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Greenslade

11-08-2017, 11:51 AM

Thanks Greenslade, You're very welcome.

Yeah, I guess sometimes it takes someone else to point that out. Sometimes, it's not difficult to forget things when you're immersed in the experience and therein lies an understanding in itself.

The good thing about the net and the info there, as things have happened to me since last year, I've googled them. I think the big turnaround was when I joined this forum as until then I'd not heard of awakening/ascension, numerology and lots of other things. It's just good to be able to google something and posts and info comes up that let's me know I haven't totally lost the plot! I have a small bag of marbles I carry everywhere with me, and one of those holographic blocks with a guardian angel. That conversation never gets old, but then we come to our senses when we lose our minds. Everything we need is out there somewhere, and what's interesting are the instinctive synchronicities between ourselves and the Universe, we seek out what we need before we realise we're doing it sometimes, and there it is before us.

Now this is what my guides do when I'm doing the healing thing; I am used to it as I've done it for five years with a previous guide. I'm a bit more comfortable with the words in the third eye and sometimes a word or several are there so quick in response to my thoughts, that I know I couldn't have thought that in a fraction of a second. Some would say voices in the head is schizophrenia so be careful of who you talk to about what. It's actually more normal than many would admit to, and many more would if perhaps not for the stigma. It's all good signs that you're tuned in and connected though, and the words in your third eye instead of your mind should tell you something too.

I'll take your word on that. I've only ever looked up the numbers if thev've occurred frequently like this the 1s, 2s, 3 and 5s. I've had the odd 9 here and there but thus far I haven't felt the urge to look that one up. That doesn't surprise me in the least because the fours are... I'll leave you with that. It's been said that our greatest fear is becoming more than we ever dreamed possible and even in it being in our faces it's often hard to acknowledge. The paradigms we've lived with for so many years are hard to change.

Interestingly, I went to see a medium a few weeks back and he said I would be seeing the infinity symbol and I seem to remember he linked that to threes.For some reason I feel the need to say that it would help your understanding to drop what you think of Christianity and focus solely on the 'message'. There's a lot of symbolism and wisdom in Christianity but the problem has been in it being usurped by certain people. If you forget that it'll make more sense and in many ways help your understanding. For instance, with the threes - Father, Son and Holy Ghost. The Father is Spirit, Son is the incarnation/physical and the Holy Ghost is consciousness. The trinity, the 'power of three' if you're into Paganism or the old TV series Charmed. Third eye. You, your Guides and what you gain from the interaction.

With the infinity symbol we keep coming back on ourselves but it's not a 'back to square one' thing, we're above square one if you think of the symbol in three dimensions. And that's the understanding - we come back on ourselves. It's a bit like how we travel through space/time, believe it or not. As we go around the sun we don't actually go around in a circle, the circle is described by the centre of the planet as the reference. A point on the surface describes a very different pattern in space-time, and twice every 24 hours we cross our own Paths.

In quantum mechanics the infinity symbol is also the shape of one of the M strings, and those strings are the fundamental blocks of the physical Universe.

Let your imagination loose because it's as much a part of your consciousness as anything else. Right and wrong are judgement, noting more.

Now I have to confess this 3D, 5D thing goes over my head. Tried to do a little reading about it yesterday (in-between painting the hall) and from the description, I could see a little of myself in both. But still not all that clear on what it is.

It occurred to me last night I wonder why spirit try so hard to give us this spiritual information / knowledge. We'll be over there soon enough. Why not give us this time on the earth plane without spiritual interference. I wonder if the point is to reach spiritual maturation on the earth/physical realm.

PatryciaI'll give you what my Guide gave me when I was looking for a way to put it across. "It is encompassing." Think of the dimensions as colours of the rainbow, with each colour having its own frequency. Fifth-dimensional consciousness is the 'ability' to perceive five colours of the rainbow - which is kind of what you're doing. The first three are obvious - height, width, length. Time is a dimension, some say it doesn't exist but we have a perception of what we call time so to us it does, regardless of how we perceive it. All this third eye, synchronitiy, numbers... That's the fuzzy area where two colours blend into each other, you're a little 'above' the other four because you're tuning into Spirit-type stuff but you're not there quite yet because it doesn't feel as 'solid' as the other dimensions.

You could see a little of yourself in both, what does that tell you? Einstein said that genius is being able to hold two opposing concepts in your mind at the same time. The first four dimensions are a given, but the fifth is that you could encompass yourself being in two places at the same time - instead of dismissing one or the other. The majority of Spiritual people have cognitive dissonance or 'the lock on, lock out' principle where they lock onto something and lock the rest out, it's the easiest way to stop the dissonance waves in their heads. You didn't have that, with you there was this, that and both.

I don't know, you silly humans. We bust our chops to give you what you want and what do you do? You moan about it. Good grief! :tongue: OK, if we're going to be over there soon enough then stop; cancel your forum membership, stop going to mediums and put all things Spiritual out of your mind. You can take away the Spiritual 'interference' if you like, you have free will after all.

Didn't think so.:smile:

You are the point.

Patrycia-Rose

12-08-2017, 10:52 AM

Some would say voices in the head is schizophrenia so be careful of who you talk to about what. It's actually more normal than many would admit to, and many more would if perhaps not for the stigma. It's all good signs that you're tuned in and connected though, and the words in your third eye instead of your mind should tell you something too.

Rest assured, I don't talk to anyone that I would not feel comfortable with. My antenna for spiritually minded people, or people that are open without judgement, is pretty spot on these days.

The bit in bold: not sure what you were thinking here; my third eye has always been strongest, my strongest chakra and sometimes when my mind is a little racy or chaotic, they can get a message through with words in my third eye, rather than risk is getting skewed by my own mind. Is this your line of thinking here?

For some reason I feel the need to say that it would help your understanding to drop what you think of Christianity and focus solely on the 'message'. There's a lot of symbolism and wisdom in Christianity but the problem has been in it being usurped by certain people. If you forget that it'll make more sense and in many ways help your understanding. For instance, with the threes - Father, Son and Holy Ghost. The Father is Spirit, Son is the incarnation/physical and the Holy Ghost is consciousness. The trinity, the 'power of three' if you're into Paganism or the old TV series Charmed. Third eye. You, your Guides and what you gain from the interaction.

For some reason? I think maybe you're picking up my feeling that I detest all kinds of religion. Last year, when I started seeing the first gold symbol, which was the gold cross, it seriously worried me. I honestly thought I had some attachment which was having a joke at my expense. All the gold symbols stopped and then started again when I discovered the healing ability and the gold symbols suddenly made sense.

Also the number 3s I was incessantly receiving, when I eventually looked it up was linked to ascended masters working with me. Again, this was the healing. I'd already got the message that the cross was the highest form of protection for me and to call on it when I felt I needed protection from anything. I would ask and see the gold cross superimposed on an aura soma bottle, the colour of which would change accordingly. So it seemed logical to ask Ascended Master Jesus to assist in the healing and to protect me whilst I was doing it. I also asked him to help with my dowsing/sleep problem which worked a treat.

So I think you're right about treating the symbols as what they mean to me. I had a google after you mentioned paganism and crosses and anchors seemed to be used in all kinds of things, celtic, druidism etc, so I'd only associated the cross with Christianity because that's the only thing I knew from my school days.

I'll give you what my Guide gave me when I was looking for a way to put it across. "It is encompassing." Think of the dimensions as colours of the rainbow, with each colour having its own frequency. Fifth-dimensional consciousness is the 'ability' to perceive five colours of the rainbow - which is kind of what you're doing. The first three are obvious - height, width, length. Time is a dimension, some say it doesn't exist but we have a perception of what we call time so to us it does, regardless of how we perceive it. All this third eye, synchronictiy, numbers... That's the fuzzy area where two colours blend into each other, you're a little 'above' the other four because you're tuning into Spirit-type stuff but you're not there quite yet because it doesn't feel as 'solid' as the other dimensions.

I still don't quite get it. I notice 3D and 5D seems to come up a lot on the twin flame thread. I'm not too concerned though. I have a very curious nature and sometimes I hear of a phrase/word and shelve it and maybe in a few months/years, something will take me back to it, sometimes not.

Greenslade

13-08-2017, 12:18 PM

Rest assured, I don't talk to anyone that I would not feel comfortable with. My antenna for spiritually minded people, or people that are open without judgement, is pretty spot on these days.

The bit in bold: not sure what you were thinking here; my third eye has always been strongest, my strongest chakra and sometimes when my mind is a little racy or chaotic, they can get a message through with words in my third eye, rather than risk is getting skewed by my own mind. Is this your line of thinking here?In short, it's all about YOU. All of what you're going through and the reasons you're going through it. I don't know if that'll give you any comfort or not but it's there anyway. You know you're not the same as 'all the rest' and I have no idea where that is going. "Just felt the the need." More later...

For some reason? I think maybe you're picking up my feeling that I detest all kinds of religion. Last year, when I started seeing the first gold symbol, which was the gold cross, it seriously worried me. I honestly thought I had some attachment which was having a joke at my expense. All the gold symbols stopped and then started again when I discovered the healing ability and the gold symbols suddenly made sense.

Also the number 3s I was incessantly receiving, when I eventually looked it up was linked to ascended masters working with me. Again, this was the healing. I'd already got the message that the cross was the highest form of protection for me and to call on it when I felt I needed protection from anything. I would ask and see the gold cross superimposed on an aura soma bottle, the colour of which would change accordingly. So it seemed logical to ask Ascended Master Jesus to assist in the healing and to protect me whilst I was doing it. I also asked him to help with my dowsing/sleep problem which worked a treat.

So I think you're right about treating the symbols as what they mean to me. I had a google after you mentioned paganism and crosses and anchors seemed to be used in all kinds of things, celtic, druidism etc, so I'd only associated the cross with Christianity because that's the only thing I knew from my school days. Uuummm trying to put this across as simply as possible. I'm clairsentient and it's 'always on', although I'm never swamped, and with that some of what I've said is 'divine intervention'. I know you don't like religion because you told me in a previous thread, however... It's something you're familiar with and a good starting point for Spirit to 'latch onto' things that are deep within your psyche just the same. As is religion, regardless of how much you hate it. The best way to get some of this stuff through to you is to connect with what's familiar, the other thing is that some of it isn't actually religious but you think it is. Your gold cross isn't religious, it's symbolism belongs elsewhere. There are actually two symbols, the cross (more or a plus sign) and the gold. Being the highest protection for you is how you perceive it and I'm not saying that's wrong. What I am saying is that there's more, and it has nothing to do with religion.

The symbols don't just mean something to you, they ARE you - after a fashion. All religion is symbolism and a pointer to something greater.

I still don't quite get it. I notice 3D and 5D seems to come up a lot on the twin flame thread. I'm not too concerned though. I have a very curious nature and sometimes I hear of a phrase/word and shelve it and maybe in a few months/years, something will take me back to it, sometimes not.Where do your symbols come from? Your protection, healing, Ascended Masters, religion....? A realm beyond time and space perhaps? That's all 5D stuff and beyond.

By the way, the Golden Ones exist in the twelfth dimension. :smile:

Patrycia-Rose

14-08-2017, 10:28 AM

=Greenslade. You know you're not the same as 'all the rest' and I have no idea where that is going.

I've known that from a very young age, reinforced by people frequently telling me! Also, tbh, I also don't know where this is going. I question whether this is healing or not. I've been advised by the clairaudient group that the healing system wasn't complete. I then had several days of my third eye being filled with vivid magenta which I was told is the magenta colour ray and the message the system is now complete. The first session I did after this triggered the intense heat during the night, so it obviously can do something. Also my feeling is the first 40 sessions were practising, getting the feeling, becoming accustomed to working with the symbols, understanding how it works, becoming accustomed to working Clairaudiently again.

I agree about the symbols. I feel a lot more relaxed about them now. I've been getting the star yesterday.

So with the 3D 5D, would a simple way of looking at it be 3D is the physical/ earth plane and 5D spirit plane?

BY the way, the Golden Ones exist in the twelfth dimension
. Dare I ask?

Greenslade

15-08-2017, 08:32 AM

I've known that from a very young age, reinforced by people frequently telling me! Also, tbh, I also don't know where this is going. I question whether this is healing or not. I've been advised by the clairaudient group that the healing system wasn't complete. I then had several days of my third eye being filled with vivid magenta which I was told is the magenta colour ray and the message the system is now complete. The first session I did after this triggered the intense heat during the night, so it obviously can do something. Also my feeling is the first 40 sessions were practising, getting the feeling, becoming accustomed to working with the symbols, understanding how it works, becoming accustomed to working Clairaudiently again.

I agree about the symbols. I feel a lot more relaxed about them now. I've been getting the star yesterday.

So with the 3D 5D, would a simple way of looking at it be 3D is the physical/ earth plane and 5D spirit plane?You should check out "Old Souls", you'll probably find it interesting although watch out for the airy-fairy stuff.

Spirit often gives us what we need at the time in a way that fits our consciousness as it was then. That doesn't mean it's a falsehood though, it's more like telling a child that there's a man on the moon because it's a lovely inspiring thought, and celestial mechanics would blow their mind anyway. The other thing is how we perceive healing, which is sometimes very different to how doctors might depending on what's wrong, like a Chinese healer playing with our feet to heal our head. Whatever's happening it won't be harmful and it'll be for your greater good although it might not always seem that way.

My own experience is that there's always more to it, perhaps they don't tell us everything because the mind would start throwing its toys out of the pram. There's definitely an expansion of some kind going on with you, that much is obvious and chances are it's all connected. Often the best thing is to focus on the moment and forget the rest, that way expectation and second-guessing don't get under your feet.

It'll probably start flowing together a little better now and begin to make some sense but the chances are it'll feel very different to what it did before, so while you may be going through the same things you'll experience them very differently.

Pretty much, 5D and up is Spirit plane and how many dimensions there are depends on what you read. Some say it's infinite, mathematics can model ten but for me it's twelve. Very basically; 5-6d are astral planes, 6-10 are angelic/ascended masters and 11-12 are what we'd call gods - although they're not actually.

The star is a 5-cornered shape and we're talking 5 dimensions - which is what ascension is tapping into. We are also made of star-stuff, literally. Stars shine, radiate out, rays.... If you're becoming more comfortable with the symbols it means you're tuning into that higher consciousness, so I'll leave you to make the references.

Dare I ask?I'm surprised you haven't had a visit, but it's also likely you perceive them differently. Generally, shining ones?

Patrycia-Rose

15-08-2017, 05:07 PM

Fascinating post, Greenslade, thank you so much.

You should check out "Old Souls", you'll probably find it interesting although watch out for the airy-fairy stuff.

I'm aware of the term old soul. I googled and the first article that came up was this: https://lonerwolf.com/9-signs-youre-an-old-soul

I answered a Massive Yes to each question. The solitary loner, the love of wisdom, knowledge and truth, spiritually inclined from a young age, introspective, extremely sensitive and really not bothered with material things; as long as it's clean and functional that'll do me, definitely introverted (about 90% on the Myers Brigg) and more so the older I get. No fear of passing over whatsoever, in fact there is many a time when I think I'm ready to go now I've packed so much into life and I'm very aware of my dad, who's my hero and my Nan and cat who'll be over there. But ..... it would seem life isn't finished with me yet, so we'll continue on and see what happens.

Funnily enough, in my beloved aura soma, there is a bottle number 47 called The Old Soul Bottle which is Blue over Lemon and I see this bottle often. Also, in the first and only ever aura soma reading, I chose that bottle as one of the four bottles you choose from over 100.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb47oldsoul.h tml

Spirit often gives us what we need at the time in a way that fits our consciousness as it was then.

Yes, I agree with this. Also, being extremely sensitive, I need time to assimilate new experiences/information within the physical world too. This is the densest energy here in the physical world with all the energies around us and being independent and working full time, I need to get the balance right between the physical and spiritual and often one will help me cope with the other.

There's definitely an expansion of some kind going on with you, that much is obvious and chances are it's all connected. Often the best thing is to focus on the moment and forget the rest, that way expectation and second-guessing don't get under your feet.

Yes, there's something going on definitely, since last June, where it's all heading I don't know, but I feel this is all happening anyway, there's no stopping it. Spirit have got an agenda and they're making me stick to it.

It'll probably start flowing together a little better now and begin to make some sense but the chances are it'll feel very different to what it did before, so while you may be going through the same things you'll experience them very differently.

I'm getting you're into your clairsentient mode here as the healing energy, if that's what it is, does in fact feel different than it was before. Before the system was complete with the magenta, I could hold a session for an hour and the energy moving around my body was very lively. Now, it's done in about 20 minutes to half an hour and I really have to focus to feel it. I can definitely still feel it warm and tingly in my feet.

And I'm really happy as I've had the message to start using crystals. I used crystal healing years ago but stopped for some reason. I noticed when I use crystals, the healing energy starts up spontaneously in response. When I asked them this as I was curious as to whether the crystals were triggering the healing energy or if it was the other way around, they said "like attracts like", so they must be of similar energy. I've also had a surge of energy a couple of times when I've felt a strong emotional, positive response to music. It's all rather fascinating really.

The star is a 5-cornered shape and we're talking 5 dimensions - which is what ascension is tapping into.

Ah yes, when you point it out, it seems clear.

I'm surprised you haven't had a visit, but it's also likely you perceive them differently. Generally, shining ones.

Maybe they're the flashes of blue light I get frequently, although medium told me that's the angelic realm. He also told me I'd be seeing white light at some point. I have seen my passed cat twice and a couple of spirit people before (one in my lounge) so whilst that's only happened a couple of times, I'm obviously able to see spirit beings.

Thank you Greenslade for the conversation, you're helping me to make sense of this journey, as it does seem odd at times. I'm comfortable with all the things individually, like the feeling of the energy in my body (as it feels the same as all the cranio sacral therapy sessions I had), the clairaudient group, the crystals, the colours, even becoming accustomed to the symbols. The bit that's odd is what does it mean, combining it all together? That's where the mystery lies.

Patrycia

shivatar

17-08-2017, 12:48 PM

Patrycia-Rose

17-08-2017, 04:42 PM

Who we are remains the same before and after. Which parts are illuminated and concealed changes. Who we are never changes. .

I agree, I often think that all I've been going through since last June, I don't feel any different, think any different from before. Not sure if it's all worth it but it feels like I have no choice.

shivatar

18-08-2017, 03:09 AM

I agree, I often think that all I've been going through since last June, I don't feel any different, think any different from before. Not sure if it's all worth it but it feels like I have no choice.

If you are going through changes then you should feel and think differently.

Who you are doesn't change, your deepest identity. Your "false" identity, your ego, should change. What you think and feel comes from your ego. If your ego is changing, and it should be changing if you are going through any kind of spiritual transformation or ascension, you ought to be having very different thoughts.

Patrycia-Rose

18-08-2017, 10:29 AM

Greenslade

18-08-2017, 12:27 PM

Fascinating post, Greenslade, thank you so much.Always my pleasure.

I'm aware of the term old soul. I googled and the first article that came up was this: https://lonerwolf.com/9-signs-youre-an-old-soul

I answered a Massive Yes to each question. The solitary loner, the love of wisdom, knowledge and truth, spiritually inclined from a young age, introspective, extremely sensitive and really not bothered with material things; as long as it's clean and functional that'll do me, definitely introverted (about 90% on the Myers Brigg) and more so the older I get. No fear of passing over whatsoever, in fact there is many a time when I think I'm ready to go now I've packed so much into life and I'm very aware of my dad, who's my hero and my Nan and cat who'll be over there. But ..... it would seem life isn't finished with me yet, so we'll continue on and see what happens.

Funnily enough, in my beloved aura soma, there is a bottle number 47 called The Old Soul Bottle which is Blue over Lemon and I see this bottle often. Also, in the first and only ever aura soma reading, I chose that bottle as one of the four bottles you choose from over 100.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb47oldsoul.h tml It's kind of amazing when stuff like that happens, just when you think there's nobody like you that pops up and suddenly you're just the same as everyone else who thinks they're so alone and different. Gotta love that stuff.

Some would say that thinking you're ready to go now is a bit morbid but there's something strangely freeing, you're ready to release what holds you to this plane of existence in a devil-may-care kind of way. There's little to hold you back, whether that's a good thing or not... lol. While it would be nice to reconnect with Souls that you haven't seen for a while, there's still a job to do just the same. When you put that and the Old Soul together.....

My dad's over there but he snaps into place every time I think of him here, we'll get to meet for the first time. There was always something about my Nan that I could never quite put my finger on so it'll be interesting to find some answers. No cats though, but certainly a very special dog.

Funnily enough the number 47 is about right, but that's a long story involving Arthur Dent, Ford Prefect and a computer called Deep Thought. Deep Thought came up with the answer of 42 because he was asked the wrong question. Interesting that you chcose a four and a seven.

Yes, I agree with this. Also, being extremely sensitive, I need time to assimilate new experiences/information within the physical world too. This is the densest energy here in the physical world with all the energies around us and being independent and working full time, I need to get the balance right between the physical and spiritual and often one will help me cope with the other.Here's the secret that nobody wants to hear. It is not 'this' vs 'that'; there is 'this', there is 'that' and there is both. Balance implies that two things are in opposition - which they're not. Energy simply flows because there is a potential difference, not a polarity. Yes they are interdependent or related but not in opposition or polarised. The physical and Spiritual are an energetic system that will regulate itself as you already know, however different parts of the process come into focus depending on your perspective at the time.

You are both physical and Spiritual so what are you trying to balance?

Yes, there's something going on definitely, since last June, where it's all heading I don't know, but I feel this is all happening anyway, there's no stopping it. Spirit have got an agenda and they're making me stick to it. I hadn't actually thought of a date but thinking about it, June sounds about right. It's going to happen regardless and we're a part of that process. Looking back on my Life often I'm glad certain things have happened, even though at the time I would have preferred not to have gone through the experience. It's still full of weirdness but in the end we'll realise what we went through and the reasons for doing it, and we'll be glad it happened that way. We've just got to get there first.

I'm getting you're into your clairsentient mode here as the healing energy, if that's what it is, does in fact feel different than it was before. Before the system was complete with the magenta, I could hold a session for an hour and the energy moving around my body was very lively. Now, it's done in about 20 minutes to half an hour and I really have to focus to feel it. I can definitely still feel it warm and tingly in my feet.

And I'm really happy as I've had the message to start using crystals. I used crystal healing years ago but stopped for some reason. I noticed when I use crystals, the healing energy starts up spontaneously in response. When I asked them this as I was curious as to whether the crystals were triggering the healing energy or if it was the other way around, they said "like attracts like", so they must be of similar energy. I've also had a surge of energy a couple of times when I've felt a strong emotional, positive response to music. It's all rather fascinating really.There are a couple of factors involved in your sensing the energy; one is what you become used to and the other is what you need. The more you feel the energy the more your senses become used to them so you'll notice them less. Like a stone in your shoe, initially it's painful but after some time you get used to it and almost forget it's there. What you need plays it's part too, at the start it was probably longer duration and higher intensity but not not so much. That you have to focus to feel it should tell you something.

Yeah like attracts like, it's a harmonises/resonates thing and crystals either channel/focus or amplify energies. I can use a few things for scrying/pendulum work but crystal certainly makes it more energetic that's for sure. What happens when I work with pendulums is that Spirit sends down energies through the crystal and there's a kind of energetic 'circuit' with the hand that holds the crystal, my body and the hand the crystal is above. 'Yes', 'No' and 'Stop' energies feel a little different to each other and the crystal pendulum responds accordingly to the questions I've asked. I'd think your healing energy and crystals would work much the same way, the crystals either amplifying or focusing the energies and you'd notice it more' obviously.

Try going onto YouTube and searching for "432 music". Pick anything that takes your fancy but make sure you're in your sitting comfortably, and for best results use headphones. The 432 music is a good start but watch out for the higher frequency music because it can slap your consciousness sideways. Literally. If it does zone you out just relax and give yourself time to come back.

Ah yes, when you point it out, it seems clear.Which says a lot about you.

Maybe they're the flashes of blue light I get frequently, although medium told me that's the angelic realm. He also told me I'd be seeing white light at some point. I have seen my passed cat twice and a couple of spirit people before (one in my lounge) so whilst that's only happened a couple of times, I'm obviously able to see spirit beings.

Thank you Greenslade for the conversation, you're helping me to make sense of this journey, as it does seem odd at times. I'm comfortable with all the things individually, like the feeling of the energy in my body (as it feels the same as all the cranio sacral therapy sessions I had), the clairaudient group, the crystals, the colours, even becoming accustomed to the symbols. The bit that's odd is what does it mean, combining it all together? That's where the mystery lies.

PatryciaWhat colour is consciousness? Actually it's not a dumb question because it helps to understand what we can process of the Spirit realms and how. Consciousness has no colour so it has to be represented in some way that our minds can grasp. Flashes of light are either the angelic realm or your eyes going funny, and what colour you see depends on what's around you or what you're perceiving; that you're seeing anything at all is testimony to your perceptiveness. Blue is usually associated with Spirit/Spirituality and higher dimensional vibrations, yellow is higher frequency/dimensional and green is often healing. It's a consciousness avatar/symbolism thing. We can't actually literally see the higher dimensional vibrations obviously, but the next best thing for our minds is a representation - as in a colour.

It's coming from the same place as your numbers. Your numbers are more 'third party', you're not sensing them directly but you are sensing/seeing the colours so with them there's a more direct tuning in going on. I hope that makes sense because it's not easy to explain. What colour you see also have meaning. To understand why you're seeing blue, ask yourself how you feel seeing the sky above you. White light is all the colours of the rainbow combined - including blue, and that's the secret. All the colours together, without the so-called low vibrational colours the rainbow would be very different - even monochrome.

I'm not going to guess where this is going with you, that would be a bit silly to say the least. For the moment you have this internal/external, here/there, angelic realm/human thing going on but I think come time it's going to become more of a grey area. The Universe isn't black-and-white it's all the colours of the rainbow and more than we know. You are not black-and-white, you are a rainbow yourself.

You're very welcome Partycia but the thanks are a little premature perhaps because in a minute you'll be wanting to slap me.

The best answers come when we ask the right questions, so asking the right question becomes the tricky part but here's the kicker though, most people get it completely tail-about-face. You are the answer looking for the question in this Journey to Self. What is the question?

Hadarian

18-08-2017, 06:37 PM

If you are going through changes then you should feel and think differently.

Who you are doesn't change, your deepest identity. Your "false" identity, your ego, should change. What you think and feel comes from your ego. If your ego is changing, and it should be changing if you are going through any kind of spiritual transformation or ascension, you ought to be having very different thoughts.

This is the only post on this thread I can actually understand vis-a-vis "ascension". To be fair, I did not read all of every post either. I was scanning for some words I could relate to and understand with regards to my own extremely weak grasp on the concept of "ascension". It's one of the New Age buzz words that changes definition depending upon who you ask, and nobody can really define it or explain what it is. That is the conclusion when everyone you ask says it means something different.

I was trying to find something about ascension, with the total solar eclipse and the energy of it, and with all that chaos that's going down in my life right now, which have really convinced me, especially in the last year and a half (since December, 2015, specifically), that there is some kind of monumental transition I am in the process of going through--ascension? I don't know) I am living the tower tarot card (which has anyway always been applicable in my life anyway, so nothing new). And in particular I have been in a constant state of change, advancement, since a huge breakdown in 2008. Nothing stays the same, I don't stay the same, and my life is accordingly constantly in a state of limbo, unsettled and rootlessness.

According to the proported physical symptoms of ascension, I have been in a process of ascension for over 20 years. What matters, in my opinion, is how are you changing inside--how are you changing your perspectives and feelings relating to different subjects in your life, are you coming closer to your soul--not how is your body being affected. If the process of coming closer to your soul and thereby elevating your perspectives and emotions regarding problem issues and themes in your life is not ascension, then I don't think ascension matters at all. Who benefits from buzzing in the ears, dizziness, exhaustion etc? If no inner or non-physical improvements occur, who cares? It's just a health issue, or maybe the physical manifestation of some emotional block or issue that needs to be healed. Unless you are diligently and actively working to heal yourself from the emotional problems and triggers your life has bequeathed to you, which will produce physical symptoms when left unaddressed, then maybe the symptoms are the manifestation of neglected emotional problems.

shivatar

20-08-2017, 02:23 AM

The changes I went through last year in the awakening phase were both physical and emotional, I felt overwhelming anxiety for no identifiable reason, days of no energy, bouts of crying for no identifiable reason.

With the ascension phase, it's been deep heat in the spine, intense heat in the whole body, disturbed sleep patterns, increased synchronicity particularly with numbers and the development of a possible healing ability. BUt, I don't think or feel differently about anything or any subject than how I did before.

Maybe your ascension still needs to rise higher before your thoughts are changed.

I remember during mine it was physical changes first, then emotional, then intellectual, then my ability to witness inner silence/ be present. It was like 4 distinct stages. There may have been a 5th, but I don't have memory of it. I remember thinking things about witnessing, silent observing, the mystery of the universe, etc. Things that cannot be understood with the mind but must be experienced to be understood. It was a very strange phase, but definitely the most satisfying.

Maybe your ascension won't include what mine did because you are already so developed before your ascension.

Or maybe you just haven't reached the intellectual changes part of the journey.

shivatar

20-08-2017, 02:39 AM

I would describe ascension as a radical change in the way we experience consciousness.

For some this change takes years to fully integrate. For some it takes months. For some it's impossible, or just too much work to be even considered (ergo possible, but seemingly impossible. Automatically repressed into the subconscious)

I don't think it would be a change in consciousness, because I believe consciousness is a steady constant. It's our perspective that changes with ascension. Our perspective is what changes with ascension.

I'm sorry to hear your life has been such a struggle. The tower is definitely not an easy card to live.

I think my tarot card would be either the magus, or the devil and the devil reversed.

This is the only post on this thread I can actually understand vis-a-vis "ascension". To be fair, I did not read all of every post either. I was scanning for some words I could relate to and understand with regards to my own extremely weak grasp on the concept of "ascension". It's one of the New Age buzz words that changes definition depending upon who you ask, and nobody can really define it or explain what it is. That is the conclusion when everyone you ask says it means something different.

I was trying to find something about ascension, with the total solar eclipse and the energy of it, and with all that chaos that's going down in my life right now, which have really convinced me, especially in the last year and a half (since December, 2015, specifically), that there is some kind of monumental transition I am in the process of going through--ascension? I don't know) I am living the tower tarot card (which has anyway always been applicable in my life anyway, so nothing new). And in particular I have been in a constant state of change, advancement, since a huge breakdown in 2008. Nothing stays the same, I don't stay the same, and my life is accordingly constantly in a state of limbo, unsettled and rootlessness.

According to the proported physical symptoms of ascension, I have been in a process of ascension for over 20 years. What matters, in my opinion, is how are you changing inside--how are you changing your perspectives and feelings relating to different subjects in your life, are you coming closer to your soul--not how is your body being affected. If the process of coming closer to your soul and thereby elevating your perspectives and emotions regarding problem issues and themes in your life is not ascension, then I don't think ascension matters at all. Who benefits from buzzing in the ears, dizziness, exhaustion etc? If no inner or non-physical improvements occur, who cares? It's just a health issue, or maybe the physical manifestation of some emotional block or issue that needs to be healed. Unless you are diligently and actively working to heal yourself from the emotional problems and triggers your life has bequeathed to you, which will produce physical symptoms when left unaddressed, then maybe the symptoms are the manifestation of neglected emotional problems.

Patrycia-Rose

20-08-2017, 09:00 AM

Some would say that thinking you're ready to go now is a bit morbid but there's something strangely freeing, you're ready to release what holds you to this plane of existence in a devil-may-care kind of way.

Oh completely. It's not from a morbid perspective, it's from a totally "not so attached to this earth plane" and ready to move on and see what's next. It fact I find it a comforting thought because when things get tough, I think what's the worse that could happen - passing - and that's new life. I see it as a win win situation. I carry on living - win. I pass over - win!!

but certainly a very special dog.

And as we know, our pets pass onto as we do. I've seen my lovely cat a couple of times in spirit form and have heard him too. Have you had any visitations from your dog?

Deep Thought came up with the answer of 42 because he was asked the wrong question.

I thought the meaning of life was 42. Wasn't that the number of Fox Mulder's apartment? (Currently, am re-watching Series One of the X-files, one of my all time favourite tv series

There are a couple of factors involved in your sensing the energy; one is what you become used to and the other is what you need. The more you feel the energy the more your senses become used to them so you'll notice them less. Like a stone in your shoe, initially it's painful but after some time you get used to it and almost forget it's there. What you need plays it's part too, at the start it was probably longer duration and higher intensity but not not so much. That you have to focus to feel it should tell you something.

The crystals, in combination with the healing energy, is fascinating. I feel certain crystals better than others. I recently had the message to use some snow quartz spheres that I have and last night, my hands were so hot and the warmth in feet was extraordinary. I'm also getting used to the healing energy starting up by itself, sometimes just for a few minutes. It feels like it's getting stronger in this new completed system.

Also, the other night, I pulled a card from my new Earth Wisdom oracle, I asked what was the outcome of this healing energy - and I pulled 'divine connection'. And this morning, I pulled "This is your Life Purpose" from the Archangel Michael deck - I've never had that card before.

Try going onto YouTube and searching for "432 music". Pick anything that takes your fancy but make sure you're in your sitting comfortably, and for best results use headphones. The 432 music is a good start but watch out for the higher frequency music because it can slap your consciousness sideways. Literally. If it does zone you out just relax and give yourself time to come back.

Mr G, this is amazing. I've listened to 528 hz and others before. But I tried the 432 but when I was listening I saw a video come up on the right side by Matt Khan. I thought it looked interesting but what I heard was really amazing. It's just what I needed to hear, all about how this is not a journey of our consciousness but a journey of the body. I highly recommend it. It made me cry several times and I know if that happens, I've hit on the truth!
So thank you for that, if you hadn't recommend the music, I wouldn't have found the video. :hug3:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JL710Iky6pE

It's coming from the same place as your numbers.

The numbers thing has shifted. I'm no longer seeing sequences of 1s, 2, 3s etc. 99% of the time when I look at the clock it says something like 14:41, 15:55, 12:21 etc. It feels the message behind individual numbers was one phase, but this new phase, it's like they're letting me know they're around.

It's been an extremely difficult week last week, little physical energy with that lack of feeling. I googled and found ascension symptoms, the void, which seems to describe it well.

Thanks Mr G, for your guidance / thoughts / support. It's really helping me along in the process. :smile:

Greenslade

21-08-2017, 08:33 AM

Oh completely. It's not from a morbid perspective, it's from a totally "not so attached to this earth plane" and ready to move on and see what's next. It fact I find it a comforting thought because when things get tough, I think what's the worse that could happen - passing - and that's new life. I see it as a win win situation. I carry on living - win. I pass over - win!!\It brings out a kind of Bohemian Rhapsody in me and it often feels like it doesn't really matter, it's been useful a few times because I've had some close brushes with death and just carried on. All the drama just drops away and doesn't make anything worse.

And as we know, our pets pass onto as we do. I've seen my lovely cat a couple of times in spirit form and have heard him too. Have you had any visitations from your dog?I haven't. no, but he visits my mother quite frequently and her current dog reacts as though he's seeing something.

I thought the meaning of life was 42. Wasn't that the number of Fox Mulder's apartment? (Currently, am re-watching Series One of the X-files, one of my all time favourite tv seriesI haven't seen the X-Files for years, might have to dig around to see if I can't get a hold of it again.

Rather than explain everything - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ZLtcTZP2js

Douglas Adams should have been hailed a Spiritual guru for his books. No doubt whoever wrote the X-Files was a fan of Adams'.

The crystals, in combination with the healing energy, is fascinating. I feel certain crystals better than others. I recently had the message to use some snow quartz spheres that I have and last night, my hands were so hot and the warmth in feet was extraordinary. I'm also getting used to the healing energy starting up by itself, sometimes just for a few minutes. It feels like it's getting stronger in this new completed system.

Also, the other night, I pulled a card from my new Earth Wisdom oracle, I asked what was the outcome of this healing energy - and I pulled 'divine connection'. And this morning, I pulled "This is your Life Purpose" from the Archangel Michael deck - I've never had that card before.That reminds me, I have some amethyst marbles tucked away that I was given a few years ago and never did anything with. Might have to dig them out sometime soon so thanks for the reminder.

Crystals have their own properties and certain crystals are better for some things than others, and they also resonate with you. They can focus the energies so I guess this is what's happening with your snow crystals, they're better tuned to you and the healing energies. Getting the shivers now for some reason. What also might be happening is that the energies are coming to you more automatically because the system is all better tuned (by the way - three - you, energies, crystals).

There's a lot of divine intervention happening in your Life right now, starting with the healing. I'm not going to guess at why because it's your Journey so it's something you could explore if you have a mind to. Obviously though you needed it for whatever reason, that's pretty damned obvious because something like that wouldn't be random. The healing itself is/has a divine connection because it's coming from Spirit, and I would think that something that's coming through this strong is a part of your Life's Purpose. One of the reasons the card came through now is that it's happening and you're tuning in more. I'd hazard a guess and say that you feel different when you're using the cards and it's deeper than you'd expect considering the changes in your perception because of the healing.

Mr G, this is amazing. I've listened to 528 hz and others before. But I tried the 432 but when I was listening I saw a video come up on the right side by Matt Khan. I thought it looked interesting but what I heard was really amazing. It's just what I needed to hear, all about how this is not a journey of our consciousness but a journey of the body. I highly recommend it. It made me cry several times and I know if that happens, I've hit on the truth!
So thank you for that, if you hadn't recommend the music, I wouldn't have found the video. :hug3:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JL710Iky6pE
It's cool when that happens, isn't it? Didn't realise you'd been listening to that kind of music but I was given that to tell you, probably so you'd come across the Matt Khan video and the rest is history. What comes up on the right side isn't by chance, YouTube is designed to do that so that you'll go back and find similar things to what you've already watched. It's in line with your card from the Archangel Michael deck and the numbers, the healing.... And of course your emotions - which are energy in motion, by the way. Don't know if you're joining the dots but in case you're not it's worth the mention.

I'm getting serious shivers just thinking about watching it so thank you. I think.

The numbers thing has shifted. I'm no longer seeing sequences of 1s, 2, 3s etc. 99% of the time when I look at the clock it says something like 14:41, 15:55, 12:21 etc. It feels the message behind individual numbers was one phase, but this new phase, it's like they're letting me know they're around.

It's been an extremely difficult week last week, little physical energy with that lack of feeling. I googled and found ascension symptoms, the void, which seems to describe it well.

Thanks Mr G, for your guidance / thoughts / support. It's really helping me along in the process. :smile:Yeah, the combinations are in line with what's going on with you, the sequences mean they're 'not so basic'. They're always around but it's your vibrations that's making the difference here, you'd have to have the right vibrations to feel them in the first place. Your vibrations are 'getting higher' (to keep it non-technical for now) so instead of single numbers you have sequences, I suppose the difference between single words and short sentences if you like. Your head can manage short sentences now so they can give you them - it's a 'baby steps' thing.

To use the old adage it's a half-full glass thing, you have to pour out some of what's in there already so you can pour in some new. Pouring in any old stuff just to fill the void isn't 'positive' at all. Often with changes as intense as you're going through the rest of your system needs time to adjust, remember that your physical energy and emotions (they're energy too) are all a part of the same system. Your healing is more of a clearing out of the 'old' energies to allow the 'new' to come through, (rather than a fix something wrong) so right now you're in that 'neither here nor there' space. It will pass and it's what you need, if that's any consolation. Keep the chin up, trooper.

You're very welcome Patrycia, as always. Just glad to be of some kind of help. By the way, did you know you were 'infectious'?

Patrycia-Rose

23-08-2017, 02:08 PM

Crystals have their own properties and certain crystals are better for some things than others, and they also resonate with you. They can focus the energies so I guess this is what's happening with your snow crystals, they're better tuned to you and the healing energies. Getting the shivers now for some reason. What also might be happening is that the energies are coming to you more automatically because the system is all better tuned (by the way - three - you, energies, crystals).

It's so interesting because in the past I've always programmed crystals for a specific purpose but I'm getting the message via my pendulum not to programme, just cleanse. Some of them have got hot really quickly, especially the black tourmaline, which I'm using currently. When I asked my guides why I needed to use crystals as well as the energy they said that (bearing in mind I was painting the hallway at the time) it would be like painting the garage door, I could either do it myself or get someone else to do it. Interesting analogy.

[QUOTE]There's a lot of divine intervention happening in your Life right now, starting with the healing. I'm not going to guess at why because it's your Journey so it's something you could explore if you have a mind to. Obviously though you needed it for whatever reason, that's pretty damned obvious because something like that wouldn't be random. The healing itself is/has a divine connection because it's coming from Spirit, and I would think that something that's coming through this strong is a part of your Life's Purpose.

I agree with all that, particularly the bit about not being random, I hadn't thought of it that way. Whatever is happening is meant to happen and wherever its taking me is also meant to be, I would like to think though that it's something that would be of benefit to others.

It's cool when that happens, isn't it? Didn't realise you'd been listening to that kind of music but I was given that to tell you, probably so you'd come across the Matt Khan video and the rest is history. What comes up on the right side isn't by chance, YouTube is designed to do that so that you'll go back and find similar things to what you've already watched. It's in line with your card from the Archangel Michael deck and the numbers, the healing.... And of course your emotions - which are energy in motion, by the way. Don't know if you're joining the dots but in case you're not it's worth the mention.

Not quite joining the dots yet but I'm not in any hurry, this will all unfold in its own time and way.

I'm getting serious shivers just thinking about watching it so thank you. I think.

I'd be most interested to know what you think.

Yeah, the combinations are in line with what's going on with you, the sequences mean they're 'not so basic'. They're always around but it's your vibrations that's making the difference here, you'd have to have the right vibrations to feel them in the first place. Your vibrations are 'getting higher' (to keep it non-technical for now) so instead of single numbers you have sequences, I suppose the difference between single words and short sentences if you like. Your head can manage short sentences now so they can give you them - it's a 'baby steps' thing.

The numbers have gone crazy! I'm seeing about ten or more number sequences a day. The mileage on the car on Monday 133255, noticed the odd 6 and 9s coming in so need to look those up at some point. Still had no 4s, seemed to have missed that completely. But something must be prompting me to look at the time when I see these numbers. I see the number sequences before I see what the time is - if that makes sense.

Your healing is more of a clearing out of the 'old' energies to allow the 'new' to come through, (rather than a fix something wrong).

I think you might be right as much as I would like to think of it healing a couple of minor but irritating health issues. Maybe that will come later.

The other thing that's happened last few days is my dowsing has suggested a couple of essences which on paper didn't make sense when I read the description. It made me feel a little flat and low and couldn't understand why it was saying this, I happened to be watching another Matt video on ascension and he said, at that precise moment, that if a choice you're making doesn't feel good in the body it's unlikely to be a good choice and to go by how your body feels in making a decision. So I thought well based on that information the answer is no, I'm not going to take any essences. That then prompted me to deviceless dowse to ask if I needed the essence and got a strong no. I hadn't deviceless dowsed for ages and I suddenly wondered about communicating with my body with what I'm trying to heal and to ask it what it needs. I was also getting the message from my guides to have fun with the healing energy in experimenting with what else I could combine it with besides crystals.

Then my pendulum said to choose a card from my Earth Wisdom deck but that to dowse for it. It does that when it wants to give me a certain message. So I dowsed and the card was Communucation! So it looks as though I'm going to be doing some work this weekend getting in touch with my body to see what it needs to heal. Had loads of flashes of blue light last night.

You're very welcome Patrycia, as always. Just glad to be of some kind of help. By the way, did you know you were 'infectious'.

I didn't but thank you and I'm glad that you get something from our exchanges :smile:

Patrycia

Greenslade

24-08-2017, 10:05 AM

It's so interesting because in the past I've always programmed crystals for a specific purpose but I'm getting the message via my pendulum not to programme, just cleanse. Some of them have got hot really quickly, especially the black tourmaline, which I'm using currently. When I asked my guides why I needed to use crystals as well as the energy they said that (bearing in mind I was painting the hallway at the time) it would be like painting the garage door, I could either do it myself or get someone else to do it. Interesting analogy.Here's something for you to think about if you want to programme some crystal - your body is a carbon-based crystalline structure. Just a thought.

A lot of it has to do with the state of your mind, it's kind of like when you go through a little ritual before you meditate - lock the front door, put on music, lights candles.... By the time you're ready to sit down you're all but there already. Similarly with crystals, programming puts you into that frame of mind - not the crystals themselves. The only way to change the properties of the crystal is to change its molecular structure, so if you've got some lead and you want a new gold ring? Programming is a bit of a strong word but when you do your ritual you're programming your mind, or putting yourself into that mindset.

The other option is to envision, basically you create a picture as possible in your mind's eye. The picture itself doesn't matter, what's important is that it's the strongest one you can come up with. Use crystals or envision, whichever one works best with you. What might also work is envisioning your healing is already complete, but be prepared for not-so-instant results because this is the lowest density after all.

I agree with all that, particularly the bit about not being random, I hadn't thought of it that way. Whatever is happening is meant to happen and wherever its taking me is also meant to be, I would like to think though that it's something that would be of benefit to others. OK, do one hundred lines. "I am the answer looking for the question."

Sit yourself down quietly one night and ask yourself one question. "How different would the Universe be if I had never existed?" And if you could project yourself into the future?

Not quite joining the dots yet but I'm not in any hurry, this will all unfold in its own time and way.Joining the dots is something I enjoy doing, others perhaps not so much but each to their own after all. But just allowing the Universe unfold puts you more in harmony with it.

I'd be most interested to know what you think.Actually it was pretty interesting in so many ways and even made me emotional - but lately that isn't so hard. The Universe has been coming back at me lately and this is no exception, it seems I'm heading in the right direction after all.

In many ways he's right, there's this conflict between the body and the consciousness although that isn't quite the way I'd put it. Very often there are traumas that have hit us harder and deeper than we'd like to think, and they've completely changed the paradigms that we move forwards with. In the short term we come up with answers and a part of us has healed while another isn't even close to healing. He mentioned cellular memory and that's actually backed up with research done my Matsuru Emoto and his imprinting water.

I've been going through a lot of clearing out the old stuff and digging deeply into myself - root canal work for the Soul I suppose. Much of it is coming to terms with what's happened in the past and strangely enough it's come after I popped the cork on a bottle of single malt whiskey, long story but that was an acknowledgement for me. The whiskey was given to me as part of a regional award at work and I was having a hard time acknowledging that. Not long afterwards it became easier to acknowledge that I still had things to shift, and much of it was making me very emotional. I've been giving myself time to process whatever I feel without the labels - what I feel is what I feel, it's part of me and that's it. Listening to what Matt's saying was very much confirmation so deeply, thank you for the link. It does feel like the end of conflict. I'm reminded of a Johnny Seven gun sitting around that I need to drag out of the cupboard one day and clean. That's going to be a huge acknowledgement in many ways and it's going to be very emotional too. Long story..

The numbers have gone crazy! I'm seeing about ten or more number sequences a day. The mileage on the car on Monday 133255, noticed the odd 6 and 9s coming in so need to look those up at some point. Still had no 4s, seemed to have missed that completely. But something must be prompting me to look at the time when I see these numbers. I see the number sequences before I see what the time is - if that makes sense.As Alan Watts said, "When we lose our minds we come to our senses." No craziness, just more senses. And yes, you have missed the fours completely and that's the fun part. The card you dowsed for was Communication and there you have some, but who is communicating with whom about what?

I think you might be right as much as I would like to think of it healing a couple of minor but irritating health issues. Maybe that will come later.

The other thing that's happened last few days is my dowsing has suggested a couple of essences which on paper didn't make sense when I read the description. It made me feel a little flat and low and couldn't understand why it was saying this, I happened to be watching another Matt video on ascension and he said, at that precise moment, that if a choice you're making doesn't feel good in the body it's unlikely to be a good choice and to go by how your body feels in making a decision. So I thought well based on that information the answer is no, I'm not going to take any essences. That then prompted me to deviceless dowse to ask if I needed the essence and got a strong no. I hadn't deviceless dowsed for ages and I suddenly wondered about communicating with my body with what I'm trying to heal and to ask it what it needs. I was also getting the message from my guides to have fun with the healing energy in experimenting with what else I could combine it with besides crystals.

Then my pendulum said to choose a card from my Earth Wisdom deck but that to dowse for it. It does that when it wants to give me a certain message. So I dowsed and the card was Communucation! So it looks as though I'm going to be doing some work this weekend getting in touch with my body to see what it needs to heal. Had loads of flashes of blue light last night.I don't know why but I'm being told to give you this.

Often the cause of disease is dis-ease, when we are not in harmony with ourselves and/or the Universe. Just like a winter's night can make us miserable and prone to colds, so our emotional and Spiritual dis-ease can manifest into physical ailments or ailments of our emotional or Spiritual selves. Often those 'selves' or aspects of ourselves need healing too and we don't even realise it. It seems as though as you write this you're still coming to terms with your own abilities - use the crystals, don't use them, get essence, essence doesn't make sense - which might be manifesting into minor health issues. It's your body's way of telling you something isn't quite right yet.

I think the idea of having fun with the crystals is for you to find out that you have the choice to use them or not, which perhaps you didn't know you had before. It's really cool though, isn't it? There's something very satisfying when so many things start coming together and making sense, and this bounces off that and along with he other. It's as though the Universe is starting to harmonise in so many different directions all ata once.

Sometimes the question is what are you trying to heal and of what? Sometimes the obvious is just a cover-up and there's something else lying behind the mask.

I don't use my crystals so much now but at first it was good fun, it was a great way to feel the energies and find out a little bit more of my own abilities. Now I don't use them so much and go with what Matt says about listening to the body but then I've always been an instinctual person.

I didn't but thank you and I'm glad that you get something from our exchanges :smile:

PatryciaYou being infectious goes along with the question of the Universe being different without you. And you're very welcome. It's very sock-popping stuff when you think about it that way, that the energies you have inside are being radiated outwards and people can't help but pick them up.

It's an interaction, always something to get :hug3:

Patrycia-Rose

24-08-2017, 04:15 PM

Greenslade Sit yourself down quietly one night and ask yourself one question. "How different would the Universe be if I had never existed?"

Gosh, you know I wouldn't know how to even start to answer that. I'd have to leave that to the people I've known.

Actually it was pretty interesting in so many ways and even made me emotional - but lately that isn't so hard. The Universe has been coming back at me lately and this is no exception, it seems I'm heading in the right direction after all.

Yes it really got me emotional too, at several points in that video. In fact want to listen to it again to see if I can pick up anything else.

In many ways he's right, there's this conflict between the body and the consciousness although that isn't quite the way I'd put it. Very often there are traumas that have hit us harder and deeper than we'd like to think, and they've completely changed the paradigms that we move forwards with. In the short term we come up with answers and a part of us has healed while another isn't even close to healing. He mentioned cellular memory and that's actually backed up with research done my Matsuru Emoto and his imprinting water.

This really struck my achilles heal. I had a trauma 12 years ago that completely changed me. I have two physical health issues as a direct result of it. For the last 12 years, I've worked on the emotional side of it, the accepting, the forgiveness etc and I feel as though I've made huge steps here. But my body, I've had no change, whatsoever, with the two health issues. I've tried a list as long as your arm to heal like EFT, TAT, supplements, diet change, acupuncture, cranio sacral therapy, homeopathy, flower essences, spiritual healing, meditation, mindfulness, the list goes on but zilch, it's made no difference to my health. I have learned one hell of a lot about nutrition and supplements, so much that I've helped other people overcome some quite debilitating health issues that doctors have either said live with it or can't help you, so that part's good. But I can't seem to help myself.

I think that's why I responded so strongly to Matt's video, particularly when he said that I'd been giving my body the message "get over it" that is just so true.

Anyway, never one to give up, I intend to deviceless dowse this weekend to get in touch with the affected part of the body - which I've been told I can do this - and see what happens.

I've been going through a lot of clearing out the old stuff and digging deeply into myself - root canal work for the Soul I suppose. Much of it is coming to terms with what's happened in the past and strangely enough it's come after I popped the cork on a bottle of single malt whiskey, long story but that was an acknowledgement for me.

I guess that's what I've been trying to do - but emotions and body not coming up with the same thing.

So I'm now watching this video from Matt about living with pain, see if I can find some insight. Have to say I've only watched 10 minutes of it and already he's saying that just because you're in pain, doesn't mean you haven't learned lessons from the past, or you're any less a divine being etc. I can't thank you enough for bringing him into my orbit (I owe you a pint:smile: )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3zKwZqfWrY

The whiskey was given to me as part of a regional award at work and I was having a hard time acknowledging that. Not long afterwards it became easier to acknowledge that I still had things to shift, and much of it was making me very emotional. I've been giving myself time to process whatever I feel without the labels - what I feel is what I feel, it's part of me and that's it.

The acknowledgement and validation you give yourself is more important than from others, I reckon.

Listening to what Matt's saying was very much confirmation so deeply, thank you for the link. It does feel like the end of conflict.

That's amazing. He's certainly got a way of delivering what he says. I've ordered his book by the way. It's got a lot of positive reviews on Amazon.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Whatever-Arises-Love-That-Revolution/dp/1622035305/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1503590616&sr=1-1&keywords=matt+khan

I don't know why but I'm being told to give you this.

Often the cause of disease is dis-ease, when we are not in harmony with ourselves and/or the Universe. Just like a winter's night can make us miserable and prone to colds, so our emotional and Spiritual dis-ease can manifest into physical ailments or ailments of our emotional or Spiritual selves. Often those 'selves' or aspects of ourselves need healing too and we don't even realise it. It seems as though as you write this you're still coming to terms with your own abilities - use the crystals, don't use them, get essence, essence doesn't make sense - which might be manifesting into minor health issues. It's your body's way of telling you something isn't quite right yet.

I think you're tapping into this trauma issue which I've been trying to resolve for the past 12 years. A medium I saw, he told me I would recover by using my mind. Would watching Matt's videos and applying it to my situation be classed as 'using my mind' ?

I think the idea of having fun with the crystals is for you to find out that you have the choice to use them or not, which perhaps you didn't know you had before. It's really cool though, isn't it? There's something very satisfying when so many things start coming together and making sense, and this bounces off that and along with he other. It's as though the Universe is starting to harmonise in so many different directions all ata once.

That may well be true, I hadn't touched crystals in about 7 years or so, so it's good to be using them, I'm assuming to good effect.

Sometimes the question is what are you trying to heal and of what? Sometimes the obvious is just a cover-up and there's something else lying behind the mask.

I just hope that I'm moving into alignment to the 'mode' that will heal me. When I started on this journey 12 years ago, I can clearly remember saying to the homeopathic practitioner, this issue has to have a frequency - I need to find the cure that has the same frequency. Guess I haven't found it yet.

Thanks Mr G, as ever, it's most interesting.

Patrycia

Alex E

25-08-2017, 01:57 PM

I went through a spiritual awakening last year which culminated around March time. Last few months I've been experiencing some similar symptoms, back pain when I don't have back problems, increased/decreased appetite, no energy, extreme body heat, etc. I wondered what was going on and my guides put the word "ascension" in my third eye. I'd not heard of this term before but when I started reading up about it, it all fitted.

I've read that an awakening is about the inner, ascension is more about the physical body which echoes my experiences so far.

There are many posts about awakening but only one I can find on ascension. Anyone else going through/ been through this?

Spirituality seen as only one thing, is all about ascension.

If seen in two, spirituality is about ascension and manifestation.

In the Emerald Tablet of Hermes, is said "it ascends from earth to heaven, and descends again to earth".

The Great All can be seen in 4 worlds, wich are the physical, the astral, the mental, and the spiritual. Spiritual progress is, then, a matter of ascension from the most dense to the most subtle. In this process, you transmute your corresponding bodies. So indeed, firstly, there are many kinds of physical manifestations of such transformations. And you keep going towards higher planes. There are universal laws, and specific laws. All of them are in perfect balance and harmony though.

Greenslade

27-08-2017, 11:15 AM

Gosh, you know I wouldn't know how to even start to answer that. I'd have to leave that to the people I've known.Which is why the shortage of fours, perhaps? Often there's an agenda hidden away in some of the things I come out with, 'agenda' isn't always a dirty word and it's not always mine.

It's thinking about how you interact with the Universe and the people in it. You're something to the people in your Life whatever that 'something' is - friend, colleague, sister.... Even the job you do and how you do it, and the people you interact with because of it.

Yes it really got me emotional too, at several points in that video. In fact want to listen to it again to see if I can pick up anything else.There's a lot of emotion flying around at the moment and I'm taking notice of that. Things used to resonate with me but I don't get that same feeling any more so something's obviously changed, it's more emotional so what does that mean? That's going to be fun to explore.

This really struck my achilles heal. I had a trauma 12 years ago that completely changed me. I have two physical health issues as a direct result of it. For the last 12 years, I've worked on the emotional side of it, the accepting, the forgiveness etc and I feel as though I've made huge steps here. But my body, I've had no change, whatsoever, with the two health issues. I've tried a list as long as your arm to heal like EFT, TAT, supplements, diet change, acupuncture, cranio sacral therapy, homeopathy, flower essences, spiritual healing, meditation, mindfulness, the list goes on but zilch, it's made no difference to my health. I have learned one hell of a lot about nutrition and supplements, so much that I've helped other people overcome some quite debilitating health issues that doctors have either said live with it or can't help you, so that part's good. But I can't seem to help myself.

I think that's why I responded so strongly to Matt's video, particularly when he said that I'd been giving my body the message "get over it" that is just so true.

Anyway, never one to give up, I intend to deviceless dowse this weekend to get in touch with the affected part of the body - which I've been told I can do this - and see what happens.There's a heckovva lot in here, really. 'Heckovva' is a Russian word, by the way.

Often in Spirituality the focus is on the concepts and gathering 'Spiritual knowledge' to become that 'high vibrational being' but we're here to learn the lessons because they're 'not available' in Spirit. Spirit doesn't do physical ailments, and to forgive and Love ourselves for being human after all is probably one of the greatest lessons we can learn - because that's what Spirit does. Spirit doesn't do Spirituality - Spirit IS Spirituality. Forgiving ourselves is what I take from Matt's message, and allowing ourselves to have imperfections, deficiencies etc.. Allowing the body time to heal and to say "OK matey, you've been hurting for a long time but that's OK too."

But the question is, how do you help yourself? And how different would the Universe be if you had never existed? Because you've answered that question in part here.

When all else fails, what do you do? When the answers are no answer at all, what's left? You realise that you are the answer and what you're looking for is the question.

Perhaps Matt's video has given you one answer, that you haven't given your body time to heal but that's not the full picture, the other parts is that you've amassed a huge amount of knowledge and made differences where the doctors couldn't. What does that say about you? Yeah I know, not easy to think about but acknowledgement with humility is not egotistical. So one of the questions is would you have done that if you hadn't been through the trauma? And the big question is would you have had it any other way?

Healing occurs in so many different ways, but if Matt's vid resonates with you then let's stay with that theme. Because now that you realise you've been giving your body the wrong message you can give it the right one. Not only can you tell it that it can take its own time to heal but you can tell it you Love it; so many others have been healed because it was brave enough to turn the 'broken' around.

Wasn't that the way it was?

I guess that's what I've been trying to do - but emotions and body not coming up with the same thing.

So I'm now watching this video from Matt about living with pain, see if I can find some insight. Have to say I've only watched 10 minutes of it and already he's saying that just because you're in pain, doesn't mean you haven't learned lessons from the past, or you're any less a divine being etc. I can't thank you enough for bringing him into my orbit (I owe you a pint:smile: )

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B3zKwZqfWrY

Perhaps one day you'll get to buy me that pint, even though I have to create a pub in heaven.:hug3:

Body and emotions can't come up with the same thing, they're two very different energy systems and there may well be more to this particular puzzle than meets the eye. Depending on your beliefs, going through the trauma and having the pain may well be a part of your Life's Purpose/Karmic Obligations. In which case you are a divine being after all. That isn't to take anything away from what Matt's saying but more as a 'supplement', that you chose as a pre-incarnate Spirit to set that particular 'chain of events' into motion.

The acknowledgement and validation you give yourself is more important than from others, I reckon. Hope you're heeding your own words.

That's amazing. He's certainly got a way of delivering what he says. I've ordered his book by the way. It's got a lot of positive reviews on Amazon.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Whatever-Arises-Love-That-Revolution/dp/1622035305/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1503590616&sr=1-1&keywords=matt+khan

To be honest I'm not an avid Spiritual bookworm but who knows? Thank you anyway.

I think you're tapping into this trauma issue which I've been trying to resolve for the past 12 years. A medium I saw, he told me I would recover by using my mind. Would watching Matt's videos and applying it to my situation be classed as 'using my mind' ?It's surprising how much our mindsets create our reality an lay the foundations for our Spirituality, so yes, very much so. What's in your head and how you think about it is going to make all the difference.

The thing is, what are you trying to resolve? Are you trying to resolve the issue itself or are you trying to resolve your perceptions of it?

That may well be true, I hadn't touched crystals in about 7 years or so, so it's good to be using them, I'm assuming to good effect.No offense but don't assume because it can foster doubt. Be sure, one way or the other. If you're being directed to or you feel you want to use the crystals, what are the reasons for that? Not why, mind, what are the reasons? How you frame the question is important. It feels good to be using them and you've been directed to use them, what does that tell you?

I just hope that I'm moving into alignment to the 'mode' that will heal me. When I started on this journey 12 years ago, I can clearly remember saying to the homeopathic practitioner, this issue has to have a frequency - I need to find the cure that has the same frequency. Guess I haven't found it yet.

Thanks Mr G, as ever, it's most interesting.

PatryciaNo you haven't found the frequency yet but that's not a deficiency on your part. And how do you define 'cure' - when you pain goes away or you - according to Matt's vid - think differently about it? Or if you believe in Life's Purpose/Karmic Obligations then perhaps it's a part of your 'calling'? If you come to Lover yourself because of it, learn to forgive yourself for being human after all?

If you hadn't had that trauma would you have healed those people and gained that knowledge?

I'm not giving you answers but pointing a finger, is there more going on behind the mask?

As ever Patrycia, you're very welcome.

Patrycia-Rose

28-08-2017, 09:13 AM

Which is why the shortage of fours, perhaps?

It's thinking about how you interact with the Universe and the people in it. You're something to the people in your Life whatever that 'something' is - friend, colleague, sister.... Even the job you do and how you do it, and the people you interact with because of it.

Ha! I had a 4 last night during the night: 4:14! Seems to be quite a few different meanings for that one.

bib: yes, I'm seeing that now thanks to one of Matt's videos - more on that later.

[QUOTE]Depending on your beliefs, going through the trauma and having the pain may well be a part of your Life's Purpose/Karmic Obligations. In which case you are a divine being after all.

I 100% believe that we create the major lessons and experiences we will have before we come down to the earth plane. And it struck me last year, when out for one of my lunch time walks in the countryside, that I would have agreed to have that experience and my immediate thought was if I'd agree to have these physical issues, then I would have also created the cure for them, I've just to find it. It was oddly a freeing thought.

To be honest I'm not an avid Spiritual bookworm but who knows? Thank you anyway.

I'll let you know what it's like but I'm sure there will be something in there for me.

If you hadn't had that trauma would you have healed those people and gained that knowledge?

I absolutely accept that. For ten years I've been researching diet, supplements, healing methods of all sorts from the mundane to the ridiculous. I'm very open minded so I won't discount anything it it Feels like it might work. I've become almost expert in EFT and TAT to the extent where I've helped work colleagues, one of whom was desperate to quit smoking as she was expecting and another who was plagued with guilt for a personal issue. But the times I've thought all these people I help, and I can't help myself. But maybe that's changing now.

Healing occurs in so many different ways, but if Matt's vid resonates with you then let's stay with that theme. Because now that you realise you've been giving your body the wrong message you can give it the right one. Not only can you tell it that it can take its own time to heal but you can tell it you Love it; so many others have been healed because it was brave enough to turn the 'broken' around.

Ah Matt's videos. I didn't get too much in the end from the ending pain one because he was talking about emotional pain. Although I did laugh though because I could really see how people are affected by their emotional pain and how it makes them interact. I could see it so clearly.

The video I just finished is The First Wave of Ascension.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HiuKcjeIyjw

Now this had a profound effect on me. The last part is about Service. Now many people have said to me over the years I ought to have my own business helping people etc. Now this actually made me feel down, low, as though I should be out there helping people and that I've failed because I haven't been able to make it happen. All I've learned is from reading / researching / personal experience - I have no qualifications. So Matt says when you get a calling to be a lightworker, don't! Get a regular job when you can interact with people and be of help to the people you meet and interact with, that way. This was Such a revelation to me. I felt this heavy burden come off my shoulders. So now my work doesn't feel like I'm wasting my time. I can earn money to live from whilst also interacting with people and helping those people I come into contact with. So so awesome.

I've looked at Matt's home page, there are dozens of videos on there. It's a bit like walking into a sweet shop. So I let my pendulum pick the next video for me: Energy Upgrade. I've watched a bit of it so far and I like what he has to say and it will be fun experimenting with it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R77Di7MLSkE

So, I've left the best until last. Yesterday I got in touch with the physical part of my body affected by the trauma. It said that it wanted to heal and the way to do this would be a combination of my healing energy,with an orange pomander and my snow crystals. I carried out a healing session yesterday afternoon which turned out to be the most profound healing experience I've ever had. My guides were with me, explaining what was happening. I've had a partial kundalini activation, working in tandem with my own healing energy. I could feel this exceptionally deep heat and energy pulsating around different parts of my body, I could feel the kundalini entering the chakras, root, sacral, solar, heart and ananda khanda and throat. It didn't go into the third eye and crown. It lasted an hour and I recorded it all, describing all the colours I was receiving. THe guides said I am experiencing kundalini along with my own healing energy, they work together. It really was the most extraordinary experience; i was left with a profound sense of peace.

Card drawn before the session was 'Go with the Flow' (of energy?). Card drawn after, Blessed Sight.

So we see what happens next. I need to intergrate all this and see where it takes me.

Thank you, Mr G, for your support.

Patrycia

Greenslade

30-08-2017, 09:26 AM

Ha! I had a 4 last night during the night: 4:14! Seems to be quite a few different meanings for that one.

bib: yes, I'm seeing that now thanks to one of Matt's videos - more on that later.Everything needs its own time to come through.

I 100% believe that we create the major lessons and experiences we will have before we come down to the earth plane. And it struck me last year, when out for one of my lunch time walks in the countryside, that I would have agreed to have that experience and my immediate thought was if I'd agree to have these physical issues, then I would have also created the cure for them, I've just to find it. It was oddly a freeing thought.Yes it is, when you find you're the creator of your own reality and it's not something you're stuck with. Very often there's a victim mentality to our experiences as though the Universe is out to get us - but it's out to get us where we need to be.

I'll let you know what it's like but I'm sure there will be something in there for me.Oh good, wouldn't want to miss any pearls of wisdom.

I absolutely accept that. For ten years I've been researching diet, supplements, healing methods of all sorts from the mundane to the ridiculous. I'm very open minded so I won't discount anything it it Feels like it might work. I've become almost expert in EFT and TAT to the extent where I've helped work colleagues, one of whom was desperate to quit smoking as she was expecting and another who was plagued with guilt for a personal issue. But the times I've thought all these people I help, and I can't help myself. But maybe that's changing now.This is the kind of thing I was trying to point you towards, these are the differences that perhaps wouldn't have happened had you not been there. And there's something very powerful in that. It's even more powerful when the effects cross generations - you help your colleague to stop smoking so a Soul has a better start in Life, and perhaps won't smoke themselves. You changed a Life that hadn't even begun.

Healing takes place in many ways, if you use the word 'dis-ease' then it makes more sense. It's no secret that our moods and thinking affect our health so why should the after-effects of trauma be any different? Sometimes there's the dis-ease as to why we had the trauma in the first place that we're at odds with, or perhaps we're looking for rhymes and reasons. But when you know that you've helped people because of your traumas it makes everything worthwhile and given the choice again, if you know you'd do it all again then..... Then you are bringing that fifth dimensional consciousness down to earth.

You were saying about not being able to help yourself? Isn't fifth-dimensional consciousness Spiritual rocket fuel?

Ah Matt's videos. I didn't get too much in the end from the ending pain one because he was talking about emotional pain. Although I did laugh though because I could really see how people are affected by their emotional pain and how it makes them interact. I could see it so clearly.

The video I just finished is The First Wave of Ascension.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HiuKcjeIyjw

Now this had a profound effect on me. The last part is about Service. Now many people have said to me over the years I ought to have my own business helping people etc. Now this actually made me feel down, low, as though I should be out there helping people and that I've failed because I haven't been able to make it happen. All I've learned is from reading / researching / personal experience - I have no qualifications. So Matt says when you get a calling to be a lightworker, don't! Get a regular job when you can interact with people and be of help to the people you meet and interact with, that way. This was Such a revelation to me. I felt this heavy burden come off my shoulders. So now my work doesn't feel like I'm wasting my time. I can earn money to live from whilst also interacting with people and helping those people I come into contact with. So so awesome.He's probably got a few along the same lines and I remember seeing this one.

I tend to shy away from the word 'service', almost all of the discussions I've had on here about it have been self-righteous rather than common sense. but anyway.....

I seem to remember a thread ages ago that someone started about making a business out of helping people, while the intentions were there the practicalities weren't. How do you get paid from helping people Spiritually? I'd Love to see the price list for that one. And how do you reach your target audience? If you think about it though you're in a great place for your calling because you have everything you need through your job. It's as though the Universe just took care of all the marketing and brought your target audience to you and made sure your cash flow was stable.

Freaking awesome.

I've looked at Matt's home page, there are dozens of videos on there. It's a bit like walking into a sweet shop. So I let my pendulum pick the next video for me: Energy Upgrade. I've watched a bit of it so far and I like what he has to say and it will be fun experimenting with it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R77Di7MLSkE
Thank you, an update might well be in order right now.

So, I've left the best until last. Yesterday I got in touch with the physical part of my body affected by the trauma. It said that it wanted to heal and the way to do this would be a combination of my healing energy,with an orange pomander and my snow crystals. I carried out a healing session yesterday afternoon which turned out to be the most profound healing experience I've ever had. My guides were with me, explaining what was happening. I've had a partial kundalini activation, working in tandem with my own healing energy. I could feel this exceptionally deep heat and energy pulsating around different parts of my body, I could feel the kundalini entering the chakras, root, sacral, solar, heart and ananda khanda and throat. It didn't go into the third eye and crown. It lasted an hour and I recorded it all, describing all the colours I was receiving. THe guides said I am experiencing kundalini along with my own healing energy, they work together. It really was the most extraordinary experience; i was left with a profound sense of peace.

Card drawn before the session was 'Go with the Flow' (of energy?). Card drawn after, Blessed Sight.

So we see what happens next. I need to intergrate all this and see where it takes me.

Thank you, Mr G, for your support.

PatryciaThat's quite an experience to say the least, like WOW!! There isn't much to say on that one other than pretty amazing that so many different things have come together to give you that healing. Very much needed I think. One of those experiences where words not only don't fit but become irrelevant.

Have you ever held your snow crystals up to the light?

Yeah I would imagine it would bring a sense of peace because something like that would resolve so many issues on so many levels and bring so much more into line and harmony. |Perhaps congratulations would be in order.

There's a flow to one's own Life as we ride an energetic wave, we have our high points and low points and for as low as we go we go just as high again - as you have done. Sometimes we resist the lows and try and keep the highs, forgetting that in the meantime all things must pass. The Universe and your Guides have your tail covered, it's up to you how you experience it after that. You will receive what you need when you need it and you are where you need to be at any given moment.

There is also your energies and the Kundalini working in harmony and later on there will be (I'd imagine) other people's energies to take into consideration. Come to think about it, it would be about impossible for other people's energies not to come into the equation. Don't forget that you're infectious, and that you change a place just by being there.

I just get this feeling that Destiny has come a-knocking.

You're very welcome Patrycia, it remains a pleasure and indeed an Honour.

Patrycia-Rose

03-09-2017, 08:45 AM

Very often there's a victim mentality to our experiences as though the Universe is out to get us - but it's out to get us where we need to be.

That's so true - especially with this trauma. I see my life as before it and after it. One of the ironic things is I can remember saying at the time, 'my worst fear is ....' and that's exactly what happened. Anyway, here we are, 12 year later still trying to find a cure for the physical effects.

Oh good, wouldn't want to miss any pearls of wisdom.

Well found one on page 2! For me this really struck a chord: "When you are energetically sensitive, a modern day spiritual journey is a translation from "fearing it all" to "feeling it all."

From what I've seen so far, which is only a few pages, this isn't your usual self help book, you're actually saying things out loud or to yourself. Had a few tears on one of the statements. I'm not prone to crying; I certainly don't cry in public and I don't like crying on my own either (I know this sounds funny but it upsets me!) but this bloke's had me in more tears in the last few weeks than for the last few years!

And in terms of "circulating new energy" I used to be very particular about my books, that have to be pristine and I don't like a creased spine but with this one, I get a pencil out and started putting crosses on the page when I found inspiring text.

I love this whole notion of circulating new energy. I've got a few people at work doing it as well.

This is the kind of thing I was trying to point you towards, these are the differences that perhaps wouldn't have happened had you not been there. And there's something very powerful in that. It's even more powerful when the effects cross generations - you help your colleague to stop smoking so a Soul has a better start in Life, and perhaps won't smoke themselves. You changed a Life that hadn't even begun.

Gosh, that's quite profound - and no, that hadn't occurred to me.

Healing takes place in many ways, if you use the word 'dis-ease' then it makes more sense. It's no secret that our moods and thinking affect our health so why should the after-effects of trauma be any different? Sometimes there's the dis-ease as to why we had the trauma in the first place that we're at odds with, or perhaps we're looking for rhymes and reasons. But when you know that you've helped people because of your traumas it makes everything worthwhile and given the choice again, if you know you'd do it all again then..... Then you are bringing that fifth dimensional consciousness down to earth.

I struggled with, and do still sometimes - even though I know I would have contracted to have this experience - but there is a part of me that wishes it could have been otherwise. When people talk of regrets in life, that's the only one I have.

The irritating thing is that these physical scars if you like were unnecessary. As you know, I eat extremely well, no processed food at all, I've got no diagnosed illnesses, and I don't take any medication and run several times a week. So if I could just get over these physical symptoms, well, my health would be perfect.

I tend to shy away from the word 'service', almost all of the discussions I've had on here about it have been self-righteous rather than common sense. but anyway.....

I think that was from Matt's the Four Stages of Ascension. Yes, I agree with you, I'm not particularly drawn to the word 'service' it sounds subserviant. I tend to substitute if for 'being kind' to others.

The other video he's done which I found really informative was Understanding the Ego. Interestingly, he began that one with saying there were spiritual understandings of subjects that he didn't agree with, didn't understand and ego was one of them. It's exactly the same for me, what I've read about it doesn't sound right to me. But the way he describes, I get that completely.

That's quite an experience to say the least, like WOW!! There isn't much to say on that one other than pretty amazing that so many different things have come together to give you that healing. Very much needed I think. One of those experiences where words not only don't fit but become irrelevant.

It was an extraordinary experience; but it's a been an odd week following it. The next day my emotional and physical energy was superb. But the next day, I felt emotionally and physically fragile with overwhelming hunger. The next day I was fine and then physically fragile the next day and now, I just feel a little low.

Thing is with this whole healing thing, I don't know what the purpose is, where it's taking me. Maybe I can't hold that high vibration, maybe the trauma is more deep seated than I know. I've been trying to find the difference between kundalini activation or awakening - is it the same thing? My guides said "it is as it is". Just my mind, trying to make sense on a physical level of what's going on.

Have you ever held your snow crystals up to the light?

The snow quartz are solid white, not clear quartz, so I'm not seeing anything in them (unless I'm missing the point)

There is also your energies and the Kundalini working in harmony and later on there will be (I'd imagine) other people's energies to take into consideration.

To be honest, I've completely let that go. I've got a long way to go, I mean on the physical level, that I'm aware of, there's been no change whatsoever in the physical symptoms. If I can't heal myself, I wouldn't be presumptious to think I can heal someone else.

I just get this feeling that Destiny has come a-knocking.

Maybe, maybe not, I've no idea what Destiny has got in mind, if indeed anything. I'm beginning to understand the meaning of the phrase "blind faith."

Thanks Mr G, your faith in my experience does help.

Greenslade

03-09-2017, 11:29 AM

That's so true - especially with this trauma. I see my life as before it and after it. One of the ironic things is I can remember saying at the time, 'my worst fear is ....' and that's exactly what happened. Anyway, here we are, 12 year later still trying to find a cure for the physical effects.It's been said that everything comes with a price so perhaps the physical effects you're trying to find a cure for are the price. On the other hand it's been said that if you don't know where you've come from you don't know where you're going, so maybe a reminder isn't such a bad thing. Either way the trauma is a part of you, like a hungry child craving for acknowledgement by tugging at you.

There isn't anything in this Universe that we can't turn around to suit ourselves and perhaps the only thing we have to consider is if we're lying to ourselves or not. You survived your worst fear and came out the other side, and you have the 'scars' to remind you of how strong you really are. Is it a trauma or a badge of honour? Something to make you think "Hell yeah, I've been there and come out the other side?" That's for you to decide.

Well found one on page 2! For me this really struck a chord: "When you are energetically sensitive, a modern day spiritual journey is a translation from "fearing it all" to "feeling it all."

From what I've seen so far, which is only a few pages, this isn't your usual self help book, you're actually saying things out loud or to yourself. Had a few tears on one of the statements. I'm not prone to crying; I certainly don't cry in public and I don't like crying on my own either (I know this sounds funny but it upsets me!) but this bloke's had me in more tears in the last few weeks than for the last few years!

And in terms of "circulating new energy" I used to be very particular about my books, that have to be pristine and I don't like a creased spine but with this one, I get a pencil out and started putting crosses on the page when I found inspiring text.

I love this whole notion of circulating new energy. I've got a few people at work doing it as well.And now it begins. you're going viral!!!

Be careful what you wish for because you might just get it.

It's hard to feel your way through Life and it gets to the stage where you either put up barriers to deal with it or find a way through it somehow. It's a trickle when you first start but after a while the floodgates open and it knocks you on your backside. By then it's too late to stem the flow and the best you can do is keep your head above water. But y'know, when you come through it there's nothing quite like it. Just when you thought you were going to drown the Universe throws you a lifeline, and you know you wouldn't have it any other way. You feel alive and kicking and you begin to welcome the feelings and cosset them.

Perhaps the new energy has already been created if you're not so particular about your books any more, and for you what do books represent? A new paradigm coming through?

My daughter gave me a leather bound notebook for Father's Day and I've been learning myself to use a fountain pen again. I have a long lost of quotes that I've copied and pasted over the years and I want to transpose some of them into the notebook. The trouble is I haven't used a fountain pen in years and my mind works faster that I can write, it looks more like a hen's march to the midden. Once upon a time I used to do calligraphy and glass engraving but those are skills I haven't used in a long time.

Walking the spiral, going back to where I came from.

Gosh, that's quite profound - and no, that hadn't occurred to me.Yes it is, and the best bit is that it's true, factual and there's no denying or running away from it. You did it!! And no, it's not something that would occur to you but then that's part of your charm - and you'd never have thought of that neither lol.

I struggled with, and do still sometimes - even though I know I would have contracted to have this experience - but there is a part of me that wishes it could have been otherwise. When people talk of regrets in life, that's the only one I have.

The irritating thing is that these physical scars if you like were unnecessary. As you know, I eat extremely well, no processed food at all, I've got no diagnosed illnesses, and I don't take any medication and run several times a week. So if I could just get over these physical symptoms, well, my health would be perfect. I have this little thought-tool I often use which is quite useful in situations like this. I keep peeling back the layers like peeling an onion and eventually I'll find the heart, the place where I can't go any more. Words like 'unnecessary' and 'shouldn't', 'otherwise' and 'perfect' all get heaved out of the window because they add to the layers. I need a place to start that's as simple as possible.

It happened so I deal with it and move on, anything else is dissonance waves moving through my mind. Yep it sucked but I gained from it, I'm 'less than perfect' but then that makes me human after all and just the same as all those other poor humans. It's never about what we have, it's always about what we do with it. Love yourself as you would Love someone with those scars. Only you are irritating you.

I think that was from Matt's the Four Stages of Ascension. Yes, I agree with you, I'm not particularly drawn to the word 'service' it sounds subserviant. I tend to substitute if for 'being kind' to others.

The other video he's done which I found really informative was Understanding the Ego. Interestingly, he began that one with saying there were spiritual understandings of subjects that he didn't agree with, didn't understand and ego was one of them. It's exactly the same for me, what I've read about it doesn't sound right to me. But the way he describes, I get that completely.I've been in a couple of 'being of service' threads and frankly they're very scary, the other thing is that we don't know what would be of service to anyone. Acts of kindness can so easily go sideways, my grandson has allergies and just someone being kind by giving him something to eat could put him in hospital. And sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind because it's the only way some people will ever learn the lesson.

In a Spirituality of people who are awake, aware and enlightened ego has become the root of all evil - the demon drink made me do it. The ironic things is that they talk about ego death, which is itself egotistical. Freud says that the ego is a sense of self and Allen Watts says there is no ego, in Eastern religions Samahdi is the process of transcending the false egoic self.

It's a point of reference for our experiential existence, it's that simple, and without it we'd go mad because we'd completely lose our anchor in reality. We'd go bonkers. It's a place to put our feet and look out at the Universe, somewhere where we can say 'Here I am'.

It was an extraordinary experience; but it's a been an odd week following it. The next day my emotional and physical energy was superb. But the next day, I felt emotionally and physically fragile with overwhelming hunger. The next day I was fine and then physically fragile the next day and now, I just feel a little low.

Thing is with this whole healing thing, I don't know what the purpose is, where it's taking me. Maybe I can't hold that high vibration, maybe the trauma is more deep seated than I know. I've been trying to find the difference between kundalini activation or awakening - is it the same thing? My guides said "it is as it is". Just my mind, trying to make sense on a physical level of what's going on. Give yourself a break and relax, it's OK to feel like a dishcloth that's been wrung out and thrown into a corner if that's how it is. What we resist persists, so go with the flow. Anyway, you can do battle with it or you can make it an interesting part of the experience - you did know you had that choice?

There's always a time delay when going through energetic changes - as Matt was saying. With the consciousness it's instant but with the body it takes a little more time - lower density. And the hunger is an energy recharge.

Sometimes we simply can't sustain the energetic levels we find ourselves at because in this existence we do operate at different energy levels. How do you think it would be if you were driving to work and your energy levels were in orbit? Your amazing experience needed an equally amazing level of energy that perhaps could be sustained long-term because they would blow your system out. And if you were going to work with all that going on inside you? It would be like that bit in the movie where she's having a fake orgasm in the diner.

It's OK to feel a little low because you felt a little (lot) high, you are an energetic being after all and that means a wave.

OK, let's dispel some of the myths around vibrations because they're getting in the way, and with respect you're not quite there yet because you're still at odds with yourself in some respects. You're trying to hold onto something you're not supposed to hold onto - those high vibrations. This high vibe is good, low vibe is bad is....

You have a core vibration that's steady for you, or at least usually when you're not going through major changes. At the moment yours isn't as stable as they could be with the changes you're going through but also because there are parts of yourself you're at odds with - your trauma that won't heal, not knowing where this is going, kundalini or awakening......... All of those things creates waves of dissonance that goes through your core being energetically, and what happens is that the highs get higher and the lows get lower.

You are where you need to be and if you don't know that the Universe has your back by now you need a kick in the behind. Playfully of course. Stop bouncing from here to there, stop polarising your consciousness because that's also energetic dissonance. Things are the way they are and that's it. "It is as it is" and no more. No perfect or imperfect, just the way it is. No 'shouldn't'. No 'this' or 'that'. Have the experience, don't call it anything and relax with it because going through it and coming out the other end will tell you all you need to know. What you're not doing is putting the pieces together.

This is a Journey to Self and you are the answer, and when you realise that everything snaps into place. The mind needs a modicum of control but its problem is that it can only deal with what it's already experienced. All else is scary - which is where you are. You are the purpose and it's taking you to yourself/your Self. When you tune into that everything changes. Tell your mind (literally if you have to) to shut up and take notes because it's not its turn yet.

How do you think it works with Matt when he's getting his downloads? When he's in receive mode his vibes are galactic but are they as high when he's on YouTube? If you notice, sometimes his brain 'stalls'. What he does is changes frequency channels - all mediums (not psychics) and anyone with Spirit contact do the same. Then they 'come back, they lower their frequency to talk to the great unwashed. This is what those with 'high' vibrations don't understand. 'High' vibration isn't high, it's through a lens.

Have you noticed the parallels between you and Matt???? He goes to his high vibe channel and gets his downloads, then lowers his frequency to talk on YouTube because imparting that knowledge isn't low frequency, it's high. His core frequency remains but he retunes up temporarily to receive the info, then goes back to his 'usual' so he can do his thing. He can't keep his vibes high, he can't do YouTube while deep in meditation.

You're doing something similar, the energies that are affecting you are healing/high vibration and you're going through it so you can heal yourself - and in the process help your colleagues. While Matt's passing on knowledge in his way you're passing on the healing in yours. so all that fifth dimensional consciousness is coming down. Just like it's supposed to.

So the next time you're doing your thing with your colleagues, tell me you don't know what the purpose is and you don't know where it's taking you. Take a good look and tell your mind that this is what it's all about and ask it if it's all worth it. Baby steps, because you're struggling a bit right now. But that's OK too, because when you're very confident about finding your feet you'll be more stable on them later.

The snow quartz are solid white, not clear quartz, so I'm not seeing anything in them (unless I'm missing the point)I thought it might trigger something but not yet it seems.

To be honest, I've completely let that go. I've got a long way to go, I mean on the physical level, that I'm aware of, there's been no change whatsoever in the physical symptoms. If I can't heal myself, I wouldn't be presumptious to think I can heal someone else. But what do you consider healing, how do you define it????? And what are you trying to heal??? The physical symptoms???

And no, it wouldn't be presumptuous of you to think you can heal someone else because in many ways you already do - it's just not so obvious.

You remember what Matt was saying about the consciousness giving the body what it needs to heal? You need to do the same right now. Allow your body to have the time it needs, stand back and let it do what it needs to do to come through its own experience in its own way. Don't force it and don't be at odds with what is, that's disharmony and not high vibration.

No, you haven't a long way to go at all, you're already there. The human body is carbon-based which makes it into an antenna, so you're already receiving and transmitting. You can't help it, you were 'designed' that way. Others can't help but receive - they can't help it, they were designed that way. Matsuru Emoto conducted experiments where he imprinted his consciousness onto water - and guess what? We're all bags of water. Like it or not you are infectious and you will be just as infectious with your colleagues. Your energy fields will be overlapping and the only question is what will they overlap with?

You see, one of the first steps in healing people is having them acknowledge they need healing in the first place. If they are resonating with what you're showing them that's what they're doing. And by the way, 'non-Spiritual' people 'register' what resonates with them or not too. At some level you'll be doing them some good, but you have to look at it the right way and far below the physical.

Maybe, maybe not, I've no idea what Destiny has got in mind, if indeed anything. I'm beginning to understand the meaning of the phrase "blind faith." Look around you, the Universe is a reflection of you. Faith isn't blind, it looks with different eyes.

Thanks Mr G, your faith in my experience does help.You're very welcome Partycia. It's actually an honour to be a part of this in so many ways and I am grateful, to you and the Universe.

Patrycia-Rose

09-09-2017, 12:34 PM

Over the last week, I’ve read your words half a dozen times or so as there was a lot of quite profound things in there.

Is it a trauma or a badge of honour? Something to make you think "Hell yeah, I've been there and come out the other side?" That's for you to decide.

I tried that line of thinking fairly early on but no impact on the physical level.

It happened so I deal with it and move on, anything else is dissonance waves moving through my mind. Yep it sucked but I gained from it, I'm 'less than perfect' but then that makes me human after all and just the same as all those other poor humans. It's never about what we have, it's always about what we do with it. Love yourself as you would Love someone with those scars. Only you are irritating you.

I get that but sometimes a trauma to the physical body, no amount of positive or negative thinking and everything inbetween makes a difference. A medium once told me I’d got PTSD so I think the fact that I’ve got on top of the experience mentally and emotionally, as far as I’m aware of my own feelings about it, that’s significant progress. When I think of the first couple of years where I experienced episodes of overwhelming anger (still have a hole in the bedroom door that needs repairing!) I can see the progress I made. I’ve chipped away at it year after year with EFT, TAT, meditations, forgiveness, and many things and the intensity of it emotionally, isn’t there anymore but obviously the physical healing is yet to take place. I’ll keep trying, I’ll never give up on myself.

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Give yourself a break and relax, it's OK to feel like a dishcloth that's been wrung out and thrown into a corner if that's how it is.

That really made me laugh. It’s pretty spot on as to how I feel on certain days.

There's always a time delay when going through energetic changes - as Matt was saying.

I’m really trying to hold that in my mind.

. And the hunger is an energy recharge.

The overwhelming hunger is something else. I was only out mowing the lawn a few days ago and by the end of it I was shaking with hunger, so had a huge bowl of oats and yoghurt and then promptly ate another one! My guides tell me this is something to do with storing energy. I know I get particularly hungry immediately after a significant healing session.

You are where you need to be and if you don't know that the Universe has your back by now you need a kick in the behind.

I definitely feel the connection with my father, who’s saved me from a few close shaves whilst driving and the way he sends me songs on my MP3 player. I do feel connected to spirit in a good way; especially when I see words in my third eye in response to wondering about things generally, the numerology, blue flashes of light.

What you're not doing is putting the pieces together.

No, but then I don’t think I meant to. It occurred to me yesterday that this is an experience where I have to feel my way rather than think my way through it.

Have you noticed the parallels between you and Matt???? He goes to his high vibe channel and gets his downloads, then lowers his frequency to talk on YouTube because imparting that knowledge isn't low frequency, it's high. His core frequency remains but he retunes up temporarily to receive the info, then goes back to his 'usual' so he can do his thing. He can't keep his vibes high, he can't do YouTube while deep in meditation.

That was a really helpful comparison. It's early days for me in managing emotionally the high and lows of the frequencies. It's a little early to call it a pattern as something slightly different happens each time in the healing but the deep heat in the body and the hunger happen immediately after a significant healing session and then both ease off back to normal after about 10 days. Also, I don’t get prompted to use crystals until about four days after. I had thought that last time I used crystals with the kundalini/my healing energy, I was energising the crystals, so when I used them after the four days, maybe they were reflecting back a little of that original energy.

The other curious thing I've noticed is that when I get the deep heat at night, I wake up and notice the time, it's always 11.11, 12.21, 12.34 etc, a significant number, and then about 15 seconds later, I get the deep heat for a minute or two and then go back to sleep before the next one. Usually after a significant healing, it happens up to six times a night.

And the rather extraordinary thing in Matt's book, which I’m getting through slowly, only due to time constraints, there’s several pages which describe his life and experiences, communicating with guides - I’m finding that the most interesting thing – but many of the words and phrases he uses to describe his experiences are the same words I’ve been using of late. At one point it was like having my own experience reflected back to me.

You remember what Matt was saying about the consciousness giving the body what it needs to heal? You need to do the same right now. Allow your body to have the time it needs, stand back and let it do what it needs to do to come through its own experience in its own way. Don't force it and don't be at odds with what is, that's disharmony and not high vibration.

I’ve been doing this in the last few days; care of the technique in the book about ‘whatever arises/love that’. We’ll see what happens with it. Acceptance seems to be a new word in my thinking.

For the moment, the deep heat and hunger have settled and I've a feeling I'm going to get the call to hold another healing session this weekend.

Thank you Mr G for your support and wise words.

Greenslade

10-09-2017, 11:32 AM

Over the last week, I’ve read your words half a dozen times or so as there was a lot of quite profound things in there.You need to get out more.:hug3:

I tried that line of thinking fairly early on but no impact on the physical level. To be honest I don't know what the answer to this one is, I think sometimes there are parts of us that aren't 'meant to be' healed because they're an integral part of who and what we are. Healing them would be like taking away a part of ourselves, a part of what brought us here.

I get that but sometimes a trauma to the physical body, no amount of positive or negative thinking and everything inbetween makes a difference. A medium once told me I’d got PTSD so I think the fact that I’ve got on top of the experience mentally and emotionally, as far as I’m aware of my own feelings about it, that’s significant progress. When I think of the first couple of years where I experienced episodes of overwhelming anger (still have a hole in the bedroom door that needs repairing!) I can see the progress I made. I’ve chipped away at it year after year with EFT, TAT, meditations, forgiveness, and many things and the intensity of it emotionally, isn’t there anymore but obviously the physical healing is yet to take place. I’ll keep trying, I’ll never give up on myself. What a lot of people don't realise is that Life itself often gives you PTSD, usually it's only associated with being in a war zone but often Life itself is just that. Just when we think we've moved on all we've really done is buried it a little deeper, only for it to come back even stronger than before - and with sharper teeth. Sometimes the physical damage is simply too much.

I was a very angry young man after years of.... and it all started bubbling to the surface. It happened, I moved on but the latent effects were there just the same. When I think about it I was heading for prison until my friend started judo classes and got me to join, and that's what turned me around. There were times when I was downright reckless but most of the time I was with people who were far more experienced than me, and yes I was slapped around some but never gave up. One day the fight was gone, I just didn't have the stomach for it any more. One night I landed badly and hurt my hip, it was painful for a time but I got on with it. Now it's playing up and I put that down to that night so many years ago. And yeah I know how that sounds, hip replacement is for old guys.

It's all been a part of that Journey, the scars and other damages I have because I've been stupid but each one catalyses a memory and y'know, I've come to admire and Love that kid.

I have a friend who has PTSD from tours in Afghanistan, along with a metal plate in his head that resonates with a stone circle at Solstice. Seriously. He's gone all suicidal on his wife a couple of times, she'll buy a bottle of scotch and invite me over and we'll sit and talk of old times, comrades and the like. But it all comes down to the same phrase - without all of that happening Darren wouldn't be Darren, he'd be a different Darren.

No you won't give up on yourself, if you did you wouldn't be Patrycia, would you? That's the bigger picture.

That really made me laugh. It’s pretty spot on as to how I feel on certain days.It might be a silly thought but it might just be the right one on a day when you feel like that.

I’m really trying to hold that in my mind. Sometimes you've just gotta surrender to the inevitable, or find lots of patience.

The overwhelming hunger is something else. I was only out mowing the lawn a few days ago and by the end of it I was shaking with hunger, so had a huge bowl of oats and yoghurt and then promptly ate another one! My guides tell me this is something to do with storing energy. I know I get particularly hungry immediately after a significant healing session.I used to get that when I was doing rostrum work or having had a particularly heavy session but it was wine gums with me because of the sugar hit. Some days are more intense than others though and for the last few weeks I've been shoveling it down. I don't know where the energy is going but sometimes it feels as though I'm just pumping it into the surrounding area, it's probably something to do with the leyline that connects to the major European gridline.

I definitely feel the connection with my father, who’s saved me from a few close shaves whilst driving and the way he sends me songs on my MP3 player. I do feel connected to spirit in a good way; especially when I see words in my third eye in response to wondering about things generally, the numerology, blue flashes of light.It#s that warm, fuzzy feeling. My father was killed just before I was born, and those who say that you can't miss what you've never had are talking out of their backsides. I know when he's around and for some reason he's never been far away recently. The Universe is echoing back at me in its own strange way too, so it's all OK - and that's all it needs to be.

No, but then I don’t think I meant to. It occurred to me yesterday that this is an experience where I have to feel my way rather than think my way through it. Do what feels best for you, personally. However, don't forget intuition rather than thinking and remember that you can put the puzzle together by feeling. It's also called Gnosis and that has a few definitions; one is knowing without knowing how you know and the other is experiential knowledge, which is knowledge gained through experience.

That was a really helpful comparison. It's early days for me in managing emotionally the high and lows of the frequencies. It's a little early to call it a pattern as something slightly different happens each time in the healing but the deep heat in the body and the hunger happen immediately after a significant healing session and then both ease off back to normal after about 10 days. Also, I don’t get prompted to use crystals until about four days after. I had thought that last time I used crystals with the kundalini/my healing energy, I was energising the crystals, so when I used them after the four days, maybe they were reflecting back a little of that original energy.

The other curious thing I've noticed is that when I get the deep heat at night, I wake up and notice the time, it's always 11.11, 12.21, 12.34 etc, a significant number, and then about 15 seconds later, I get the deep heat for a minute or two and then go back to sleep before the next one. Usually after a significant healing, it happens up to six times a night.

And the rather extraordinary thing in Matt's book, which I’m getting through slowly, only due to time constraints, there’s several pages which describe his life and experiences, communicating with guides - I’m finding that the most interesting thing – but many of the words and phrases he uses to describe his experiences are the same words I’ve been using of late. At one point it was like having my own experience reflected back to me. Sometimes it's best just to allow things to happen as they will, but I think there seems to be a pattern with you but with variations on a theme if you like. It probably depends on what's being healed and how. One of the things that could be happening is you're adjusting to the healing energies, and obviously as you heal your perceptions will change. If you're emotionally highly strung that would contribute to how you perceive them as well. If you're trying to manage your emotions you might well be fighting a losing battle if not hindering the healing, emotions are energy in motion and if they're not in tune with the healing energies then that might not help. Yeah I know, the last thing you need is a session of tears or anger but sometimes it's best to contain it rather than fight against it and let it all go when you're in a position to. Sometimes what's needed is a pressure release valve.

Crystals can have an energy of their own and you yourself imprint energy onto them as you use them so they end up with a bit of a mix. It's not so much a 'store' of energy but more of a reference point if you like, and when your own energies have been flying off the charts and into orbit sometimes you need an energetic reference point to return to. It's kind of a safety, comfort thing.

Have you ever thought about naming your crystals? I've always liked 'Charakis' is a great name for a crystal.

It's really cool when the Universe reflects back at you, whether it's the clock or Matt's book but it's all shades of the same thing. Someone once told me that Old Souls don't integrate as well into this dimension as well as other Souls, I'd never thought about it before that but it's very true. There was always a feeling of being at odds so it's really soothing to find the Universe reflecting back finally.

I’ve been doing this in the last few days; care of the technique in the book about ‘whatever arises/love that’. We’ll see what happens with it. Acceptance seems to be a new word in my thinking.

For the moment, the deep heat and hunger have settled and I've a feeling I'm going to get the call to hold another healing session this weekend.

Thank you Mr G for your support and wise words.Yeah, whatever arises Love that - including what's left after the trauma to the physical body. If you don't Love and accept every part of you - warts and all - what then? If the Universe is reflecting so much back at you, doesn't that tell you that it's OK with you being the way you are regardless?

Again the question, what are you trying to heal and what are the reasons? And no, it's not obvious.

Take it as it comes Patryicia, and remember that the Universe has your back either way. Love your emotions too because they are a part of you, and often the reason we feel them so intensely is that they're the children seeking attention.

You're always welcome, Patrycia.

Patrycia-Rose

17-09-2017, 09:14 AM

You need to get out more.:hug3:

A colleague said the same thing to me when I was telling him how much I enjoy painting and decorating and that I was contemplating my next painting project!

[QUOTE]I have a friend who has PTSD from tours in Afghanistan, along with a metal plate in his head that resonates with a stone circle at Solstice.

That sounds fascinating. Does he dowse? He might be able to get some fascinating information between his dowsing, the metal plate and the stone circle.

Sometimes it's best just to allow things to happen as they will, but I think there seems to be a pattern with you but with variations on a theme if you like.

If there is a pattern, I’m not sure what it is – maybe too close to it to understand fully what’s going on. But I am letting it happen, without my mind interfering too much. Letting it happen is quite a new thing for me.

It's not so much a 'store' of energy but more of a reference point if you like, and when your own energies have been flying off the charts and into orbit sometimes you need an energetic reference point to return to. It's kind of a safety, comfort thing.

I do feel a sense of comfort and security when I get the message to use my snow quartz in particular. But the other evening – and I had to check this a couple of times to ensure I’d got the message correctly – I was urged to use one snow quartz sphere in one hand and a black tourmaline sphere in the other. My immediate thought was I’d never mixed crystals before – but also, here we go again – black and white! It was just for one evening. I was told that the tourmaline is for regulating my emotions.

Have you ever thought about naming your crystals? I've always liked 'Charakis' is a great name for a crystal.

I’ve not considered naming crystals before.

Someone once told me that Old Souls don't integrate as well into this dimension as well as other Souls, .

Yes, I’ve heard that before from Dolores Canon.

Yeah, whatever arises Love that - including what's left after the trauma to the physical body.

Now, I’m working my way through that sweetie shop! I’ve watched eleven of Matt’s videos. There seems to be one or two phrases that leap out in each video, new techniques to try, new ways of looking at things. I’m beginning to notice consistent themes. When you’ve been accumulating spiritual knowledge / information over the years, you can only go with what resonates with you. Now one of the things that has never made any logical sense to me is LoA. I’ve watched many videos, read a few books and whilst I understand the concept, it still didn’t seem logical to me. Well, in one of Matt’s earlier videos I heard him saying something that LoA was trash. As I was painting whilst I was listening to him, I’d thought I’d misheard, tried to find it in the video but couldn’t. So in the video The Heart of Ascension, about 28 minutes or so in, he said it again, referring to it as “spiritual garbage”. I almost leapt of my chair at this point, immediately took a note of which video, what time and replayed it about half a dozen times. For me, personally, this was so liberating. So, I feel as though I’m taking a crash course in modern teachings from this man; very willing to let go of the old paradigm and embrace the new. I’m learning so much from him and I don’t believe it’s a coincidence when I’m also going through these physical changes. I feel my mind is expanding, to take on board this new information, new way of looking at things, whilst releasing things that I was never too sure of without knowing why I wasn’t too sure. But also, there are things he’s referred to and I think, yes I’ve always thought that, that’s what I do. So affirming.

Last few days I’ve been seeing a white star and during the night I’ve been seeing the white star with a gold outline and the white star is being replaced slowly with gold. At one time my mind would be working overtime to figure out what this means. But now I’m just letting it unfold because, like Matt says, I am where I’m supposed to be and I feel this is supported by the fact that this has been going on for over a year now.

During the week I had mild anxiety, a tightness in the chest but then I noticed that at times my heart was thumping hard. I then saw the message that my heart on an energetic level was expanding. A quick google revealed this is quite common symptom in ascension.

Again the question, what are you trying to heal and what are the reasons? And no, it's not obvious.

Now, I’ve thought about this and how to respond, given as you say, you’ve asked before.

I’m trying to heal two physical symptoms related to the trauma I went through. The reason is because I want to be completely well again. But on a deeper level, if I’d sustained the injuries because I’d helped someone, like helping someone out of a burning building or a car crash, I would feel differently about the physical trauma injuries, like it was worth it. But I don’t feel that way because at the end of the day, the symptoms weren’t necessary. What I mean by that, is if I had listened to my gut instincts and acted on them, the whole situation would not have occurred. But I was pushed into a place of absolute terror by the people around me, even if it was from good intentions, so that my own voice wasn’t loud enough, I didn’t have conviction in my own thoughts and beliefs and went along with what happened because I thought that was the right thing to do, because I thought others knew best. And they didn’t. So I’ve had a lot of forgiving to do, to them for getting it wrong and for me, because I didn’t listen to myself. So those physical symptoms are a reminder that I got it wrong for myself and I have to live with that every day (that’s making me cry now!)

I’m off for a run ......

Greenslade

18-09-2017, 12:06 AM

A colleague said the same thing to me when I was telling him how much I enjoy painting and decorating and that I was contemplating my next painting project!Perhaps you could decorate a charity's offices or an old folks' home, express yourself outside of your own four walls.

That sounds fascinating. Does he dowse? He might be able to get some fascinating information between his dowsing, the metal plate and the stone circle. Let's just say I'd enjoy the exploration but his brain can't process it, part of that is fear of what he can't control directly and another part is a tad egoic. He is clairvoyant and when he allows himself to he can see very clearly but he's not sure of what to make of it all.

If there is a pattern, I’m not sure what it is – maybe too close to it to understand fully what’s going on. But I am letting it happen, without my mind interfering too much. Letting it happen is quite a new thing for me.There's always a pattern of some kind and it's always going somewhere, most often not in a way we'd call 'logical'. Sometimes there's a Spiritual Logic and mind logic and never the twain shall meet. Sometimes though, logic is quite flexible if you want it to be, even Mr Spock saw the sense in human logic even though he said they were illogical. Logic might dictate that unless you can affect it it's going to happen regardless, and how it happens depends on your choice of how you want to experience it. And sometimes it takes control to relinquish control.

I do feel a sense of comfort and security when I get the message to use my snow quartz in particular. But the other evening – and I had to check this a couple of times to ensure I’d got the message correctly – I was urged to use one snow quartz sphere in one hand and a black tourmaline sphere in the other. My immediate thought was I’d never mixed crystals before – but also, here we go again – black and white! It was just for one evening. I was told that the tourmaline is for regulating my emotions.Very often there's a sense of security when things come through from 'up there'. I hadn't heard from 'the kids' (the Spirit ones) in a while and last night I had to sit through Top Gun again!! But it was nice just to know they're around and that I can feel them again.

Yep, black and white - which the Universe isn't; and your immediate thought being that you couldn't mix them. Sometimes things like this tells us a lot about ourselves and how we think - and the reasons we think it. So while you're doing some mind-centred stuff your emotions are firing themselves up to the stage where they need regulating. Black and white. Of course you did know that anger is an energy, as are all emotions.

I’ve not considered naming crystals before.Sometimes crystals have more potency if we can tune into them better, naming crystals can sound a bit silly at first until you realise how differently you think of them because of it. Crystals are very much tuned to our consciousness, if they are a part of you or an extension of you they'll have so much more effect than if they're not much more than an old screwdriver. They are energetically intimate with us.

Yes, I’ve heard that before from Dolores Canon.Which for me about explains it all, always having felt I'm in this world but not of it.

Now, I’m working my way through that sweetie shop! I’ve watched eleven of Matt’s videos. There seems to be one or two phrases that leap out in each video, new techniques to try, new ways of looking at things. I’m beginning to notice consistent themes. When you’ve been accumulating spiritual knowledge / information over the years, you can only go with what resonates with you. Now one of the things that has never made any logical sense to me is LoA. I’ve watched many videos, read a few books and whilst I understand the concept, it still didn’t seem logical to me. Well, in one of Matt’s earlier videos I heard him saying something that LoA was trash. As I was painting whilst I was listening to him, I’d thought I’d misheard, tried to find it in the video but couldn’t. So in the video The Heart of Ascension, about 28 minutes or so in, he said it again, referring to it as “spiritual garbage”. I almost leapt of my chair at this point, immediately took a note of which video, what time and replayed it about half a dozen times. For me, personally, this was so liberating. So, I feel as though I’m taking a crash course in modern teachings from this man; very willing to let go of the old paradigm and embrace the new. I’m learning so much from him and I don’t believe it’s a coincidence when I’m also going through these physical changes. I feel my mind is expanding, to take on board this new information, new way of looking at things, whilst releasing things that I was never too sure of without knowing why I wasn’t too sure. But also, there are things he’s referred to and I think, yes I’ve always thought that, that’s what I do. So affirming.

Last few days I’ve been seeing a white star and during the night I’ve been seeing the white star with a gold outline and the white star is being replaced slowly with gold. At one time my mind would be working overtime to figure out what this means. But now I’m just letting it unfold because, like Matt says, I am where I’m supposed to be and I feel this is supported by the fact that this has been going on for over a year now.

During the week I had mild anxiety, a tightness in the chest but then I noticed that at times my heart was thumping hard. I then saw the message that my heart on an energetic level was expanding. A quick google revealed this is quite common symptom in ascension.I have to admit, it scares me the way some people talk in these forums. It's the Spiritual equivalent of a terrorist on the loose and they're in MY Universe. Many of the YouTubes and the like have been very much geared to a target audience that sucks that kind of stuff up about LoA and the like. One of the reasons I like Matt is that he's down to earth and tells it like it is, and quite frankly there are so many myths in Spirituality these days.

Something that I picked up on a while ago is the concept of constructive and non-constructive beliefs. Basically, constructive beliefs stand the challenge while non-constructive beliefs only survive because people put them in a glass box to protect them. Like LoA; it's a trendy subject and if you do the rituals you'll get your heart's desires. However, there's no thought of Karmic Obligations/Life's Purpose and how it might clash with that, and we don't know what we really need never mind be able to tell the difference between need and want. In that context LoA becomes non-constructive or Spiritual garbage. Of course not to mention that if you're trying to attract something it means your core frequencies are vibrating at the frequencies of lacking, and that's what you'll attract. Yeah, it is counter-intuitive but that's the way it is when you think about it the right way.

LoA does work but it takes understanding beyond mere desire - what you're writing about here is a form of LoA. Simply, like attracts like and your frequencies are resonating at the same level as Matt's material, no it's not coincidence it's synchronicity - which one of his vids told you was going to happen in your Ascension. If your frequencies weren't compatible with the material you simply wouldn't make sense of it or it wouldn't resonate with you - you don't/can't attract frequencies that are dissonant with your own. With you though I think it's much more than resonating with the material, it's the difference between understanding it and being the material if that makes sense.

The white star is you, as corny as it often sounds it's quite true and our bodies have elements that are only found in stars and are not native to this earth. The gold colour represents the highest degree of existence, the highest form a being can exist as whatever your concept of that is. It being the outline means you are being protected and that you are 'blending' with the highest form of existence, kind of. It's hard to explain short of quite a long tale. It's going back to what I said early on in the conversation about you becoming more 'yourself' although you were never anyone else really.

Again your black and white, I think you're more of a thinking/logical kind of person but the Spirituality you're coming into is more heart-centred and emotional. By the way, did you know that the heart sends more signals to the brain than vice versa and it has its own neural pathways much like the brain?

Now, I’ve thought about this and how to respond, given as you say, you’ve asked before.

I’m trying to heal two physical symptoms related to the trauma I went through. The reason is because I want to be completely well again. But on a deeper level, if I’d sustained the injuries because I’d helped someone, like helping someone out of a burning building or a car crash, I would feel differently about the physical trauma injuries, like it was worth it. But I don’t feel that way because at the end of the day, the symptoms weren’t necessary. What I mean by that, is if I had listened to my gut instincts and acted on them, the whole situation would not have occurred. But I was pushed into a place of absolute terror by the people around me, even if it was from good intentions, so that my own voice wasn’t loud enough, I didn’t have conviction in my own thoughts and beliefs and went along with what happened because I thought that was the right thing to do, because I thought others knew best. And they didn’t. So I’ve had a lot of forgiving to do, to them for getting it wrong and for me, because I didn’t listen to myself. So those physical symptoms are a reminder that I got it wrong for myself and I have to live with that every day (that’s making me cry now!)

I’m off for a run ......OK, I'm going to be as matter-of-fact with this as possible because it's obviously quite a sore point point with you and the last thing I'd want to do is keep prodding at your wounds, but at the same time it needs to be addressed by the look of it. And thank you for sharing.

In the present our perceptions of the past create our future, and this is where you are now. The physical symptoms are symptoms but not the real dis-ease, so while you're trying to heal the physical trauma that isn't the root cause. The root cause is your perceptions of what happened, and you have quite a list. Perhaps at a deeper level you might well have felt differently if they'd been 'worth it', but at a deeper level still is how you feel about yourself. You didn't listen to yourself so does that make you angry with yourself, make you feel stupid somehow or make you think that you were naive?

Give yourself permission to be angry, to be emotional, to be...... anything that comes from it. You are where you are supposed to be at any given moment, doing what you need to do.

Sometimes we have to keep going that little bit deeper even though it hurts, even though there are dark places within ourselves that we hope will never see the light of day. But if we don't get to the root cause, if those places never see the light they'll always be there and yes, we will have to Live with them every day because that's the choice we've made. How you feel and what you feel are part of the process, Matt would probably tell you to write yourself a permission slip if you haven't already come across that one. Give yourself permission to feel whatever it is you're going to feel and don't hold back. If you feel like an idiot for not listening to yourself by all means chastise yourself but move on, let the tears flow if they want to come. Keeping it all inside is just creating stagnant energy and is counter-productive to what you're trying to do.

What we also have to think about is did our "getting it wrong" not play a part in taking us to where we are now? Because sometimes we go through something that could be construed as a mistake but that 'mistake' was the catalyst for change, for that part inside of us that is determined not to be so stupid the next time. I very much doubt you'll make the same mistakes again so you've come out of it a stronger, wiser person.

One of the hardest things I ever did was watch my daughter going through the pain of having her own experiences, but it was the wisest thing I ever did because she grew up to be the person she needed to be. Yes she had some epic 'fails' but she took them on the chin and moved on, and often together we put her back together again. What she did though was that she learned how to learn, she didn't learn how to have hang-ups, regrets and the like. She learned how to forgive herself and be strong.

Your physical symptoms can also be a reminder that you need top forgive yourself and that you need to learn to Love yourself unconditionally. That is the finest and strongest healing you will ever do.

jro5139

19-09-2017, 02:01 PM

I've gone though multiple ascensions.

The states that I was in before ascension (using my current hindsight) are as equally awesome as my current state.

Who we are remains the same before and after. Which parts are illuminated and concealed changes. Who we are never changes.

In my personal experience, I was experiencing much more happiness and joy before ascension. There was a huge wave of bliss for a year or 2 during my transformation. But now that the bliss is gone there is a lot of peace and not much excitement, fear, unknown, etc.

I just wanted to say that ascension isn't necessarily good, divine, light, right. For some people ascension means a lot of pain. A LOT. And what's the point of that pain anyways? So they can go around touting how great new age beliefs and practices are? so they can be freed from their childhood traumas? Is it even possible to be freed from such things?

Suit yourself. My opinion is things are not better or worse, simply different. As much of me likes the new, an equal part wants what I had.

I think that after the initial phase of Ascension, particularly for those of us going through it early, there can be a let down. I think this is at least, partly due to the fact that the rest of the world has yet to catch up. We can go through all the change and Ascension we can, but ultimately, at this point, we still have to exist and integrate back into the world (which is by and large, still messed up and corrupted). And that is the hard part.
I know that directly after I went through the big bulk of it, I kept thinking "ok things are going to change now" and yet, outwardly, nothing much really changed. But things are changing for me, I am in a real transition phase, which is hard within itself. I do think that, for the world, things will change, it's just a process that takes time. But in the meantime, for those of us that have already began the process of Ascension, it can be difficult to stick with it.
But, do you really feel that pain has no purpose? Currently, it's how the human grows and learns. It doesn't have to be that way forever, we can reach a point of growing and learning without including pain, but that is how it works currently. And I totally believe it is possible to overcome trauma, from childhood and otherwise, it's not easy and it takes courage and strength, but it can be done. I have overcome a lot of trauma myself.

Also, I think a lot of people think that Ascension is a new age concept, or just new age. I disagree, I have been learning about Tibetan Buddhism and the rainbow body and I feel that it is the same thing. It can also be traced back to the Egyptian weighing of the heart ceremony after death, in which the heart is weighed against a feather, and if your heart is lighter than the feather, you are considered ready to move on to the next phase.

Patricia, I haven't read through every post here, but skimming through some things that jumped out at me. Some other things I remembered about going through Ascension... the hunger, I remember being hungry a lot and eating a lot. I also remember my body feeling lighter, and reality seeming to become less dense. At times, it felt like my soul was dis-jointed from my body.
Also, the old soul thing. I am definitely an old soul and I have all the problems of an old soul. Including as you mentioned, feeling like wanting to be done with this reality. It's not a suicidal feeling, as I do not want to die and be gone, just not wanting to be here, wanting to move on to something better. I don't necessarily think this is a bad thing, our world is corrupt and there is nothing healthy about wanting to fit in with a corrupt world.

Patrycia-Rose

24-09-2017, 08:48 AM

Thank you for jro and Mr G.

Since last Sunday, I’ve had a turnaround which is still working its way through my system.

Last week’s postings really brought it home to me how much the trauma and the experience of it were still affecting me and it seem to create an intensity of feeling that magnified with every passing hour. I had unsettled dreams and woke the following day with stomach pains. But I knew this wasn’t related to food etc, this was energetic pain due to the upset. So I went to work feeling low and in pain. On my lunch time walk it occurred to me that I was looking for some words that would enable me to view the trauma and the experience in a way that made me feel comfortable with it and that resonated at a soul level. As I was thinking this, a small white feather dropped onto the road right in front of me, so that I picked it up. I also thought that I just know that something Matt says will deliver that transition. So that evening, I flicked through all the videos he’s done looking for something which seemed appropriate and found The Way of Radical Acceptance. I thought that sounded the ticket.

The first thing that struck me that he was moving away from the very old school thinking of working on “I accept” when obviously you didn’t accept it seeing as you were trying to force yourself to accept whatever it was that you’re working on. He said to try this instead, “it’s OK that I’m feeling sad, angry, it’s OK that I don’t like ....” That instantly felt better so I tried “it’s OK that I don’t know how to heal myself.” So far so good. Then three things came fairly quickly, building up to the ‘ah ha’ moment for me. First he said, “what is the choice that you keep avoiding that would free you from the need to accept anything at all?” “What are the choices within my reach that can rectify this.” And then this....... “stop holding yourself hostage and waiting for some impressive future reality to be the ransom that liberates you.”

At that point, I stopped and went into the kitchen to prepare my evening meal with all that spinning around my head and I asked myself those questions and it occurred to me, and this thought hasn’t ever struck me in 11 years .... ‘what if I lay down arms, stop the fight and just live my life’. First thing I noticed was my whole body seemed to relax and the relief that swept through me was overwhelming. Thinking about what Matt was saying about noticing how the body feels in response to decision, I thought that’s got to be the right decision. I had a blissful night’s sleep and no stomach pain the next morning.

I wondered if I would try and change my mind and wondered what my morning cards would say, to either confirm or not if I’d made the right choice. There was no doubt that I’d made the right decision with ‘Love Begins’ and just to confirm it ‘Make a Commitment’ which I knew instantly, was to commit to that decision. Since then, I feel more relaxed, peaceful and at ease.

I’m continuing with watching one video every few days and I am learning so much. Casting aside old spiritual viewpoints that I never got in the first place and thought that I was lacking something not to understand. The power of now – is a book that I just never got. LoA too. As well as quite a few things he’s said, that I have done and do feel – that’s great to know.

My shelves are full of books that were interesting but either didn’t mean much or I didn’t agree with, some of them untouched. I’ve seen many different spiritual videos on YouTube which again, I didn’t get, didn’t resonate, for me I’ve always for AH deeply patronising. But with Matt, I understand what he’s saying, I love the way he uses humour to drive the message home (been crying with laughter sometimes) and what he says satisfies my logical mind. The highlight of my day right now is to have my evening meal and watch one of his teachings. And I’m putting into practice the techniques and way of thinking of things – and it’s working. I’m actually beginning to feel mildly enthusiastic about the future which is a big departure from the feeling of being ready to go!

And Mr G, I can’t thank you enough for bringing him to my attention – if it wasn’t for your suggestion I’d still be floundering in the dark, not even knowing that I was in the dark. So thank you a million times over! :hug3:

Greenslade

24-09-2017, 12:35 PM

we still have to exist and integrate back into the world (which is by and large, still messed up and corrupted). And that is the hard part.
We don't 'have to', we made the choice as Spirit and when you let go of 'have to' everything changes - it creates the space for the realisation of the reasons you made the choice.

You are 'infectious'; you have an energetic torsion field that radiates energy outwards, you have an aura that glows and every time your heart beats it sends out a 360-degree pulse into the Universe. Everyone is an antenna, sending and receiving those heart signals - we are carbon-based Life forms and consciousness imprints water. All of those are known, actual scientific facts and none of it is theory.

We all need Hope, but Hope needs someone to carry it. And it has to begin somewhere, otherwise it doesn't. The only question you have to ask yourself is what will you send out into the Universe?

Greenslade

24-09-2017, 11:54 PM

The first thing that struck me that he was moving away from the very old school thinking of working on “I accept” when obviously you didn’t accept it seeing as you were trying to force yourself to accept whatever it was that you’re working on. He said to try this instead, “it’s OK that I’m feeling sad, angry, it’s OK that I don’t like ....” That instantly felt better so I tried “it’s OK that I don’t know how to heal myself.” So far so good. Then three things came fairly quickly, building up to the ‘ah ha’ moment for me. First he said, “what is the choice that you keep avoiding that would free you from the need to accept anything at all?” “What are the choices within my reach that can rectify this.” And then this....... “stop holding yourself hostage and waiting for some impressive future reality to be the ransom that liberates you.” It's been said that every religion was right for that people at that time - at that time. You could probably say the same about New Age Spirituality, in that it came at a time when people wanted a release from the 'oppression' of old schools of thought. What it did though is turn Spirituality into trendiness in the way the Beatles adopted their own gurus and started the craze. New Age Spirituality is coming apart at the seams, time for the trailblazers to do their thing.

By the way, have you looked up the symbolism of the white feather? Basically it's purity and angelic 'contact' - the angels said "Hello, we're here for you."

Being OK is probably one of the most freeing things you will ever experience in Spirituality, sometimes it's been given some 'bad press' but that's not the case at all. Being OK with things means you allow their existence without conflict - which is what the Universe does. The Universe is OK with you being OK with yourself if that's how you want to experience your existence, it's just as OK with you being not OK at all with yourself too. It allows you to exercise your Free Will. If the Universe is OK with you not being OK with yourself, why can't you be?

Only you can liberate you. So just when you thought you were safe in your Matt Khan vids - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpeLFJsxnlg

Energy flows where the attention goes, so if all the attention is on the fight? Not only is the energy flowing towards the conflict and creating a critical mass (the more you fight the more there is to fight against) but you're not creating the space for something else to come through. If you are trying to heal something, what is it that you're trying to heal and what are the reasons? So now you've experienced the relationship with your body and your choices - "what if I lay down my arms" - what does that say about the physical healing you've been struggling to do?

I tend to go for nutshells, so the power of Now in a nutshell? In Tolle's own (close to anyway) words - the past is memory, the future is anticipation and the Now is where we exist. Think about it. What happened in the past is a memory and you don't actually exist 'back then', all you can actually experience is now. The events, the reality, the experience of 'back then' has gone. As for the future, it's what we'd like to do sometime in the future, where we see ourselves etc. In June I want quad biking in the Highlands National Park but in the Now I'm tapping away on the keyboard. Mrs G has booked next year's trip but guess what? I'm still tapping on this keyboard. Last year's trip is memory, next year's is anticipation but right now there's keyboard.

Living in the Now is very pertinent for you because when you understand that you'll understand your healing process even more. The past is memory, that's the key phrase there.

LoA is about your vibrations, which is what's happening to you with your synchronicities. You're more in tune with the Universe so the Universe is more in tune with you and what you attract is your various messages. You have loads of books that didn't resonate with you but now when you need it the most you have attracted Matt's material, which resonates with you. Before recently you were at odds with yourself, you probably had aspects of yourself you didn't like very much so your vibrations were all over the place - hence the books that weren't much use to you. The material didn't harmonise/resonate with you because you didn't harmonise with yourself.

Every new beginning starts with some other new beginning's end, and here you are. There's definitely a new beginning feel to your post, which is really good news and I think it'll give you what you need to heal on another level. I don't think the process is quite finished with you yet but it's certainly taken an interesting turn and you'll be more comfortable with yourself. And the Universe is a reflection of you.

You were never in the dark, you weren't quite ready is all. But you're very welcome a million times over.:hug3:

jro5139

27-09-2017, 12:49 AM

We don't 'have to', we made the choice as Spirit and when you let go of 'have to' everything changes - it creates the space for the realisation of the reasons you made the choice.

You are 'infectious'; you have an energetic torsion field that radiates energy outwards, you have an aura that glows and every time your heart beats it sends out a 360-degree pulse into the Universe. Everyone is an antenna, sending and receiving those heart signals - we are carbon-based Life forms and consciousness imprints water. All of those are known, actual scientific facts and none of it is theory.

We all need Hope, but Hope needs someone to carry it. And it has to begin somewhere, otherwise it doesn't. The only question you have to ask yourself is what will you send out into the Universe?

Yeah I realize the reasons I made the choice, it's just keeping that in mind and not getting caught up in the moment when stuff doesn't work out that is something I had to learn to do. It's about keeping the big picture in mind, and all the stuff I have been learning lately helps me to do that, but still, getting through these transitions phases can still be trying.
I went through a phase were I tried to cut "have to" out of my vocabulary, instead I would say "I am choosing to because" and I would list all the reasons why I was choosing to do whatever it was that I really didn't want to do... what I found though was, it just ended up being a circular conversation that led me back to square one anyway.

I would agree that religions or spiritual paths exists for the people that need that particular message at the time, however, that being said... I think the loa is just too simplified, at least for me. It doesn't account for some things, like our life path, our highest path, soul contracts and karma. These things can all play into what happens, especially as our souls gain more and more lives and become older.

Patricia, I love Matt Khan, he is one of my favorites and one I still listen to...there are a few that I listened to for a while, and then, I sort of got bored with their messages.

youngnostic

27-09-2017, 07:20 AM

I once asked a Christian Mystic lady why we suffer so much: she said "it's to prepare us for our [Energy]--or as she put it: Glorified--Body."
it makes sense... if you're going through physical changes after pursuing Spiritual Growth then it's very likely that Ascension for you means evolving in Consciousness to the point where you disidentify with the world of Form and your body and reunite with your I AM Presence and no longer need to be in a physical body.
(Please note: I am simply sharing this because of what you've described in the post)
I believe if we balance and harmonize ourselves there is absolutely no reason why some of us who are ready can't "Ascend" to the Spiritual/Ascended Realm and leave this Matrix of a world with our temporary bodies.
I also thank you for sharing this because it gives me hope since "Ascending" has been a longing of mine as well and I've been doing everything I could to become as least worldly as possible and the most spiritually minded mentally free as I could so that I could be confident when I die and lately it's been dawning on me that I should work on ascending and not just make sure that I am bold and confident with my self once I leave this world.

Greenslade

29-09-2017, 10:11 AM

Yeah I realize the reasons I made the choice, it's just keeping that in mind and not getting caught up in the moment when stuff doesn't work out that is something I had to learn to do. It's about keeping the big picture in mind, and all the stuff I have been learning lately helps me to do that, but still, getting through these transitions phases can still be trying.
I went through a phase were I tried to cut "have to" out of my vocabulary, instead I would say "I am choosing to because" and I would list all the reasons why I was choosing to do whatever it was that I really didn't want to do... what I found though was, it just ended up being a circular conversation that led me back to square one anyway.

I would agree that religions or spiritual paths exists for the people that need that particular message at the time, however, that being said... I think the loa is just too simplified, at least for me. It doesn't account for some things, like our life path, our highest path, soul contracts and karma. These things can all play into what happens, especially as our souls gain more and more lives and become older.

Patricia, I love Matt Khan, he is one of my favorites and one I still listen to...there are a few that I listened to for a while, and then, I sort of got bored with their messages.Does stuff not work out or does stuff work the way it needs to work out rather than how you think it should? If you could go back in time to when you were a kid and you could sit with yourself, what would you say about you being Spiritual? I couldn't even begin to tell my younger self anything that would be remotely understood. Heck, I'd have trouble with the human stuff. "Well kiddo, they've got these things called computers and the internet. And by the way, your Higher Self..." Not gonna happen. If I popped my clogs and came back to talk to myself today????

We're going to 'get there' either because of ourselves or despite ourselves. if we'd only listen to our 'Spiritual self' it would tell us we already are 'there'.

They're only circular conversations if you think they are but they can just as easily be spiral. You're not back at square one because you've come to the realisation that it's a circular conversation so that puts you on square two. Square three is not having one, square four is understanding what's going on and square five is working out what's next.

LoA is quite simple, the 'problem' with LoA isn't the Spirituality but the mentality. People think that it's just about their heart's desire but do they really understand what that is? many seem to think it's there for their benefit, which it is but just not the way they think it is. "God made man, man made religion" and the same can be said for Spirituality. Spirituality is mostly based on the mindset that creates the belief and when you understand the mindset within the culture it makes sense. Little has changed.

Greenslade

29-09-2017, 10:18 AM

Patrycia-Rose

30-09-2017, 11:18 AM

By the way, have you looked up the symbolism of the white feather? Basically it's purity and angelic 'contact' - the angels said "Hello, we're here for you."

I've heard before that white feathers are from the angelic realm. I've had several in the past, beginning with a small white feather I found on my bedroom floor and wondered how it got there from the open window which was quite some way away.

So just when you thought you were safe in your Matt Khan vids - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hpeLFJsxnlg

I had to laugh at my reaction to that. I could only listen for a few minutes before I was catapulted into the past and how I would try so hard to listen intently to a variety of youtube vids, 'trying' to get it and feeling sort of empty and disappointed in myself that I just didn't get it. Well, no longer.

So now you've experienced the relationship with your body and your choices - "what if I lay down my arms" - what does that say about the physical healing you've been struggling to do?

Yes, absolutely, that's what I thought. It was worse than that, because the previous week, a line popped into my head which was "I went into battle to take on the darkness." I think that then led to that theme of laying down arms.

You have loads of books that didn't resonate with you but now when you need it the most you have attracted Matt's material, which resonates with you. Before recently you were at odds with yourself, you probably had aspects of yourself you didn't like very much so your vibrations were all over the place - hence the books that weren't much use to you. The material didn't harmonise/resonate with you because you didn't harmonise with yourself.

Absolutely I need it the most now. I can't believe how much I'm learning and I'm remembering it too and implementing, sometimes in the smallest of ways and sometimes big things.

Every new beginning starts with some other new beginning's end, and here you are. There's definitely a new beginning feel to your post, which is really good news and I think it'll give you what you need to heal on another level. I don't think the process is quite finished with you yet but it's certainly taken an interesting turn and you'll be more comfortable with yourself. And the Universe is a reflection of you.

The process is definitely not over and I don't think it will be for a while yet. This last week I've had subtle feelings of agitation, unsettled, anxiety and this morning, worry. Plus toothache for a few days which I kind of knew was part of the changes as it went just as it came.

But care of Matt's teachings, my internal vocabulary is changing. Instead of feeling concerned, fed up with all the feelings of agitation, I just kept reassuring myself, it's OK for me to feel this way. "things are working out" and a really significant one from him I felt "what you're feeling, you're healing." Also, when someone's behaviour triggers something in you, that's the next part to be loved. I'm doing the "I love you's" in the evening, sitting quietly and sending them into the physical body but the most intriguing thing is, a presence/awareness moves around my body where it's needed, almost like it's saying "me next!" It's fascinating.

The other significant thing he's described is how you can your spiritual gifts and then suddenly it all goes quiet and they're not there, you can't connect to them. And you question why you've lost your connection to spirit, have you done something wrong. The emptiness / lack of your gifts is teaching you non-attachments to your gifts and also that you can't ever be disconnected from spirit. Now, I have to say I found this very reassuring because the healing energy has sometimes been subtle to question if it's still there, the numbers have stopped, but I've taken it all in my stride and not been worrying about it. So I'd reacted the right way instinctively although lovely to have his explanation.

Also I took intent notice when he started talking about the early indigos. I looked at the profile of an adult indigo and it describes me perfectly. Mind you, I thought at the time, well I'm still me, going through my life's plans, the label doesn't mean anything.

"Everything is here to help you" is a video which had a profound effect which is about changing your relationship with those things you can’t seem to avoid, overcome, discard or reconcile.

At one point, he said, to take your deepest pain, your greatest atrocity that he was there to help you resolve because if he was there the moment it happened, it wouldn’t have happened but that he couldn't go back in time with you. He would do anything to have spared you and defended your honour if he had been there." That made me dissolve into floods of tears, in fact it still makes me teary just typing it because it brings home how alone I was in facing that trauma. My parents were going to help me through it but both of them were ill and so I faced it totally alone. That line I came up with about going into battle to take on the darkness is so fitting.

And then after a few weeks of nothing, I had a dream where my mother gave me a white book with a picture of a robin on it. Of course, I immediately looked up robin power animal and it's all about spiritual growth and renewal.

And this morning as I pulled into the drive thinking which of Matt's videos I would be watching next, the mileage was 133777. I googled the number and it said " Angel Number 777 indicates that you have listened to Divine guidance and are now putting that wisdom to work in your life, and the time has come to reap the rewards for your hard work and efforts. " I had a little laugh at that. But then I felt that was spirit recognising how much I'm learning, putting into practice - and also importantly, that his teachings are coming at me now - divine timing.

And it was so nice when a colleague yesterday said I looked well and far more relaxed and calm of late.

Thank you for Mr G for your continued insight and support.

Patrycia

Greenslade

01-10-2017, 10:11 AM

I've heard before that white feathers are from the angelic realm. I've had several in the past, beginning with a small white feather I found on my bedroom floor and wondered how it got there from the open window which was quite some way away.Sometimes we leave so many things behind, we forget where we've come from and tell ourselves that we know where we're going but we've lost something along the way. We carry the baggage but we don't carry what we really need. Like puberty for instance, we go through a major shift and leave our childhood behind but it stays with us like a scared child that won't let go of our coat tails. It tugs at us insistently for attention as we try to forget its existence, yet it's where we've come from and it'll help us to realise where we're going. Innocence lost, gone.

Children have an immense Spirituality of their own but few adults appreciate that, adults fill their heads with ideologies and theologies that children have never been encumbered with. Children play and create their own realities, it's natural for them and resonates with them. They create and share play realities so easily and that ability, that talent becomes lost in the rush to become 'adult'. Adults fill their heads with all sorts but just become burdened, yoked. Adults know but have forgotten much, and have never really known what children know.

Like your feather, for instance. The 'adult' thing might be to ponder about how air currents could have blown it there, but the Child Inside? Perhaps the Child Inside will tell you that it was blown by an angel's kiss, whose message is that you are Loved even with your 'warts and all'. Perhaps it will touch a place in your heart, and that will tell you that you have a heart to touch and that it can be touched. It doesn't matter if angels are fanciful, that innocence has led you to your heart and what you feel there.

I had to laugh at my reaction to that. I could only listen for a few minutes before I was catapulted into the past and how I would try so hard to listen intently to a variety of youtube vids, 'trying' to get it and feeling sort of empty and disappointed in myself that I just didn't get it. Well, no longer.It's a great place to be, as though you've 'arrived'.

Yes, absolutely, that's what I thought. It was worse than that, because the previous week, a line popped into my head which was "I went into battle to take on the darkness." I think that then led to that theme of laying down arms.Have you ever read Don Quixote? It's about a knight errant who goes on a quest but he's quite bonkers. He has an old nag for a horse and a pot for a helmet, and while he's doing it for the Love of his Lady Dulcinea she's cavorting with a lord and having a laugh at him. And windmills become monsters. The fight looks very different when you work out what you're fighting against.

Absolutely I need it the most now. I can't believe how much I'm learning and I'm remembering it too and implementing, sometimes in the smallest of ways and sometimes big things. Almost, you're forgetting the very vital ingredient - yourself. It's not what you look at it's what you see in it that counts, that tells you what you need to know. You're resonating with Matt's and Alan Watt's material so what does that tell you? If you weren't at that level of vibration it would sail on over your head. You are the one that's making it all happen, and it's acknowledgement not ego.

The process is definitely not over and I don't think it will be for a while yet. This last week I've had subtle feelings of agitation, unsettled, anxiety and this morning, worry. Plus toothache for a few days which I kind of knew was part of the changes as it went just as it came.

But care of Matt's teachings, my internal vocabulary is changing. Instead of feeling concerned, fed up with all the feelings of agitation, I just kept reassuring myself, it's OK for me to feel this way. "things are working out" and a really significant one from him I felt "what you're feeling, you're healing." Also, when someone's behaviour triggers something in you, that's the next part to be loved. I'm doing the "I love you's" in the evening, sitting quietly and sending them into the physical body but the most intriguing thing is, a presence/awareness moves around my body where it's needed, almost like it's saying "me next!" It's fascinating.

The other significant thing he's described is how you can your spiritual gifts and then suddenly it all goes quiet and they're not there, you can't connect to them. And you question why you've lost your connection to spirit, have you done something wrong. The emptiness / lack of your gifts is teaching you non-attachments to your gifts and also that you can't ever be disconnected from spirit. Now, I have to say I found this very reassuring because the healing energy has sometimes been subtle to question if it's still there, the numbers have stopped, but I've taken it all in my stride and not been worrying about it. So I'd reacted the right way instinctively although lovely to have his explanation.

Also I took intent notice when he started talking about the early indigos. I looked at the profile of an adult indigo and it describes me perfectly. Mind you, I thought at the time, well I'm still me, going through my life's plans, the label doesn't mean anything.

"Everything is here to help you" is a video which had a profound effect which is about changing your relationship with those things you can’t seem to avoid, overcome, discard or reconcile.

At one point, he said, to take your deepest pain, your greatest atrocity that he was there to help you resolve because if he was there the moment it happened, it wouldn’t have happened but that he couldn't go back in time with you. He would do anything to have spared you and defended your honour if he had been there." That made me dissolve into floods of tears, in fact it still makes me teary just typing it because it brings home how alone I was in facing that trauma. My parents were going to help me through it but both of them were ill and so I faced it totally alone. That line I came up with about going into battle to take on the darkness is so fitting.

And then after a few weeks of nothing, I had a dream where my mother gave me a white book with a picture of a robin on it. Of course, I immediately looked up robin power animal and it's all about spiritual growth and renewal.

And this morning as I pulled into the drive thinking which of Matt's videos I would be watching next, the mileage was 133777. I googled the number and it said " Angel Number 777 indicates that you have listened to Divine guidance and are now putting that wisdom to work in your life, and the time has come to reap the rewards for your hard work and efforts. " I had a little laugh at that. But then I felt that was spirit recognising how much I'm learning, putting into practice - and also importantly, that his teachings are coming at me now - divine timing.

And it was so nice when a colleague yesterday said I looked well and far more relaxed and calm of late.

Thank you for Mr G for your continued insight and support.

PatryciaDon't forget that this is the third density and that consciousness doesn't have one, it takes time for things to sink in and work their way through. This is a realm of time and these things take time.

When the agitation builds up there's a simple way to shift it. Sit yourself down with your hands in your lap, palms upwards. Now, imagine there's a tap on your stomach just above your hands, and when you turn the tap on all those bad vibes are going to come pouring out into your hands. When you feel you've been emptied of them, slowly raise your hands as though offering it up to the Universe again, where it belongs. Then you can say "I Love you even more now that you're free of those bad vibes, baby."

Feelings are energetic so shifting them energetically - doing something - is often the best way. And visulasations are your best tools, it doesn't matter what they are as long as you choose the strongest one for you. If it helps then visualise yourself as aerodynamic or transparent, I often visualise myself as aerodynamic because that way the wind whistles past and it doesn't stick in the first place. Prevention is better than cure. Often the process can be redirected too, if someone triggers you and you recognise that you can change what's bee triggered. If someone triggers your anger you can redirect that energy towards something more constructive - like giving your mental energy some adrenaline.

Would you give someone a bunch of pills if they didn't need them? Same with Spirit, your healing and your numbers are like 'pills' and you needed them at the time to cure your 'ailment'. People can become attached or even addicted to things and that includes healing and Spirituality itself. Someone once said to me "You get what you need, if you don't got it you don't need it." People become attached or addicted to things that make them feel good, it's simple human nature but there's often something more beyond the attachment - addiction even. This is probably tied in with your being OK - you're OK with the healing energy not being there. Non-attachment and being OK are on a par vibrationally with each other, it's kind of the same thing. It's all a part of you becoming - becoming. It's not a theory or ideology for you, it's who and what you are. So stick that in your pipe and smoke it. :smile: Did you react instinctively, was it even a reaction or simply who you are?

"Awakenings are about letting go."

The Universe is a reflection of you and it is lovely when you and the Universe resonate. Like the comments from your colleagues, but also remember that you are infectious.

The label can mean something if you attach a meaning to it - or not. I'm an Old Soul but it doesn't mean that much to me because here I am still, not feeling particularly 'Spiritual Advanced' whatever that means. Someone once said that I came from a very noble Spiritual House. What's one of them? It made as much sense as being Pisces/Aquarius cusp, which meant I didn't particularly fit into either.

Have you read Freud's Allegory of the Alchemist and the Philosopher's Stone? Basically what he's saying is that it's only in the darkness that we can find what he calls the Prima Materia, the basic material from which all other matter can be made - including gold, which was the aim of the alchemist. If you're going to do battle then it makes sense to know your enemy as best you can, any general worth his salt will tell you that. You also need to know your reasons for doing battle. All those are waiting in the darkness. Part of the allegory is that the alchemists were trying to make lead into gold, which is understandable because gold and lead are close enough in the periodic table. In the allegory they didn't understand that what they needed to do is find the Prima Materia and create the gold from the basics building blocks.

I spent quite a few years in the against child abuse arena and learned quite a few things. I learned to understand what the battle and the 'good fight' were, what 'damaged' people could do and the difference between survivor and thriver. I also learned of victims - who were victims on other levels and didn't even realise it.

I also remember my own time... alone in in the darkness.

It's about taking those pieces of the puzzle and putting them all together. To stop being the victim and breaking away from that mentality to find what you really need that's hidden away in the darkness; the Prima Materia, the stuff that the allegorical gold is made from.

Yeah I remember the trauma and the pain and often relive it in my mind's eye, but it's not painful any more. What does make me collapse in tears is not the pain or the thought of what happened, what causes me to come apart is what I've come to realise because of it. There was a time when it was the driving force and the inspiration but that's evolved.

We all Walk our Paths together alone; some in front, some behind but everyone in the same place. While the prints mingle they are yet different. When you've been there and come through it..... I can't give you this because it's not yours, although perhaps it is for you to find on your own Journey. It's screamingly frustrating having to stand back and watch people go through things that you know isn't going to be easy but you know they have to go it alone anyway and you know why. But the darkest places in the Universe are the places where we have chosen not to shine our Light, and our Light is made from the Prima Materia.

If you're not a Lord of the Rings fan then shame on you. Right at the very end Frodo is standing on the pier where the last ship to the Grey Havens awaits. Of course he hasn't said anything to Sam, Merry and Pippin yet about him leaving. He hands Sam the book Bilbo started and Frodo continued, when Sam notices there are a few pages left.
"It's not finished."
"Those pages are for you, Sam."
Your white book is a journal and has more significance than you realise. Have you heard of the Akashic Records?

As always Patrycia, you are very welcome. And thank you for your continued creation of the space where it can happen.

Patrycia-Rose

08-10-2017, 09:47 AM

Like your feather, for instance. The 'adult' thing might be to ponder about how air currents could have blown it there, but the Child Inside? Perhaps the Child Inside will tell you that it was blown by an angel's kiss, whose message is that you are Loved even with your 'warts and all'. Perhaps it will touch a place in your heart, and that will tell you that you have a heart to touch and that it can be touched. It doesn't matter if angels are fanciful, that innocence has led you to your heart and what you feel there.

Yes, I’ve quite a few white feathers here and there, so I know they’re from the angelic realm now, and it makes me smile when I see one.

It's a great place to be, as though you've 'arrived'.

You misunderstood, I didn’t explain myself very well. When I started listening to the Alan Watts video, it was like my whole body tensed and I thought no, this sounds awful, the voice, the words, the effect on me which is why I stopped listening after a few minutes. That’s the reaction I’ve had in the past listening to all different kinds of spiritual teachings.

But listening to Matt, is a totally different and new experience. If I’m listening after a day at work and am slightly tired, his voice has a soporific effect on me and I fall asleep which is why I’ve taken to listening whilst I’m having my evening meal, as I can’t fall asleep then. But it’s the warmth, the humour he gives out with his teachings is beginning to give me a new way of relating to myself.

If you weren't at that level of vibration it would sail on over your head. You are the one that's making it all happen, and it's acknowledgement not ego.

Yes, that kind of vaguely occurred to me the other day. In fact I was recently listening to ‘7 holy words’ and several youtube viewers commented they didn’t understand it but I was quite pleased with myself (a rare occurrence) that I did get it completely and not only that, again I’m implementing it. This really appealed to me in a ‘Divinci Code’ way as there is a lot of codes within the words. Fascinating stuff!

About the ego, if you view Matt’s teaching on this, there’s a lot of misunderstanding about the ego. I don’t really have a sense of my ego. I didn’t really identify with the four ego types he described. But, I can’t remember which video it was now but he described another type of ego, which was in need of reassurance and given to worry, and a sense sometimes of lack of worth and I thought yes, that sounds like me.

I spent quite a few years in the against child abuse arena and learned quite a few things. I learned to understand what the battle and the 'good fight' were, what 'damaged' people could do and the difference between survivor and thriver. I also learned of victims - who were victims on other levels and didn't even realise it.

That’s quite a coincidence as I worked in the child protection arena for some twenty years.

I also remember my own time... alone in in the darkness.

Yeah I remember the trauma and the pain and often relive it in my mind's eye, but it's not painful any more. What does make me collapse in tears is not the pain or the thought of what happened, what causes me to come apart is what I've come to realise because of it. There was a time when it was the driving force and the inspiration but that's evolved.

I’m sorry to hear that you’ve endured your own trauma. I’d be glad to offer any help, insight or support if you feel it would help.

This last week I’ve been having one good day, one bad day where minor worries have been magnified so that I’ve been intensely unsettled, tearful, anxious. Then it clears and yesterday, I got up and felt like death warmed over. I honestly thought I was coming down with something. I then got the message to use my crown chakra tuning fork around my neck area and about an hour later I began to feel so much better, literally like a dark veil lifting. And then this morning it’s gone. So I think that this worry is maybe coming out. So as Matt says, I try to welcome the worry into the light.

I’m a Massive Lord of the Rings fan. Up until 2001, I hadn’t read the books. When I saw the film I was so in awe of it, I saw it 12 times over the months it was at the cinema. That then led me to getting the books which I've read several times. A lot of wisdom in there and I often think of Gandalf’s words when he says to Frodo, “so do all who live to see such times .....”

Your white book is a journal and has more significance than you realise.

Have you heard of the Akashic Records?

The irritating thing is, that white journal had a title on it but I couldn't remember the words on waking.

Yes, I have heard of the Akashic records but not really gone into in any depth.

Thank you, Mr G.

Patrycia

Greenslade

08-10-2017, 01:17 PM

Yes, I’ve quite a few white feathers here and there, so I know they’re from the angelic realm now, and it makes me smile when I see one.Now you've got me doing it.

You misunderstood, I didn’t explain myself very well. When I started listening to the Alan Watts video, it was like my whole body tensed and I thought no, this sounds awful, the voice, the words, the effect on me which is why I stopped listening after a few minutes. That’s the reaction I’ve had in the past listening to all different kinds of spiritual teachings.

But listening to Matt, is a totally different and new experience. If I’m listening after a day at work and am slightly tired, his voice has a soporific effect on me and I fall asleep which is why I’ve taken to listening whilst I’m having my evening meal, as I can’t fall asleep then. But it’s the warmth, the humour he gives out with his teachings is beginning to give me a new way of relating to myself.Oops, sorry. I quite like Allan Watts and I've resonated with a lot of his material, and to me he's a slightly different kind of Matt Khan - a little more high-brow and crusty but he has his moments too. Watts has more of an air of authority as though it's the Universe itself that's talking, while Matt's more of a buddy I'm having a beer with.

Yes, that kind of vaguely occurred to me the other day. In fact I was recently listening to ‘7 holy words’ and several youtube viewers commented they didn’t understand it but I was quite pleased with myself that I did get it completely and not only that, again I’m implementing it. This really appealed to me in a ‘Divinci Code’ way as there is a lot of codes within the words. Fascinating stuff.

About the ego, if you view Matt’s teaching on this, there’s a lot of misunderstanding about the ego. I don’t really have a sense of my ego. I didn’t really identify with the four ego types he described. But, I can’t remember which video it was now but he described another one which was in need of reassurance and given to worry, and a sense sometimes of lack of worth and I thought yes, that sounds like me. I think we all need some kind of acknowledgement in some form or another, it's nice when the Universe says "Hey kiddo, you're getting there." It's kind of important to me right now, admittedly, because I want to know that I'm not going crazy and that my head is on some kind of straight regardless of how far out of mainstream I seem to be. It's kinda cool that the Universe is reflecting back at me and that we're finally coming to terms with each other.

Words have power, not just codes. "Change the words, change the paradigm."

I don't worry too much about the ego, although in a self-awareness way I'm much like you in that I have a lack of worth - even to the point of denying what's in front of my face. Personally I'd define ego as a reference point for our conscious experience, the simpler the starting point the better. According to Jung (or was it Freud?) it's a sense of 'I Am'. That works too.

That’s quite a coincidence as I worked in the child protection arena for some twenty years.I'm not a fan of coincidences, but that's interesting just the same.

I’m sorry to hear that you’ve endured your own trauma. I’d be glad to offer any help, insight or support if you feel it would help. Thank you. It kind of goes back to the question of what you're trying to heal and the reasons - and just to let you know that we have something else in common.

I tend to look for ways to turn things around and when 'negative' and 'toxic' become choices of perspective everything changes, they become dichotomies or contrasts. We go through our own traumas and if that makes us survivors or victims is up to us, but what we have to remember is that we somehow managed to come through it. True empathy only comes from having a similar experience and empathy is something that isn't exclusive to the Spiritually Advanced. Non-Spiritual people can tell the difference between true empathy or otherwise. Turning hurts into halos.

This last week I’ve been having one good day, one bad day where minor worries have been magnified so that I’ve been intensely unsettled, tearful, anxious. Then it clears and yesterday, I got up and felt like death warmed over. I honestly thought I was coming down with something. I then got the message to use my crown chakra tuning fork around my neck area and about an hour later I began to feel so much better, literally like a dark veil lifting. And then this morning it’s gone. So I think that this worry is maybe coming out. So as Matt says, I try to welcome the worry into the light. What we resist persists and the more things are suppressed the harder they fight back, as if they're fighting to reach the light of day. We don't need them, they make us feel bad yet we hold onto them as though they belong to us. Emotions are strange things and people are even stranger. Emotions are energy in motion, they're our 'reaction' to the flow of energy. What you're doing is clearing out some of the old energies so death warmed over is as good a way to put it as any, because there's a kind of mini death/reincarnation thing happening with you. Both your consciousness and your energetic frequencies are changing, as signified by you resonating with Matt's material and manifesting those changes into reality. The manifesting into reality is the energetic part of it. so the changes in frequency is understandably knocking your energetic body a little sideways. Your minor worries are the focus of your being aware that things are changing inside you, a kind of highlight if you like. The unsettled, tearful and anxious are the emotional responses to the energetic changes, they're just how you sense the different frequencies. Worry is often uncertainty and not being quite sure of what's going on, or if you're a control freak it could be feeling a loss of control. Certainly it's indicative of being at odds with yourself - which is kinda what is actually happening because a 'new you' is coming through that you're not quite comfortable with yet.

By all means allow the worry into the light, it's an indication that you're changing so you can celebrate it if you like. Suppressing it, though, means stagnation.

I’m a Massive Lord of the Rings fan. Up until 2001, I hadn’t read the books. When I saw the film I was so in awe of it, I saw it 12 times over the months it was at the cinema. That then led me to getting the books which I've read several times. A lot of wisdom in there and I often think of Gandalf’s words when he says to Frodo, “so do all who live to see such times .....”I was really ticked when they'd left Tom Bombadill out of the film because I really wanted to know what they'd make of him for some reason. He was a very mysterious character and there was more to him than met the eye. Still though, 'awe' would be the word to use. I still have the cinema tickets, Mrs G and my two daughters were with me. Yes. there was a lot of wisdom and so much food for thought. Being honest I found more Spirituality in LOTR than I've found in many Spiritual books. but then to me it's more about the Journey and not the theories.

The irritating thing is, that white journal had a title on it but I couldn't remember the words on waking.

Yes, I have heard of the Akashic records but not really gone into in any depth.

Thank you, Mr G.

PatryciaThe words on the white journal will come to you when you're ready, it's just not the time as yet so relax and don't let things irritate you. Allow it to be so. Have you thought about what the symbolism means to you, personally?

Books and writing have a very special significance to me, one that would need quite a lengthy tale to tell. The avatar is a nod to not just the writer but to so much connected with him. My daughter gave me a leather-bound notebook for father's day and that has quite a bit of synchronicity around it because it feels as though I've been given a clean slate, and what will be written on the pages is up to me for a change. No dictation any more.

I don't know why this is relevant, but.... I'm listening to Joe Satriani, arguably one of the greatest rock guitarists on the planet. In my mind's eye I can see a dark area with a single spotlight shining on a young boy, he's playing air guitar to the music. One of my 'Spirit kids'. There's a huge lump in my throat and the tears are welling up, the track is "Crying". I've had to pause a few times as I write this last bit, just to compose myself and now the track "Always with me, always with you" is fading away.

Patrycia-Rose

15-10-2017, 11:44 AM

Now you've got me doing it.

That's what you mean by infectious?

[QUOTE]Oops, sorry. I quite like Allan Watts and I've resonated with a lot of his material, and to me he's a slightly different kind of Matt Khan - a little more high-brow and crusty but he has his moments too. Watts has more of an air of authority as though it's the Universe itself that's talking, while Matt's more of a buddy I'm having a beer with.

I think that’s what the problem is – have always had issues with authority figures. That’s what I like about Matt, there’s no sense of authority, no sense of ego, good sense of humour, friendly etc etc. That’s why I feel I can learn from him, and I’m learning loads

Thank you. It kind of goes back to the question of what you're trying to heal and the reasons - and just to let you know that we have something else in common.

Aah, I may have missed that unless you’re identifying something about my description of trauma or the impact.

The unsettled, tearful and anxious are the emotional responses to the energetic changes, they're just how you sense the different frequencies. Worry is often uncertainty and not being quite sure of what's going on, or if you're a control freak it could be feeling a loss of control. Certainly it's indicative of being at odds with yourself - which is kinda what is actually happening because a 'new you' is coming through that you're not quite comfortable with yet.

Yes, I think you’re right there. At the moment, it feels like every minute of my day is full of some activity, either work, running, chores, and even when I’m ‘relaxing’ I’m not. Like if I’m watching one of Matt’s videos, I’m now taking loads of notes, so I’m constnatly having to re-wind and write which is not exactly relaxing but it feels like some phrases are so important, I just have to write them down as a reminder.

This video in particular I found enlightening with again, things I’m putting into practice. At towards the end, I thought this is like the review you’d get when you passed over and at the moment he said “this is a life review”.

Made me smile!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejKqH0CZmnw

I was really ticked when they'd left Tom Bombadill out of the film because I really wanted to know what they'd make of him for some reason. He was a very mysterious character and there was more to him than met the eye. Still though, 'awe' would be the word to use. I still have the cinema tickets, Mrs G and my two daughters were with me. Yes. there was a lot of wisdom and so much food for thought. Being honest I found more Spirituality in LOTR than I've found in many Spiritual books. but then to me it's more about the Journey and not the theories.

Of course up until I’d read the books, I didn’t know of Tom’s existence but I know from reading a lot of reviews, that his absence in the films upset a lot of people. I agree about a lot of spirituality in it.

Have you read this book

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Tolkien-Biography-Michael-White/dp/0349116202/ref=sr_1_3?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1508059545&sr=1-3&keywords=tolkien+biography

It’s fascinating and adds even more insight into the creation of the characters.
I also still have my 12 cinema tickets!

Books and writing have a very special significance to me, one that would need quite a lengthy tale to tell.

Oh gosh Mr G, that’s just crazy! Writing has also played a significant part in my life.

I didn’t do well at school, as an energetically sensitive soul (as Matt puts it), it was a toxic, frightening environment for me, Needless to say I emerged with the bare minimum of qualifications. Yet I had a vivid imagination and enjoyed writing stories. This interest developed until I started writing full length novels. A friend who I met at writing class taught me all the stuff I’d missed out on at school, plus showing me how to set out a manuscript. For about 10 years, I always had a novel on the go, spending my weekends writing. I sent my two last novels off to various publishers always to be told versions of yes, you can write and we really enjoyed your novel but it doesn’t neatly fit into a genre, therefore we can’t publish it. So about 10 years ago, after the final rejection, I stopped as I felt I’d devoted enough time to it. However, it wasn’t wasted, no experience ever is, I went back to college to take on a modern day GCSE English thinking let’s see how far my writing ability will take me. I passed with flying colours. So I thought, let’s try an A level, so I did film studies, studying both AS and A level in one year in the evenings, it was tough going but I passed with an A. So that showed that I’d always had the ability and given the right teachers, school could have been a different experience. Also, I did get a story published in a magazine.

This last week, I’ve been receiving a new symbol. A triangle with a circle directly above it. At first they were just there and then during the week they began to be filled with colours that would change, yellow circle, magenta triangle, or blue circle, black triangle. I looked on the net and couldn’t find anything that resonated apart from the top half of a halu reiki symbol and then I was guided that these symbols were personal to me. No idea what this is doing, just happy to go with it.

I don't know why this is relevant, but.... I'm listening to Joe Satriani, arguably one of the greatest rock guitarists on the planet. In my mind's eye I can see a dark area with a single spotlight shining on a young boy, he's playing air guitar to the music. One of my 'Spirit kids'. There's a huge lump in my throat and the tears are welling up, the track is "Crying". I've had to pause a few times as I write this last bit, just to compose myself and now the track "Always with me, always with you" is fading away.

This for some reason reminds me of a song from one of my favourite bands of all time, Uriah Heep (David Byron era). A couple of months ago, I kept listening to it over and over and crying floods. Obviously releasing something but a beautiful song all the same.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVEqXkTozk8

Patrycia

Greenslade

16-10-2017, 11:41 PM

That's what you mean by infectious?Close but not quite. We all have an energy field or aura that surrounds us, and that field affects others. As in when your colleague noticed changes in you? Some people are more aware of it than others but we all pick up on each others' energies somewhere along the line.

I think that’s what the problem is – have always had issues with authority figures. That’s what I like about Matt, there’s no sense of authority, no sense of ego, good sense of humour, friendly etc etc. That’s why I feel I can learn from him, and I’m learning loadsYeah, a dislike of authority figures makes a lot of sense considering and probably contributes to your dislike of Alan Watts. Matt's very down-to-earth without the airs and graces that people in his position often project, and quite frankly that gets on my nerves some.

Aah, I may have missed that unless you’re identifying something about my description of trauma or the impact.You were talking about the trauma and its impact but I was talking about what's not so obvious, some impacts are deeper rooted than most. Sometimes it doesn't need healing and sometimes our perceptions of it need turning around.

Yes, I think you’re right there. At the moment, it feels like every minute of my day is full of some activity, either work, running, chores, and even when I’m ‘relaxing’ I’m not. Like if I’m watching one of Matt’s videos, I’m now taking loads of notes, so I’m constnatly having to re-wind and write which is not exactly relaxing but it feels like some phrases are so important, I just have to write them down as a reminder.

This video in particular I found enlightening with again, things I’m putting into practice. At towards the end, I thought this is like the review you’d get when you passed over and at the moment he said “this is a life review”.

Made me smile!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ejKqH0CZmnw

If you're rushing around like a headless chicken all day your mind's going to be distracted, in some ways that's maybe a good thing because being aware of how the energetic changes affect you isn't so much fun sometimes. However, are you turning into a Matt geek? :smile:

I had a quick look at the video and it's something I need to chew over, particularly the bit about his dream and the archetype, and typing that gave me major shivers. While I was watching it I was reminded of an experience I'd had about this time last year, I'd gone back in time to visit myself when I was very young. It wasn't a dream though, as a child I'd felt an energy beside me that wasn't familiar and in the experience it felt as though energetically I was standing to one side watching myself as a child. I also remember this shadowy figure telling me I was going to get one, but something inside knew differently at the time. Yep, freaky is the word. As a child I wanted a Johnny Seven gun so badly, it was the ultimate as far as I was concerned. My parents never had the money to buy me it, but one night my step-father had a big win at the bingo and the next day he asked all of us kids what we wanted. My parents already knew without asking. When they went to the shop they'd sold out and they'd stopped making them. Around the same time a year earlier someone had sent me one over from America.

Of course up until I’d read the books, I didn’t know of Tom’s existence but I know from reading a lot of reviews, that his absence in the films upset a lot of people. I agree about a lot of spirituality in it.

Have you read this book

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Tolkien-Biography-Michael-White/dp/0349116202/ref=sr_1_3?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1508059545&sr=1-3&keywords=tolkien+biography

It’s fascinating and adds even more insight into the creation of the characters.
I also still have my 12 cinema tickets!It's that time of year again, people asking me dumb questions like "What do you want for Christmas?" Tolkien's biography is about the only one I haven't got although truth-be-told the Eregon series isn't finished and each one is quite the healthy tome on its own.

Oh gosh Mr G, that’s just crazy! Writing has also played a significant part in my life.

I didn’t do well at school, as an energetically sensitive soul (as Matt puts it), it was a toxic, frightening environment for me, Needless to say I emerged with the bare minimum of qualifications. Yet I had a vivid imagination and enjoyed writing stories. This interest developed until I started writing full length novels. A friend who I met at writing class taught me all the stuff I’d missed out on at school, plus showing me how to set out a manuscript. For about 10 years, I always had a novel on the go, spending my weekends writing. I sent my two last novels off to various publishers always to be told versions of yes, you can write and we really enjoyed your novel but it doesn’t neatly fit into a genre, therefore we can’t publish it. So about 10 years ago, after the final rejection, I stopped as I felt I’d devoted enough time to it. However, it wasn’t wasted, no experience ever is, I went back to college to take on a modern day GCSE English thinking let’s see how far my writing ability will take me. I passed with flying colours. So I thought, let’s try an A level, so I did film studies, studying both AS and A level in one year in the evenings, it was tough going but I passed with an A. So that showed that I’d always had the ability and given the right teachers, school could have been a different experience. Also, I did get a story published in a magazine.

This last week, I’ve been receiving a new symbol. A triangle with a circle directly above it. At first they were just there and then during the week they began to be filled with colours that would change, yellow circle, magenta triangle, or blue circle, black triangle. I looked on the net and couldn’t find anything that resonated apart from the top half of a halu reiki symbol and then I was guided that these symbols were personal to me. No idea what this is doing, just happy to go with it.That's pretty damned cool with the writing, and you got a lot further than I ever did with it. Come to think of it, ten years ago (and some more because it happened over a few years) I was busy with the Amu Rai. It started off as a daft idea that a few of us were kicking around on a forum, and it inspired me to build the website. The idea was to write an on-going story where the writers took on avatars and wrote as that character. That's where Greenslade was 'born'. Damn how I miss those days. It was interesting though, because I could 'use' him to explore aspects of myself. To the casual reader the story looked a bit like anarchy released but it made sense to us, because one of the rules was that we could only write for our own characters. We also had a few side-stories going on as well, which made things interesting to because it meant a couple of characters could slope away on their own.
http://www.terec.org.uk/amurai/

Symbols are a step up from your numbers so that's a sign that you've gone a couple of steps upwards. The first thing that came to mind was Home or Point of Origin because what you've described sounds like the Stargate symbol for point of origin. The Stargate symbol is more like an 'A' without the horizontal line, but it has serifs (feet) that would make it look triangular. The triangle is one of the basic shapes in geometry and is one of the building blocks for the Platonic Solids, and each of the Solids can fit inside a circle or sphere with all of its points touching the circumference. Three also represents the trinity or the triune nature of the Universe - it's not duality but a triune or three aspects. The circle can also represent your sphere of thought/consciousness but it has been known to represent the Universe or eternity. It's also Lyran symbolism, to which you are closely connected. You've only just started with the symbols so they probably won't mean all that much right now, but if anything resonates with you then great. If not, oh well better luck next time. What it does mean though is communication rather than the nudge that your numbers were.

http://www.terec.org.uk/amurai/This for some reason reminds me of a song from one of my favourite bands of all time, Uriah Heep (David Byron era). A couple of months ago, I kept listening to it over and over and crying floods. Obviously releasing something but a beautiful song all the same.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVEqXkTozk8

Patrycia[/quote]If you had said anything other than the Byron era you and I would be having serious words right now.:hug3: I bought Sweet Freedom on vinyl when it first came out, that was in my musically formative years. Later on I picked up another few here and there along the way. I still have Return to Fantasy on tape and a few of their earlier albums, including The Magician's Birthday. Yeah, I remember bawling my eyes out to this one. The Wizard reminds me of a very old and dear friend, the same one my avatar is a nod to. I can't count the number of Heep tracks that have meant things to me over the years.

Songs have this way of bringing things out from our depths - happy times, sad times and times when they were there during our rights of passage. Something inside identifies with a lyric or a few notes and it opens up the floodgates. I'm sitting listening to an acoustic version and it reminds me that the first cut is the deepest. Damn but I hate nostalgia.

Although he's no David Byron, Bernie does a decent enough job and the acoustic versions aren't bad neither. Not so rocking it as Stealing from Sweet Freedom but interesting and lyrical with the orchestra behind them. And when you add a touch of Thijs van Leer (ex-Focus) or Ian Anderson (ex-Jethro Tull) it's worth a listen if you're a fan.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3cIBA9MLAJw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwpRZoCGJzA

Patrycia-Rose

22-10-2017, 09:12 AM

You were talking about the trauma and its impact but I was talking about what's not so obvious, some impacts are deeper rooted than most. Sometimes it doesn't need healing and sometimes our perceptions of it need turning around.

I’ve tried to heal my physical symptoms and I’ve tried changing my perception of the original incident – but nothing seems to make a blind bit of difference. Maybe some traumas can’t be overcome. Let’s face it, many a person has committed suicide being faced with trauma they can’t overcome.

This month has been awful, so much stress coming at me from all angles, the result has been a flare up in my symptoms, which then led to a major depression and all the old stuff of why did it have to happen, if only this, if only that. So all this has brought up ‘let’s have another go’. So it’s back to where I was a year or so ago, when I was researching re-balancing the parasympathetic nervous system which in turn led me to discovering Bowen, so I’ve already contacted a therapist to see if they can help me. This not doing anything is really not my style.

However, are you turning into a Matt geek? :smile:

Yes, absolutely I am! Admit it too, no problem. I’m not particularly given to hero worship (Bruce Lee and Ayrton Senna aside) but this man speaks to me like no other. This last week or so, when I’ve really been under pressure, I’ve continued to do the blessings to others, loving myself and repeating the Declaration of Divinity and it’s definitely helped. And also it’s like I can hear his voice in my head, and a particular part of a video replaying when I’m needing something for a particular feeling or experience.

That's pretty damned cool with the writing, and you got a lot further than I ever did with it. Come to think of it, ten years ago (and some more because it happened over a few years) I was busy with the Amu Rai. It started off as a daft idea that a few of us were kicking around on a forum, and it inspired me to build the website.

