PDA

View Full Version : wondering if anyone has had similar experiences


sei
06-04-2007, 11:12 PM
i have always had this weird experiences since my teen years it would always happen to me i would be a sleeping and all the sudden i would feel my body drop onto my bed and i would wake up looking around the room wondering if someone else was in the room jumping on the bed; but after awhile the experiences progress while cleaning my closet i suddenly felt really tired and went to sleep half way out and half way in the closet and i had this experience where i think it was a ghost or something but the head of this person was going around and around my body and all the sudden it came directly to my face and went through me i woke up as soon as that happen, (after i moved away from my fathers home my little brother moved into my room and i found out that he was choke and was hunted by this spirit/ghost several times back to my other experiences) after this i would be a sleep and but all the sudden i would wake up and feel my body a sleep and my mind going crazy wondering why i could not move or scream and then i would get up as if i was gasping for air from the fright i would often dismiss them as bad dreams or nightmares if you wish i moved in with my mother and i told her about my experience and she told me this whole concept about outer body travel and the wonders i have had many other experiences since then; my ears would start to ring harmoniously my body would be a sleep and this weird sensation of floating of pulsating numbness and my mind awake while the ringing went on but i was always too scared to proceed to the next level i have had many of this experiences never being able to completely exit my body even when i said i would and would even try to exit one time when i finally decide to go i heard this voices talking around me and saying things like " What is he doing? is he really ?" and i got really scare about that and decide to wake up another time i decide to really let go and i thought i had finally done it but it was not so what happened was that i would still be lying in the bed trying to get up but i could not , i could not open my eyes because they were so heavy i could not move much because my body felt heavy as well but i did hear everything that was going on out side of my bedroom even thought usually if i was awake i could not hear what went on out side very well another experience that happen to me was that i was feeling down sitting in front of my computer researching this experience and also angels but i got depress all the sudden listening to the news and how a mother killed her baby and thinking about all the poor kids in this world that have so many problems and how hopeless they must feel and how hopeless i am not being able to do something well i came across this article about the archangels and their duties if you will how each one is suppose to help you in different ways well i decide to pray to them (not really sure if it was a good idea because i believe in god and his jealousy) well point being that while i was praying for advice and help i felt this burning sensation around my shoulder blades and through my lower back the feeling was kind of like if i had wings and i felt this heat not an uncomfortable one but a nice soothing one and all the sudden this happiness invaded me. anyways i think i have told you guys too many of my experience sorry but if anyone can help me understand please help thank you all in advance:smile:

Maranda
07-04-2007, 06:23 AM
Sei,

Welcome! Pull up a chair and join us.


Maybe this will help.

The Awakening


A time comes in your life when you finally get it - when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out ENOUGH!

Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.

THIS IS YOUR AWAKENING.

You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change...or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon.

You come to terms with the fact that neither of you is Prince Charming or Cinderella and that in the real world there aren't always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter), and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you. In the process, a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's okay. They are entitled to their own views and opinions. And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself. In the process, a sense of new found self confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn't do for you), and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.

You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say, and not everyone will always be there for you and it's not always about you.

So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself. In the process, a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance. You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and overlook their shortcomings and human frailties. In the process, a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.

You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is as a result of all the messages and opinions that have been ingrained into your psyche. You begin to sift through all of the junk you've been fed about how you should behave, how you should look, how much you should weigh, what you should wear, what you should do for a living, how much money you should make, what you should drive, how and where you should live, who you should marry, the importance of having and raising children, and what you owe your parents, family, and friends.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should have never bought into to begin with. In the process, you learn to go with and trust your instincts.

You learn that it is truly in giving that we receive. There is power and glory in creating and contributing, and you stop manoeuvring through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.

You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and you can't teach a pig to sing.

You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.

You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry, and martyrs get burned at the stake.

Then you learn about love. How to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away.

You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be; to stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes; and that 'alone' does not mean lonely.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.

You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly okay, and it is your right to want things and to ask for the things you want... and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won't settle for less.

You learn that your body really is your temple, and you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise.

You learn being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty. So, you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.

You learn, for the most part in life, you get what you believe you deserve, and much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy. You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for, and wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance.

You also learn that no one can do it all alone... and it's okay to risk asking for help.

You learn the only thing you must truly fear is, the greatest robber baron of all, FEAR itself.

You learn to step right into and through your fears because, you know that whatever happens, you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.

You learn life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people. On these occasions, you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn't punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. It's just life happening. And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state - the ego.

You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.

You learn to be thankful, to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people on the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.

Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire.

You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.

Now, take a deep breath and begin to create the life you want for yourself.

Exhileration
07-04-2007, 04:10 PM
The experience you have is not rare, many people have it, it is the entry to Delta sleep which is then somehow interrupted. Delta sleep is the state where you can lucid dream, and most people surpass that state and enter the REM state where they are no longer conscious of themselves.

I enjoy Delta sleep pattern exercises which I make up for myself. I will lie in a silent room and concentrate on my body vibration, which becomes a hum within me, and builds up until it is so loud it used to actually scare me. I am comfortable letting it get so loud that it takes over my senses and is all I focus on - the hum. I then realize I am asleep but aware. And from there I can create my dreams. At first I didn't know what to do, but then I experimented with flying, and then with teleportation. It was fun! There are no limits to the fun your mind can create when it is conscious and aware during sleep!

If you find yourself falling out of a Delta sleep wave, just take some deep breaths and listen to your body hum. Then choose your own adventure.

:)

Starbuck
15-04-2007, 09:12 AM
Maranda - thank you for posting that, it made so much sense and really struck a chord with me. It really showed me where I'm going wrong, and all the pain I'm holding onto when I should just let it go and learn to forgive. Not easy, but possible. I hope one day I'll reach my own Awakening.

Starbuck
15-04-2007, 09:16 AM
I think I've experienced the "hum" in my sleep too - it's usually when I've been awake for a while and then fall directly into a semi-deep sleep, but I'm aware of being in bed. I get this humming in my ears, almost like the sound of a strong wind. My body feels paralysed. I've never really understood what's happening.
Sei your experience sounds really scary and I'm sorry I can't help you directly, but it does sound like you've had a spiritual experience. I hope you get some answers soon.

Maranda
15-04-2007, 02:17 PM
Starbuck,

Thank you. Hope it helps.