LolitaWolfe
28-07-2014, 03:35 PM
Just recently I came back in contact with my friend who is a medium, she's able to see spirits and auras and she was very shocked with what she saw when we finally met in person after a few years of not seeing each other. She told me the majority of my aura was orange, the outside part, and then a small line of purple, and then at the center it was completely black and I was drawing in energy like a black hole would. She told me something (some sort of entity) could easily be hiding inside of that so we decided to try and clear out the black energy, that was a mistake.
[Before I go any further I should explain a dream that I had a few months back, I didn't understand it at the time but it makes much more sense now. I dreamed that I was in my bedroom and I felt as though I was being watched, so naturally, I went looking for what was watching me. After some searching I went into my back room and around the corner I saw a mirror image of myself.. But I had demonic eyes and I was laughing a horrible evil laugh, right after that I woke up. At the time I thought it was me telling myself that 'I am my own worst enemy' or something cheesy like that, but after what happened last night I can see that it was much more meaningful than that. There have also been other times I've dreams that seem disturbingly real for the last 5 years or so. I dream that demons are coming after me, they're always saying something like "come with us" or "we're coming for you" or "we're still waiting" and every time I look into those awful black eyes and wake up a second later. Alright, back to the story now]
I stopped meditating a few months ago due to the fact that I would feel like something bad was watching me, but last night she told me to meditate to try and focus on the negative energy, so we could try to see if I can get rid of it, and so I did. Immediately upon doing so my friend (lets call her Mickey) told me the black part of my aura was shooting out some very hateful angry energy.. That was when we figured I had an entity hiding inside of me.
The deeper I got into my meditation the more my uneasiness grew and the more angry I felt, I opened my eyes and found Mickey looking at me confused and kind of afraid.. When I asked her what had happened she said that the black part of my aura had started growing and blocking out the other colors. This made sense seeing as I was beginning to feel very angry towards her for what seemed to be no reason at all.
I continued to meditate and I was visualizing the black part of my aura being surrounded by golden light and it healing and going away, but I could never make it stay away.. After maybe an hour of this I started feeling really strange. I was feeling dizzy and lightheaded like I just ran a bunch, my whole body felt tingly, and when I opened my eyes I was seeing everything in a very weird way.. Like I was in a dream and everything around me suddenly didn't seem real, colors were slightly off. I felt absolutely exhausted, which seemed very strange considering I hadn't moved from my spot on the floor, and like I was stuck in an energy glue. It was hard to move and it felt like I was fighting just to stay awake.
I looked over at Mickey and she got up, moved across the room and away from me and told me she was now positive there was an entity inside of me. I asked her what she was seeing and she told me my aura had gone completely black with a very small amount of orange on the outside edges, but the orange part was flickering and threatening to fade completely. At the same time that she was telling me this I was still having trouble seeing straight and everything was rippling, I felt like I was having a bad acid trip even though we were completely sober. I was also having some very angry and bad thoughts towards her, with some very disturbing mental images of myself physically hurting her and literally tearing her apart like a wild animal, there aren't any words to really describe the hate that I felt.. It was more intense than any feeling I've had in the past, and not acting on it was making me feel like I was dying. I never moved from my spot but I started seeing black spots like I was going to pass out and something in my head was screaming for me to just let go. Just let go and you'll stop being so tired, you'll feel so much relief if you just let go...
But I never did, somehow I stayed conscious. Although, for a moment I felt like I fell asleep and I felt myself making a terrible almost snarling noise that I didn't even think a person could make. In that time Mickey started yelling for me to come back, she said my aura had gone completely black, and I needed to come back right now. I'm not really sure how it happened but I woke up.. It felt sick to my stomach as soon as I opened my eyes (although she told me they never closed, I felt like they were) and she told me I had said some very disturbing things. She refused to tell me what, and when I saw how scared she looked I didn't ask anymore questions.. We lit some sandalwood incense and went for a walk after that and the black energy subsided and went back to its original size in the center of my aura.
