, so I thought it was weird that I made contact with all these people in one day.
dryad
09-11-2015, 02:19 PM
Since you have history of being bullied at school it is likely you have absorbed that vulnerable victim mindset into your self identity. It may only be a small part of who you are now but it's probabaly the thing that holds you back most right now in spiritual terms. These people are not just drawn to you...you are actively drawing them in because being spiritual they hopefully pose little actual threat but still have enough of that dominant energy to trigger the insecurity and fear reactions that you need to change. To make you aware of it so it can be released. Solar plexus chakra is aligned with self image and identity so start with that.
Thunder Bow
09-11-2015, 04:44 PM
Thanks, this is helpful. I do believe Deepsoul that it all has to do with energy and Thunder Bow, as I am very intuitive, I may be sensing that they are controlling, or something else which would affect me negatively. You are right... no need to understand this, in order to trust it and act accordingly (not engage these people) so thanks for this reminder!
But, I believe that we create our own realities and that all, before you are enlightened, is a reflection of your mind/experience. On a deeper level, I believe this reaction of feeling threatened has 100% to do with me. I want to dig a little deeper. Anybody have any ideas what the root of my feeling threatened could be, which these individuals are mirroring to me?
Feelings of being threatened has to do with the fact, that you may be around a threatening person or situation. In this case, do not complicate it by saying it is your fault. Once again trust your feelings.
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