That’s cool and reminds me of when I went to writing classes for a couple of years. Most of the people there were into short stories and poems and there was a handful of us that were writing novels, so we would get together at each other’s houses once a week to read out a chapter or the piece we were working on and get constructive criticism. Happy days.

Symbols are a step up from your numbers so that's a sign that you've gone a couple of steps upwards. The first thing that came to mind was Home or Point of Origin because what you've described sounds like the Stargate symbol for point of origin. The Stargate symbol is more like an 'A' without the horizontal line, but it has serifs (feet) that would make it look triangular. The triangle is one of the basic shapes in geometry and is one of the building blocks for the Platonic Solids, and each of the Solids can fit inside a circle or sphere with all of its points touching the circumference.

Now this is where things have got interesting and a little (what the !). So this triangle with a circle on top continues. In fact this morning, the triangle and circle are both white with a black outline.

But last Sunday, I did a small healing session and I asked these guides the meaning of the symbols. At first I saw a downturned triangle; and words. Top left (spirit), top right (me) the tip (integration) and then it slowly turned upwards so the circle was on the tip. OK, what’s the circle. “Pure eternal heart conscious.” Right, fine, OK. I asked what all the changing colours meant and that’s apparently for another time.

Now, the first thing that struck me was in one of Matt’s videos (Seven Holy Words) he describes the Declaration of Divinity, part of which is That I am Now. He described this as That (the Divine) I am (you) and Now (integration of the two).

In my notes, I had used a triangle to draw this.
So I thought is this my guides’ way of emphasising the same thing, and / or using Matt’s teachings as a reference point. Not entirely sure what the pure eternal heart conscious is. But again Matt often refers to heartfelt conscious. Possibly the same thing.

Patrycia If you had said anything other than the Byron era you and I would be having serious words right now.:hug3:

I was introduced to Uriah Heep about 12 when my brother brought home a copy of Demons and Wizards. I can remember being really struck by David Byron’s voice and that’s remained with me to this day. In fact we had The Wizard played at my father’s funeral. I can remember worrying that it would upset me but when I walked in hearing that, it was like a warm blanket of comfort draped over my shoulders.

I’ve got Demons and Wizards, Magician’s Birthday, Sweet Freedom, Wonderworld and Salisbury. On vinyl and then transitioned to CD.
I find Byron’s voice mesmerising: to be able to go the gentleness and control of Circus to Pilgrim is quite incredible.

One of my biggest regrets is that I never got to see him live. But it’s sort of made up for it when I found this:

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Uriah-Heep-Classic-Live-Byron/dp/B0001CKRIC/ref=sr_1_2?s=dvd&ie=UTF8&qid=1508662170&sr=1-2&keywords=uriah+heep

I did try and listen to Firefly a time or two but no, no other Heep reincarnation will do. I’m a die hard David Byron fan, always will be.
The other thing is that you remember by father (also a Heep fan, his favourite song was Shadows and the Wind from Wonderworld) often sends me songs through my MP3 player and I just know when he’s doing that, now often he sends me UH songs and the words take on a different meaning. When I was particularly down once, he sent me this and I ended up in floods.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=It3aFAkoXiE

It’s an absolute pleasure to talk Uriah Heep with someone. :hug3:

Patrycia

Greenslade

22-10-2017, 01:03 PM

I’ve tried to heal my physical symptoms and I’ve tried changing my perception of the original incident – but nothing seems to make a blind bit of difference. Maybe some traumas can’t be overcome. Let’s face it, many a person has committed suicide being faced with trauma they can’t overcome.
This month has been awful, so much stress coming at me from all angles, the result has been a flare up in my symptoms, which then led to a major depression and all the old stuff of why did it have to happen, if only this, if only that. So all this has brought up ‘let’s have another go’. So it’s back to where I was a year or so ago, when I was researching re-balancing the parasympathetic nervous system which in turn led me to discovering Bowen, so I’ve already contacted a therapist to see if they can help me. This not doing anything is really not my style. If you need a good visualisation go check out the Golden Mean, or better yet think about how we travel through space. So you know we orbit the sun as we turn around on our own axis but that's not the full story by any means. As we turn on our own axis we don't turn in a circle, the circle that's described comes from using the centre of the earth. We are not in the centre, we are on the surface and that's a very different path. We come back on ourselves and cross the path we've already been on, much like one of those Spyrograph pictures. The sun isn't static, it flies through the galaxy at a rate of knots that would blow out the ear wax, so we're actually spiraling through the galaxy. We're spiraling, we're never back at Square One.

In Sacred Geometry there is the Golden Mean or the phi spiral produced by the Fibonacci sequence, the usual visualisation is the Nautilus shell but it's in your face and pretty much every part of your body. You're 'built' on the Golden Mean the same as much of nature, the pyramids and the orbits of the planets. Yep, the planets orbit in multiples of 1.618 if you use Venus to calculate the ratio and not earth, and your face reflects that ratio too. Freaking freaky.

So after all that we come back to Square One. What?? :tongue: But seriously though, all that means is that we are never back at Square One unless either we think we are or we can't find a way past it. Everything will tell you - physically and Spiritually - that you are not back at Square One. If you are then that's because you've made that choice.

What is it that you're trying to overcome, what is it that you are trying to heal? While you're going to come back and tell me it's quite obvious, is it really? What has been traumatised and/or injured? Does anything need to be overcome? Because using that word tells you so much about what's really going on. 'Overcome' is quite a strong word', and words create worlds - as it seems to be doing in yours.

Go back to the moments that led to the incident but not as 'you' - as your Soul. Remember what Matt was saying about the Soul giving the body time to heal? Do the same with this incident, be the Soul that can give the body the wisdom. Einstein said that insanity is doing the same thing over again and expecting different results so do something different - see it through the eyes of the Soul and talk it over with your body.

Do you know why "The answer to Life, the Universe, Everything" is 42? Because Deep Thought didn't understand the question so he built something to find the question to the answer. You are the answer looking for the question.

"God has never - anywhere in the Bible - promised to answer these three questions: Why? here and When? But God hears and answers questions beginning with How? or What? These questions sincerely seek wisdom and guidance."
Robert H. Schuller
Turning Hurts int Halos

Those hurts are you, they are yours so if you can't accept them is there a part of yourself you can't accept? How do you perceive that part of yourself? Inadequate, stupid, gullible, weak......????? What are the reasons you think you were ....? If you are trying to overcome that, what are the reasons and what are you telling yourself? If you really feel like you want to do something lend your energies to the end of a metaphorical shovel and do some digging.

Did you Love yourself enough to give yourself that experience? What did you gain from it?

Yes, absolutely I am! Admit it too, no problem. I’m not particularly given to hero worship (Bruce Lee and Ayrton Senna aside) but this man speaks to me like no other. This last week or so, when I’ve really been under pressure, I’ve continued to do the blessings to others, loving myself and repeating the Declaration of Divinity and it’s definitely helped. And also it’s like I can hear his voice in my head, and a particular part of a video replaying when I’m needing something for a particular feeling or experience. Also remember that the reason he resonates with you so well is because you are 'there'.

That’s cool and reminds me of when I went to writing classes for a couple of years. Most of the people there were into short stories and poems and there was a handful of us that were writing novels, so we would get together at each other’s houses once a week to read out a chapter or the piece we were working on and get constructive criticism. Happy days. Yeah I miss the collaborative stuff being honest, there was always a consciousness shift as the clairsentience went up a gear and I felt so connected to so many things. At the time it did its job and brought together Souls that had been around for a long time. It was a time of reconnection, to remember Love, family, comradery.....

Now this is where things have got interesting and a little (what the !). So this triangle with a circle on top continues. In fact this morning, the triangle and circle are both white with a black outline.

But last Sunday, I did a small healing session and I asked these guides the meaning of the symbols. At first I saw a downturned triangle; and words. Bottom left (spirit), bottom right (me) the tip (integration) and then it slowly turned upwards so the circle was on the tip. OK, what’s the circle. “Pure eternal heart conscious.” Right, fine, OK. I asked what all the changing colours meant and that’s apparently for another time.

Now, the first thing that struck me was in one of Matt’s videos (Seven Holy Words) he describes the Declaration of Divinity, part of which is That I am Now. He described this as That (the Divine) I am (you) and Now (integration of the two).

In my notes, I had used a triangle to draw this.
So I thought is this my guides’ way of emphasising the same thing, and / or using Matt’s teachings as a reference point. Not entirely sure what the pure eternal heart conscious is. But again Matt often refers to heartfelt conscious. Possibly the same thing.Symbols don't have any inherent meaning in themselves but that doesn't mean they're not relevant, when they're given to us then it's up to us to divine any meaning. They mean something to us. Perhaps when you ask the same question next month they'll mean something entirely different but their meaning is a reflection of your consciousness. Tri-angle, three, trinity, triune (not dualistic) nature of reality. The turning can represent change in perspective, which is what was happening so you could see it differently. Underneath all of though is that you and Spirit are at least in the same ballpark still. :smile: Guides are sneaky little beggars sometimes and they'll use whatever works, so if Matt's teachings are the reference point that works for you then that's what they'll work with. Remember though, that if you're going to do the "That I Am Now" bit the perspective changes completely. Turn the triangle.

There are so many things that aren't thought about in Spirituality, which is a shame really because when you take them into consideration it sheds so much Light. The heart has its own 'neural' network and it sends more signals to the brain than it receives. It's also the emotional centre and emotions are energy in motion. As Pascal said, "The heart has reasons that reason knows not of" and you can see that time and again. Often in Spirituality I see so many broken hearts that are being forgotten about by the relentless pursuit of food for the mind. Makes so much sense, doesn't it?

There is something that has been forgotten about over the years, partly thanks to the Christianity that tried to systematically wipe it out - Gnosis. Gnosis basically means knowing without how you know and it goes far beyond reason or logic. It's something you feel in your heart of hearts, it comes out of nowhere and it feels as though it was always there. The heart is the key and not the mind, the mind belongs to an old school of Spirituality.

I was introduced to Uriah Heep about 12 when my brother brought home a copy of Demons and Wizards. I can remember being really struck by David Byron’s voice and that’s remained with me to this day. In fact we had The Wizard played at my father’s funeral. I can remember worrying that it would upset me but when I walked in hearing that, it was like a warm blanket of comfort draped over my shoulders.

I’ve got Demons and Wizards, Magician’s Birthday, Sweet Freedom, Wonderworld and Salisbury. On vinyl and then transitioned to CD.
I find Byron’s voice mesmerising: to be able to go the gentleness and control of Circus to Pilgrim is quite incredible.

One of my biggest regrets is that I never got to see him live. But it’s sort of made up for it when I found this:

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Uriah-Heep-Classic-Live-Byron/dp/B0001CKRIC/ref=sr_1_2?s=dvd&ie=UTF8&qid=1508662170&sr=1-2&keywords=uriah+heep

I did try and listen to Firefly a time or two but no, no other Heep reincarnation will do. I’m a die hard David Byron fan, always will be.
The other thing is that you remember by father (also a Heep fan, his favourite song was Shadows and the Wind from Wonderworld) often sends me songs through my MP3 player and I just know when he’s doing that, now often he sends me UH songs and the words take on a different meaning. When I was particularly down once, he sent me this and I ended up in floods.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=It3aFAkoXiE

It’s an absolute pleasure to talk Uriah Heep with someone. :hug3:

Patrycia[/quote]This Uriah Heep bit is just plain bonkers. Seriously bonkers. I just feel as though I'm being dragged back to a certain point in my Life, not just physically but emotionally too. I joined the RAF when I was nineteen, came back how for a while but went away and vowed never to come back. Less than five minutes' walk from my front door brings me past the bedroom window where I'd listen to songs like One Day and they'd mean so much to me. Back then it gave me hope, today it gives me something else - it tells me that I've always had what I needed the most. I love spirals.

Back then the Heep resonated with me so very deeply although I didn't know what the word meant - a Spiritual experience without being Spiritual. It still does in many ways. I cheated and downloaded their entire discography a while ago and it was like going back in time so I could have a fresh perspective. Yeah, "Take A Look At Yourself." My father was there too, he's here too.

The last one I had was Return to Fantasy, at that time I was associating events in my Life with songs and that particular album was the pinnacle. The whole album was such an emotional rollercoaster that I vowed not to do that any more. But the part of that 'me' which resonated with the Heep is till there in this 'me' so I suppose there's a lesson in there. I've been here all along and the more things change the more they stay the same. It's damned freaky because I sit here and feel just the same way listening to their songs as I did then. The songs were singing me. Yeah, very much One Day.

I'm not sure whether to swear at you or thank you for bringing me back to that time in my Life and making it this time, but then there will come a time when this time is that time.

"If I had the time to relive my Life, I don't think I'd care to change a thing."

Patrycia-Rose

29-10-2017, 09:21 AM

So after all that we come back to Square One. What?? :tongue:

I recognise a lot has changed since last year; nothing on the physical level but internal dialogue has changed, only recently though and only becuase of all the knowledge I’m picking up from Matt’s videos and more importantly putting into practice.

So what I was referring to was returning to the research I was doing a year or so ago about trying to heal my physical symptoms. I’d left it at the point of the Bowen technique being good for re-balancing the parasympathetic nervous system which I believe may be the cause of my problems. I do recall a medium telling me that the trauma had seriously pushed me off kilter, and had raised my acid (versus alkaline) levels and along with the trauma settling in my osephagus, this was causing one of my symptoms.

I’m having a little difficulty at the moment trying to find a Bowen therapist who can see me on a Saturday, but I’m trusting that spirit will lead me in the right direction. I have to do this.

The numbers have returned, getting loads of 7s. Another brief google seems to indicate that “I’m on the right path” – but I have no idea what that path may be, I’ve got so much going on at the moment.

Every morning, I choose two oracle cards from different decks and I keep getting from the Psychic Tarot “triumph”, “victory and success” which is bizarre as I’ve no idea what the victory is about.

The upturned triangle and circle combination has been with me during last week, with silver and gold. They are new colours to me as they’re not in the aura soma set. One source suggests silver is feminine and gold is masculine, hence maybe a balancing of these two aspect. Who knows.

What is it that you're trying to overcome, what is it that you are trying to heal? While you're going to come back and tell me it's quite obvious, is it really? What has been traumatised and/or injured? Does anything need to be overcome? Because using that word tells you so much about what's really going on. 'Overcome' is quite a strong word', and words create worlds - as it seems to be doing in yours.

Gosh, that’s some really indepth questions there – some of which I’ve tried to answer before but I don’t feel I want to start delving deeply into that, as I’ve just got so much going on at the moment at work, home etc, that I’m just glad a day is a day and I can fall into bed at 9.30 pm and let my weary mind have a rest before I’m up at 6 am and do it all over again.

Yes, I do remember Matt saying it’s a journey of the body, not spirit. I feel as though I’ve made so much progress on the emotional front, it was a different time, so long ago but the body needs some helping healing and I honestly don’t think that any thinking or thoughts or different ways of looking at it is going to afford healing. God knows I’ve tried looking at it from all angles that I can.

Also remember that the reason he resonates with you so well is because you are 'there'.

Yeah, I know, great isn’t it? Really, it’s the highlight of my day to have my evening meal and sit and watch and listen to him. He never fails to lift my spirits and make me laugh whilst also giving me new ways to think of things.

Just recently, I watched Anchoring the Divine Feminine, The Path of Mastery and the Essential Key Intension all of which feature giving out blessings with lots of examples and he was saying that for ten years he found it diffiuclt to sleep so would choose that time to give out loads of blessings. So instead of waking up and thinking about what I had to do the next day, I’d start giving out blessings and (he didn’t say to do this, it’s just what I wanted to do) I’d start by blessing the sun, the moon, the planets, the oceans, the whales and dolphins and animals that are hunted such as rhinos and elephants, the trees – and I’d get round to people last lol! I’ve always had a strong affinity with power animals.

I’ve only been doing this for a few nights and this morning I saw on the news this morning that a wildlife conference held in the Philippines had voted for additional protections for endangered species including whale sharks. Make of that what you will but it made me smile!

I'm not sure whether to swear at you or thank you for bringing me back to that time in my Life and making it this time, but then there will come a time when this time is that time.

Wow! I’ve not known anyone to talk about Uriah Heep with the same passion. I guess for me, their music has never been off the tape player, record deck, CD player, MP3, through all the different kind of players.

One lovely memory I have is that as kid of 12, not doing too well on the school front, one thing I struggled with was certain parts of the alphabet – well Seven Stars came to my rescue, although when I was asked to stand up in the class and recite it, I had to work hard not to end up singing it! At that point, David Byron became my hero as I seriously thought that song was made just for me!

Songs like the Wizard, Rainbow Demon, Magician’s Birthday was just so filled with magic, for me, that’s where the real world was. I think maybe an indication of my open mindedness.

Another one of my favourites is the lesser known Lady in Black. There’s just so much wisdom in that song and I have fond memories of a group of us (me on bass) my brother on acoustic sitting around singing that. A wonderful memory.

Looking for gold in the sky
Gets kinda rough
Maybe I'm to blame
'Cause I didin't look hard enough
But I still get the feeling
That it shouldn't be so tough

Greenslade

29-10-2017, 12:35 PM

I recognise a lot has changed since last year; nothing on the physical level but internal dialogue has changed, only recently though and only becuase of all the knowledge I’m picking up from Matt’s videos and more importantly putting into practice.

So what I was referring to was returning to the research I was doing a year or so ago about trying to heal my physical symptoms. I’d left it at the point of the Bowen technique being good for re-balancing the parasympathetic nervous system which I believe may be the cause of my problems. I do recall a medium telling me that the trauma had seriously pushed me off kilter, and had raised my acid (versus alkaline) levels and along with the trauma settling in my osephagus, this was causing one of my symptoms.

I’m having a little difficulty at the moment trying to find a Bowen therapist who can see me on a Saturday, but I’m trusting that spirit will lead me in the right direction. I have to do this.

The numbers have returned, getting loads of 7s. Another brief google seems to indicate that “I’m on the right path” – but I have no idea what that path may be, I’ve got so much going on at the moment.

Every morning, I choose two oracle cards from different decks and I keep getting from the Psychic Tarot “triumph”, “victory and success” which is bizarre as I’ve no idea what the victory is about.

The upturned triangle and circle combination has been with me during last week, with silver and gold. They are new colours to me as they’re not in the aura soma set. One source suggests silver is feminine and gold is masculine, hence maybe a balancing of these two aspect. Who knows.Sometimes what we need is some kind of external stability while we change so much internally, because when the two change at the same time it's a bit of a doozy. While we're still in the same place the place has been shooting across time and space at a rate of knots, and how we perceive our surroundings can make you feel as though you're in a completely different place. It's kind of weird when it's the same place, but not.

Strangely enough Matt's videos are having a different effect on me, they're coming through as conformation which s really nice. The odd time I'll think 'OK, haven't thought of that', but more often that not there's a feeling of 'That's me, right there' and yes I do allow myself a child-like glee sometimes. It's been a long time coming.

There's definitely the feeling that your trauma and your physical symptoms are related although I'm not getting too many details. It's not for me. What I am getting though is that there's going to be a 'two-pronged attack' to your healing coming. You will do this but it's a 'when the time is right' thing because of all the other clutter you have flying around in your noggin.

Your Spirituality will always be there no matter what, even if you completely turn your back on it. You're never alone, even when you tell yourself you are. Sometimes Spirit will take a back seat because you have to concentrate on something else, but they're never far away. Did you know you have a group of three with you?

You've had a break-through in this Life that will affect the next in major ways, it hasn't had that much of an impact in this Life and it won't to any earth-shattering degree, but it's the crack in the dam for what's to come. And no, no details.

The colours are more 'direct from Spirit' clairvoyant while your soma colours are indirect, if that makes sense. The soma set is what Spirit is pointing at, the silver and gold is what Spirit is 'telling you' directly. And I'm guessing your circle and triangle haven't met yet? Feminine and masculine colours/energies are a little misleading, and while it might sound as though it's semantics words do create worlds. Correctly those colours are often associated with the masculine or feminine, which are 'shades of Duality. You know because they're colours that you've been given, so loosen up with your imagination a little. What do they make you feel?

Gosh, that’s some really indepth questions there – some of which I’ve tried to answer before but I don’t feel I want to start delving deeply into that, as I’ve just got so much going on at the moment at work, home etc, that I’m just glad a day is a day and I can fall into bed at 9.30 pm and let my weary mind have a rest before I’m up at 6 am and do it all over again.

Yes, I do remember Matt saying it’s a journey of the body, not spirit. I feel as though I’ve made so much progress on the emotional front, it was a different time, so long ago but the body needs some helping healing and I honestly don’t think that any thinking or thoughts or different ways of looking at it is going to afford healing. God knows I’ve tried looking at it from all angles that I can. In Matt's "Everything is here to help you" how did/does that trauma help you? Often the first step in healing is in coming to terms with what happened, and particularly your perceptions of it. Love your body Unconditionally, warts and all because once you do that you realise Nature is doing all the work, not you.

Here's a very simple exercise for you to try, how you envision isn't important but how strong the envisioning is. Feel free to 'adjust' to suit you. Sit yourself down with your feet firmly on the floor, your hands in your lap, your palms upwards and your fingers not overlapping. Imagine a slit/tap in your stomach (or your chakra opening) and all the bad vibes are pouring out into your hands. Feel it all just draining away into your hands, your body feeling lighter and your hands becoming more full. When you feel as if there's no more, slowly raise your hands and give it back to the Universe.

Yeah, I know, great isn’t it? Really, it’s the highlight of my day to have my evening meal and sit and watch and listen to him. He never fails to lift my spirits and make me laugh whilst also giving me new ways to think of things.

Just recently, I watched Anchoring the Divine Feminine, The Path of Mastery and the Essential Key Intension all of which feature giving out blessings with lots of examples and he was saying that for ten years he found it diffiuclt to sleep so would choose that time to give out loads of blessings. So instead of waking up and thinking about what I had to do the next day, I’d start giving out blessings and (he didn’t say to do this, it’s just what I wanted to do) I’d start by blessing the sun, the moon, the planets, the oceans, the whales and dolphins and animals that are hunted such as rhinos and elephants, the trees – and I’d get round to people last lol! I’ve always had a strong affinity with power animals.

I’ve only been doing this for a few nights and this morning I saw on the news this morning that a wildlife conference held in the Philippines had voted for additional protections for endangered species including whale sharks. Make of that what you will but it made me smile!
it doesn't matter what I make of it, it's what you make of it that counts - but it's interesting just the same. It's like an extension of yourself when the Universe reflects back at you and it feels as though you're finally in the same ball park. Planet even. It's like a Spiritual sigh of relief. I've always tried to see things differently and always rebelled at the establishment but the conformation is pretty damned cool though.

I don't wake up at night, perhaps I sleep the sleep of the just and righteous. Or something. Last night I had a pretty weird dream though. I was in what looked like a college canteen with the typical cheap formica tables and metal chairs, there were people milling around and most of the tables had rubbish on them. Not far away Goeff Lynne and Tom Patty were strumming away on acoustic guitars trying to come together in tune. They never did.

Wow! I’ve not known anyone to talk about Uriah Heep with the same passion. I guess for me, their music has never been off the tape player, record deck, CD player, MP3, through all the different kind of players.

One lovely memory I have is that as kid of 12, not doing too well on the school front, one thing I struggled with was certain parts of the alphabet – well Seven Stars came to my rescue, although when I was asked to stand up in the class and recite it, I had to work hard not to end up singing it! At that point, David Byron became my hero as I seriously thought that song was made just for me!

Songs like the Wizard, Rainbow Demon, Magician’s Birthday was just so filled with magic, for me, that’s where the real world was. I think maybe an indication of my open mindedness.

Another one of my favourites is the lesser known Lady in Black. There’s just so much wisdom in that song and I have fond memories of a group of us (me on bass) my brother on acoustic sitting around singing that. A wonderful memory.

Looking for gold in the sky
Gets kinda rough
Maybe I'm to blame
'Cause I didin't look hard enough
But I still get the feeling
That it shouldn't be so toughDang. Y'know, this is throwing up all kinds of stuff and it's pretty emotional as well. A few years ago I was having the strangest experiences, it was about this time of year if I remember rightly. I was getting time shifts where I'd completely lose any recollection of time and having walked distances. Other times I'd feel as though I'd been beamed into this body, I remember suddenly finding myself in this body looking out as though it was a space suit and thinking "Where the hell has he beamed me to now?" I have thought about false memories but I remember times in my Life when, as a boy, I'd feel these strange, alien energies around me. I realise now that it was a result of an energetic/consciousness timeslip - and as whacked out as that may sound it's the only sense I can make of it.

That's been kind of carrying on with the memories of the Heep and what they meant to me at the time, as though it's taken me by the scruff of the neck and is pointing at something. As the song goes, if I had the time to relive my Life I wouldn't care to change a thing. At the time I needed to know that my experiences meant something, that there was rhyme or reason for everything. I needed to feel like somebody, because like you I don't have the 'traditional' ego.

For me the Heep then were resonating with something deep down inside, I knew it was there all along but couldn't make much sense of it at the time. It's kind of hard to put across in a small post because it would also need a hell of a lot of supporting information to make sense of. But The Wizard is still here and we've a part of so much together, from a time before time until today, and he's still sitting on my shoulder. I'm finding it incredibly frustrating because I have all this stuff inside me and no real way to express it. If I did there are only a handful of people on the planet that would be able to make any sense of it, the rest of the planet would think I'm stark, staring bonkers. The Heep's always had a very profound Spiritual impact on me because it touched the parts other mediums simply couldn't reach. I was heavily into music at the time, it was an escape route away from all the **** I was going through at the time. I always felt as though there were two of me in here, and The Heep certainly touched the other one.

For me, the Wizard is the scribe for the Golden Ones and the first 'person' I met in the Cave of the Ancients. In many ways Byron became something of an alter ego for me because I wanted to be as good a singer as him, to have that kind of talent and confidence. It was as though somehow he was mirroring, and what was coming from his heart was very much a reflection of what was coming from mine. Their music to me was a world that was more real than the one I was currently in, the physical world very much felt as though it had very little reality at the time.

"As long as I find
Just a little peace of mind
I can dream and laugh, and I can sing."

Patrycia-Rose

05-11-2017, 08:46 AM

Strangely enough Matt's videos are having a different effect on me, they're coming through as conformation which s really nice. The odd time I'll think 'OK, haven't thought of that', but more often that not there's a feeling of 'That's me, right there' and yes I do allow myself a child-like glee sometimes. It's been a long time coming.

I’ve also had that confirmation when his teachings match was I’m already doing. There’s been several things but mostly for me, it’s about changing the way I think / approach things.

There's definitely the feeling that your trauma and your physical symptoms are related although I'm not getting too many details. It's not for me. What I am getting though is that there's going to be a 'two-pronged attack' to your healing coming. You will do this but it's a 'when the time is right' thing because of all the other clutter you have flying around in your noggin.

For sure; one of the symptoms started just a few months after. The second one a few years and although the symptom isn’t an obvious one, I’ve only managed to piece the bits together through kinesiology and mediums. The trauma settled in the osephagus and along with a tipping of my alkaline/acid levels, caused the second symptom.

I’m not sure what the two pronged attack is unless it’s an accumulation of Matt’s teachings which have resulted in a shift of internal dialogue and outlook on things.

I have now found a Bowen therapist and have my first appointment next Saturday and am excited but also am trying not to be. I’ve done this so many times; get my hopes high and then at best nothing happens and worse it makes me feel worse.

Your Spirituality will always be there no matter what, even if you completely turn your back on it. You're never alone, even when you tell yourself you are.

I get that now; one of Matt’s teachings was about the connection with spirit feeling like it’s gone, because however that connection expresses itself to you, in my case numbers and aura soma colours, is you practising detachment and I’m OK with that (it’s actually quite nice to have a rest from the numbers and colours).

You've had a break-through in this Life that will affect the next in major ways, it hasn't had that much of an impact in this Life and it won't to any earth-shattering degree, but it's the crack in the dam for what's to come. And no, no details.

I was told by a couple of different mediums I won't be coming back again. I have no wish to return again either which is one of the reasons I feel as though I'm packing so much into this life.

That group of 3 guides you mentioned, when I was doing the healing energy, they introduced themselves as a group of four, one of which is a male angel.

I haven’t instigated the healing energy for many weeks and I haven’t felt it, so I’m thinking that it was just a stage of the ascension process and it’s done whatever it was meant to.

About the triangle and circle coming together, they were together pretty much from the beginning. I’ve done a diagram of what it looks at the end of the post. It's an upturned triangle with the circle touching the top of the triangle. Now, those colours can change round so the magenta is on the top and the blue in the triangle. Also a few weeks ago, I asked what it meant and I was given the explanation, also put a diagram for this.

To be honest, the silver/gold and black/white combinations don’t mean anything to me or don’t make me feel anything. Where as the magenta/blue and other colour combinations I have aura soma as a reference point, so I’m intimately familiar with the meaning of those combinations. And it doesn’t seem to be a coincidence that the triangle/circle use aura soma combinations.

In Matt's "Everything is here to help you" how did/does that trauma help you? Often the first step in healing is in coming to terms with what happened, and particularly your perceptions of it. Love your body Unconditionally, warts and all because once you do that you realise Nature is doing all the work, not you.

Although I’m up to video 32, I haven’t seen that one yet. I’ll make that the next one.

The only thing I can think of is my study of nutrition and supplements and the wide range of healing modalities I’ve become aware of, many of which I’ve tried. I’ve therefore been able to help quite a few people with their health issues where doctors have been unable. But if you ask me if it’s worth it, then no, it’s not. But I’m willing for Matt to encourage me to think otherwise.

I don't wake up at night, perhaps I sleep the sleep of the just and righteous. Or something. Last night I had a pretty weird dream though. I was in what looked like a college canteen with the typical cheap formica tables and metal chairs, there were people milling around and most of the tables had rubbish on them. Not far away Goeff Lynne and Tom Patty were strumming away on acoustic guitars trying to come together in tune. They never did.

Interesting dream; that strikes me as a social situation/interaction with person/people isn’t quite working out currently for you. Hence the college canteen representing the social aspect with the cheap tables and chairs representing the messiness and the rubbish on them, disparity. Jeff Lynne and Tom Petty trying to harmonise and failing represents discord in the situation, almost as though you’re trying to force two aspects together which is just not working out.

Dang. Y'know, this is throwing up all kinds of stuff and it's pretty emotional as well. A few years ago I was having the strangest experiences, it was about this time of year if I remember rightly. I was getting time shifts where I'd completely lose any recollection of time and having walked distances. Other times I'd feel as though I'd been beamed into this body, I remember suddenly finding myself in this body looking out as though it was a space suit and thinking "Where the hell has he beamed me to now?" I have thought about false memories but I remember times in my Life when, as a boy, I'd feel these strange, alien energies around me. I realise now that it was a result of an energetic/consciousness timeslip - and as whacked out as that may sound it's the only sense I can make of it.

Totally understand what you mean here; I was captivated by the stories of good/evil and magic. For me that’s where the real world was, somewhere I could escape to, that made sense to me whereas the real life, and particularly school, was torturous. To hear Byron’s invitation to go to the ‘Magician’s Birthday’ after a day at school was a huge release.

I remember very clearly early 1985 listening to the radio late at night and them playing July morning in memory of David Byron. I was distraught. I was in my early twenties at the time and the impact of his passing hit me hard. I couldn’t play their music for months but finally got back into it. I just could not accept any attempt the band to replace him. He was / is irreplacable, best frontman ever for me.

Music has got me through much in life. The other band that’s been with me since I first discovered them when I was 18 is Genesis (the Phil Collins era). The first album I got was Duke and of course being used to ‘story’ songs loved it from the word go. I then bought Trick of the Tale and got a shock when it was totally unlike Duke. But I persevered as I didn’t take to it immediately, and then ended up loving it. Some very spiritual songs on that album such as Mad Man Moon

Then I bought And then there were three; same thing, totally different from any other album and ended up loving that, and on it went from there.

Greenslade

05-11-2017, 02:08 PM

I’ve also had that confirmation when his teachings match was I’m already doing. There’s been several things but mostly for me, it’s about changing the way I think / approach things. What it does is through up all kinds of questions for me and there's this 'it's been there all along' feeling to it. Like clicking those ruby slippers. I picked up on something interesting in a Facebook post of all places - "Nature does all the work, not you." That came up about the same time as Matt said that the Universe is here to serve you and the greatest thing you can do is allow that service.

For sure; one of the symptoms started just a few months after. The second one a few years and although the symptom isn’t an obvious one, I’ve only managed to piece the bits together through kinesiology and mediums. The trauma settled in the osephagus and along with a tipping of my alkaline/acid levels, caused the second symptom.

I’m not sure what the two pronged attack is unless it’s an accumulation of Matt’s teachings which have resulted in a shift of internal dialogue and outlook on things.

I have now found a Bowen therapist and have my first appointment next Saturday and am excited but also am trying not to be. I’ve done this so many times; get my hopes high and then at best nothing happens and worse it makes me feel worse.Tolle said that the past is memory, the future is expectation and Now is all that really exists. If that's true, where does that put your trauma? Are you dealing with the trauma that's obviously past (because you're not experiencing it any more) or are you dealing with the accumulated perceptions of your memories of it?

At this particular point in time Matt's teachings are here to show you a few things - although I think more will come later. For the time being they are preparing you for tackling your trauma on an emotional/Spiritual/ level. You're already working on the physical and have been for quite some time. You see, there's more going on than a change of internal dialogue and outlook. Think about it, think past your 'non-standard ego'.

Vibrations are not just about your consciousness, true vibrations are about your whole being - physically too. Resonating with Matt's material is different to simply getting your head around it, resonating happens at 'being level' and that's outside the mind's ballpark.

You are not the 'you' that had the trauma. Walk the spiral, Square One is now below you (rather than beneath). Trauma created the problem and in your mind, when you think about it you're back there but what you're dealing with is your perceptions of the memory.

Filling yourself full of Hope means there's no room for anything else, and the half-empty part glass is full of potential. Fingers crossed for you.

I get that now; one of Matt’s teachings was about the connection with spirit feeling like it’s gone, because however that connection expresses itself to you, in my case numbers and aura soma colours, is you practising detachment and I’m OK with that (it’s actually quite nice to have a rest from the numbers and colours). There are a few ways to look at it so I'm not disagreeing but offering another perspective. Sometimes we need contrasts or differences, whether that's energetically, perceptually or whatever. Spirit is 'way up there' and here is little old me down here. There's distance, a gap or a gulf between us. When the distance is less it doesn't feel so much of a difference, and the only way there's less distance is if we're closer.

I was told by a couple of different mediums I won't be coming back again. I have no wish to return again either which is one of the reasons I feel as though I'm packing so much into this life.

That group of 3 guides you mentioned, when I was doing the healing energy, they introduced themselves as a group of four, one of which is a male angel.

I haven’t instigated the healing energy for many weeks and I haven’t felt it, so I’m thinking that it was just a stage of the ascension process and it’s done whatever it was meant to. There's something very liberating about knowing there's no coming back, it feels like success sometimes or relief that I can get off this damned hamster wheel. In the forums it makes it interesting because I can be the crazy old man that plays in the puddles.

I'm not doing this to be picky but there is a reason for saying it; it's not a group of four, it's a group of three plus one. The one (the male) is not in the group but of it. That's the understanding you need.

Energetically you've moved up a few notches, and if the healing isn't needed then it means you've past the need for it. It was a stage if you like, and a 'marker' if you care for such things.

About the triangle and circle coming together, they were together pretty much from the beginning. I’ve done a diagram of what it looks at the end of the post. It's an upturned triangle with the circle touching the top of the triangle. Now, those colours can change round so the magenta is on the top and the blue in the triangle. Also a few weeks ago, I asked what it meant and I was given the explanation, also put a diagram for this.

To be honest, the silver/gold and black/white combinations don’t mean anything to me or don’t make me feel anything. Where as the magenta/blue and other colour combinations I have aura soma as a reference point, so I’m intimately familiar with the meaning of those combinations. And it doesn’t seem to be a coincidence that the triangle/circle use aura soma combinations. Strange that you got three plus one angels and a triangle plus a circle. Have you ever thought about how many 'threes' there are? And how much the triangle features in geometry and Sacred Geometry? The triangle and the circle are the most basic of building blocks and often the most difficult to understand, yet they remain the keys.

How does the triangle and the circle relate to what's going on with you, or doesn't it?

Silver and gold are usually female and male colours but throughout history and across many cultures they've had different meanings. Sometimes they're associated with the sun and the moon. However, in 495 (if I remember rightly) different cultures they talk of the Shining Ones and/or the Golden Ones. The ancient Irish called them the Tuatha de Danaan or the Children of Dana while the Mayans called them the Viracochas. Gold is associated with the highest of Spiritual colours - the Source of Light. I'll leave you to make your own associations with that one, but if this is your last trip how many times have to been round the block, or have ancient origins?

Printing used to use four basic colours in the Pantone series, and that's still being used today in desktop printers - cyan, magenta, yellow and black. The Pantone/printed colour model is what is known as subtractive, what happens is that we see the reflection of light from an object and what colour it is depends on what frequencies are absorbed and what are reflected out. It's the reason the sky is blue. In this model white is not a colour, it's a complete lack of colour. Mixing cyan, magenta and yellow should theoretically give black but it gives a dark, muddy brown instead.

Display screens use the additive colour model, their basics colours are red, green and blue and full-on all three colours gives you white, while a complete lack of colour information gives black.

The triangle, the circle and the colours are the basic building blocks of form and how we perceive it. I think this is what it's trying to tell you, that that the colours represent different perspectives or perceptions - which aren't in black or white. Positioning -what relates to what - is also a matter of perception, perspective and 'colour models'.

Although I’m up to video 32, I haven’t seen that one yet. I’ll make that the next one.

The only thing I can think of is my study of nutrition and supplements and the wide range of healing modalities I’ve become aware of, many of which I’ve tried. I’ve therefore been able to help quite a few people with their health issues where doctors have been unable. But if you ask me if it’s worth it, then no, it’s not. But I’m willing for Matt to encourage me to think otherwise. A few years ago I met a guy who was an air cadet while I was an instructor. He shook my hand and thanked me because I;d been instrumental in shaping his formative years and he was thankful of how things had turned out for him. I watched him with his daughter one day, and a voice said "That's the one you made the changes for." What we don't realise is how sometimes the most 'mundane' of things we do has such an important impact so far down the line.

You of all people should know how it feels to have health issues that the doctors cn't cure. Is there something stopping you from thinking about it differently?

Interesting dream; that strikes me as a social situation/interaction with person/people isn’t quite working out currently for you. Hence the college canteen representing the social aspect with the cheap tables and chairs representing the messiness and the rubbish on them, disparity. Jeff Lynne and Tom Petty trying to harmonise and failing represents discord in the situation, almost as though you’re trying to force two aspects together which is just not working out. Yep, that's pretty much the interpretation. There are a couple of aspects that aren't quite working out right now but that's OK, what's happening is an energy build-up kind of like the gathering of momentum on the downward side of the wave. I'm going through this energy shift right now and this is how it's manifesting, slowly the old is dropping away for the new to come through, and right now I'm neither here nor there.

Totally understand what you mean here; I was captivated by the stories of good/evil and magic. For me that’s where the real world was, somewhere I could escape to, that made sense to me whereas the real life, and particularly school, was torturous. To hear Byron’s invitation to go to the ‘Magician’s Birthday’ after a day at school was a huge release.

I remember very clearly early 1985 listening to the radio late at night and them playing July morning in memory of David Byron. I was distraught. I was in my early twenties at the time and the impact of his passing hit me hard. I couldn’t play their music for months but finally got back into it. I just could not accept any attempt the band to replace him. He was / is irreplacable, best frontman ever for me.

Music has got me through much in life. The other band that’s been with me since I first discovered them when I was 18 is Genesis (the Phil Collins era). The first album I got was Duke and of course being used to ‘story’ songs loved it from the word go. I then bought Trick of the Tale and got a shock when it was totally unlike Duke. But I persevered as I didn’t take to it immediately, and then ended up loving it. Some very spiritual songs on that album such as Mad Man MoonI wanted to be that guy, the one who stood singing on TOTP with all the dollies around him. Not the one that looked like a horsey-lady because she was too snobbish. The rest though... I felt as though we had so much in common although I didn't have the talent. Yeah I'd "done the rancher's daughter" and he wasn't best pleased. But there was hardly a song that I din't resonate with in some way, whether it was reflecting how I felt or some inspiration deep inside. I'm not sure if it was escapism or if it was there to show me hidden depths that I'd yet to reach.

I joined the RAF and it disconnected me from the Heep for quite a few years, that was a very tumultuous time in my Life and I was bouncing around here and there both physically and emotionally, but I rediscovered them much later with Return to Fantasy. Classic and classic synchronicity. My record collection had gone because I was redeployed and couldn't carry everything so it was left behind and I was returning to that mindset. There's been something of a resurgence of the Heep but it's taken on a different meaning, but I still look back fondly and thank them for being a part of my formative years in so many ways.

I was given a copy of Duke on tape by Big Bill from Cleethorpes, we were on nightshift together in the RAF. It was one of the albums I used to zonk out to with headphones on and it never failed to shift my consciousness. Strangely enough it was the only one that caught my attention, I wasn't inspired to buy another one.

Then I bought And then there were three; same thing, totally different from any other album and ended up loving that, and on it went from there.And then there were three.

Shivani Devi

05-11-2017, 02:30 PM

Greenslade

06-11-2017, 10:46 AM

I'm thoroughly reading and enjoying this thread, as it totally relates to my own issues of 'ascension woes'.

One of the main problems I have, is that I will find a piece of music, a picture, a scenario, a memory that I will find 'spiritually uplifting' and yeah, it will 'spiritually uplift' me for about the first half a dozen times I hear/see/recall it and then after that, it will totally fail to do so (and have the opposite effect)...and so, I am always on the lookout for new and varied ways to 'spiritually uplift' myself and I am quickly running out of them...my options are becoming almost totally non-existent now in regards.

I am also left questioning the whole point and purpose for my ascension, because my own list of 'psychosomatic traumas' are bottomless and endless and it is nothing that doctors can even diagnose, let alone treat. I often think that one day, spirituality itself is going to kill me and no autopsy will be able to find the cause or reason for my demise...sometimes, I think I have it much worse than those who are 'not spiritual' by comparison.

I've just read a website, listened to the associated podcast...and at least it is comforting to know I am not the only one dying from the inside-out without any physical cause:

https://www.ascension360.net/ascension-symptoms/

However, there's hardly anybody on this forum that knows much about it, unfortunately.The fantastic thing about beating your head against a brick wall is that it feels great when you stop. Stop it already, seriously.

If you're short on music, hit YouTube and search for 432 music and take it from there. For the best results use headphones.

If you're looking for the reasons, point and purpose look no further than the mirror. Really. Spirituality won't kill you, fighting against yourself will. The point of ascension - one of them anyway - is to transcend your list of traumas, but they're only traumatic because of your definitions.

Yes you are dying so embrace it, and there's more 'real world' to this than people would realise but the problem is that Spiritual people are not of the real world. And you can't ascend if there's nothing to ascend from, if you are to be ascended (not think you are, actually be) then you need to be that from which you can ascend. Right now you are that from which you can ascend, and it'll help if you let the baggage go - like your list of traumas. They're a part of what you can ascend from.

running

06-11-2017, 03:03 PM

jonesboy

06-11-2017, 03:10 PM

I would agree with running.

It sounds like you woke up to energy and it's hitting stuff. That stuff isn't always fun but it can be smoothed out.

Patrycia-Rose

12-11-2017, 09:48 AM

Well, Mr G, it’s been quite an amazing week (more about that later).

I'm glad that other forum members are enjoying the posts - and I hope between us, we've introduced a few people to Uriah Heep and Matt Kahn!

What it does is through up all kinds of questions for me and there's this 'it's been there all along' feeling to it.

I have that feeling about Matt’s teachings, which is taking my internal vocabulary and the way I see the world and turning it upside down. There’s a part of me that wishes I knew this years ago but then maybe I wouldn’t have been ready for it, or not got it, so I’m accepting that the time is now.

At this particular point in time Matt's teachings are here to show you a few things - although I think more will come later. For the time being they are preparing you for tackling your trauma on an emotional/Spiritual/ level.

Gosh, absolutely. Just last week when I read that, it didn’t really resonate but now it does as it is happening in this last week (more about that later).

Strange that you got three plus one angels and a triangle plus a circle. Have you ever thought about how many 'threes' there are? And how much the triangle features in geometry and Sacred Geometry? The triangle and the circle are the most basic of building blocks and often the most difficult to understand, yet they remain the keys.

No, it hadn't really occurred to me.

How does the triangle and the circle relate to what's going on with you, or doesn't it?

The triangle and circle have gone in the past week along with the aura soma bottles; I felt very much that this was a clearing of the decks in preparation for was to come.

You of all people should know how it feels to have health issues that the doctors can't cure. Is there something stopping you from thinking about it differently?

I accept that but currently, I believe the price was too high. But that may change.

There’s some seriously deep spiritual do da going down at the moment! “Where to begin .....”

Last Thursday I had a dream I was in a large hall of a stately home and there was a big half metre orb hovering above me. The orb then moved down into my body, merging, joining with me. A quartz crystal chunky point fell onto the floor with black symbols engraved in it.

http://www.pixiecrystals.com/upload/shop/Chlorite%20within%20Clear%20Quartz%20point%20146.j pg

I couldn’t remember any of the symbols but when I lay in bed Friday night, I instantly saw the crystal with what looked like two circles side by side, wasn’t sure if this was the infinity symbol or not but it didn’t look like an 8 but two circles. Dowsing confirmed it was two circles side by side.

So Saturday morning arrives and I have my first session of Bowen therapy and as soon as the practitioner asks me to imagine something soothing, before I could conjure up a nice sandy beach, the quartz crystal was there with the two circles. When spirit puts something in my third eye, if I try and change it, it feels very uncomfortable, so I just went with it, kind of surprised how quickly and clearly it was there. They did throw in an aura soma bottle, blue over magenta; I think just to give me something familiar.

Then about half way through the session, another symbol came in, on the crystal, like an upward stroke with a left tilt. Again, wasn’t sure if this was the number one or the letter I.

I did some looking on the net and couldn’t really find anything that matched either of these symbols and I looked at Japanese calligraphy, runes, and Celtic symbols.

Then during last night, I had another new symbol OxO. Gravy granules aside, I asked my guides what is the meaning of all these symbols that I had no reference for. “To aid the healing” and that they are a code to my body on the earth plane.

The practitioner said I was in pretty good shape, apart from these trauma ailments and it was sort of affirming when she went through a fairly long list of illnesses and diseases and me saying no, I don’t have any of those.

I did notice when she was working on my back, the familiar heat energy starting up in response. I’m definitely going back for further sessions.

Also, the week before this, my dowsing had wanted to choose the next video of Matt’s to watch and it was ‘a message to all light workers’ in which he was talking about the importance of having good reasons for the choices we make. So, instead of my usual heaping all my eggs into one healing modality and having a determination that this is it, this is going to heal me and being disappointed, I thought well, hey ho, I’m going to start Bowen out of curiosity and interest to see if this healing modality fits in with my divine plan and is maybe the modality that could offer healing” or something along those lines.

So this morning I do feel mildly agitated at times but it’s OK for me to feel agitated and I’m safe enough to feel this agitation (Matt’s Finding Safety) and “I’m feeling this agitation to clear this from the collective conscious for the wellbeing of all.”

I can’t tell you how liberating it is to have a narrative for the emotions and reactions I feel to all things.

So, I’ve been advised not to run for several days which feels very odd but I’m circulating some new energy by not running on a Sunday! :smile:

I meant to say in my last post, after your dream, who doesn’t like a bit of Jeff Lynne and ELO. I have Out of the Blue, Discovery and the lesser popular Time. If you don’t have that one in your collection, I’d seriously recommend it, it’s brilliant. That whole album sparked off the beginnings and outline of a novel (which I never finished).

And then there were three.

That really made me laugh!

Thanks Mr G, for your continuing insight and support, it makes me feel safer to be sharing this.

Patrycia

Greenslade

12-11-2017, 02:28 PM

Well, Mr G, it’s been quite an amazing week (more about that later).

I'm glad that other forum members are enjoying the posts - and I hope between us, we've introduced a few people to Uriah Heep and Matt Kahn!An amazing week is one way to put it, always the small things but they're coming through thick and fast.

It wouldn't surprise me if we have a couple of lurkers hiding away just below the surface, not quite yet ready to vent their Spiritual spleens but finding the odd pearl of wisdom just the same. Such a pity that pearls are just annoyances covered in oyster snot, but therein lies the parable. Perhaps we have a few Matt Khan converts, that wouldn't be a bad thing at all but the Heep? Somehow the forum isn't ready for that kind of Spirituality just yet.

I have that feeling about Matt’s teachings, which is taking my internal vocabulary and the way I see the world and turning it upside down. There’s a part of me that wishes I knew this years ago but then maybe I wouldn’t have been ready for it, or not got it, so I’m accepting that the time is now.Relax, everything happens when it's meant to - Nature does the work. This is the 'true' LoA at work, and some would call it synchronicity but it's really all about vibrations. "When the pupil is ready the teacher will come" is the simplifies version; compatible/resonant vibrations and all that. That's the reailisation, that these things wouldn't make any sense if your vibrations didn't resonate with them. You could read it until the cows come home but if there was no compatibility/harmony you wouldn't be able to integrate it into your being. Accept it or not the time is now and it's happening, nature is doing the work so all you have to do is experience it.

Words create worlds.

Gosh, absolutely. Just last week when I read that, it didn’t really resonate but now it does as it is happening in this last week (more about that later). It might be worth getting yourself a stick to clench between your teeth.

No, it hadn't really occurred to me.There's all kinds of spooky stuff around triangles and numbers, and how it makes up the other Platonic Solids, they also correlate to the Fibonacci Sequence, the Golden Mean and some other stuff. "Everything happens in threes, not black-and-white."

The triangle and circle have gone in the past week along with the aura soma bottles; I felt very much that this was a clearing of the decks in preparation for was to come.You may not realise it yet but you're connecting to some very high level stuff, which is why I mentioned the Sacred Geometry stuff, it's not so much a passing interest but an insight if you like. You're on the fringes of that consciousness for want of a better expression and although I don't think you're going to find much interest in Sacred Geometry, what it will do is give you a 'measure'. If that makes sense. First you had 'no numbers', then you had numbers and now geometry. You had soma bottles and colours (colours being the 'building blocks' of the spectrum) and that's working with your triangle and circle. It's all steps.

I accept that but currently, I believe the price was too high. But that may change. It's not over until the fat lady sings, and someone shot her and danced on her ashes. We're never back at square one, we walk in spirals (Fibonacci ones) and we're brought back there to realise some deeper truths. My wife was a rape counselor for the police and I spent quite a few years in the against child abuse arena, both of us drawing on real Life experience to empathise. You have yet to come to that point because it's still pretty raw in you but there's time yet. Have your feelings about it relaxed any?

There’s some seriously deep spiritual do da going down at the moment! “Where to begin .....” With the greatest of respect, you have no idea.:hug3:

Last Thursday I had a dream I was in a large hall of a stately home and there was a big half metre orb hovering above me. The orb then moved down into my body, merging, joining with me. A quartz crystal chunky point fell onto the floor with black symbols engraved in it. Finally!!! And that's making me emotional.

I couldn’t remember any of the symbols but when I lay in bed Friday night, I instantly saw the crystal with what looked like two circles side by side, wasn’t sure if this was the infinity symbol or not but it didn’t look like an 8 but two circles. Dowsing confirmed it was two circles side by side.

So Saturday morning arrives and I have my first session of Bowen therapy and as soon as the practitioner asks me to imagine something soothing, before I could conjure up a nice sandy beach, the quartz crystal was there with the two circles. When spirit puts something in my third eye, if I try and change it, it feels very uncomfortable, so I just went with it, kind of surprised how quickly and clearly it was there. They did throw in an aura soma bottle, blue over magenta; I think just to give me something familiar.

Then about half way through the session, another symbol came in, on the crystal, like an upward stroke with a left tilt. Again, wasn’t sure if this was the number one or the letter I.

I did some looking on the net and couldn’t really find anything that matched either of these symbols and I looked at Japanese calligraphy, runes, and Celtic symbols.

Then during last night, I had another new symbol OxO. Gravy granules aside, I asked my guides what is the meaning of all these symbols that I had no reference for. “To aid the healing” and that they are a code to my body on the earth plane.

The practitioner said I was in pretty good shape, apart from these trauma ailments and it was sort of affirming when she went through a fairly long list of illnesses and diseases and me saying no, I don’t have any of those.

I did notice when she was working on my back, the familiar heat energy starting up in response. I’m definitely going back for further sessions.Don't worry too much about not being able to remember the symbols, seeing them is symbolic in itself and the fact that that ou see them at all is what's symbolic. If you can see the symbols it means you're tuning into the 'language', if they are 'supposed' to have meaning they will, or if they are meant to be remembered they won't go away.

The circles are spheres and they're side-by-side because you haven't put the spheres of consciousness together. Essentially that is what your half-metre orb is - a sphere of - for want of a better expression - higher consciousness. This is all about bringing the fifth-dimensional consciousness down in Matt's Ascension vid. For some reason it's important to use the word 'sphere' as opposed to circle - dimensions of consciousness.

Have you tried looking through the Enochian character set? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enochian#/media/File:Enochian_alphabet.png

Have a look at https://www.barcodesinc.com/articles/the-quintessential-guide-to-sacred-geometry.htm
I'm not going to bore you to death with Sacred Geometry but seeing as how you're seeing them it's worth a quick look. It's a quick and simple explanation and it'll make so much sense of what you're seeing and why. Wgat's essentially happening is that Spirit is trying to explain what's going on so that you can envision it better and so tune in. So at the moment the higher consciousness has enveloped you (your hovering orb) but you see the two spheres of consciousness as separate - your two circles side by side. "Still not worth it."

Infinity is a part of that symbolism too but it's more of a twisting and turning from one to the other and back again. What you're perceiving is two separate spheres that haven't come together but are symbolised by the 0x0 - still this and that but working together. It gets interesting when they overlap.

It's good that your energies are coming back in response, I'm guessing that a lot of the healing will happen at a very much deeper level and there'll be a two-fold benefit for you. Which is about time, and sometimes one plus one equals three.

Also, the week before this, my dowsing had wanted to choose the next video of Matt’s to watch and it was ‘a message to all light workers’ in which he was talking about the importance of having good reasons for the choices we make. So, instead of my usual heaping all my eggs into one healing modality and having a determination that this is it, this is going to heal me and being disappointed, I thought well, hey ho, I’m going to start Bowen out of curiosity and interest to see if this healing modality fits in with my divine plan and is maybe the modality that could offer healing” or something along those lines.

So this morning I do feel mildly agitated at times but it’s OK for me to feel agitated and I’m safe enough to feel this agitation (Matt’s Finding Safety) and “I’m feeling this agitation to clear this from the collective conscious for the wellbeing of all.”

I can’t tell you how liberating it is to have a narrative for the emotions and reactions I feel to all things.

So, I’ve been advised not to run for several days which feels very odd but I’m circulating some new energy by not running on a Sunday! :smile:

I meant to say in my last post, after your dream, who doesn’t like a bit of Jeff Lynne and ELO. I have Out of the Blue, Discovery and the lesser popular Time. If you don’t have that one in your collection, I’d seriously recommend it, it’s brilliant. That whole album sparked off the beginnings and outline of a novel (which I never finished). Any blue teddies yet? Teaspoons?

Words have power, words create worlds; change the word, change the paradigm. "Well, hey ho." Acceptance, surrender, faith, being OK. We can get something from everything if only we could perceive, including what often seems 'wrong'. Tesla said that he didn't fail a thousand times, he learned of a thousand ways that it couldn't be done. The Universe is working with you and if you're doing it out of curiosity you're working closer with the Universe, often the greatest step is to stop fighting against it.

"I'm feeling this agitation to learn that I need to let go," it takes control to relinquish control.

Matt said in one of his vids that what we need to do is to do something different to stimulate the flow of new energy; if you always run on a Sunday it gets stale, something you always do or habitually. Different is good. Like beating your head against a brick wall, it feels brilliant when you stop - not that I'm saying that running is beating your head, it was in reference to your liberating. Allowing new energy to come through, flushing out the stale. Allowing in new paradigms, changing frequencies. It's OK to acknowledge, that isn't ego.

I remember when ELO covered Roll Over Beethoven. At the time I had a paper round and a Russian-made radio in a leather case that needed to be turned the right way to receive a signal. One of the reasons it captured my attention was the mix of the classic and the modern, I can't think of many others that dd orchestral instruments and electric guitars quite so well. One of the reasons it was Jeff Lynne in particular is because I've been back in my childhood again, gaining different insights and learning to Love myself. ELO is one band that will always have a place, here. I'll grab a copy though, and add it to my to-do list.

That really made me laugh!

Thanks Mr G, for your continuing insight and support, it makes me feel safer to be sharing this.

PatryciaYou're very welcome Patrycia, and as always it's a blessing to be a part of this.

Patrycia-Rose

19-11-2017, 10:08 AM

An amazing week is one way to put it, always the small things but they're coming through thick and fast.

Yes, and there’s been no let up in that respect.

Perhaps we have a few Matt Khan converts, that wouldn't be a bad thing at all but the Heep? Somehow the forum isn't ready for that kind of Spirituality just yet.

Maybe you’re right, but there is a strong group of Heep fans out there as you an see from comments on Youtube. Incidentally, have you got David Byron’s solo effort ‘ Baby faced Killer’. Very interesting, yielding some good songs and one or two insightful lyrics I feel into his experience of the Heep days.

Accept it or not the time is now and it's happening, nature is doing the work so all you have to do is experience it.

Agreed, I am letting it happen as I just don’t have the time to think about it too much.

You may not realise it yet but you're connecting to some very high level stuff.

I'll just accept your take on that as I've had symbols and things in my 3E for the last twenty years, without me giving one symbol more importance / significance than others, if that makes sense.

With the greatest of respect, you have no idea.:hug3:

No idea what’s going on or where it’s leading. My only barometer is how I feel / respond to things and how I feel in my body

I must admit when triangles and spheres started coming through, I was a bit puzzled / concerned that they were going down the geometry road as maths and that kind of thing I dislike intensely - I can do basic maths, excel formulas no problem as I have to for part of my work – but that aside, I’ve too many bad memories of being a kid stuck in class trying to grasp the point of fractions. Honestly, just the word makes me shudder.

Re your question about was the trauma feeling any different, I was curious as to how I was going to explain the trauma to the Bowen practitioner, I’d rehearsed it a few times, trying to explain without dragging up all the details. I did it, and didn’t feel overwhelming anger or any intense feelings, just a mild agitation. And, what helps but doesn’t help at the same time – is the response you get from practitioners, which is something along the lines of a pained expression on the face and ‘oooh that’s bad”.

Its been another curious week. Last Sunday, I had another new symbol (I’ve posted at the end of the post). And then during the week another one ..... I noticed that both have three; in the case of the first one, three dots and the second, three lines. Not sure what the line through the three lines of the second one mean! Am I about to be struck out? I did ask during the week when I was awake at 3 am, what the three was and got the same answer, it’s me, spirit and integration except they were saying that I am fully integrated, due to putting into practice Matt’s teachings. I refuted that as I don’t think I’ve even scratched the surface. The only thing, I’m aware of that I’m consciously doing is sending out the blessings when I wake up in the night.

It’s been manic this last week. I’ve been getting into work a couple of days for 7.15 am as it’s so busy. And on getting home, it’s bath, dinner and then doing the ‘nodding dog’ routine in front of the tv until I fall into bed at 9 pm, absolutely knackered!

On top of busy work; I think I’m beginning to experience the effects of the Bowen treatment. I had several days when I felt agitated and then yesterday I felt very emotional at a few songs / things I saw on the TV, plus the odd twinge and sensitivity here and there, such as a sinus headache ( don’t normally do headaches) sensitive teeth (again don’t normally do that).

So when I sat down yesterday afternoon for a much needed kip, out of nowhere and into my third eye with earth shattering clarity, a gold pyramid. All gold, smooth and shiny. It came through with such clarity and I felt an energy from it, maybe just from the clarity, but it made me smile. And then after my snooze, noticed it was still there and a gold sphere moved to sit on the tip of the pyramid. So it seemed to me that this is the triangle/circle scenario in a deeper, more symbolic version, although symbolic of what heaven knows. It’s been there on and off ever since, sometimes with the sphere on top, sometimes not. I get the feeling, I’m intended to just go with it and not try to work it all out; which is fine with me as I’ve barely got the time to breath.

I’ve not had the time, right frame of mind to watch any of Matt’s videos either. I managed half an hour yesterday and what’s making it more intense is that I’m writing down most of what he says, a precis, but nevertheless I’m constantly rewinding and writing, so even that’s work of a sort.

It’s taken me a week to go through one video and a few days ago I started watching The Secret to Spiritual Success and in it he was talking about Alignment being the new paradigm version of enlightenment and the way to know if you are in alignment is if you are relaxed. So he said something along the lines of:

“When you’re not relaxed, it means you’re working at a faster rate than the universe wants you to work, you’re focused and attached to the outcome, trying to race to the finish line and you are continuing to go towards a physical goal or end point whilst continuing on anchoring the very energy that keeps you feeling so unfilled and dissatisfied.”

Oh darn! That’s me right now! So this is going to be a challenge to try and feel relaxed and therefore in alignment when I’m going at full throttle! To be honest, I’m not sure I’m going to be able to achieve that but I will hold it in mind and try.

Quite frankly at the moment, things are so intense, I don’t know how I’m keeping going. I’ve also got a second Bowen treatment on Friday afternoon after work.

I remember when ELO covered Roll Over Beethoven. At the time I had a paper round and a Russian-made radio in a leather case that needed to be turned the right way to receive a signal. One of the reasons it captured my attention was the mix of the classic and the modern, I can't think of many others that dd orchestral instruments and electric guitars quite so well. One of the reasons it was Jeff Lynne in particular is because I've been back in my childhood again, gaining different insights and learning to Love myself. ELO is one band that will always have a place, here. I'll grab a copy though, and add it to my to-do list.

Do get the album Time /ELO. It’s a story album, so one track leads into another, sometimes with no gaps. It’s one of the few albums that needs to be listened to in sequence. And who can resist with opening lyrics such as this:

Just on the border of your waking mind,
There lies another time
When darkness and light are one
And as you tread the halls of sanity
You feel so glad to be unable to go beyond,
I have a message from another time .....

Patrycia

Greenslade

19-11-2017, 12:44 PM

Yes, and there’s been no let up in that respect.And it's just about to get even more bonkers barmy. Christmas has always been a really bad time of year for many reasons going back to very early childhood, although more recently it hasn't been that bad. The past months I've been going back to that childhood to integrate the Child Inside more fully, and that's been a stonker of a rollercoaster.

Mid-January one of the forum members is coming over from Russia for a week and she's been all excited over the trip. I've been trying hard not to get too caught up because I have this habit of second-guessing, and it's a visit I know I'm going to need a clear head for. Over the past few days I've been getting the feeling I'm being prepared in some way.

Maybe you’re right, but there is a strong group of Heep fans out there as you an see from comments on Youtube. Incidentally, have you got David Byron’s solo effort ‘ Baby faced Killer’. Very interesting, yielding some good songs and one or two insightful lyrics I feel into his experience of the Heep days.Spirituality is where you find it at the end of the day and I dare say it's the same with Heep fans. Looking back it's something that resonated at a deep level although at the time I didn't know Spirituality existed. Nostalgia has its place and perhaps nostalgia of the Heep is a reminder of that special place they touched.

Din't know he had a solo, another one to add to the list.

Agreed, I am letting it happen as I just don’t have the time to think about it too much. All the good stuff happens in retrospect sometimes. If our minds did its thing during the experience it would be very different and clouded. Perhaps all you need is the pure and uncomplicated experience for now.

I'll just accept your take on that as I've had symbols and things in my 3E for the last twenty years, without me giving one symbol more importance / significance than others, if that makes sense.Yep, it makes perfect sense. More later, but what's skewing things is your perspective. With this stuff you have to unlearn so you can relearn.

No idea what’s going on or where it’s leading. My only barometer is how I feel / respond to things and how I feel in my body

I must admit when triangles and spheres started coming through, I was a bit puzzled / concerned that they were going down the geometry road as maths and that kind of thing I dislike intensely - I can do basic maths, excel formulas no problem as I have to for part of my work – but that aside, I’ve too many bad memories of being a kid stuck in class trying to grasp the point of fractions. Honestly, just the word makes me shudder. I always really sucked at maths and frankly numbers make me cringe, although like you I'm OK with a spreadsheet - very rusty but OK.

This isn't the geometry you learned in school, it's Sacred Geometry and very different. The good thing is that when you understand a few of the very basics so much snaps straight into place, and even though you're into it in a huge way there's very little maths involved. Forget fractions, they're no damned use at all. All you need to understand is degrees and the Fibonacci Sequence and work from there. Those are your basic building blocks.

Re your question about was the trauma feeling any different, I was curious as to how I was going to explain the trauma to the Bowen practitioner, I’d rehearsed it a few times, trying to explain without dragging up all the details. I did it, and didn’t feel overwhelming anger or any intense feelings, just a mild agitation. And, what helps but doesn’t help at the same time – is the response you get from practitioners, which is something along the lines of a pained expression on the face and ‘oooh that’s bad”. So with your own reaction, does it feel as though you're coming more to terms with your trauma?

I don't know if some practitioners come out with that sort of thing to make you feel a little worse so that their treatment makes you feel so much better - and make you more eager to part with your cash.

Its been another curious week. Last Sunday, I had another new symbol (I’ve posted at the end of the post). And then during the week another one ..... I noticed that both have three; in the case of the first one, three dots and the second, three lines. Not sure what the line through the three lines of the second one mean! Am I about to be struck out? I did ask during the week when I was awake at 3 am, what the three was and got the same answer, it’s me, spirit and integration except they were saying that I am fully integrated, due to putting into practice Matt’s teachings. I refuted that as I don’t think I’ve even scratched the surface. The only thing, I’m aware of that I’m consciously doing is sending out the blessings when I wake up in the night.

It’s been manic this last week. I’ve been getting into work a couple of days for 7.15 am as it’s so busy. And on getting home, it’s bath, dinner and then doing the ‘nodding dog’ routine in front of the tv until I fall into bed at 9 pm, absolutely knackered!

On top of busy work; I think I’m beginning to experience the effects of the Bowen treatment. I had several days when I felt agitated and then yesterday I felt very emotional at a few songs / things I saw on the TV, plus the odd twinge and sensitivity here and there, such as a sinus headache ( don’t normally do headaches) sensitive teeth (again don’t normally do that).

So when I sat down yesterday afternoon for a much needed kip, out of nowhere and into my third eye with earth shattering clarity, a gold pyramid. All gold, smooth and shiny. It came through with such clarity and I felt an energy from it, maybe just from the clarity, but it made me smile. And then after my snooze, noticed it was still there and a gold sphere moved to sit on the tip of the pyramid. So it seemed to me that this is the triangle/circle scenario in a deeper, more symbolic version, although symbolic of what heaven knows. It’s been there on and off ever since, sometimes with the sphere on top, sometimes not. I get the feeling, I’m intended to just go with it and not try to work it all out; which is fine with me as I’ve barely got the time to breath.

I’ve not had the time, right frame of mind to watch any of Matt’s videos either. I managed half an hour yesterday and what’s making it more intense is that I’m writing down most of what he says, a precis, but nevertheless I’m constantly rewinding and writing, so even that’s work of a sort.

It’s taken me a week to go through one video and a few days ago I started watching The Secret to Spiritual Success and in it he was talking about Alignment being the new paradigm version of enlightenment and the way to know if you are in alignment is if you are relaxed. So he said something along the lines of:

“When you’re not relaxed, it means you’re working at a faster rate than the universe wants you to work, you’re focused and attached to the outcome, trying to race to the finish line and you are continuing to go towards a physical goal or end point whilst continuing on anchoring the very energy that keeps you feeling so unfilled and dissatisfied.”

Oh darn! That’s me right now! So this is going to be a challenge to try and feel relaxed and therefore in alignment when I’m going at full throttle! To be honest, I’m not sure I’m going to be able to achieve that but I will hold it in mind and try.

Quite frankly at the moment, things are so intense, I don’t know how I’m keeping going. I’ve also got a second Bowen treatment on Friday afternoon after work. Yes please, do relax already.:hug3:

When you're going at full throttle you're only going at half speed because your focus isn't right here right now, it's being projected out towards some imaginary place you want to be. You're not there yet because you'll always be right here, and when you realise why you're here you're there. Does that make sense? There is in harmony or in tune with the Universe, looking out at what the Universe is showing you in the moment and when you see it you'll move on. If you don't see it the Universe will show you again - which is the feeling of being back at square one or lessons repeating. There is that place in your mind and not in a physical place, the place where you realise why you are here in the moment. Nature does the work, not you. You stand still and become the observer while reality moves in front of you frame-by-frame, moment by moment like a film strip.

Relaxed is right here right now; not relaxed is the energetic difference in being here and thinking you should be there.

Perhaps you haven't scratched the surface but.... If you don't know how to move your muscles how can you run? Work out how your muscles work then move on from there otherwise you'll fall flat on your face. This is the symbolism, that what you need to be more conscious and aware as you 'move'. I could explain it in terms of Phi Spirals and Fibonacci but you're not keen on them.

You're going through a lot at the moment and regardless of how fast you think you're not going you're moving at one helluva lick. You don't know where you're going, you haven't quite come to terms with what changes there are to your consciousness and there's no reference to tell you if you're going fast or slow. So, you have two simple choices. One is to fret and the other is to enjoy the ride - either way you're going where you're going either because of or despite yourself.

I'm getting very sensitive of late and the energetic changes are manifesting into the physical. I know I'm changing but I'm not even going to guess - I'm along for the ride. The emotions have gone bonkers and most of the time I'm keeping a grip on myself, but I do need to vent once in a while.

OK, very short reply to your golden pyramid and circle. Gold is the highest 'Spiritual' colour so yes, you are connecting to some high level stuff - it doesn't get any higher. The pyramids connect with the stars and they embody the Golden Mean, which is a ratio that's found everywhere in nature from your fingers and face to the planets. The great pyramid is also at the geodetic centre of the earth and at the centre of the earth grid. Just out of interest, the major European grid point is in the northwest of Scotland. One of the lines crosses close to my front door, another goes to the Languedoc in France. The pyramids are all about Sacred Geometry, energy and celestial connections/reflections.

Triangles and circles are the basic blocks of Sacred Geometry, notably the Platonic Solids which have their own properties. Your triangle should fit inside the circle with all the points touching the circumference - which all the Platonic Solids have in common. All the other Solids are made from multiples of the triangle and the sum of their angles - and they all have very specific ratios. The understanding isn't in being good with numbers (which I ain't) but in understanding what you're looking at. Building blocks, relationships, juxtapositions.....

You are where you need to be, the Universe is showing you what you need to see. When you realise that you are the answer, that you are the goal everything changes. Often it seems to be counter-intuitive but it's not because the mind is missing something, and when you suddenly remember to bring the 'something' into the equation it all makes sense. It's about reflections, if you want your left hand to move you have to move your right hand.

Do get the album Time /ELO. It’s a story album, so one track leads into another, sometimes with no gaps. It’s one of the few albums that needs to be listened to in sequence. And who can resist with opening lyrics such as this:

Just on the border of your waking mind,
There lies another time
When darkness and light are one
And as you tread the halls of sanity
You feel so glad to be unable to go beyond,
I have a message from another time .....

PatryciaI've got ELO downloaded, just haven't had the time to listen to it just yet. And I remember being those lyrics.

With the symbols, you have ovals instead of circles so what you don't have is balance in all directions. Your points of origin (the dots) are linear and vertically in line so that represents your thinking. The top one is Spirit, the centre is your thinking mind and the bottom one is your sub/unconscious mind. The three lines means expressing outwards or manifesting - which is what's happening but the single line isn't you striking out but the consciousness linking them together. It's more of a progress update if you like.

Patrycia-Rose

26-11-2017, 09:54 AM

And it's just about to get even more bonkers barmy.

Given that all this has been going on since June 2016, ‘bonkers barmy’ is my new normal.

Christmas has always been a really bad time of year for many reasons going back to very early childhood, although more recently it hasn't been that bad.

Christmas for me in recent years has become a different experience from the family gatherings we used to have. Both parents no longer here, I’ll be on my Jack Jones but to be honest, the thing I’m looking forward to the most is four days off in a row!

Din't know he had a solo, another one to add to the list.

For sure, after Heep he did various solo projects. Before getting ‘killer’ I would have a listen to it on Youtube because although it’s Byron’s unmistakable voice, by Heep standards it’s very commercial. I think those Heep songs brought the best out in his voice. There was a heavier album called ‘On the Rocks’ which I believe was the last one he did. So if you didn’t know he had solo albums, there’s an early Christmas gift for you. :hug3:

Yep, it makes perfect sense. More later, but what's skewing things is your perspective. With this stuff you have to unlearn so you can relearn.

You may well be right, I must admit to being somewhat puzzled by the triangles and spheres and I tend to breath a sigh of relief when I get a aura soma bottle. It’s like coming home.

And to a very large degree, that is what’s happening with Matt’s teachings. It’s taken me a week to get through and transcribe The Secret of Spiritual Success. But each sentence seems so profound to me, there’s no way I’m going to remember it all, so as painstaking as it is, I feel it is singularly the most important thing I’m doing right now – plus, it will always be there for me to refer to.

One of things I’m liking is that sometimes he makes reference to a subject he’s covered in an early video and it’s like yes!! I’ve seen that one, I understand! And also, there’s themes that repeat, messages that repeat, that familiarity feels great.

All you need to understand is degrees and the Fibonacci Sequence and work from there. Those are your basic building blocks.

I have had a brief look at sacred geometry but things like degrees and Fibonacci sequences just sends me straight back to that kid stuck inside an empty classroom.

So with your own reaction, does it feel as though you're coming more to terms with your trauma?

I’ve felt like this for a little while; I feel distant from the trauma, it was twelve years ago after all. What seems to be clinging onto it is the body.

I don't know if some practitioners come out with that sort of thing to make you feel a little worse so that their treatment makes you feel so much better - and make you more eager to part with your cash.

Yes, I accept that. However, my antennae is finely tuned and I can sense any practitioner who is out to get my cash. In fact, I saw a homeopath just like that! Plus the fact that the pained expression could just be a genuine reaction to what happened.

You're going through a lot at the moment and regardless of how fast you think you're not going you're moving at one helluva lick. You don't know where you're going, you haven't quite come to terms with what changes there are to your consciousness and there's no reference to tell you if you're going fast or slow.

That is so true. Matt did say in one of his videos you don’t look to the outside world to see the results of your work but to the inside.

I’ve had no new symbols, quite thankful really, receiving anything other than aura soma colour combinations feels quite unnatural. I did notice though last week the pyramid which was gold, turned into black and then I seemed to get half of the pyramid black and the other half gold.

After my first Bowen treatment, I had several days of feeling agitated and also towards the end of the week, emotional and a strong wish to be with my father (in spirit).

I had my second session this Friday gone. No new symbols during it, the occasional carnelian sphere during the day. I notice that the emotional stuff has settled and I feel very neutral. So maybe it’s working on an emotional level first, who knows.

I've got ELO downloaded, just haven't had the time to listen to it just yet. And I remember being those lyrics.

Please do let me know what you make of the album, I shall be most interested.

Patrycia

Greenslade

26-11-2017, 04:24 PM

Given that all this has been going on since June 2016, ‘bonkers barmy’ is my new normal.Normal is bonkers barmy.

Christmas for me in recent years has become a different experience from the family gatherings we used to have. Both parents no longer here, I’ll be on my Jack Jones but to be honest, the thing I’m looking forward to the most is four days off in a row!I know a few people who are in the same mood this year, there just doesn't seem to be any real enthusiasm somehow. Even the kids don't seem that excited, strangely enough. I think most people are looking for something this year in particular. We'll still have the commercialism but for most it'll just be going through the motions. Mrs G and I will be having a very much toned-down few days but yes, the highlight is having time off.

For sure, after Heep he did various solo projects. Before getting ‘killer’ I would have a listen to it on Youtube because although it’s Byron’s unmistakable voice, by Heep standards it’s very commercial. I think those Heep songs brought the best out in his voice. There was a heavier album called ‘On the Rocks’ which I believe was the last one he did. So if you didn’t know he had solo albums, there’s an early Christmas gift for you. :hug3:I;m certainly not the fanatical Heep fan that you are, my tastes have always been very wide and varied depending on the mood. I've dug out some of my old music and rediscovered Bachman-Turner Overdrive, boy do I have some very happy memories of that one.

You may well be right, I must admit to being somewhat puzzled by the triangles and spheres and I tend to breath a sigh of relief when I get a aura soma bottle. It’s like coming home.

And to a very large degree, that is what’s happening with Matt’s teachings. It’s taken me a week to get through and transcribe The Secret of Spiritual Success. But each sentence seems so profound to me, there’s no way I’m going to remember it all, so as painstaking as it is, I feel it is singularly the most important thing I’m doing right now – plus, it will always be there for me to refer to.

One of things I’m liking is that sometimes he makes reference to a subject he’s covered in an early video and it’s like yes!! I’ve seen that one, I understand! And also, there’s themes that repeat, messages that repeat, that familiarity feels great. The symbols are quite easy if you shift your thinking a tad. The triangles are two relationships working together to make a third; for instance there's you, your trauma and how it's being a catalyst for both divine intervention and your visit to the therapist. Same with your relationship, trhere's a 'third thing' happening and it doesn't matter which one is at the top or bottom. The circle merely encompasses, your sphere of consciousness if you like.

There's a relationship with you and Matt's material, which is catalysing you to put energy into writing it all down so you can remember it. So you have an energy system going on there - you're creating a critical mass. Again it's also about resonating with the material and it being so singularly important is a reflection of what you're resonating with. It's not so much the material itself (I don't think) that's important but the fact that you are resonating with it at that level. You see, regardless of how we perceive the external it's really down to ourselves and how we are internally. The external is merely a reflection.

I have had a brief look at sacred geometry but things like degrees and Fibonacci sequences just sends me straight back to that kid stuck inside an empty classroom.Interestingly the Fibonacci Sequence and that kid in the classroom have a lot in common and both would help you here. It's not about mathematics and classroom stuff, it's about nature and yourself. You did know that much of your body and face correspond to the Golden Mean of the Fibonacci Sequence?

Our Paths are not straight lines they are spirals, and while you might think you're back at Square One you can't be, Square One is inside yourself. Often we are taken back to the same place in order to realise greater truths, and that's where you are here - back to the empty classroom, back to the Child Inside. Take the Child Inside by the hand and walk the spiral.

I’ve felt like this for a little while; I feel distant from the trauma, it was twelve years ago after all. What seems to be clinging onto it is the body.Sometimes we can move past things in our heads or in our hearts but there's yet something inside that keeps us going back to that point for some reason. Often there is still something to be discovered there but there is always a reason.

Yes, I accept that. However, my antennae is finely tuned and I can sense any practitioner who is out to get my cash. In fact, I saw a homeopath just like that! Plus the fact that the pained expression could just be a genuine reaction to what happened.The bottom line is that you're getting something from it so the rest is... disposable.

That is so true. Matt did say in one of his videos you don’t look to the outside world to see the results of your work but to the inside.

I’ve had no new symbols, quite thankful really, receiving anything other than aura soma colour combinations feels quite unnatural. I did notice though last week the pyramid which was gold, turned into black and then I seemed to get half of the pyramid black and the other half gold.

After my first Bowen treatment, I had several days of feeling agitated and also towards the end of the week, emotional and a strong wish to be with my father (in spirit).

I had my second session this Friday gone. No new symbols during it, the occasional carnelian sphere during the day. I notice that the emotional stuff has settled and I feel very neutral. So maybe it’s working on an emotional level first, who knows.The Universe is a reflection of you, so if you want your reflection to smile you have to be the one to smile first. The reflection has no option but to follow.

You probably won't get any new symbols for a while because you're not comfortable with what you have right now. Tell you what, on a completely different direction - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3oItpVa9fs
and
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BWWVgfI3Uk

The first one is interesting and the second one is more informative, and although it does say Sacred Geometry it only touches on it. What it all does though is help you understand where you're at now and what you're going through. What's in your consciousness and the energy shifts you're going through is giving you your emotions - which are energy and vibration in motion. Pyramids are built on Sacred Geometry and represent the geodetic centre of the earth - that is you.

Your feeling agitated is a shift in your energies/vibrations, as is your wish to be with your father. It's not unnatural, I've had the same on occasion. It's a reaction, your mind's way of trying to make sense of what's going on. Wanting to be with your father is a reaction to the raising of your vibrations - which is the whole point of the exercise by the way.

The emotional stuff will settle because it's caused by the difference in energy levels between 'old you' and 'new you'. When your consciousness and energies come more into alignment the differences become less - 3D being a dense vibration after all. So yes, 'neutral' is as good a word as any, and with the sphere being you the carellian is quite apt.

Please do let me know what you make of the album, I shall be most interested.

PatryciaIt's quite interesting listen to the album. Lately I've been doing a lot of retrospect and going through so much of my past with a fine tooth comb. And Twilight's been banging around in my skull for the past week so thanks for that. Not!! :smile:

It's really6 strange but there isn't s single track that doesn't reflect me in some way or another, and I know it sound pretentious but it's true. There are so many things going on in here that would sound pretentious but they're happening just the same. But I sit and listen to it and it brings me back to where I was then as though I was still going through it. It's kind of interesting to revisit yourself again, for the first time.

"One thing, all things:
move along and intermingle without distinction
To live in this realization
is to be without anxiety about non-perfection
To live in this faith is the road to non-duality
Because the non-dual is one with the trusting mind
Words !
The Way is beyond language
For in it there is
no yesterday
no tommorrow
no today"

VERSES ON THE FAITH MIND
by Sosan Zenji (Seng-Tsan) - the third Zen Patriarch.
Translated by Ricahard B. Clarke.

dream jo

26-11-2017, 04:28 PM

xmas is 2 mush cormesld thes days it but pepel off it duz
thy hav thgn in widw abt sep
its lk estr thy hav on dsiply soon 31ths dec thy do

Patrycia-Rose

03-12-2017, 09:29 AM

The symbols are quite easy if you shift your thinking a tad. The triangles are two relationships working together to make a third; for instance there's you, your trauma and how it's being a catalyst for both divine intervention and your visit to the therapist. Same with your relationship, trhere's a 'third thing' happening and it doesn't matter which one is at the top or bottom. The circle merely encompasses, your sphere of consciousness if you like.

Well, Mr G, it's been a curious week. No third eye activity during the last week and then on Friday night, the day before my third Bowen Therapy session, I got into bed and with an almost overwhelming strength, I saw an orange pyramid.

There’s an intensity / depth to these colours in the triangle which is hard to put in words. It’s not just a block of colour, it has a dimensional quality to it, as I say it’s hard to describe. When I received the treatment the following day, I saw this orange triangle again. I then saw a red circle within the orange triangle, expanding until the circle touched the insides of the triangle. It then changed to a red triangle with an orange circle. After a further set of manipulations I saw a white circle inside a black triangle and then later a black circle inside a white triangle. I noticed the changes in colour occurred after each manipulation. I also noticed as I looked down from the treatment couch there was a rug with triangle patterns on it.

