Totemism question

[Caspar]

Hi, I have a question or two about power animals. I know the raven is a special animal in many native American traditions and they are even mentioned in the Bible by Jesus in a positive light. The thing is I really don't like them. They seem to be aggressive scavengers and they seem to propagate and take over certain localities. Clearly raven is not my power animal or is there more to it? Could I have some internal resistance or something that prevents me from seeing the raven's more noble qualities. A blockage that fires up a sense of discrimination in order to prevent a deeper knowledge of self. I am perturbed that I have such a strong dislike to an animal that so many others hold in high esteem. Or is it just a matter of me being somewhere on the other side of the spectrum of animal energies and thus just feel no connection to them?

assuming that ravens are not my power animal, how do I find out what is? I've read articles that tell me sense which animals I have an affinity for but I never get a strong clear signal. I really love nature and have a great respect for most animals (except sharks, snakes, ravens, spiders, hyenas and crocodiles). I feel very positive towards dolphins (but who doesn't), cats (more than dogs), birds of pray (kites, hawks etc.), seals, big cats (but not lions) lizards and geckos. Should I be looking at animals that I admire or exploring similarities I might have in habits and build?

I would appreciate if anyone could help me out. I would like to get a better sense of self so that I'll have more to work with in Buddhist meditation...