LotusBlossom
11-08-2011, 02:38 AM
I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place. But, every once in awhile life gets so, busy and stressful and I become so, scattered in it that I disconnect from whatever "abilities" or "gifts" or whatever term is appropriate that I have.
I can go day to day and notice things but, just not read into them or let myself go there. I've noticed that when I do this for a long enough period of time.. eventually, I just pick things up more and more often. And they gnaw at me until I have to stop and pay attention.
This probably isn't making any sense. All I know is that a friend of mine told me that she thinks I'm an empath. I don't know. I know that I can feel emotions coming off of people. Sometimes ..in waves. Usually, the emotion that I pick up on the most ..is sadness. Sometimes it's excitement or happiness when someone else is really looking forward to something.
I'm going through a huge transition in my life right now. I just moved. My kids are going through their own transitions too. My daughter's transitions and the moves she's making are making her very sad. She's at my sister's house now. But, will be here tomorrow.
What I'm noticing is that I'll be online playing a game.. or watching tv. Usually, the feeling will come in when everything is quiet and I'm not focused intently on something.
But, I'll all of a sudden get an overwhelming sadness. Enough that it calls me from whatever it is that I'm doing. I'll think of my daughter. I'll check my phone for text messages and see none. And then within 2-3 minutes I'll get a text from her. Sometimes the text is a sad one when she's feeling down.
Tonight is one of the most challenging nights for her. And tonight I'm walking around over 1,000 miles away from her feeling depressed. I seem to be more upset than she. I've been quiet. And feeling down. And tears are at the very edges of my eyes.
I sat down with my laptop to write this.. and my stones.. like amethyst etc came to mind. All of a sudden I realized that I haven't been looking at the empathy. And that might be why I feel as down as I do. Maybe I'm picking up my daughter's sadness. I thought of how to balance myself out. And my first thought.. was of my amethyst stones.
I don't know if this is something "normal" for an empath. Or if I'm just.. super sensitive. If anyone could offer any insights I would really appreciate it.
I can go day to day and notice things but, just not read into them or let myself go there. I've noticed that when I do this for a long enough period of time.. eventually, I just pick things up more and more often. And they gnaw at me until I have to stop and pay attention.
This probably isn't making any sense. All I know is that a friend of mine told me that she thinks I'm an empath. I don't know. I know that I can feel emotions coming off of people. Sometimes ..in waves. Usually, the emotion that I pick up on the most ..is sadness. Sometimes it's excitement or happiness when someone else is really looking forward to something.
I'm going through a huge transition in my life right now. I just moved. My kids are going through their own transitions too. My daughter's transitions and the moves she's making are making her very sad. She's at my sister's house now. But, will be here tomorrow.
What I'm noticing is that I'll be online playing a game.. or watching tv. Usually, the feeling will come in when everything is quiet and I'm not focused intently on something.
But, I'll all of a sudden get an overwhelming sadness. Enough that it calls me from whatever it is that I'm doing. I'll think of my daughter. I'll check my phone for text messages and see none. And then within 2-3 minutes I'll get a text from her. Sometimes the text is a sad one when she's feeling down.
Tonight is one of the most challenging nights for her. And tonight I'm walking around over 1,000 miles away from her feeling depressed. I seem to be more upset than she. I've been quiet. And feeling down. And tears are at the very edges of my eyes.
I sat down with my laptop to write this.. and my stones.. like amethyst etc came to mind. All of a sudden I realized that I haven't been looking at the empathy. And that might be why I feel as down as I do. Maybe I'm picking up my daughter's sadness. I thought of how to balance myself out. And my first thought.. was of my amethyst stones.
I don't know if this is something "normal" for an empath. Or if I'm just.. super sensitive. If anyone could offer any insights I would really appreciate it.