And just this morning I awoke seeing two pyramids above each other; the top one clear and the bottom one red. I've noticed that these colour combinations are following the Aura soma system there is a clear over red bottle. I've just reminded myself of the qualities of the clear over red bottle and noticed that it is number 55 which numerically seems to suggest great changes are taking place it is also called the Christ bottle and that is my ascended master that I have made a connection with during the ' healing energy' phase.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb55thechrist .html

There's a relationship with you and Matt's material, which is catalysing you to put energy into writing it all down so you can remember it. So you have an energy system going on there - you're creating a critical mass.

This for me has been the most significant occurrence in the last several months and the learning that has come from this. I have heard of a critical mass and understand that this is matter and anti-matter causing an explosion. Please correct me if I have that wrong. And what would a critical mass potentially mean in spiritual terms?

Sometimes we can move past things in our heads or in our hearts but there's yet something inside that keeps us going back to that point for some reason. Often there is still something to be discovered there but there is always a reason.

In the last week, on two consecutive days, I have pulled the “this is your life purpose” oracle card. It does feel to me that certainly for the last 12 years my main focus has been healing from this trauma. There is a part of me that feels it is one, if not the main theme, of my life purpose.

Tell you what, on a completely different direction - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3oItpVa9fs
and
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BWWVgfI3Uk

I've found this fascinating! In fact, I watched it several times. The first thing that struck me was the man introducing the video at 3.06 minutes was sitting with two large circles side by side behind him, just like the first symbol I saw on the Crystal. I have heard before that not all of our DNA strands are activated but I had not seen it so clearly demonstrated how the emotions of fear and love affect our whole genetics and the importance of emotions in cellular upregulation. I felt quite emotional at times watching this and it felt like much of the knowledge and research I've been doing for the last 12 years, is all there together in one place in this video.

I did not know about the solfeggio frequencies appearing in the Bible. But I have heard of the solfeggio frequencies as a few years ago I bought a set of tuning forks. Sound healing is something I have been interested in for a number of years in my endless quest to heal my trauma. I investigated tuning forks and discovered there were many different frequencies such as planetary tuners, ohm, otto tuners, angels tuners and body tuners, weighted and unweighted. I ended up getting a set of chakra tuning forks as although I knew nothing about tuning forks, I knew a lot about chakras.

The statement at 2.25 minutes about keeping people in low vibrational frequencies to enable them to be controlled, I agree with totally as I have reached this conclusion from another angle. My research and knowledge on nutrition, supplements and healing modalities told me that as equally important as the food you eat and the supplements you put into your body, is what you Don’t put into your body and what you avoid such as the toxins and chemicals that we are surrounded by in food, water supply, the air we breathe and the energy that surround us. I have learnt how to avoid this as much as possible, however I have also learnt in the last 6 months not to engage people in conversations about this because they either don't believe the little bits of information I give them or they are completely closed down so I now do not talk to people about this unless they specifically ask or show interest.

I also understood the Fibonacci number sequence and I can see how people can get really enthused about this particularly seeing that sequence reflected in nature.

On the subject of how love energy effects DNA, for me this emphasised the importance of Matt's teachings, particularly the importance of the “I love yous” and being kind to yourself, sending out blessings etc. In fact, this has made me choose the next video of his I will watch which is Love is the Only Answer.

I wondered whether activation of the shutdown DNA strands is the same thing as what Matt refers to as crystalline DNA activation?

I did try and watch a few other videos about sacred geometry but could not find anything that hit the spot!

It's quite interesting listen to the album. Lately I've been doing a lot of retrospect and going through so much of my past with a fine tooth comb. And Twilight's been banging around in my skull for the past week so thanks for that. Not!! :smile:

It's really6 strange but there isn't s single track that doesn't reflect me in some way or another, and I know it sound pretentious but it's true. There are so many things going on in here that would sound pretentious but they're happening just the same. But I sit and listen to it and it brings me back to where I was then as though I was still going through it. It's kind of interesting to revisit yourself again, for the first time.

I’m so glad that you’re getting something from the album. If you like ELO you can’t fail not to like this, there’s such a contrast between the tracks. One of my favourites is Another Heart Breaks.

All those references about returning to the 80s, I so feel that. Wouldn’t it be amazing to go back with the knowledge that we have now!

I saw a documentary about Jeff Lynne a few months back where they were saying his favourite colour is blue. That makes sense when you think about how many times that word occurs, Mr Blue Sky, Midnight Blue, Out of the Blue etc.

"One thing, all things:
move along and intermingle without distinction
To live in this realization
is to be without anxiety about non-perfection
To live in this faith is the road to non-duality
Because the non-dual is one with the trusting mind
Words !
The Way is beyond language
For in it there is
no yesterday
no tomorrow
no today"

Ha! That reminded me of "today is only yesterday's tomorrow!"

Thank you, Mr G for your continued interest and support.
Patrycia

Greenslade

03-12-2017, 02:01 PM

Well, Mr G, it's been a curious week. No third eye activity during the last week and then on Friday night, the day before my third Bowen Therapy session, I got into bed and with an almost overwhelming strength, I saw an orange pyramid.

There’s an intensity / depth to these colours in the triangle which is hard to put in words. It’s not just a block of colour, it has a dimensional quality to it, as I say it’s hard to describe. When I received the treatment the following day, I saw this orange triangle again. I then saw a red circle within the orange triangle, expanding until the circle touched the insides of the triangle. It then changed to a red triangle with an orange circle. After a further set of manipulations I saw a white circle inside a black triangle and then later a black circle inside a white triangle. I noticed the changes in colour occurred after each manipulation. I also noticed as I looked down from the treatment couch there was a rug with triangle patterns on it.

And just this morning I awoke seeing two pyramids above each other; the top one clear and the bottom one red. I've noticed that these colour combinations are following the Aura soma system there is a clear over red bottle. I've just reminded myself of the qualities of the clear over red bottle and noticed that it is number 55 which numerically seems to suggest great changes are taking place it is also called the Christ bottle and that is my ascended master that I have made a connection with during the ' healing energy' phase.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb55thechrist .html

Absolutely bonkers changes with you, eh? There's certainly a massive change in your energies coming off the page, interesting feeling though.

The symbolism is you and in some ways what is yet to come. The colours represent your vibrations, red and orange being very vibrant or 'hot' colours like the radiating sun, Which makes sense.

OK I need to skip to the end so bear with me because I'll come back.

Critical mass. When energy or mass comes together it creates a spin effect or a torsion field, think of a spiral galaxy or a black hole for a visualisation. It happens at the atomic level too, each atom has its own torsion field because it has protons and electrons, a bunch of them combined have a unified (that word is important) torsion field as does your body and so on.

The symbolism. The triangle represents three - Triplex Unity, Trinity.... etc. There is this, there is that and there is both; the relationship between this and that gives you a third - a result. The circle is your sphere of consciousness and it's inside the triangle, so the three of the triangle are 'external forces' surrounding (the circle inside) and working with your consciousness. Spirit and your Ascended Master (although he's one of your Soul Group) coming together to create 'you' as you are right now. There is a creation process going on.

The colours are the vibrations, red and orange are vibrant like the surface of the sun - which is a mass of seething energy - and they're close enough to each other not to make a huge difference. That works with your soma bottle too - and pink is a healing colour. By the way, have you heard of Christ Consciousness? There are very strong parallels between Christ Consciousness, what Matt said about Ascension being about bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness down (technically not accurate but close enough), trinity, threes, Sacred Geometry of the Vesica Pisces (overlapping spheres).

Put all of that together and you're creating a critical mass of consciousness/energy that creates a torsion field. By the way, you need to look closer at your therapist.

This for me has been the most significant occurrence in the last several months and the learning that has come from this. I have heard of a critical mass and understand that this is matter and anti-matter causing an explosion. Please correct me if I have that wrong. And what would a critical mass potentially mean in spiritual terms? Seeing as how we've covered this already.... I had to put all that stuff together earlier, sorry - they're all pieces of the same puzzle. Anyway, a bit more detail about torsion fields in general might help. What happens is that - as said above - the energy/consciousness 'mass' creates a torsion field or a spin like a galaxy or a black hole. All matter is energy and all energy masses spin, but most of the time it's hardly noticeable. What happens though is that there comes a time when enough energy/consciousness mass gathers that it 'jumps' to the next level. So, at the moment your consciousness is on the third dimension (just keeping it simple for now) but you're gathering all this extra energy and consciousness - helped by your healing - and it's creating a critical mass. What will happen is that it'll hit a certain 'amount' then punch its way out into the next level. An explosion if you like, of your consciousness out of the 3d consciousness. More accurately, if 3D consciousness was a glass sphere your nose would be pressing against it very hard and you'd be getting shadowy glimpses of what lies beyond.

In the last week, on two consecutive days, I have pulled the “this is your life purpose” oracle card. It does feel to me that certainly for the last 12 years my main focus has been healing from this trauma. There is a part of me that feels it is one, if not the main theme, of my life purpose.To put it simply you are your Life's Purpose because it really is all about you and not trying to reach some external goal that someone else has told you to reach. If it feels like that to you then yes, it's a part of your Life's Purpose. But don't forget that if that's how you feel then feeling it at all is significant.

I've found this fascinating! In fact, I watched it several times. The first thing that struck me was the man introducing the video at 3.06 minutes was sitting with two large circles side by side behind him, just like the first symbol I saw on the Crystal. I have heard before that not all of our DNA strands are activated but I had not seen it so clearly demonstrated how the emotions of fear and love affect our whole genetics and the importance of emotions in cellular upregulation. I felt quite emotional at times watching this and it felt like much of the knowledge and research I've been doing for the last 12 years, is all there together in one place in this video.

I did not know about the solfeggio frequencies appearing in the Bible. But I have heard of the solfeggio frequencies as a few years ago I bought a set of tuning forks. Sound healing is something I have been interested in for a number of years in my endless quest to heal my trauma. I investigated tuning forks and discovered there were many different frequencies such as planetary tuners, ohm, otto tuners, angels tuners and body tuners, weighted and unweighted. I ended up getting a set of chakra tuning forks as although I knew nothing about tuning forks, I knew a lot about chakras.

The statement at 2.25 minutes about keeping people in low vibrational frequencies to enable them to be controlled, I agree with totally as I have reached this conclusion from another angle. My research and knowledge on nutrition, supplements and healing modalities told me that as equally important as the food you eat and the supplements you put into your body, is what you Don’t put into your body and what you avoid such as the toxins and chemicals that we are surrounded by in food, water supply, the air we breathe and the energy that surround us. I have learnt how to avoid this as much as possible, however I have also learnt in the last 6 months not to engage people in conversations about this because they either don't believe the little bits of information I give them or they are completely closed down so I now do not talk to people about this unless they specifically ask or show interest.

I also understood the Fibonacci number sequence and I can see how people can get really enthused about this particularly seeing that sequence reflected in nature.

On the subject of how love energy effects DNA, for me this emphasised the importance of Matt's teachings, particularly the importance of the “I love yous” and being kind to yourself, sending out blessings etc. In fact, this has made me choose the next video of his I will watch which is Love is the Only Answer.

I wondered whether activation of the shutdown DNA strands is the same thing as what Matt refers to as crystalline DNA activation?

I did try and watch a few other videos about sacred geometry but could not find anything that hit the spot.There's some pretty bonkers stuff in here, but to kind of tie it all together....

Matsuru Emoto did a lot ground-breaking research on consciousness imprinting water and the patterns it creates - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAvzsjcBtx8
Now, considering we are walking, talking bags of water it makes you wonder what's going on - and it all leads back to your trauma. No not all of our DNA is activated but if it was and we were capable of all of the things that we're supposed to be? We can't even agree to disagree sometimes, and if our DNA was collective consciousness activated? Or we could use telepathy, superpowers.....??? So, is there a link between DNA and consciousness? There's a lot of what's called 'junk' DNA - or is that potential? It's also been said that our DNA has cellular memory, that we have the memories of our ancestors.

While we're here, we are carbon-based life forms. Crystal is a more complex form of carbon.

There's an old saying that comes to mind that used to go around in a forum I used to belong to - "Be Love, Beloved." So when you Love yourself Unconditionally, where does that put healing? Or is the need to heal a reflection of the need to Love yourself Unconditionally? If you put all that together - activating DNA, your changing frequencies, imprinting consciousness... - where does your trauma fit into this picture?

Solfreggio frequencies have been around for a long time, and while most think the Bible is just religious stuff it's actually a lot of hidden wisdom if you know how to read it. They knew about Sacred Geometry and much of Christianity has been borrowed from other belief systems, much of Jesus' teachings were not Christian but Gnostic and he is supposed to have been a Nazorean Essene.

The musical scale has its roots in geometry, the Platonic Solids and the Fibonacci Sequence and the Solfreggio Tones are tones which have a special sonic and and mathematical significance which many of the ancients knew about.

It can be emotional when you come to these realisations, when you and the Universe aren't butting heads any more. Emotions are energy in motion so it all goes around - so many pieces to this puzzle.

As a bit of a moving on from your tuning forks, check out "432 music" on Yotube then stick the headphones on and sit back. It's quite nice but watch out for the 528 because it's really trippy. There are also chakra and DNA activation tones too.

There's a lot of misinformation out there if not scare-mongering and people have been fed it for so long they don't know what to believe, the world and his cat have a lot to say about what kills you and there's plenty of it. I try to eat as best I can under the circumstances but I wonder if it gets to the point of being paranoid because there are limits as to what you can avoid. I think for most people the 'you are what you eat' is enough.

Fibonacci is also in your face - literally - and in your body. And the music you listen too. Oh, and don't forget your torsion field too. But it's kinda nice when these things come into some kind of harmony because it makes you feel as though you're a part of something bigger and better than yourself.

What Matsuru Emoto did was study the crystalline structure of water that had been imprinted by consciousness, and there are any number of images if you want some to look at but harmonic consciousness structures were always geometric patterns. And the geometric patterns in DNA??
https://d2gne97vdumgn3.cloudfront.net/api/file/rNkV6kV1SNWWFcCAWXiS

If you've watched the Matsuru Emoto YouTube then you'll understand what Matt refers to as crystalline DNA activation.

I’m so glad that you’re getting something from the album. If you like ELO you can’t fail not to like this, there’s such a contrast between the tracks. One of my favourites is Another Heart Breaks.

All those references about returning to the 80s, I so feel that. Wouldn’t it be amazing to go back with the knowledge that we have now!

I saw a documentary about Jeff Lynne a few months back where they were saying his favourite colour is blue. That makes sense when you think about how many times that word occurs, Mr Blue Sky, Midnight Blue, Out of the Blue etc.To be honest I'd though I was done with music narrating my Life and what was going on inside it. At the time I didn't realise how much synchronicity was going on with what I was listening to and what I was going through, but was what often difficult to cope with is dealing with memories when things went sideways or with very emotional memories. If I could have gone back with what I know now I would have told myself that there were things yet to be realised in there. There again, there's something special in nostalgia right now and if I could have gone back I wouldn't have told. It feels right to keep it for this time somehow.

Yeah, there's something comforting about blue somehow, perhaps it's the healing properties. I always thought Geoff Lynne was 'one of us', there was this kind of resonance with him. Maybe one day.

Ha! That reminded me of "today is only yesterday's tomorrow!"

Thank you, Mr G for your continued interest and support.
PatryciaNever thought of that but yes, it is reminiscent after all. I found a lot of Heep stuff quite Spiritual then although at the time I didn't know the word existed. The future does have its price and in some ways it's why I'm glad we have a linear existence, if I could go back with what I know now and know that there was a whole lot of hurt to come? How do you tell that to a 'past me'? If 'past me' knew would it still be willing to pay the price?

Suddenly the whole Universe makes sense.

As always, Patrycia, you are most welcome. Feeling alone isn't a nice feeling at all and knowing that even just one person knows makes a huge difference. And when you've been there you know why you did it the way you did, and it's all worth it.

When I was younger I was a very angry young man, and was advised to take up judo to get it out of my system. One night I was feeling particularly down and picked a fight with someone I should have left well alone. Of course I came off the worst and landed with a clatter, and it jarred my hip so badly it hurt for a few days. Many years later I had it X-rayed and was told there is a lot of wear and tear. It's been playing up recently, as if coming back to remind me as part of the nostalgia. During these past few weeks though it hasn't been quite so bad, still there but not so much of a major aggravation and having to be very mindful of how I move.

If I hadn't been there I wouldn't have been here.

Patrycia-Rose

10-12-2017, 10:20 AM

By the way, you need to look closer at your therapist.

Mr G, this is really so important. Please can you tell me what you mean by this?

It's also been said that our DNA has cellular memory, that we have the memories of our ancestors.

Not only do we have the memories of our ancestors but we also have physical traits. Have you ever heard of a miasm? This can mutate as it comes down through the generations. I can see this in the my family, passed down from my grandfather to my father and to me.

As a bit of a moving on from your tuning forks, check out "432 music" on Yotube then stick the headphones on and sit back. It's quite nice but watch out for the 528 because it's really trippy. There are also chakra and DNA activation tones too.

I have listened to many of these Hz frequencies on YouTube. There was a particular 528 Hz which really made an impact when I first heard it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqaHNVgFTv4

You recall in an earlier post you said that things were going to get “more barmy”. Well, they have. It's difficult to know where to begin and I'm not thinking too straight at the moment.

After my Bowen session last Saturday, I awoke the following morning with what felt like a personality transplant! It is very difficult to describe it but for the whole week I felt that I did not care about anything, in a really extreme way. Except there were two occasions, one at home, one at work where I had an emotional meltdown in response to stressful situations which is most unlike me. There was virtually no third Eye activity during this time. I also felt strongly that this “spiritual stuff” was a complete waste of time and all these symbols are meaningless. After all, nothing has changed on a physical level.

I had a further session yesterday morning and immediately that feeling of not caring went instantly, thankfully. On the Friday night and during the session I saw two pyramids side by side, one pink, one turquoise. Unlike previous sizes they were small in comparison. In the Aura soma system pink over turquoise is the Birth of Venus. Meaningful or not meaningful, who knows?

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb34birthofve nus.html

So this morning, I feel the need to be still and quiet. I've been banned from running for the time being as the therapist believes my body is working very hard. I could not run anyway right now.

Interestingly, I am once again seeing the black and white crystal spheres I saw some time ago. And it has occurred to me this morning looking back on my experiences so far with the Bowen Therapy I think the black and white is me oscillating between two extremes. I'll try to explain what I mean. On the very first session, afterwards I felt several days of agitation followed by several days of being emotional and tearful. Many of the colours I have been seeing such as black and white, pink and turquoise, are balancing and Bowen Therapy is about rebalancing the system. There is a marked contrast between the left, feminine, side of my body and the right, masculine. And last week's not caring about anything and now today the need to be quiet and still, I think is a reflection of me oscillating between two extremes. Even my music is reflecting this. Last week it was Uriah Heep, Status Quo, heavy, angry music. Since yesterday morning I've dug out two Clannad CDs I haven’t listened to in years and Enya, and this seems to fit the bill perfectly. It seems to me, it’s all about yin yang, left right, black white, balanced unbalanced. This is all hypothetical but this is how it feels.

I've also been receiving some quite complex number sequences. Such as 134234, waking at 12.34.

The other development, which I find curious/a little upsetting, I have completely lost connection to Matt’s teachings. I haven’t watched any new videos, nor do I feel the need. I remember it all but I can't connect with it in the way I was. It all seems “not where I am”. I know that does not make sense, but right now my feelings are all there is to guide me.

I am in a very strange place right now, Uncharted territory, in a boat, on my own, trying to navigate choppy waters, with no compass to guide me, no lights in the distance.

I have decided that I am going to stop sessions for the time being and see what happens when all of this settles and just hope I’m still there at the end of it.

But there is a possible twist depending upon your reply about the therapist (please do PM me if more appropriate).

On a positive note, I think, I had a curious card selection this morning. From the Psychic Tarot I had ‘partnerships and alliances’. From the Healing with the Fairies ‘awakening to your true self’ and from Earth Wisdom ‘Heal Thyself.’

Patrycia

Greenslade

10-12-2017, 01:12 PM

Mr G, this is really so important. Please can you tell me what you mean by this?Don't panic, but it's something that I'm 'passing on'. Very often we're reincarnated with the same Souls over and over again, sometimes we remember but more often than not we don't. What can be frustrating is when one remembers and the other doesn't. Are you sensing anything from your therapist other than just him/her being a therapist? It doesn't matter if you don't, for now it's OK to 'see through different eyes' as it were.

Not only do we have the memories of our ancestors but we also have physical traits. Have you ever heard of a miasm? This can mutate as it comes down through the generations. I can see this in the my family, passed down from my grandfather to my father and to me.Yeah, there's a lot that's passed on via genetics. My grandmother told me when I was a kid that having a bad chest was something that had been handed down through the generations to her and then to me.

I have listened to many of these Hz frequencies on YouTube. There was a particular 528 Hz which really made an impact when I first heard it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqaHNVgFTv4
I'm a little bit wary of them sometimes because they can get quite trippy but this one's a little 'calmer' than most so I'll have a listen later.

You recall in an earlier post you said that things were going to get “more barmy”. Well, they have. It's difficult to know where to begin and I'm not thinking too straight at the moment.

After my Bowen session last Saturday, I awoke the following morning with what felt like a personality transplant! It is very difficult to describe it but for the whole week I felt that I did not care about anything, in a really extreme way. Except there were two occasions, one at home, one at work where I had an emotional meltdown in response to stressful situations which is most unlike me. There was virtually no third Eye activity during this time. I also felt strongly that this “spiritual stuff” was a complete waste of time and all these symbols are meaningless. After all, nothing has changed on a physical level.

I had a further session yesterday morning and immediately that feeling of not caring went instantly, thankfully. On the Friday night and during the session I saw two pyramids side by side, one pink, one turquoise. Unlike previous sizes they were small in comparison. In the Aura soma system pink over turquoise is the Birth of Venus. Meaningful or not meaningful, who knows?

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb34birthofve nus.html

So this morning, I feel the need to be still and quiet. I've been banned from running for the time being as the therapist believes my body is working very hard. I could not run anyway right now.

Interestingly, I am once again seeing the black and white crystal spheres I saw some time ago. And it has occurred to me this morning looking back on my experiences so far with the Bowen Therapy I think the black and white is me oscillating between two extremes. I'll try to explain what I mean. On the very first session, afterwards I felt several days of agitation followed by several days of being emotional and tearful. Many of the colours I have been seeing such as black and white, pink and turquoise, are balancing and Bowen Therapy is about rebalancing the system. There is a marked contrast between the left, feminine, side of my body and the right, masculine. And last week's not caring about anything and now today the need to be quiet and still, I think is a reflection of me oscillating between two extremes. Even my music is reflecting this. Last week it was Uriah Heep, Status Quo, heavy, angry music. Since yesterday morning I've dug out two Clannad CDs I haven’t listened to in years and Enya, and this seems to fit the bill perfectly. It seems to me, it’s all about yin yang, left right, black white, balanced unbalanced. This is all hypothetical but this is how it feels.

I've also been receiving some quite complex number sequences. Such as 134234, waking at 12.34.

The other development, which I find curious/a little upsetting, I have completely lost connection to Matt’s teachings. I haven’t watched any new videos, nor do I feel the need. I remember it all but I can't connect with it in the way I was. It all seems “not where I am”. I know that does not make sense, but right now my feelings are all there is to guide me.

I am in a very strange place right now, Uncharted territory, in a boat, on my own, trying to navigate choppy waters, with no compass to guide me, no lights in the distance.

I have decided that I am going to stop sessions for the time being and see what happens when all of this settles and just hope I’m still there at the end of it.

But there is a possible twist depending upon your reply about the therapist (please do PM me if more appropriate).

On a positive note, I think, I had a curious card selection this morning. From the Psychic Tarot I had ‘partnerships and alliances’. From the Healing with the Fairies ‘awakening to your true self’ and from Earth Wisdom ‘Heal Thyself.’

PatryciaI'm going to reply to this part back-to-front because it'll explain what's going on. If you think about radio or TV channels, there's a lot of them all happening on one band but you only tune into one at a time, and the rest you don't know about. This is what's happening with you and Matt's vids - you're tuning out of that phase with them that you don't need them any more. It's not strange, it's quite natural and right when you think about it. Matt's vids gave you something you needed at that time - at that time - but this is no longer that time. What you need to develop/focus on is yourself and internal stimuli - the yin/yang if you're going to balance. Matt's vids are external teachings and you were ingesting them, they were external. What you need to concentrate more on now is the internal. If this is how it feels then this is how it feels and there's no hypothetical about it.

The extremes you're fighting against aren't the extremes you thought they were - the extremes that are causing you the anguish are the extremes of feeling versus mind/logic. Alan Watts says that when we lose our minds we come to our senses and this is where you're heading - it's uncharted territory for the mind that thinks it needs a chart. Your True Self has the chart, it's sitting happily on a satellite having a quiet titter at you while you're floundering about bouncing off trees in the valley because you can't see around the next bend.

Chart the territory, navigate the waters but un-choppy them, and you are al the compass you need. You have all you need and if you don't have it you don't need it, it's that simple. If all you have is you, you is all you need. Things don't happen to us, they happen because of us and that's a realisation that's worth thinking about. "Give me a tall ship, and a star to steer her by." Yeah I know, that's damned scary territory for you but welcome to my world.

It makes perfect sense, your feelings are all you need to guide you right now. What it doesn't make sense to is your ego - and I'm not giving your ego any bad press by the way. The ego is simply a sense of self in whatever shape or form that is - a sense of "I Am" as Jung put it. Your sense of "I Am" is very much changing.

You'll be there at the end of it regardless, but the big question is what kind of 'you' will you be??? This is happening because of you, because of who you are and where you're going. Life's Purpose if you like, Karmic Obligations etc... We're going to get there either because of or despite ourselves so you have two choices kiddo, you can accept your fate and enjoy the ride or you can kick and scream until you're blue in the face but the result is the same.

Your reality is defined by your perceptions, your perceptions are defined by your beliefs and your beliefs are defined by your definitions. You're defining your experiences as extremes, black-and-white..... Hypothetical.... You could just as easily define them as necessary, interesting, peaking and not oscillating... The head-centric Spirituality has been your peak for a long time but now the heart-centred stuff is coming through, which is emotional energy. And remember energy is a wave, so when you visulaise that it makes more sense. You're not swinging between extremes your energies are peaking - and it's not about positive and negative neither because those are polarised. Go with the flow.

What does your intuition/instincts say about the therapy sessions? Your mind/ego will rebel against this because what's happening is both major change and territory where it feels as though it hasn't had any control, where nothing makes sense. In that respect your ego is like a lost child, scared of what's going on - and yeah I know how it sounds but sometimes talking about it in this way helps. If you 'train your brain' to be more observant and less reactive it might help your situation, because what you're dealing with is more of a knee-jerk reaction. Tell your brain - literally - to shut up, sit down and take notes.

You'll have to see how the twist with the therapist works out for yourself because that's what this is all about, all I can say for now is that he/she is there for you and this experience whatever transpires. Essentially your therapist is there for you to have this experience in whatever shape or form it takes, and the important thing to note is that there are no rights nor wrongs here. We can talk again afterwards but for now I'm being stone-walled so you're very much on your own. Sorry.

Your cards make perfect sense. By the way, you did know Sacred Geometry is at play here? Partnerships and alliances are what's happening right now with your healing and understanding - obviously. The "Awakening to your True Self" is what's happening, which is your uncharted territory - there's no chart because you haven't created one. And you're the only one that can heal yourself because while physical hurts can be fixed, what's inside not so much.

Do yourself a favour and drop the positive and negative, it's polarised thinking and as a being of energy polarised you ain't. If it's not 'this' versus 'that' there's no need to balance the two, if there's just what there is in the moment understanding comes and you can be more in tune with it - and yourself. Energy peaks and troughs but it moves on regardless. Your agitation and your heightened emotions are indicators that your energies have changed, and the extremes are the levels ate which you have them. If your emotions are very high, that means your energy levels are. Similarly with agitation, it's a sign of the changes and not being used to what's going on. When things settle down again you'll become used to them and the agitation will disappear.

Heavy, angry music is low (not necessarily 'bad') vibration while Clannad and Enya especially are very harmonic and very complex. It's also worth noting that it's ancient Pagan-inspired music from the land of the Tuatha de Danaan, or the Children of Diana from ancient Irish mythology.

While we're doing the music bit there's a lyric that comes to mind.
"You ain't seen nuthin yet,
B-b-b-b-baby you just ain't seen nuthin yet."
Bachman Turner Overdrive.

Any loving is good loving so take what you can get, even though it comes in a helluvva whacked out package.

Patrycia-Rose

17-12-2017, 09:35 AM

Don't panic, but it's something that I'm 'passing on'. Very often we're reincarnated with the same Souls over and over again, sometimes we remember but more often than not we don't. What can be frustrating is when one remembers and the other doesn't. Are you sensing anything from your therapist other than just him/her being a therapist? It doesn't matter if you don't, for now it's OK to 'see through different eyes' as it were.

Thank you, Mr G. I thought you were going to say be wary or similar. I had an experience years ago with a reiki therapist whereby she was hijacked by a spiritual energy and drained my heart chakra energy. It took many months to find a solution which eventually turned out to by some healing with a medium using crystals and fortunately it was returned. A very distressing experience and not an experience I’m wishing to repeat. I’m very aware that when you go to therapists you’re merging energies, aura energy etc.

So the twist to the situation is that when I went for my last session, I believed that was going to be the last appointment. Now, back in January when I went to see a medium, he gave me a name in connection with recovering from the trauma symptoms. I recall googling the name with various healing methods and came up with nothing. So I pretty much forgot about it. Then when I started going to Bowen, one of the names of the therapist was correct but the other wasn’t. So I thought medium got it partially right but on this last session (as I had nothing to lose) I asked about a middle name. Turned out that wasn’t right but as an explanation as to why I was asking I said I don’t know if you believe in this sort of thing but was told by a medium .....” etc. That gave her the green light to reveal she was also a spiritual healer and would I be interested in trying that. None of that would have come about if I hadn’t queried the name because only part of it was right. So I’m going to start spiritual healing in January. That’s true spiritual synchronicity.

This is what's happening with you and Matt's vids - you're tuning out of that phase with them that you don't need them any more. It's not strange, it's quite natural and right when you think about it. Matt's vids gave you something you needed at that time - at that time - but this is no longer that time.

I think you maybe right. I tried to listen to his new video a few days ago and I wasn’t quite grasping what he was saying, because I don’t think I was fully concentrating but I couldn’t be bothered to rewind and work at understanding. I find it curious, that for the last few months, it’s been really almost my sole focus but now I just don’t feel the need. I remember it all clearly, maybe I was absorbing it at a really deep level and have integrated it. I hope that one day I return but it’s not now.

Your True Self has the chart, it's sitting happily on a satellite having a quiet titter at you while you're floundering about bouncing off trees in the valley because you can't see around the next bend.

Last Sunday, in all the quietness of my mind, that made me laugh out loud which was a welcome sound!

Your sense of "I Am" is very much changing.

I agree with this, it feels now as if I’m on a journey inward. But maybe that would be a lot more scary if it weren’t for the knowledge I’ve picked up through Matt.

Last week, following the last Bowen session, I felt, it is hard to describe, a kind of neutral position. I did not feel angry, depressed, stressed, anxious, but nor did I feel enthusiastic, driven, motivated, or happy. I did feel quite calm and relaxed but this neutral feeling seemed very odd and no third eye activtity at all. Then on Friday night I woke about 1 a.m . and literally was bombarded with many different aura soma bottles, changing every few minutes. I have not seen such a pattern before but I saw clear/purple and purple/clear side by side I also saw B106, B107 and B109. I awoke the following morning and instantly felt that my drive and motivation has returned I felt my normal self again. In fact, the experience of being neutral (I didn’t even have the desire/motivation to run) has given me an appreciation of my enthusiasm and drive.

Your cards make perfect sense. By the way, you did know Sacred Geometry is at play here? Partnerships and alliances are what's happening right now with your healing and understanding - obviously. The "Awakening to your True Self" is what's happening, which is your uncharted territory - there's no chart because you haven't created one. And you're the only one that can heal yourself because while physical hurts can be fixed, what's inside not so much.

Choosing my daily cards has given me a sense maybe of what’s going on as well as some security. I keep choosing ‘clear the aura’, accelerated motion is another regular one.

Heavy, angry music is low (not necessarily 'bad') vibration while Clannad and Enya especially are very harmonic and very complex. It's also worth noting that it's ancient Pagan-inspired music from the land of the Tuatha de Danaan, or the Children of Diana from ancient Irish mythology.

The Clannad phase has passed for now. In the middle of the week, all I wanted to listen to was George Michael. But last night I was watching the last episode of Ashes to Ashes and the last song was Supertramp Take the Long Way Home and oh lord, I was back at college in 1979. I haven’t listened to that album in almost 20 years but this morning it’s been put onto the MP3 player and my, they don’t make music like this anymore! At the risk of prompting another journey back to the past, do you have that one, Mr G?

akez24

17-12-2017, 11:17 AM

be what you want and dont let exceptions hinder desire. supersede criticism with pleasure and exercise self-love.

jro5139

17-12-2017, 11:42 AM

Does stuff not work out or does stuff work the way it needs to work out rather than how you think it should?

Sorry for the late response, yes stuff works out the way it needs to, thank you for restating that.

I'm thoroughly enjoying this conversation about Sacred Geometry, triangles, pyramids and such! I completely fascinated by Sacred Geometry. Although I cannot do math at all! I have a creative/ artistic mind. I do not have a scientific/mathematical mind, I completely agree with what you have said, it isn't about doing math problems (thank goodness).
My understanding of pyramids is that they harness energy and move it along, hence why they are build at certain alignments. They are extremely powerful in moving energy.

I am amazed at how the right people with the right messages for me at the time are coming, and I sit back more and let the messages come to me than go looking for them. Also the synchronicities I get with videos I watch. For example, I watched a video about change, and before I put the video on I saw the word "change" 4 times. Or I was watching a video about tarot and playing with my tarot cards, and I pulled out a card and the video said the same card at the same time. And the numbers still are coming constantly.

Interesting what you guys said about Christmas, since I have learned the symbolism behind a lot of stuff with it and what a lot of it really means I find I am not much interested in it anymore. I only put up my tree for my kids, I don't much care about it. And since having kids, I just find Christmas to be a big expense that I have to do every year lol. I know, I know I don't really "have to" but my kids are old enough to expect what they have gotten all along. If I could go back, I would do the one present thing. My daughter stopped believing in Santa this year and so yes, she is not as excited as previous years.

My Ascension symptoms are mostly gone, except the ringing and buzzing. I have noticed when I meditate is goes away a lot, but right now I don't have the time to meditate like I want to.

Greenslade

17-12-2017, 12:41 PM

Thank you, Mr G. I thought you were going to say be wary or similar. I had an experience years ago with a reiki therapist whereby she was hijacked by a spiritual energy and drained my heart chakra energy. It took many months to find a solution which eventually turned out to by some healing with a medium using crystals and fortunately it was returned. A very distressing experience and not an experience I’m wishing to repeat. I’m very aware that when you go to therapists you’re merging energies, aura energy etc.

So the twist to the situation is that when I went for my last session, I believed that was going to be the last appointment. Now, back in January when I went to see a medium, he gave me a name in connection with recovering from the trauma symptoms. I recall googling the name with various healing methods and came up with nothing. So I pretty much forgot about it. Then when I started going to Bowen, one of the names of the therapist was correct but the other wasn’t. So I thought medium got it partially right but on this last session (as I had nothing to lose) I asked about a middle name. Turned out that wasn’t right but as an explanation as to why I was asking I said I don’t know if you believe in this sort of thing but was told by a medium .....” etc. That gave her the green light to reveal she was also a spiritual healer and would I be interested in trying that. None of that would have come about if I hadn’t queried the name because only part of it was right. So I’m going to start spiritual healing in January. That’s true spiritual synchronicity. You're very welcome, Patrycia.

This part and the next are kind of interlinked, they're different pieces of the same thing - and it's all a part of the ascension process. Your core frequencies have changed so you're vibrating on a different level, and while you may not feel as though you're a being of Love and Light just yet you're certainly heading that way. The synchronicities are a 'sign' that the external world and you are tuning into each other, and what will happen is your whole experience of reality will change. You'll still feel very much like the 'you' you've always felt like but you're experience will be very different - if it isn't already.

So yes, merging energies and all that, and although it happens all the time more so than with therapists. Therapists energies are higher frequency than most people's because they are healers - and Spiritual healers more so again. And of course you're going to start yours in January, the New Year and all that. The Winter Solstice is on the 21st of December this year and the sun rises on the same spot on the horizon for three days, the only time of year it does that. That's why Jesus was born on Christmas day. But anyway, there will be a change in energies in 2018 that some people will notice while the majority won't. Just to add to the synchronicity.

You're going to be meeting people who are 'just like you' and I;m not going to say any more because it won't make any sense to you just yet. I don't mean people who need healing specifically but you'll feel a certain kind of connection to them. That should be interesting.

I think you maybe right. I tried to listen to his new video a few days ago and I wasn’t quite grasping what he was saying, because I don’t think I was fully concentrating but I couldn’t be bothered to rewind and work at understanding. I find it curious, that for the last few months, it’s been really almost my sole focus but now I just don’t feel the need. I remember it all clearly, maybe I was absorbing it at a really deep level and have integrated it. I hope that one day I return but it’s not now. You're a very polarised all-or-nothing kinda gal, suck every last word down one day and blow it all into the wind the next. And a very tight focus it's been too. If you do go back to it then try being reflective with it rather than enamoured of it, after all your Universe is a reflection of you.

Last Sunday, in all the quietness of my mind, that made me laugh out loud which was a welcome sound! You need to laugh more. We're going to get there either because of or despite ourselves, and if Spirituality is to be believed we already are - hell it's where we come from after all. Allegedly at least. It's OK to cut yourself some slack.

I agree with this, it feels now as if I’m on a journey inward. But maybe that would be a lot more scary if it weren’t for the knowledge I’ve picked up through Matt.

Last week, following the last Bowen session, I felt, it is hard to describe, a kind of neutral position. I did not feel angry, depressed, stressed, anxious, but nor did I feel enthusiastic, driven, motivated, or happy. I did feel quite calm and relaxed but this neutral feeling seemed very odd and no third eye activtity at all. Then on Friday night I woke about 1 a.m . and literally was bombarded with many different aura soma bottles, changing every few minutes. I have not seen such a pattern before but I saw clear/purple and purple/clear side by side I also saw B106, B107 and B109. I awoke the following morning and instantly felt that my drive and motivation has returned I felt my normal self again. In fact, the experience of being neutral (I didn’t even have the desire/motivation to run) has given me an appreciation of my enthusiasm and drive.You've always been on a Journey inwards and perceiving outwards is a bit like your experiencing the deep neutrality so you can appreciate the enthusiasm. Sacred Geometry by the way, or Triplex Unity if you like. So now you've experienced the deep neutrality and the enthusiasm you can understand why you would experience one in contrast - contrast, not opposition - to the other. The secret word here is 'dichotomy'. There is this, there is that and there is both - overlapping and not set apart. When you encompass that it gives you fourth-dimensional consciousness, and remember that you are always one above in order to perceive the four dimensions so that gives you five. Ascension is about bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness into this plane of existence.

You're not done with Matt's teachings yet but you are done with the googley-eyed student bit. Just injecting a little humour. All of this is happening because of your full-on full-off energies - full-on Matt full-off Matt. With your soma bottles, purple is a very Spiritual colour and your clear is clarity.

Choosing my daily cards has given me a sense maybe of what’s going on as well as some security. I keep choosing ‘clear the aura’, accelerated motion is another regular one. A bit of reassurance that what you're going through has reason and you're not barking mad just yet. There's still time though. It's OK, I do understand and we're all human after all. I sometimes forget the **** I've been through and how it often felt I was flying by the seat of my pants, but all the time I knew my True Self had my back covered.

The Clannad phase has passed for now. In the middle of the week, all I wanted to listen to was George Michael. But last night I was watching the last episode of Ashes to Ashes and the last song was Supertramp Take the Long Way Home and oh lord, I was back at college in 1979. I haven’t listened to that album in almost 20 years but this morning it’s been put onto the MP3 player and my, they don’t make music like this anymore! At the risk of prompting another journey back to the past, do you have that one, Mr G?I don't have any of Supertramp's albums but they were one of the bands that resonated with me very deeply at the time, before I knew of the word 'Spiritual'. Long Way Home was one of the songs that seemed to very much hit the spot emotionally and Spiritually. I guess we can all be Spiritual without knowing that we are. Home was buried deep and that song made me touch it for a few moments, although at the time I didn't understand what was going on.

It's OK to prompt a Journey into the past Patrycia, in fact I thank you for it because right now is the one time I can just appreciate it without the world rushing past. I can look back in Love and affection and not anger, and that snot-nosed little tyke with the skinned knees did OK under the circumstances.

Patrycia-Rose

24-12-2017, 10:32 AM

This part and the next are kind of interlinked, they're different pieces of the same thing - and it's all a part of the ascension process. Your core frequencies have changed so you're vibrating on a different level, and while you may not feel as though you're a being of Love and Light just yet you're certainly heading that way.

I’m assuming I’m still in the ascension process – does it actually ever end? I’m still waiting for the experience of reality to change. In the awakening phase, I did have a few days here and there where I felt a deep connection to nature. How I view the world and interact with people has changed, but that’s down to Matt’s teachings.

You're going to be meeting people who are 'just like you' and I;m not going to say any more because it won't make any sense to you just yet. I don't mean people who need healing specifically but you'll feel a certain kind of connection to them. That should be interesting.

Now that is really quite curious. I recall a medium I saw a year or so ago, said I would be helping people more within five years. I can’t imagine meeting like minded people – it’s extremely rare that I meet someone who is on my wavelength. And, if you hadn’t picked it up already, I thrive in my own company, and find being with other people, draining. Obviously, I have to interact with people at work and this is more than enough social interaction. Solitary confinement is my ideal holiday! It will take something quite monumental to drag me away from my sanctuary.

You're a very polarised all-or-nothing kinda gal, suck every last word down one day and blow it all into the wind the next.

You’re absolutely right! I can get a very intense fascination/interest/need for certain things, whether they be spiritual or practical. If I do something and I get that intense motivation, nothing will stand in my way. It’s what got me out of bed at 6 am last summer to spend all day painting and decorating, it’s what got me through my A level studies, writing, fascination with sound healing, drive to heal myself etc. Whatever it is that I’m doing at that time with the intense energy, I love it, it makes me feel alive, motivated, fulfilled, sense of achievement.

Ascension is about bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness into this plane of existence.

I’m having to try and keep that in mind when I wonder what this is all for. But I could not have done / be doing this on my own without guidance or being taught a new way of looking at life, and that’s what Matt has done for me (really, I can’t thank you enough for bringing him into my orbit!) :hug3:

You're not done with Matt's teachings yet but you are done with the googley-eyed student bit. Just injecting a little humour. All of this is happening because of your full-on full-off energies - full-on Matt full-off Matt. .

Ha! You are so right! I’m very happy to say that it’s all back on! I never had the experience of being a googly eyed student at school or college, so I’m making up for it now! :smile: In fact there’s a brand new video called Awakening True Happiness about not blaming your past, karma, relationships, political system, health and the body etc for your unhappiness and in the absence of blame, healing can take place. This was very timely for me as after my lapse of last week, it felt like a good springboard to continue my studies and learning something new. Plus, there’s a nice lot of humour in this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9ASrrdRad0

These last few days, I’ve been nursing a sore throat, assuming I’ve picked up a cold virus but after several days it’s not developing into a cold or has any other cold symptoms. This is the first cold or illness I’ve had in three years and I’m wondering if all the stuff my body and mind has been processing from the Bowen therapy has maybe triggered this. I’m sure I’ve read somewhere in the ascension or awakening symptoms that illness is the body’s way of shifting stuff quicker.

Anyway, Mr G, I would like to thank you for your support, insight, humour in helping me through this experience and being ‘an ear’ for me. It is much appreciated. I’d like to wish you a good Christmas with your family.

Patrycia

Greenslade

24-12-2017, 12:23 PM

Sorry for the late response, yes stuff works out the way it needs to, thank you for restating that.

I'm thoroughly enjoying this conversation about Sacred Geometry, triangles, pyramids and such! I completely fascinated by Sacred Geometry. Although I cannot do math at all! I have a creative/ artistic mind. I do not have a scientific/mathematical mind, I completely agree with what you have said, it isn't about doing math problems (thank goodness).
My understanding of pyramids is that they harness energy and move it along, hence why they are build at certain alignments. They are extremely powerful in moving energy.

I am amazed at how the right people with the right messages for me at the time are coming, and I sit back more and let the messages come to me than go looking for them. Also the synchronicities I get with videos I watch. For example, I watched a video about change, and before I put the video on I saw the word "change" 4 times. Or I was watching a video about tarot and playing with my tarot cards, and I pulled out a card and the video said the same card at the same time. And the numbers still are coming constantly.

Interesting what you guys said about Christmas, since I have learned the symbolism behind a lot of stuff with it and what a lot of it really means I find I am not much interested in it anymore. I only put up my tree for my kids, I don't much care about it. And since having kids, I just find Christmas to be a big expense that I have to do every year lol. I know, I know I don't really "have to" but my kids are old enough to expect what they have gotten all along. If I could go back, I would do the one present thing. My daughter stopped believing in Santa this year and so yes, she is not as excited as previous years.

My Ascension symptoms are mostly gone, except the ringing and buzzing. I have noticed when I meditate is goes away a lot, but right now I don't have the time to meditate like I want to.Hi JRO, sorry I missed this one along the way somehow.

Sacred Geometry is pretty cool sometimes and often it can be used as a visualisation - for instance this conversation. There the Vesica Pisces as used in Christianity (the fish symbol) and in Egyptian myth in the Eye of Ra. Draw two overlapping circles - your sphere of consciousness and mine - and work out what the third one is. In this case, one plus one equals three. When you understand that you understand the Tree of Life and so much more, especially when everything becomes a relationship with yourself. That's inventive and creative, not numeric.

Pyramids are pretty cool the ones in Egypt are on the geodetic centre of the earth and were built to channel energy, not just with the construction but the Phi ratio and the building materials - and their location and alignment.

There's a lot of synchronicity flying around when you're more in tune with the Universe itself rather than fighting against it, it makes the flow that much easier and takes a lot less energy.

I think that understanding the true origins of Christmas says something about you, that you have an inquiring mind and you're trying to find the truth. It's also much more interesting as well, especially with the Solstice and what happens at that time. We're still not that far away from our ancestors in our thinking, longer days and less darkness means a lot to us no matter how Spiritually evolved we want to think ourselves to be. Luckily my kids are all grown up and have kids of their own, but they're teaching their kids that it's not all about money. No it's not the same when they grow up, but then there's always the Child Inside to cater for.

Things have calmed down here too of late - thankfully. Now it's time to enjoy just being instead of trying to keep the head some kind of straight through all the symptoms. A slice of mundane isn't such a bad thing after all.

Greenslade

24-12-2017, 01:22 PM

I’m assuming I’m still in the ascension process – does it actually ever end? I’m still waiting for the experience of reality to change. In the awakening phase, I did have a few days here and there where I felt a deep connection to nature. How I view the world and interact with people has changed, but that’s down to Matt’s teachings.You ARE an ascension process, sometimes though it's very intense and sometimes we need a break before we loose our heads completely. If you feel as though there's a lull, catch your breath. The Universe is a reflection of you so what will happen is that things will happen to reflect back the changes in your perceptions. It's not all down to Matt's teachings, it was going to happen regardless but Matt's teachings helped you understand. Don't do yourself a disservice though because you chose to change, and that's going back to your triangle/pyramid. You played your part too. Now that how you interact with people has changed how they interact with you will change, and your whole experience will be different. This is the third density, it takes time for it all to work through the system.

Now that is really quite curious. I recall a medium I saw a year or so ago, said I would be helping people more within five years. I can’t imagine meeting like minded people – it’s extremely rare that I meet someone who is on my wavelength. And, if you hadn’t picked it up already, I thrive in my own company, and find being with other people, draining. Obviously, I have to interact with people at work and this is more than enough social interaction. Solitary confinement is my ideal holiday! It will take something quite monumental to drag me away from my sanctuary. You can carry your sanctuary with you. As Desiderata says, you can go quietly amongst the haste and noise, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

Sometimes meeting people on a completely different wavelength can be pretty interesting.

You’re absolutely right! I can get a very intense fascination/interest/need for certain things, whether they be spiritual or practical. If I do something and I get that intense motivation, nothing will stand in my way. It’s what got me out of bed at 6 am last summer to spend all day painting and decorating, it’s what got me through my A level studies, writing, fascination with sound healing, drive to heal myself etc. Whatever it is that I’m doing at that time with the intense energy, I love it, it makes me feel alive, motivated, fulfilled, sense of achievement.I'm kinda both one and the other at the same time. Normally I;m quite laid back and Mrs G has come to realise that 'in a minute' means any time between now and sometime never, Other times though, when I;m on a mission people either work with me or get the hell out of Dodge.

I’m having to try and keep that in mind when I wonder what this is all for. But I could not have done / be doing this on my own without guidance or being taught a new way of looking at life, and that’s what Matt has done for me (really, I can’t thank you enough for bringing him into my orbit!) :hug3: The Universe brings us what we need when we need it, but also remember that when the pupil is ready the teacher will come. Sometimes in the lull between energetic blasts what we need to do is take a different perspective on learning, take stock and acknowledge what we've been through. Again you've played your own part in all this, and just take a good look at what you're a part of. And you're very welcome, it's certainly been a pleasure. Seeing people grow like this never gets old.
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Ha! You are so right! I’m very happy to say that it’s all back on! I never had the experience of being a googly eyed student at school or college, so I’m making up for it now! :smile: In fact there’s a brand new video called Awakening True Happiness about not blaming your past, karma, relationships, political system, health and the body etc for your unhappiness and in the absence of blame, healing can take place. This was very timely for me as after my lapse of last week, it felt like a good springboard to continue my studies and learning something new. Plus, there’s a nice lot of humour in this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9ASrrdRad0

These last few days, I’ve been nursing a sore throat, assuming I’ve picked up a cold virus but after several days it’s not developing into a cold or has any other cold symptoms. This is the first cold or illness I’ve had in three years and I’m wondering if all the stuff my body and mind has been processing from the Bowen therapy has maybe triggered this. I’m sure I’ve read somewhere in the ascension or awakening symptoms that illness is the body’s way of shifting stuff quicker.

Anyway, Mr G, I would like to thank you for your support, insight, humour in helping me through this experience and being ‘an ear’ for me. It is much appreciated. I’d like to wish you a good Christmas with your family.

PatryciaI'm going to sound terribly big-headed but I'm also past caring of how it sounds and I'm going to acknowledge it anyway because this is 'my thing' - not being able to acknowledge stuff like this. As you know I've been doing some serious digging into my past and regurgitating the hell out of it, but this is the kind of stuff that's coming through. It's about coming to terms with the past and the way it was, and how it's brought us here. "For Auld Lang's Syne" and all that, may indeed "auld acquaintance be forgot".

Usually around this time I'm very emotional for many reasons all at the same time, but this year it's very different. My emotions are off the charts but for a different reason because there's a lot of Love there, not all the dross from yesteryear that usually happens. Happiness is a state of mind for me but what's happening now is a very deep-rooted peace with myself. Yeah I was a snot-nosed kid with hang-ups but y'know, I Love that horrible little **** anyway. Everything feels lighter, better. To be honest I've all but lost any interest in Spirituality and... And it feels as though it's time to move on. It's much more about real Life and what's 'out there'.

As I drive to work I come off a roundabout at the top of a hill, and the whole world opens up in front of me. At the bottom of the hill is the sea and the beach hiding behind the dunes. On the right is miles of open countryside with the small town on the left. As I went to work yesterday the dawn was coming through and a sleepy-eyed sun was struggling to get out of its lazy bed. I stopped in the car park and just stood there watching nature unfold before me. Someone once asked me in the forums, "Can we not simply exist?"

As it happens I've had my eye on that one of Matt's so it's on my list. I just need to pluck up the courage.

It's that time of year when everything is getting us down, and considering the beating your energetic self and your head's been getting of late there's no wonder your body is out of sorts with itself. Be kind to your body and be kind to you, and tell yourself it's OK to feel like a dishcloth that someone has wrung out and thrown in a corner. What did Matt say about the consciousness giving the body time to heal? Sometimes if your head runs faster than your feet you end up on your face.

It's always a pleasure Patrycia, there's something wonderful in being a part of this kind of process. If I could give you jut one Christmas gift, I'd give you that experience for yourself - but there's time yet. You're not as alone as you think you are.

On the winter Solstice the sun stays put on the horizon at dawn for three days before it starts its Journey again. About this time of year there are two very strong forces at work courtesy of the collective unconsciousness - that of darkness and the light - and the Pagans would take this time to celebrate the end of the year's darkness and welcome in the coming Light. Seeing as how you're connecting to nature......

Patrycia-Rose

31-12-2017, 10:50 AM

]You ARE an ascension process, sometimes though it's very intense and sometimes we need a break before we loose our heads completely.

It's gotten very intense this last week. I feel as though I’ve wandered into a nameless wilderness with some extremely weird and very unsettling stuff going on (more about that later).

To be honest I've all but lost any interest in Spirituality and... And it feels as though it's time to move on. It's much more about real Life and what's 'out there'.

I agree with that, that message comes through in Matt’s videos, that’s it’s really about being fully in your life and how you interact with people, how you respond to the adversities that arise and not about following spiritual practices which are part of the old paradigm and are actually holding people back

As I drive to work I come off a roundabout at the top of a hill, and the whole world opens up in front of me. At the bottom of the hill is the sea and the beach hiding behind the dunes. On the right is miles of open countryside with the small town on the left. As I went to work yesterday the dawn was coming through and a sleepy-eyed sun was struggling to get out of its lazy bed. I stopped in the car park and just stood there watching nature unfold before me. Someone once asked me in the forums, "Can we not simply exist?"

I remember occasions like that, particularly once I went to the Chalice Well Gardens and sat under a white blossom tree which was just so beautiful I stopped and stared at it for ages and in that moment nothing else existed except that tree and it’s energy.

As it happens I've had my eye on that one of Matt's so it's on my list. I just need to pluck up the courage.

That's a brand new video, the comments on youtube were only 18 hours old. I stumbled across it while looking for something else and ended up listening to it. Very relevant for me as it's about not blaming the body (or other things) for the cause of unhappiness. I really took this on board.

There has been so much happening on all levels it’s difficult to know where to begin and what to include.

Firstly, this cold I’ve had over Christmas I can’t seem to shake. I’m firmly of the opinion that the Bowen weakened my immune system as this is the first cold/illness I’ve had in over three years. I’ve pulled a few muscles here and there as I’m finding it difficult to get comfortable at night. My stomach’s unsettled, I have a few mouth ulcers and really am generally feeling like I’m about to put myself out to pasture! I can’t believe I’ve gone from relatively fit running 2 or 3 times a week to this physical wreck. How I’ve managed to keep working I don’t know.

I’ve also had some thoughts about overcoming, or not overcoming this trauma. As you know I’ve tried a huge list of healing modalities to cure it and neither symptom has responded or changed in the slightest. And oftenwise I’ve made myself worse such as now. So I feel as though I have little choice but to conclude that this trauma and the results of it, cannot be healed or being healed of it was not part of the plan I created before coming to the earth plane. So my only choice now is to respect the body’s reaction to the trauma and is its way of saying ‘this is what happened and this is how I responded’. This is why I don’t agree that spirit push you as far as you can go, well they pushed me beyond and there’s no going back, as in .......

“How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand... there is no going back. There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold.”

The rather unsettling thing that has happened is that last Wednesday I woke at 3 in the morning and could hear church bells ringing in the distance, like in bell practice when the whole lot are ringing. This went on for about half an hour. I’m confident the bells were in my head (I’m not sure if it’s even legal to ring bells at that time the morning). I did post about it here:

http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/showthread.php?t=119507

It then happened again the following night and I noted the exact time was 3.03 am and stopped at 3.30 am and then started again from 5 – 5.30 am. I’ve absolutely no idea what to make of this. There’s not much that I find unsettling but I find this quite eerie.

Then the other significant thing is that the pyramid activity has picked up again in the last week. I’ve been receiving all different colours and formations, so I decided to do a dowsing session and see if I can join all the pieces together.

So about an hour’s dowsing yesterday confirmed that I’ve received and seen seven different pyramid formations. I wasn’t really getting anywhere with questions as it’s difficult to know what to ask when you know nothing of the subject you’re dowsing on, so I asked for help and saw an apple with the ‘core’ being the important bit. So it transpired that the pyramids are ‘building blocks’ aimed at activating dormant DNA as in ‘DNA activation / light body activation.’ There are 7 stages to activation. The colours All formations work across all 4 bodies (mental, emotional, physical, spiritual). Asked for help and saw an apple, with the core being the important bit. (Digressing slightly, it reminded me of “Life's like an apple with love as the core.”)

The pyramids are ‘building blocks’ aimed at my DNA as in DNA activation / light body activation. The pyramids are activating previously dormant strands. There are 7 stages to activation. The colours I’ve been seeing in the pyramids are designed to cleanse and strengthen the DNA strand before it’s activated and then there’s similar strengthening and other things after it’s activated. I’ve put a document at the end of this post so you can see.

Again, no idea what to make of this. It is a fact that I’ve been receiving into my third eye all these 7 formations all with differring colours. There’s no escaping from that. But whether my dowsing is the correct interpretation I don’t know. It could be accurate or it could be a wild goose chase. I’m so far out of my comfort zone with all this. I guess that it’s happening anyway, whether or not the dowsing interpretation is correct – it just all seems rather fantastical (and I don’t necessarily mean in a good way). I did some searching on the net to see if there is anything that would give some foundation to all this and found these two links:

https://books.google.co.uk/books?id=yHVSCAAAQBAJ&pg=PA371&lpg=PA371&dq=pyramid+with+dna+structure&source=bl&ots=f6sl0mLgJO&sig=sYiKdOcO_0x7VSc05iDzbKpLvZQ&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwj4lPCDyLHYAhXlL8AKHTAlBtEQ6AEIZDAN#v=on epage&q=pyramid%20with%20dna%20structure&f=false

http://www.healingenergytools.com/pyramid-work/

I’m in such a weird place at the moment, struggling to get over this cold, church bells going off, pyramids coming in with different patterns and colours. Despite this I remain firmly grounded and I will not be taken on flights of fantasy no matter how weird it all gets.

Patrycia

Greenslade

01-01-2018, 11:49 AM

It's gotten very intense this last week. I feel as though I’ve wandered into a nameless wilderness with some extremely weird and very unsettling stuff going on (more about that later). The uncharted is always the most interesting.

I agree with that, that message comes through in Matt’s videos, that’s it’s really about being fully in your life and how you interact with people, how you respond to the adversities that arise and not about following spiritual practices which are part of the old paradigm and are actually holding people backYou could take Bruce Lee as your inspiration for that too. I was watching a YouTube of him in the pagoda he fights his way up, and he said that fighting with set routines only makes you predictable. There are no adversities, there are either blessings or curses and which one is what is up to you. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

There's talk of 'wholeness' and 'positivity' but that's only through the lens of Spirituality, and mainstream Spirituality at that. As Einstein said, "Science without Spirituality is lame. Spirituality without science is blind."

I remember occasions like that, particularly once I went to the Chalice Well Gardens and sat under a white blossom tree which was just so beautiful I stopped and stared at it for ages and in that moment nothing else existed except that tree and it’s energy.They don't happen as often as I'd like them to, perhaps it's time to make them but then again if they happened all the time would they be so much of a treat? There are always moments of perfection if we create them.

That's a brand new video, the comments on youtube were only 18 hours old. I stumbled across it while looking for something else and ended up listening to it. Very relevant for me as it's about not blaming the body (or other things) for the cause of unhappiness. I really took this on board.Strangely it's what I've been going through these past few weeks, shedding the things that have been holding me back like so much baggage. It's been a wild ride that's for sure but certainly worth it, and people's reactions to me have been different. At least that's the way I perceive it, but everything has so much more depth.

There has been so much happening on all levels it’s difficult to know where to begin and what to include.

Firstly, this cold I’ve had over Christmas I can’t seem to shake. I’m firmly of the opinion that the Bowen weakened my immune system as this is the first cold/illness I’ve had in over three years. I’ve pulled a few muscles here and there as I’m finding it difficult to get comfortable at night. My stomach’s unsettled, I have a few mouth ulcers and really am generally feeling like I’m about to put myself out to pasture! I can’t believe I’ve gone from relatively fit running 2 or 3 times a week to this physical wreck. How I’ve managed to keep working I don’t know. You are en energetic system and as such there is a finite amount of energy in your system, if you're diverting some to other parts of your body then it's bound to have an effect. What we resist persists, and no it's not nice but try not to let it get you down. And no, I'm not going to do the positivity **** but allow the process and remember that you are going through major energetic and psychological changes. It's part of the destruction/creation process.

I’ve also had some thoughts about overcoming, or not overcoming this trauma. As you know I’ve tried a huge list of healing modalities to cure it and neither symptom has responded or changed in the slightest. And oftenwise I’ve made myself worse such as now. So I feel as though I have little choice but to conclude that this trauma and the results of it, cannot be healed or being healed of it was not part of the plan I created before coming to the earth plane. So my only choice now is to respect the body’s reaction to the trauma and is its way of saying ‘this is what happened and this is how I responded’. This is why I don’t agree that spirit push you as far as you can go, well they pushed me beyond and there’s no going back, as in .......

“How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand... there is no going back. There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold.”This is going back to the question of what you are trying to heal and what are your reasons for doing it. Asking what are your reasons and not why is the revealing question. You could also look at the words you use because they are expressions of your consciousness. You used the word 'overcome'. So, what are the reasons you're trying to overcome this trauma? Because it's gone from 'heal' to 'overcome' and that tells you quite a bit. Now you sound well and truly ticked off and you're trying to just be rid of it once and for all, but it's a part of your existence just the same.

So now you're going down the defeatist route? It either can't be healed or it's Fate, Destiny or you're just stuck with it for all eternity? I can only guess because this stuff is strictly private, but if it has this much significance in your Life then it was likely one of your Karmic Obligations/Soul Agreements, and if it was then it has reasons for its existence.

Sit yourself down and ask yourself how your trauma would feel if it was a person. Then ask yourself what you're doing to a part of yourself. It's your trauma after all, regardless of how it was put there.

If Spirit pushed you then what does that say about Karmic Obligations or Free Will? Spirit has no desire to see you suffer but Spirit does have the desire to see you grow and evolve. No, there is no going back because we can't un-evolve so what do you do? At the very human level you can get on with it as best you can because that's the human Spirit, it's what we humans do. At the highest of Spiritual levels it's what you signed up for so take responsibility and suck it down marine.

“How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand... there is no going back. There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold.”In your Heart of Hearts you find a way forwards because you understand it's the only way you can go. In being Timeless you come to know the things that time cannot heal. You become a "Traveller in Time". The hurts that cannot be left behind are the ones that are meant to be with you, they are a reason to Love yourself unconditionally and accept your imperfections. In that you become perfect in your imperfections because you become harmonious with yourself. You stop fighting with parts of yourself, you stop trying to heal parts of yourself and you stop trying to overcome parts of yourself. You become whole again instead of being the fractured Soul.

Unconditional Love for yourself has two criteria; Loving yourself and still Loving yourself after you have transcended the conditions. If time cannot heal them, if they run to deep then that is an indication of how deep you run. The alternative is facile so you choose.

The rather unsettling thing that has happened is that last Wednesday I woke at 3 in the morning and could hear church bells ringing in the distance, like in bell practice when the whole lot are ringing. This went on for about half an hour. I’m confident the bells were in my head (I’m not sure if it’s even legal to ring bells at that time the morning). I did post about it here:

http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/showthread.php?t=119507

It then happened again the following night and I noted the exact time was 3.03 am and stopped at 3.30 am and then started again from 5 – 5.30 am. I’ve absolutely no idea what to make of this. There’s not much that I find unsettling but I find this quite eerie. If I remember rightly there's a law for pealing bells/making a noise in public after 10pm, similarly with outdoor concerts/events. Now I know you're not religious but..... what do church bells do? Every Sunday? Unless there's an enemy at the gate then church bells call people together. Three is Trinity - Father, Son and Holy Ghost and although Christianity stole it it's still valid. Trinity, three; most every religion has their version including Paganism. Around 3.00am (usually 2.00am - 3.00am but not strictly) is known as the Witching Hour to some because scary things often happen at that time of night. However, it has also to do with sleep cycles that has nothing to do with what time we go to bed but what time of day it is. It's perhaps another throw-back from early hominid days, like being scared of the dark. If you loosen up a little and do a little bit of symbolic it makes perfect sense. And if it's eerie rather than unsettling?

Then the other significant thing is that the pyramid activity has picked up again in the last week. I’ve been receiving all different colours and formations, so I decided to do a dowsing session and see if I can join all the pieces together.

So about an hour’s dowsing yesterday confirmed that I’ve received and seen seven different pyramid formations. I wasn’t really getting anywhere with questions as it’s difficult to know what to ask when you know nothing of the subject you’re dowsing on, so I asked for help and saw an apple with the ‘core’ being the important bit. So it transpired that the pyramids are ‘building blocks’ aimed at activating dormant DNA as in ‘DNA activation / light body activation.’ There are 7 stages to activation. The colours All formations work across all 4 bodies (mental, emotional, physical, spiritual). Asked for help and saw an apple, with the core being the important bit. (Digressing slightly, it reminded me of “Life's like an apple with love as the core.”)

The pyramids are ‘building blocks’ aimed at my DNA as in DNA activation / light body activation. The pyramids are activating previously dormant strands. There are 7 stages to activation. The colours I’ve been seeing in the pyramids are designed to cleanse and strengthen the DNA strand before it’s activated and then there’s similar strengthening and other things after it’s activated. I’ve put a document at the end of this post so you can see.

Again, no idea what to make of this. It is a fact that I’ve been receiving into my third eye all these 7 formations all with differring colours. There’s no escaping from that. But whether my dowsing is the correct interpretation I don’t know. It could be accurate or it could be a wild goose chase. I’m so far out of my comfort zone with all this. I guess that it’s happening anyway, whether or not the dowsing interpretation is correct – it just all seems rather fantastical (and I don’t necessarily mean in a good way). I did some searching on the net to see if there is anything that would give some foundation to all this and found these two links:

https://books.google.co.uk/books?id=yHVSCAAAQBAJ&pg=PA371&lpg=PA371&dq=pyramid+with+dna+structure&source=bl&ots=f6sl0mLgJO&sig=sYiKdOcO_0x7VSc05iDzbKpLvZQ&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwj4lPCDyLHYAhXlL8AKHTAlBtEQ6AEIZDAN#v=on epage&q=pyramid%20with%20dna%20structure&f=false

http://www.healingenergytools.com/pyramid-work/

I’m in such a weird place at the moment, struggling to get over this cold, church bells going off, pyramids coming in with different patterns and colours. Despite this I remain firmly grounded and I will not be taken on flights of fantasy no matter how weird it all gets.

PatryciaIt's not weird at all, it's freaking awesome. Really. Really really.

Going back to the good old Bible (gritted teeth at the ready) the apple was the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge and it was the serpent and Eve that did the damage. Until, that is, you understand the symbolism. Much of the Old Testament is a re-write of the Sumerian Enuma Elish and knowing a little of that helps to understand this bit. The serpent represents two things, one is DNA which the Annunaki were messing around with and God versus the serpent is the Enki/Enlil bit that carries through a lot of the Old Testament, which explains why God is bipolar. Some say that eating the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge is DNA activation - which is what you're looking at, or in man becoming conscious - which is a hail back to Enki/Enlil.

The thing is, if you stick with your dislike of religion you're missing something very important, the part that makes every sense of what's happening. For the moment, your Bible references are the most ancient of wisdom you can go back to, but there is a far more ancient wisdom than the Bible that the Bible is built on. The Bible itself has a history that very much pre-dates Christianity. This is where it's pointing at, that far-ancient history. It's been said that if you don't know where you've come from you don't know where you're going.

There are a lot of stuff that's not really well known about pyramids but I'll try and give you enough info to make sense of this and still try and be as brief as possible. Pyramids the world over are built with the Golden Mean aka Phi Ratio which links with the Fibonacci Sequence. The ratio is 1.618, and your physical body has it too along with much of nature. The pyramids at Giza are situated at the Geodesic centre of the earth and are aligned with the three main Orion stars. They are also on the Becker-Hagens (and for some reason I have to tell you this because you're a part of it) earth grid, a 'grid' of sacred sites and the like that span the globe. If you Google Becker-Hagens you'll get a few maps that show you more, if you get into it then it'll take you into geometry (scary place) and the Platonic Solids.

Now then, we are carbon-based Life forms so that means our molecules have pyramid-looking structures and guess what? We're back to the Phi Ratio in your DNA. Pyramids are not just for activating DNA they ARE DNA - and the rest.

Our DNA has long been associated with Light (as in The Light) but science has found out that our DNA actually does emit light, so the colours you're seeing makes so much sense.

OK, coffee time for you. Catch your breath. Seriously.:hug3:

The Annunaki came to earth to mine for gold as is written about by the Sumerians, and it's also held in African legends where they did the same thing. They called the hominids whose DNA they re-sequenced Adamu. The Annunaki were also called the Els or Shining Ones, who have been referenced by 495 cultures across the globe and history by peoples who would never have had contact with each other. The Annunaki wanted gold, specifically mono-atomic gold because it reinforced their DNA - which is what's going on with your Google books link. They also used their own DNA to create the Adamus and would have passed on some of it when they mated with earth women.

Now then. Rhesus blood is what comes from the Rhesus monkey so if you're Rhesus positive then you're positively from a monkey. Yep, that's me, a nearly grown-up monkey. If you're Rehsus negative then apparently you have Annunaki DNA - apparently but it's not been scientifically verified, probably because of the alien connotations. If you're into that sort of thing.

Science knows that DNA emits Light so using other light frequencies on your DNA makes sense, and the pyramids are your basic building blocks or carbon molecules. DNA activation has been around for a long time so nothing that you're telling me is anything close to being whacked out. So what's the really scary part of all this, that you think you're beginning to sound like a headcase or that all this (apparent) insanity could be real enough?

The question is, what is the question? Are you going bonkers or can this all be actually happening to you? And does the thought of DNA activation give you the willies?:smile:

What are the reasons you're trying to get over the cold? Because it makes you feel like **** and you don't feel as though you're in tip-top condition, and so you'll resist it? You can only Love yourself/feel good about yourself when you're at peak efficiency? What are you resisting and what are the reasons? Or can't you get over yourself having a cold?

What if these things weren't happening TO you but BECAUSE of you? Would these things not be a part of the Life Plan you created before you came here? What if all those links you're giving me are reflections of your consciousness, you telling yourself what's happening inside?

There's something called Cognitive Dissonance that happens in our minds. Basically what happens is that our minds are a certain way, and when something comes along to contradict that it causes waves of dissonance in our minds, like throwing two pebbles into a pond. Like positivism, you feel like **** but you tell yourself you should feel positive only for it to feel even worse. Like thinking that it shouldn't be happening to you but it is anyway. Like Spirit is directing your consciousness in a certain direction but you think it's fantastical if you indulge yourself in it. It all makes perfect sense and yes, even the cold.

Alan Watts says that when we lose our minds we come to our senses. The egoic mind tries to make sense of what's happening but it has its limitations and can't deal with what's happening beyond those limitations. The mind simply can't deal with anything outside of its recorded experience. While the mind says it can't be happening there it is just the same, and it can soon feel as though it's out of its depth. This is the birth of hope and faith, where that 'higher power' comes from. Reasons beyond reason.

"My shoes are too tight, but it does not matter because I have forgotten how to dance."
Londo Molari
Ambassador, Babylon Five.

Of course you did know that while your feet can be firmly planted on the ground you can still take your flights of fancy. Weird is another word for adventure awaiting its birth. Take your shoes off and dance, allow yourself this experience.

So you're looking down on your past self, the young girl swooning over a picture of Uriah Heep and listening to the music, what would you tell your younger self about your present self? "Pin your ears back kiddo, because do I have news for you." If you were already your future self, what would you tell your present self?

Ascension

02-01-2018, 08:11 PM

I am .......

Patrycia-Rose

07-01-2018, 11:03 AM

You are en energetic system and as such there is a finite amount of energy in your system, if you're diverting some to other parts of your body then it's bound to have an effect. What we resist persists, and no it's not nice but try not to let it get you down. And no, I'm not going to do the positivity **** but allow the process and remember that you are going through major energetic and psychological changes. It's part of the destruction/creation process.

Yes, I think that I hadn’t recovered from the Bowen therapy when the virus struck and I’ve still not recovered from that, so the body’s taken a real bashing of late, so I’m being very kind to myself at the moment.

I knew that listening to The End of Inner Conflict would help which is about life being a journey of the body and not of the consciousness/awareness. It’s one of the first of Matt’s videos I listened to and one of the teachings that’s had the most impact. It was so interesting to go full circle back to the beginning. Fully tuned into his words, style and making sense of references to other teachings I just knew that I would have so much more to note down this time round. I’ve been reflecting on that teaching alot. Another one, he was talking about we are a lightbody with little or no density, trying to fit into a physical body. When you think of it like that, it's no wonder the physical journey is such a difficult one.

So now you're going down the defeatist route?

I’m not sure I would call it defeatest to relentlessly research for twelve years nutrition, the health risks of modern life and how to avoid them, undergo ten or more different healing modalities, some of them more than once, to the extent my knowledge is such I’ve healed people where allopathic medicine has failed or not resolved the situation.

I can only be left with the spiritual angle and soul contract. Maybe there’s more to come, maybe there’s not.

If I remember rightly there's a law for pealing bells/making a noise in public after 10pm, similarly with outdoor concerts/events. Now I know you're not religious but..... what do church bells do? Every Sunday? Unless there's an enemy at the gate then church bells call people together.

I’ve since discovered that ringing bells is another ascension symptom, quite a few posts about it on the net. People mention hearing tones/frequencies/chimes/ so why not church bells? I haven’t heard it since.

Now then, we are carbon-based Life forms so that means our molecules have pyramid-looking structures and guess what?

Now that’s interesting. I did try and find evidence of a pyramid structure within the DNA, both through ‘images’ and reading about it but didn’t come up with anything.

Our DNA has long been associated with Light (as in The Light) but science has found out that our DNA actually does emit light, so the colours you're seeing makes so much sense.

I did find that bit; about light in the DNA, so yes the colours make sense. I had at the beginning of the week very intense activity, a lot of 2 pyramids pointing to the left, so according to my dowsing, that means DNA is being charged with the energy to activate.

I also had that formation with for example, a white pyramid with a magenta outline and a magenta pyramid with a white outline. I’ve had a tentative dowse for what this is but haven’t got the answer – but I haven’t felt up to putting too much energy into it. Last several days, it’s all gone quiet, very little if any third eye activity but partially due to not feeling too good, I’ve the sensation of being hollow/empty in the solar. But rather than my usual resisting that and trying to get over it, I’m just being in the emptiness and thinking that “I’m safe enough to feel this emptiness.” Really, that approach is a big change for me.

Now then. Rhesus blood is what comes from the Rhesus monkey so if you're Rhesus positive then you're positively from a monkey.

After a good deal of hunting through paperwork, I found I’m O Positive.

The question is, what is the question? Are you going bonkers or can this all be actually happening to you? And does the thought of DNA activation give you the willies?:smile:

No, it’s not scary, I’m well accustomed to my third eye being filled with stuff and dowsing for what it means. Many years ago, working with spirit through dowsing I created a chakra healing system where I could, through a variety of pendulum movements, see what a chakra was doing (closed, open, anti-clockwise, choppy) and why and then allow the pendulum to move over a chakra to heal. I did this on several people. I can tell so much of a person if I dowse their chakras. Naturally, I always ask permission but the expression on faces when I start describing what they’re suffering from purely from dowsing and that system. So the pyramid formations aren’t really all that unusual for me, it’s just new.

The thought of DNA activation doesn’t alarm me. It’s been evidenced from that video you linked me to that about two thirds of DNA is unactivated so it makes sense that it can be activated at the right time, place, all on an individual basis.

Patrycia

Greenslade

07-01-2018, 03:41 PM

Yes, I think that I hadn’t recovered from the Bowen therapy when the virus struck and I’ve still not recovered from that, so the body’s taken a real bashing of late, so I’m being very kind to myself at the moment.

I knew that listening to The End of Inner Conflict would help which is about life being a journey of the body and not of the consciousness/awareness. It’s one of the first of Matt’s videos I listened to and one of the teachings that’s had the most impact. It was so interesting to go full circle back to the beginning. Fully tuned into his words, style and making sense of references to other teachings I just knew that I would have so much more to note down this time round. I’ve been reflecting on that teaching alot. Another one, he was talking about we are a lightbody with little or no density, trying to fit into a physical body. When you think of it like that, it's no wonder the physical journey is such a difficult one.As a reference, the human body has a frequency between 62 and 68Hz. God's frequency is 938Hz so I suppose the frequency of any Spirit won't be too far behind that - or your Light Body. The figures aren't scientifically verified though, but what it does do is give you a frame of reference. Steam inside a body of ice.

One of the best ways to learn Unconditional Love for yourself is to have conditions to surpass.

I'm not a huge fan of the different bodies because it makes everything a little disjointed, I much prefer Gestalt Reality where there are aspects of the whole because it already comes unified as a whole.

I’m not sure I would call it defeatest to relentlessly research for twelve years nutrition, the health risks of modern life and how to avoid them, undergo ten or more different healing modalities, some of them more than once, to the extent my knowledge is such I’ve healed people where allopathic medicine has failed or not resolved the situation.

I can only be left with the spiritual angle and soul contract. Maybe there’s more to come, maybe there’s not. Defeatist as in there aren't many other places to go because you've been everywhere else, and now all you have is the Spiritual angle. It was always the Spiritual angle. And there's always more to come.

The good thing about banging your head against a brick wall is that it feels good when you stop, and I'm not saying that all the work you've put into research and the like has been banging your head. What it does is it tells you something about yourself in whatever shape or form that takes, there is no particular inherent 'lesson' other than what you learn from it. The Spiritual angle and the Soul Contract is that through your trauma you had those experiences etc. You've healed people where all else has failed as the 'end result' of a long line of cause and effect. It's about your relationship with your trauma, your experiences and where you are now with it.

Sometimes accepting defeat means we can see something other than the battle.

I’ve since discovered that ringing bells is another ascension symptom, quite a few posts about it on the net. People mention hearing tones/frequencies/chimes/ so why not church bells? I haven’t heard it since. Why not church bells indeed? Back in the day music used to be tuned to 432Hz, nowadays it's 440Hz and while the ear can't tell the difference, perception can. Sometimes the mind can hear things in the way that we see things in a dream and have their own meaning. I have continuous tones that sound like tinitus and I know they're perceptive because my hearing was damaged when I was in the RAF (jet noise) and I'm deaf to certain high frequencies. They usually follow shifts where my whole consciousness has been focussed 'up there'. They can be as much symbolism as dreams or visions but basically they mean that you're tuning into those higher vibrations better because they're something you're experiencing, not just thinking or talking about.

Now that’s interesting. I did try and find evidence of a pyramid structure within the DNA, both through ‘images’ and reading about it but didn’t come up with anything. It's in the carbon molecule itself. It's a bit hefty because it goes into Sacred Geometry in detail but skim over if you like because it's a way down the page. However...
https://timothytrespas.wordpress.com/2015/05/26/frequencies-sacred-harmonic-geometry-understanding-resonance-cymatics-and-the-chakras/

I did find that bit; about light in the DNA, so yes the colours make sense. I had at the beginning of the week very intense activity, a lot of 2 pyramids pointing to the left, so according to my dowsing, that means DNA is being charged with the energy to activate.

I also had that formation with for example, a white pyramid with a magenta outline and a magenta pyramid with a white outline. I’ve had a tentative dowse for what this is but haven’t got the answer – but I haven’t felt up to putting too much energy into it. Last several days, it’s all gone quiet, very little if any third eye activity but partially due to not feeling too good, I’ve the sensation of being hollow/empty in the solar. But rather than my usual resisting that and trying to get over it, I’m just being in the emptiness and thinking that “I’m safe enough to feel this emptiness.” Really, that approach is a big change for me. If you don't feel the need to go into the research that's fine, but if you're being shown these things you're being shown them for a reason. So, if you don't feel the need to go into the research that's fine. It's all gone quiet and you don't have to fill the silence or emptiness. You're allowing yourself to feel safe in the emptiness and yes, I do understand how those kind of changes would knock you a little sideways. It takes time to come to terms with a 'new you'. Bit of a change from all that researching or writing down Matt's every last word, eh?

After a good deal of hunting through paperwork, I found I’m O Positive. [quote]Like me then, bog standard blood and not from the sacred line after all.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]No, it’s not scary, I’m well accustomed to my third eye being filled with stuff and dowsing for what it means. Many years ago, working with spirit through dowsing I created a chakra healing system where I could, through a variety of pendulum movements, see what a chakra was doing (closed, open, anti-clockwise, choppy) and why and then allow the pendulum to move over a chakra to heal. I did this on several people. I can tell so much of a person if I dowse their chakras. Naturally, I always ask permission but the expression on faces when I start describing what they’re suffering from purely from dowsing and that system. So the pyramid formations aren’t really all that unusual for me, it’s just new.

The thought of DNA activation doesn’t alarm me. It’s been evidenced from that video you linked me to that about two thirds of DNA is unactivated so it makes sense that it can be activated at the right time, place, all on an individual basis.

PatryciaI've always felt like the square peg in the round hole, out of time and out of place in a world I was in and never of - and never could be. I was at odds with myself and my surroundings on so many levels. It took a few years to become accepting of that and to find a way to get through things in one piece. Now it all makes sense, all of it, and quite frankly I wouldn't have it any other way.

There's a lot of talk about how we are gods in the making, children of the stars and all the rest of it. It's been said that what we are most scared of is becoming greater than even our wildest dreams. DNA activation itself isn't too scary, the scary part is what we'll become. I suppose when we get there it'll feel natural and all the rest of it and we'll know that we're only there because we're ready for it, but just right now? I don't want to lose this feeling.

Patrycia-Rose

14-01-2018, 09:45 AM

One of the best ways to learn Unconditional Love for yourself is to have conditions to surpass.

Yes, I’m beginning to realise that. For me, this links into the whole ‘love yourself’ concept. For years, I’ve focused on the symptom, totally ignoring (not purposely ignoring but by default) the part of the body behind it which has continued to function, albeit not perfectly. So now I’m sending ‘I love yous’ to that part of the body.

Also, the 'you have to love yourself' are just words. You need to know how to do it - that's what Matt has done, show you how to do it and more importantly, why.

'm not a huge fan of the different bodies because it makes everything a little disjointed, I much prefer Gestalt Reality where there are aspects of the whole because it already comes unified as a whole.

Isn’t the lightbody, the same as your spirit/soul??

The good thing about banging your head against a brick wall is that it feels good when you stop, and I'm not saying that all the work you've put into research and the like has been banging your head.

Sometimes accepting defeat means we can see something other than the battle.