I believe that what we encountered was a demon, I'm not sure how to make it go away but I'm open to advice.. I have an appointment to go see a reiki healer in about a week to see if she will be able to help me at all.. I'm wondering if any of you have any advice on how to keep it stuffed down and hidden away until that time, I'm afraid now that we've made it angry it will do whatever it can to try and stop me from clearing it out.. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before, I want to say I'm scared but I know if I fear it I'm giving it power, so I'm telling myself to stay strong.. Any and all advice is welcome and I'm open to any suggestions you guys might have.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story! Namaste
(obviously this is a shortened version of what happened, it happened over the course of a few hours, so if you feel like I skipped over anything and want to know more about what happened just ask and I'll do my best to explain in more detail)
[Before I go any further I should explain a dream that I had a few months back, I didn't understand it at the time but it makes much more sense now. I dreamed that I was in my bedroom and I felt as though I was being watched, so naturally, I went looking for what was watching me. After some searching I went into my back room and around the corner I saw a mirror image of myself.. But I had demonic eyes and I was laughing a horrible evil laugh, right after that I woke up. At the time I thought it was me telling myself that 'I am my own worst enemy' or something cheesy like that, but after what happened last night I can see that it was much more meaningful than that. There have also been other times I've dreams that seem disturbingly real for the last 5 years or so. I dream that demons are coming after me, they're always saying something like "come with us" or "we're coming for you" or "we're still waiting" and every time I look into those awful black eyes and wake up a second later. Alright, back to the story now]
I stopped meditating a few months ago due to the fact that I would feel like something bad was watching me, but last night she told me to meditate to try and focus on the negative energy, so we could try to see if I can get rid of it, and so I did. Immediately upon doing so my friend (lets call her Mickey) told me the black part of my aura was shooting out some very hateful angry energy.. That was when we figured I had an entity hiding inside of me.
The deeper I got into my meditation the more my uneasiness grew and the more angry I felt, I opened my eyes and found Mickey looking at me confused and kind of afraid.. When I asked her what had happened she said that the black part of my aura had started growing and blocking out the other colors. This made sense seeing as I was beginning to feel very angry towards her for what seemed to be no reason at all.
I continued to meditate and I was visualizing the black part of my aura being surrounded by golden light and it healing and going away, but I could never make it stay away.. After maybe an hour of this I started feeling really strange. I was feeling dizzy and lightheaded like I just ran a bunch, my whole body felt tingly, and when I opened my eyes I was seeing everything in a very weird way.. Like I was in a dream and everything around me suddenly didn't seem real, colors were slightly off. I felt absolutely exhausted, which seemed very strange considering I hadn't moved from my spot on the floor, and like I was stuck in an energy glue. It was hard to move and it felt like I was fighting just to stay awake.
I looked over at Mickey and she got up, moved across the room and away from me and told me she was now positive there was an entity inside of me. I asked her what she was seeing and she told me my aura had gone completely black with a very small amount of orange on the outside edges, but the orange part was flickering and threatening to fade completely. At the same time that she was telling me this I was still having trouble seeing straight and everything was rippling, I felt like I was having a bad acid trip even though we were completely sober. I was also having some very angry and bad thoughts towards her, with some very disturbing mental images of myself physically hurting her and literally tearing her apart like a wild animal, there aren't any words to really describe the hate that I felt.. It was more intense than any feeling I've had in the past, and not acting on it was making me feel like I was dying. I never moved from my spot but I started seeing black spots like I was going to pass out and something in my head was screaming for me to just let go. Just let go and you'll stop being so tired, you'll feel so much relief if you just let go...
But I never did, somehow I stayed conscious. Although, for a moment I felt like I fell asleep and I felt myself making a terrible almost snarling noise that I didn't even think a person could make. In that time Mickey started yelling for me to come back, she said my aura had gone completely black, and I needed to come back right now. I'm not really sure how it happened but I woke up.. It felt sick to my stomach as soon as I opened my eyes (although she told me they never closed, I felt like they were) and she told me I had said some very disturbing things. She refused to tell me what, and when I saw how scared she looked I didn't ask anymore questions.. We lit some sandalwood incense and went for a walk after that and the black energy subsided and went back to its original size in the center of my aura.
I believe that what we encountered was a demon, I'm not sure how to make it go away but I'm open to advice.. I have an appointment to go see a reiki healer in about a week to see if she will be able to help me at all.. I'm wondering if any of you have any advice on how to keep it stuffed down and hidden away until that time, I'm afraid now that we've made it angry it will do whatever it can to try and stop me from clearing it out.. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before, I want to say I'm scared but I know if I fear it I'm giving it power, so I'm telling myself to stay strong.. Any and all advice is welcome and I'm open to any suggestions you guys might have.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story! Namaste
(obviously this is a shortened version of what happened, it happened over the course of a few hours, so if you feel like I skipped over anything and want to know more about what happened just ask and I'll do my best to explain in more detail)