White Feather
08-31-2011, 07:06 AM
Hi, I am 19, I recently moved out of the parental home for the first time into a house a few miles away with my partner. I am a very spiritual person, and at the time of the move I was very open to spirit and receiving well, my first impressions of the atmosphere in the house was that it was very calm peaceful and I felt no negativity here, in all honesty I still dont! However since the move I have tried to close myself off to receiving as I have become very uncomfortable with what I am receiving. Usually most of my interaction with spirit is in my dreams, however recently I had a dream of a 'haunted house' and woke in the night feeling something was there. I went back to sleep but over the past few nights I have had very vivid sexual dreams which is unusual for me and uncomfortable, and when I get into bed I feel frightened. Last night I prayed to god for angels to protect me and my partner and this home, and spent a long time putting a white light throughout the house to cleanse it, and around my partner and I, I wore a my imaginative negativity repelling cloak and I closed the door in my mind to stop receiving, I prayed to the angels to take this fear away and whatever it was causing it and to help me. I found myself screaming in my minds eye for the spirit or fear to be gone to leave and that I could not help it.
I am very confused, Im not sure if this has worked, hopefully it has, but in all honesty I think that the problem lies with me, I think that this fear is always niggling at me in my spiritual development I am very aware of protecting myself because I fear evil, and I dont want to! I am very scared that I am dabbling and know thats wrong. I think that this is a message that unless I can overcome this fear I cannot progress spiritually, I am usually such a strong person but things i've heard and only being young its natural I'm going to be warry, but spirit dont want me to be. Either that or I need to buy some sage! :s anyone have any answers here?
I am very confused, Im not sure if this has worked, hopefully it has, but in all honesty I think that the problem lies with me, I think that this fear is always niggling at me in my spiritual development I am very aware of protecting myself because I fear evil, and I dont want to! I am very scared that I am dabbling and know thats wrong. I think that this is a message that unless I can overcome this fear I cannot progress spiritually, I am usually such a strong person but things i've heard and only being young its natural I'm going to be warry, but spirit dont want me to be. Either that or I need to buy some sage! :s anyone have any answers here?