Well, I’ve certainly stopped banging my head against the brick wall in terms of trying to fix it. If I had written this as part of my life plan, then as you say, it has a purpose. I’ve learned from it how to look after my body but I would like to think there’s more experiences / learning to come from it because at the moment, I'm not of the view that it's worth it.

Why not church bells indeed? Back in the day music used to be tuned to 432Hz, nowadays it's 440Hz and while the ear can't tell the difference, perception can. Sometimes the mind can hear things in the way that we see things in a dream and have their own meaning. I have continuous tones that sound like tinitus and I know they're perceptive because my hearing was damaged when I was in the RAF (jet noise) and I'm deaf to certain high frequencies. They usually follow shifts where my whole consciousness has been focussed 'up there'. They can be as much symbolism as dreams or visions but basically they mean that you're tuning into those higher vibrations better because they're something you're experiencing, not just thinking or talking about.

This is all rather interesting. I did read something that said hearing bells/chimes is a sign of the veils thinning between the worlds and is also a sign of clair-audience. Also, I have heard just the once last week like a deep sound, and I realised I’ve heard this quite a few times before but not really paid much attention to it and forgot about it. After some research it was the sound you’d get from individual glockenspiel bars.

It's in the carbon molecule itself. It's a bit hefty because it goes into Sacred Geometry in detail but skim over if you like because it's a way down the page. However...
https://timothytrespas.wordpress.com/2015/05/26/frequencies-sacred-harmonic-geometry-understanding-resonance-cymatics-and-the-chakras/

My heart leapt when I saw all those triangles, all different colours, pointing in different directions and the same size as the triangles I’m seeing! Just wow! When I searched for DNA images, I got the spiral image. This last week, I have had a new formation which is two triangles, one above the other, both pointing upwards and both in white. I haven’t dowsed for its meaning, which is pretty amazing for me as in the past, I’d have to know right now! I think with the dowsng I did a few weeks ago which gave me up until that point, the meanings, that was good to have, but it’s not changing what’s going on. It’s happening anyway.

I've always felt like the square peg in the round hole, out of time and out of place in a world I was in and never of - and never could be. I was at odds with myself and my surroundings on so many levels. It took a few years to become accepting of that and to find a way to get through things in one piece. Now it all makes sense, all of it, and quite frankly I wouldn't have it any other way.

I could have written that! Never fitted in, particularly at school which I found so hard. One of the strongest memories I have is sitting on the floor in assembly one morning, about 10 years old, thinking I’m never going to get out of here, I’m always going to be at school, it’s never going to end. I think that’s one of the earliest conscious thinking I had.

Since recovering from this infection, it very much feels like I am back to where I was after the final Bowen session. I suspect it’s been there all along just covered up by the infection. It is a kind of Neutrality which is so difficult to describe. It feels as though I am just existing, present, in a sort of neutral position, hollow but this is not in a negative way whatsoever. It just is. There is no upset, no accepting or resisting it . There are no particular thoughts about anything, it just is for the time being. There's no enthusiasm, excitement, motivation or drive but also there's no depression, sadness, resentment or anger. It feels as though the things I have relied on in the past, my drive, enthusiasm, motivation and running are all offline. My mind is not taken up with endless thoughts cycling, there are no judgements or opinions. It is very peculiar but also quite relaxing. Does any of that make any kind of sense to you?

The neutral position came after feeling quite low and depressed. What’s really helped me through this is Matt’s’ Freedom from Adversity’. I seem to have a knack of choosing the right teaching at the right time. When I saw it in my list of unwatched videos, I thought how come I haven’t been drawn to this before, but I needed it now. I was sort of cringing as I recognised my behaviour towards myself, so clearly in fact. So I was already being kind and gentle to myself in this period, just letting myself feel the emptiness and desolation, and not badgering myself to get over it. But Matt strengthened that this was the right thing to be doing. And then, after days of being low, I don’t know, a combination of little things, walking on an unusually warm and sunny day, hearing the birds singing, using some Lady Nada quintessence, and a good talk to a friend, I suddenly felt my mood lifting, feeling a little more like my usual self and the depression I’d been feeling shifted into just being neutral.

Patrycia

Greenslade

14-01-2018, 02:16 PM

Yes, I’m beginning to realise that. For me, this links into the whole ‘love yourself’ concept. For years, I’ve focused on the symptom, totally ignoring (not purposely ignoring but by default) the part of the body behind it which has continued to function, albeit not perfectly. So now I’m sending ‘I love yous’ to that part of the body.

Also, the 'you have to love yourself' are just words. You need to know how to do it - that's what Matt has done, show you how to do it and more importantly, why. Often there's a gulf between the Spiritual and the practical especially when it comes to this kind of thing. It's the kind of stuff floppy hat-wearing hippies come out with, isn't it? And those frilly dresses are to die for. I came across the term years ago but I was far from ready to receive it, how could I Love myself when..... when I had a long list of reasons not to? I guess we'll get there either because of or despite ourselves, most of mine has been despite but that makes Life interesting. I think the first real beginning was when I was going through some freaky consciousness shifts, and one of them was when I was remembering being a child and feeling some strange energies near me. Then I realised they were my own, it was present 'me' going back to 'see past me'. Yep, it sounds crazy but it's the only explanation I have, short to admitting I'm bonkers.

There's been a lot of nostalgia and changing of priorities, looking at what I feel is important or not. The main thing is that I can follow a chain of cause and effect throughout my Life and I can see the changes I've made to people, some of it going through generations. It's been worth it and for that I can at least see rhyme and reason, and that's opened the door for self Love. Much of what Matt's been saying is more of a confirmation that I'm on the right track and there's a certain level of comfort in that.

There's also some 'future self' stuff coming through right now, I suppose that if I can consciously go back in time it makes it possible to go forwards too. That's really freaky to get the head around but very interesting.

Isn’t the lightbody, the same as your spirit/soul??It depends on what you read, some say it's the same thing while others will say we have one and not the other - or neither.

Well, I’ve certainly stopped banging my head against the brick wall in terms of trying to fix it. If I had written this as part of my life plan, then as you say, it has a purpose. I’ve learned from it how to look after my body but I would like to think there’s more experiences / learning to come from it because at the moment, I'm not of the view that it's worth it.I'm not going to go all crystal ball-reader on your tail but what I will say is allow it to unfold as it will. There comes a time when only time will tell, and if it hasn't yet then you're not there.

This is all rather interesting. I did read something that said hearing bells/chimes is a sign of the veils thinning between the worlds and is also a sign of clair-audience. Also, I have heard just the once last week like a deep sound, and I realised I’ve heard this quite a few times before but not really paid much attention to it and forgot about it. After some research it was the sound you’d get from individual glockenspiel bars. Tesla said that "If you want to understand the Universe, think energy, vibration and frequency." Once sounds, you and your perceptions become vibrations everything changes. This world is at a certain frequency, the other world is at a different one but it's more like the difference between two colours of the rainbow blend than an abrupt difference. The thinning of the veils is an awareness of the 'blend' between the two frequency bands and tuning into those frequencies. In order for the mind to grasp it the vibrations are often 'translated' into something we can resonate/tune into - such as your glockenspiel notes. They'll probably have some kind of significance for you, but it's often tucked away in a corner of the subconscious.

If you hadn't paid much attention to it before and it's bugging you now, it might be worth trying to find out what it's all about. The chances are it's more like a carrot that will lead you. Sometimes the idea isn't to find a revelation but to see if you'll follow it through or not, or what happens because of it.

My heart leapt when I saw all those triangles, all different colours, pointing in different directions and the same size as the triangles I’m seeing! Just wow! When I searched for DNA images, I got the spiral image. This last week, I have had a new formation which is two triangles, one above the other, both pointing upwards and both in white. I haven’t dowsed for its meaning, which is pretty amazing for me as in the past, I’d have to know right now! I think with the dowsng I did a few weeks ago which gave me up until that point, the meanings, that was good to have, but it’s not changing what’s going on. It’s happening anyway.Thought it might do just that. Since you've 'found your silence' your energies have changed quite markedly, they feel more 'solid and steady' if that makes sense.

We get what we need when we need it. I was watching one of Matt's vids where he said that reality is like watching a film strip - a few others have said much the same thing. What's actually happening is we stand still (relatively speaking) while reality is before our eyes like frames from a cine film, moving so fast we perceive it as seamless. Often in our Lives we think we have to go somewhere, understand something and we have to go get the understanding or whatever. Sometimes we have to run ourselves to a standstill so that the Universe doesn't have to chase us any more. It's going to happen anyway, regardless of whether you run yourself ragged or allow it to happen.

I could have written that! Never fitted in, particularly at school which I found so hard. One of the strongest memories I have is sitting on the floor in assembly one morning, about 10 years old, thinking I’m never going to get out of here, I’m always going to be at school, it’s never going to end. I think that’s one of the earliest conscious thinking I had. I was about the same age when it happened, it was during a lunch playtime where the other kids had gathered in the playground to get a game going. I felt so different, not like them at all and it never really stopped. I still feel it today but I can turn it to my favour and it's become more of a 'tool' than something debilitating. Anyway, personal; foibles makes life interesting.

Since recovering from this infection, it very much feels like I am back to where I was after the final Bowen session. I suspect it’s been there all along just covered up by the infection. It is a kind of Neutrality which is so difficult to describe. It feels as though I am just existing, present, in a sort of neutral position, hollow but this is not in a negative way whatsoever. It just is. There is no upset, no accepting or resisting it . There are no particular thoughts about anything, it just is for the time being. There's no enthusiasm, excitement, motivation or drive but also there's no depression, sadness, resentment or anger. It feels as though the things I have relied on in the past, my drive, enthusiasm, motivation and running are all offline. My mind is not taken up with endless thoughts cycling, there are no judgements or opinions. It is very peculiar but also quite relaxing. Does any of that make any kind of sense to you?

The neutral position came after feeling quite low and depressed. What’s really helped me through this is Matt’s’ Freedom from Adversity’. I seem to have a knack of choosing the right teaching at the right time. When I saw it in my list of unwatched videos, I thought how come I haven’t been drawn to this before, but I needed it now. I was sort of cringing as I recognised my behaviour towards myself, so clearly in fact. So I was already being kind and gentle to myself in this period, just letting myself feel the emptiness and desolation, and not badgering myself to get over it. But Matt strengthened that this was the right thing to be doing. And then, after days of being low, I don’t know, a combination of little things, walking on an unusually warm and sunny day, hearing the birds singing, using some Lady Nada quintessence, and a good talk to a friend, I suddenly felt my mood lifting, feeling a little more like my usual self and the depression I’d been feeling shifted into just being neutral.

PatryciaThere's a certain Is-ness, that's a word I picked up from somewhere. Even the use of the word 'Is-ness' kind of dilutes it because it's hanging another label on it. It's just there and it's not anything, but it's not nothing either. It's a nothing that is something. I'm going to shut up now but I know what you mean.

DNA is the building blocks from which we're built and the carbon molecule is what DNA is built on. 'Below' that is the Sacred Geometry of the triangles so you're very much in tune with where it all begins - physically, and other than going into energy and quantum mechanics it doesn't get any closer to source than that. When all is stripped away - drive, motivation,, highs and lows, feeling good and feeling depressed there is the Source of your consciousness - or just your consciousness if you prefer that perspective. Everything you put names and labels on - and yes, even the emptiness and desolation - are labels upon that which you are conscious of. Consciousness is always 'one step in front of above'. When you find that neutrality you are conscious that you are conscious, and then there's what you are conscious of after that. It's the foundations of consciousness in the way that DNA is the foundations of your physical form.

"Your reality is defined by your perceptions, your perceptions are defined by your beliefs and your beliefs are defined by your definitions." If you define it as desolation then in your reality that's just what it is, but when there are no applicable definitions?

Jung also did an article on the Alchemists and the Philospher's Stone, the creating gold from lead thingy. He said that what they were looking for was the Prima Materia or the prime material from which the 'gold' could be made, and that could only be found in the darkest of places within ourselves. Low and depressed is your darkness, the neutral feeling is the Prima Materia from whence all else comes. That's so empowering, liberating.....

Between Christmas and New Year I was standing in the supermarket carpark watching the sunset. There's a lovely spot in the corner where you can see the horizon through the bare trees away from the silhouette of the houses. The sky was full of all the sunset colours, so clear and vivid. There was a moment where my mind thought about how the colours were the result of the light of the sun but I pushed that out of my mind - I stepped out of my mind. I wanted to watch, to witness this moment because tomorrow there would be another sunset and this one would be gone. It felt damned amazing, as though it was only there for me to witness, but not in an egotistical way because I felt a gratitude for it being there.

Sometimes, when you tell yourself it's OK to be you, 'you' has space to breathe.

There's a brilliant quote from one of the characters in Babylon 5, the sci-fi series:-
"My shoes are too tight, but it does not matter because I have forgotten how to dance."
Londo Mollari
Ambassador, Centari Republic

In your state of neutrality you can dance without shoes.

Patrycia-Rose

21-01-2018, 10:06 AM

Hello Mr G,

It's the kind of stuff floppy hat-wearing hippies come out with, isn't it?

Absolutely and Matt acknowledges that we’re told to ‘find our centre’ for instance with no understanding of what that actually means.

I think the first real beginning was when I was going through some freaky consciousness shifts, and one of them was when I was remembering being a child and feeling some strange energies near me. Then I realised they were my own, it was present 'me' going back to 'see past me'. Yep, it sounds crazy but it's the only explanation I have, short to admitting I'm bonkers.

I don’t think that sounds bonkers at all, we can tune into our energies/feelings from the past and look at it from a ‘now / adult’ perspective. A very useful ability.

There's been a lot of nostalgia and changing of priorities, looking at what I feel is important or not.

It’s funny that you mention nostalgia, as just recently memories from the past have popped into my head, especially around my parents, both of whom I had an exceptionally close relationship. One of things I feel drawn to is energetically visiting places we lived in and I can see so clearly the rooms, carpets, wallpaper the ornaments. It’s like comfort thing, although tinged with a little sadness. Sometimes, it just seems so odd that neither of them here anymore. In fact, in a recent low moment I said to a photo of my dad “how could you go somewhere and not take me with you!” But I do sense him around me and he has that special way of sending me songs on my MP3.

There's also some 'future self' stuff coming through right now, I suppose that if I can consciously go back in time it makes it possible to go forwards too. That's really freaky to get the head around but very interesting.

Again, that sounds reasonable to me. If we have past lives, then it stands to reason, we have future lives as well. I believe there are some people who do future life ‘regression’. But according to several guides info, we do have a choice. I’ve been told a couple of times by different mediums that I’m not coming back again.

I'm not going to go all crystal ball-reader on your tail but what I will say is allow it to unfold as it will. There comes a time when only time will tell, and if it hasn't yet then you're not there.

Yes, things have taken an interesting turn. All the triangle/third eye activity is over for now. And one of those situations where one thing leads to another. Some very sublte behaviour changes in me recently. I’ve always been interested in waching paranoral programmes such as Paranormal Witness but they've never scared me and I go to to bed quite happy. Just a few weeks ago I watched an episode of Paranormal Witness and there was one scene which was really did freak me out. I decided I was not going to watch anymore of these programmes. And at the time I was wondering what else can I watch and I discovered a programme called Hollywood Medium. I don't know if you have come across this one but I find it fascinating. I've always been very interested in watching mediums like Tony Stockwell, Gordon Smith and John Edward. So as well as giving me a new programme to watch it also raises my energies. Recently on one of Tyler Henry’s videos, he recommended a book on trauma and whilst researching on Amazon the book that then led me to another book called the Completion Process which focuses on healing trauma. The book has been ordered and is on its way.

I have also been getting messages from my guides that I am into a new phase of learning. I am starting to watch videos by Peter Levine about somatic experiencing and I'm learning a lot about trauma and the impact on the mind and body, particularly in relation to how animals have a different response. This will be a new angle for me, where I am learning and trying out techniques I can do on my own. Maybe I need to heal the mind before the body can heal. I would have experienced the freeze response, as opposed to flight or fight response and yet at the same time my body was in overdrive – and all the symptoms that would mean! Also, I have the strongest feeling that I'm the one who will find my way to healing, I just haven't found it yet.

Also, rather notable this morning was I pulled 'Intuition' from one oracle deck and 'follow your intuition' from another - so I will do just that.

Thought it might do just that. Since you've 'found your silence' your energies have changed quite markedly, they feel more 'solid and steady' if that makes sense.

Yes, you may be right. I do feel as though I am still processing the changes from the Bowen Therapy. The curious thing is I have absolutely no desire to run which is unheard of for me. Just this morning, I thought maybe I could run today and I felt my energies immediately go down. So, going with Matt's 'how something feels in the body' I realised that the time is not right just now

We get what we need when we need it. I was watching one of Matt's vids where he said that reality is like watching a film strip - a few others have said much the same thing.

I saw one of his videos in which he described people watching a film, the characters going through all kinds of adversity which we find exciting and entertaining but we left the cinema not willing to live our lives in the same way

I was about the same age when it happened, it was during a lunch playtime where the other kids had gathered in the playground to get a game going. I felt so different, not like them at all and it never really stopped. I still feel it today but I can turn it to my favour and it's become more of a 'tool' than something debilitating. Anyway, personal; foibles makes life interesting.

I’ve felt like that all my life, as a child, a teenager and adult. I can remember so clearly, my parents holding these dinner parties and as soon as dinner was over I had no interest in socialising; I would go to my bedroom and read the latest Star Trek novel.

DNA is the building blocks from which we're built and the carbon molecule is what DNA is built on.

Going back to the triangle image you posted recently, where do the triangles fit in the double helix diagram?

Patrycia

Greenslade

21-01-2018, 02:04 PM

Hello Mr G,Hey Patrycia

Absolutely and Matt acknowledges that we’re told to ‘find our centre’ for instance with no understanding of what that actually means. Here I am, at the centre of my perceptual framework. There you are, at the centre of yours. Sometimes the more obvious it is the more difficult it is to see. There again, you could say that there is no centre and that's where it becomes fun.

I don’t think that sounds bonkers at all, we can tune into our energies/feelings from the past and look at it from a ‘now / adult’ perspective. A very useful ability. Bonkers-R-Us, it's in my DNA so bonkers has become the norm and what is the norm for most is bonkers. So much fun today. What it does, though, is completely changes the perspective in so many ways. So 'present me' goes to visit 'past me' and 'past me' senses that, has 'future me' been to see 'present me' and vice versa? If any of that is true then....????

It’s funny that you mention nostalgia, as just recently memories from the past have popped into my head, especially around my parents, both of whom I had an exceptionally close relationship. One of things I feel drawn to is energetically visiting places we lived in and I can see so clearly the rooms, carpets, wallpaper the ornaments. It’s like comfort thing, although tinged with a little sadness. Sometimes, it just seems so odd that neither of them here anymore. In fact, in a recent low moment I said to a photo of my dad “how could you go somewhere and not take me with you!” But I do sense him around me and he has that special way of sending me songs on my MP3.I know that one well. My father is never so far away although he does 'keep his distance' because it would overwhelm my emotions. We have things to resolve but none if them bad, it's more of an 'I understand and I want you to know' but he already does.

Again, that sounds reasonable to me. If we have past lives, then it stands to reason, we have future lives as well. I believe there are some people who do future life ‘regression’. But according to several guides info, we do have a choice. I’ve been told a couple of times by different mediums that I’m not coming back again.Most of the time I simply run with what I feel so consciousness time travel is what I'm running with, whether it makes sense in the future or not is something else. I was given some channelled future Life info and being honest it became confusing because there were no parallels or understandings to draw from. That'll teach me about asking stupid questions.

Yes, things have taken an interesting turn. All the triangle/third eye activity is over for now. And one of those situations where one thing leads to another. Some very sublte behaviour changes in me recently. I’ve always been interested in waching paranoral programmes such as Paranormal Witness but they've never scared me and I go to to bed quite happy. Just a few weeks ago I watched an episode of Paranormal Witness and there was one scene which was really did freak me out. I decided I was not going to watch anymore of these programmes. And at the time I was wondering what else can I watch and I discovered a programme called Hollywood Medium. I don't know if you have come across this one but I find it fascinating. I've always been very interested in watching mediums like Tony Stockwell, Gordon Smith and John Edward. So as well as giving me a new programme to watch it also raises my energies. Recently on one of Tyler Henry’s videos, he recommended a book on trauma and whilst researching on Amazon the book that then led me to another book called the Completion Process which focuses on healing trauma. The book has been ordered and is on its way.

I have also been getting messages from my guides that I am into a new phase of learning. I am starting to watch videos by Peter Levine about somatic experiencing and I'm learning a lot about trauma and the impact on the mind and body, particularly in relation to how animals have a different response. This will be a new angle for me, where I am learning and trying out techniques I can do on my own. Maybe I need to heal the mind before the body can heal. I would have experienced the freeze response, as opposed to flight or fight response and yet at the same time my body was in overdrive – and all the symptoms that would mean! Also, I have the strongest feeling that I'm the one who will find my way to healing, I just haven't found it yet.

Also, rather notable this morning was I pulled 'Intuition' from one oracle deck and 'follow your intuition' from another - so I will do just that.The Universe is a reflection of you and sometimes the lines between internal and external become blurred to the point where they're the same thing. And often the things which cause the strongest reaction in us are the things we should take the most notice of.

I think that when you were watching Matt's vids you were ingesting all of that information, and this is kind of turning your head in a different direction. If Matt's vids don't resonate with you any more then you've taken all you need for the time being at least. You'll come back to them, just not in the way you think.

I watched a series called 'Medium' a while back, about a blonde-haired mother who worked with the police and got her and her family into all kinds of paranormal scariness. I'm guessing Hollywood Medium would be a variation on a theme. Watching the series for me was looking at the relationship between mediumship and 'normal', and how others perceived it. Mrs G liked it in particular because she was a rape counsellor for the police and she's clairvoyant, often she would pick up on things that the police doing an interview wouldn't think of so there were parallels there.

At the moment we're watching Chicago PD, one of the reasons being that it has crossovers with episodes in Chicago Fire, which we've been watching for a while. What I'm resonating with in Chicago Fire is that while for the most part they're ordinary Joes, the camaraderie and sense of community is amazing. One of the characters that crosses over is a really bad guy, but in the cop series his character develops very differently. Most see him as a dirty cop, but he's a really good guy who plays by his own rules and doen't compromise what's important to him. That works for me too. It's not 'Spiritual' to most but then Spirituality is where you find it.

In the present, our perceptions of the past create our futures, Tolle would say that the past is memory and the future is expectation so those two work quite well together. Time is a theme that's common in sci-fi movies and the temporal paradox is also common - stop your grandpa from meeting your grandma and you stop existing. What we don't do is think of the future sometimes, how a small difference we might make today might, through a chain of cause and effect, have a huge impact on the future. While we're here, this is a Journey to Self and you are the answer looking for the question.

What is it you're really dealing with? Your perceptions of your trauma has led you here - everything you've done to heal yourself, what we talk about. What would you like your future to be? And how ca you begin today, now, to start creating that future?

The scary places are where we find the best stuff, the Prima Materia. Your intuition is right on the money if that's any confirmation/consolation.

Yes, you may be right. I do feel as though I am still processing the changes from the Bowen Therapy. The curious thing is I have absolutely no desire to run which is unheard of for me. Just this morning, I thought maybe I could run today and I felt my energies immediately go down. So, going with Matt's 'how something feels in the body' I realised that the time is not right just nowThat's your instinct's way of saying "You gotta be having a laugh." It's not just the Bowen therapy although that's obviously the biggy as far as the body is concerned. Your consciousness has more of an effect on your physical than you'd imagine, it's all energy-related.

Three - body, consciousness/Soul and energy. Relationships. it's all about relationships.

I saw one of his videos in which he described people watching a film, the characters going through all kinds of adversity which we find exciting and entertaining but we left the cinema not willing to live our lives in the same wayThat's quite a realisation there and explains so much about how we feel about this Life. We can see things play out right to the end, and without the adversity there wouldn't be much of a movie. We're still in the cinema watching the movie.

I’ve felt like that all my life, as a child, a teenager and adult. I can remember so clearly, my parents holding these dinner parties and as soon as dinner was over I had no interest in socialising; I would go to my bedroom and read the latest Star Trek novel. It's been said that Old Souls don't integrate too well into this dimension and that seems to be the case for the both of us - and a few others I know. Being a square peg in a round hole isn't so much fun.

Going back to the triangle image you posted recently, where do the triangles fit in the double helix diagram?

PatryciaBasically we're carbon-based so everything in our bodies is largely built on the carbon triangle. In DNA, the carbon atom combines with other atoms and molecules to form more complex molecules, which then makes up our DNA.

http://www.dailytech.com/MIT+DNA+Wizard+Predicts+How+to+Make+Pyramids+Cubes +and+More+Out+of+DNA/article36968.htm
There's a really freaky YouTube embedded lower down the page that's worth a look at.

Patrycia-Rose

28-01-2018, 10:37 AM

Morning Mr G,

So 'present me' goes to visit 'past me' and 'past me' senses that, has 'future me' been to see 'present me' and vice versa? If any of that is true then....????

It means you’re a Time Lord, Mr G, same as me. I was told that a few years ago by a medium who said that I travel in time (ha! “Traveller in Time!”) I’m assuming he meant at night because I’m not aware of it in current time – although I have astrally travelled a few times, always to meet my dad. It’s always an intense experience and very emotional when I wake up.

I think that when you were watching Matt's vids you were ingesting all of that information, and this is kind of turning your head in a different direction. If Matt's vids don't resonate with you any more then you've taken all you need for the time being at least. You'll come back to them, just not in the way you think.

Matt’s teaching are definitely still resonating, it was just that odd week when I couldn’t connect with anything. In fact, I’ve reached something of a milestone. I’ve watched 42 videos most of them yielding about 8 pages of notes. It takes me a weekend to get through one video with all the notes. It helps it get into the noggin I find.

Also, I’ll always be interested in what he has to say. He’s evolving all the while as well so that’s an interesting angle in itself.

I watched a series called 'Medium' a while back, about a blonde-haired mother who worked with the police and got her and her family into all kinds of paranormal scariness. I'm guessing Hollywood Medium would be a variation on a theme.

Hollywood Medium isn’t ficticious. It’s about Tyler Henry who is a young medium and he gives readings to Hollywood’s famous. There’s about four different readings per programme plus insights before and after each sitting from both him and the people he does sittings for. I really like his energy; he seems a very pure and gifted soul. It’s on truentertainment I think and currently being repeated. Take a look, I love it, I find it very uplifting.

What is it you're really dealing with? Your perceptions of your trauma has led you here - everything you've done to heal yourself, what we talk about. What would you like your future to be? And how ca you begin today, now, to start creating that future?

That’s something of a question mark of many years. I’ve always felt that life is something that’s happened to me and I’ve just navigated it as best I can. I’ve always felt that what I would like hasn’t come into it. I’ve always wanted to help people in some way but I’ve always felt like I’ve been waiting at the door but it’s not been opened for me. Many years ago, from spirit, I received a chakra healing system which I’ve mentioned before. I had some really positive results on other people with that and I thought that teaching this to other people was going to be my pathway, I even took a public speaking course to help me to do this and I put together a programme but it never came to be. It was so long ago now I can’t remember the reason it didn’t take off. Likewise, with that healing energy I had recently, I thought maybe I could use that to help others but that’s pretty much gone now. So I’ve never had any kind of encouragement or signs in that direction. That’s one of the reasons I was so relieved when I found one of Matt’s teachings where he said the best way to help people is those that you come across in your everyday life, and that you don’t have to make this your living. That took a huge pressure of me as it lifted that sense of failure I had.

That's your instinct's way of saying "You gotta be having a laugh." It's not just the Bowen therapy although that's obviously the biggy as far as the body is concerned. Your consciousness has more of an effect on your physical than you'd imagine, it's all energy-related.

So this last week I received the book’ The Completion Process’ and got through it in an afternoon. I soon realised that the book is geared towards childhood abuse, also tackling the issue of repressed memories, both of which don’t apply to my trauma, but I read through it anyway as I thought there could be some useful insights which there were. It was saying that by wanting to fix something you’re giving yourself the message that you’re not OK as you are. And that you’re also giving yourself the mssage that you only want to be with yourself when you’re feeling positive and good. I’m very guilty of that. Much of the general stuff such as that, I could hear Matt’s teachings saying similar things, so really it kind of gave me a confirmation (if any was needed) that Matt’s teachings are the way to go. So although the book wasn’t going to be the solution, it did have a message for me.

I am still in a very odd and unrecognised place. It’s definitely been triggered by this Bowen therapy. I’ve lost my spark for sure. I was reading yesterday about a Dark Night of the Soul. Eckhart Tolle described it as something along the lines of a collapse of perceived meaning in life, a deep sense of meaningless which closely resembles depression. I guess if the initial awakening was sparked by taking a flower essence, then another phase could be sparked by the bowen. I am trying hard to just be with it, to give it space instead of trying to bully myself out of it. So I’m drawing on Matt’s teachings to get me through. I feel a lot like that ragged dishcloth you spoke about a few posts ago. I realised yesterday that I hadn’t even been listening to music which is so unlike me. So yesterday in a particularly low evening I put on the might Quo and could feel my spirits lifting – you can’t feel down with The Mystery Song going at full throttle. Status Quo have been a companion through all my life’s difficulties. Again, I was introduced to them by my older brother when I was about 12 years old, pretty much at the same time as Uriah Heep.

It's been said that Old Souls don't integrate too well into this dimension and that seems to be the case for the both of us - and a few others I know. Being a square peg in a round hole isn't so much fun.

It would explain a lot. Many years ago, when I first discovered the aura soma system, I had a reading, This isn’t a medium reading but a system where you choose the colours that reflect how you feel at that moment. You choose four bottles from over a hundred. One of the bottles I chose was No 47 which is blue over lemon. Lemon appears in the system just once, so in some ways you could say that lemon is the odd one out in the system – which would represent me in itself. But the name of 47 is Old Soul.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb47oldsoul.h tml

I think I’m going to have a low key run / workout and see how it goes; running is always a good gauge of how I’m truly feeling. I may be some time .......

Patrycia

Greenslade

28-01-2018, 12:33 PM

Morning Mr G,Morning Patrycia

It means you’re a Time Lord, Mr G, same as me. I was told that a few years ago by a medium who said that I travel in time (ha! “Traveller in Time!”) I’m assuming he meant at night because I’m not aware of it in current time – although I have astrally travelled a few times, always to meet my dad. It’s always an intense experience and very emotional when I wake up.Y'know, that damned song touched something deep inside before I even knew there was anything to touch, and in some ways it still does. I know about Soul Contracts or whatever you want to call them but there's always the feeling of something greater, it's as though you feel you want to be a part of something greater yet at the same time you know you are.

Tolle said that the past is memory and the future is expectation, so if you're 'navigating' those then does it make you a time traveller?

Matt’s teaching are definitely still resonating, it was just that odd week when I couldn’t connect with anything. In fact, I’ve reached something of a milestone. I’ve watched 42 videos most of them yielding about 8 pages of notes. It takes me a weekend to get through one video with all the notes. It helps it get into the noggin I find.

Also, I’ll always be interested in what he has to say. He’s evolving all the while as well so that’s an interesting angle in itself. I'm the opposite, I really can't be bothered with any of it and while there are a couple of Matt's vids I want to watch there's no enthusiasm there whatsoever. It's all gone cold. I was watching a TED Talk on how we create our conscious reality and it was a bit of an eye-opener - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lyu7v7nWzfo

I suppose I'm off an a non-Spiritual part to this Journey, but then I've never separated Spiritual and non-Spiritual anyway. My own Spirituality has always been about my self and perhaps it's time to look that little bit deeper.

Hollywood Medium isn’t ficticious. It’s about Tyler Henry who is a young medium and he gives readings to Hollywood’s famous. There’s about four different readings per programme plus insights before and after each sitting from both him and the people he does sittings for. I really like his energy; he seems a very pure and gifted soul. It’s on truentertainment I think and currently being repeated. Take a look, I love it, I find it very uplifting.I'll have to have a look at that, see if I can find it for download. There were a few similar programmes on Sky years ago that I found interesting so I'd guess this is along the ssme lines.

That’s something of a question mark of many years. I’ve always felt that life is something that’s happened to me and I’ve just navigated it as best I can. I’ve always felt that what I would like hasn’t come into it. I’ve always wanted to help people in some way but I’ve always felt like I’ve been waiting at the door but it’s not been opened for me. Many years ago, from spirit, I received a chakra healing system which I’ve mentioned before. I had some really positive results on other people with that and I thought that teaching this to other people was going to be my pathway, I even took a public speaking course to help me to do this and I put together a programme but it never came to be. It was so long ago now I can’t remember the reason it didn’t take off. Likewise, with that healing energy I had recently, I thought maybe I could use that to help others but that’s pretty much gone now. So I’ve never had any kind of encouragement or signs in that direction. That’s one of the reasons I was so relieved when I found one of Matt’s teachings where he said the best way to help people is those that you come across in your everyday life, and that you don’t have to make this your living. That took a huge pressure of me as it lifted that sense of failure I had. Been there, done that, wrote the book, bought the T-shirt lol. I guess I'm lucky in some respects because I haven't had much of a sense of failure, but then I tend to walk a middle ground between polar opposites anyway. Sometimes our greatest failures are our greatest successes - and according to Desiderata they're both imposters. Very often we don't realise the impact we have on people at the time, and even a smile can turn someone around. What changed me was understanding what constituted success and failure and when I started to dismantle them, I was confusing 'success' with 'expectation' - I was expecting to be able to do great things. What I couldn't see was the great things I was doing. Gotta love the irony. It takes a smile, and behind the sad face of the person we're smiling at lies thoughts of suicide and a family that's going to be affected. A simple smile, a simple act of acknowledging someone's existence and it turns it all around both for them and those whose Lives are touched by them. You can see the difference in their eyes, in the sound of their voice or the look of relief on their faces. Everything else is in the hands of the Universe.

So this last week I received the book’ The Completion Process’ and got through it in an afternoon. I soon realised that the book is geared towards childhood abuse, also tackling the issue of repressed memories, both of which don’t apply to my trauma, but I read through it anyway as I thought there could be some useful insights which there were. It was saying that by wanting to fix something you’re giving yourself the message that you’re not OK as you are. And that you’re also giving yourself the mssage that you only want to be with yourself when you’re feeling positive and good. I’m very guilty of that. Much of the general stuff such as that, I could hear Matt’s teachings saying similar things, so really it kind of gave me a confirmation (if any was needed) that Matt’s teachings are the way to go. So although the book wasn’t going to be the solution, it did have a message for me.

I am still in a very odd and unrecognised place. It’s definitely been triggered by this Bowen therapy. I’ve lost my spark for sure. I was reading yesterday about a Dark Night of the Soul. Eckhart Tolle described it as something along the lines of a collapse of perceived meaning in life, a deep sense of meaningless which closely resembles depression. I guess if the initial awakening was sparked by taking a flower essence, then another phase could be sparked by the bowen. I am trying hard to just be with it, to give it space instead of trying to bully myself out of it. So I’m drawing on Matt’s teachings to get me through. I feel a lot like that ragged dishcloth you spoke about a few posts ago. I realised yesterday that I hadn’t even been listening to music which is so unlike me. So yesterday in a particularly low evening I put on the might Quo and could feel my spirits lifting – you can’t feel down with The Mystery Song going at full throttle. Status Quo have been a companion through all my life’s difficulties. Again, I was introduced to them by my older brother when I was about 12 years old, pretty much at the same time as Uriah Heep. You are the solution; the seeker is always that which is sought. You are the answer looking for the question. Have a laugh while you're there but there's a message still -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x2rS-ha8DbE

"Science without religion is lame, religion without science is blind."
Einstein

You are a being of energy, and when you understand just a little science it all makes perfect sense. It's not to contradict Tolle but to expand on it, Tolle doesn't include the science part. Energy 'jumps' from one quantum level to another, there's no gradual process of going from this level to that level. Consciousness and energy are related because you become conscious of what you can perceive through your energy state. Spirit is in a very different energy state to humans, for instance. In each energy state there's a band of perception within the confines or boundaries of that particular state, and there's also what we resonate with according to our state. Essentially, what came before was (I hate to term it this way but it's just easier) you in a lower energy state but now that you're in a higher energy state, what came before doesn't resonate with you any more. You've grown out of it if you like. A collapse of perceived meaning. It's also been said that Enlightenment is a tearing down of what has come before.

Energetically you would feel like a dishcloth because your body (it needs its own time, remember) hasn't quite got used to being at your new level, the new vibes haven't had time to seep through the density.

Quo did alright for themselves, a bunch of guys who were often slated for not having the musical talent but they did well just the same. I guess there'll always be a market for raw and rhythmical music, and although I've never been a huge fan but never could help rocking along anyway. I guess you could take a lot of symbolism from that, or just be kind to yourself and realise you just needed something familiar.

It would explain a lot. Many years ago, when I first discovered the aura soma system, I had a reading, This isn’t a medium reading but a system where you choose the colours that reflect how you feel at that moment. You choose four bottles from over a hundred. One of the bottles I chose was No 47 which is blue over lemon. Lemon appears in the system just once, so in some ways you could say that lemon is the odd one out in the system – which would represent me in itself. But the name of 47 is Old Soul.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equilibriumukonlyequilibrium50mlukonlyb47oldsoul.h tml

I think I’m going to have a low key run / workout and see how it goes; running is always a good gauge of how I’m truly feeling. I may be some time .......

PatryciaAh yes, I remember that one. You gave me a link to a similar page what seems like a Lifetime ago and I went wandering, as I do. That was one of the bottles (I think the only one) that caught my attention. Lemon being the odd one out.. yeah I can figure that because very few people connect with lemon/yellow as a Spiritual colour..... or gold.

Have a good workout, and when you've blown the cobwebs out - https://lonerwolf.com/problems-old-souls-experience/

Patrycia-Rose

04-02-2018, 10:01 AM

Hello Mr G,

Y'know, that damned song touched something deep inside before I even knew there was anything to touch, and in some ways it still does. I know about Soul Contracts or whatever you want to call them but there's always the feeling of something greater, it's as though you feel you want to be a part of something greater yet at the same time you know you are.

Yes, me too, that was always one of my favourites. The other track which was pretty monumental to me at the time was The Spell - the classic scenario of good versus evil and as a time when the charts were filled with sugary love ballads, The Spell was so dramatic and even at that young age, summed up how I felt and saw myself in the world even though I could not have put those feelings into words.

I'm the opposite, I really can't be bothered with any of it and while there are a couple of Matt's vids I want to watch there's no enthusiasm there whatsoever.

I have just started to watch The Divine Plan, video 43. It is interesting how there is a repeating theme of being spiritual is something you do when you interact with other people.

Which of Matt's videos did you want to see? Just wondering if I have seen them.

I found this on Youtube the other day - just absolutey love this. A sort of meditation / reminder of some those teachings and done so beautifully. Really quite mesmerising.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ccKFHH2Zi8

I'll have to have a look at that, see if I can find it for download. There were a few similar programmes on Sky years ago that I found interesting so I'd guess this is along the ssme lines.

Have you caught an episode of Hollywood medium yet? I've just found that he's written a book and have ordered this as it looks really interesting.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Between-Two-Worlds-Lessons-Other/dp/1501152637/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1517737772&sr=1-1&keywords=between+two+worlds

On another positive note, the new season of The X-Files starts tomorrow night.

I was expecting to be able to do great things. What I couldn't see was the great things I was doing. Gotta love the irony.

Yes, I think when you are young there is an expectation that life is going to be all puppies and fluffy clouds.But I can relate to what you are saying about not realising the good things you are doing now. For instance I recently heard from my brother who has been experiencing a medical issue and and through my recommended supplements, he is making some progress. It is good to recall the people that I have helped but I just wish I knew how to help myself.

Energetically you would feel like a dishcloth because your body (it needs its own time, remember) hasn't quite got used to being at your new level, the new vibes haven't had time to seep through the density.

Yes, I feel a lot is going under but am not totally sure what.

I was thinking a bit more about the question you asked a post or two ago about what I wanted to do with my life. I asked myself the question that if I did not have these two physical symptoms, what would be different. And the answer was - nothing! There is nothing I would be doing that is different. I realised a year or so ago that I was using the symptoms as an excuse not to do things when I realised that I would not have wanted to do them anyway. So that was a bit of self realisation.

On that old soul link I definitely relate to quite a lot of those points. Particularly being drained by people and social situations. Years ago, I went to a new years party in the days where I was forcing myself to socialise. I was there but 20 minutes and felt this deep depression come over me where I watched other people engaging in small talk and seeming to enjoy themselves and I just did not seem to be able to do that. I mean, I can do it but find it incredibly boring, monotonous and pointless. I would far rather engage with somebody about the meaning of life for instance. In that party, after 20 minutes, I made an excuse that my cat was not well and I needed to go home to care for him, I remember so clearly breathing a massive sigh of relief on closing the door, made myself a cup of tea, grabbed a box of milk tray, sat down to watch a ghost story on the television with my cat, who was quite well, on my lap. And I remember this thought came over me, life doesn't get much better than this!

Except for a couple of points, this really explains a lot for me. I tick nearly all those boxes.

http://in5d.com/indigo-adult-characteristics/

This last week has seen a little movement from the depression that I have been experiencing since the Bowen Therapy. I have had a morning or afternoon where I felt a lot more like my usual self but it has been uprooted by becoming severely irritated by minor things. This happened a few times and it led me to google Ascension symptoms and Ego and what I read made a lot of sense. It made me feel much better as I had some explanation as to how I was feeling. And I thought I would keep an eye open for this irritation and keep it in check the next time it happened. I didn’t have long to wait; Saturday morning in the supermarket! I could feel the irritation starting up and Matt was instantly on my shoulder with a line from Secret of Spiritual Success, ‘how relaxed can you be while you’re ........” And it instantly calmed me.

When I got home, I started reading more about ego and found something from Eckhart Tolle which said: “the ego loves to strengthen itself by complaining - either in thoughts or words - about other people, the situation you find yourself in, something that is happening right now but "shouldn't be," and even about yourself.”

And then went onto describe an example in a supermarket. I burst into laughter at that point, because I was looking for an example I could relate to.

I do recall a few weeks ago, my guides giving me the message that I was going into a phase of deep learning.

I’ve also been seeing a red rose alongside a white rose. And they gave me the explanation that the red rose represents self love – as I’ve been doing a lot the I love yous. And the white rose is ‘renewal.’

Those church bells have come back a couple of times in the last week. Ha! Posting this at 10:01.

Patrycia

Greenslade

04-02-2018, 12:44 PM

Hello Mr G,Hi there Partycia

Yes, me too, that was always one of my favourites. The other track which was pretty monumental to me at the time was The Spell - the classic scenario of good versus evil and as a time when the charts were filled with sugary love ballads, The Spell was so dramatic and even at that young age, summed up how I felt and saw myself in the world even though I could not have put those feelings into words.Many of their songs touched places inside me that I didn't even know existed, I think much of what I was listening to back then were inner reflections. I wasn't much into the pop culture, except when David Bowie or Alice Cooper seemed to sing about what I was feeling. The Moody Blues featured too, I remember playing their album and putting the speakers on the pillow so I could zonk out to it.

I have just started to watch The Divine Plan, video 43. It is interesting how there is a repeating theme of being spiritual is something you do when you interact with other people.

Which of Matt's videos did you want to see? Just wondering if I have seen them.

I found this on Youtube the other day - just absolutey love this. A sort of meditation / reminder of some those teachings and done so beautifully. Really quite mesmerising.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ccKFHH2Zi8
Spirituality is where you find it.

The one I was going to look at is Dissolving the Veil - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmq-1fhOS6U
I'll need to revisit it because it comes up against some of my deepest paradigms, ones that have kept me going through it all. What also hits is that I've a tendency to keep a concept going, so if someone says "Well this.." my head goes off at the trot and applies it to so many other things. Just right now I don't need that, it feels as though I have to consolidate myself before going off at the trot about anything.

I'm very much the pragmatic and especially when it comes to Spirituality, to be honest I'm not overkeen on the word itself because it has certain connotations in my head. I tend to run from anything that smacks of floppy hats and flowery dresses, it worked 'back then' but now it seems to be something that's beginning to get in the way.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmq-1fhOS6UHave you caught an episode of Hollywood medium yet? I've just found that he's written a book and have ordered this as it looks really interesting.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Between-Two-Worlds-Lessons-Other/dp/1501152637/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1517737772&sr=1-1&keywords=between+two+worlds

On another positive note, the new season of The X-Files starts tomorrow night. [/quote]I'm still trying to download Hollywood Medium, I found it on one of the torrent sites but it seems it's not so popular. I used to be a practising medium, getting up on a rostrum in front of a crowd of people and doing the messages bit. While it was interesting the rostrum work didn't suit me because I couldn't help but get into the crowd. That was a strict no-no.

Yeah, I heard it was coming back. There was a piece in the paper about Gillian Anderson talking about 'intersectional' as in 'we are intersectional beings'. It sounded a lot like Gestalt Reality by any other name.Still, I'll have to check the torrents for the previous seasons so I can binge-watch them until a few of the new series come out.

Yes, I think when you are young there is an expectation that life is going to be all puppies and fluffy clouds.But I can relate to what you are saying about not realising the good things you are doing now. For instance I recently heard from my brother who has been experiencing a medical issue and and through my recommended supplements, he is making some progress. It is good to recall the people that I have helped but I just wish I knew how to help myself.I learned very quickly that expectation only brought disappointment and that created the realist in me, I needed to see how things would turn out and not see it as an airy-fairy dream. Luckily I have someone in my Life who understands this stuff and often points these things out to me, I guess what you might call an anti-ego.

The thing is, if you hadn't been 'you', would you have been able to help those people in the first place? What your trauma has done is set off a string of events that led you to being in a position to help, if those events hadn't unfolded the way they did.....

Yes, I feel a lot is going under but am not totally sure what.Yeah me too. I've learned to run with it, that my back is covered and I don't need to do much more than to get through this in one piece. Often I feel the energetic currents and they can irritate the hell out of me, but I know they're just 'symptoms'.

I was thinking a bit more about the question you asked a post or two ago about what I wanted to do with my life. I asked myself the question that if I did not have these two physical symptoms, what would be different. And the answer was - nothing! There is nothing I would be doing that is different. I realised a year or so ago that I was using the symptoms as an excuse not to do things when I realised that I would not have wanted to do them anyway. So that was a bit of self realisation."If I had the time to relive my Life
I don't think Id care to change a thing.
As long as I find, just a little peace of mind,
I can dream and laugh, and I can sing."

On that old soul link I definitely relate to quite a lot of those points. Particularly being drained by people and social situations. Years ago, I went to a new years party in the days where I was forcing myself to socialise. I was there but 20 minutes and felt this deep depression come over me where I watched other people engaging in small talk and seeming to enjoy themselves and I just did not seem to be able to do that. I mean, I can do it but find it incredibly boring, monotonous and pointless. I would far rather engage with somebody about the meaning of life for instance. In that party, after 20 minutes, I made an excuse that my cat was not well and I needed to go home to care for him, I remember so clearly breathing a massive sigh of relief on closing the door, made myself a cup of tea, grabbed a box of milk tray, sat down to watch a ghost story on the television with my cat, who was quite well, on my lap. And I remember this thought came over me, life doesn't get much better than this!

Except for a couple of points, this really explains a lot for me. I tick nearly all those boxes.

http://in5d.com/indigo-adult-characteristics/
There are some things that only an Old Soul can understand and it's not egotistical, what it is is the voice of experience. In my younger days I thought all that social interaction was silly to say the least, mind you growing up Saturday night was for getting drunk and fighting. I still don't do too well in large social groups so I tend to avoid them if at all possible. Smaller, intimate groups are fine though because I'm with people that I want to be with and even though I prefer my own company I still enjoy the interaction.

There aren't many of those boxes I couldn't tick neither but I've never seen myself as an Indigo, there again I don't seem to fit snugly into any particular category.

This last week has seen a little movement from the depression that I have been experiencing since the Bowen Therapy. I have had a morning or afternoon where I felt a lot more like my usual self but it has been uprooted by becoming severely irritated by minor things. This happened a few times and it led me to google Ascension symptoms and Ego and what I read made a lot of sense. It made me feel much better as I had some explanation as to how I was feeling. And I thought I would keep an eye open for this irritation and keep it in check the next time it happened. I didn’t have long to wait; Saturday morning in the supermarket! I could feel the irritation starting up and Matt was instantly on my shoulder with a line from Secret of Spiritual Success, ‘how relaxed can you be while you’re ........” And it instantly calmed me.

When I got home, I started reading more about ego and found something from Eckhart Tolle which said: “the ego loves to strengthen itself by complaining - either in thoughts or words - about other people, the situation you find yourself in, something that is happening right now but "shouldn't be," and even about yourself.”

And then went onto describe an example in a supermarket. I burst into laughter at that point, because I was looking for an example I could relate to.

I do recall a few weeks ago, my guides giving me the message that I was going into a phase of deep learning.

I’ve also been seeing a red rose alongside a white rose. And they gave me the explanation that the red rose represents self love – as I’ve been doing a lot the I love yous. And the white rose is ‘renewal.’

Those church bells have come back a couple of times in the last week. Ha! Posting this at 10:01.

Patrycia"Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence."
Desiderata

When you take that with you you become 'aerodynamic' and everything simply flies on past. Whoosh!! Goodbye irritation. But then if you don't look for it in the first place?

OK, let's try something just out of curiosity - and I don't necessarily need an answer. If you were your Soul/Higher Self, what would you say to yourself? The reason I'm asking is
Yes, I feel a lot is going under but am not totally sure what.You looked for irritation and you found it, you looked for ego and you found it, you looked for an example and you found it.... Nuff said?

You are the puzzle, you are the answer and this is your Journey to Self, things don't happen TO you they happen BECAUSE of you. Keep tuning in to those vibes.

Patrycia-Rose

11-02-2018, 09:34 AM

Hello Mr G,

Many of their songs touched places inside me that I didn't even know existed, I think much of what I was listening to back then were inner reflections. I wasn't much into the pop culture, except when David Bowie or Alice Cooper seemed to sing about what I was feeling. The Moody Blues featured too, I remember playing their album and putting the speakers on the pillow so I could zonk out to it.

I think for me I’d never heard songs that included a lot of magical references, The Magician’s Birthday was always a favourite. It was like there was a whole magical (spiritual) world out there that no one seemed to be aware of but I would connect to it via the songs and give me some world to escape to after a hard day at school. But on the pop culture, when people at school were into The Osmonds and David Cassidy, I preferred T-Rex and Slade.

The one I was going to look at is Dissolving the Veil - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmq-1fhOS6U
I'll need to revisit it because it comes up against some of my deepest paradigms, ones that have kept me going through it all.

Dissolving the Veil – I remember watching about ten minutes or so of that, a very interesting slant on perception. But then I had the feeling, as it is a brand new video, only a month old or so, that I was ‘skipping class’ so to speak. So I carried on watching the older videos. It’s a good way for me, as on the occasion he refers to a previous video or a previous teaching, I’ve seen it.

Also, really interesting, I’m currently watching The Eternal Invitation and thought this sounds very similar to the previous one I’d watched, a very similar message. And then he said in the video that he will go at a subject from a slightly different angle. I’ve seen this quite a few times.

I’m really looking forward to watching the new videos.

I learned very quickly that expectation only brought disappointment and that created the realist in me, I needed to see how things would turn out and not see it as an airy-fairy dream. Luckily I have someone in my Life who understands this stuff and often points these things out to me, I guess what you might call an anti-ego.

That’s a really good way of approaching things; I’m sure I’d do a lot better if I could lower my expectations. I am a bit of a perfectionist, which doesn’t help. But I must be doing something right; it’s all change again on the work front. Apparently, I have done such a good job for one side of the department, they want me to do the same job for the other half of the department. I have to give up the technical aspect of the job so I have enough time. Not too sure how I feel about it, plusses and minuses on both sides but time will tell.

The thing is, if you hadn't been 'you', would you have been able to help those people in the first place? What your trauma has done is set off a string of events that led you to being in a position to help, if those events hadn't unfolded the way they did.....

Price still to high! On that front though, another poster brought to my attention something called Logosynthesis, a therapy based on words. When I did some quick research it had instant appeal with its use of words. So, another book is on its way. Thing is, linking to what you said earlier here is an example of where it would be good if I could lower my expectations, instead of getting all excited and enthusiastic and thinking this is where the universe gives me a break! I tell you, you’ve got to give me ten out of ten for sheer persistence!

Actually, I came across a saying the other day and I thought it was so relevant to my situation .......... “We’ll get there in the end, and if we haven’t got there yet, it can’t be the end.” I find that really quite helpful.

. Often I feel the energetic currents and they can irritate the hell out of me, but I know they're just 'symptoms'.

Do you mean the energetic currents within you as a response to the changes, or external currents – or both?

"If I had the time to relive my Life
I don't think Id care to change a thing.
As long as I find, just a little peace of mind,
I can dream and laugh, and I can sing."

That made me tear up, still find it so unusal to see UH lyrics coming back at me! :hug3:

I still don't do too well in large social groups so I tend to avoid them if at all possible. Smaller, intimate groups are fine though because I'm with people that I want to be with and even though I prefer my own company I still enjoy the interaction.

Blimey! I could have written that. I really dislike and avoid at all costs large crowds. I get up at 6 am on Saturday so I can get to the supermarket at 7 am to avoid the crowds. It works well. I have to get around these occasional situations at work. Sometimes I’ve simply said no, I’m not attending as there are too many people for the size of the room. Like you, I much prefer one to one company. I occasionally go out for a meal with a friend but we get to the pub at 6.30 and often we have the whole restaurant to ourselves (as it’s so early).

There aren't many of those boxes I couldn't tick neither but I've never seen myself as an Indigo, there again I don't seem to fit snugly into any particular category.

Talking of categories, the one that really did strike home when I discovered it a few years ago was this one. Apparently, if you score more than 14 it means you are highly sensitive. There were only two that don’t apply to me. Explains it all really. I did join the forum for a while but found it didn’t take spirituality into account, hence my joining this forum where it seems anything goes, which is good for me.

http://hsperson.com/test/highly-sensitive-test/

OK, let's try something just out of curiosity - and I don't necessarily need an answer. If you were your Soul/Higher Self, what would you say to yourself? The reason I'm asking is You looked for irritation and you found it, you looked for ego and you found it, you looked for an example and you found it.... Nuff said?

Ah, the higher self. Well, surprising as it may seem, I don’t have a sense at all really of my higher self. Intuition/gut feel, yes. But that’s not the higher self, is it?? Images and words into my third eye, yes – but I believe that’s from my guides. I daresay the higher self could put something there if it wanted but I can’t differentiate between the two. Still, I’m assuming that the higher self is present and accounted for, so I don’t feel the need to go searching for it. If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it!

So, I’m eagerly awaiting the new book to see where that takes me.

Patrycia

Greenslade

11-02-2018, 12:15 PM

Hello Mr G,Hi Patrycia

I think for me I’d never heard songs that included a lot of magical references, The Magician’s Birthday was always a favourite. It was like there was a whole magical (spiritual) world out there that no one seemed to be aware of but I would connect to it via the songs and give me some world to escape to after a hard day at school. But on the pop culture, when people at school were into The Osmonds and David Cassidy, I preferred T-Rex and Slade. Marc Bolan was a little creepy at the time, there was just something about his eyes that disn't sit right at the time - they were 'sneaky eyes'. Slade though, now you're talking. Stomping platform shoes and Cum On Feel The Noise for my birthday, volume up and windows rattling.

Back then songs weren't just songs, they were reflections of what I had inside whether it was wanting to be 'just like the song' or it touched something deeper. At the time it was the only thing that did, there was no internet, no awareness of Spirituality and nobody to help me with those feelings.

Dissolving the Veil – I remember watching about ten minutes or so of that, a very interesting slant on perception. But then I had the feeling, as it is a brand new video, only a month old or so, that I was ‘skipping class’ so to speak. So I carried on watching the older videos. It’s a good way for me, as on the occasion he refers to a previous video or a previous teaching, I’ve seen it.

Also, really interesting, I’m currently watching The Eternal Invitation and thought this sounds very similar to the previous one I’d watched, a very similar message. And then he said in the video that he will go at a subject from a slightly different angle. I’ve seen this quite a few times.

I’m really looking forward to watching the new videos.Where Dissolving the Veil seems to come in is the perception of reality whereby we 'stand still' and reality flies past like frames of a film strip. I never did get that although I've come across it a few times before. I find it hard to accept blindly and so far nobody has come up with a way for me to experience it for myself. I've tried imagining it but how much of a 'real reality' is that?

I've had difficulty watching Spiritual vids recently for some reason, I guess it's because I've gone through such a drastic re-evaluation of everything and they just don't resonate any more. Someone once said "Change the word, change the paradigm" and the Spiritual paradigm just isn't working.

That’s a really good way of approaching things; I’m sure I’d do a lot better if I could lower my expectations. I am a bit of a perfectionist, which doesn’t help. But I must be doing something right; it’s all change again on the work front. Apparently, I have done such a good job for one side of the department, they want me to do the same job for the other half of the department. I have to give up the technical aspect of the job so I have enough time. Not too sure how I feel about it, plusses and minuses on both sides but time will tell. Expectations just get in the way and really they're just projections of the mind that colour the experience when it does happen. Giving up on the technical aspect is reflective of how you're changing but your mind hasn't quite come to grips with it, the mind tends to like its routines because it makes it feel safe. You've been on the fringes of abstract thoughts for a while and therefore less 'technical', earthly.

Price still to high! On that front though, another poster brought to my attention something called Logosynthesis, a therapy based on words. When I did some quick research it had instant appeal with its use of words. So, another book is on its way. Thing is, linking to what you said earlier here is an example of where it would be good if I could lower my expectations, instead of getting all excited and enthusiastic and thinking this is where the universe gives me a break! I tell you, you’ve got to give me ten out of ten for sheer persistence!

Actually, I came across a saying the other day and I thought it was so relevant to my situation .......... “We’ll get there in the end, and if we haven’t got there yet, it can’t be the end.” I find that really quite helpful. Change the words, change the paradigm - Logosynthesis, one and the same. I know the technique well, just never knew what it was called.

I don't like the words 'positive' and 'negative' because they can be anything you want, and nothing is either or in itself. An experience is just an experience, after that it's anything you want it to be - and that's a good place to start your logosynthesis. If you want it to be a toxic/negative experience then by that definition that's what it is in your reality - toxic/negative to you. That then becomes your paradigm and everything else follows after that, even to the point of paranoia. No lessons learned, rinse and repeat. If we are here to learn the lessons then that 'negative/toxic' experience can become a learning experience, and that then creates a paradigm where experiences become beneficial - Matt's "everything is here to help you." Lesson learned, move on, pass go but do not go directly to jail.

Expectations are more projections of the mind, it's kind of like trying to predict the future. Bringing your logosynthesis to bear on that one, you don't have expectations but you are excited as to what might happen. That keeps the energy alive and as something to be enjoyed, while not making any predictions and living more in The Now. "Right now I'm just excited, nothing more. When I get there it'll be even more exciting because I won't have disappointments to contend with."

As Ambassador Koch said to Captain Sheriden in an episode of Babylon 5 - "You have always been here."

Do you mean the energetic currents within you as a response to the changes, or external currents – or both?

I'm a very energy-sensitive person, sometimes I can sense people's energies when reading posts but I try not to as much as possible. I'm also aware that my own energies interact with others and there are wider energetic currents happening lately. They all flow in crazy, chaotic patterns but then given enough of it, even total randomness creates patterns.

That made me tear up, still find it so unusal to see UH lyrics coming back at me! :hug3: And I thought I was alone. :smile:

Blimey! I could have written that. I really dislike and avoid at all costs large crowds. I get up at 6 am on Saturday so I can get to the supermarket at 7 am to avoid the crowds. It works well. I have to get around these occasional situations at work. Sometimes I’ve simply said no, I’m not attending as there are too many people for the size of the room. Like you, I much prefer one to one company. I occasionally go out for a meal with a friend but we get to the pub at 6.30 and often we have the whole restaurant to ourselves (as it’s so early).I used to work in a very high intensity job, training in computers and jobsearch. It was a roll-on, roll-off programme and at various levels, so I could be doing the very basics one minute, integrating word processing, spreadsheets and database queries the next, then on to getting someone's CV sorted out. Granted there were parts of the job that were rewarding on so many levels, but after five years I was about burned out.

Talking of categories, the one that really did strike home when I discovered it a few years ago was this one. Apparently, if you score more than 14 it means you are highly sensitive. There were only two that don’t apply to me. Explains it all really. I did join the forum for a while but found it didn’t take spirituality into account, hence my joining this forum where it seems anything goes, which is good for me.

http://hsperson.com/test/highly-sensitive-test/

[/quote]To be honest I don't do categories and tests like this are a passing interest, I've never felt comfortable in boxes of any kind. I did the test though, just as a passing interest and got 17 although Life has made a few changes.

Ah, the higher self. Well, surprising as it may seem, I don’t have a sense at all really of my higher self. Intuition/gut feel, yes. But that’s not the higher self, is it?? Images and words into my third eye, yes – but I believe that’s from my guides. I daresay the higher self could put something there if it wanted but I can’t differentiate between the two. Still, I’m assuming that the higher self is present and accounted for, so I don’t feel the need to go searching for it. If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it!

So, I’m eagerly awaiting the new book to see where that takes me.

PatryciaMuch of what drives us especially Spiritually is energetic differences. We sense our own energetic levels and when we perceive things as being 'above' our levels, that's where Spiritual development comes in. Or cramming lots of Matt Khan into your head. Similarly with what you've been going through and the difference in energetic levels between where you are and where you're going - and the transition in between. When you 'get there' it all settles down. If it ain't broke don't fix it indeed, but you don't go looking for what you already know is there.

Good luck with the book, and I really would be interested in any insights for my 'toolbox'.

EndoftheRoad

12-02-2018, 08:13 PM

Greenslade

13-02-2018, 10:24 AM

In addition to that Highly Sensitive quiz, I'd recommend Elain Aron's "Sensitive" the movie, book may be better but I stumbled into a viewing of the documentary while at a retreat. For me, I wouldn't say I'm HS, alot of the checkmarks are tough to delineate from other personality traits, but it helped me to understand a little of what made me tick in certain moments where others did not. That's pretty much the Path I've been on. I've never been much interested in the ideologies and theologies but always wanted to know who and what I am. It's been an interesting Journey and the best bit is, just when you think you're alone in the crowd more pop out of the woodwork.

Try Gestalt Reality - http://www.gestaltreality.com/2013/05/22/the-multidimensional-self/
For me it's kind of like Einstein's Unified Theory but for Spirituality and it explains a lot - like parallel Lives instead of past Lives if there is no time, and those aspects of yourself that you seem to be finding. Yep, I got them too. For me, certain aspects come into play at the time - like wearing one hat to work and another at home. Whether you are an aspect of HS or HS is an aspect of you depends on your perspective of the structure - or not.

Just wanted to also say, The ongoing conversation between you two has been an eye opener and a joy to follow. There is an odd parallel to things that I have explored, and its been interesting to see the different interpretations.C'mon, quit lurking and come sit by the fire. Still, if you're finding it interesting anyway that's all to the good.

EndoftheRoad

14-02-2018, 02:04 PM

It's a winding path for sure, and interesting to see how much early life comes back into play. I 'stumbled' upon the teachings of Seth early on, it's a different way of perceiving but for me I found it because a lot of what i was experiencing was already written in a book which helped to calm the nerves.

Moonglow and you Greenslade had a conversation early on that helped me make sense of all the 'Noise'. And that you have to find what fits for you, and don't worry about the rest. I find that's been a simple mantra at times.

I'll be sure to chime in here and there.

That's pretty much the Path I've been on. I've never been much interested in the ideologies and theologies but always wanted to know who and what I am. It's been an interesting Journey and the best bit is, just when you think you're alone in the crowd more pop out of the woodwork.

Try Gestalt Reality - http://www.gestaltreality.com/2013/05/22/the-multidimensional-self/
For me it's kind of like Einstein's Unified Theory but for Spirituality and it explains a lot - like parallel Lives instead of past Lives if there is no time, and those aspects of yourself that you seem to be finding. Yep, I got them too. For me, certain aspects come into play at the time - like wearing one hat to work and another at home. Whether you are an aspect of HS or HS is an aspect of you depends on your perspective of the structure - or not.

C'mon, quit lurking and come sit by the fire. Still, if you're finding it interesting anyway that's all to the good.

Raziel

14-02-2018, 03:05 PM

I went through a spiritual awakening last year which culminated around March time. Last few months I've been experiencing some similar symptoms, back pain when I don't have back problems, increased/decreased appetite, no energy, extreme body heat, etc. I wondered what was going on and my guides put the word "ascension" in my third eye. I'd not heard of this term before but when I started reading up about it, it all fitted.

I've read that an awakening is about the inner, ascension is more about the physical body which echoes my experiences so far.

There are many posts about awakening but only one I can find on ascension. Anyone else going through/ been through this?

This describes it all really well.
http://in5d.com/transmutational-ascension-symptoms/

Patrycia

I'll say it because everyone else will be positive - are your sure that what your doing "spiritually" is safe?

The back, lower especially when "meddling" in other realms to me sounds like an attack.

Everything on the list you linked to (bar no 5) actually sounds like a positive spin on willing possession to me.

You'll see on my posts that I'm not part of any spiritual or religious group so this isn't a Christian having a finger wave at a Wiccan for example - I am genuinely concerned.

For every raver that had a fun night at the club using ecstasy - someone somewhere was dropping dead. All of the people taking risks & talking up the benefits is their business but I'd be an A-hole if I didn't point out the possible negatives.

I have had a single paranormal experience in 34 years but it was pretty convincing - I accept it is possible - please at least consider that something negative has a chance of happening once you open the gates.

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Greenslade

15-02-2018, 08:48 AM

It's a winding path for sure, and interesting to see how much early life comes back into play. I 'stumbled' upon the teachings of Seth early on, it's a different way of perceiving but for me I found it because a lot of what i was experiencing was already written in a book which helped to calm the nerves.

Moonglow and you Greenslade had a conversation early on that helped me make sense of all the 'Noise'. And that you have to find what fits for you, and don't worry about the rest. I find that's been a simple mantra at times.

I'll be sure to chime in here and there.I've been going through some early Life these past few months, looking at a lot of detail both psychologically and Spiritually. It's pretty amazing how it kind of sets you up for Life in those early stages and how much of what forms 'you' is still there much later.

The Universe has a tendency to give you what you need when you need it and in the way you need it. It's certainly worked that way for me. I've never been much for the 'book learning' but I'm sometimes drawn to seek something out for clarification or just stumble upon it will-nilly. Sometimes we feel so alone and we're the only ones going through something, and it's strange to find the same themes echoed again and again.

Ah yes, my mucker Moony. The word 'mucker' is Doric (my native tongue) and doesn't translate too well into English but we're old buddies.Often the simplest is the best and most elegant, but I'm glad it helped. Interestingly I;m still in contact with the guy that gave it to me so many years ago.

But do say hello as and when.

Patrycia-Rose

18-02-2018, 10:27 AM

Hello Mr G,

I've had difficulty watching Spiritual vids recently for some reason, I guess it's because I've gone through such a drastic re-evaluation of everything and they just don't resonate any more. Someone once said "Change the word, change the paradigm" and the Spiritual paradigm just isn't working.

I’ve only had a computer at home since 2011 and only got one as the child protection team I was working in got closed down and I needed to find a new job. I rarely ventured onto youtube, as it was a new concept, so the fact that there might be spiritual teachings/videos on it didn’t even occur to me. There was one video by Caroline Myss on forgiveness which I stumbled across about a year ago, that helped but the odd spiritual video I found whilst surfing didn’t really do much for me. It wasn’t until you pointed me in the direction of MK that I sat up and took notice and even in the beginning it was a gradual build up. Having said that, I’m having a MK free weekend as the weather is brightening up and I suddenly I’m finding practical things need attention, such as the garden.

Expectations just get in the way and really they're just projections of the mind that colour the experience when it does happen. Giving up on the technical aspect is reflective of how you're changing but your mind hasn't quite come to grips with it, the mind tends to like its routines because it makes it feel safe.

That is so true; and maybe would explain why I seem to be constantly disappointed by life. Any techniques to reduce expectations?

You've been on the fringes of abstract thoughts for a while and therefore less 'technical', earthly.

I’m not sure I am. I had a look at what that meant and did a ‘abstract thinking’ test. That sort of thing drives me up the wall; I got 5 out of 10 and much of that was guess work after I lost interest. Much of that type of thing sends me back to school and those questions that went something like, if it takes 6 men 2 days to dig 3 holes, how long would it take 12 men to dig 9 holes if there’s a blue moon in the sky .... That sort of question would close me down in an instant because I think I who the hell cares anyway and besides I don’t even understand the question. And thank heaven, the bell would ring ....

Change the words, change the paradigm - Logosynthesis, one and the same. I know the technique well, just never knew what it was called.

The book is frustratingly taking a long time to arrive, so I suspect it’s a case of arriving when it’s meant to.

No lessons learned, rinse and repeat. If we are here to learn the lessons then that 'negative/toxic' experience can become a learning experience, and that then creates a paradigm where experiences become beneficial - Matt's "everything is here to help you." Lesson learned, move on, pass go but do not go directly to jail.

Yes, and this is where I am truly and utterly Stuck! I’ve just read the notes I took on that teaching (I new all those notes would be useful) and he said: “If there are things in your life you can’t shake, it is because they are catalysts of your highest evolution, here to assist you in your highest growth and transformation when you learn how they are helping you.”

And this is what I just don’t get. How it's helping me. I could understand if I went through that trauma and through say six years of trying and learning differnet modalities of healing, something actually worked and healed the physical symptoms. I could accept that. But that’s not happening, I’m trying thing after thing after thing, 12 years, and nothing is working. Where’s the learning in that, what is the point? Anyway, I’’m going to see a medium next week (again!). Maybe the universe will give me a break and decide to help me, or give some guidance.

Expectations are more projections of the mind, it's kind of like trying to predict the future. Bringing your logosynthesis to bear on that one, you don't have expectations but you are excited as to what might happen. That keeps the energy alive and as something to be enjoyed, while not making any predictions and living more in The Now. "Right now I'm just excited, nothing more. When I get there it'll be even more exciting because I won't have disappointments to contend with.

I shall endeavour not to have any expectations with the Logosynthesis. I seem to recall there’s a similar Buddhist philosophy about not being attached to the outcome.

I'm a very energy-sensitive person, sometimes I can sense people's energies when reading posts but I try not to as much as possible. I'm also aware that my own energies interact with others and there are wider energetic currents happening lately. They all flow in crazy, chaotic patterns but then given enough of it, even total randomness creates patterns.

I can feel other people’s energies too, or feel the mood they’re in. Often when people at work come and see me and say they’re feeling this way, that way, I often know the reason before they do. Hence, there’s a few people who come and seek my view on a situation and they usually go off happy, with a new perspective.

And I thought I was alone. :smile:

I can imagine how the UH journey may have been a solitary one. I always had my brother to share it with; one of my fondest memories is when we got together with acoustic and bass guitars and sang Lady in Black and didn’t make too bad a job of it. In that respect, Mr G, you’re certainly alone no longer! :hug3:

To be honest I don't do categories and tests like this are a passing interest, I've never felt comfortable in boxes of any kind. I did the test though, just as a passing interest and got 17 although Life has made a few changes.

I don’t normally do boxes and categories either, except the HSP ones made a lot of sense. Some of these concepts came via work situations. About 20 years we had to do the Myers Brigg and I came out as an INFJ which didn’t surprise me when it turned out to be the rarest in the system with less than 2% of the population. In a new job now, we’ve all been asked to do Insights training, so lord knows what that will come out as.

Good luck with the book, and I really would be interested in any insights for my 'toolbox'.

For sure, I’ll let you know what I make of the book and if there’s anything of interest.

I'm pleased other posters are gaining from our conversation, although I'm still hoping for some Uriah Heep converts!

Patrycia

Greenslade

18-02-2018, 01:31 PM

Hello Mr G,Hi there Patrycia

I’ve only had a computer at home since 2011 and only got one as the child protection team I was working in got closed down and I needed to find a new job. I rarely ventured onto youtube, as it was a new concept, so the fact that there might be spiritual teachings/videos on it didn’t even occur to me. There was one video by Caroline Myss on forgiveness which I stumbled across about a year ago, that helped but the odd spiritual video I found whilst surfing didn’t really do much for me. It wasn’t until you pointed me in the direction of MK that I sat up and took notice and even in the beginning it was a gradual build up. Having said that, I’m having a MK free weekend as the weather is brightening up and I suddenly I’m finding practical things need attention, such as the garden.I first got into computers in around 1989 or so when I was in the music industry. Back then I was with a training company which was doing a lot of building frameworks for training in the music business. I was also putting together a couple of 'movements' that were gathering momentum and I would have been a mogul had it not been for infighting and ego. Strangely enough that was one of the things we were trying to move away from. Oh well. Back then I was into desktop publishing because it was a great way to do publicity and the like. That developed into web design and later on I designed and delivered web design and other internet training.

To be honest I'd never taken much of an interest in Spiritual videos because they all felt too airy-fairy, I never did suit floppy hats and with my knees flowery dresses are out. Ball gowns though, oh yeah baby. I'd been watching Bashar, he's supposed to be a guy channelling s sixth-dimensional being who had a really idiosyncratic personality and that appealed as much as what he was saying. One day Matt's First Wave of Ascension popped up in the list and although I don't usually go for that stuff I felt I had to.

I'm having a Bladerunner binge this weekend, immersing myself in a dark, dystopian world where replicants turn on their masters (a Nietzschian 'God is dead') and have quite a Spiritual Journey to themselves. Both movies back-to-back. Really, it's all an exploration of consciousness and sometimes more inspiring than answers. But then I find The Wizard of Oz very Spiritual.

That is so true; and maybe would explain why I seem to be constantly disappointed by life. Any techniques to reduce expectations?Sit yourself down in the quiet and ask yourself one question. "How different would the Universe be if I had never existed?" Go back as far as you can and also follow the connections through, so because you told someone you were their friend that turned them around completely. Cause and effect kicks in and they changed the Lives of other people. And no, very often you won't know just how much of a difference you made but that's not the point. The point is that you know you made even the slightest difference to them and that'll have a knock-on effect.

If you're disappointed you haven't found what you're looking for. Cue U2 song. What are you looking for? What does having expectations do to you and how does that make you feel? How would you feel better? And before you tell me it's obvious, don't. What you need to do is work through that process by having a dialogue with yourself to dismantle your expectations framework of what you expect, the reasons (not why, reasons) you expect it, and while you're looking at disappointment what are you missing?

I’m not sure I am. I had a look at what that meant and did a ‘abstract thinking’ test. That sort of thing drives me up the wall; I got 5 out of 10 and much of that was guess work after I lost interest. Much of that type of thing sends me back to school and those questions that went something like, if it takes 6 men 2 days to dig 3 holes, how long would it take 12 men to dig 9 holes if there’s a blue moon in the sky .... That sort of question would close me down in an instant because I think I who the hell cares anyway and besides I don’t even understand the question. And thank heaven, the bell would ring ....Spirituality is abstract thought, it's about beliefs that often seem to have little reason or logic. Like finding meanings in soma bottles.

If it takes an elephant a week to walk a fortnight, how many apples in a barrel of grapes?
A train.
I didn't get it.
Oh well, the next one's in ten minutes.

That's like Spirituality, isn't it?

In all of these tests, what you're testing yourself against isn't the 'actual' answers but what a shrink says the answers are. What if your head is fine, what if the shrink's head is screwed? Shrinks look at the symptoms, not the 'disease' itself. The bottom line is that the tests are designed by humans just as human as the people taking them. By the way, I got very frustrated very quickly with it too.

The book is frustratingly taking a long time to arrive, so I suspect it’s a case of arriving when it’s meant to.Give your brain a break, it's probably basking in the non-Spirituality for a change.

Yes, and this is where I am truly and utterly Stuck! I’ve just read the notes I took on that teaching (I new all those notes would be useful) and he said: “If there are things in your life you can’t shake, it is because they are catalysts of your highest evolution, here to assist you in your highest growth and transformation when you learn how they are helping you.”

And this is what I just don’t get. How it's helping me. I could understand if I went through that trauma and through say six years of trying and learning differnet modalities of healing, something actually worked and healed the physical symptoms. I could accept that. But that’s not happening, I’m trying thing after thing after thing, 12 years, and nothing is working. Where’s the learning in that, what is the point? Anyway, I’’m going to see a medium next week (again!). Maybe the universe will give me a break and decide to help me, or give some guidance.[/quote]Nikola Tesla said "I have not failed a thousand times, I have learned a thousand ways it can't be done." Although he's famed for being a scientist, what's not recognised is that he was a deeply Spiritual person. As was Einstein and Max Planck - and pretty much all of their contemporaries.

The question is, what's not working? No it's not obvious before you get crankie with me. You know that all those methods don't work but what's catalysing those methods? What's underneath them? And what do they all have in common? They are all modalities of healing. Let that sink in. They are all modalities of healing, and what you're trying to heal are the physical symptoms. What are the reasons you're trying to heal the physical symptoms? Because you don't like being restricted, it means you can't run, it reminds you of an episode in your Life you'd rather forget... Another reason? You can't come to terms with yourself. both physically and perceptually? Because your being fit and healthy meant you had something to feel good about, something that was yours?

The point is that you have to keep drilling down to get through all the layers, like peeling away at an onion. And yes, it can make you cry but it's worth it every time. I'm not saying you shouldn't go to the medium, if that's what you feel like doing then by all means. What I will say is that for the guidance to be relevant you need to be as sure as possible as to what you need guided to. So it comes back to the question of what you are trying to heal, and more relevant is what are the reasons you're trying to heal it? Some things aren't meant to be healed, and when we come to that understanding we begin to realise something very different - the reasons.

I don't need to be healed because what creaks and groans physically, mentally, emotionally and Spiritually means my self-acceptance is so much stronger than if I was 'perfect', and so I become perfect in my imperfections. If it was any other way perhaps this thread might have died a long time ago.

I shall endeavour not to have any expectations with the Logosynthesis. I seem to recall there’s a similar Buddhist philosophy about not being attached to the outcome.There are probably any number of things that say much the same thing, including Living on the Now. Energy flows where the attention goes (link to your healing) so if the attention goes to attachment/expectation? Doesn't that mean less energy and focus with which to have the experience therefore less of an experience?

I can feel other people’s energies too, or feel the mood they’re in. Often when people at work come and see me and say they’re feeling this way, that way, I often know the reason before they do. Hence, there’s a few people who come and seek my view on a situation and they usually go off happy, with a new perspective.What advice would you give you if you could feel your own energies?

I can imagine how the UH journey may have been a solitary one. I always had my brother to share it with; one of my fondest memories is when we got together with acoustic and bass guitars and sang Lady in Black and didn’t make too bad a job of it. In that respect, Mr G, you’re certainly alone no longer! :hug3:Thank you, and that touches something deep inside.

I don’t normally do boxes and categories either, except the HSP ones made a lot of sense. Some of these concepts came via work situations. About 20 years we had to do the Myers Brigg and I came out as an INFJ which didn’t surprise me when it turned out to be the rarest in the system with less than 2% of the population. In a new job now, we’ve all been asked to do Insights training, so lord knows what that will come out as. Many years ago it seems, I used to train trainers and as part of the many criteria was stuff like Pavlov's Theory and Maslo's Hierarchy of Needs. It's pretty interesting when you start putting those into practice because you have a better understanding about what makes people tick. Spirituality isn't so far away, especially from Pavlov's Theory. Yep, he's the guy with the whistle and the dogs. Spirituality is the whistle, a place in heaven is the food and we're the dogs.

Around the same time I was in a training day, as part of that we were doing one of those silly warm-up exercises. We were told that we were going to be given pieces of plastic and our mission was to make a pattern. From that I learned that I'm a lateral thinker, they don't make patterns too readily and when they are given something that doesn't fit the pattern, they'll more readily change the pattern to accommodate. Column thinkers will create very rigid patterns very quickly and accept or reject accordingly. I guess mixing psychology, science and Spirituality counts as lateral thinking?

I can't remember what I had for Myers-Brigg, but then if I did it now the results would be different.

For sure, I’ll let you know what I make of the book and if there’s anything of interest.

I'm pleased other posters are gaining from our conversation, although I'm still hoping for some Uriah Heep converts!

PatryciaThat would be good. I'm not much up on book-learning but sometimes there are nuggets that this nugget finds interesting.

I think Uriah Heep converts is too much to ask for, most of them haven't got their heads out of the Spiritual sand, bless their cotton socks. If only they'd be inspired by Beautiful Dream being the musical parallel to awakening but that's the loss for a column thinker. :smile: It's nice to think someone else is benefiting.

Nitiananda

19-02-2018, 03:21 PM

Patrycia-Rosa then what happens to a person when he has a cleansing of the astral body is well described in my teacher's book: "The secret method of development of super-abilities"
Quote from this book:

TEST: "BURNING IN FIRE" AND "DIVING IN WATER"
The word "baptism" is used to denote the sacrament of conversion to the Christian faith. According to this initial meaning, baptism can be compared to acquiring a special kind of experience or a test through which a person must pass for his HEAVEN development. In our understanding, "Baptism by fire and water" just points to a similar test. Some of you will probably be surprised: "If a person practices, his soul and body must necessarily become more perfect, otherwise the practice loses its meaning." Meanwhile, you claim that the spiritual body must also pass through the test. ? "
It is not so important for you to know what I personally think about this. But I have to admit that at this stage a person has to go through a trial. A little later I will describe a method that allows to pass this stage safely. Here I am talking only about the test for the physical body. Under the influence of that test through which the spiritual body passes, the physical body also undergoes changes, as a result of which the person must suffer.
When the Pingala channel opens, the spiritual body is subjected to a fire test, which is caused by the action of the solar magnetic field. It is transmitted to the physical body in the form of heat, inflammatory processes, visual impairment, etc. During this period, a person experiences a terrible martyrdom - as if it is burned on fire. On the contrary, when the Ida channel opens under the influence of the moon's magnetic field, a person suffers from colds, numbness, coldness, and loss of strength. It seems to him that he was dipped in cold water.
These tortures are so strong that a person has to choose one of two things: either to stop practicing, or to find a way to endure suffering and achieve a higher level of spiritual development. There is no place for pity here. Only those who survive the severe test of "Baptism with Fire and Water" will be able to move to the next step in their practice. However, it should be noted that if a person who has already passed, like me, the first step, gives Shaktipat to a practitioner, then the latter can achieve Kunanlini's awakening without going through the "Baptism with fire and water."
You probably remember that, according to the Christian teaching. God created the first man, Adam, from the soil. This soil had to be viscous enough to mold a human figure out of it, in other words, it was clay. But for the roasting of the form and giving it strength and strength, "Baptism of fire" is required. However, if clay was only burned, then a person would die. Therefore, it took "Baptism of water". In the sutras it is also asserted that a person can lose his life if he does not have a mentor, only through "Baptism by fire".
BURNING BAD KARMA. ADVERTISE THE HUMAN NATURE
"Baptism by fire and water" has a different meaning. The point is that in the process of transformation of the human body into a divine (supernatural) person, one must eradicate the bad karma (unwholesome deeds) accumulated during his human existence. If through the "Baptism of fire and water" your body receives the experience of the Hot and Cold Hells, then you can destroy the bad karma you accumulated earlier.
Some of you are likely to object: "I did not accumulate bad karma at all." But you should know that the criteria by which bad karma is determined are so severe that even the killing of a cockroach is considered an unwholesome act. That's why ordinary people accumulate bad karma without even realizing it. B> The practice of destroying bad karma with the help of "Baptism by fire and water" refers to the category of acetic;
There is, however, another way to eradicate bad karma. I mean remorse before God or a Buddha in the sins you committed. However, in our days, when the true Damme is not widely spread, people have false ideas about good and evil. Therefore, you should not particularly rely on repentance when it comes to the need to destroy bad karma.
The third way to eradicate bad karma is the accumulation of Merit (good deeds), in other words the practice of Sacrifice. As I mentioned, there are three types of Sacrifice:
Sacrifice of material things (money and money).
Sacrifice of soothing (helping mourning a soulful worry).
Sacrifice of Damme (propagate true spiritual teaching).
But in the modern age ... few people are imbued with the true spirit of Sacrifice.
Therefore, I think that only due to the accumulation of Merit modern people can not achieve in their practice the level at which you can destroy your bad karma.
Therefore, in my opinion, to advance in practice you better go through "Baptism with fire and water" in order to eradicate bad karma

peteyzen

19-02-2018, 04:46 PM

Nitiananda

19-02-2018, 04:53 PM

Well, such things are usually written by theorists who read various stupid books. If you practiced in serious practice with a real Guru for 5-10 years, then such things would not be written.

peteyzen

19-02-2018, 05:11 PM

I humbly bow to your greater wisdom Nitiananda

Greenslade

20-02-2018, 08:47 AM

karma is dependent on one thing and that is our intent. Karma isnt something that is sometimes produced, it is constant, every single intent produces karma. The skillful way to be , is to understand this and to endeavour to create karma skillfully. Karma is simply a boomerang as you intend, so you create a returning energy.Some small karmas can be burnt off using spiritual practices, but larger karma has to be paid.The only exception to this is by divine intervention and that too has to be earned.In the original Sanskrit, 'karma' is translated to 'action'. Later on the moral component was added and nowadays.... well it's got out of hand, frankly. In Sanskrit 'kamma' is translated as 'behaviour' but what you're talking about here - kinda - is Kamma-Vipaka, basically the results of kamma but it's a lot more 'technical' than that. You don't really create Kamma, it happens as a result of your intentions so even non-action has consequences. If you do something because you're helping out a fellow Spirit then it'll work in your favour. If you're doing it to achieve the Spiritual high ground it ain't gonna happen. That's about vibrations. "Paying karma" is the mentality that spawned and propagates the misconceptions of karma, and the more you think about it the less sense it makes. The Universal Law of Karma has become reward and punishment mentality - be nice or you won't go to heaven.

Greenslade

20-02-2018, 08:49 AM

Therefore, in my opinion, to advance in practice you better go through "Baptism with fire and water" in order to eradicate bad karmaWhat makes 'good karma' good and what makes 'bad karma' bad? For all the great minds in this forum nobody has yet been able to tell me how to tell which is what. Take your best shot. :smile:

I've had the discussions and they usually boil down to judgement.

peteyzen

20-02-2018, 07:27 PM

Greenslade

21-02-2018, 08:36 AM

To be truthful greenslade we are saying the same thing. I am saying that intent creates karma, not action. And I say that our every intention is constantly creating karma that will produce our future. I speak of "skilful' karmic c creation, not good or bad. We aren't so far apart in our perceptions.Karma and kamma are two different things and the law of karma isn't what it's portrayed as. Karma is looking at two sides of the same coin, you come into one Life as a victim and another as a perpetrator, that way there's a balance of experience. Karma has nothing to do with intention, Kamma-Vipaka has, and is the result of intention of action. Another way of putting it is the reasons you take an action. If you take an action with the intention of being 'holier than thou' or a better person, Kamma-Vipaka will kick in either way. The 'skilful' will be whether you're actually Spiritual or you're just telling yourself you are.

Lorelyen

21-02-2018, 11:39 AM

I'm having a fair bit of trouble with this ascension stuff; encountered it on a brief weekend course then elsewhere earlier this morning and can't seem to separate it from "spiritual development" with mostly the same aim and some ways the same path but in different words. Pre that course I looked stuff up on the web and as usual it wasn't helpful.

I think one problem is it's still based on the old hierarchical stuff. Ascension=going up? Why? What's up there that isn't in the deepest recesses?

The other is that its master/chela structure seems more like a stab at religion. Allows no room for consensus. That course didn't welcome me. Its leaders didn't like questions. One of them was like that blonde pseudo-shrink in Wayward Pines, all mind games and brainwashing through feel-good rewards in the good old limbic. The way it was painted to me was a kind of spiritual free-masonry. Much around "group" with its pecking order.

I'm always curious, please understand, because there may be things to learn but if it's a quasi-religion I'll avoid it.
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peteyzen

21-02-2018, 01:59 PM

Karma and kamma are two different things and the law of karma isn't what it's portrayed as. Karma is looking at two sides of the same coin, you come into one Life as a victim and another as a perpetrator, that way there's a balance of experience. Karma has nothing to do with intention, Kamma-Vipaka has, and is the result of intention of action. Another way of putting it is the reasons you take an action. If you take an action with the intention of being 'holier than thou' or a better person, Kamma-Vipaka will kick in either way. The 'skilful' will be whether you're actually Spiritual or you're just telling yourself you are.
With respect that may be your definition of Karma and kamma, but generally they are interchangeable words for the same thing. I could bore the **** out of people by posting endless definitions to back my statement and no doubt you will. So, karma has everything to do with intention. secondly, essentially as I said, skillful use of karma is understanding that your intention creates whatever you intend, to come boomeranging back to you. If people delude themselves or dont examine their thoughts , then that is unskilfull use of the law of karma. So, essentially we are saying the same thing. Which I said previously

Jyotir

21-02-2018, 02:40 PM

BlueSky

21-02-2018, 04:49 PM

Karma and kamma are essentially the same thing. They refer to the same principle, regardless of errant interpretations or incomplete or misconceived definitions.

For practical purposes in discussion of karma: Intention IS action. There really is no difference, just a matter of degree, since occultly, 'energy follows thought'.

What ultimately determines any manifestation of karma is the Will of the Highest, which is the truth-consciousness of existence. It determines the generalized 'law' and subsequent outcomes, but also allows for any specific 'modification' of law in compassionate response (higher law) to the limited free will of individuals in consciously aspiring to that very truth-consciousness in and through earthly action (intent) that is deliberately authentically spiritual.

~ J

The term "truth consciousness" stood out to me so I Googled it and came across Swami Amar Jyoti.
I said to myself that this is either a sign or just a coincidence lol.
In any case I ordered a book that caught my eye.
Does your avatar name have anything to do with this?
I kinda hope so because I really value your posts and I feel like I found some something good in this website of his

lemex

21-02-2018, 05:00 PM

intention creates whatever you intend, to come boomeranging back to you.

I don't agree and actually see this as one of karmas dogma. Where act mirrors intention there is no difference. But what of a person who has a first thought but does not act on the intention even opposite to it. The thought was there but not done. Maybe ones intention is as vague as to be a better person and thus is learning. It is too incomplete and unyielding.

Jyotir

21-02-2018, 05:43 PM

The term "truth consciousness" stood out to me so I Googled it and came across Swami Amar Jyoti.
I said to myself that this is either a sign or just a coincidence lol.
In any case I ordered a book that caught my eye.
Does your avatar name have anything to do with this?
I kinda hope so because I really value your posts and I feel like I found some something good in this website of his

Hi BlueSky,

I'm happy you connected with something that inspires you, and thanks for the kind words.

The identification with divine light is fairly common amongst aspirants as it is the predominant quality of truth-consciousness. I would consider myself a student of the teachings of Sri Aurobindo, who was using the term ‘truth-consciousness’ in printed publications before the swami (who died in 2001), was born. I had actually never heard of Swami Amar Jyoti until you mentioned him in your post.

Truth-consciousness in Sri Aurobindo’s system of Integral Yoga refers to the supramental plane or supramental consciousness which is full awareness of Self as identity in static undifferentiated Being, but also simultaneously, as the Will of that Highest for all aspects of becoming in dynamic differentiated form which is also that Self.

~ J

BlueSky

22-02-2018, 12:14 AM

Hi BlueSky,

I'm happy you connected with something that inspires you, and thanks for the kind words.

The identification with divine light is fairly common amongst aspirants as it is the predominant quality of truth-consciousness. I would consider myself a student of the teachings of Sri Aurobindo, who was using the term ‘truth-consciousness’ in printed publications before the swami (who died in 2001), was born. I had actually never heard of Swami Amar Jyoti until you mentioned him in your post.

Truth-consciousness in Sri Aurobindo’s system of Integral Yoga refers to the supramental plane or supramental consciousness which is full awareness of Self as identity in static undifferentiated Being, but also simultaneously, as the Will of that Highest for all aspects of becoming in dynamic differentiated form which is also that Self.

~ J
Is that written in English lol

Greenslade

22-02-2018, 09:56 AM

With respect that may be your definition of Karma and kamma, but generally they are interchangeable words for the same thing. I could bore the **** out of people by posting endless definitions to back my statement and no doubt you will. So, karma has everything to do with intention. secondly, essentially as I said, skillful use of karma is understanding that your intention creates whatever you intend, to come boomeranging back to you. If people delude themselves or dont examine their thoughts , then that is unskilfull use of the law of karma. So, essentially we are saying the same thing. Which I said previously To be honest, I've heard all the arguments with karma before and frankly I'm bored with them. No offence you you. With kamma, I've done my homework for kamma and spoken to people in this forum who have spelled it out to me and it's very much in line with my own beliefs. Shocking I know. I've also had extensive arguments over what karma is or isn't and the more I've discussed the more it's descended into nonsense. Karma is nothing more than judgement and reward/punishment mentality and I haven't had a single argument that hasn't gone past that very thin veneer.

Raziel

22-02-2018, 10:43 AM

Karma is nothing more than judgement and reward/punishment mentality and I haven't had a single argument that hasn't gone past that very thin veneer.

I said this about a year ago & it caused all sorts of wailing.

If you expose the pyramid scheme nobody profits & those considering themselves higher up have nothing to gloat about.

Specifically the "new age" definition.

Greenslade

23-02-2018, 09:21 AM

I said this about a year ago & it caused all sorts of wailing.

If you expose the pyramid scheme nobody profits & those considering themselves higher up have nothing to gloat about.

Specifically the "new age" definition.I'm just wondering as to why there are so many karma threads lying about, it's like a rash that refuses to go away. That reminds me of a Billy Connelly joke but it's too bad taste for these hallowed places.

It's been said that every religion was right for that people at that time, I'm wondering how modern-day Spirituality and the millennial/snowflake generation reflect each other. Perhaps Spirituality is an entropic system after all.

Raziel

23-02-2018, 09:40 AM

I'm just wondering as to why there are so many karma threads lying about, it's like a rash that refuses to go away. That reminds me of a Billy Connelly joke but it's too bad taste for these hallowed places.

It's been said that every religion was right for that people at that time, I'm wondering how modern-day Spirituality and the millennial/snowflake generation reflect each other. Perhaps Spirituality is an entropic system after all.

The forum comments reveal that often people need to "justify" themselves.

Americans especially seem to require labels as a way to identify in a manner which I don't find as obsessive here in the UK.

Those who claim not to be part of the "bigger, faster, stronger" ideology still seem to need to lord over others via karma. Heck I've just had a feminist call me something repulsive as a way to silence a different take on her "facts" as they made her feel special.

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Greenslade

23-02-2018, 10:12 AM

The forum comments reveal that often people need to "justify" themselves.

Americans especially seem to require labels as a way to identify in a manner which I don't find as obsessive here in the UK.

Those who claim not to be part of the "bigger, faster, stronger" ideology still seem to need to lord over others via karma. Heck I've just had a feminist call me something repulsive as a way to silence a different take on her "facts" as they made her feel special.

.My mother used to say that empty barrels make the most noise, that pointed the way for me to ask what someone is 'missing' if they feel the need to take it out on someone else. If people feel the need to justify themselves they're 'missing' something. Often that's the reason why people come to Spirituality, they have a lack in their Lives that needs to be filled and that plays out in the forums. It's a bit like turning to God to find answers or solace.

You should have tried non-verbal communication with that feminist, even though people don't know all that much about it they still get the message. Just yawn and look bored, scratch your backside a few times and look away. That really ticks them off.

Raziel

23-02-2018, 10:24 AM

My mother used to say that empty barrels make the most noise

I like that :smile:

Greenslade

23-02-2018, 11:46 AM

I like that :smile:And sometimes people are just people, man. :hug3:

Patrycia-Rose

25-02-2018, 09:44 AM

Morning Mr G,

Back then I was into desktop publishing because it was a great way to do publicity and the like. That developed into web design and later on I designed and delivered web design and other internet training.

Ha! That’s a blast from the past. Desktop publishing takes me back to learning this at evening college when it first came out!

If you're disappointed you haven't found what you're looking for. Cue U2 song.

That reminded me of a happy memory from about 20 years when I was travelling with four people from work going to a training course for the day. We could not find the venue was driving round looking for it and on the radio came U2 singing "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For." One of those surreal moments and it was so funny.

What are you looking for? What does having expectations do to you and how does that make you feel? How would you feel better? And before you tell me it's obvious, don't. What you need to do is work through that process by having a dialogue with yourself to dismantle your expectations framework of what you expect, the reasons (not why, reasons) you expect it, and while you're looking at disappointment what are you missing?

Unfortunately, I am a perfectionist and as unhelpful as it sounds, if I put effort into something I expect it to be perfect. Ain’t that the perfect recipe for disaster? Constant disappointment is how it makes me feel because rarely does anything live up to my expectations. I don't know where the perfectionist comes from, maybe I've always been this way, it has its uses at work. But I am guessing that I am missing living through the experience and letting it unfold naturally rather than constantly trying to manipulate circumstances to my perfectionist ideal. Given that blend, you can see why I am constantly disappointed.

The question is, what's not working? No it's not obvious before you get crankie with me. You know that all those methods don't work but what's catalysing those methods? What's underneath them? And what do they all have in common? They are all modalities of healing. Let that sink in. They are all modalities of healing, and what you're trying to heal are the physical symptoms. What are the reasons you're trying to heal the physical symptoms?

I was struggling to know where to begin to answer that beyond the ‘something happens’, ‘you sustain injuries/symptoms’ ‘you try to heal them’ because that’s what you do.

However, you must have dug into my thoughts there as that is pretty much it .....

Because you don't like being restricted, it means you can't run, it reminds you of an episode in your Life you'd rather forget... Another reason? You can't come to terms with yourself. both physically and perceptually? Because your being fit and healthy meant you had something to feel good about, something that was yours?

What advice would you give you if you could feel your own energies?

Now this is where things got interesting.

I sat down and imagined a colleague come to me for help and started to tell me what happened, so I was essentially listening to myself but dressed up visually as someone else. This was quite revealing and I came out of the visualisation with a different angle. So in reality, the trauma went on for a couple of months, culminating in four days from hell. But there was a time / day / moment when the trauma was over. When I realised it was over, I was initially relieved, even slightly high and my immediate reaction was, it’s over and I’ve survived! (death, albeit rare, was a possibility). But over the next few days, I started to ask hang on a minute, why did this happen, why didn’t that happen, something doesn’t add up. And I quickly went from feeling relieved to increasing anger, some of it directed to myself as I hadn’t listened to myself. If I had listened to myself and done things my way, it wouldn’t have happened. It would have taken a monumental amount of courage, conviction and no one in my corner was encouraging me.

Now when I came out of the visualisation, I felt a lot of relief, weight off my shoulders, I felt quite different and I saw clearly for the first time how I’d gone from relief to anger and have carried that anger around ever since.

I believe that method is called two chair technique.

So come Wednesday I went to see the medium. Overall, it was a brilliant sitting with many folks from the other side coming through with a lot of validation. But on the trauma front, which is the reason I went, the medium said several things. He said to look at the knowledge and wisdom I’ve gained from it (thought of you when he said that!) and that I’m looking at the experience with the eyes I have today. But the significant thing is I was a tad disappointed after Sunday’s quite profound experience, that as I was talking about the trauma that anger is still there. He picked up on that (it would have been hard not to!) and he said he could feel my frustration. There was a helpful repeat from the information I’ve gathered over the years through other mediums, kinesiology etc. That due to the trauma going on for so long, this tipped my body over to an acid state, so there’s a high level of acid in my blood (uric acid). So all the anger I feel, which clearly is still there, is maintaining that acidity so when I feel anxious, frustrated or angry with things in every day life, that’s just maintaining the status quo. So when I get a flare up of symptoms, that reminds me it’s still there, I get frustrated and angry and it’s a catch 22. He pretty much confirmed that I’m not going to solve this by going on an alkaline diet. My diet is pretty much on that side anyway. He said that I could do the slightest alteration with diet and then be sitting in traffic getting irritated by someone who cut me up and all the work done with food with go out of the window. He said I have to find a way that suits me to resolve the stress and anxiety and anger I feel. On a positive note, he did say he felt I’d been through all the s **** in life and my challenge now is to resolve this.

So, that’s why none of the healing has worked – because I’m still holding onto the anger. So I feel as though I’m having to start over and go inwards. But if it was that simple, just go in, let go of the anger, I’d have done it already! He said a few years ago I’d get resolve this using my mind. But frankly, short of a personality transplant, I’ve no idea where to start. He did say I have a very strong mind, and that’s true even as a child, but I need to find some way of turning that to my advantage. But ..... no idea where to start. I don’t think it’s going to come from find a method on the internet. The only slight hope is that I had a message from my guides to say that they would show me the way when the time is right.

I think Uriah Heep converts is too much to ask for, most of them haven't got their heads out of the Spiritual sand, bless their cotton socks. If only they'd be inspired by Beautiful Dream being the musical parallel to awakening but that's the loss for a column thinker. :smile: It's nice to think someone else is benefiting.

You know, something rather wonderful happened there. Somewhere between the conversion from tape to vinyl to CD, I’d never got RtF and so I couldn’t immediately bring Beautiful Dream to mind. I thought initially it was from Firefly. But then I found it on Youtube and it was so weird, it was familiar but not. Anyway, situation now rectified as I’ve got the re-mastered version and boy it sounds good!

Patrycia

Lorelyen

25-02-2018, 10:18 AM

Nice one.

My mother used to say that empty barrels make the most noise, that pointed the way for me to ask what someone is 'missing' if they feel the need to take it out on someone else. If people feel the need to justify themselves they're 'missing' something. Often that's the reason why people come to Spirituality, they have a lack in their Lives that needs to be filled and that plays out in the forums. It's a bit like turning to God to find answers or solace.
Recently I came to realise why I'll never get on with the outpourings of Abraham Hicks Inc. Her/his stuff seems addressed to people who are in a bad place. Nothing wrong with that except it would be nice if a bottle of maple syrup was supplied with some of it. I came upon a book titled "The Astonishing Power of Emotion" subtitled "Let your feelings be your guide.". That subtitle would seem a mischievous exhortation to someone who needed that book. The authoress seems to dwell on the classical views of emotion which don't seem too helpful for spirituality generally.

But then the authors also plug this Law of Attraction thing (get or be whatever you want without any work) which prompts me to ask if they really believe in it? I read a few pages in that Emotions book and it seemed like they wanted to turn purchasers' lives into a procedure. On the other hand, LoA seems to have worked for them. They're doing very well selling books on these subjects.

You should have tried non-verbal communication with that feminist, even though people don't know all that much about it they still get the message. Just yawn and look bored, scratch your backside a few times and look away. That really ticks them off.
Absolutely. Current-day feminists seem motivated by anger. They're doing women generally a disservice. Why on earth they want to control what other women think and do beats me. They're sometimes out on the plaza in front of a local mall fired up even more by heckling let alone facial interpretation.

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Greenslade

25-02-2018, 11:26 AM

Nice one.

Recently I came to realise why I'll never get on with the outpourings of Abraham Hicks Inc. Her/his stuff seems addressed to people who are in a bad place. Nothing wrong with that except it would be nice if a bottle of maple syrup was supplied with some of it. I came upon a book titled "The Astonishing Power of Emotion" subtitled "Let your feelings be your guide.". That subtitle would seem a mischievous exhortation to someone who needed that book. The authoress seems to dwell on the classical views of emotion which don't seem too helpful for spirituality generally.

But then the authors also plug this Law of Attraction thing (get or be whatever you want without any work) which prompts me to ask if they really believe in it? I read a few pages and it seemed like they wanted to turn the lives of those in need into a procedure. On the other hand, LoA seems to have worked for them. They seem to be doing very well selling books on these subjects. Thank you.

It's been said that it's easier to explain a black hole than it is to explain how someone comes to a decision, we're trying so hard to be awesome that we can't (or won't) see how awesome we already are.

Can't help but wonder how well a book with the message 'You don't need this book' would sell. That would really appeal to my sense of humour.

When it comes to books - and the same goes for YouTube channels in a way - it really comes down to supply and demand. Authors do their homework for their target audience and write books that people will buy, it's simple economics as supply and demand dance around each other. Good old economics is a large factor in creating today's Spirituality as much - if not more - than the people that believe in it. People read the books then bring that to the forum and on it goes. It's been said that every religion was right for that culture at the time so what does modern Spirituality say about today's culture? Because like it or not, God made man and man made Spirituality so modern Spirituality is a reflection of what's in people's heads. The books don't so much become helpful to a new Spirituality, they become the foundations of it; the books are only there because people buy them. Be afraid, be very afraid.

People want to believe they can get something for nothing, after all Life is expensive so a bargain is a huge attraction. If they can attract riches with the minimum of effort? Books like this attract the "Snowflake Generation", the kind of people who won't get down and dirty with the core issues. While that may sound like judgement it isn't intended that way, I just find it interesting.

The authors of the LoA books understand how the system works then play to that system. They 'invoke' the LoA by putting their energy into something that will sell their books and that's where target audience comes in. If the book is selling, even though you may not agree with it being a procedure they're doing something right just the same. Perhaps the people buying the book can better deal with a procedure that's apart from their everyday Lives, isn't that what happens in Spirituality mostly?

"Sometimes people are just people, man"

Absolutely. Current-day feminists seem motivated by anger. They're doing women generally a disservice. Why on earth they want to control what other women think and do beats me.I can understand addressing the balance because women often find themselves with a raw deal - as does anyone who is discriminated against. Often human nature simply over-compensates and instead of finding a balance or middle ground they bounce to the opposite extreme. Often people feel disempowered and disenfranchised - which I think is an attractor with Spirituality - and over-compensate with political correctness, which is little more than a fascism. What made me smile recently was an article on vegetarian terrorists and demonstrators, which is just another 'flavour' of feminism. I can understand it but to the point of terrorism???? Plant Lives Matter Too!!! Sorry, couldn't resist.

It's all about reflections, the need for control is a reflection of the perceived lack of control, and that comes through in Spirituality too. We can't always control our everyday Lives but we can control our beliefs and reality. I may not agree with it but I do understand it, and perhaps if they put more energy into empowerment instead of ranting and controlling they might actually achieve something. Being honest, feminism only turns women into angry people and people tend to run form them.

Greenslade

25-02-2018, 12:51 PM

Morning Mr G,Hi there Patrycia

Ha! That’s a blast from the past. Desktop publishing takes me back to learning this at evening college when it first came out!At the time i was in the music industry and working with Lynval Golding (ex-Specials) and Pauline Black (ex-Selector), Those were the days. Sigh.

That reminded me of a happy memory from about 20 years when I was travelling with four people from work going to a training course for the day. We could not find the venue was driving round looking for it and on the radio came U2 singing "I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For." One of those surreal moments and it was so funny.It came out at a very significant part of my Life, when it was turning around. Strangely, at that time my head exploded and I'd sit for hours writing down what was in it, page after page. It took me a long time to sort through that but it turned out to be significant in so many ways.

Unfortunately, I am a perfectionist and as unhelpful as it sounds, if I put effort into something I expect it to be perfect. Ain’t that the perfect recipe for disaster? Constant disappointment is how it makes me feel because rarely does anything live up to my expectations. I don't know where the perfectionist comes from, maybe I've always been this way, it has its uses at work. But I am guessing that I am missing living through the experience and letting it unfold naturally rather than constantly trying to manipulate circumstances to my perfectionist ideal. Given that blend, you can see why I am constantly disappointed.I can understand where you're coming from, expectations were only a source of disappointment and I didn't want to live with that any more. I'd had enough. It's been said that we Walk two Paths, that of the human and that of the Soul and when you look at it that way it gets interesting. There is a time for the Path of the Soul and another time for the Path of the human, and the only difference is the focus. It takes a little practice but you can 'switch modes' and it makes Life a little easier. There are times when you just have to go with the flow and let things unfold as they will because when you come into a resonant frequency with the unfolding, that's the perfection of harmony. It's your perfection, it's not something external to you.

I was struggling to know where to begin to answer that beyond the ‘something happens’, ‘you sustain injuries/symptoms’ ‘you try to heal them’ because that’s what you do.

However, you must have dug into my thoughts there as that is pretty much it .....It takes a little digging through layers sometimes.

Now this is where things got interesting.

I sat down and imagined a colleague come to me for help and started to tell me what happened, so I was essentially listening to myself but dressed up visually as someone else. This was quite revealing and I came out of the visualisation with a different angle. So in reality, the trauma went on for a couple of months, culminating in four days from hell. But there was a time / day / moment when the trauma was over. When I realised it was over, I was initially relieved, even slightly high and my immediate reaction was, it’s over and I’ve survived! (death, albeit rare, was a possibility). But over the next few days, I started to ask hang on a minute, why did this happen, why didn’t that happen, something doesn’t add up. And I quickly went from feeling relieved to increasing anger, some of it directed to myself as I hadn’t listened to myself. If I had listened to myself and done things my way, it wouldn’t have happened. It would have taken a monumental amount of courage, conviction and no one in my corner was encouraging me.

Now when I came out of the visualisation, I felt a lot of relief, weight off my shoulders, I felt quite different and I saw clearly for the first time how I’d gone from relief to anger and have carried that anger around ever since.

I believe that method is called two chair technique.

So come Wednesday I went to see the medium. Overall, it was a brilliant sitting with many folks from the other side coming through with a lot of validation. But on the trauma front, which is the reason I went, the medium said several things. He said to look at the knowledge and wisdom I’ve gained from it (thought of you when he said that!) and that I’m looking at the experience with the eyes I have today. But the significant thing is I was a tad disappointed after Sunday’s quite profound experience, that as I was talking about the trauma that anger is still there. He picked up on that (it would have been hard not to!) and he said he could feel my frustration. There was a helpful repeat from the information I’ve gathered over the years through other mediums, kinesiology etc. That due to the trauma going on for so long, this tipped my body over to an acid state, so there’s a high level of acid in my blood (uric acid). So all the anger I feel, which clearly is still there, is maintaining that acidity so when I feel anxious, frustrated or angry with things in every day life, that’s just maintaining the status quo. So when I get a flare up of symptoms, that reminds me it’s still there, I get frustrated and angry and it’s a catch 22. He pretty much confirmed that I’m not going to solve this by going on an alkaline diet. My diet is pretty much on that side anyway. He said that I could do the slightest alteration with diet and then be sitting in traffic getting irritated by someone who cut me up and all the work done with food with go out of the window. He said I have to find a way that suits me to resolve the stress and anxiety and anger I feel. On a positive note, he did say he felt I’d been through all the s **** in life and my challenge now is to resolve this.

So, that’s why none of the healing has worked – because I’m still holding onto the anger. So I feel as though I’m having to start over and go inwards. But if it was that simple, just go in, let go of the anger, I’d have done it already! He said a few years ago I’d get resolve this using my mind. But frankly, short of a personality transplant, I’ve no idea where to start. He did say I have a very strong mind, and that’s true even as a child, but I need to find some way of turning that to my advantage. But ..... no idea where to start. I don’t think it’s going to come from find a method on the internet. The only slight hope is that I had a message from my guides to say that they would show me the way when the time is right. Again the question, what are you trying to heal and what are the reasons? You've drilled down through into another layer underneath the ones of the physical trauma to find an emotional cause, but underneath that emotional cause is another cause again. So it's caused by anger but what is the cause of the anger? Stress, anxiety and anger can often dance around each other, bouncing off each other and perpetuating the energy system. Emotions are energy in motion. What can then happen is that it's projected outwards, often the safety valve kicks in. Your safety valve, I think, is your expectations - which are a reflection of what you have inside. They're a 'symptom' of you feeling as though something isn't right and you don't have control, expectations can come from a need for control. Not letting things unfold is a control issue. Basically though, control is an illusion and it takes control to relinquish control, that the great irony.

While it's in my head..... Have you ever heard of Matsuru Emoto? He used consciousness to imprint water, believe it or not. There's a lot of information but the gist is that consciousness can change the crystalline structure of water, and the body has a lot of water. It works with your core vibrations so if you're calm and peaceful the crystalline structure of your body has a snowflake-like pattern, if you're chaotic it'l look like a blob of gloop. Small variations (road rage) won't make that much of a difference, especially when you let it go more.

The good news is that you don't need a personality transplant, the one you have now will do fine. What you're doing though is coming into unfamiliar territory and that can be disconcerting in itself.

Its called the Shadow Self, it's that dark and dusty corner inside ourselves where angels fear to tread but really, it's the most Spiritual place in the Universe. It's where the good stuff really happens - our Source if you like. Jung did a lot of work on it and embraced his Shadow Self instead of making an enemy out of it so he's worth checking if you want a clinical approach. Teal Swan does much the same but takes it from a Spiritual perspective and has some very useful and practical advice - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHPI6LucOo0
What often happens is that things we can't or won't deal with get pushed into the Shadow Self and forgotten about, where it grows bigger and sharper teeth then bursts its way out like they do in the Alien movies. It's not as simple as letting go of the anger because there are reasons not to, one of those being not acknowledging that we're human after all. When we've done something stupid any outward expression becomes very difficult, including letting go of the anger because letting go of anger can be an admission of what caused it. The simplest thing to do is not hoard the anger in the first place but that's a different conversation.

In the present, our perceptions of the past create our future but our perceptions are created in the cauldron of our minds.

Have you heard of kamma-vipaka? Basically it's the result of kamma, and kamma is intention. And very apt here. An example would be the reasons why we take an action, whether we do it to receive reward or whether we do it because we're nice people. Often it gets mixed up with karma but technically they're two very different things. I'm not suggesting that your intentions are anything less than honourable but what I am saying is to be very clear as to what they are. You're going to have to dig very deep to get to the bottom of this and working out what you're trying to heal and the reasons for it will determine your focus.

You know, something rather wonderful happened there. Somewhere between the conversion from tape to vinyl to CD, I’d never got RtF and so I couldn’t immediately bring Beautiful Dream to mind. I thought initially it was from Firefly. But then I found it on Youtube and it was so weird, it was familiar but not. Anyway, situation now rectified as I’ve got the re-mastered version and boy it sounds good!

Patrycia[/quote]I still have the original tape somewhere and thinking of where I've played that along the years brings back so many memories. I remember it came out around the time my heart was first broken and I felt terribly sorry for myself lol. Oh well. I sometimes play it in the car because that way it doesn't annoy the hell out of Mrs G. It still rocks though.

Realm Ki

25-02-2018, 01:07 PM

Go on then, I'll take the bait. :smile:
We're not really 'ascending', what we are doing is becoming what we already are - if that makes sense. We are re-discovering, re-membering what we are and where we came from - which is everywhere.

Ascension is about bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness into this plane of existence. Reading Spiritual books and watching YouTubes isn't going to cut it, what this means is that the higher consciousness will be embodied and expressed, not just talked about in forums.

OMG I love this post! Thank you! Now even I understand and can 'accept' ascension.

My mission stated very clearly to me, is to work for turning our (lightworkers,people on a spiritual path) away from the goal of ascension - towards the goal of 'living fully' here on earth.

(Living on earth generates healing, and that is much needed not only for Gaia but for other parts of the existance too).

Living, carrying the divine out to others, working with it in our everyday life is what we are all here to do, in one way or another. Ascension - as in 'climbing out of here' is not the goal.

With Greenslades description, it works fine to achieve ascension - we just cant stop there.

And for the practice of working towards ascension, be mindful you don't put all your focus on yourself - the universe is grand, Gaia needs healing, people around you need light. Spend some of the time of your meditation and spiritual practices - sending the light out, being vessels rather than central pieces.

I believe this might aid your ailments too.

Good luck!

peteyzen

25-02-2018, 09:35 PM

I don't agree and actually see this as one of karmas dogma. Where act mirrors intention there is no difference. But what of a person who has a first thought but does not act on the intention even opposite to it. The thought was there but not done. Maybe ones intention is as vague as to be a better person and thus is learning. It is too incomplete and unyielding.
Good point, where someone has the thought but not done it, no karma is accrued, it is at the point of action, that intention is the pivotal point that creates karma.

Greenslade

26-02-2018, 08:20 PM

OMG I love this post! Thank you! Now even I understand and can 'accept' ascension.

My mission stated very clearly to me, is to work for turning our (lightworkers,people on a spiritual path) away from the goal of ascension - towards the goal of 'living fully' here on earth.

(Living on earth generates healing, and that is much needed not only for Gaia but for other parts of the existance too).

Living, carrying the divine out to others, working with it in our everyday life is what we are all here to do, in one way or another. Ascension - as in 'climbing out of here' is not the goal.

With Greenslades description, it works fine to achieve ascension - we just cant stop there.

And for the practice of working towards ascension, be mindful you don't put all your focus on yourself - the universe is grand, Gaia needs healing, people around you need light. Spend some of the time of your meditation and spiritual practices - sending the light out, being vessels rather than central pieces.

I believe this might aid your ailments too.

Good luck!Thank you

When you floating around in space, which was is up, down left, right? Really, to Spirit everywhere is so ascension being 'up the way' you might as well point a finger. What is often meant as 'up' is towards higher dimensions, which is what many of the gurus and holy men throughout history have been doing. That way mankind can heal as a race and Gaia as a planet. It's easy to have Unconditional Love when 'All Is Light' but down here, not so much.

Emm

01-03-2018, 03:19 AM

Lorelyen

01-03-2018, 09:02 AM

Answering the bit in bold, don't you think that most religions do the same? Catholism for instance say confession and absolution is good for the soul, baptism for spiritual cleansing and so forth... these are kind of procedures that depend on a belief that will help you to offload layers of negative energy through feelings of guilt and such like. Confession is bringing something you feel is wrong out into the open, absolution then is the belief that you're released from the guilt by another (a priest) through some kind of ritual (saying 10 hail mary's)...it has its benefits of course but you are non the wiser of the real reason why you feel better and you're still dependant on another to absolve you. Teachings of LoA if understood correctly leaves you personally in charge of your own well being and creator of your own reality.
Absolutely. Most religions are in effect political systems as well. They tell you how to behave and what the sanctions are if you don't.

Karma to me is another name for LoA, our energy is the cause and the effects are what we've attracted. Most of us live life through reaction to the effects we are attracting not realising that if we were more aware of what we are feeling and the underlying thoughts that come with it, would and does alter our energy which is the ultimate cause. And so you are hooked onto the karmic wheel. Being aware of the cause and letting it go ends it.

LoA isn't a wish list of wants and expectation....wanting itself will deny you your wish as its fundamental energy is lack and of course as like attracts like that's what you recieve lol, more lack if that makes sense. Its better to feel appreciation than to want.

When we fully understand the laws of attraction most basic religious concepts delivered by their original teachers make sense. Its about getting to know our inner self.

Agreed and you put a different slant on LoA so it seems. My problem has been with the word "law". Hicks Inc., Chopra etc, seem to come up with a few "laws" and these will no doubt help people bring order to their lives - but they aren't laws: an outcome can't be predicted and there's always a danger a result becomes superstition. By the LoA if you're aware of lacking something and yearn for it you attract more of the lack, as you say. On the opposite side, lack of something can drive you to go and get it - more the province of Affirmation, as it used to be - (less now, thanks again to Hicks Inc., who seems to have perverted the practice). I've just as much a problem with the word "karma" as this seems a conditioned reflex to our moral integrity. Some seem to regard it as balance in which case it aligns with one aim of Qbalistic path-working. Not being sure what karma is I avoid mention!

I tend to be "spiritually practical". Is the search for Self improving my navigation through "life"? I believe it is but as a believer in the "social brain" Self has to embrace its environment otherwise it becomes closeted. Self, for instance, doesn't deny relationships or interactions - the owner is more aware of context, form, their actions and effects on their environment with each increment of refinement. Every move toward Self seems to tell me I'm further from the beginning but barely closer to the end (if there is one)!

Patrycia-Rose

04-03-2018, 11:18 AM

Morning Mr G,

While it's in my head..... Have you ever heard of Matsuru Emoto? He used consciousness to imprint water, believe it or not. There's a lot of information but the gist is that consciousness can change the crystalline structure of water, and the body has a lot of water. It works with your core vibrations so if you're calm and peaceful the crystalline structure of your body has a snowflake-like pattern, if you're chaotic it'l look like a blob of gloop. Small variations (road rage) won't make that much of a difference, especially when you let it go more.

Yes, you posted a video a while back, so yes I’m am aware. I’m hoping I’m moving from the blob of gloop to the snowflake structure.

It has been a full on week.

Last week I had another session of going inwards to see if I could find out a bit more about the anger. I recall Matt saying if you are going to go inwards, make sure to take a boatload of compliments and flowers otherwise you’re trespassing!” I was there for some time but not too much came up. I noticed a lot of books and the like suggested looking for the first time you felt this way, the last time you felt this way etc. But I could honestly say I’ve never felt that angry about anything before or since. And then suddenly it felt like I was just searching for something to hang it on, some memory in my childhood, some experience in my early adulthood to attach it to, for the sake of having something to attach it to, and it just didn’t feel right. My intuition telling me this is not the way.

Then something rather miraculous happened. I saw MK had released a brand new video called Surviving Your Family Dynamic in which he spoke at length and in great detail of his own traumatic upbringing. It was very emotional and I was in awe of the strength and courage it took to do this and put it out into the world. And although I couldn’t have asked for better parents, what he was speaking about I was ‘applying’ to my trauma. So it came like a slight ‘out of body’ experience when he said “where is it that you need to draw a line in the sand and say enough is enough? Is that a conversation you need to have with someone in your life or is it a conversation you need to have with your own ego or a conversation you need to have with your own choices?” It then it suddenly hit me that only I am hanging onto this anger, only I can overcome this. I recall the medium saying similar; the only block on me healing was mine and he said I needed to convert the negative angry energy to the light (that reminded me of I am the Light, the Light I am). In fact, much of what he said reminded me of Matt’s teachings, which was a nice affirmation of how life changing these are for me and the right way to be going.

I then went into a phase of waking in the early hours, when I’m warm and relaxed and in an almost semi hypnotic state. I received a lot of aura soma colours but not in a bottle. The came in the shape of a circle; with the top half of the circle one colour and the bottom half of the circle another. So I guess there must be an additional energetic component of a circle that gives the colours added strength. In this semi-hypnotic state, I often have a dreamy conversation with my guides. I acknowledged the anger, I acknowledged it was there because I had been hurt so deeply. I thanked it for motivating me to learn about nutrition, supplements and healing modalities but I said that it was no longer serving me and I released it with peace and harmony into the light. I then asked my guides to cut the cords and I saw a blue line which I cut with a pair of scissors.

As someone once sang, “you should have seen Tuesday’s dream dancing in my head ......” I had this dream where a fish and a crab were trying to eat each other. Eventually, the fish ate the crab but then the crab ate the fish from the inside out and the fish just dissolved.” I didn’t have any real feelings as to what this was about.

All this week I’d been having the thought how will I know if the anger’s gone and will the physical symptoms heal by themselves? Then yesterday, another piece fell into place. I had ordered a pilates exercise circle as I’ve been doing some weight lifting and resistance exercises in the absence of running. I used the circle yesterday for the first time and was doing some leg exercises when my muscles began to seriously shake. I thought how can this be, surely my leg muslces can’t be that weak with all the running and weight lifting! Then popped into my head was some research I’d done about six months ago into TRE (trauma release exercise) where you put your body, by certain moves, into a state of shaking to release trauma. There’s a lot of youtube videos and explanations if you’ve not heard of it before. So dowsing confirmed that’s what was happening, so I seemed to have stumbled into doing that not by intention, but by happy coincidence. It didn’t escape me that immediately after doing about 10 repetitions I had a headache and got up this morning feeling really agitated, so I guess I’ve inadvertently found a way of releasing the physical trauma held in the body as well as releasing it in the emotional and mental bodies.

Interestingly, my March oracle card is ‘Life’s Purpose’; I feel as though I am going through a major transformation.

In the meantime, I’ve been getting re-acquainted with Return to Fantasy. When I first heard the songs it felt like I’d been catapaulted to the past as I hadn’t listened to them in probably decades. It brought tears to my eyes when I first heard Why Did you Go and made me feel again that amazement really of how David Byron can go from the powerful falsetto in so many of their songs to something like Why Did you Go and Rain etc. And also, some of the lyrics take on a new spiritual meaning, “how is it we can fly faster than day but we can't find the things we need?” Heady stuff!

Oh well. I sometimes play it in the car because that way it doesn't annoy the hell out of Mrs G. It still rocks though.

I take it Mrs G isn’t a fan? I sympathise, I tried frequently to convert my ex-husband to no avail; probably one of the reasons he became my ex-husband!

Well, things feel like they’re moving at an incredible pace and it’s back to work tomorrow.

Patrycia

Greenslade

04-03-2018, 01:30 PM

Morning Mr G,

Yes, you posted a video a while back, so yes I’m am aware. I’m hoping I’m moving from the blob of gloop to the snowflake structure. Good morning, Partycia.

I wanna be a gloop, like the one in Greeny's Tao Te Ching -
Reality, indeed, is like a lava lamp with the heat and light turned on.
Things have no form in themselves but kinda gloop around a bit,
Glooping, changing, bumping into other gloops once in a while.

It has been a full on week.

Last week I had another session of going inwards to see if I could find out a bit more about the anger. I recall Matt saying if you are going to go inwards, make sure to take a boatload of compliments and flowers otherwise you’re trespassing!” I was there for some time but not too much came up. I noticed a lot of books and the like suggested looking for the first time you felt this way, the last time you felt this way etc. But I could honestly say I’ve never felt that angry about anything before or since. And then suddenly it felt like I was just searching for something to hang it on, some memory in my childhood, some experience in my early adulthood to attach it to, for the sake of having something to attach it to, and it just didn’t feel right. My intuition telling me this is not the way.

Then something rather miraculous happened. I saw MK had released a brand new video called Surviving Your Family Dynamic in which he spoke at length and in great detail of his own traumatic upbringing. It was very emotional and I was in awe of the strength and courage it took to do this and put it out into the world. And although I couldn’t have asked for better parents, what he was speaking about I was ‘applying’ to my trauma. So it came like a slight ‘out of body’ experience when he said “where is it that you need to draw a line in the sand and say enough is enough? Is that a conversation you need to have with someone in your life or is it a conversation you need to have with your own ego or a conversation you need to have with your own choices?” It then it suddenly hit me that only I am hanging onto this anger, only I can overcome this. I recall the medium saying similar; the only block on me healing was mine and he said I needed to convert the negative angry energy to the light (that reminded me of I am the Light, the Light I am). In fact, much of what he said reminded me of Matt’s teachings, which was a nice affirmation of how life changing these are for me and the right way to be going.

I then went into a phase of waking in the early hours, when I’m warm and relaxed and in an almost semi hypnotic state. I received a lot of aura soma colours but not in a bottle. The came in the shape of a circle; with the top half of the circle one colour and the bottom half of the circle another. So I guess there must be an additional energetic component of a circle that gives the colours added strength. In this semi-hypnotic state, I often have a dreamy conversation with my guides. I acknowledged the anger, I acknowledged it was there because I had been hurt so deeply. I thanked it for motivating me to learn about nutrition, supplements and healing modalities but I said that it was no longer serving me and I released it with peace and harmony into the light. I then asked my guides to cut the cords and I saw a blue line which I cut with a pair of scissors. It's been said that if you don't hate yourself you haven't done anything close to enough work, but then if you really want to Love yourself unconditionally you need conditions to transcend. Anger always has a cause and often it takes some serious drilling down with hard questions to find the root of that cause. An answer always leads to another question and on it goes, peeling back the layers. What happens is that you follow a chain of - kinda - reverse cause and effect.

What's also not very well understood is that in the present, our perceptions of the past create our future. Something happens in your childhood and you have your perceptions of it, and that's what you carry with you for the rest of your Life. You carry the memory but that's just like storing data, it's your perceptions that make the difference and create your reality. What you can do is follow a trail of perceptions down the line and trace it back to source, like following breadcrumbs.

I was a very angry young man, and it was coming to the stage where I needed to give vent before it got out of control. That's when I started going to judo, and that gave me an outlet for my anger. That was a double-edged sword because one day I completely lost my temper, went straight to 'white heat' and with cold efficiency tried to kill someone. I just wanted him dead and used a judo lock to do it. Had my friends not dragged me off I would have killed him. I managed to trace that anger back to a dynamic between my aunt and my step-father with me as the 'object'. My maiden aunt hated my step-father because he had 'taken away her baby', my mother lived with her after my father died. My aunt thought that if I made his Life enough of a hell she would get me back. While that was happening my step-father was literally beating it out of me.

If you want to overcome your anger, be sure of what you're trying to overcome and the reasons because that comes into the conversation with yourself. I'm still not happy with all this positive and negative stuff because all it does is get in the way. Energy has no polarity in itself so all this positive/negative' bit is judgement, nothing more. When it becomes non-polarised things start really happening. So by all means have the conversation with your ego, but remember that it's where 'positive' and 'negative' comes from, and where is the line in the sand between polarised energy and acceptance/non-acceptance?

OK, let's try this. If you're going to come to terms with what's in your head let's try a different tack - https://www.awakeninthedream.com/articles/the-sacred-art-of-alchemy/
Your anger is the Prima Materia from which gold is made.

You did know you are the circle, didn't you? The soma colours represent your energies, what's inside you. They're still half-and-half because of the way you think and feel about what you have inside you - your Spiritual energies and your anger - which is an energy. Anger is an energy, just an energy and energy has no inherent polarity in itself. Energy's nature is to flow.

You're being turned around, you've focussed on healing but you've tried to heal the physical without paying much attention to the energetic/perceptual. Now you've expended your energy for that direction you're being pointed in another direction, one that you're probably unfamiliar with. You have your intuition and it's working for you, so use that as your 'something solid'. The Universe is obviously working with you, as is your guides. What would be helpful now is a completely new paradigm, which is obviously where you're heading.

As someone once sang, “you should have seen Tuesday’s dream dancing in my head ......” I had this dream where a fish and a crab were trying to eat each other. Eventually, the fish ate the crab but then the crab ate the fish from the inside out and the fish just dissolved.” I didn’t have any real feelings as to what this was about. Far from it for me to say you're crabby but.... :hug3:

You are the crab, you have this tough exterior but inside you're just a big softy, the fish symbolises knowledge or wisdom. Basically it symbolises you coming to a new paradigm.

All this week I’d been having the thought how will I know if the anger’s gone and will the physical symptoms heal by themselves? Then yesterday, another piece fell into place. I had ordered a pilates exercise circle as I’ve been doing some weight lifting and resistance exercises in the absence of running. I used the circle yesterday for the first time and was doing some leg exercises when my muscles began to seriously shake. I thought how can this be, surely my leg muslces can’t be that weak with all the running and weight lifting! Then popped into my head was some research I’d done about six months ago into TRE (trauma release exercise) where you put your body, by certain moves, into a state of shaking to release trauma. There’s a lot of youtube videos and explanations if you’ve not heard of it before. So dowsing confirmed that’s what was happening, so I seemed to have stumbled into doing that not by intention, but by happy coincidence. It didn’t escape me that immediately after doing about 10 repetitions I had a headache and got up this morning feeling really agitated, so I guess I’ve inadvertently found a way of releasing the physical trauma held in the body as well as releasing it in the emotional and mental bodies.

Interestingly, my March oracle card is ‘Life’s Purpose’; I feel as though I am going through a major transformation.While my experiences aren't quite so dramatic, we're both going through some major changes and we're not the only ones. I think we're all coming to some kind of healing, whatever that may be but I also think there are those that are experiencing it on a more conscious level. Once in a while I'll get a glimpse that people are changing, and that's interesting.

Your agitation is another 'symptom' of the changes you're going through. The ego (not a swear word) often has difficulty with change and can fear what it doesn't understand. Fear in itself isn't a bad thing and if you work with it instead of against it, it can 'talk to you'. And by the way, there are no coincidences.

What we also don't always understand is how the body's systems are interconnected, emotional trauma can turn into physical symptoms and vice versa so it's not so much of a stretch to think that releasing muscle trauma can have a cascade effect into your emotional and mental well being. What else we often don't understand is that there are parallels between the physical and the Spiritual. Which is very much happening in your case. Your 'coincidences' and your intuition are ramping up as is your healing process. Both at the same time
https://www.womenshealthmag.com/style/fit-for-life
Your 'Spiritual muscle'.

In the meantime, I’ve been getting re-acquainted with Return to Fantasy. When I first heard the songs it felt like I’d been catapaulted to the past as I hadn’t listened to them in probably decades. It brought tears to my eyes when I first heard Why Did you Go and made me feel again that amazement really of how David Byron can go from the powerful falsetto in so many of their songs to something like Why Did you Go and Rain etc. And also, some of the lyrics take on a new spiritual meaning, “how is it we can fly faster than day but we can't find the things we need?” Heady stuff!I'm not quite ready for Return to Fantasy quite yet, that's going to take a little more bravery than I have right now to face that deluge of emotion. It's going to happen, it's pretty much inevitable and when it does I may not come back in one piece. RtF's going to kick down some doors that I'm nowhere near ready for just yet, especially the two you mentioned.

I take it Mrs G isn’t a fan? I sympathise, I tried frequently to convert my ex-husband to no avail; probably one of the reasons he became my ex-husband!

Well, things feel like they’re moving at an incredible pace and it’s back to work tomorrow.

PatryciaMrs G has very sensitive hearing so loud rock is sensory overload to her, she's not keen on the radio being too loud in the car. Still, we come to terms and I have headphones and times when she's not here.

Things are certainly moving and in peaceful times like these I feel very nervous, but that's a symptom of change and not knowing what the future may hold. Everything feels different, everything looks different even though it's the same place. But it's not and I'm not.

Greenslade

04-03-2018, 01:49 PM

When we fully understand the laws of attraction most basic religious concepts delivered by their original teachers make sense. Its about getting to know our inner self.Which is where you seem to be heading, trying to understand it more fully rather than heaping misguided beliefs on top of misconceptions. Spiritual is as Spiritual does, not as Spiritual says it is. When we being to understand ourselves better and the reasons we do things - including being Spiritual and having our beliefs - everything becomes much clearer.

7luminaries

04-03-2018, 05:33 PM

Originally Posted by peteyzen
With respect that may be your definition of Karma and kamma, but generally they are interchangeable words for the same thing. I could bore the **** out of people by posting endless definitions to back my statement and no doubt you will. So, karma has everything to do with intention. secondly, essentially as I said, skillful use of karma is understanding that your intention creates whatever you intend, to come boomeranging back to you. If people delude themselves or dont examine their thoughts , then that is unskilfull use of the law of karma. So, essentially we are saying the same thing. Which I said previously

To be honest, I've heard all the arguments with karma before and frankly I'm bored with them. No offence you you. With kamma, I've done my homework for kamma and spoken to people in this forum who have spelled it out to me and it's very much in line with my own beliefs. Shocking I know. I've also had extensive arguments over what karma is or isn't and the more I've discussed the more it's descended into nonsense. Karma is nothing more than judgement and reward/punishment mentality and I haven't had a single argument that hasn't gone past that very thin veneer.
Hello gents!

My understanding is that the caste system and much of our justifications elsewhere for spiritual morality historically (like the prosperity gospel in the West) have essentially used the notion of karma in a wrongful manner, to justify the perpetration of injustices and harms and harsh judgment against the oppressed. And to self-righteously and smugly feel that those harms done to others, such as exploitation, oppression, etc., are divinely ordained and that no compassion or justice is necessary to address any of these situations as surely they deserve it.

However karma itself simply pertains to each of us at the lowest level, and to all of us together collectively. IMO it simply means awareness, ownership, and conscious alignment with the highest good of one and all. In the absence of any one of these, we will tend toward misalignment with our own highest good with all others. Both individually and also collectively. In the presence of all of these, we tend toward alignment with the highest good of one and all.

Judgment is first and foremost simply the neutral discernment of equanimity and lovingkindness, of both self and others, but it is often a long road to hoe before we and/or others arrive at that place. And that, along with those necessary ingredients for right-alignment for either the self or the collective, are why the topic seems to many to contain so much conflict and hypocrisy. It does and it will continue to appear so, until we both individually and as a collective are moving more consciously toward right-alignment in the highest good of one and all. Or, toward what I call authentic love in manifest expression. From intent to thought to word and to deed.

Peace & blessings :hug3:
7L

Greenslade

05-03-2018, 09:44 AM

Hello gents!

My understanding is that the caste system and much of our justifications elsewhere for spiritual morality historically (like the prosperity gospel in the West) have essentially used the notion of karma in a wrongful manner, to justify the perpetration of injustices and harms and harsh judgment against the oppressed. And to self-righteously and smugly feel that those harms done to others, such as exploitation, oppression, etc., are divinely ordained and that no compassion or justice is necessary to address any of these situations as surely they deserve it.

However karma itself simply pertains to each of us at the lowest level, and to all of us together collectively. IMO it simply means awareness, ownership, and conscious alignment with the highest good of one and all. In the absence of any one of these, we will tend toward misalignment with our own highest good with all others. Both individually and also collectively. In the presence of all of these, we tend toward alignment with the highest good of one and all.

Judgment is first and foremost simply the neutral discernment of equanimity and lovingkindness, of both self and others, but it is often a long road to hoe before we and/or others arrive at that place. And that, along with those necessary ingredients for right-alignment for either the self or the collective, are why the topic seems to many to contain so much conflict and hypocrisy. It does and it will continue to appear so, until we both individually and as a collective are moving more consciously toward right-alignment in the highest good of one and all. Or, toward what I call authentic love in manifest expression. From intent to thought to word and to deed.

Peace & blessings :hug3:
7LThis is one discussion that's worn very thin, no offence to you 7L. It's become nothing more than reward/punishment mentality and so far, with all the Spiritually advanced people in this forum nobody has so far been able to tell me what makes good good and bad bad. That's another discussion that's wearing thin. Intentions seem to be more about self-righteousness and the road to hell is paved with good intentions, and if I do something stupid that lands you in hospital no matter how well intended, you're still in hospital just the same. And who judges if that's good or bad karma for me?

Apparently karma is intention, followed by deed/action as cause then effect, the effect becomes cause and so on - but there is no time. That means - depending on your model of time - everything is happening at once or effect can precede intention. Tolle says the past is memory and the future is expectation so I'm not sure where that puts karma but a linear timeframe is egoic, just to include yet another huge misconception.

The Universal Law of Karma sounds wonderful when it stands in its splendid isolation, but what about Life's Purpose or whatever else you want to call it? Perhaps those 'karmic consequences' have nothing to do with karma and everything to do with 'we are here to learn the lessons'.

What is the karma of automatically perpetuating a misconception as a Universal Law without even taking the time to ask objectively what you're perpetuating? More accurately, what's the kamma-vipaka? The Universe is a reflection of you and we create our own realities, so what is the karma in believing in karma?

This from BlossomingTree explains the 'moral' component of what's lumped together with larma -
http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/showpost.php?p=1705080&postcount=33

I'd quite happily go along with you though, 7L, and there's nothing in your post that I'd contradict. For my own kamma-vipaka I needed to know the 'facts' and didn't want to simply regurgitate something that didn't resonate with me. Believing karma is good/bad wouldn't be being true to myself and I know what the consequences of that are. On top of that I can't hold any belief in isolation, so karma and it's morality is under question from that perspective, and for me there's a higher morality than a rulebook of codes.

Seeing as how this is an Ascension thread, isn't it about time we started questioning and thinking about what we're doing, and taking the responsibility for what we're perpetuating?

Jyotir

05-03-2018, 03:27 PM

isn't it about time we started questioning and thinking about what we're doing, and taking the responsibility for what we're perpetuating?

Sounds like a plan, Greenslade.
May the barrel be filled (responsibly)!
We could start right here on this forum, in this thread, with the very next post...

~ J

Emm

06-03-2018, 03:25 AM

Agreed and you put a different slant on LoA so it seems. Not so different, this is basically what Abraham teaches ...however it depends on your mindset as to what you actually hear lol. Most seem to see it as a means to have all their dreams come true and its sooo much more than that :D

My problem has been with the word "law". Hicks Inc., Chopra etc, seem to come up with a few "laws" and these will no doubt help people bring order to their lives - but they aren't laws: an outcome can't be predicted and there's always a danger a result becomes superstition. You can't predict someones outcome unless you're very good at reading their energy, you'd be better off learning to be aware of your own, then judge for yourself. By the LoA if you're aware of lacking something and yearn for it you attract more of the lack, as you say. On the opposite side, lack of something can drive you to go and get it - more the province of Affirmation, as it used to be - (less now, thanks again to Hicks Inc., who seems to have perverted the practice). The drive to change the lack isn't the same as the one who wishes things were different...more one of a sense something can be achieved, hopeful...a totally different energy.
I've just as much a problem with the word "karma" as this seems a conditioned reflex to our moral integrity. Some seem to regard it as balance in which case it aligns with one aim of Qbalistic path-working. Not being sure what karma is I avoid mention! I have a problem with all labelling to be honest...much better to FEEL your way through life than remain intellectually spiritual lol.

I tend to be "spiritually practical". Is the search for Self improving my navigation through "life"? I believe it is but as a believer in the "social brain" Self has to embrace its environment otherwise it becomes closeted. Self, for instance, doesn't deny relationships or interactions - the owner is more aware of context, form, their actions and effects on their environment with each increment of refinement. Every move toward Self seems to tell me I'm further from the beginning but barely closer to the end (if there is one)!Mind games are nothing but a headache running around in ever increasing circles, if we lived centered through our bodies may we can reach some semblance of balance. We seem to be caught up in an endless fight of what's deemed good and bad taking the moral highway when we cant agree as a race what that might mean. But we all know when we feel peaceful, at ease, happier etc, so isn't it better to just follow those feelings than someone elses idea of good and bad, that to me is more a universal language. Aligning the mind with that sense of goodness from within is all we have to follow. Forget what youre told. Find your own compass.

SapphireBlue

07-03-2018, 12:06 AM

Hi, a recent ascension blog I've discovered is soulsoothinsounds.wordpress.com It covers quite a lot there including ascension without being too airy fairy. Especially if you're experiencing the ascension 'void' there's a good post on it. As far as ascension symptoms go, the worst was the headaches and nausea (suppose to be an effect of the brain rewiring itself) which gradually got worse after a few years then stopped after 2012. Joint pain was another symptom.
Anyways, hope that helps :)

Greenslade

07-03-2018, 09:37 AM

Sounds like a plan, Greenslade.
May the barrel be filled (responsibly)!
We could start right here on this forum, in this thread, with the very next post...

~ J Or I could come to my own realisations.

Patrycia-Rose

11-03-2018, 10:06 AM

Morning Mr G,

It's been said that if you don't hate yourself you haven't done anything close to enough work, but then if you really want to Love yourself unconditionally you need conditions to transcend.

That’s interesting. Can’t say I’ve ever actively hated myself, been too much of an oddball from the get go and that was difficult enough without me adding to it. More a case I think of transcending conditions

anger always has a cause and often it takes some serious drilling down with hard questions to find the root of that cause. An answer always leads to another question and on it goes, peeling back the layers. What happens is that you follow a chain of - kinda - reverse cause and effect.

There was no real anger in my childhood; my parents were protective of me. My father taught me much of how to get on in life, playing the game etc – I was reminded of that in my recent medium session as my father came through with some of his time in the military and how he learned to get on and survive where others failed and how he’d passed that onto me.

I was a very angry young man, and it was coming to the stage where I needed to give vent before it got out of control. That's when I started going to judo, and that gave me an outlet for my anger. That was a double-edged sword because one day I completely lost my temper, went straight to 'white heat' and with cold efficiency tried to kill someone. I just wanted him dead and used a judo lock to do it. Had my friends not dragged me off I would have killed him. I managed to trace that anger back to a dynamic between my aunt and my step-father with me as the 'object'. My maiden aunt hated my step-father because he had 'taken away her baby', my mother lived with her after my father died. My aunt thought that if I made his Life enough of a hell she would get me back. While that was happening my step-father was literally beating it out of me.

Thank you for sharing that. That must have taken some strength to work through the layers of that and come to that realisation.

If you want to overcome your anger, be sure of what you're trying to overcome and the reasons because that comes into the conversation with yourself. I'm still not happy with all this positive and negative stuff because all it does is get in the way. Energy has no polarity in itself so all this positive/negative' bit is judgement, nothing more. When it becomes non-polarised things start really happening. So by all means have the conversation with your ego, but remember that it's where 'positive' and 'negative' comes from, and where is the line in the sand between polarised energy and acceptance/non-acceptance?

Right now, I can’t connect with anger, but then I can’t connect with anything. Since that Bowen, which has to go on the ever expanding list of things I wished I’d never done, I haven’t’ been the same. What’s admittedly worrying me is I have LOST enthusiasm, drive, determination for everything; and the forefront of that is running. I haven’t run in a couple of months. I’ve run two to three times a week for seven years. In that time, I’ve had a few injuries, back ache, pulled leg muscles and through sheer determination nothing was going to stop me from running, no matter how uncomfortable, so I would strap up and get on with it. That grit determination has just evaporated. Where has it gone?!

OK, let's try this. If you're going to come to terms with what's in your head let's try a different tack - https://www.awakeninthedream.com/articles/the-sacred-art-of-alchemy/
Your anger is the Prima Materia from which gold is made.

I tried to read and understand that but that went completely over my head.

I came across a Teal Swan video which was about channelling or getting in touch with that part of the body and speaking as though all of you were that part. Very interesting, I got the full impact of ‘it shouldn’t have happened’ on that part of the body which was at the focal point of the trauma. But it particularly liked when I lay hands on that area; the medium said I’d got healing in my hands.

Also the medium suggested I find something that I trust to release the anger and I thought of EFT, that I know so well. It’s been a while since I’ve done any and I know it took the edge off. So I wondered if there were some suggestions on statements to use and I googled and the first thing that came up was a video of someone demonstrating EFT for anger and I’d never seen EFT done in the way he was doing it, which was using a different statement for each point; and not only that each statement he was using, I thought that’s spot on. So the list is typed up and I will do it at some point when the time feels right.

You're being turned around, you've focussed on healing but you've tried to heal the physical without paying much attention to the energetic/perceptual. Now you've expended your energy for that direction you're being pointed in another direction, one that you're probably unfamiliar with. You have your intuition and it's working for you, so use that as your 'something solid'. The Universe is obviously working with you, as is your guides. What would be helpful now is a completely new paradigm, which is obviously where you're heading.

I feel that that maybe happening; whatever comes from this it’s going to come from a place of nothingness, which is where I am now. The only thing that is keeping me going and I can’t believe I’m saying this, is work! The irony. Had a meeting last week about the new role and it was all very positive. I’ve actually been looking at work emails in the evening, looking forward to going in the next morning so I can focus on something other than the emptiness that is in all other aspects of my life.

Far from it for me to say you're crabby but.... :hug3:

You are the crab, you have this tough exterior but inside you're just a big softy, the fish symbolises knowledge or wisdom. Basically it symbolises you coming to a new paradigm.

That did occur to me but I thought it was too literal; I thought maybe seeing things sideways.

I’ve some interesting dreams lately; one (unwelcome) instance of lucid dreaming which left me exhausted and then last night I dream someone had poisoned me!

https://www.womenshealthmag.com/style/fit-for-life
Your 'Spiritual muscle'.

I recall about memories being held in the muscles, one of the things I like about TAT is that it addresses ‘all the places in my mind, body and my life’ where something is stored.

However, that link had another meaning for me and that it reminded me that the memory of running would also be stored in my body and that hopefully when I return to it, it won’t take too long to get back to the form I’d been in. And I remembered when I started again several years after the trauma and how I got there in the end. So I can do it again, if I get the all important ingredient back of motivation!

I’ve decided to start cranio sacral therapy; that’s always worked for me without backfiring and making things worse. Also because I’m so attuned to the energy I’ll be able to feel what’s going on and how things are in the body.

I was listening to an MK video, one of the first I listened to and I had originally missed the bit where he’d described going through major transformations from 2015-2020. So I started mine in 2016. It might explain things.

I'm not quite ready for Return to Fantasy quite yet, that's going to take a little more bravery than I have right now to face that deluge of emotion. It's going to happen, it's pretty much inevitable and when it does I may not come back in one piece. RtF's going to kick down some doors that I'm nowhere near ready for just yet, especially the two you mentioned.

I can completely understand what you’re saying. As well as the brilliance of the music, the voice, the lyrics – there’s now that added layer of the last time I listened to this I would have been in my parents house with my brother with this on the record player. That’s why when I first heard it the songs on the surface sounded unfamiliar yet I remembered a phrase, a chord, it was rather eerie.

I can’t listen to Rain without getting tearful.

When I’ve been getting home, I’ve been putting on Asia at full blast trying to ignite some spark of energy in me. 1982 I think it was. Heavy rock, brilliant album. Have you got that one?

https://www.amazon.co.uk/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_2?url=search-alias%3Dpopular&field-keywords=asia

Patrycia

Greenslade

11-03-2018, 11:53 AM

Morning Mr G,Morning Patrycia

That’s interesting. Can’t say I’ve ever actively hated myself, been too much of an oddball from the get go and that was difficult enough without me adding to it. More a case I think of transcending conditionsI've never really hated myself but if I could have gone back in time I would have kicked my own backside up and down the street a few times. This is the kind of thing that I've been going through these past months, into all the dark corners of my past.

There was no real anger in my childhood; my parents were protective of me. My father taught me much of how to get on in life, playing the game etc – I was reminded of that in my recent medium session as my father came through with some of his time in the military and how he learned to get on and survive where others failed and how he’d passed that onto me. The anger was in reply to what you were saying about how you'd sat down and thought about your trauma and you hadn't listened to yourself. Anger is a strong energy and is usually an indicator.

Thank you for sharing that. That must have taken some strength to work through the layers of that and come to that realisation. You're very welcome. Even going back wasn't a very pleasant experience but it was worth it, and there's also a very different perspective that comes though when going through that process. It's going back to what you were saying about the consciousness giving the body time to heal and come to terms. Self acceptance doesn't come cheap.

Right now, I can’t connect with anger, but then I can’t connect with anything. Since that Bowen, which has to go on the ever expanding list of things I wished I’d never done, I haven’t’ been the same. What’s admittedly worrying me is I have LOST enthusiasm, drive, determination for everything; and the forefront of that is running. I haven’t run in a couple of months. I’ve run two to three times a week for seven years. In that time, I’ve had a few injuries, back ache, pulled leg muscles and through sheer determination nothing was going to stop me from running, no matter how uncomfortable, so I would strap up and get on with it. That grit determination has just evaporated. Where has it gone?! The Universe gives us what we need when we need it and if you don't have the drive to run then you don't need it - it's the Universe's way of saying 'Don't look there any more'. Running was obviously one of the very important things in your Life but what did you gain from it and what were the reasons you did it? Humans tend not to do anything for nothing, if we do something there's always something in it for us, otherwise we don't bother. What was in running for you?

I tried to read and understand that but that went completely over my head.

I came across a Teal Swan video which was about channelling or getting in touch with that part of the body and speaking as though all of you were that part. Very interesting, I got the full impact of ‘it shouldn’t have happened’ on that part of the body which was at the focal point of the trauma. But it particularly liked when I lay hands on that area; the medium said I’d got healing in my hands.

Also the medium suggested I find something that I trust to release the anger and I thought of EFT, that I know so well. It’s been a while since I’ve done any and I know it took the edge off. So I wondered if there were some suggestions on statements to use and I googled and the first thing that came up was a video of someone demonstrating EFT for anger and I’d never seen EFT done in the way he was doing it, which was using a different statement for each point; and not only that each statement he was using, I thought that’s spot on. So the list is typed up and I will do it at some point when the time feels right. OK, to put it simply - I like simple. What Jung's saying is that what the alchemists were looking for is something in their own darkness, what he called the Prima Materia from which all else is made. It's purely allegory and symbolism, but what he was talking about it taking the 'lead' - the 'bad experiences etc' - and turning it into 'gold' - something far more useful. For instance, if we have a bad experience we can empathise with others who have had a similar experience. That turns the 'lead' or Prima Materia into 'gold'. Anger is a Prima Materia, as an emotion it doesn't come any more primal but channelled in the right way it's a powerful emotion and can become 'gold'. Teal Swan does some material on the Shadow Self that's along the same lines as the alchemists, she digs through layer after layer to get to the bottom of things that are deeply rooted in our psyche so that they can be 'turned into gold'. There's plenty of it but a good place to start is -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2s8I3yq-Kmo

In using EFT, are you treating the symptoms rather than the cause? I there's a bottom line to what I've been going through, this is it, that I needed to peel off the layers of the onion skin one at a time - only those layers were my own perceptions. What's often not realised is that what isn't dealt with effectively by the conscious mind goes into the the Shadow Self, it's the 'deal with it sometime never' box for things we can't or won't deal with. What happens though is that those demons grow bigger and meaner in the dark places until they're brought into the light.

I feel that that maybe happening; whatever comes from this it’s going to come from a place of nothingness, which is where I am now. The only thing that is keeping me going and I can’t believe I’m saying this, is work! The irony. Had a meeting last week about the new role and it was all very positive. I’ve actually been looking at work emails in the evening, looking forward to going in the next morning so I can focus on something other than the emptiness that is in all other aspects of my life.The emptiness is potential. Your focus is merely on a different aspect on your Life and that's OK - even though it's the last thing you'd expect. We can't tell the future so the best we can do is ride along with it and see where it takes us. It's still you, it's still progress but there's a change in direction.

If the other parts of your Life are empty, what are the reasons you think that?

That did occur to me but I thought it was too literal; I thought maybe seeing things sideways.

I’ve some interesting dreams lately; one (unwelcome) instance of lucid dreaming which left me exhausted and then last night I dream someone had poisoned me!Sometimes dreams can be quite literal too, our subconscious can have strange ways in getting the messages through. But then you're the one that's trying to fill the emptiness instead of just experiencing it.

I recall about memories being held in the muscles, one of the things I like about TAT is that it addresses ‘all the places in my mind, body and my life’ where something is stored.

However, that link had another meaning for me and that it reminded me that the memory of running would also be stored in my body and that hopefully when I return to it, it won’t take too long to get back to the form I’d been in. And I remembered when I started again several years after the trauma and how I got there in the end. So I can do it again, if I get the all important ingredient back of motivation!

I’ve decided to start cranio sacral therapy; that’s always worked for me without backfiring and making things worse. Also because I’m so attuned to the energy I’ll be able to feel what’s going on and how things are in the body.

I was listening to an MK video, one of the first I listened to and I had originally missed the bit where he’d described going through major transformations from 2015-2020. So I started mine in 2016. It might explain things. So if you'll (hopefully) get back to running with your body's memory, how much does traumatic muscle memory contribute to what you're trying to heal now? Tolle said that the past is memory, so if you're trying to heal the memory of the trauma and not the trauma itself? That puts a completely different perspective on pretty much everything we've experienced in the past because while our minds can make us think we still have traumas, what we actually have is the memory of the trauma and not the trauma itself.

We're all going through changes, it happens all day every day but once in a while the changes are more apparent so we take more notice. It really started with 2012 and while it got a lot of bad press it was still significant. It was the 'first step'. The changes have been ramping up since and if you think they've taken their toll you ain't seen nothin' yet.

I can completely understand what you’re saying. As well as the brilliance of the music, the voice, the lyrics – there’s now that added layer of the last time I listened to this I would have been in my parents house with my brother with this on the record player. That’s why when I first heard it the songs on the surface sounded unfamiliar yet I remembered a phrase, a chord, it was rather eerie.

I can’t listen to Rain without getting tearful.

When I’ve been getting home, I’ve been putting on Asia at full blast trying to ignite some spark of energy in me. 1982 I think it was. Heavy rock, brilliant album. Have you got that one?

https://www.amazon.co.uk/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_2?url=search-alias%3Dpopular&field-keywords=asia

PatryciaWe walk the spiral and when we're 'back at square one' we're not really, we're about it and seeing deeper truths and perspectives. Or layers. That makes things interesting. Once upon a time I would have had the melancholia of 'Rain' but then that would have been because I was feeling sorry for myself.

Perhaps what you'd done is - from the perspective of you back then - gone forwards in time, which is why you 'remembered' snippets of the music. It may sound fantastical but there are scientific theories that make it possible, at least from the perspective of consciousness. The brain has microtubules that are 'quantum capable', which means we are entangled with the field of probability where all the information - including Heep music - is 'stored'.

I haven't spent much time with Asia to be honest. I'm going through some weirdness again and I;m very connected to my Spirit kids, especially with everything that's going on around me. My father hasn't been too far away this past while and when he comes around it always knocks me on my backside. There's a kind of 'tightening' happening. Mrs G's a tad nervous right now because of what I'm feeling, she doesn't react the way she used to but she feels it every time my emotions go 'off the charts'.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkYLsCFNmQo

Patrycia-Rose

18-03-2018, 09:51 AM

Hello Mr G,

It's going back to what you were saying about the consciousness giving the body time to heal and come to terms. Self acceptance doesn't come cheap.

As I’m finding out. I’ve got maybe another 30 years and then it won’t matter. Unfortunately, several different mediums have told me I've got a long life ahead.

What was in running for you?

Ah, six words in a simple question and oh, the history behind the answer. I cannot remember when I started running but it was well before the trauma in 2005. For several years after the trauma I did not run because of the full impact on the physical body. Running again was all I wanted to do and a signal to me that if I could reach my previous form, I would be ok. The odds were heavily stacked against me. I had several attempts at getting my fitness back and for reasons I cannot remember now they failed but in 2012 I started very gently and worked my way up to my previous form and a little beyond. So I have run two to three times per week for the last 5 years. Running for me equals freedom. As long as I can run, I am beating the odds. I have continued to run with some fairly uncomfortable injuries but nothing would stop me. A few years back I had a ham string type injury affecting my whole leg. I did wonder whether to go to the docs to get it checked but I knew if I did that they would recommend pain killers, anti-inflams and rest. I don’t put any kind of medication in my body, there’s always a natural alternative and I tried to rest for a few days but after five days I was going stir crazy so I strapped up the leg and ran anyway. Eventually it healed itself. So that’s the kind of determination/enthusiasm/drive I had and I just don’t understand where it’s gone. I can only think, as you suggested, that I’m not doing nothing for no reason, so I guess there’s some wider something going on.

In November last year, I noticed it was becoming harder and harder to run as a long-standing injury to my left leg (not the one I mentioned above) meant I had to focus and concentrate so hard not to trip or fall. It was taking more and more concentration and more and more energy to do it and excuses would come in, I will leave it tomorrow. I then had the Bowen Therapy followed by a viral infection and somewhere along the line my enthusiasm and drive to run simply disappeared and currently it is nowhere in sight.

I knew one day that I would have to hang up my running shoes but I always thought it would be because I developed arthritis, painful knees, a back injury etc I never thought it would be from a lack of mental drive. Hopefully maybe in the late spring summer, I will get my motivation back and maybe take up fast walking as an alternative.

In using EFT, are you treating the symptoms rather than the cause?

Both I think. I've used the exact sentences in this video. It was noticeable how I searched for EFT and anger and this video was the first thing that came up.

https://www.thetappingsolution.com/blog/anger-youre-holding/

Although doing EFT for anger seemed like a good idea, I had no idea what statements to use aside from the obvious ‘even though I’m angry .’ but the statements he used in the video were perfect for my situation, I couldn’t have come up with those (which I’m sure is why the universe gave me that video first).

So I did that EFT last Sunday and I’ve never reacted like that before. I went through it twice and immediately felt light-headed afterwards, followed by feeling tired and then very emotional.

Then next morning, I felt freer, happier, lighter I could believe the difference.

So decided yesterday, using that same template, to do EFT for the irritation and annoyance at myself. I went through this one quite a few times but felt that light-headedness again.

So I’m going to start fortnightly cranio sacral therapy and continue with EFT on the weeks I’m not doing cranio.

Sometimes, it does feel hopeless, like I’m just not going to be able to do this on my own. And I briefly thought about going to counselling but from my days working in child protection, I know the counselling approaches and nothing really appeals and then when I woke the next morning I had the idea to continue with EFT. My cards that morning were most interesting and
a signal that doing this myself is the way to go; I had (from 3 different decks) Triumphant Success, Miracle Healing and Heal Thyself. Seemed pretty clear to me.

I think future topics for EFT are going to be sadness, disappointment, hurt. Just this morning I don’t feel irritated or annoyed, another layer gone, it’s the sadness, disappointment.

I noticed that after the EFT for anger I had some really intense and unpleasant dreams, one of which was I couldn’t turn off the ignition on my car and it was getting hotter and hotter and eventually disintegrated. That’s the second dream I’ve had where disintegration is the theme. I’ve also had several dreams where blood is involved, that’s the life-force.

If the other parts of your Life are empty, what are the reasons you think that?

Gosh, another simple question with a complex history, given I’ve always been sensitive; when I was younger I wasn’t so aware of that and stronger in dealing with things. But as I’ve got older sensitivities have increased, so going to work gives me social interaction whether I want it or not and so when I come home and close the down it’s battery recharging time. I’m not really a people person, prefer to be myself, I have good friendships in the past that have ended for one reason or another. I’ve a good friend who I go out with occasionally but the balance between work and home feels about right for now. Also I’ve done a lot in life, writing, running, dancing (medals in that) moving from my hometown, married, divorced, renovating my bungalow, various interest in things along the way. I don’t really feel there’s much if anything ‘out there’ that interests me. It’s always been for me about my internal world, even from a young age I used to listen to music and take myself off to a complete world I created. That’s one of the things I liked about Uriah Heep, those lyrics helped me with that and also it was like they gave me permission to do what I was doing; it was the right way to go (if any of that makes sense).

We're all going through changes, it happens all day every day but once in a while the changes are more apparent so we take more notice. It really started with 2012 and while it got a lot of bad press it was still significant. It was the 'first step'. The changes have been ramping up since and if you think they've taken their toll you ain't seen nothin' yet.

In one of Matt's vids I heard him mention 2015-2020 so we're in the thick of it at the moment.

Once upon a time I would have had the melancholia of 'Rain' but then that would have been because I was feeling sorry for myself.

I thought I saw on another post you were from Aberdeenshire, so with me in the South West, that’s Uriah Heep being played at opposite ends of the country - that really warms my heart! :hug3:

I'm going through some weirdness again and I'm very connected to my Spirit kids, especially with everything that's going on around me. My father hasn't been too far away this past while and when he comes around it always knocks me on my backside. There's a kind of 'tightening' happening. Mrs G's a tad nervous right now because of what I'm feeling, she doesn't react the way she used to but she feels it every time my emotions go 'off the charts'.

I didn't realise that you have children that have passed to spirit? I'm so sorry if that's the case, if I've read that correct.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkYLsCFNmQo[/QUOTE]

I listened to that after I'd done my EFT and that was really soothing.

Patrycia

Greenslade

18-03-2018, 01:13 PM

Hello Mr G,Hi Patrycia

As I’m finding out. I’ve got maybe another 30 years and then it won’t matter. Unfortunately, several different mediums have told me I've got a long life ahead.There's a lot you can do in 30 years.
"And there you sit, Tomorrow's Child
So full of Love, so full of Life
But you must rise to meet the day
Lest you become another tale."
The Heep

I know you're a Byron purist but this one's a little different, an acoustic session with Thijs van Leer, ex-Focus.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3cIBA9MLAJw

Ah, six words in a simple question and oh, the history behind the answer. I cannot remember when I started running but it was well before the trauma in 2005. For several years after the trauma I did not run because of the full impact on the physical body. Running again was all I wanted to do and a signal to me that if I could reach my previous form, I would be ok. The odds were heavily stacked against me. I had several attempts at getting my fitness back and for reasons I cannot remember now they failed but in 2012 I started very gently and worked my way up to my previous form and a little beyond. So I have run two to three times per week for the last 5 years. Running for me equals freedom. As long as I can run, I am beating the odds. I have continued to run with some fairly uncomfortable injuries but nothing would stop me. A few years back I had a ham string type injury affecting my whole leg. I did wonder whether to go to the docs to get it checked but I knew if I did that they would recommend pain killers, anti-inflams and rest. I don’t put any kind of medication in my body, there’s always a natural alternative and I tried to rest for a few days but after five days I was going stir crazy so I strapped up the leg and ran anyway. Eventually it healed itself. So that’s the kind of determination/enthusiasm/drive I had and I just don’t understand where it’s gone. I can only think, as you suggested, that I’m not doing nothing for no reason, so I guess there’s some wider something going on.

In November last year, I noticed it was becoming harder and harder to run as a long-standing injury to my left leg (not the one I mentioned above) meant I had to focus and concentrate so hard not to trip or fall. It was taking more and more concentration and more and more energy to do it and excuses would come in, I will leave it tomorrow. I then had the Bowen Therapy followed by a viral infection and somewhere along the line my enthusiasm and drive to run simply disappeared and currently it is nowhere in sight.

I knew one day that I would have to hang up my running shoes but I always thought it would be because I developed arthritis, painful knees, a back injury etc I never thought it would be from a lack of mental drive. Hopefully maybe in the late spring summer, I will get my motivation back and maybe take up fast walking as an alternative.Before I fired up this thread I was watching some sci-fi shorts on YouTube when suddenly the urge to check the forums came. I felt a nervous tension and a shift in consciousness and here we are. I wish I could discuss so much with you but so far you haven't connected with it, you've never quite taken the bait but that's OK.

There's a lovely line that comes from a computer game I sometimes dust off and reinstall, it's pretty gory and was voted one of the creepiest games of its times. The graphics are a little clunky nowadays but it still creeps me out. However, there's a great quote that suits Spirituality in general and what you're telling me here.
"Why run? You cannot escape something you have been a part of since before you were born."

Have you tried ghost writing? Just picking up a pen and scribbling away, whatever comes into your mind at the time goes down on paper 'unfiltered'. The odd word, an unrelated sentence... It can tell you so much, it's as though your subconscious is talking to you through the pen and when you're done it's worth reading back. It's like a written-down dream. It doesn't matter if it makes sense but what does matter is just giving it expression.

This is another 'symptom' of moving into 5D consciousness, you begin to resonate in harmony to other frequencies and what helped you 'back then' doesn't help any more. You can't turn from who and what you are. You ran to beat the odds, you wouldn't let anything stop you and damn the consequences because it was what you were good at. What's not often realised is that what we say and do is always a reflection of what we have inside, if that's the case then were you running to or running from? And what?

The Universe gives us what we need when we need it, if you don't have the drive any more then you don't need it. When you turn your focus to what's happening now instead of harbouring memories things change drastically.

