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02-08-2014, 02:25 AM
My Dad owns a house in Clear Lake, It's a beautiful two story house. My Dad usually takes me there with him and his buddy. My Dad loves to fish at night so usually he and his friend leave towards the evening, get back at 11 where we eat dinner then head out again until 7 am. So usually I'm there by myself.
First off, I adore this house. It may sound weird, but I feel this connection to this house that I don't feel anywhere else, not even at home! The moment I step into this house I feel like it belongs to me and was waiting for me to come "home." I know that probably sounds crazy though. However, I always feel a bit...unnerved? Uncomfortable? It's weird because it feels like I have contradicting emotions to this house? At first I thought it was just because I was alone but there have been things I will talk about later that have made me believe otherwise.
When I'm there I do things that are slightly different than what I normally do. For example, I always have the TV on. I cannot STAND to have that house silent. The silence is deafening and suffocating so I always leave the TV on. Another thing is the lights. Normally I'm a person that constantly has the lights turned off. I like sitting in the dark reading, knitting playing on my iPad ect. However, when I'm here I need the lights on or I feel like something will get me. It's so bizarre. I also HATE looking into anything reflective in the house, I always feel like I'll see something looking back or standing behind me ect. The last thing is sleep. My entire family is made up of night owls. I normally go to bed at around 3 and wake up around 8, however, I WILL NOT sleep until my Dad returns at 7 in the morning! I always have to stay awake until I'm no longer alone.
We have an alarm system over there which has a panic button. My Dad makes sure I have the panic button with me since I'm mostly there by myself. We have 5 cats at home so when I mentioned how I'd feel better with a few of them we began to take 1 or 2 of the cats there so I'd have company. The first one we took was Max. We took him out of necessity because he was recently diagnosed with asthma and we couldn't leave him alone. One night I heard him screeching and when I opened my door he literally leaped into my arms terrified. I'm not sure if this is related since where we live had bad air quality at the time, but about weeks after we returned home, Max had to be put asleep when he took a turn for the worst...
The second was Charlie, my first cat and my baby. On the first day he was following me around so I was jokingly giving him the grand tour. When we reached the little room underneath the stairs(it's always cold in there) I opened the door and he freezed. So I attempted to pull him into the room and he DUG his claws into the floor before running up the stairs and hiding under Dad's bed for a good 30 minutes. the first night it was before Dad had come home, probably around 2 since i was just drifting off. Charlie was asleep towards my feet when he jumped up all puffed and starting growling at the door. What I saw made my blood run cold. through the crack at the bottom of the door I saw a shadow walk by. I ran to the door, locked it and jumped onto the bed grabbed the panic button(I never pushed it) and called my Dad. He stayed on the phone with me as I checked the house and I found nothing. On another occasion when we were there i was cuddling with him. I was staring at Charlie when out of the corner of my eyes I saw a shadow move across the wall and watched as his head followed the shadow. I immediately started moving a waving my arms but I couldn't reenact it.
When Dad found Molly(a stray) after Max had died he fell in love with her. She loved to travel and since Charlie didn't we began to take her instead. she doesn't seem to be as..."sensitive" however when she's sleeping on my bed at night she will often wake out of a dead sleep and stare at the corner right next to me and begin to "chatter" at it which makes me very uncomfortable.
M behavior and the cats behavior, is there something in this house that's causing it? It seems to mainly happen when I'm alone. Dad and his friend hav never felt anything. And how can I feel connected to a house that I love and fear at the same time? I'm so confused?
First off, I adore this house. It may sound weird, but I feel this connection to this house that I don't feel anywhere else, not even at home! The moment I step into this house I feel like it belongs to me and was waiting for me to come "home." I know that probably sounds crazy though. However, I always feel a bit...unnerved? Uncomfortable? It's weird because it feels like I have contradicting emotions to this house? At first I thought it was just because I was alone but there have been things I will talk about later that have made me believe otherwise.
When I'm there I do things that are slightly different than what I normally do. For example, I always have the TV on. I cannot STAND to have that house silent. The silence is deafening and suffocating so I always leave the TV on. Another thing is the lights. Normally I'm a person that constantly has the lights turned off. I like sitting in the dark reading, knitting playing on my iPad ect. However, when I'm here I need the lights on or I feel like something will get me. It's so bizarre. I also HATE looking into anything reflective in the house, I always feel like I'll see something looking back or standing behind me ect. The last thing is sleep. My entire family is made up of night owls. I normally go to bed at around 3 and wake up around 8, however, I WILL NOT sleep until my Dad returns at 7 in the morning! I always have to stay awake until I'm no longer alone.
We have an alarm system over there which has a panic button. My Dad makes sure I have the panic button with me since I'm mostly there by myself. We have 5 cats at home so when I mentioned how I'd feel better with a few of them we began to take 1 or 2 of the cats there so I'd have company. The first one we took was Max. We took him out of necessity because he was recently diagnosed with asthma and we couldn't leave him alone. One night I heard him screeching and when I opened my door he literally leaped into my arms terrified. I'm not sure if this is related since where we live had bad air quality at the time, but about weeks after we returned home, Max had to be put asleep when he took a turn for the worst...
The second was Charlie, my first cat and my baby. On the first day he was following me around so I was jokingly giving him the grand tour. When we reached the little room underneath the stairs(it's always cold in there) I opened the door and he freezed. So I attempted to pull him into the room and he DUG his claws into the floor before running up the stairs and hiding under Dad's bed for a good 30 minutes. the first night it was before Dad had come home, probably around 2 since i was just drifting off. Charlie was asleep towards my feet when he jumped up all puffed and starting growling at the door. What I saw made my blood run cold. through the crack at the bottom of the door I saw a shadow walk by. I ran to the door, locked it and jumped onto the bed grabbed the panic button(I never pushed it) and called my Dad. He stayed on the phone with me as I checked the house and I found nothing. On another occasion when we were there i was cuddling with him. I was staring at Charlie when out of the corner of my eyes I saw a shadow move across the wall and watched as his head followed the shadow. I immediately started moving a waving my arms but I couldn't reenact it.
When Dad found Molly(a stray) after Max had died he fell in love with her. She loved to travel and since Charlie didn't we began to take her instead. she doesn't seem to be as..."sensitive" however when she's sleeping on my bed at night she will often wake out of a dead sleep and stare at the corner right next to me and begin to "chatter" at it which makes me very uncomfortable.
M behavior and the cats behavior, is there something in this house that's causing it? It seems to mainly happen when I'm alone. Dad and his friend hav never felt anything. And how can I feel connected to a house that I love and fear at the same time? I'm so confused?