Vorttane
07-05-2012, 06:21 AM
This is my first post so Hello to all of you :hug3:
:confused1: Here's the thing, I've been sensitive to life for as long as I can remember. I don't care for cities, despite the high human population there's a tangible feeling that there should be more living things around me instead of concrete.
Whenever I had a vivid dream when I was younger I would have a sense of there being something next to me. Either bear or wolf like in a sense. In the past few years that presence is with me at certain times while I am awake as well.
More recently (within the past year) A new sense is coming to the forefront of my mind. It is strange/alien and vast. I find it very hard to describe. In my mind I picture a sort of black leviathan/serpent, yet only it's maw. It's as though the feeling is coming from an endless distance through space and time Like I'm seeing the tip of an iceberg. It just feels so out of place not wrong or evil just like it doesn't belong. I feel stronger despite the certainty that this presence is completely indifferent to me. Like riding a wave of doom. If that makes any sense.... I don't feel weak or scared even when I'm asleep and I feel this presence. In fact I recently had a nightmare interrupted by this presence literally (as literal as any dream can be) shattering my nightmare, devouring it. What I find disturbing is that hunger/anger are the only feelings that connect me to it. I'm no more angry then I was before, if anything I'm calmer according to some of my friends. When I do get angry I feel it instantly there like it wants to lash out but can't, not that I feel it's urges as my own but it's like having a caged angry animal behind you.
Anyways that's my issue......thoughts?:confused:
:confused1: Here's the thing, I've been sensitive to life for as long as I can remember. I don't care for cities, despite the high human population there's a tangible feeling that there should be more living things around me instead of concrete.
Whenever I had a vivid dream when I was younger I would have a sense of there being something next to me. Either bear or wolf like in a sense. In the past few years that presence is with me at certain times while I am awake as well.
More recently (within the past year) A new sense is coming to the forefront of my mind. It is strange/alien and vast. I find it very hard to describe. In my mind I picture a sort of black leviathan/serpent, yet only it's maw. It's as though the feeling is coming from an endless distance through space and time Like I'm seeing the tip of an iceberg. It just feels so out of place not wrong or evil just like it doesn't belong. I feel stronger despite the certainty that this presence is completely indifferent to me. Like riding a wave of doom. If that makes any sense.... I don't feel weak or scared even when I'm asleep and I feel this presence. In fact I recently had a nightmare interrupted by this presence literally (as literal as any dream can be) shattering my nightmare, devouring it. What I find disturbing is that hunger/anger are the only feelings that connect me to it. I'm no more angry then I was before, if anything I'm calmer according to some of my friends. When I do get angry I feel it instantly there like it wants to lash out but can't, not that I feel it's urges as my own but it's like having a caged angry animal behind you.
Anyways that's my issue......thoughts?:confused: