TheressaWilliams
06-02-2012, 03:14 AM
I've been having trouble for years where I will go to sleep and wake up feeling significantly worse that I was before I went to sleep.
History: I am convinced I was born with insomnia. When I was little, I would stay up at all hours and never get tired. In fact, it seemed the longer I stayed up, the more energy I got! I went through elementary getting about 14-20 hours of sleep a week! I'd stare at my room at night, memorizing every inch. I'd find myself on occasion (when I did finally go to sleep) being able to walk around my room while I'd be dreaming. I thought this was the most wonderful thing! This was of course after my FIRST astral projection (which was terrifying) But I did my best not to let it bother me.
As I got older, moving into middle school. My insomnia waned a bit. I'd get about 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I found that if I woke up early for school, took my shower and went back to bed, I'd be more likely to AP. I LOVED it!
But Middle school was a very difficult time for me. I had no friends and my Mother had left me Grandparents became abusive. I started using either sleep, or a lack of sleep as an escape. I'd start having Conversations with people who were obviously (Even to me after a point) weren't there. I'd go through scenarios of things as simple as inviting the friends I didn't have over to lunch. I'd go through as if I had about 4 or 5 friends over and that we were all talking. I'd get so immersed in this farce, that afterwards I'd feel drained and wonder where everyone went. The remind myself nobody was there... I started having the weirdest dreams. I'd go through some regular day, but then I'd begin to realize I was dreaming. I'd be in a conversation and realize I was dreaming. I'd tell this to the person I was talking to, but they'd look at me funny. They'd say something like "But you're right here. Now, talking to me." I'd wake up and go back to sleep. I'd be right back in the same part of the dream and the other person would freak out! Saying something like "where did you go?! You just Vanished!" I'd try to explain to them again, that I was actually dreaming. That I was in my bed in a house somewhere else.
Anyhow, that's a topic I'll probably post in more detail in the dream section.
After I graduated High school, I took a year off and went through periods where I'd either be awake for up to 6-7 days, or I'd sleep for 3 days straight. It felt to me that staying up felt better to me than sleeping, as sleeping left me drained and depressed.
I'm now 23 and I still have incredibly involved dreams. I still wake up more tired than I was before I went to sleep. But I'm getting to the point where I can't stay up like I used to. I feel like I'm just constantly being drained and I can't find the source of energy I used to have.
History: I am convinced I was born with insomnia. When I was little, I would stay up at all hours and never get tired. In fact, it seemed the longer I stayed up, the more energy I got! I went through elementary getting about 14-20 hours of sleep a week! I'd stare at my room at night, memorizing every inch. I'd find myself on occasion (when I did finally go to sleep) being able to walk around my room while I'd be dreaming. I thought this was the most wonderful thing! This was of course after my FIRST astral projection (which was terrifying) But I did my best not to let it bother me.
As I got older, moving into middle school. My insomnia waned a bit. I'd get about 3-4 hours of sleep a night. I found that if I woke up early for school, took my shower and went back to bed, I'd be more likely to AP. I LOVED it!
But Middle school was a very difficult time for me. I had no friends and my Mother had left me Grandparents became abusive. I started using either sleep, or a lack of sleep as an escape. I'd start having Conversations with people who were obviously (Even to me after a point) weren't there. I'd go through scenarios of things as simple as inviting the friends I didn't have over to lunch. I'd go through as if I had about 4 or 5 friends over and that we were all talking. I'd get so immersed in this farce, that afterwards I'd feel drained and wonder where everyone went. The remind myself nobody was there... I started having the weirdest dreams. I'd go through some regular day, but then I'd begin to realize I was dreaming. I'd be in a conversation and realize I was dreaming. I'd tell this to the person I was talking to, but they'd look at me funny. They'd say something like "But you're right here. Now, talking to me." I'd wake up and go back to sleep. I'd be right back in the same part of the dream and the other person would freak out! Saying something like "where did you go?! You just Vanished!" I'd try to explain to them again, that I was actually dreaming. That I was in my bed in a house somewhere else.
Anyhow, that's a topic I'll probably post in more detail in the dream section.
After I graduated High school, I took a year off and went through periods where I'd either be awake for up to 6-7 days, or I'd sleep for 3 days straight. It felt to me that staying up felt better to me than sleeping, as sleeping left me drained and depressed.
I'm now 23 and I still have incredibly involved dreams. I still wake up more tired than I was before I went to sleep. But I'm getting to the point where I can't stay up like I used to. I feel like I'm just constantly being drained and I can't find the source of energy I used to have.