windwhistle
06-04-2011, 03:11 PM
Hi everyone. I am upset because my husband relapsed yet another time on beer last night. I am in al anon and going to see my sponsor this morning. I am trying to go off meds for bipolar and doing everything I can to heal my self in every way. I was hoping the transition time would be a stable environment but life just isn't stable and smooth. Maybe some days...for me, maybe a half a day.
I am tired today. I am trying to control my teen by asking him repeatedly to do his homework because he is about to fail senior year. He went through a month of cocaine experimentation. He is not doing coke anymore but he drinks and smokes pot with my husband. I am tired of having to wake him up 4-5 times every day, tired of his endless needs, tired of my husband's non stop talk about work and country music and motorcycles non stop. When I talk about spiritual things they think I'm out there. Whatever I've gotten this all my life so I never talk about it openly except here.
Has my vibration dropped from yesterday. Yes. Can I start the day over...yes.
I hate to ask for help but I was wondering if anyone could send me some healing energy. I respond well to colors, angels, white light, affirmations.
Today I'm afraid nothing is true and there is no such thing as true. I don't know what anything means at all. I feel like nothing.
Noises like barking dogs, children screaming, t.v., coughing bother me a lot.
I am tired today. I am trying to control my teen by asking him repeatedly to do his homework because he is about to fail senior year. He went through a month of cocaine experimentation. He is not doing coke anymore but he drinks and smokes pot with my husband. I am tired of having to wake him up 4-5 times every day, tired of his endless needs, tired of my husband's non stop talk about work and country music and motorcycles non stop. When I talk about spiritual things they think I'm out there. Whatever I've gotten this all my life so I never talk about it openly except here.
Has my vibration dropped from yesterday. Yes. Can I start the day over...yes.
I hate to ask for help but I was wondering if anyone could send me some healing energy. I respond well to colors, angels, white light, affirmations.
Today I'm afraid nothing is true and there is no such thing as true. I don't know what anything means at all. I feel like nothing.
Noises like barking dogs, children screaming, t.v., coughing bother me a lot.