I was a very angry young man and I was getting quite close to something very dark indeed. All that anger was unchecked and I would go from complete calm to white-hot in less than the flick of a switch. When that happened all I wanted to do was cause the most damage in the most efficient way possible. At the time my friend had started judo classes and roped me in. That turned me around, it gave vent to my anger. There was another guy about the same height and build as me there, and every session we would want to beat the beJesus out of each other. The teacher would clear the mat and let us get on with it so everyone could carry on. One day he stopped coming, the next day everything had gone. I had little motivation for it.

About the same time I started reading the Tao Te Ching and that gave me a certain amount of peace. Then I found Desiderata and here we are today. I still have a temper and on the odd occasion I lose it I still want to cause a lot of harm without conscience, but thankfully those are few and far between.

I guess the point is that there comes a time in our Lives when everything changes, and we're left in a void between 'here' and 'there'. While I was trying to beat something out of me perhaps you were trying to run away from what's inside you, both of us looking for ways to at least come to terms with ourselves after our own fashions. Perhaps when you're fast walking you'll learn to Love yourself regardless instead of cussing yourself that you're no longer able to run like the wind.

Both I think. I've used the exact sentences in this video. It was noticeable how I searched for EFT and anger and this video was the first thing that came up.

https://www.thetappingsolution.com/blog/anger-youre-holding/

Although doing EFT for anger seemed like a good idea, I had no idea what statements to use aside from the obvious ‘even though I’m angry .’ but the statements he used in the video were perfect for my situation, I couldn’t have come up with those (which I’m sure is why the universe gave me that video first).

So I did that EFT last Sunday and I’ve never reacted like that before. I went through it twice and immediately felt light-headed afterwards, followed by feeling tired and then very emotional.

Then next morning, I felt freer, happier, lighter I could believe the difference.

So decided yesterday, using that same template, to do EFT for the irritation and annoyance at myself. I went through this one quite a few times but felt that light-headedness again.

So I’m going to start fortnightly cranio sacral therapy and continue with EFT on the weeks I’m not doing cranio.

Sometimes, it does feel hopeless, like I’m just not going to be able to do this on my own. And I briefly thought about going to counselling but from my days working in child protection, I know the counselling approaches and nothing really appeals and then when I woke the next morning I had the idea to continue with EFT. My cards that morning were most interesting and
a signal that doing this myself is the way to go; I had (from 3 different decks) Triumphant Success, Miracle Healing and Heal Thyself. Seemed pretty clear to me.

I think future topics for EFT are going to be sadness, disappointment, hurt. Just this morning I don’t feel irritated or annoyed, another layer gone, it’s the sadness, disappointment.

I noticed that after the EFT for anger I had some really intense and unpleasant dreams, one of which was I couldn’t turn off the ignition on my car and it was getting hotter and hotter and eventually disintegrated. That’s the second dream I’ve had where disintegration is the theme. I’ve also had several dreams where blood is involved, that’s the life-force. Have you ever heard of Shadow Work? Jung said that what we don't deal with effectively with our conscious minds gets filed into what he calls our Shadow Self. It's a dark corner of our psyche where things fester and grow bigger and sharper teeth, and every once in a while they'll come back and bite us on the backside. The only real way to 'kill' those monsters is to drag them into the Light and acknowledge them as a part of us just the same as the 'good bits'. Apparently Jung practices what he preached.

Teal Swan does some really good info and methods on Shadow work, it's not hard to find on YouTube and she's quite down-to-earth too, very practical in her Spirituality. If you do your Shadow work you'll be going to the origins of what ails you, and it's not a Journey for the faint of heart.

The bottom line is that only you can heal you, how you do it is up to but often it needs a high degree of honesty, and it does take you where you'll probably not want to go. Far deeper than what's being covered with EFT.

What are the reasons (not why, very specifically what are the reasons) you feel sadness and disappointment?

There is a 'disintegration' process going on with you and you control the driving force - the car itself. You've also lost your 'life blood', your motivation and everything that kept you going. The Life blood is your motivation etc., and the car is things like your running.

Gosh, another simple question with a complex history, given I’ve always been sensitive; when I was younger I wasn’t so aware of that and stronger in dealing with things. But as I’ve got older sensitivities have increased, so going to work gives me social interaction whether I want it or not and so when I come home and close the down it’s battery recharging time. I’m not really a people person, prefer to be myself, I have good friendships in the past that have ended for one reason or another. I’ve a good friend who I go out with occasionally but the balance between work and home feels about right for now. Also I’ve done a lot in life, writing, running, dancing (medals in that) moving from my hometown, married, divorced, renovating my bungalow, various interest in things along the way. I don’t really feel there’s much if anything ‘out there’ that interests me. It’s always been for me about my internal world, even from a young age I used to listen to music and take myself off to a complete world I created. That’s one of the things I liked about Uriah Heep, those lyrics helped me with that and also it was like they gave me permission to do what I was doing; it was the right way to go (if any of that makes sense). But don't you see where this is heading? So far it's been how you relate to an external world in whatever shape or form - in your case not wanting much to do with it. What you're going through now is going to be very internal, part of your EFT and acknowledging the anger are the first steps to you going inwards. I guess where you're at right now is where you've come to a screeching halt and while you're pointing in another direction you're not quite in gear.

As I've read what you've posted I have the eerie feeling that I wrote it myself.

In one of Matt's vids I heard him mention 2015-2020 so we're in the thick of it at the moment.Oh yes, very much so. I'm getting time dilations again but they're not as drastic as the first time they happened, and the synchronicities are coming thick and fast. What used to feel like 'another dimension' feels a lot more 'solid' and with smoother edges. In one of Matt's vids he mentions how reality is like sitting watching a movie. The frames come whizzing along so fast it seems as though they're in seamless motion but they're individual and not connected. Science calls them 'Now Slices' - moments of Now we experience in rapid succession as we travel through space-time. It's interesting because at one stage I just couldn't resonate with that in the least, but now...... Anyway.

I thought I saw on another post you were from Aberdeenshire, so with me in the South West, that’s Uriah Heep being played at opposite ends of the country - that really warms my heart! :hug3:I'm in a place called Fraserburgh, right in the very north east corner. It's an interesting place, the town that time forgot where the dialect is an English/Gaelic hybrid of sorts.

I'm listening to Uriah Heep now, Youtube is just churning them out. Interestingly I'm not so emotionally involved right now even though what's playing right now used to touch me so deeply - Paradise from Demons and Wizards.

So if a shared interest in Uriah Heep at opposite ends of the country warms your heart, what else do you feel?

I didn't realise that you have children that have passed to spirit? I'm so sorry if that's the case, if I've read that correct.Thank you. One of them is from this Life and a couple are from Past Lives Mrs G and I had together. You're not the only one with historical stories.

I listened to that after I'd done my EFT and that was really soothing.

PatryciaThere's a long story to that particular track, but what it tells me is that our Loved Ones are only as far away as we'd like to think they are.

Patrycia-Rose

25-03-2018, 09:47 AM

Morning Mr G,

There's a lot you can do in 30 years.
"And there you sit, Tomorrow's Child
So full of Love, so full of Life
But you must rise to meet the day
Lest you become another tale."
The Heep

:icon_cry: :icon_cry:

I know you're a Byron purist but this one's a little different, an acoustic session with Thijs van Leer, ex-Focus.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3cIBA9MLAJw

I liked the flute – that’s all I’m sayin! :biggrin:

Have you tried ghost writing? Just picking up a pen and scribbling away, whatever comes into your mind at the time goes down on paper 'unfiltered'. The odd word, an unrelated sentence...

I seem to remember I tried this many years ago but never really took to it.

What's not often realised is that what we say and do is always a reflection of what we have inside, if that's the case then were you running to or running from? And what?

Mmmm, interesting question. I would think running from although not sure from what. Reflecting, I would often have strong third eye activity whilst running, probably because I was concentrating on running and I often would get a lot of aura soma colours. Sometimes, I would visualise running across a desert. I’m aware of all the chemical/hormonal changes from intense cardio vascular exercise, I can certainly attest to runners high.

Then I found Desiderata and here we are today.

That was one of my dad’s favourites.

I still have a temper and on the odd occasion I lose it I still want to cause a lot of harm without conscience, but thankfully those are few and far between.

I agree with that, I too still have a temper, although it’s more a ‘quick to irritation’ these days.

. Perhaps when you're fast walking you'll learn to Love yourself regardless instead of cussing yourself that you're no longer able to run like the wind.

I have not given up completely on the idea of returning to running. But there would have to be a change in several things, not least the actual desire/motivation/enthusiasm. In the last week I’ve done a couple of sessions of kundalini yoga which is a nice contrast to running.

Have you ever heard of Shadow Work? Jung said that what we don't deal with effectively with our conscious minds gets filed into what he calls our Shadow Self. It's a dark corner of our psyche where things fester and grow bigger and sharper teeth, and every once in a while they'll come back and bite us on the backside. The only real way to 'kill' those monsters is to drag them into the Light and acknowledge them as a part of us just the same as the 'good bits'. Apparently Jung practices what he preached.

You’ve mentioned this in a couple of your previous posts. I had another look at it including looking at a few suggested techniques but it just does not appeal to me. I did take a archetype test which concluded that I was "a wise old man" both in self archetype 73% and persona archetype 67%. But I decided to just go inwards, forget all the techniques, and just ask head on.

So I sat quietly and tuned in and asked ask why the anger? I got the usual “because it shouldn't have happened.” So I just kept repeating the question, why the anger? And got a deeper response each time. I want to make them pay for what they did. But not the professional men that were involved, just the woman. Honestly, the language and aggression at this point was actually a joy to see and made me laugh in its rawness (just as well I got a blue lounge). Over and over, no matter what ‘logical’ evidence I presented as to how and why this woman did what she did, it just came back to she was the one who did this to me and that I wanted her dead! (well they do say shadow work is dark).

So I started to consider this feeling of being let down by a woman in my life and started to look for another incident. It wasn’t my mother, relative or school teacher. It took some time to search memories, experiences and then it struck me, when I was 5 years old, I had an operation as I wasn’t able to hear properly. I have some memories of this operation, the colour and pattern of bed covers, where I was placed in the ward before and after the operation. Significantly, I also have the memory of being wheeled into theatre and a mask being placed over my face, anaethetic I presume. I had the impression that I struggled as I didn’t like or understand why the mask was being put over my face and a female nurse held that mask down firmly on my face. When I had this realisation I saw the time was 17:17. As I picked up my pendulum to check some of this out, a tiger power animal showed up. Dowsing said, that the nurse was not very nice to me, so instead of being kind, encouraging, soothing she was unpleasant / harsh / unkind. Of course, given that this was 51 years ago, there’s an even chance that she’s dead which pleased me as the fact that I wanted the first woman dead, it felt like completion! All of this took about an hour and I felt really knackered.

In addition to the 17:17 and tiger, I asked spirit to give me a sign that I’d got all of this right and in immediate response, I saw 20 blue / pink. Starchild bottle. B20 is also rather significantly called Child Rescue! Another message I felt from spirit was when I woke the following two nights at 12:34 and again last night.

I have been ‘receiving’ all week these aura soma colours in the circle shape and looking on the net I found this! Explains a lot. So I’m busy reading all this. It’s so good to be shown something new!

http://www.colourvibes.co.uk/about-colour-vibrations/catalogue/

Also, for years I’ve been getting on and off yellow/turquoise. In the aura soma system there is no such colour combination but guess what, there is in this system and it is number 28, new beginnings. I find it fascinating!

But don't you see where this is heading? So far it's been how you relate to an external world in whatever shape or form - in your case not wanting much to do with it. What you're going through now is going to be very internal, part of your EFT and acknowledging the anger are the first steps to you going inwards. I guess where you're at right now is where you've come to a screeching halt and while you're pointing in another direction you're not quite in gear.

I’ve no idea where this is heading, apart from as you say going internal. Matt’s teachings are re-shaping some of the way I relate both internally and externally – but no idea where this is heading.

In one of Matt's vids he mentions how reality is like sitting watching a movie. The frames come whizzing along so fast it seems as though they're in seamless motion but they're individual and not connected..

Have you seen ‘The Alchemy of Transformation’. This has been another video which has had quite a significant effect, in terms of trying to apply it. I’ve watched 50 videos now and have another 7 to go.

I also had a lovely little experience in the week. I came home from work having felt really low all day and turned on my computer to check my emails and just had a look at Matt's Facebook page and saw there was a podcast being broadcast in one minute. You have never seen such a quick logging on and signing up and I sat for an hour listening to him and afterwards I felt so much better and more positive and like my usual self. MK is/has taken his place alongside David Byron, Bruce Lee, Francis Rossi and Ayrton Senna.

I'm listening to Uriah Heep now, Youtube is just churning them out. Interestingly I'm not so emotionally involved right now even though what's playing right now used to touch me so deeply - Paradise from Demons and Wizards.

When I read that, I had for a few seconds, the most intense energetic pull, like for a few seconds I was there listening with you! :hug3:

So if a shared interest in Uriah Heep at opposite ends of the country warms your heart, what else do you feel?

Now, this has had me scratching my head all week! Well, there’s the shared admiration of Bruce Lee and the pretty remarkable discovery that Uriah Heep has been such a big part of both our lives from an early age, both of us working in child protection, pretty much the same age, very similar characteristics, maybe a few coincidences along the way I’ve forgotten. I’m aware that those are observations rather than feelings so I’m not sure if that’s what you were meaning .......

Another UH CD that I need to get at some point. Remember this one well, particularly this track, which I find so haunting and oh, the words somehow take on a new meaning.........

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5tgGG7EKQw

Greenslade

25-03-2018, 01:08 PM

Morning Mr G,Good morning Rose, in a 'good morning Vietnam' kinda way.

:icon_cry: :icon_cry:Don't you feel it? It's buzzing when you let it all go.

I liked the flute – that’s all I’m sayin! :biggrin: It's not the same but pretty close. Anyway, I wasn't that much in love with them.

I seem to remember I tried this many years ago but never really took to it. [/qyuote]A few years ago I built a website so that a few of us could write stories into it. We'd discuss storylines in a chatroom then write parts of the story from our own character's perspective. When I did that I used to have Spirit come through and help me write the stories. There was always a shift in consciousness and I'd become so engrossed, so much so that I still think it's rubbed off n me and stayed.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]Mmmm, interesting question. I would think running from although not sure from what. Reflecting, I would often have strong third eye activity whilst running, probably because I was concentrating on running and I often would get a lot of aura soma colours. Sometimes, I would visualise running across a desert. I’m aware of all the chemical/hormonal changes from intense cardio vascular exercise, I can certainly attest to runners high. I get the feeling that you hold onto things and that your running - or at least your deep-seated need to - is a reflection of something inside. Whether you were running to or from I wasn't sure. Chasing is the word. Just liking the flute in the song, but if David Byron had sung it? I know the links are tenuous but The Heep's obviously been a huge part of your Life for a long time, and sometimes these things are 'pointers'. Sometimes it's hard leaving things behind, but they're only behind if you don't take them with you in your heart. It works the other way around too, they're no longer with you if you don't carry them in your heart.

That was one of my dad’s favourites. It's simple, it's easy and it works..

I agree with that, I too still have a temper, although it’s more a ‘quick to irritation’ these days. I often take note of what irritates me, and it's almost always idiot drivers and regardless they still trigger me. Someone once told me that if you want to see how people really are, watch their driving. That has parallels in Spirituality, there's still a person 'driving' the beliefs. When I found out my daughter was being abused I would have cheerfully driven the 300-plus miles to go down and break his legs.

I have not given up completely on the idea of returning to running. But there would have to be a change in several things, not least the actual desire/motivation/enthusiasm. In the last week I’ve done a couple of sessions of kundalini yoga which is a nice contrast to running.I'm talking to someone who's just decided to give up smoking, her biggest fear is that there's no substitute for the reliance and the support mechanism smoking was to her. That I can understand being an ex-smoker, I did feel as though the smoking 'gave me something'. I don't have any substitutes and it feels so much better. I feel a pull towards Tai Chi though.

You’ve mentioned this in a couple of your previous posts. I had another look at it including looking at a few suggested techniques but it just does not appeal to me. I did take a archetype test which concluded that I was "a wise old man" both in self archetype 73% and persona archetype 67%. But I decided to just go inwards, forget all the techniques, and just ask head on.

So I sat quietly and tuned in and asked ask why the anger? I got the usual “because it shouldn't have happened.” So I just kept repeating the question, why the anger? And got a deeper response each time. I want to make them pay for what they did. But not the professional men that were involved, just the woman. Honestly, the language and aggression at this point was actually a joy to see and made me laugh in its rawness (just as well I got a blue lounge). Over and over, no matter what ‘logical’ evidence I presented as to how and why this woman did what she did, it just came back to she was the one who did this to me and that I wanted her dead! (well they do say shadow work is dark).

So I started to consider this feeling of being let down by a woman in my life and started to look for another incident. It wasn’t my mother, relative or school teacher. It took some time to search memories, experiences and then it struck me, when I was 5 years old, I had an operation as I wasn’t able to hear properly. I have some memories of this operation, the colour and pattern of bed covers, where I was placed in the ward before and after the operation. Significantly, I also have the memory of being wheeled into theatre and a mask being placed over my face, anaethetic I presume. I had the impression that I struggled as I didn’t like or understand why the mask was being put over my face and a female nurse held that mask down firmly on my face. When I had this realisation I saw the time was 17:17. As I picked up my pendulum to check some of this out, a tiger power animal showed up. Dowsing said, that the nurse was not very nice to me, so instead of being kind, encouraging, soothing she was unpleasant / harsh / unkind. Of course, given that this was 51 years ago, there’s an even chance that she’s dead which pleased me as the fact that I wanted the first woman dead, it felt like completion! All of this took about an hour and I felt really knackered.

In addition to the 17:17 and tiger, I asked spirit to give me a sign that I’d got all of this right and in immediate response, I saw 20 blue / pink. Starchild bottle. B20 is also rather significantly called Child Rescue! Another message I felt from spirit was when I woke the following two nights at 12:34 and again last night.

I have been ‘receiving’ all week these aura soma colours in the circle shape and looking on the net I found this! Explains a lot. So I’m busy reading all this. It’s so good to be shown something new!

http://www.colourvibes.co.uk/about-colour-vibrations/catalogue/

Also, for years I’ve been getting on and off yellow/turquoise. In the aura soma system there is no such colour combination but guess what, there is in this system and it is number 28, new beginnings. I find it fascinating!I'm going to say "Well done you" not in a patronising way but in a tongue-in-cheek way, it takes a lot of strength to even attempt that kind of thing. Just a quick tip though, it helps to follow the chain of question-answer-question. When you get an answer, question the answer. The other thing is to frame the questions, ask questions that look for reasons rather than ask why - not "Why did that happen" but "What are the reasons I feel anger?" It makes a huge difference. What that technique does is take you down through a trail of cause-effect-cause.

Sometimes when you start from the 'origin' and follow it through your Life you can see it from a very different perspective, because you can see how something like that drives you or has such an effect. I did the same at an early age before I was 'Spiritual' - whatever that means any more. I felt I needed to find the reasons for feeling the way I did and it went back to my father dying, and my abuse. I'd thought I'd dealt with it and moved on but there were still so many things lying in the darkness.

And yes, I know about wanting someone dead.

So now you've found the Child Inside, and she's alone, scared, struggling.....? Matt's teachings remain true, in that you have to give the body time to heal in its own way but it has to apply to the Child Inside too, you have to help her understand and forgive. The StarChild.

Grab yourself a copy of 2001:A Space Odyssey if you get the chance, it's a really old movie and even if you don't get the symbolism on the way through it's worth it for the ending. Dave Bowman going into space is your Journey, when he takes HAL's higher functions offline and gets 'back to basics' it's you taking apart what drives you - like your shadow work. I'll leave the ending, that's the best part.

I seldom give advice but right now I'm welling up with emotion. Go spend some time with the Child Inside, then you'll understand so much.

I’ve no idea where this is heading, apart from as you say going internal. Matt’s teachings are re-shaping some of the way I relate both internally and externally – but no idea where this is heading. It's heading to where there is no more abyss between the internal and external, where things happen because of you instead of to you.

Have you seen ‘The Alchemy of Transformation’. This has been another video which has had quite a significant effect, in terms of trying to apply it. I’ve watched 50 videos now and have another 7 to go.

I also had a lovely little experience in the week. I came home from work having felt really low all day and turned on my computer to check my emails and just had a look at Matt's Facebook page and saw there was a podcast being broadcast in one minute. You have never seen such a quick logging on and signing up and I sat for an hour listening to him and afterwards I felt so much better and more positive and like my usual self. MK is/has taken his place alongside David Byron, Bruce Lee, Francis Rossi and Ayrton Senna.To be honest I'm leaning away from Spiritual YouTubes of late and spending more time relating to the space between the two worlds, and how the outer is a reflection of the inner. There's been a few things happening where all this 'theory stuff' has been coming apart at the seams, while I understand it might be wonderful for you it just doesn't resonate with me any more.

When I read that, I had for a few seconds, the most intense energetic pull, like for a few seconds I was there listening with you! :hug3:Don't know if that's interesting or scary for you. :hug3: I should have been surprised but it feels natural for that to hsppen.

Now, this has had me scratching my head all week! Well, there’s the shared admiration of Bruce Lee and the pretty remarkable discovery that Uriah Heep has been such a big part of both our lives from an early age, both of us working in child protection, pretty much the same age, very similar characteristics, maybe a few coincidences along the way I’ve forgotten. I’m aware that those are observations rather than feelings so I’m not sure if that’s what you were meaning ......."Don't think, feeeeeeellll."

Another UH CD that I need to get at some point. Remember this one well, particularly this track, which I find so haunting and oh, the words somehow take on a new meaning.........

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5tgGG7EKQwI'll have to have a listen to that later. my friend has come round with his new electric guitar and Mrs G's getting him fixed up with some basic chords. It sounds a lot like some of the pre-release songs I've heard from Return to Fantasy. If you're on a computer/laptop I can recommend an easy way to download YouTubes onto your hard drive with a couple of clicks. It'll download the Heep and any MK or other vids as well.

Patrycia-Rose

01-04-2018, 09:34 AM

Hello there Mr G,

Good morning Rose, in a 'good morning Vietnam' kinda way.

Would you believe, I’ve never seen that film although I really liked Mrs Doubtfire and Goodwill Hunting.

We'd discuss storylines in a chatroom then write parts of the story from our own character's perspective. When I did that I used to have Spirit come through and help me write the stories. There was always a shift in consciousness and I'd become so engrossed, so much so that I still think it's rubbed off n me and stayed.

I can relate to that. I often ‘visit’ the characters I created in the novels I’ve written to see how they’re getting on. There was a time when I was writing every weekend that I lived and breathed those characters. Fortunately, I left them all with potentially happy endings so re-visiting is mostly a happy experience.

Just liking the flute in the song, but if David Byron had sung it?

Yep if David Byron had sung that with the flute – that would have been a different experience. I bet some clever person could actually blend that together (in a ‘Free as a Bird’ kind of way).

Sometimes it's hard leaving things behind, but they're only behind if you don't take them with you in your heart. It works the other way around too, they're no longer with you if you don't carry them in your heart

That reminds me of the lines on the back of Wonderworld. “Life outside can be difficult. Life within can be the way you want it to be. But life without you is no life at all.”

I often take note of what irritates me, and it's almost always idiot drivers and regardless they still trigger me.

I’m exactly the same. It sort of amuses me and disappoints me at the same time, I can leave the office relatively calm and some driver does something stupid and I immediately get irritated/angry.

When I found out my daughter was being abused I would have cheerfully driven the 300-plus miles to go down and break his legs.

I’m sorry to hear that; perhaps it was a blessing in disguise that they lived all those miles away, so driving down wasn’t an immediately accessible option.

I feel a pull towards Tai Chi though.

I explored Tai Chi once, didn’t take to it because it was such a contrast to running. I do like the kundalini yoga though, it is so different to hatha with more movement involved. I’ve also got a qi gong dvd waiting to be tried out.

I'm going to say "Well done you" not in a patronising way but in a tongue-in-cheek way, it takes a lot of strength to even attempt that kind of thing.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

What’s really curious is that in the week I was doing some ironing, I always find that quite soothing and I thought about the 2005 trauma and thought what is it I’m angry at? I can’t quite remember what I’m supposed to be angry about. It’s like a big hole is in my head where it all was. So I’m guessing that the thought patterns that have built up over the years are breaking down. I dare say there’s some technical term for it like neurological thought patterns or something. But it was quite profound that the anger or memories, or my perception of it has significantly changed.

In the week I had a notable experience; I awoke in the early hours and I started remembering my first weekend job in a supermarket when I was at college, that then led to recalling the next job and so on it went; then it was remembering a christmas with my parents and other significant events; all with incredible clarity and detail, like the experience had a life of its own – it was like a life review. I then went back to sleep and had a dream about bats and woke up with the song Solsbury Hill blaring in my head. I had a look at the lyrics of that to see if there was any cryptic messages in there but didn’t see anything obvious.

So now you've found the Child Inside, and she's alone, scared, struggling.....? Matt's teachings remain true, in that you have to give the body time to heal in its own way but it has to apply to the Child Inside too, you have to help her understand and forgive. The StarChild.

I’ve followed it up just by going inside and explaining what was going on in the operation, what the mask was and the results of the operation in that could fully hear. That seemed to land OK with her; I had the feeling that she was more interested in getting outside on her bike and playing in the dirt

To be honest I'm leaning away from Spiritual YouTubes of late and spending more time relating to the space between the two worlds, and how the outer is a reflection of the inner. There's been a few things happening where all this 'theory stuff' has been coming apart at the seams, while I understand it might be wonderful for you it just doesn't resonate with me any more.

It sounds as though you are a step ahead of me having maybe done all the youtube vids. For me, this is all so new! I’ve only had a computer at home since 2012 and it had not occurred to me to look on youtube or anywhere else for spiritual teachings, I didn’t think such a thing would exist. I was still very much in hard book mode. I had read a number of spiriutal books such as Power of Now. I can remember putting that down and thinking what the hell was all that about. I’ve read a couple of Deepak Chopra books and I’ve tried twice to get into Abraham Hicks, finding the latter deeply patronising. There was just nothing for me in those books, that style, that teaching. It just didn’t touch me, speak to me, do anything for me.

So along comes Matt Kahn (care of you) and it’s like oh my, this is what I’ve been waiting my whole life for, this has been the part that’s been missing; teachings that I understand from beginning to end, no airy-fairy ‘aren’t I clever’ language, techniques that are so simple yet so profound with full and detailed explanations of why something will work, the foundation, the background to it. Blowing out of the water the old spiritual teachings, now I know why they didn’t work for. I’ve seen enough videos and listened to enough interviews/podcasts to know that this has all come from his own personal experiences from a child to adulthood, so it’s genuine, there’s no ego there, no falsehood, just a deep connection and desire to help people going through their struggles. And I wouldn’t be putting as much energy into watching videos and taking notes if I didn’t think it was worth it. And some of those teachings and techniques I am now doing daily (I’ve made myself get all teary now.)

Don't know if that's interesting or scary for you. :hug3: I should have been surprised but it feels natural for that to happen.

No it didn’t scare me just suprised me with the intensity of the pull of energy.

"Don't think, feeeeeeellll."

I don’t think I’m doing very well here; I feel the connection based on the things I’ve observed.

I'll have to have a listen to that later.

Did you catch up with that UH video in the previous post? Another one missing from my collection, I was rather surprised to see that it’s not on amazon, only as an MP3 download. I may have to contact my brother to see if he’s got that one.

If you're on a computer/laptop I can recommend an easy way to download YouTubes onto your hard drive with a couple of clicks. It'll download the Heep and any MK or other vids as well.

I’ve seen a way to do that by putting the letter ‘s’ in front the URL. What I could do with is a way of getting Matt’s videos into text as it is incredibly hard work. The quickest way I have found is using an online voice recognition system (faster than my fingers) but it doesn’t work direct from the video, I have to pause the video and repeat it, it saves me from typing it up, just have to tidy it but that’s the quickest way I’ve found but it can take a whole weekend to do just one video.

And just when I think I’ve got to be near the end now, I’ll be able to take it a bit easier on the next video, he begins by saying ..... "When we are on a spiritual journey we tend to realise sooner or later that it doesn't actually matter what happens to you but the level of consciousness you are at when things happen.” So no, I can’t take it easy cos i’m sitting here, once again, thinking sh** that’s me, this is exactly me. I’ve had so many moments like that!

Patrycia

Greenslade

01-04-2018, 01:35 PM

Hello there Mr G,Hi Patriycia, and a beautiful Sunday morning it is too even though the forecast says it's supposed to be snow and rain.

Would you believe, I’ve never seen that film although I really liked Mrs Doubtfire and Goodwill Hunting. You've never seen Good Morning Vietnam? That's it, we're through.

That movie was inspiring then and it still inspires me today.He was quite an oddball and he brought a lot to the soldiers who were listening. The the establishment shut him down and I felt sad, but he stuck to his guns and come through in the end. The character Lived his Life on his own terms and was true to himself. Not to mention it was damned funny and so many other things.

I can relate to that. I often ‘visit’ the characters I created in the novels I’ve written to see how they’re getting on. There was a time when I was writing every weekend that I lived and breathed those characters. Fortunately, I left them all with potentially happy endings so re-visiting is mostly a happy experience.Strange that you say that. I've been thinking of revisiting my stories and carrying on, I guess what I'm reluctant for is what might be waiting for me when I get there, or should I say who? As in the 'new me'.

Yep if David Byron had sung that with the flute – that would have been a different experience. I bet some clever person could actually blend that together (in a ‘Free as a Bird’ kind of way).Dare say they could, but it takes a huge amount of technical know-how to separate the voice from the other instruments. The voice has quite a range of frequencies. For me it's the way it is, and while I grew up with Byron I have to accept that he's not there any more, very sadly.

That reminds me of the lines on the back of Wonderworld. “Life outside can be difficult. Life within can be the way you want it to be. But life without you is no life at all.”Yep, know that feeling very well. Even no Life at all tells you something though.

I’m exactly the same. It sort of amuses me and disappoints me at the same time, I can leave the office relatively calm and some driver does something stupid and I immediately get irritated/angry. I guess we all need the reminder that we're human after all.

I’m sorry to hear that; perhaps it was a blessing in disguise that they lived all those miles away, so driving down wasn’t an immediately accessible option.Thank you but she's building her own Life now and although he's contacted her a few times she doesn't give him much truck. I guess he was testing the waters to see what she'd do, but what he got wasn't what he'd expected. I'd have jumped in the car and gone down at a moment's notice, nearly did. My brother would have gone down too. The upside is that my daughter probably felt isolated prior to that, and she had to make her own mind up about getting out. Now she knows what her dad and her uncle were willing to do for her, her sister spoke volumes by fetching her and her mother gave her the spare room.

I explored Tai Chi once, didn’t take to it because it was such a contrast to running. I do like the kundalini yoga though, it is so different to hatha with more movement involved. I’ve also got a qi gong dvd waiting to be tried out. I'm getting old and stiff. I was thinking about the old judo warm-ups but no courage of my convictions lol. I used to swim a lot too, which would have helped to keep me supple. Tai Chi seems to be just the job for a knackered old git.

Thank you, I appreciate that.

What’s really curious is that in the week I was doing some ironing, I always find that quite soothing and I thought about the 2005 trauma and thought what is it I’m angry at? I can’t quite remember what I’m supposed to be angry about. It’s like a big hole is in my head where it all was. So I’m guessing that the thought patterns that have built up over the years are breaking down. I dare say there’s some technical term for it like neurological thought patterns or something. But it was quite profound that the anger or memories, or my perception of it has significantly changed.

In the week I had a notable experience; I awoke in the early hours and I started remembering my first weekend job in a supermarket when I was at college, that then led to recalling the next job and so on it went; then it was remembering a christmas with my parents and other significant events; all with incredible clarity and detail, like the experience had a life of its own – it was like a life review. I then went back to sleep and had a dream about bats and woke up with the song Solsbury Hill blaring in my head. I had a look at the lyrics of that to see if there was any cryptic messages in there but didn’t see anything obvious. You're very welcome.

It's called neuroplasticity. What happens is that the brain creates thinking patterns and the same old neurons are used time after time, like traffic going down the same old roads. In neuroplasticity new pathways are created so new parts of the brain 'open for traffic' and the thinking changes. One of my old clients had dyslexia so I used to throw juggling balls across the room at her. Hand/eye coordination is in the same area of the brain as dyslexia, ans as she had a brain-block with her dyslexia catching the juggling balls was like sneaking in the back door.

Your thinking patterns are/have been changing for a while so neuroplasticity is kicking in, you're much more in tune with the Spiritual side of you lately. I hate to say this but Spirituality is processed by the brain itself and not some external heavenly force. You're more comfortable/assured with your soma bottles, numbers aren't quite as amazing as they used to be....etc... Stuffing your head full of Matt Khan YouTubes is certainly a change in traffic direction for what's rattling around in your noggin.

Now you've got the trauma out of your system pretty much, you can walk the spiral and visit the past memories with different eyes. I dion't know for sure it's going to happen but if it does, don't worry if the trauma comes back at you. All it's doing is showing itself to you so you can see it through your 'new eyes'. You'll gain a higher truth from it.

You had a more notable experience than you think you did -
Climbing up on Solsbury Hill
I could see the city light
Wind was blowing, time stood still
Eagle flew out of the night
He was something to observe
Came in close, I heard a voice
Standing, stretching every nerve
I had to listen had no choice
I did not believe the information
I just had to trust imagination
My heart going boom, boom, boom
Son, he said, grab your things I've come to take you home

I wish I could give you this feeling, I guess it's how the father felt when the prodigal son returned.

There's a guy who channels a being called Bashar, there are plenty of YouTubes lying around if you want to pick one but they are heavier. There's one thing he says though that's very pertinent here -
"If you can imagine it, it exists. How can it enter your consciousness if it doesn't exist?"
The problem is that the emphasis is on the consciousness but few have really looked into what the consciousness is. The consciousness IS the illusion. The imagination is as much a part of your consciousness as anything else, and if you decide it's 'lesser' then all you're doing is doing yourself a disservice. If you're going back to your writings, what is that reflecting? See them through your 'new eyes'.

The messages are only cryptic because you haven't found the key that will unlock everything. Everything. It is there, really really there.

I’ve followed it up just by going inside and explaining what was going on in the operation, what the mask was and the results of the operation in that could fully hear. That seemed to land OK with her; I had the feeling that she was more interested in getting outside on her bike and playing in the dirtChildren have a wisdom all of their own, did you go play in the dirt with her?

It sounds as though you are a step ahead of me having maybe done all the youtube vids. For me, this is all so new! I’ve only had a computer at home since 2012 and it had not occurred to me to look on youtube or anywhere else for spiritual teachings, I didn’t think such a thing would exist. I was still very much in hard book mode. I had read a number of spiriutal books such as Power of Now. I can remember putting that down and thinking what the hell was all that about. I’ve read a couple of Deepak Chopra books and I’ve tried twice to get into Abraham Hicks, finding the latter deeply patronising. There was just nothing for me in those books, that style, that teaching. It just didn’t touch me, speak to me, do anything for me.

So along comes Matt Kahn (care of you) and it’s like oh my, this is what I’ve been waiting my whole life for, this has been the part that’s been missing; teachings that I understand from beginning to end, no airy-fairy ‘aren’t I clever’ language, techniques that are so simple yet so profound with full and detailed explanations of why something will work, the foundation, the background to it. Blowing out of the water the old spiritual teachings, now I know why they didn’t work for. I’ve seen enough videos and listened to enough interviews/podcasts to know that this has all come from his own personal experiences from a child to adulthood, so it’s genuine, there’s no ego there, no falsehood, just a deep connection and desire to help people going through their struggles. And I wouldn’t be putting as much energy into watching videos and taking notes if I didn’t think it was worth it. And some of those teachings and techniques I am now doing daily (I’ve made myself get all teary now.)You have no idea how emotional I get when I'm writing to you. Every post almost, sometimes two or three times a post and Salisbury Hill was the mother of all doozies. If you're tearing up it means a surge of emotion, and emotion is energy in motion. E-motion, gettit? What you've done is made an energetic connection rather than a thought/mind-powered one. Let your emotions go, because if you don't they'll build up and burst. If you let them go it leaves room for other things to come through.

I can understand all that. I've been using computers since around 1990 or so and was teaching web design - and the Millennium Bug - just before 2000 so they've always been a big feature. I've read a few books though and didn't really get to grips with any of them, about the only one that did make sense was the Celestine Prophesy, and at that time there were a lot of synchronicities happening. The thing about books is that they're dictated not by Spirituality but by the usual market forces - books are not made available by Spiritual concepts alone. I've seen Chopra's and Hicks' material on the web and I'm glad I didn't buy the books.

I Love this stuff, really really Love it. Beyond all the concepts and beyond all the baloney is what really matters, getting through the day in one piece and better yet, helping someone to do that too. And you getting emotional means that you've touched something very close to your heart.

I resonated with Matt for the same reasons as you. I think of we were having a few beers and a barbecue I wouldn't want to talk Spirituality, I'd want to find out more about what makes Matt Matt, if that makes sense.

No it didn’t scare me just suprised me with the intensity of the pull of energy. That says something in itself.

I don’t think I’m doing very well here; I feel the connection based on the things I’ve observed.Drop what doesn't serve you, this mindset doesn't serve. OK, what should it be like? I started the same way because I needed something more 'solid' than just be feeling a connection, after all it could just as easily be all in my head. Feeling the connections via observation is more tangible and I'd have been surprised if you'd taken them on feelings only. The observation is often the confirmation and feedback while the feeling is more energetic.

There's something called Gnosis, very simplistically it's knowing without knowing how you know. It's very counter-intuitive because it's 'backwards' to 'regular' knowing. It's a feeling beyond feeling that you knew all along, and Matt's hinting at it in one of his vids. The way he explains it is "You forgot that you were going to remind yourself." It comes in one of his affirmations.

Did you catch up with that UH video in the previous post? Another one missing from my collection, I was rather surprised to see that it’s not on amazon, only as an MP3 download. I may have to contact my brother to see if he’s got that one. I haven't had the chance as yet, being honest my head isn't in the game and it's not easy being 'me' at the moment. Nothing bad, just mad.

I’ve seen a way to do that by putting the letter ‘s’ in front the URL. What I could do with is a way of getting Matt’s videos into text as it is incredibly hard work. The quickest way I have found is using an online voice recognition system (faster than my fingers) but it doesn’t work direct from the video, I have to pause the video and repeat it, it saves me from typing it up, just have to tidy it but that’s the quickest way I’ve found but it can take a whole weekend to do just one video.

And just when I think I’ve got to be near the end now, I’ll be able to take it a bit easier on the next video, he begins by saying ..... "When we are on a spiritual journey we tend to realise sooner or later that it doesn't actually matter what happens to you but the level of consciousness you are at when things happen.” So no, I can’t take it easy cos i’m sitting here, once again, thinking sh** that’s me, this is exactly me. I’ve had so many moments like that!

PatryciaTranscribing from sound/voice to text isn't a lot of fun, short of paying a lot for software or a very good typist.

You have all of eternity to be the epitome of Spirituality, you have all of eternity to..... anything you like, including being a Matt Khan clone. :smile:

You have this moment to be Patrycia Rose, just this moment and once it's gone it's gone. Once you have read this the moment has vanished and as you Journey through space/time it will be replaced by another Now Slice, another moment. In the rush to grow up we forget our childhoods, we forget where we're coming from and so lose the Path to where we are going. Matt's videos will be around for a long time yet, more assuredly if you save them to your hard drive. You will not have this experience - whatever shape or form that takes for you - ever again. Matt's videos will remain Matt's videos but you are forever changing.

What makes any moment more important than any other? What makes you less one moment and more in another, and less or more of what?

One of the most Spiritually poignant things I've seen is this - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HU7Ga7qTLDU

Rutger Hauer plays a replicant who comes to earth to kill his makers, along with another three. Harrison Ford is the Bladerunner whose job it is to 'retire' the replicants because they're banned from ever coming to earth. The replicants also have a time-limited Lifespan, and his Life is just ending as this scene happens.

What are your thoughts on the vid?

Patrycia-Rose

08-04-2018, 09:22 AM

Good morning Mr G,

You've never seen Good Morning Vietnam? That's it, we're through.

That really made me laugh! But, you’ll be pleased to know that as coincidence had it, I saw that Good Morning Vietnam was on one of the freeview channels in the week, so I started watching it last night. I would have finished but it was getting late and I got waylaid by a very subtle piece of music in the background that instantly transported me back to being a kid, knew the piece well but didn’t know who it was by or what it was called. So me being me, I had to find out right that instant so I started searching on my tablet and it took some time to find it, because a lot of the soundtrack listings weren’t including it. But finally, I found it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Sdfwan5tMw

Strange that you say that. I've been thinking of revisiting my stories and carrying on, I guess what I'm reluctant for is what might be waiting for me when I get there, or should I say who? As in the 'new me'.

can totally relate to that. When I say ‘re-visit’ I meant really transporting myself into their world, usually in the early hours of the morning. I wouldn’t want to continue with the actual story, (although I had copious notes for any sequels). For starters, I got two of those manuscripts as perfect as I could, and I know that my literary skills are not what they were when I wrote those stories twenty five years ago. When I had rejection letters from publishers, they would always say the same thing; acknowledging that I could write, knew how to lay out a novel, enjoyed the story etc but my novels wouldn’t fit neatly into a genre. There was a time when I lived for writing, would wake up in the night with ideas and sentences and would record them all for the weekend. So really, it’s not something I would want to get into again.

For me it's the way it is, and while I grew up with Byron I have to accept that he's not there any more, very sadly.

David Byron will always have a place in my heart, always has done, always will do. His amazing voice lives on and you only have to look at some of the comments on youtube videos to know he’s still adored by fans.

I'm getting old and stiff. I was thinking about the old judo warm-ups but no courage of my convictions lol. I used to swim a lot too, which would have helped to keep me supple. Tai Chi seems to be just the job for a knackered old git.

I don’t know anything about judo moves and only a brief knowledge of tai chi but if you slowed those judo moves right down, would those moves be similar to tai chi?

I seemed to have transitioned into a knackered old git in the space of a few short months. I look back on it now and I used to do a full day at work, go for a two mile walk at lunch time and come home and go for a run. I’m thinking now, how on earth did I used to do that?

I dion't know for sure it's going to happen but if it does, don't worry if the trauma comes back at you.

Mmm, now that caught my eye. I don’t know if this is related but last week (thank goodness it happened at home) I woke up one morning full of anger, it had a life of its own and if it moved, I was angry with it. I found it quite scary because it seemed to come from nowhere, was so intense and I felt out of control. I tried to do all sorts of things to try to calm down but nothing was touching it. Eventually my dowsing suggested the blue aura soma bottle and thank god, that seemed to work and calm things down. Then I felt just kind of numb and spaced out and that slid in exhaustion. Took four days to finally feel something approaching normal.

And then yesterday, I had my first session of cranio sacral therapy. I was so pleased that I immediately felt the energy in my body, even though it was doing some weird things. The therapist said that I had a lot of shock in my body, I don’t think is from the trauma I’m fairly sure this is from the bowen therapy it just didn’t suit me. Thing is with cranio it works where the body wants to work, your mind doesn’t come into it. But I feel pretty heavy energy this morning, so I think I’ve got a long way to go.

The numbers have been a bit more intense of late. I’ve had a couple of wakings at 1:23 and a 4.44 the other day, not had any 4’s before. But on the drive home yesterday from cranio, the car milometer said 135135. That seems to indicate that spirit are supporting me with this healing.

You had a more notable experience than you think you did -
Climbing up on Solsbury Hill
I could see the city light
Wind was blowing, time stood still
Eagle flew out of the night
He was something to observe
Came in close, I heard a voice
Standing, stretching every nerve
I had to listen had no choice
I did not believe the information
I just had to trust imagination
My heart going boom, boom, boom
Son, he said, grab your things I've come to take you home

I wish I could give you this feeling, I guess it's how the father felt when the prodigal son returned.

So are you thinking that this is about parts of me integrating? Also, I got very absorbed into the meaning of the song for Peter Gabriel. According to stuff that I found on net, the ‘eagle’ was Bruce Springsteen and what came to mind for me was MK and the impact he’s had.

You have no idea how emotional I get when I'm writing to you. Every post almost, sometimes two or three times a post and Salisbury Hill was the mother of all doozies. If you're tearing up it means a surge of emotion, and emotion is energy in motion. E-motion, gettit?

Yes, I realised many years ago, that if I get emotional at something it means there’s some truth in it for me.

I resonated with Matt for the same reasons as you. I think of we were having a few beers and a barbecue I wouldn't want to talk Spirituality, I'd want to find out more about what makes Matt Matt, if that makes sense.

That information is out there, a short recount of personal experience here and there within the videos. But what really gives an insight is this video which I found deeply moving, the first 30 minutes is about his childhood within his family. It took a monumental amount of courage to share that. I think you’d find it interesting:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26oP5VXEyHg

I haven't had the chance as yet, being honest my head isn't in the game and it's not easy being 'me' at the moment. Nothing bad, just mad.

I can understand what you mean. Anything I can help with? I’m quite good at mad.

You have all of eternity to be the epitome of Spirituality, you have all of eternity to..... anything you like, including being a Matt Khan clone. :smile:

Aye, a noble ambition if ever there was one but that is not my conscious intention, I’d certainly be setting myself up to fail. But yes, I certainly am going at this with an intensity which I’m not sure what it’s about. I just know I don’t do this intensity for a long period of time without a good reason. Maybe the newness of it, maybe it’s a relief to know that I can still feel this intense about something, maybe on a sub-consious level my mind is storing it all and pulling it out when needed, maybe it’s something for the future as I maybe go about strongly implementing a couple of teachings. Lots of maybe’s but as you say, there’s time for it to settle and lead to wherever it’s leading.

You have this moment to be Patrycia Rose, just this moment and once it's gone it's gone.

There’s something in that and I remember the medium saying something similar and I thought this again, I’m not quite sure what he meant when he said ‘you haven’t taken account of Patrycia’.

One of the most Spiritually poignant things I've seen is this - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HU7Ga7qTLDU

Rutger Hauer plays a replicant who comes to earth to kill his makers, along with another three. Harrison Ford is the Bladerunner whose job it is to 'retire' the replicants because they're banned from ever coming to earth. The replicants also have a time-limited Lifespan, and his Life is just ending as this scene happens.

What are your thoughts on the vid

I do have that DVD, I remember seeing it at the cinema. Remember the Vangelis soundtrack. Yep, that scene was pretty poignant, particularly the white dove at the end. The bit that stood out for me was the look of astonishment on Deckard’s face.

Patrycia

Greenslade

08-04-2018, 11:35 AM

Good morning Mr G,And a very good morning to you, Patrycia.

That really made me laugh! But, you’ll be pleased to know that as coincidence had it, I saw that Good Morning Vietnam was on one of the freeview channels in the week, so I started watching it last night. I would have finished but it was getting late and I got waylaid by a very subtle piece of music in the background that instantly transported me back to being a kid, knew the piece well but didn’t know who it was by or what it was called. So me being me, I had to find out right that instant so I started searching on my tablet and it took some time to find it, because a lot of the soundtrack listings weren’t including it. But finally, I found it:[quote=Patrycia-Rose]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Sdfwan5tMw

It's a start I suppose lol. Every one of Williams' films was unique and there was never a sequel to any of them as far as I remember. Just before he died they were talking about a sequel to Mrs Doubtfire, which he was a long way from being happy with. Also on the cards, supposedly, was a sequel to Good Morning Vietnam too that was ready to begin production.

I remember that track from somewhere and the album cover that comes up in the YouTube frame looks familiar too. I had a few orchestral ones as well, including movies soundtracks so unless I'm getting mixed up with one of those. It was.... 1975???? after all.

can totally relate to that. When I say ‘re-visit’ I meant really transporting myself into their world, usually in the early hours of the morning. I wouldn’t want to continue with the actual story, (although I had copious notes for any sequels). For starters, I got two of those manuscripts as perfect as I could, and I know that my literary skills are not what they were when I wrote those stories twenty five years ago. When I had rejection letters from publishers, they would always say the same thing; acknowledging that I could write, knew how to lay out a novel, enjoyed the story etc but my novels wouldn’t fit neatly into a genre. There was a time when I lived for writing, would wake up in the night with ideas and sentences and would record them all for the weekend. So really, it’s not something I would want to get into again. It all began as an idea I had in a forum and a group of us talked about it. I built a sire where we could take on a character and contribute to a continuing story from that character's perspective. It made the story a little disjointed because we would never put words in another character's mouth and that made conversations difficult. It petered out after nearly three years all told, but it was very intensive.

Going back to the story again would be nostalgia if anything but it played itself out. It was one of those things that fitted for the time, the place and the people around but it would be out of time now. When I was writing I had consciousness shifts as the clairsentience kicked in, I guess it's feeling that again that I was looking for.

David Byron will always have a place in my heart, always has done, always will do. His amazing voice lives on and you only have to look at some of the comments on youtube videos to know he’s still adored by fans.The Heep were there at some of the most emotional times of my Life, at a time when I was correlating lyrics with what was going on. I was pretty messed up at that time. I don't look back in anger though, I can't change the past but I can change how I move forwards with it.

This past while back I've been going over so many aspects of my Life in detail and this is one of them. I was shown a few things about my Life and the one conclusion I came to was that if I'd had the choice I;d do it all over again. All of it. So as Spirit I'd make the same choices to have the same experiences so that the same things could happen, and forget I'd made those choices.

I don’t know anything about judo moves and only a brief knowledge of tai chi but if you slowed those judo moves right down, would those moves be similar to tai chi?

I seemed to have transitioned into a knackered old git in the space of a few short months. I look back on it now and I used to do a full day at work, go for a two mile walk at lunch time and come home and go for a run. I’m thinking now, how on earth did I used to do that? Here's another aspect that brings me back. I started judo because I was a very angry young man and now we're talking about going back to judo. The anger won't come back, what's there though is the fight having gone so it's a good aspect for a change. There were specific warm-up exercises for suppleness and stretching that would likely help, thanks for the idea. I'm getting stiff in my old age and the bones are creaking.

Sometimes Life slows you down, the body can only take so much before its mechanisms kick in and it says enough is enough.

Mmm, now that caught my eye. I don’t know if this is related but last week (thank goodness it happened at home) I woke up one morning full of anger, it had a life of its own and if it moved, I was angry with it. I found it quite scary because it seemed to come from nowhere, was so intense and I felt out of control. I tried to do all sorts of things to try to calm down but nothing was touching it. Eventually my dowsing suggested the blue aura soma bottle and thank god, that seemed to work and calm things down. Then I felt just kind of numb and spaced out and that slid in exhaustion. Took four days to finally feel something approaching normal.

And then yesterday, I had my first session of cranio sacral therapy. I was so pleased that I immediately felt the energy in my body, even though it was doing some weird things. The therapist said that I had a lot of shock in my body, I don’t think is from the trauma I’m fairly sure this is from the bowen therapy it just didn’t suit me. Thing is with cranio it works where the body wants to work, your mind doesn’t come into it. But I feel pretty heavy energy this morning, so I think I’ve got a long way to go.

The numbers have been a bit more intense of late. I’ve had a couple of wakings at 1:23 and a 4.44 the other day, not had any 4’s before. But on the drive home yesterday from cranio, the car milometer said 135135. That seems to indicate that spirit are supporting me with this healing.One of the supposed symptoms of ascension is the clearing out of emotions and stale energies so that room can be made from new ones. Luckily I'd dealt with my anger many years ago, otherwise I could have been in real trouble by now. I think this is what's happening with you, that all this emotion is being brought to the surface so you can deal with it and move on.

Anger is an energy, and it's one of the most if not the most primordial and strongest of them all. One of the mistakes people make when dealing with anger is to resist it, but what we resist persists. It's an energy and needs to be dealt with in that context. Anger can be directed against itself and it doesn't have to be expressed in harmful ways. When you have anger, you can be angry at being angry and use that to channel the energy in ways that don't cause any harm.

One of the techniques that worked for me was to visualise the energy as water or something I could see - like a superpower. I used to stand there with my arms and legs spread as wide as possible and watch as the energy seeped through my skin. Or raise my hands out with the palms up so that they energy could find a way out of my body. It doesn't matter what you visualise as long as you use the strongest one. You can feel like a right wally, but if you use something like that as soon as you feel it rising it can help.

Don't worry about feeling anything in particular, just go with the flow, because going against it doen't help. Accepting yourself as you are is the best thing you can do whatever that may be. "A long way to go" is pretty relative anyway.

So are you thinking that this is about parts of me integrating? Also, I got very absorbed into the meaning of the song for Peter Gabriel. According to stuff that I found on net, the ‘eagle’ was Bruce Springsteen and what came to mind for me was MK and the impact he’s had.I could tell you so many things but they wouldn't make any sense to you right now, simply because you don't have a frame of reference to start from. That's just the way it is for you and that's OK. What you haven't done much of throughout this process is internalised, you've always gone to external sources for answers. You put great store in your soma bottles and numbers. Here's the thing, you are the answer looking for the question. I'm not saying there's anything wrong with your looking to soma bottles and numbers but you're missing the most important part of this equation - you're resonating at that level. This isn't happening to you, this is happening because of you and that's a hugely important distinction.

For you, at the moment, it's still black and white - remember that? What you're not doing is finding that grey area in between. You're looking at your car milometer and "it seems to indicate that Spirit are supporting me."

Spirit isn't 'out there', you are not 'in here'.

The meaning of the song is for Peter Gabriel, he wrote it so he'll have his own meaning. There's something inside that you resonated with so the song has meaning for you, personally.

Solsbury Hill is supposed to be a mystical place and climbing up the hill is getting away from it all, going 'above'. Going above the lights, you could see them because you weren't surrounded by them. The winds of change blowing, freely. The eagle conveys the messages and power of Spirit......

"Forget your mind, use your imagination, listen to your heart."
Your mind can only work in what it knows, what it has experience of so anything outside of that is where the mind fears to read. Your imagination is free, it can go anywhere any time. Your heart will tell you right from wrong, when your imagination has touched truth or if it's fantasy - but even fantasies have a message for you..

Yes, I realised many years ago, that if I get emotional at something it means there’s some truth in it for me.You are energy, everything is energy.

That information is out there, a short recount of personal experience here and there within the videos. But what really gives an insight is this video which I found deeply moving, the first 30 minutes is about his childhood within his family. It took a monumental amount of courage to share that. I think you’d find it interesting:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26oP5VXEyHg
I think you've sent me that link not so long ago. I've had a look but it's very difficult to deal with right now because I have some first class weirdness going on. There's a guy I used to be at the judo with still on the go, he knew a lot about my family although I didn't know it at the time. I wasn't ready then to deal with my emotions over my father. He's been talking to two guys who now live in the same house as my parents did, they're brothers who knew them very well and one of them worked with him for years. One of them was the first on the scene at my father's accident. I'm going to have to find the courage to go see them one day.

I can understand what you mean. Anything I can help with? I’m quite good at mad.Thanks for the offer but it's stuff I need to process and get through in my own way. The energies have been so bad and intense that my flesh has been crawling and my skin's been doing the tango with itself.

Aye, a noble ambition if ever there was one but that is not my conscious intention, I’d certainly be setting myself up to fail. But yes, I certainly am going at this with an intensity which I’m not sure what it’s about. I just know I don’t do this intensity for a long period of time without a good reason. Maybe the newness of it, maybe it’s a relief to know that I can still feel this intense about something, maybe on a sub-consious level my mind is storing it all and pulling it out when needed, maybe it’s something for the future as I maybe go about strongly implementing a couple of teachings. Lots of maybe’s but as you say, there’s time for it to settle and lead to wherever it’s leading. There's one thing for sure and that's things happen for a reason. We're all going to 'get there' either because of or despite ourselves, which one it is is your choice. We never know what's around the next corner but nothing is wasted, and often all we have is the hope that it all means something.

Eternity is a long time after all.

There’s something in that and I remember the medium saying something similar and I thought this again, I’m not quite sure what he meant when he said ‘you haven’t taken account of Patrycia’.The meaning of that one is going to depend on the context I think. As Shakespeare said, "All the world's a stage..." etc. Often we play a role, we think that role is the 'real us' until we step outside of ourselves.

I do have that DVD, I remember seeing it at the cinema. Remember the Vangelis soundtrack. Yep, that scene was pretty poignant, particularly the white dove at the end. The bit that stood out for me was the look of astonishment on Deckard’s face.

PatryciaBut was Deckard a replicant? There's a lot of discussion about that, especially in the sequel. Perhaps Deckard was so astonished because replicants could be very human after all, he'd just spent the entire movie killing Roy and his compatriots yet Roy showed him so much compassion in saving him. Roy had seen things that they wouldn't have believed, and so much destruction and so much beauty in the destruction. Roy had exceeded his programming, something Tyrell seemed very proud of just before he died.

We're only human after all.

Patrycia-Rose

15-04-2018, 09:15 AM

Hello Mr G,

This past while back I've been going over so many aspects of my Life in detail and this is one of them.

Yes I’ve been doing this, not so consciously but I will find that a memory of an experience, situation, person will just come up in my mind with no apparent reason; some areas of life easier to look back upon than others. And I’ve felt a longing to go back and have a day with that person, that situation, that experience. I got told by the medium I saw recently that I should stop doing this but I think he meant around the trauma, because I often think if only I could go back, I would do things differently. I guess that’s something a lot of people could identify with, it’s having to live with the consequences of it.

But just recalling memories, I think is inevitable as you get older and for me, it feels like a very long life indeed with an even longer one stretching out in front of me.

One of the supposed symptoms of ascension is the clearing out of emotions and stale energies so that room can be made from new ones. .

I have the feeling that the Ascension symptoms I experienced earlier on have gone. I'm not sure whether I am still in Ascension or not or if any of my current difficulties, particularly muscular tension in my middle back, is ascension or just tension or something different again.

I was interested to hear Matt saying on one of his radio broadcast or videos, I can't remember which now, that the Earth is moving upward on its axis and this is giving rise to people's experience of Ascension. So it would seem as if there are scientific reasons for ascension.

Accepting yourself as you are is the best thing you can do whatever that may be. "A long way to go" is pretty relative anyway.

And this is where I have the greatest difficulty. I have this belief/desire to be as physically perfect as I can be. I am not emotionally perfect, nor am I mentally perfect both of which I am comfortable with and accept. However I cannot seem to accept physical imperfection. I think I need to look into this and where this comes from. For the last 12 years, since the trauma symptoms have appeared, I have driven headlong and with unending enthusiasm and absolute resolve and determination to resolve this. I have looked into nutrition, supplements, healing modalities and some things that most people have not heard of. I have tried the majority of them and on more than one occasion I have made things worse or created a new problem. Even now, when I am having cranial sacral therapy, I am already considering my next move. On the one hand, I continue to search for physical healing, but on the other hand, it feels completely hopeless and I don't believe I will ever recover. So two complete opposing places to be.

I could tell you so many things but they wouldn't make any sense to you right now, simply because you don't have a frame of reference to start from.

I may have a frame of reference, obviously there are some experiences I’ve had that I don’t feel comfortable writing about on a public forum, so (sacred geometry and maths aside) I may have a frame of reference, so do tell!

. What you haven't done much of throughout this process is internalised, you've always gone to external sources for answers.

Wouldn’t the inner child work I did be considered internal work?

You put great store in your soma bottles and numbers.

Yes, I put great store in the Aura soma bottles. Because they work. There have been many times when I have experienced physical or emotional upset where the actual physical bottles I have, and also the recently acquired pomanders, have helped me greatly. They are made up of essential oils, plant dyes, herbal and Crystal energy so it is all good stuff. Plus the fact they’re rather beautiful to look at, so I’ve got some of them displayed amongst my crystal collection. Also my guides put these colour combinations in my third eye almost daily, so it is a way of them communicating and giving me healing I need so there is a good foundation for me to put store in aura Soma.

Conversely, I do not put great store in the numbers as this is a fairly new phenomenon for me. I am very aware, that although it may be interesting to google the meaning of numbers, these explanations are from a human perspective. I do not know whether these explanations given are channelled information. So I have no real understanding of what these individual numbers mean, I just am aware that they have for the last six months or so become very noticeable. More about numbers later.

For you, at the moment, it's still black and white - remember that?

How could I forget, I was reminded of it the other day, but still no idea what that meant.

There's a guy I used to be at the judo with still on the go, he knew a lot about my family although I didn't know it at the time. I wasn't ready then to deal with my emotions over my father. He's been talking to two guys who now live in the same house as my parents did, they're brothers who knew them very well and one of them worked with him for years. One of them was the first on the scene at my father's accident. I'm going to have to find the courage to go see them one day.

You know, that very much feels like it is something you think you Should do, rather than what you Want to do. What would you have to gain by seeing them? Consider the answer and that will lead you in the right direction.

I had my third session of cranio sacral therapy yesterday, progress is slow. Something has definitely got hold of me and I’m not sure what. But what was really noticeable, and this was all in the space of an hour - is that on the drive home I noticed that petrol at my local station was £1.23, the cheque I wrote for the therapist ended with 1234; I sat down to type up notes from the session and saw on my computer it 11:11 on 14 04.

Patrycia

Greenslade

15-04-2018, 01:45 PM

Hello Mr G,Good morning Patrycia

Yes I’ve been doing this, not so consciously but I will find that a memory of an experience, situation, person will just come up in my mind with no apparent reason; some areas of life easier to look back upon than others. And I’ve felt a longing to go back and have a day with that person, that situation, that experience. I got told by the medium I saw recently that I should stop doing this but I think he meant around the trauma, because I often think if only I could go back, I would do things differently. I guess that’s something a lot of people could identify with, it’s having to live with the consequences of

But just recalling memories, I think is inevitable as you get older and for me, it feels like a very long life indeed with an even longer one stretching out in front of me.What it seems to be doing is clearing out old emotions. While it wsn't easy I don't have any regrets and nothing I can change anyway so I just don't think about it. It seems to be the opposite, that I'm making sense of or accepting what had happened in a coming-to-terms way and usually afterwards everything feels lighter. There's a theme of letting go, of losing the physical and emotional attachments.

I have the feeling that the Ascension symptoms I experienced earlier on have gone. I'm not sure whether I am still in Ascension or not or if any of my current difficulties, particularly muscular tension in my middle back, is ascension or just tension or something different again.

I was interested to hear Matt saying on one of his radio broadcast or videos, I can't remember which now, that the Earth is moving upward on its axis and this is giving rise to people's experience of Ascension. So it would seem as if there are scientific reasons for ascension.It's really more about definition than anything else - what is your definition of Ascension? And if you haven't evolved into some exotic plane of existence have you Ascended at all? It's going back to Matt's definition, that we're bringing 5th dimensional consciousness into this dimension, but again it's definition time so what is 5th dimensional consciousness?

You are the answer, and things happen BECAUSE of you not TO you.

How different do you feel? How differently do you think?

The earth can't move upwards on its axis, put very simply the only ways it can change direction is around the sun or out of the gravitational pull, which would send it spinning into space on its own. The earth spins on its own axis and spins around the sun, but the sun itself is in orbit so it's shooting across the galaxy. The path the earth takes is spiral. Really, in space direction is meaningless. If the earth is moving on its axis, which way is up and what is it relative to?

And this is where I have the greatest difficulty. I have this belief/desire to be as physically perfect as I can be. I am not emotionally perfect, nor am I mentally perfect both of which I am comfortable with and accept. However I cannot seem to accept physical imperfection. I think I need to look into this and where this comes from. For the last 12 years, since the trauma symptoms have appeared, I have driven headlong and with unending enthusiasm and absolute resolve and determination to resolve this. I have looked into nutrition, supplements, healing modalities and some things that most people have not heard of. I have tried the majority of them and on more than one occasion I have made things worse or created a new problem. Even now, when I am having cranial sacral therapy, I am already considering my next move. On the one hand, I continue to search for physical healing, but on the other hand, it feels completely hopeless and I don't believe I will ever recover. So two complete opposing places to be.You've been telling me about all these therapies and sometimes it's like you're showing me a flipbook, only you're talking really fast and zipping through the pages. It's always felt as though you've been running away from something.

What are you going to do when you run out of modalities? Are you going to try ever more exotic and strange?

If you're considering your next move for the cranial sacral therapy, haven't you already convinced yourself with a high degree of certainty that it's going to be a complete waste of time?

Go back to your trauma, to when you were that little girl lying on the table and the nurse is putting the mask on your face. Other than frightened and scared, what else is going through your mind? That you are a little girl, you feel powerless and too weak to resist? At some stage afterwards, did you make yourself a promise never to feel that way again?

There's one thing with all this bout you telling me about your therapies, that you're very much at odds with yourself.

What if you've just been expending your energies in the wrong direction? Just because you haven't fund a 'cure' it doesn't mean to say there isn't one. So, back to the question - with another added for good measure. What is it you're trying to heal, and what is it you're trying to recover from?

Teal Swan does a really good exercise when she's talking about shadow work, what she does it keeps digging through the layers one by one until she gets to the root. You're pretty much stuck with the need for healing, but in Teal's technique there is something you need to heal, and the reasons you need to heal it.

The drive to heal and the hopelessness aren't opposing, they're complimentary. The drive is push/pull towards wholeness, which is what you don't have at the moment. Einstein said that "Insanity is doing the same thing time after time and expecting different results." If nothing changes then nothing changes.

What does your newly-acquired fifth-dimensional consciousness say abut all this?

I may have a frame of reference, obviously there are some experiences I’ve had that I don’t feel comfortable writing about on a public forum, so (sacred geometry and maths aside) I may have a frame of reference, so do tell! It has nothing to do with Sacred Geometry or anything else that's usually found in an open forum. Have you been on the grass plains or walked in the citadel? Have you been in the Cave of the Ancients and spent time with the light beings? Do you remember standing in the great hall, with the curved stairs on either side? You were standing on the right, by the way.

Wouldn’t the inner child work I did be considered internal work?That's up for discussion, while some would say yes others would say that strictly speaking, while the Child Inside is internal it's different. Some would say Spirituality is inner work but nothing to do with the Child Inside. The Child Inside really goes back further and deeper - and I;m being told that it's not the 'Inner Child' it's the 'Child Inside'. Oops, sorry. Remember we talked about Matt telling you that your consciousness needed to give your body its own time to heal? The Child Inside is a bit like that, the part of all of us that has never really grown up.

By the way, blue teddy bear?

Yes, I put great store in the Aura soma bottles. Because they work. There have been many times when I have experienced physical or emotional upset where the actual physical bottles I have, and also the recently acquired pomanders, have helped me greatly. They are made up of essential oils, plant dyes, herbal and Crystal energy so it is all good stuff. Plus the fact they’re rather beautiful to look at, so I’ve got some of them displayed amongst my crystal collection. Also my guides put these colour combinations in my third eye almost daily, so it is a way of them communicating and giving me healing I need so there is a good foundation for me to put store in aura Soma.

Conversely, I do not put great store in the numbers as this is a fairly new phenomenon for me. I am very aware, that although it may be interesting to google the meaning of numbers, these explanations are from a human perspective. I do not know whether these explanations given are channelled information. So I have no real understanding of what these individual numbers mean, I just am aware that they have for the last six months or so become very noticeable. More about numbers later. Conversely you don't put a great store in numbers yet what about your last paragraph? :smile:

OK, when you're working with your aura soma bottles, do you feel you have a Spirit connection, does it feel that whoever is putting the colours into your third eye is outside of you? When I'm doing any mediumship it always feels as though I'm communicating with a 'third party' or Spirit, there's always someone outside of me. There are also times when I'm thinking things through and a voice will pop into my head with an answer, but that voice isn't external but very much internal. Where I'm trying to lead you here is are your Guides 'internal'? Is there something else going on?

While you don't put a lot of store on your numbers they're still an 'accepted' sign that you're tuning into Spirit in a more practical way. While it doesn't matter so much to you personally perhaps the idea has 'rubbed off' on you because others have been talking about it?

So while you're tuning into your Guides - whatever they might mean to you - with your soma bottles your Guides/Spirit is also tuning into you with your numbers. Your numbers is Spirit's way of reflecting back at you if you like, showing you that there's a two-way communications going on. With numbers there's what's called a critical mass, because a lot of other people put a lot of store in them it's as though though the subject kinda takes on a Life of its own. At the very least it means that you're tuning into that level of consciousness. Much of Spirituality is symbols, and it'll continue to be symbols until such time as we can see the colour of consciousness. What also needs to happen is that what Spirit is trying to communicate has to be 'translated' into what the human mind can understand. Numbers is a good way to do that. So yes, the explanations are from a human perspective but if they were from Spirit's perspective, would you be able to understand? Spirit would quite happily use numbers in the very same way as you use soma bottles, that they're a form of communication. But with numbers, the 'real world' is communicating with you and it's not just in your head.

How could I forget, I was reminded of it the other day, but still no idea what that meant.you versus Spirit, perhaps you versus your Guides depending on how you answer the earlier question. Soma bottles versus numbers, you versus your traumas....However I cannot seem to accept physical imperfection. and hence your drive to 'cure' it. Your acceptance versus non-acceptance.

There is never two, there is always three.

However I cannot seem to accept physical imperfection. You know, that very much feels like it is something you think you Should do, rather than what you Want to do. What would you have to gain by seeing them? Consider the answer and that will lead you in the right direction.

I had my third session of cranio sacral therapy yesterday, progress is slow. Something has definitely got hold of me and I’m not sure what. But what was really noticeable, and this was all in the space of an hour - is that on the drive home I noticed that petrol at my local station was £1.23, the cheque I wrote for the therapist ended with 1234; I sat down to type up notes from the session and saw on my computer it 11:11 on 14 04.

Patrycia[/quote]Short of a long explanation...... The two guys are living in the house my parents lived in, although nowadays they're knocked through into one. The house is less than five minutes walk from the farm he worked, and about the same where the accident happened. Both of the guys knew my father well, one of them worked on the same farm and was first on the scene of the accident. I've had a few people walk up to me and ask me if I'm a Hepburn because I have family traits and look very much like my dad. Every time, without fail, when that happens I get very emotional. I'm not sure I have the strength to handle going to see those guys, at least not yet. I know I'm making excuses and I need to for so many reasons, but.....

By the way, you have got a hold of you. The Universe is a reflection of you, to put it simply so what you're seeing with the numbers and the apparent coincidences can only come from you.

Patrycia-Rose

22-04-2018, 09:34 AM

Hi there Mr G,

It's really more about definition than anything else - what is your definition of Ascension?

A whole bunch of physical weirdness and lots of numbers!

And if you haven't evolved into some exotic plane of existence have you Ascended at all? It's going back to Matt's definition, that we're bringing 5th dimensional consciousness into this dimension, but again it's definition time so what is 5th dimensional consciousness?

I do agree that ascension isn’t an existence on an exotic plane. Matt’s bringing fifth dimensional consciousness to the earth plane makes sense, and it is living from a more heart centred way however difficult that may be with life’s challenges, but I guess that’s the test isn’t it?

How different do you feel? How differently do you think?

I don’t feel any different, a bit more physically battered in recent months. I maybe think differently, or am aware of a different way of thinking but that’s to do with Matt’s teachings, showing an alternate way, not different thinking within or from my own mind / thoughts.

What are you going to do when you run out of modalities? Are you going to try ever more exotic and strange?

I’ve already tried some of the more exotic and strange, none of that made any difference either. I did briefly look into bi-aura therapy and that looked very interesting. Even managed to find a therapist in my area which when I looked several years ago there wasn’t anyone who did it. It’s pretty spectacular to watch someone perform it and I understand completely about working with the energy field. But given that many of these therapies have not worked, and in some cases, made the situation worse, I’m reluctant to jump in. The cranio practitioner I’m working with, said that a lot of these healing modalities are done to you whereas with cranio, the body sets the agenda, you’re seeking and getting it’s permission where with the bowen the body got the treatment whether it wanted it or not, and it clearly didn’t.

If you're considering your next move for the cranial sacral therapy, haven't you already convinced yourself with a high degree of certainty that it's going to be a complete waste of time?

Yes, that is one way of looking at it and that thought has occurred to me in the past however, it is supposed to be of comfort to me, don’t worry Patrycia, if this doesn’t work we’ll try something else.

Go back to your trauma, to when you were that little girl lying on the table and the nurse is putting the mask on your face. Other than frightened and scared, what else is going through your mind? That you are a little girl, you feel powerless and too weak to resist? At some stage afterwards, did you make yourself a promise never to feel that way again?

To be honest, I don’t remember much about it apart from those few memories I mentioned a few posts ago. I certainly wasn’t capable of conscious thought at that age.

There's one thing with all this bout you telling me about your therapies, that you're very much at odds with yourself.

I don’t feel at odds with myself. I feel at odds with the world / with life – always have done and most likely always will.

Just because you haven't fund a 'cure' it doesn't mean to say there isn't one.

Well that is one thought that has kept me going. I know that everything is energy, so my two trauma symptoms are an energy and it just means finding the right vibration, but alas I am beginning to wonder if it exists at all. I tried vibrational essences for a year with a practitioner to no avail.

So, back to the question - with another added for good measure. What is it you're trying to heal, and what is it you're trying to recover from?

I’m trying to heal from two specific physical injuries if you like as a result of the trauma. They’re physical manifesting from the stress of it all. That stress came out of nowhere and lasted for a couple of months and the last 4 days were hell on earth, I could barely function. Ongoing trauma like that is going to make an impact (complex PTSD) so I’m not surprised I didn’t go through that without it making it’s mark. However, what does surprise me is the number of healings I’ve tried, some for a year or more, and neither one of them has improved even the slightest. So you have wonder if the injuries just can’t be recovered from.

What does your newly-acquired fifth-dimensional consciousness say abut all this?

That I should be loving myself relentlessly. One of the reasons I’ve been devouring every word of Matt’s teachings is to have an overview of each teaching and then pick one or two and then try to really implement them, live and breathe them, and see what happens. I’m almost there too. I think I’ve only got a couple to go.

It has nothing to do with Sacred Geometry or anything else that's usually found in an open forum. Have you been on the grass plains or walked in the citadel? Have you been in the Cave of the Ancients and spent time with the light beings? Do you remember standing in the great hall, with the curved stairs on either side? You were standing on the right, by the way.

Now that made me feel very emotional. Because from a very young age, 8 or so, I’ve had a vivid imagination, well it’s more than that. Probably about 2001 I started to discover a plane of existence that wasn’t the earth plane, but wasn’t spirit, it was something in-between I guess, I didn’t think too much about it but I would live there as a parallel to life here. I would go there every night and talk and be with the people there and it was far more heartfelt, rewarding, full of life than anything here had to offer. It was when I saw those words you put, it made me remember it all and the boundless energy I had to be there, living that life, protecting it but somehow it’s all faded. I know none of that will make too much sense but it is how it was.

By the way, blue teddy bear?

It was a teddy bear with me wearing and white and blue dressing gown. Before I went into hospital when I was five, my parents took many photos of me in that dressing gown with that teddy bear; the reason being I had long blonde hair and my mother knew with me going into hospital, I would find it stressful to have someone touching or brushing my hair, so I had it cut short.

Conversely you don't put a great store in numbers yet what about your last paragraph? :smile:

Yep, the point I was making was that I don’t put great store in the numbers because I don’t understand what they’re trying to tell me, other that googling which as I said comes from a human interpretation – but that example I gave is a good one for how intense the numbers can get. I’ve been seeing many 4s lately – and remember that not so long ago that number was missing from the others I got.

I get that they’re communicating but what are they communicating? Is the universe saying hi there, we see what you’re doing – or do the specific numbers mean different things?

OK, when you're working with your aura soma bottles, do you feel you have a Spirit connection, does it feel that whoever is putting the colours into your third eye is outside of you?

Yes I feel the aura soma colours received into my third eye comes from an external source, my guides, spirit. I can put one there myself but it won’t feel right. (My third eye is my strongest chakra - much needed for living that other life). For instance, if my guides put a colour there, I can try and change it to another colour but it hurts to do that (I’ve tried once or twice to see what would happen).

Patrycia

Greenslade

22-04-2018, 12:11 PM

Hi there Mr G,And a beautiful morning to you. The sun is shining and my garden is starting to bud and grow.

A whole bunch of physical weirdness and lots of numbers!Yeah, but ain't it so much fun?

I do agree that ascension isn’t an existence on an exotic plane. Matt’s bringing fifth dimensional consciousness to the earth plane makes sense, and it is living from a more heart centred way however difficult that may be with life’s challenges, but I guess that’s the test isn’t it?It doesn't make sense any other way really. Why bring any kind of consciousness to a plane of existence that's got it all, and what could we possibly learn about Spirituality that would do us any good 'up there'?

Being Spiritual when there's nothing else is easy, being Spiritual under duress is the real test.

I don’t feel any different, a bit more physically battered in recent months. I maybe think differently, or am aware of a different way of thinking but that’s to do with Matt’s teachings, showing an alternate way, not different thinking within or from my own mind / thoughts.Part of your feeling physically battered has as much to do with your range of therapies as much as anything else. Your thinking is about your neural processes and that's all physical, your brain patterns have been a long time in the making and while the brain has neuroplasticity that takes concerted effort to change. But if you've been applying Matt's teachings? I dare say they're different enough from your normal thought processes.

I’ve already tried some of the more exotic and strange, none of that made any difference either. I did briefly look into bi-aura therapy and that looked very interesting. Even managed to find a therapist in my area which when I looked several years ago there wasn’t anyone who did it. It’s pretty spectacular to watch someone perform it and I understand completely about working with the energy field. But given that many of these therapies have not worked, and in some cases, made the situation worse, I’m reluctant to jump in. The cranio practitioner I’m working with, said that a lot of these healing modalities are done to you whereas with cranio, the body sets the agenda, you’re seeking and getting it’s permission where with the bowen the body got the treatment whether it wanted it or not, and it clearly didn’t. The body sets the agenda, very similar to what Matt was saying about the consciousness already being healed and given the body its own time?

If nothing changes then nothing changes. You've been going through all these modalities and I'm guessing that this is probably unique in that it works with your body instead of against it. In the past you've been doing a lot of the same thing - different modalities granted but still much of a muchness in that you're almost forcing your body to heal against its will. Now after watching Matt's vid about giving your body its own time you find a therapy that 'reflects' just that.

I can understand the need for healing so I'm not trying to tell you not to try, what I am saying is that you're missing something. With your healing you're dealing with things on a physical level but that's not the only level you have. The relationship between you and your ailment is similar to that of you and your Higher Self, and once you begin to understand that relationship everything changes. How you experience what ails you will change - it might not make it go away but what it will do is bring down that fifth-dimensional experience to bear on it. You might still ail but how you experience it will be very different. Right now you're at odds with yourself.

Yes, that is one way of looking at it and that thought has occurred to me in the past however, it is supposed to be of comfort to me, don’t worry Patrycia, if this doesn’t work we’ll try something else."Supposed to be of comfort." Often what is and 'supposed to be' are a Universe apart.

To be honest, I don’t remember much about it apart from those few memories I mentioned a few posts ago. I certainly wasn’t capable of conscious thought at that age. We don't have much conscious thought when we're that age but here's the thing, what is conscious thought? The consciousness is epiphenomenal which means it has no participation in its own creation at all. You have the thought then a fraction of a second later you are conscious of having the thought so there is no such thing as a conscious thought.

I still feel what happened to me to this day, when I think about it enough. It doesn't hurt as much as it used to, or at least my experience of the memories doesn't because that was all I could feel of it so much later in Life. I used to have memories of how much it hurt, and while I still have those memories my experience of them is very different.

Back then you would have had emotions of some kind and less conscious thought because that's how kids 'work'. Same as I had my emotions of what happened back then. Pain, fear, helplessness...... Sometimes those emotions are stronger than consciousness itself because they are energetic while consciousness is benign, and very often they're consigned to the Shadow Self because we can't deal with them. The Shadow Self is one of the darkest places in the Universe.

While the Child Inside can sound fanciful he/she is still a part of us just the same. Sometimes we don't really get over those childhood traumas because we try to deal with them from an adult perspective, not in the perspective of the child in which they were created.

I don’t feel at odds with myself. I feel at odds with the world / with life – always have done and most likely always will. The Universe is a reflection of you, so it's the same difference.

Well that is one thought that has kept me going. I know that everything is energy, so my two trauma symptoms are an energy and it just means finding the right vibration, but alas I am beginning to wonder if it exists at all. I tried vibrational essences for a year with a practitioner to no avail. Only you can heal you. You're energy, you exist (I hope), you have a range of different frequencies at your disposal. Turn yourself to face yourself.

I’m trying to heal from two specific physical injuries if you like as a result of the trauma. They’re physical manifesting from the stress of it all. That stress came out of nowhere and lasted for a couple of months and the last 4 days were hell on earth, I could barely function. Ongoing trauma like that is going to make an impact (complex PTSD) so I’m not surprised I didn’t go through that without it making it’s mark. However, what does surprise me is the number of healings I’ve tried, some for a year or more, and neither one of them has improved even the slightest. So you have wonder if the injuries just can’t be recovered from. I guess that's what it can come down to, whether or not the injuries can be recovered from. Sometimes just the possibility that they can't can help us come to terms and deal with things on that basis. It's being realistic but that doesn't mean we have to stop trying. The stress didn't come out of nowhere, it came out of you being at odds with what was happening to you and possibly even because of frustration that your physical abilities were curtailed - you were getting ticked/angry/frustrated at yourself because you couldn't run, which you've already mentioned.

You were finding it difficult to accept yourself, I think you're still having that problem today - which is why the healing modalities. I also think that it partly goes back to being a child, when you would have felt - for one thing I'd guess - helpless. Trying all those healing modalities can be an expression of not wanting to feel helpless/less than perfect/powerless.

That I should be loving myself relentlessly. One of the reasons I’ve been devouring every word of Matt’s teachings is to have an overview of each teaching and then pick one or two and then try to really implement them, live and breathe them, and see what happens. I’m almost there too. I think I’ve only got a couple to go.Then Love yourself relentlessly, including the traumas.

Now that made me feel very emotional. Because from a very young age, 8 or so, I’ve had a vivid imagination, well it’s more than that. Probably about 2001 I started to discover a plane of existence that wasn’t the earth plane, but wasn’t spirit, it was something in-between I guess, I didn’t think too much about it but I would live there as a parallel to life here. I would go there every night and talk and be with the people there and it was far more heartfelt, rewarding, full of life than anything here had to offer. It was when I saw those words you put, it made me remember it all and the boundless energy I had to be there, living that life, protecting it but somehow it’s all faded. I know none of that will make too much sense but it is how it was.It makes every sense. If it makes you emotional then you have the energetic connection at least, you're resonating with it. And yes, what you've put down to imagination is more than that. While most people dismiss imagination often it's a gateway to other realms of consciousness, our imaginings free us from the mind that would have us trapped in the five-sensory. If it was 'just imagination' then that realm would soon be lost.

I've been lucky enough to have been with people who have known about that world, who took it as their reality and helped me understand so much about what was going on inside my head. I've met people from that plane of existence time and again and it's been pretty damned amazing. To be honest it was really freaky but amazing too, because the people I'd talked to talked in a way which told me they must have been there - and 'there' was inside my head.

It hasn't faded, it's always going to be there because it's a part of you even though you're focus has gone elsewhere.

Old Souls have never fully integrated into this plane of existence and they always seem to be very much at odds both with themselves and the world around them. It's somewhere they need to be rather than want to, it's a job and the sooner it's done so they can go Home the better. That's capital 'H' Home. There's an instinct (for want of a better word) that there's something more, something different and that this existence can be a bit of a pastiche - your need to imagine a world where everything is more energetic. That's a 'symptom' of who and what you are.

You've been to the garden.

It was a teddy bear with me wearing and white and blue dressing gown. Before I went into hospital when I was five, my parents took many photos of me in that dressing gown with that teddy bear; the reason being I had long blonde hair and my mother knew with me going into hospital, I would find it stressful to have someone touching or brushing my hair, so I had it cut short. Thank you, that makes so much sense too. So, you are what I think you are and there are connections here with the teddy bear and a little girl in Spirit. And here's you with the Child Inside that somehow seems to be a theme that I can't let go of so it has significance that's yet to come through properly.

Yep, the point I was making was that I don’t put great store in the numbers because I don’t understand what they’re trying to tell me, other that googling which as I said comes from a human interpretation – but that example I gave is a good one for how intense the numbers can get. I’ve been seeing many 4s lately – and remember that not so long ago that number was missing from the others I got.

I get that they’re communicating but what are they communicating? Is the universe saying hi there, we see what you’re doing – or do the specific numbers mean different things?I get what you're saying, really. You're making the distinction that interpretations of the numbers is human, to a point yes you're right. Whether you put any store or not in the numbers is down to you, but many people put great store in numerology so don't be too quick to dismiss them. For instance, your Life Path number can tell you a few things that would probably surprise you. Some people receive what they consider to be messages from music, for you perhaps not so much because you connect with music more on an emotional rather than Spiritual level. Numbers are more precise than music because of numerology so they have specific meanings rather than interpretations. What's happening is a chain of manifestation if you like, but in a loop.

What they're communicating is that they're communicating, there are synchronicities and resonant frequencies going on - harmonies. Each number has its own meaning so that meaning is the message and how it applies to you specifically. When you take that meaning on board - when you take on board numerology in general for you - then you're resonating at a frequency that's more in resonant harmony with Spirit. Putting yourself into that mindset closes the feedback loop for Spirit because Spirit can tell you're working with them, not against or ignoring them. The numbers are much like a conversation.

So, with the number four -
http://numerology-thenumbersandtheirmeanings.blogspot.co.uk/2011/02/number-4.html

So, how many of them can you tick off?

Yes I feel the aura soma colours received into my third eye comes from an external source, my guides, spirit. I can put one there myself but it won’t feel right. (My third eye is my strongest chakra - much needed for living that other life). For instance, if my guides put a colour there, I can try and change it to another colour but it hurts to do that (I’ve tried once or twice to see what would happen).

But you are Spirit, so if you are Spirit how can the colours come from an external source? The 'you' that you think is 'you' is not 'you' at all, it's only a part of 'you'. And no, I'm not going to get all airy-fairy.

Your trauma is a part of you, a part of you is your trauma. The Child inside is a part of you, part of you is a Child Inside. The adult is a part of you, a part of you is the adult but not all of it. Are your Guides leading you down a Path towards a different healing modality or is it you yourself that's leading you?

If you were your Guide, where would you lead you? The Path of least resistance perhaps, and if so which one is that?

Patrycia-Rose

29-04-2018, 08:33 AM

Good morning to you, Mr G,

And a beautiful morning to you. The sun is shining and my garden is starting to bud and grow.

Mine too and in recent years it reminds me of the scene from Fellowship of the Ring .... “but where our hearts truly lie is in peace and quiet, and good tilled earth. For all Hobbits share a love of things that grow.”

Yeah, but ain't it so much fun?

I’m not sure I would describe it as ‘fun’ particularly as I’m not aware of it leading to anything of note but there could be a big ‘yet’ on that. The most interesting aspect was what I’m assuming was kundalini energy whipping around my system, that was pretty spectacular!

Being Spiritual when there's nothing else is easy, being Spiritual under duress is the real test.

For sure they’re different. The challenge is to apply them when things aren’t going so well. Sometimes I can do that, other times, I can’t but this it’s all so new that there’s plenty of time to progress.

Now after watching Matt's vid about giving your body its own time you find a therapy that 'reflects' just that.

Thank you for that, it had not occurred to me.

Interestingly, I am on my second to final video having seen/noted all the videos. One thing that he has said on a number of occasions is that spirituality should not be used to resolve problems or difficulties. When he has said this, I have often wondered well, what could be considered spiritual exploration? And finally in the video called surrender to love he is talking in depth about this. It literally brought a smile because I thought at last, now for the answer! Nice bit of synchronicity for me there. So a few of the questions he asks are what could be considered spiritual exploration is, what is my experience like in this moment if I put aside all concerns? Who am I without these concerns and what would be my life purpose?

Those are all fascinating questions to contemplate. And literally, my mind jumped in at the point of considering my life purpose and immediately to protect my freedom. My freedom has always been so very important to me and warrants my complete dedication to protecting it.

It makes every sense. If it makes you emotional then you have the energetic connection at least, you're resonating with it. And yes, what you've put down to imagination is more than that. While most people dismiss imagination often it's a gateway to other realms of consciousness, our imaginings free us from the mind that would have us trapped in the five-sensory. If it was 'just imagination' then that realm would soon be lost.

I know - beyond doubt - that it is more than my imagination. One of the reasons I know this, beyond how real it all was, and this came as quite a shock to me. The first time was in 1998 and 1999, I saw the same medium three times during those years, and she began to describe a person that I would become very close to. I forgot all about that reading until that person came into my life, via this realm, in about 2001 and 2002. I recall very clearly being outside cleaning the car and had a vague memory of one of the readings from 1999. I remember going inside and pulling out my diary and going over the reading and was utterly shocked that the medium’s description of this person was totally accurate. Since then several other mediums have talked about these people from those realms not knowing they actually with me in physical form here on the earth. So that confirmed to me that this was not " just" my imagination.

I remember some time ago reading a book called mapping the mind and it said that the mind cannot distinguish between fantasy and reality. All very interesting. But I have lost touch with all realms now and all the people there because on two occasions, during my healing journey for the physical trauma, two ‘practitioners’ have taken that energy away from me. The energy that enabled me to access these realms was created and powered by my heart chakra. Those two different practitioners took away that energy that was in heart chakra. It is my belief that the practitioners were just conduits and that the energy was taken away by something or someone in spirit. To be suddenly ripped away from that world was devastating and a grief like I have never known. Fortunately after several months in 2006 I found a medium who did some healing on me and it came back after a few weeks.

I had a similar experience in 2013 (new realm, new people) where again the energy that powered it was taken away and I could no longer access in a meaningful way, the realm and people that I was with at the time. Literally it was there one day, gone the next and the absence of it was one of the most painful experiences of my life. I drove myself to the brink of illness trying to get that energy back. I was told by a medium at that time that it was not going to come back and it never has.

There was a new realm with new people as recent as 2016 and although that energy was not directly taken (because I became extremely or wary of anything such as shamanic healing and reiki healing), the energy, I felt it just go one afternoon at work. But this time I refused to let anything, including that special energy, take me to the depths of despair I was in 2014. Long story, very complex situation, but every word is true.

The whole experience made me feel that the ability I had, to create and live in those realms and develop relationships with those people that were more meaningful than anything experienced on the earth plane, just wasn’t supposed to be on the earth plane. I hope when I pass to spirit I will be able to access those realms from there as there is unfinished business with two of them.

Old Souls have never fully integrated into this plane of existence and they always seem to be very much at odds both with themselves and the world around them. It's somewhere they need to be rather than want to, it's a job and the sooner it's done so they can go Home the better. That's capital 'H' Home. There's an instinct (for want of a better word) that there's something more, something different and that this existence can be a bit of a pastiche - your need to imagine a world where everything is more energetic. That's a 'symptom' of who and what you are.

I feel so like that. I’ve lost count of the times I’ve just wanted to go Home, particularly now my dad’s there. In fact, in Matt’s video I’m watching currently (surrender to love) he asks to consider is there any aspect of your life you’re not concerned about and I immediately thought passing to spirit does not concern me one iota.

Thank you, that makes so much sense too. So, you are what I think you are and there are connections here with the teddy bear and a little girl in Spirit. And here's you with the Child Inside that somehow seems to be a theme that I can't let go of so it has significance that's yet to come through properly.

Mmmm, very interesting. I had to read that several times over the week because I kept seeing ‘who you are’ instead of ‘what you are’. So, if you know ‘what’ I am – anything that can help me with my physical healing journey? ( know that men are from mars, women are from Venus and Patrycia is from another planet all together!)

Also you may be interested to know that I still have the teddy bear. When I went to see the medium back in January, my father came through and mentioned that I still had the teddy bear.

So, with the number four -
http://numerology-thenumbersandtheirmeanings.blogspot.co.uk/2011/02/number-4.html

how many of them can you tick off?

So,Yep, for sure, I can mark some of those off. But the big ‘but’ for me is that first paragraph there are so many things, I’m sure most people could identify any current issues with one of those words. It’s too general. The bit about home being my haven, absolutely, but there is no way I’m extrovert.

I did that online life path test and my lifepath is 2.

Your trauma is a part of you, a part of you is your trauma. The Child inside is a part of you, part of you is a Child Inside. The adult is a part of you, a part of you is the adult but not all of it. Are your Guides leading you down a Path towards a different healing modality or is it you yourself that's leading you?

Who knows, I don’t try to think about it really. I usually see something when researching, see what I think about it, see how I feel about it, see if I can find a practitioner in my area who I like the look of, maybe a bit of dowsing.

If you were your Guide, where would you lead you? The Path of least resistance perhaps, and if so which one is that?

Clearly, they haven’t led me to anything that’s healed me. I do feel very much alone with finding the solution and they seem to be happy for me to do things that cause more harm, so I think they’re of limited use or are Choosing to be of limited use. Like you say, there could be no cure, it’s more about the journey.

Patrycia

Greenslade

29-04-2018, 12:51 PM

Good morning to you, Mr G,And it's another very good morning to you Patrycia. I'm off to get some larger pots for the plants and get my ideas straight for my new project, building a fairy house around the aquarium. It already has a garden arch around it with a rampaging cheese plant.

Mine too and in recent years it reminds me of the scene from Fellowship of the Ring .... “but where our hearts truly lie is in peace and quiet, and good tilled earth. For all Hobbits share a love of things that grow.” I guess that makes me a Hobbit at heart.

I’m not sure I would describe it as ‘fun’ particularly as I’m not aware of it leading to anything of note but there could be a big ‘yet’ on that. The most interesting aspect was what I’m assuming was kundalini energy whipping around my system, that was pretty spectacular!Often that things are occurring at all is something of note, great oaks and all that. That something is happening at all is of note, and if nothing was happening this would be a different conversation. They're all 'signs' that you're heading in the right direction and collectively indicative.

For sure they’re different. The challenge is to apply them when things aren’t going so well. Sometimes I can do that, other times, I can’t but this it’s all so new that there’s plenty of time to progress.It's easy to be Unconditional Love when your whole existence is nothing but Unconditional Love, and that's a great realisation. Perhaps if we thought about it more we wouldnd't be so hard on ourselves, but then if we're hard on ourselves? Does that mean we don't Love ourselves Unconditionally?

Thank you for that, it had not occurred to me.

Interestingly, I am on my second to final video having seen/noted all the videos. One thing that he has said on a number of occasions is that spirituality should not be used to resolve problems or difficulties. When he has said this, I have often wondered well, what could be considered spiritual exploration? And finally in the video called surrender to love he is talking in depth about this. It literally brought a smile because I thought at last, now for the answer! Nice bit of synchronicity for me there. So a few of the questions he asks are what could be considered spiritual exploration is, what is my experience like in this moment if I put aside all concerns? Who am I without these concerns and what would be my life purpose?

Those are all fascinating questions to contemplate. And literally, my mind jumped in at the point of considering my life purpose and immediately to protect my freedom. My freedom has always been so very important to me and warrants my complete dedication to protecting it.You're very welcome.

You are the answer looking for the question.

But does being completely dedicated to protecting your freedom make you free? Or would that trap you into a train of thought that would take away your freedom with as much enthusiasm as you you would put into protecting it? If you're going to put aside all concerns then isn't your freedom a concern for you? Gotta Love the ironies in Life.

I know - beyond doubt - that it is more than my imagination. One of the reasons I know this, beyond how real it all was, and this came as quite a shock to me. The first time was in 1998 and 1999, I saw the same medium three times during those years, and she began to describe a person that I would become very close to. I forgot all about that reading until that person came into my life, via this realm, in about 2001 and 2002. I recall very clearly being outside cleaning the car and had a vague memory of one of the readings from 1999. I remember going inside and pulling out my diary and going over the reading and was utterly shocked that the medium’s description of this person was totally accurate. Since then several other mediums have talked about these people from those realms not knowing they actually with me in physical form here on the earth. So that confirmed to me that this was not " just" my imagination.

I remember some time ago reading a book called mapping the mind and it said that the mind cannot distinguish between fantasy and reality. All very interesting. But I have lost touch with all realms now and all the people there because on two occasions, during my healing journey for the physical trauma, two ‘practitioners’ have taken that energy away from me. The energy that enabled me to access these realms was created and powered by my heart chakra. Those two different practitioners took away that energy that was in heart chakra. It is my belief that the practitioners were just conduits and that the energy was taken away by something or someone in spirit. To be suddenly ripped away from that world was devastating and a grief like I have never known. Fortunately after several months in 2006 I found a medium who did some healing on me and it came back after a few weeks.

I had a similar experience in 2013 (new realm, new people) where again the energy that powered it was taken away and I could no longer access in a meaningful way, the realm and people that I was with at the time. Literally it was there one day, gone the next and the absence of it was one of the most painful experiences of my life. I drove myself to the brink of illness trying to get that energy back. I was told by a medium at that time that it was not going to come back and it never has.

There was a new realm with new people as recent as 2016 and although that energy was not directly taken (because I became extremely or wary of anything such as shamanic healing and reiki healing), the energy, I felt it just go one afternoon at work. But this time I refused to let anything, including that special energy, take me to the depths of despair I was in 2014. Long story, very complex situation, but every word is true.

The whole experience made me feel that the ability I had, to create and live in those realms and develop relationships with those people that were more meaningful than anything experienced on the earth plane, just wasn’t supposed to be on the earth plane. I hope when I pass to spirit I will be able to access those realms from there as there is unfinished business with two of them. I know you know - beyond doubt - that this is not your imagination. By the way, how are you with spiders?

You can't lose who and what you are, and you are so much more than you could ever imagine. When you pass to Spirit you won't be able to access those realms because you won't be apart from them; you are of them and they are of you. You're one of the 'stragglers'.

There were twelve of us originally, I suppose you could call us young rebels because essentially that was what we were. It's really hard to make the connections to those realms in words that would be understood by the mind, I'm trying to make the best of a bad job with the shoddy tools of language and metaphor. You were a friend of my sister Mirry and she 'introduced' us, there were twelve of us originally, with another who was with the group but not in it. We were young and rebellious, sometimes even a little angry and we wanted things to be different. It had become stale and dangerous, stagnant even. We knew that we would lose track of each other, that was the price we had to pay to come here. For Souls such as ours losing the connections to Home was... purgatory. Each of us was given a Green Seed so that we would never forget, and in the darkest hours we'd know that we were still connected to Home. There's always something inside that we hold dear.

How much do you remember of those realms?

The biggest problem is that we're still a long way from understanding what's rattling around in our noggins. The brain has microtubules that are - according to a Nobel-winning scientist called Penrose and a well-respected anaesthesiologist call Hamerof - are quantum capable. Apparently they have an electromagnetic shield around them because of the EM radiation from the brain and a quantum capable centre. And while we're 'dividing' consciousness up, what are we really conscious of? Only what already exists can enter our consciousness, and imagination and fantasy are both consciousness just the same. There's a hell of a lot that we still have very little clue about, and we could well have quantum entanglement with those realms but we're calling it 'fantasy' or 'imagination', while it could well be that we're experiencing being entangled with the field of probability.

You haven't changed much, since you were in those realms, and there is unfinished business.

I feel so like that. I’ve lost count of the times I’ve just wanted to go Home, particularly now my dad’s there. In fact, in Matt’s video I’m watching currently (surrender to love) he asks to consider is there any aspect of your life you’re not concerned about and I immediately thought passing to spirit does not concern me one iota.http://www.terec.org.uk/amurai/Site/TheQuesteStory.asp?Id=19&TId=58

I've been at odds with everything and everybody my whole Life almost, and while I've had this happy knack of making myself comfortable nothing has ever truly felt like Home. There was always a place I've longed for, wanted to be. That changed when I was given an exit point and decided to stay. Staying was for my own reasons not someone else's so I think that made not being Home easier to bear.

I;m not concerned with passing to Spirit, I guess thee only real issue I have is that I meet it with dignity and grace but that's more ego than anything else. I don't want to go out like a girl's blouse.:smile:

Mmmm, very interesting. I had to read that several times over the week because I kept seeing ‘who you are’ instead of ‘what you are’. So, if you know ‘what’ I am – anything that can help me with my physical healing journey? ( know that men are from mars, women are from Venus and Patrycia is from another planet all together!)

Also you may be interested to know that I still have the teddy bear. When I went to see the medium back in January, my father came through and mentioned that I still had the teddy bear. Patrycia isn't from a different planet she's from a different dimension of existence completely, so Mars vs Venus kind pales away.

Love yourself Unconditionally. Find a way to forgive yourself for not being perfect, forgive yourself for being a lesser mortal than you'd want to be. Find a way to realise that you are perfect within your imperfections just the way you are, and that there are reasons and things at play that you'd never guess at. You are the answer looking for the question. Harmony cannot live in the space of disharmony, they are two opposing vibrations - dis-ease. This is the whole irony of what you're going through, because what we resist persists and that creates the disharmonious 'environment' that isn't conducive to healing. Your headlong rush for healing - the headlong rush, not the healing itself - is the highest barrier to healing and - more importantly - to the realisations. I'm not saying you shouldn't heal, but embrace your 'imperfections' because they are a part of you. When you start embracing your imperfections you can start to Love yourself without condition, and not under the condition that you're whole and healthy.

It doesn't surprise me that you still have the teddy bear because you still have that same little girl.

So,Yep, for sure, I can mark some of those off. But the big ‘but’ for me is that first paragraph there are so many things, I’m sure most people could identify any current issues with one of those words. It’s too general. The bit about home being my haven, absolutely, but there is no way I’m extrovert.

I did that online life path test and my lifepath is 2. It's general for a reason I suppose, because it could mean so many things to so many people so you pick one that suits you. It's like the ascension process, if you asked a number of people to write down their symptoms? If it's too general, what does that say about you and how you think of reality?

Wgat's he upshot of your Life Path number? Does it hold any meaning for you? Mine's a seven by the way.

Who knows, I don’t try to think about it really. I usually see something when researching, see what I think about it, see how I feel about it, see if I can find a practitioner in my area who I like the look of, maybe a bit of dowsing. Avoidance?

Clearly, they haven’t led me to anything that’s healed me. I do feel very much alone with finding the solution and they seem to be happy for me to do things that cause more harm, so I think they’re of limited use or are Choosing to be of limited use. Like you say, there could be no cure, it’s more about the journey.

PatryciaI guess from a practitioner's perspective they have bills to pay the same as everyone else, the other thing is that often everybody knows best but the practitioner so after a while you give up, get on with it and get paid.

If nothing changes then nothing changes, what we resist persists and energy flows to where the attention goes.

I'm very lucky and very grateful in so many ways, because everything looks different in retrospect. On top of that there's nothing that isn't Spiritual so the definition becomes meaningless really. My hips bother me sometimes, well it is old age after all. They were probably damaged when I hit the mat hard after picking a fight with someone I shouldn't have. But I'm not angry any more and the guy that was so angry back then is a long way from the guy I am now. Yet, he's still here and an integral part of me. If I could go back to give myself advice I wouldn't, perhaps I already haven't.

Welcome to the Journey to Self.

Patrycia-Rose

06-05-2018, 08:29 AM

Morning Mr G,

I’m excessively low on energy at the moment, the fall out from last week’s starting the new role.

I'm off to get some larger pots for the plants and get my ideas straight for my new project, building a fairy house around the aquarium. It already has a garden arch around it with a rampaging cheese plant.

That sounds like fun!

Often that things are occurring at all is something of note, great oaks and all that. That something is happening at all is of note, and if nothing was happening this would be a different conversation. They're all 'signs' that you're heading in the right direction and collectively indicative.

It would be interesting to have insight as to what that direction is, but no doubt I’ll get there in any case.

But does being completely dedicated to protecting your freedom make you free? Or would that trap you into a train of thought that would take away your freedom with as much enthusiasm as you you would put into protecting it? If you're going to put aside all concerns then isn't your freedom a concern for you? Gotta Love the ironies in Life.

In all fairness, I think freedom is a by-product of my natural way of being, living alone is my natural way, being able to do what I want when I want etc. I think being alone is greatly underrated. Also, for me, I feel that the key to all is within me – not outside. That is the main reason why Matt’s teachings are slowly changing my internal world, at a rate in which I can absorb and process, in how I may change some of my patterns of thinking that haven’t served me well. But also, my energetic connection with other realms, when it was working, gave me a fulfilment and wellbeing that I’ve not found on the physical plane. It is a great sadness to me that the energy I need, to fully be in that realm, has been taken from me on several occasions. So that just tells me, as special as it was, it is not meant to be, for want of a simpler way of putting it. Putting it stronger, I've often sensed/felt an envy from some spiritual energy/being that I was able to do what I was.

I know you know - beyond doubt - that this is not your imagination. By the way, how are you with spiders?

Not good at all! But it is something I have to deal with, every September. In my early twenties I went to see a hypnotherapist and we established that this fear was ‘learned behaviour’ as my grandmother was terrified of them. Unfortunately for me, having that knowledge, didn’t do anything to dissipate the fear. It is better than it was in my early twenties.

It’s ironic really because I can pick up crane flies and put them out, I often used to get distress calls from my neighbour to go and ‘rescue her’ from a mouse or vole that had come into her flat. I was able to pick these up no problem and put them out, I am fine with next door’s pet rats; it’s just that one thing. I’m sure you can imagine that with the Shelob scene in ROTK I was virtually under the seat!

How much do you remember of those realms?

Nothing at all. My last realm was 1870’s wild west, Arizona to be precise.

http://www.terec.org.uk/amurai/Site/TheQuesteStory.asp?Id=19&TId=58

OK, I had a look at the link. Interesting concept. So what makes you think I’m part of that set-up? And ironically, I had another look this morning and having read ‘about the queste’ you’ll understand why I’m asking.

I've been at odds with everything and everybody my whole Life almost, and while I've had this happy knack of making myself comfortable nothing has ever truly felt like Home. There was always a place I've longed for, wanted to be.

That’s pretty much how I feel. Being in those realms gave me an energy so powerful it made everything else on the physical plane that much more bearable.

Love yourself Unconditionally. Find a way to forgive yourself for not being perfect, forgive yourself for being a lesser mortal than you'd want to be.

That had me reaching for the kleenex in a serious way; some sort of release / realisation happened there. I am a perfectionist which makes the physical world difficult to live in and I haven’t helped by expecting my physical body to be perfect as well. That was going to fail, wasn’t it!

Wgat's he upshot of your Life Path number? Does it hold any meaning for you? Mine's a seven by the way.

I certainly identify with some of the descriptions of life path 2, particularly the bit about being harmonising and being exceptionally sensitive.

Patrycia

Greenslade

06-05-2018, 08:55 PM

Morning Mr G,

I’m excessively low on energy at the moment, the fall out from last week’s starting the new role. Good afternoon Patrycia. I remember you saying you were going to start a new role, how goes it? Dare say it's going to be a little taxing until you settle yourself in, but good luck anyway. Daughter's just moved into a new house and I've spent most of the week and weekend humping, dumping and running around with tools and what-not. It's nice to get sat down.

That sounds like fun!It will be when I get the time to start the damned thing. I'm also developing a content-managed website for a new client who runs a car showroom and garage so that's interesting.

It would be interesting to have insight as to what that direction is, but no doubt I’ll get there in any case."Give me a tall ship and a star to steer her by." which was one of the quotes of both Kirk and Picard. We'll all get there, the only question is the how and that's up to us.

In all fairness, I think freedom is a by-product of my natural way of being, living alone is my natural way, being able to do what I want when I want etc. I think being alone is greatly underrated. Also, for me, I feel that the key to all is within me – not outside. That is the main reason why Matt’s teachings are slowly changing my internal world, at a rate in which I can absorb and process, in how I may change some of my patterns of thinking that haven’t served me well. But also, my energetic connection with other realms, when it was working, gave me a fulfilment and wellbeing that I’ve not found on the physical plane. It is a great sadness to me that the energy I need, to fully be in that realm, has been taken from me on several occasions. So that just tells me, as special as it was, it is not meant to be, for want of a simpler way of putting it. Putting it stronger, I've often sensed/felt an envy from some spiritual energy/being that I was able to do what I was.I think the general consensus of Spirituality is that we're here to become the epitome of Spirituality, but then is that going to happen within the realms of the flawed human or is there something else happening? This is a Journey to Self and it's easy to Love yourself Unconditionally when there's nothing but perfection, it's not so easy when you have 'flaws' and 'imperfections' to cope with.

Your energetic connection to those other realms wasn't 'taken away' as you'd understand it, you stopped resonating with them. It's a frequency/harmony thing. When you were more accepting with them you could tune into those frequencies easier. When you started to become too intent on being there and the longing started to creep in you 'tuned out' due to incompatible frequencies. It's just as OK to not be there are is it to be there.

One thing that mediumship has taught me is that - epitome of Spirituality or not - we're all going to end up in the same place, and if Spirituality is to be believed we're already there anyway. What we forget to do in the rush to be Spiritual is that we forget the Spirituality in Honouring our own Path and that of others. It's not the sunshine and roses that defines us, it's how we tackle the 'imperfections' and 'flaws', because as Matt says everything is here to help you. So if you're going to listen to Matt how does what you're trying to heal help you?

You are where you need to be, otherwise you'd be somewhere else. Sensing the energy and being fully in those other realms can help us remember that, even though we're still struggling with 'little old me' we're still capable of so much more. The irony of that is feeling sad that we can't stay there all the time. That can be countered by wanting the job to be done properly so that you don't have to come back again. Have the experience and nail it down to make damned sure. What we don't know is how the experiences we're having right now are going to fit into the grand scheme of things. They fit in somewhere or they wouldn't be happening, so all that's left is how we experience them.

Not good at all! But it is something I have to deal with, every September. In my early twenties I went to see a hypnotherapist and we established that this fear was ‘learned behaviour’ as my grandmother was terrified of them. Unfortunately for me, having that knowledge, didn’t do anything to dissipate the fear. It is better than it was in my early twenties.

It’s ironic really because I can pick up crane flies and put them out, I often used to get distress calls from my neighbour to go and ‘rescue her’ from a mouse or vole that had come into her flat. I was able to pick these up no problem and put them out, I am fine with next door’s pet rats; it’s just that one thing. I’m sure you can imagine that with the Shelob scene in ROTK I was virtually under the seat!There's a very 'other realmy' reason why I asked about spiders, because you used to know one from those realms. And he was pretty big. He remembers you though, so that's OK. What I;m trying to do is find things that we both remember. You have your experiences and I have mind, but it's finding something that we can both latch onto. Mrs G was there too and although spiders scare the beJesus out of her she remembers him with affection. When we went to see LOTR in the cinema I had Mrs Go on one side and my daughter on the other. And bruises afterwards on both sides.

Nothing at all. My last realm was 1870’s wild west, Arizona to be precise.You were in an orphanage. not far from a stream that had an overhanging branch with a rope swing?

OK, I had a look at the link. Interesting concept. So what makes you think I’m part of that set-up? And ironically, I had another look this morning and having read ‘about the queste’ you’ll understand why I’m asking. The easiest way to answer that question is to ask you one. How do you feel about me? Sometimes I can feel people's energies coming off their posts, I don't do it deliberately and sometimes it's not at all pleasant. Your energy is a very familiar 'signature' - everyone's energies are different but Old Souls' energies have a certain familiar feel to them. If that makes sense. You've also mentioned those other realms and it's as though you've brought back a little with you. And I'm also being told.

The idea wasn't so much to introduce you to the concept so much as poke you with a stick to see what came out - metaphorically of course. I was wondering if you resonated with it, if you had any feelings at all. By the way, you knew me than as Kryn.

That’s pretty much how I feel. Being in those realms gave me an energy so powerful it made everything else on the physical plane that much more bearable. I've spent quite a bit of time in those realms. When I was writing in the Queste, every time I sat at the keyboard my consciousness would shift. It was like I was channelling or going into medium mode. It was easy but very noticeable and I welcomed it. The writing was just clothing, the connection and the ability to resonate at that level of consciousness was the key. At first it used to knock me on my backside and it took a while to come back down again, but as it became easier it became more powerful. It wasn't just my own connections, something similar was happening with others. There were also some other Past Life long term issues to resolve, which thankfully happened. 'That Life' always felt better, different, more full, energetic..... and it was hard to come back to earth, but yet I knew that somewhere along the line what I'm doing here, today, has an effect on that Life.

There's the old concept in sci-fi with time travel, that travelling back in time and affecting the past can change the present. What we don't think about is how what we do in the present can affect the future. So with regards to many things in your Life and especially your trauma, is there a reason for it being in your Life (Karmic Obligations/Life's Purpose) and will the way you deal with it have an affect on your future? No you can't possibly know the details, but would being at odds with yourself not help create a different 'future you' to one that Loved yourself, warts and all?

That had me reaching for the kleenex in a serious way; some sort of release / realisation happened there. I am a perfectionist which makes the physical world difficult to live in and I haven’t helped by expecting my physical body to be perfect as well. That was going to fail, wasn’t it! Perfection is a concept, you are not a concept. What people often don't think about is what they're perfect for - you are perfect for being you, and there is nobody better at it than you. Your warts and all - whatever shape or form they come in - are perfect for the job of creating the space inside you where Unconditional Love for yourself - and by extension others - can grow and 'emit' from. Your Universe is a reflection of you and when you Love yourself warts-and-all you will be Loved by reflection warts-and-all. Remember, you are infectious.

It was never meant to fail, you are already succeeding more than you can understand right now. As I remember you 'back then' so you are right now, you really haven't changed that much at all. As I remember from that time you were very much a perfectionist and this is one of the major things you have to deal with in this Life. Not so much imperfection as accepting that not everything is going to be to your liking and there will be things you need to be a little more 'flexible' with.

The only 'failure' is in not recognising the success if you want to use those terms, but both success and failure are imposters.

I certainly identify with some of the descriptions of life path 2, particularly the bit about being harmonising and being exceptionally sensitive.

PatryciaIt depends on which one you read as to what characteristics match you or not, while some are the same there are also differences. It's kind of like starsigns and similar, you take it or leave it. For me it's more of a curiosity more than anything else.

Patrycia-Rose

13-05-2018, 07:12 AM

Hello Mr G

I remember you saying you were going to start a new role, how goes it? Dare say it's going to be a little taxing until you settle yourself in, but good luck anyway..

The new role is not just a little taxing but heavily taxing and has left me severely stressed, my workload has increased and a couple of days I’ve put in a ten hour day. I’m just hoping that it settles down.

I think the general consensus of Spirituality is that we're here to become the epitome of Spirituality, but then is that going to happen within the realms of the flawed human or is there something else happening? This is a Journey to Self and it's easy to Love yourself Unconditionally when there's nothing but perfection, it's not so easy when you have 'flaws' and 'imperfections' to cope with.

You know that’s a really interesting. Up there, it’s all unconditional love, no judgement and we have the bigger picture. So, by striving so hard to be ‘spiritual’ - and that will be defined differently by different people – maybe, just maybe, we’re missing the point. The point being we’re down here to get in amongst the dirt and (chosen expletive) and by trying to be spiritual, and trying to get away from the dirt, it’s making it more difficult. Interesting, very interesting. Supposing metaphorically speaking we just let it all hang out, stop trying to be spiritual – that prospect intrigues me.

. It's not the sunshine and roses that defines us, it's how we tackle the 'imperfections' and 'flaws', because as Matt says everything is here to help you. So if you're going to listen to Matt how does what you're trying to heal help you?

Well, the last video of his I’m watching (and then I’ve watched them all!) is Embracing your Humanity and in it, he is talking about just this. Apparently, it’s all in the de-coding; anger is repressed passion, fear is unexpressed enthusiam, insecurity is desire to see yourself as bigger than the ideas you depict etc, there’s a whole lot more. Although that can be generally helpful the fact is at the end of the day I went through a deeply traumatic experience that went on for many months culminating in four days of hell on earth where I could barely function I was that terrified. That kind of experience is going to leave a mark, not so much emotionally now due to all the EFT, inner work and re-framing with Matt’s teachings but the physical impact is still there and possibly always will be. Now whether the loosening of the emotions to do with the trauma will trickle through to the physical remains to be seen.

Also what I find interesting is that the last few videos, one of whch was called Surrender to Love he started to talk about how heart centred thoughts are alkaline and ........ “so when you love what arises, you allow yourself to discover emotional alkalinity which can translate to nutritional alkalinity”. I really started to take note at this point as acid/alkaline is something which is not in balance with me because the trauma made my body more acidic. So he is kind of confirming my thoughts that if I can turn my thoughts more alkaline, there’s a chance that it will filter through to the physical. Always in the back of my mind, is the medium who told me I would heal from the trauma using my mind.

What we don't know is how the experiences we're having right now are going to fit into the grand scheme of things. They fit in somewhere or they wouldn't be happening, so all that's left is how we experience them.

I would agree with that. And we’re only go to know and understand what that grand scheme is when we pass over (life review and all that!) I would like to think that I don’t go ‘oh no, if only I’d known that, or been able to figure that out, it would have made a difference.’ But I think, slowly, with Matt’s teachings, I am beginning to make a new approach to it. Or it maybe that NOT figuring it out is part of the deal.

You were in an orphanage. not far from a stream that had an overhanging branch with a rope swing?

No. I lived in a ranch with a family who took me in after the son found me out wandering in the desert after my father had been killed by the Apache. He saved my life and took me back to the ranch.

What I;m trying to do is find things that we both remember.

OK, so do you have any memories / experiences with ancient Egypt? Some years ago, instead of doing a past life regression, I saw my usual trusted medium and had a whole sitting on a past life in Egypt. A lot of information came out of there and a lot of emotional patterns that I have made complete sense as to where they came from; for example, my intense dislike of travelling long distances alone, so much so that I will not do that. I know now exactly what that fear is all about.

I also have an understanding of a deep rooted phobia that has affected me since I was 5 (back to the hospital experience and the consequences of that). Only when I had hypnotherapy did I discover how the phobia came to be and in 2013 an unfortunate exposure to it made me go to the medium for help/healing and I found out that this is all connected to a past life where I was a little boy who died at the age of 5 – the same age as I was in this life, where the phobia was triggered.

The easiest way to answer that question is to ask you one. How do you feel about me?

I know I can give you what I think, which we’ve discussed before. I am the same with picking up on people’s energies knowing they’re troubled or what frame of mind they’re in, I can feel it. But I’m not feeling anything with regard to you; that just means that I’m not there yet. Oftentimes, the absence of a feeling or thought in response to a question, just means it hasn’t filtered to the surface yet.

Perfection is a concept, you are not a concept. What people often don't think about is what they're perfect for - you are perfect for being you, and there is nobody better at it than you.

Yep, I’m beginning to get that now through Matt. And also, this immediately made me think of one of my fave songs from the eighties - which I think reflects that nicely and always gives me a boost. (Written by Nik Kershaw, another one of my favourite artists.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVEohM8BOQQ

t was never meant to fail, you are already succeeding more than you can understand right now. As I remember you 'back then' so you are right now, you really haven't changed that much at all. As I remember from that time you were very much a perfectionist and this is one of the major things you have to deal with in this Life. Not so much imperfection as accepting that not everything is going to be to your liking and there will be things you need to be a little more 'flexible' with.

Yep – I do feel that I am getting another perspective on life and that this is another ‘work in progress’. What I like about how Matt talks about things is that you can have this new interpretation with and from the way you are right now and move forward from them.

For me it's more of a curiosity more than anything else.

Yes, and for me it is a curiosity too because like with the numbers, there are aspects that fit, there are aspects that don’t fit and unless it’s perfect (:smile: ) then it’s open to interpretation and not worth getting caught up with. I feel the same about astrology. The only label that does slightly pique my curiosity is the indigo adult, as that is me, especially the description of a child. And with all the recent ‘child within’ discussion, got me reaching for my photo album and of the things I’d not noticed before, is that within the description for an indigo adult/child is having very large blue eyes and then I see - looking at the photos this tiny little girl with these enormous piercing deep blue eyes.

I had my fifth cranio session yesterday and it was very curious: she was working entirely on my head and I saw in my third eye 4 + 4 = 8 . I mentioned it and the practitioner said that this was the left and right side of brain trying to balance as to her my energy had felt like a 6 + 2 = 8. When I asked my dowsing it said yes and no. Which means there’s more to it. I saw it again in the night but then 8 and the second 4 fell away to just leave a 4. No idea what that all means. Rather than looking at angel numbers, I’ll have a look at some point at basic numerology and see if that appeals.

Patrycia

Greenslade

13-05-2018, 12:11 PM

Hello Mr GGood morning Patrycia. Finally no deeds to do and no promises to keep. Bliss.

The new role is not just a little taxing but heavily taxing and has left me severely stressed, my workload has increased and a couple of days I’ve put in a ten hour day. I’m just hoping that it settles down.That's not good Patrycia, warning bells there I think. Perhaps it'll take you a little while to settle in and find your feet, until you find more efficient ways of doing things. When I was training I'd wear collar and tie, and when I got home I made a ritual of emptying my pockets and getting changed. It was a little ritual I used to do to switch from work mode to at home mode.

You know that’s a really interesting. Up there, it’s all unconditional love, no judgement and we have the bigger picture. So, by striving so hard to be ‘spiritual’ - and that will be defined differently by different people – maybe, just maybe, we’re missing the point. The point being we’re down here to get in amongst the dirt and (chosen expletive) and by trying to be spiritual, and trying to get away from the dirt, it’s making it more difficult. Interesting, very interesting. Supposing metaphorically speaking we just let it all hang out, stop trying to be spiritual – that prospect intrigues me. It's easy to Love yourself and others warts and all when there are no warts, when there is no failure and there's nothing wrong. It's easy to turn the other cheek when it's not getting slapped. It's really about definitions, they become your reality so if you're a Spiritual person then you become your definition of Spirituality. If that's about the doctrines and concepts you become a concept. Really, it happens.

You as Spirit made the choice to come here, so what does that tell you? You had access to the collective consciousness and the Akashic Records so all that Spirituality on steroids was easily accessible, why would you come here to gain knowledge?

Well, the last video of his I’m watching (and then I’ve watched them all!) is Embracing your Humanity and in it, he is talking about just this. Apparently, it’s all in the de-coding; anger is repressed passion, fear is unexpressed enthusiam, insecurity is desire to see yourself as bigger than the ideas you depict etc, there’s a whole lot more. Although that can be generally helpful the fact is at the end of the day I went through a deeply traumatic experience that went on for many months culminating in four days of hell on earth where I could barely function I was that terrified. That kind of experience is going to leave a mark, not so much emotionally now due to all the EFT, inner work and re-framing with Matt’s teachings but the physical impact is still there and possibly always will be. Now whether the loosening of the emotions to do with the trauma will trickle through to the physical remains to be seen.

Also what I find interesting is that the last few videos, one of whch was called Surrender to Love he started to talk about how heart centred thoughts are alkaline and ........ “so when you love what arises, you allow yourself to discover emotional alkalinity which can translate to nutritional alkalinity”. I really started to take note at this point as acid/alkaline is something which is not in balance with me because the trauma made my body more acidic. So he is kind of confirming my thoughts that if I can turn my thoughts more alkaline, there’s a chance that it will filter through to the physical. Always in the back of my mind, is the medium who told me I would heal from the trauma using my mind.Can you Love yourself Unconditionally when there are no conditions? Everything about your trauma is condition upon condition, even in what led up to it in the first place. The emotions are conditions, the physical hurt is a condition, feeling vulnerable, not being able to fix it...... How are you feeling now about not being able to fix it? You've tried so many healing modalities that there can't be many left to try. You've tried to fix it so hard and 'be perfect', how does not being at peak performance affect you? You've mentioned the possibility that you'll never heal, is that acceptance, wisdom or bitter disappointment? And no, I don't need the answers but you do.

Tolle said that all we have now is the present - that's all there is. The future is projection and the past is memory. The past is memory. Also, what is trauma? Is it just the physical hurt or is it what's happening in your head?

One of my friends is an ex-squaddie who was in Afghanistan, I'll spare you the details but he's now physically disabled. What he can't cope with - one of the things anyway - is survivor guilt. And no, he hasn't got a single Spiritual particle in his body. Every once in a while his wife will phone me up and tell me there's a bottle of whiskey sitting waiting. So we'll sit and drink, he'll tell me about his comrades - again. He'll bawl his eyes out, again.... When that's done he'll get on with the rest of his Life as best he can, and what he can't conquer he'll find a way to Live with.

What some people don't understand is the dialogue they're having with themselves. "That kind of experience is going to leave a mark." You've defined it as 'that kind of experience' so it's become just that in your reality and it has left its mark because you've told yourself it has and quite assertively too. I'm not trying to lesson the original experience, it's perhaps a good thing that you hold onto that as something you've been through and survived. What you're left with now is not that experience but the aftermath and how it's affecting you. You are not dealing with the experience any more, you're dealing with memories, definitions, perceptions. And yes, perceptions of the physical trauma itself and how that affects you.

So the question is, are you embracing your humanity? So for the sake of illustration only, you're really ticked off because your physical injuries are restrictive and they're not allowing you to do what you want to do - what you're used to doing. You're less than perfect and you don't like that. Frustrated. For you that's hard enough to deal with.

The original experience itself is gone so what you have left are the memories and your own definitions and perceptions of what happened - and how you feel about it. Yes you can probably remember every fine detail - but you remember and you're not experiencing it. That's a huge difference. Now you have emotion of a different kind but it's still emotion and it's still what's going to drive you, it's what drives you to find successful healing.

Love is an energy.

Matsuru Emoto did some experiments with crystallised water. He placed some jars on a shelf and projected consciousness at them. He would stare at the jar with all of his focus and think at the jar "I hate you" or "I love you." When he studied the crystalline structure of the water in the jars, the 'I love you' water's structure looked like a snowflake while the 'I hate you' water looked like a puddle of melted plastic. It goes far deeper than an acidic/alkaline body.

Embracing your Humanity and decoding what you're going through now is all brain work.

I would agree with that. And we’re only go to know and understand what that grand scheme is when we pass over (life review and all that!) I would like to think that I don’t go ‘oh no, if only I’d known that, or been able to figure that out, it would have made a difference.’ But I think, slowly, with Matt’s teachings, I am beginning to make a new approach to it. Or it maybe that NOT figuring it out is part of the deal. I came back to this town after quite a lot of years to find one of my old cadets was a cadet officer himself. There's a special kind of feeling in that, but he shook my hand and thanked me for the impact I;d had on him. A bit later I saw him with his daughter and the voice said "That's who you were making the difference for." Those so many years ago, if I had known about the grand scheme of things???

No. I lived in a ranch with a family who took me in after the son found me out wandering in the desert after my father had been killed by the Apache. He saved my life and took me back to the ranch.Oops, got that one wrong then. There's still a connection to 'that time', so even if you weren't at the orphanage you were 'in the area' somewhere.

OK, so do you have any memories / experiences with ancient Egypt? Some years ago, instead of doing a past life regression, I saw my usual trusted medium and had a whole sitting on a past life in Egypt. A lot of information came out of there and a lot of emotional patterns that I have made complete sense as to where they came from; for example, my intense dislike of travelling long distances alone, so much so that I will not do that. I know now exactly what that fear is all about.

I also have an understanding of a deep rooted phobia that has affected me since I was 5 (back to the hospital experience and the consequences of that). Only when I had hypnotherapy did I discover how the phobia came to be and in 2013 an unfortunate exposure to it made me go to the medium for help/healing and I found out that this is all connected to a past life where I was a little boy who died at the age of 5 – the same age as I was in this life, where the phobia was triggered. Kind of. I was killed in Atlantis just before it fell, but somehow I remember events that happened after that. I guess I was there in 'spirit' of a kind. I remember the fall and how survivors went to Egypt (as well as other places). Other than that, not really, I didn't have a Life in Egypt at all as far as I remember. There was one Life I do remember but I have no context for that one at all. I was with a group of children who were playing in a clearing, when a group of horsemen came through and mowed some of the children down.

I know I can give you what I think, which we’ve discussed before. I am the same with picking up on people’s energies knowing they’re troubled or what frame of mind they’re in, I can feel it. But I’m not feeling anything with regard to you; that just means that I’m not there yet. Oftentimes, the absence of a feeling or thought in response to a question, just means it hasn’t filtered to the surface yet.What I'm being told is that you haven't made the connections to yourself just yet, but considering what's been on your mind of late it's no surprise at all. If it's going to happen it'll happen in its own time. When I've been in situations like this, what's happened is that I've made the connections but the other person hasn't. It's like I can connect to it, and when when you connect to it too then the circuit is complete. Kinda anyway. What I'm doing now is prodding away at a circuit board to see what rings your bells.

Yep, I’m beginning to get that now through Matt. And also, this immediately made me think of one of my fave songs from the eighties - which I think reflects that nicely and always gives me a boost. (Written by Nik Kershaw, another one of my favourite artists.)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVEohM8BOQQ

I guess we all have our musical skeletons after all lol. But I guess if you come through Life resonating with that it perhaps means that deep down there's a place where you're OK with yourself and everything in you.

Yep – I do feel that I am getting another perspective on life and that this is another ‘work in progress’. What I like about how Matt talks about things is that you can have this new interpretation with and from the way you are right now and move forward from them. That's something that's happening to me right now. I'm moving into 'retirement' both physically, mentally and Spiritually and my Soul feels old and tired. And I know the Soul itself doesn't get tired but it's a 'translation'. Spirituality itself holds little interest for me, I look at the forums sometimes and it's like watching pre-pubescents with a girlie mag - they're all experts with women. It's not judgement but a.... feeling I suppose. What's mainly coming through in my Life at the moment are things that I want to move away from, things I just don't resonate with any more.

To say I'm not going to learn anything more is pretentious, but there's something very liberating in knowing that the job is done and what comes next is a bonus, so I get to choose how I feel about everything in my Life. If I don't feel like being Spiritual I'm OK with that and it's not going to make a huge difference in the grand scheme of things. These old bones creak but you know, it's all a part of being a grumpy old git and I can play in the puddles with the kids. That's when you know you've got it made.

Yes, and for me it is a curiosity too because like with the numbers, there are aspects that fit, there are aspects that don’t fit and unless it’s perfect (:smile: ) then it’s open to interpretation and not worth getting caught up with. I feel the same about astrology. The only label that does slightly pique my curiosity is the indigo adult, as that is me, especially the description of a child. And with all the recent ‘child within’ discussion, got me reaching for my photo album and of the things I’d not noticed before, is that within the description for an indigo adult/child is having very large blue eyes and then I see - looking at the photos this tiny little girl with these enormous piercing deep blue eyes.

I had my fifth cranio session yesterday and it was very curious: she was working entirely on my head and I saw in my third eye 4 + 4 = 8 . I mentioned it and the practitioner said that this was the left and right side of brain trying to balance as to her my energy had felt like a 6 + 2 = 8. When I asked my dowsing it said yes and no. Which means there’s more to it. I saw it again in the night but then 8 and the second 4 fell away to just leave a 4. No idea what that all means. Rather than looking at angel numbers, I’ll have a look at some point at basic numerology and see if that appeals.

PatryciaGenetically blue eyes are a genetic anomaly that hasn't been explained, and they're traced the gene back to a female. No surprises there then.:smile: But if you could go back to talk to that Child Inside, what would you say to her? And if she told you she was trying to heal a trauma? And speaking of Indigo traits, how many of the tick-boxes does your trauma and what's happen now can you tick?

Everything is here to help you, often the most mysterious mystery is what is it helping? You are your Life's Purpose.

I;m going to leave you to work out the significance of your numbers, but yes there is more to it than that. There are any number of interpretations out there and perhaps while some are a valid as the next some might just be a fairy story, but the point isn't always what the numbers mean. Sometimes what we're given is a 'carrot', something that will pique your curiosity and lead you down a Path of discovery. In one of the meanings it's putting the pieces together. Gotta Love that one.

Patrycia-Rose

20-05-2018, 08:45 AM

Morning to you, Mr G on this glorious sunny day,

That's not good Patrycia, warning bells there I think. Perhaps it'll take you a little while to settle in and find your feet, until you find more efficient ways of doing things. When I was training I'd wear collar and tie, and when I got home I made a ritual of emptying my pockets and getting changed. It was a little ritual I used to do to switch from work mode to at home mode.

I’m hoping it will settle down too, I’m told by other people doing the same job in a different departments, it can take 6-9 months to fully settle in, although I’m hoping it won’t take that long. I’m feeling better about it after having a Whole good week last week, so I’ll just have to see where it takes me ........... I also change as soon as I get home and I like to immediately go out and mow the lawn, take care of the plants, to wind down.

.. How are you feeling now about not being able to fix it? You've tried so many healing modalities that there can't be many left to try. You've tried to fix it so hard and 'be perfect', how does not being at peak performance affect you? You've mentioned the possibility that you'll never heal, is that acceptance, wisdom or bitter disappointment? And no, I don't need the answers but you do.

I did (notice past tense) tend to oscillate between three different thoughts. And I could have all of these thoughts in the space of half an hour.

1. Why shouldn’t I try all these healing modalities, surely something’s gotta work, maybe I just haven’t found it yet. I see other people responding miraculously to treatments/supplements, surely it has to be my turn at some point? How come I can heal other people using knowledge/intuition but can’t do JS for myself! Maybe I need to start looking again. Maybe I could try a, b or c or ….

2. Why am I bothering because nothing ever works, I’ve spent thousands on all these different things and nothing I’ve tried helps and often makes me feel worse.

3. There has to be some reason why I can’t heal; too much trauma/damage, or there’s some spiritual block preventing it.

Now, things have moved on. Last week’s CST, I had gone into the appointment feeling the best I’d done for weeks, and for the first time in months, all my chakras were open with a nice, even swing (pendulum). I came out of that session feeling like death warmed over, it knocked me for six and for days after it was back to having no energy. All of that would have been worth it had I noticed any improvement in any of my symptoms. But no. So, I decided to knock it on the head, cancelled forthcoming session, sat back and felt this surge of freedom. So, I’ve decided I am not going to pursue any further healing from outside.

A week or so ago, I had the message to instigate my healing energy, having thought it had long since gone, it was still there and I felt much better after it emotionally. So I may have further goes with it. But I am going to heal or not heal by my own efforts. Had a slight wobble yesterday when out came the Southern Comfort but I quickly realised what that was all about and feel much better again this morning.

What some people don't understand is the dialogue they're having with themselves. "That kind of experience is going to leave a mark." You've defined it as 'that kind of experience' so it's become just that in your reality and it has left its mark because you've told yourself it has and quite assertively too. I'm not trying to lesson the original experience, it's perhaps a good thing that you hold onto that as something you've been through and survived.

I saw an article recently about PTSD and it said people who have gone through the initial bit of what I went through, developing PTSD is a common response.

What you're left with now is not that experience but the aftermath and how it's affecting you. You are not dealing with the experience any more, you're dealing with memories, definitions, perceptions. And yes, perceptions of the physical trauma itself and how that affects you.

This is the thing, it is almost 13 years ago, I feel very distant from it, another lifetime ago. My thinking is that one of the symptoms I can live with (as I’ve been living with it for ten years or so). If I have a flare up, usually in response to stress, I know that it will settle down again and I’ve changed my diet accordingly, so I’m at the point I can just let it go.

The other symptom rather ironically I created a little exercise to help me with something else and found that it is having a slightly positive impact, so that’s really great. Also I’ve seen a gadget on the net which is designed to help, it costs £250 but I’m a bit nervous about paying out that much for something which will be a gamble if it helps or not.

So leaving those symptoms aside, for the last few months, another (different) trauma has become more prominent in my mind, because it’s more prominent in my body. This is a psychic injury, one which has never fully resolved, and it’s this that stopped me running.

So the question is, are you embracing your humanity? So for the sake of illustration only, you're really ticked off because your physical injuries are restrictive and they're not allowing you to do what you want to do - what you're used to doing. You're less than perfect and you don't like that. Frustrated. For you that's hard enough to deal with.

You mentioned a few posts ago that in the other realms that I was a perfectionist. I’ve been spending quite a bit of time trying to think back to my childhood / early adulthood to see where I picked up this ‘perfectionist’ trait. Maybe I was born with it and it only came out late adulthood. Why would I expect myself to be physically perfect when all around me, people are struggling with their ailments and diseases. It’s not logical. Do you have any insight from other realms as to why I was a perfectionist, how it presented itself? Was it seen by others around me as a good quality, or a bad, or both depending on the task at hand.

Matsuru Emoto did some experiments with crystallised water. He placed some jars on a shelf and projected consciousness at them. He would stare at the jar with all of his focus and think at the jar "I hate you" or "I love you." When he studied the crystalline structure of the water in the jars, the 'I love you' water's structure looked like a snowflake while the 'I hate you' water looked like a puddle of melted plastic. It goes far deeper than an acidic/alkaline body.

I’ve seen that video. However, starting with acidic/alkaline thoughts and how that influences the body is a good starting place.

Embracing your Humanity and decoding what you're going through now is all brain work.

Maybe but sometimes a few words, a few sentences can have a profound effect and result in a lightbulb moment, like some of the things that Matt said in the early videos of his I watched.

Also, I rely heavily on my brain. Living on my own I have to sort everything from working long hours, managing the finances, mowing the lawn, shopping, housework, DIY, cooking – (never eat processed, ready meals) etc. Also I’m on my Jack Jones. I have no family around me, one close friend who is in the same situation as I am but that’s it.

Kind of. I was killed in Atlantis just before it fell, but somehow I remember events that happened after that.

I don’t have any memories of Atlantis it’s just quite a few mediums have told me I have connections to Atlantis but then doesn’t everyone!

What I'm being told is that you haven't made the connections to yourself just yet, but considering what's been on your mind of late it's no surprise at all. If it's going to happen it'll happen in its own time. When I've been in situations like this, what's happened is that I've made the connections but the other person hasn't. It's like I can connect to it, and when when you connect to it too then the circuit is complete. Kinda anyway. What I'm doing now is prodding away at a circuit board to see what rings your bells.

There’s not too much going on in my ‘circuit boards’ except work. Even when I’m at home, I’m thinking about work – the only thing that switches me off from that is listening to Matt.

I’m feeling rather chuffed at the moment as I’ve watched all the videos and have all the notes to go with them. But he’s just released another one in the last few days so I’m going to start on that this morning. He referred to a friend of his, another spiritual teacher, called Kyle Cease, have you heard of him?

That's something that's happening to me right now. I'm moving into 'retirement' both physically, mentally and Spiritually and my Soul feels old and tired. And I know the Soul itself doesn't get tired but it's a 'translation'.

Gosh retirement for me is something I can only dream of. Going to have to keep working until I’m 67. Mind you, I can’t imagine being alive at 67 let alone working!

Genetically blue eyes are a genetic anomaly that hasn't been explained, and they're traced the gene back to a female. No surprises there then.:smile: But if you could go back to talk to that Child Inside, what would you say to her? And if she told you she was trying to heal a trauma? A

The thought of doing that makes me feel really upset because I know what a tough life she’s going to have. Exposed to trauma from the age of 5, and trauma (in various guises) is a re-curring theme.

And speaking of Indigo traits, how many of the tick-boxes does your trauma and what's happen now can you tick?

Do you have a link to a questionnaire on the net?

I;m going to leave you to work out the significance of your numbers, but yes there is more to it than that. There are any number of interpretations out there and perhaps while some are a valid as the next some might just be a fairy story, but the point isn't always what the numbers mean. Sometimes what we're given is a 'carrot', something that will pique your curiosity and lead you down a Path of discovery. In one of the meanings it's putting the pieces together. Gotta Love that one.

I’ve not had time to even think about looking for the 4 meaning . It’s changed anyway, it was all 2s at the beginning of the week but the numbers in general having been quite intense this last week. I’ve woken at 1.23 and 12.34 and not had this months, in fact had forgotten all about but I woke about 2 in the morning to church bellls (in my head).

Patrycia

Greenslade

20-05-2018, 12:00 PM

Morning to you, Mr G on this glorious sunny day,A very good morning to you Patrycia. It's not so sunny today which is fine, I;m beginning to feel like a strip of well-cooked streaky bacon.

I’m hoping it will settle down too, I’m told by other people doing the same job in a different departments, it can take 6-9 months to fully settle in, although I’m hoping it won’t take that long. I’m feeling better about it after having a Whole good week last week, so I’ll just have to see where it takes me ........... I also change as soon as I get home and I like to immediately go out and mow the lawn, take care of the plants, to wind down. It'll take as long as it takes, sometimes rushing things only makes it worse. Your attitude towards it is going to make a difference too, whether you're kicking against it or taking it as a big adventure but I guess not knowing your elbow from your backside is part of the fun too.

I did (notice past tense) tend to oscillate between three different thoughts. And I could have all of these thoughts in the space of half an hour.

1. Why shouldn’t I try all these healing modalities, surely something’s gotta work, maybe I just haven’t found it yet. I see other people responding miraculously to treatments/supplements, surely it has to be my turn at some point? How come I can heal other people using knowledge/intuition but can’t do JS for myself! Maybe I need to start looking again. Maybe I could try a, b or c or ….

2. Why am I bothering because nothing ever works, I’ve spent thousands on all these different things and nothing I’ve tried helps and often makes me feel worse.

3. There has to be some reason why I can’t heal; too much trauma/damage, or there’s some spiritual block preventing it.

Now, things have moved on. Last week’s CST, I had gone into the appointment feeling the best I’d done for weeks, and for the first time in months, all my chakras were open with a nice, even swing (pendulum). I came out of that session feeling like death warmed over, it knocked me for six and for days after it was back to having no energy. All of that would have been worth it had I noticed any improvement in any of my symptoms. But no. So, I decided to knock it on the head, cancelled forthcoming session, sat back and felt this surge of freedom. So, I’ve decided I am not going to pursue any further healing from outside.

A week or so ago, I had the message to instigate my healing energy, having thought it had long since gone, it was still there and I felt much better after it emotionally. So I may have further goes with it. But I am going to heal or not heal by my own efforts. Had a slight wobble yesterday when out came the Southern Comfort but I quickly realised what that was all about and feel much better again this morning.Those are quite strong thoughts, and to have them within the space of half an hour? It might not be so helpful now but it might be worth trying to work out where those thoughts came from, because they're very emotional and they could have come from a victim. There you've pretty much convinced yourself that you're not going to heal any time soon. That wasn't a good place to come from.

Just out of curiosity. I'm assuming you've been to a regular doctor or NHS practitioner about it, if so what did they say about it?

OK, let's try a different approach to all this. What if this is part of your Life's Purpose/Karmic Obligations? What if you were not meant to find a cure, what if they way it was always meant to be was for you to come to these very questions?

What are the differences between the internal healing and any and all external? And no, I'm not looking for the obvious answers.

I saw an article recently about PTSD and it said people who have gone through the initial bit of what I went through, developing PTSD is a common response. What most don't realise is that you can get PTSD from Life experiences, not just being in a war zone. Sometimes daily Life can be as much of a war zone, walking through a high street waiting to get mugged can be as stressful as going through a battle zone and waiting for a bullet.

Victim mentality is too strong an expression but it'll have to do. It also comes via PTSD. 'This happened to me, I'm a victim' and everything else comes from that frame of mind. 'I'm a victim so I'm never going to heal' - back top your questions. Yes it's a bit strong but for example.

Deciding you're going to heal or not under your own steam is a different mindset, more accepting and less at odds with yourself and your trauma. And you felt much better emotionally. I don't know what you're going to do with that but there's a 'chain' there.

What I was getting at though is you've defined it as the kind of experience to leave a mark, and your definitions create your reality. It is a mark, an imperfection, something to be rid of..... How else could you define it?

This is the thing, it is almost 13 years ago, I feel very distant from it, another lifetime ago. My thinking is that one of the symptoms I can live with (as I’ve been living with it for ten years or so). If I have a flare up, usually in response to stress, I know that it will settle down again and I’ve changed my diet accordingly, so I’m at the point I can just let it go.

The other symptom rather ironically I created a little exercise to help me with something else and found that it is having a slightly positive impact, so that’s really great. Also I’ve seen a gadget on the net which is designed to help, it costs £250 but I’m a bit nervous about paying out that much for something which will be a gamble if it helps or not.

So leaving those symptoms aside, for the last few months, another (different) trauma has become more prominent in my mind, because it’s more prominent in my body. This is a psychic injury, one which has never fully resolved, and it’s this that stopped me running.If you feel distant from it what does that tell you? That a part of you doesn't accept it happened to you, that there's another 'you' that has the symptoms? And 'symptoms'? Is that where your focus is and not the root cause?

What can happen is people become fragmented and for some reason it seems to be more prominent with Spiritual people. They use terms like 'pain body' as though they can detach from what they're experiencing. Or it was a Lifetime ago, yet here it is just the same. And if you're feeling distant from it and you're trying to heal yourself? Can 'you' heal a distant 'you'?

Psychic injuries I'm a little dubious of being honest but it depends on what you mean here. How do you define a psychic injury?

You mentioned a few posts ago that in the other realms that I was a perfectionist. I’ve been spending quite a bit of time trying to think back to my childhood / early adulthood to see where I picked up this ‘perfectionist’ trait. Maybe I was born with it and it only came out late adulthood. Why would I expect myself to be physically perfect when all around me, people are struggling with their ailments and diseases. It’s not logical. Do you have any insight from other realms as to why I was a perfectionist, how it presented itself? Was it seen by others around me as a good quality, or a bad, or both depending on the task at hand. "Humans are not logical, therefore it would be illogical to think they could think logically."
Mr Spock

!st Officer, Star Ship Enterprise.

Our genes have more effect on us than we'd think. It's not just the "You've got your dad's nose" but also "Your granny used to do that," and it can happen across so many generations. Behaviour patterns also methylate the genes so they're passed on too. It might be a gene that gave you the trait.

You were always a perfectionist, everything had to be done 'just so' to the point of being bossy. That's where we differed because I was about the opposite, while you had it all nailed down I would fly by the seat of my pants and you nagged me for it. Sometimes I did it just so you would nag me. You were you and that's all there was about it.

What doesn't define us is what we have, what does define us is what we do with it.

I’ve seen that video. However, starting with acidic/alkaline thoughts and how that influences the body is a good starting place.I have this 'thing' I do, I never take anything at face value and even when people are 'going deeper', if I find another layer I want it gone. There often comes a place where there's a 'bounce-back', that's when it's time to stop.

Thoughts are effects and beneath that layer is the cause, perhaps on top of layer after layer of cause and effect. Thoughts are also not always caused by thoughts, they can be caused by anything that enters our consciousness - and even what is in our subconscious. Like our paradigm, how we feel about ourselves, the effects of our experiences.........

Maybe but sometimes a few words, a few sentences can have a profound effect and result in a lightbulb moment, like some of the things that Matt said in the early videos of his I watched.

Also, I rely heavily on my brain. Living on my own I have to sort everything from working long hours, managing the finances, mowing the lawn, shopping, housework, DIY, cooking – (never eat processed, ready meals) etc. Also I’m on my Jack Jones. I have no family around me, one close friend who is in the same situation as I am but that’s it. Did you know that your brain was quantum-capable? I kid you not. An anaesthesiologist called Hamerof has teamed up with a Noble Prize-winning scientist called Penrose, and they're investigating microtubules in the brain. Now, the brain is full of electrical signals which means lots of electromagnetic radiation, and the fascinating thing is that these microtubules is that they're shielded. Because of that they can be quantum entangled with the unified field of probability. "No way, man." "Way."

According to a leading Spanish psychologist your mind isn't what you think it is. The brain processes the information but it comes from various sources inside you - it's more like a committee and your mind is the chairman. Obviously your thoughts but emotions, memory, intuition, past experiences.... All of that comes into play. Naseem Harramein (quite a clever guy) said that it's easier to describe a black hole than it is to describe how someone comes to a decision.

Loneliness isn't much fun neither, and can often feel like a vacuum that will never be filled.

I don’t have any memories of Atlantis it’s just quite a few mediums have told me I have connections to Atlantis but then doesn’t everyone! There are those that have memories and there are those that connect to the... dream I suppose. I was given a book many years ago that wasn't available in the UK for some reason, and it was sent over from the states. The book was about the Golden Ones, which attracted me straight away. David Bowie knew about the Golden Ones and mentioned them in Oh You Pretty Things. Anyway, the book described a scene - a metal control room with all kinds of buttons, levers and the like. Prominent was a sentient frog who was sitting atop a rollerball and was making very fine adjustments, apparently the frog had very sensitive touch. The woman author had also described herself a little prior to that. Reading that part blew my mind. Not only had I seen exactly what she'd described but I had been in that room when she was being shown around.

There’s not too much going on in my ‘circuit boards’ except work. Even when I’m at home, I’m thinking about work – the only thing that switches me off from that is listening to Matt.

I’m feeling rather chuffed at the moment as I’ve watched all the videos and have all the notes to go with them. But he’s just released another one in the last few days so I’m going to start on that this morning. He referred to a friend of his, another spiritual teacher, called Kyle Cease, have you heard of him? You're very focussed on 'real Life', I guess because of your 'brain-centeredness' and whatever else is going on Life's Purpose-ways. That's OK just the same, and we haven't 'lost' you. Yes 'we'.

Gosh retirement for me is something I can only dream of. Going to have to keep working until I’m 67. Mind you, I can’t imagine being alive at 67 let alone working! Four years for me and the only thing I have on my mind is what's next? I've been told I'm here until I'm 80 so a little way to go yet, but that was my choice.

The thought of doing that makes me feel really upset because I know what a tough life she’s going to have. Exposed to trauma from the age of 5, and trauma (in various guises) is a re-curring theme. When you Love that Child Unconditionally and Honour her Path, everything will start to click into place for you. That Child will become you, you will become her.

About two years ago I was going through all manner of weirdness - time slips, being beamed into the body, time dilations, losing time.......

When I was a youngster I wanted a Johnny Seven gun. This thing was way cool because it was literally the Ultimate, it could fire bullets, grenades.... Seven different guns rolled into one. It was my dream for long enough. I remember one day feeling frantic because they weren't on their usual shelf, they had gone and I was gutted. I would stand for hours and just look at it in awe. We could never afford one, and for long enough there was no question about what I wanted for Christmas or birthdays.

I remember one day when I felt a strange presence beside me. Back then I was very psychic/sensitive to these kinds of things. If I ever felt a presence beside me it was almost always that of my father, but this one was very different and because of that I remember feeling very nervous about not knowing

My stepfather had gone to the bingo and this time he'd won enough money to give us anything we wanted, my mother didn't even ask. What she came back with was a cheap spud gun that you could stuck into a potato and fire. They'd stopped making Johnny Seven guns.

Anyway, back to the weirdness. I don't remember exactly what triggered it, being honest there was a lot happening that seemed to not need a trigger. Anyway, the vision I had was standing there watching myself as a kid, looking at the Johnny Seven gun. It felt as though I was there energetically and not just seeing it. If that makes sense. As I watched I saw the kid turn around and look straight at me, he knew I was there.

For all that I've been through in my Life I didn't feel sorry for that kid, I didn't want to warn him or change a damn thing. In that moment I Loved that kid, and that was all there was. That was the only thing I wanted him to know. That was a single, defining, liberating moment.

Do you have a link to a questionnaire on the net?https://www.learning-mind.com/traits-of-indigo-adults/
Close to all of those go back to your Life in those other realms and your Life's Purpose.

I’ve not had time to even think about looking for the 4 meaning . It’s changed anyway, it was all 2s at the beginning of the week but the numbers in general having been quite intense this last week. I’ve woken at 1.23 and 12.34 and not had this months, in fact had forgotten all about but I woke about 2 in the morning to church bellls (in my head).

PatryciaYou're being brought back there for a reason. Two/three AM or so is sometimes called the witching hour, it has something to do with the brainwaves at that particular time and it's probably a genetic throw-back from caveman days. You'd be surprised at how much prehistoric DNA we have. Church bells ring - resonance, frequency, calling form a 'higher power' if you've gotten past your Christian thing. Perhaps you're back at square one with your healing?

Patrycia-Rose

27-05-2018, 08:44 AM

Hello Mr G on a rather dark and thundery Sunday morning,

It'll take as long as it takes, sometimes rushing things only makes it worse. Your attitude towards it is going to make a difference too, whether you're kicking against it or taking it as a big adventure but I guess not knowing your elbow from your backside is part of the fun too.

I’ve made really good progress in the last week, beginning to identify what parts/staff aren’t working as efficiently as they could; that comes from my feeling of things not being as they should be, yet not being there long enough or know the area/staff well enough to know where that’s coming from. But I’m beginning to know now. I’ve also had some feedback from new manager that I’m ‘lightening quick’ which is kind of how I like to work but inefficiencies (said staff/departments/outdated systems) are slowing me down so I think it’s giving him a glimpse of how things could be if we could implemented the changes I’ve made on the other side of the business.

Those are quite strong thoughts, and to have them within the space of half an hour? It might not be so helpful now but it might be worth trying to work out where those thoughts came from, because they're very emotional and they could have come from a victim. There you've pretty much convinced yourself that you're not going to heal any time soon. That wasn't a good place to come from.

I don’t see myself as a victim. I may have done once but not now.

Those thoughts come from the years of trying endless modalities and getting nowhere. I think they’re reasonable thoughts/conclusions to have had.
I say ‘have had’ because I am feeling very differently about the experience recently. The slight improvement on the one symptom is continuing which is fabulous. The other one, I am feeling much better about it and a little idea about it dropped into my mind the last few days, so I’m going to give that a go and see what happens or not.

In fact, I’m pretty much now at a place I can put them aside. Maybe that inner child work I did a time back has helped as well to uncover what it was really about. Time to move forwards.

I think what I am aware of now is the result of years of the same thoughts. I see it like having taken the same roads to work every day for the last 12 years, and now I’m kind of exploring alternative routes which feels a bit weird, unfamiliar roads, don’t know if it’s better to go left or right when I get to this part of the journey – but this is kind of more interesting than going the same way.

I know that the same thoughts over time can create pathways in your brain (or something like that) so I’m now creating new thoughts/patterns about it, and really that has all come from the tools/techniques from Matt.

Just out of curiosity. I'm assuming you've been to a regular doctor or NHS practitioner about it, if so what did they say about it?

I was referred to the hospital by my dentist but of course I couldn’t explain about it being the result of trauma and how I’d got all the information I had (from mediums/homeopaths etc) so had to pretend I didn’t know why it was there. It didn’t go well. They wanted me to undergo invasive tests to rule out something I Knew it wasn’t (my dentist agreed with me). And when I said if it is such and such, as you think, then what’s the treatment? The ‘treatment’ was some pretty aggressive medication and there’s no way I’m putting that poison in my body. I know what it does to the body, it weakens the area and can lead to it becoming worse. So I said no thanks, and went. Mighty empowering that was too!

Psychic injuries I'm a little dubious of being honest but it depends on what you mean here. How do you define a psychic injury?

I have to say, I’m really surprised at that. This forum has plenty of posts from people who have been attacked / have unwanted communication from guides/spirit entities etc. Mine went further than that and caused physical injury. I know beyond a doubt what happened. I went to see a trusted medium at the time for healing as I could barely walk, as she knew I’d been working with a spirit guide for years but he got too close and caused harm (the reason why I keep this new group at arms length). Anyway, the medium was able to heal the root chakra to a certain point but not completely. So I’ve been left with a weakness in my left leg which is worse if I’m tired or stressed. And I severed all contact with said guide. I’ve recently been working with a statement from one of Matt’s radio broadcasts about sending said energy back to its original source with blessings for its journey ahead. And yes, I can feel I can heal from that too, maybe, if it’s meant to be. I’d love to get back to my running.

Our genes have more effect on us than we'd think. It's not just the "You've got your dad's nose" but also "Your granny used to do that," and it can happen across so many generations. Behaviour patterns also methylate the genes so they're passed on too. It might be a gene that gave you the trait

I’m aware of that for sure; miasms and all that.

Loneliness isn't much fun neither, and can often feel like a vacuum that will never be filled.

I live alone (by choice) but I am not lonely, big difference. I was married years ago in my early twenties but after six months realised that married life wasn’t my cup of tea. I made my bid for freedom in early 1989.

It wasn’t an easy time; I’d moved away from my parents and my home town into a place I did not know well, had no family or friends in this new place but the one thing that was working, for the first time in my life, I had a job I loved.

So I used to drive the long journey to work every morning listening to this; which perfectly summed up how I was feeling whilst I started looking for a flat.

I've got leather on my shoes,
And I've got a dream to live,
There is nothing left to lose,
So I'm going,
I've got a suitcase here in my hand,
And I've got a hungry heart,
And I'm going to join the millions,
There before me, on the freedom road;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m5VGkihhe4

I found a flat, much closer to work, which was to be my sanctuary for the next four years. Money was incredibly tight, I sometimes had to make the choice between feeding myself or the cat that had adopted me. The cat won every time. The flat had no central heating and I had a very understanding landlord who offered all the firewood I wanted for an open fire. So I used to come home in the winter and go straight out into the shed and chop up logs for that evening. I took to living on my own, like a duck to water, loved it, and have never looked back. I know beyond a doubt that I am meant to be on my own.

The other thing I remember clearly from the time I was married, was just how strong my ‘alternative life in the realms was’ – like it was a strength that was keeping me afloat emotionally,

You're very focussed on 'real Life', I guess because of your 'brain-centeredness' and whatever else is going on Life's Purpose-ways. That's OK just the same, and we haven't 'lost' you. Yes 'we'.

I have to be; living alone and taking responsibility for everything. But there have been times, even when doing all that, I’ve been living that alternative life at night. But not for a few years now.

We??

Four years for me and the only thing I have on my mind is what's next? I've been told I'm here until I'm 80 so a little way to go yet, but that was my choice.

Yes, I’ve been told I have a long life ahead. I’ve always been clear about what I would do when I’m retired but I’m not so sure now. I think I would have to keep a very close eye on myself as I think I could be in danger of becoming reclusive. Anyway, I’m sure life will present something and I’ve no need to think about it for another 12 years.

https://www.learning-mind.com/traits-of-indigo-adults/
Close to all of those go back to your Life in those other realms and your Life's Purpose.

Much as I am resisting labels etc, this is something I keep being drawn back to. All of those categories I feel strongly always. I always thought I had a single life purpose, which is one of the reasons I worked with the spirit guide for many years, preparing myself. I think it’s too simplistic to think you have one life purpose. I think there can be many but for me life/people/situations because of my sensitivity, I’ve tried to shield myself as much as possible. So for me actually fully integrating with life / people would be a major achievement and I think, through work, I’m doing OK.

So, what was my life’s purpose in those realms?

You're being brought back there for a reason. Two/three AM or so is sometimes called the witching hour, it has something to do with the brainwaves at that particular time and it's probably a genetic throw-back from caveman days. You'd be surprised at how much prehistoric DNA we have. Church bells ring - resonance, frequency, calling form a 'higher power' if you've gotten past your Christian thing. Perhaps you're back at square one with your healing?

I’ve had this last week, some intense ascension symptoms again. It’s been going on for several weeks but I hadn’t put the dots together, thinking they were just isolated occurrences. I had one day of discomfort in my spine, took me some time to realise it wasn’t back pain/muscles but my spine. And it was in in the same place as where I’d felt the kundalini energy when I’d first experienced my healing energy. It was gone the next day. I’ve had several days of mild anxiety/feeling unsettled followed by a real peacefulness and relaxation in the afternoons and of course the churchbells. There were a couple of instances of low blood sugar, with the urgent need to eat, eat eat. The numbers have been intense, every time I look at the clock, had a new one the other day, woke at 4:32.

Now, interesting think about the ‘christian’ thing. I came across a reference to the Lord’s prayer connecting to the chakras. I found that really quite curious. But yes, I think I am back to square one in terms of my own healing energy. I felt it very subtly a few weeks ago, having forgotten about it. I think the CST has got maybe cleared stuff out to the extent I can connect to it again. And I keep seeing ‘work to do’ in my third eye in relation to it. At least it doesn’t cost anything!

Patrycia

Greenslade

27-05-2018, 02:02 PM

Hello Mr G on a rather dark and thundery Sunday morning,Good morning Patrycia. It's beautiful here, you want some?

I’ve made really good progress in the last week, beginning to identify what parts/staff aren’t working as efficiently as they could; that comes from my feeling of things not being as they should be, yet not being there long enough or know the area/staff well enough to know where that’s coming from. But I’m beginning to know now. I’ve also had some feedback from new manager that I’m ‘lightening quick’ which is kind of how I like to work but inefficiencies (said staff/departments/outdated systems) are slowing me down so I think it’s giving him a glimpse of how things could be if we could implemented the changes I’ve made on the other side of the business. It takes a little time to work through all the little intricacies of the job, and perhaps you're also dealing with someone else's legacies, the job would have gone the way the previous occupant was comfortable with and you're the new broom making the sweeping changes. Sometimes these things are like a spider's web, and you have to change something way down the line to make things work. Perhaps that's why your boss want you there, he/she saw the potential in you and a new broom was badly needed.

There's a lot of new energy systems flying around you right now, and it doesn't take any great shakes to work that one out. It's going to be interesting to see what happens in the interaction between you and your new job as you beat it into submission.

I don’t see myself as a victim. I may have done once but not now.

Those thoughts come from the years of trying endless modalities and getting nowhere. I think they’re reasonable thoughts/conclusions to have had.
I say ‘have had’ because I am feeling very differently about the experience recently. The slight improvement on the one symptom is continuing which is fabulous. The other one, I am feeling much better about it and a little idea about it dropped into my mind the last few days, so I’m going to give that a go and see what happens or not.

In fact, I’m pretty much now at a place I can put them aside. Maybe that inner child work I did a time back has helped as well to uncover what it was really about. Time to move forwards.

I think what I am aware of now is the result of years of the same thoughts. I see it like having taken the same roads to work every day for the last 12 years, and now I’m kind of exploring alternative routes which feels a bit weird, unfamiliar roads, don’t know if it’s better to go left or right when I get to this part of the journey – but this is kind of more interesting than going the same way.

I know that the same thoughts over time can create pathways in your brain (or something like that) so I’m now creating new thoughts/patterns about it, and really that has all come from the tools/techniques from Matt.Often we don't think about things the way we should, and how many times something trivial has become something non-trivial.

We walk a spiral and we're never back at Square One, and while we're so busy moving on we don't realise what we're leaving behind that we should take with us, and what we take with us that we're leaving behind. Those thoughts were in retrospect and because they were in your mind then there were reasons or them being there. Just as there are reasons for you putting it in a post. If you are 'here', how do you know you've moved on if there is no 'there' behind you?

Even though you are no longer a victim the 'you' then was, Love her anyway, tell her it's OK.

And sometimes we move forwards by going backwards. Strange but true. Every time we come back to the same place we can gain greater insights.

It's called neuroplasticity, and what happens is the brain creates new synaptic pathways as the thinking patterns change. It's like creating new habits to get rid of the old - and it's probably happening in your new job. I'm guessing the shake-up is a new thought pattern for you? It might be useful to think about how you need to think. And of course Matt's vids will be having their effect too. It'll feel weird because it's not what you're used to, but come time it'll be habit - whether that's good or bad is up to you. Interestingly I;m wondering if you're working through 'chains' where you have to work through a series of 'cause and effect', get to the start of the problem and fix it so that it runs back up the chain again. That would be interesting for you.

I was referred to the hospital by my dentist but of course I couldn’t explain about it being the result of trauma and how I’d got all the information I had (from mediums/homeopaths etc) so had to pretend I didn’t know why it was there. It didn’t go well. They wanted me to undergo invasive tests to rule out something I Knew it wasn’t (my dentist agreed with me). And when I said if it is such and such, as you think, then what’s the treatment? The ‘treatment’ was some pretty aggressive medication and there’s no way I’m putting that poison in my body. I know what it does to the body, it weakens the area and can lead to it becoming worse. So I said no thanks, and went. Mighty empowering that was too! It's understandable to see how your faith in what should have been a support mechanism for you has let you down so badly, not only in causing it in the first place but also in not being of much use in the cure. The flipside is that here you are today with your empowerment and regardless of beliefs in Karmic Obligations and others of that ilk, it's played its part in you becoming who and what you are now. Juts a thought.

I have to say, I’m really surprised at that. This forum has plenty of posts from people who have been attacked / have unwanted communication from guides/spirit entities etc. Mine went further than that and caused physical injury. I know beyond a doubt what happened. I went to see a trusted medium at the time for healing as I could barely walk, as she knew I’d been working with a spirit guide for years but he got too close and caused harm (the reason why I keep this new group at arms length). Anyway, the medium was able to heal the root chakra to a certain point but not completely. So I’ve been left with a weakness in my left leg which is worse if I’m tired or stressed. And I severed all contact with said guide. I’ve recently been working with a statement from one of Matt’s radio broadcasts about sending said energy back to its original source with blessings for its journey ahead. And yes, I can feel I can heal from that too, maybe, if it’s meant to be. I’d love to get back to my running.It's been said that every religion was right for that culture at that time. Depending on your definitions Spirituality has become religion in disguise because it's centred firmly on ideologies and theologies. This is the time of Generation Snowflake and the Millennials - which is where 'attacked' comes from. Some people just can't deal with honesty about themselves coming from any direction.

It took me a little while to figure this out. I've heard of these things happening before but often the way people describe them they're going off into some kind of fairy land. Not that I think you are, mind you. Some of the stories have been fantastical at best so when I hear of things like this the scepticism in me kicks in. Not long after I met Mrs G and a couple of friends who were working mediums (a lot all kicked off at the same time then) I was attacked by a Spirit who literally wanted me dead. There was a Past Life thing going on with the Spirit and she didn't want me to finish something I'd started way back. That was scary enough.

Anyways, I still haven't come to grips with all this psychic, energy and physical relationship a yet - and the power of the mind too I suppose. I have sore hips and one of them clicks sometimes if I'm not careful about how I sit, it just seems to be in a certain position. Come time I'm going to need a new one so psychic healers aren't going to be much good there and years ago the x-ray said there was a lot of wear and tear. However, the degree of pain seems to subside when I go back to how it happened and what I was going through at the time. Thinking of the progress seems to ease it, whether there's something energetic going on or whether it's just my mind being distracted away from the pain I din't know. Sometimes it feels energetic because I can sense the shifts but whether they're the cause or the result I don't know for sure. What I do know is if I think about it later it still doen't hurt as much.

I'll never do judo again, but then I don't need to.

I’m aware of that for sure; miasms and all that.They say that if you don't know where you've come from you don't know where you're going.

I live alone (by choice) but I am not lonely, big difference. I was married years ago in my early twenties but after six months realised that married life wasn’t my cup of tea. I made my bid for freedom in early 1989.

It wasn’t an easy time; I’d moved away from my parents and my home town into a place I did not know well, had no family or friends in this new place but the one thing that was working, for the first time in my life, I had a job I loved.

So I used to drive the long journey to work every morning listening to this; which perfectly summed up how I was feeling whilst I started looking for a flat.

I've got leather on my shoes,
And I've got a dream to live,
There is nothing left to lose,
So I'm going,
I've got a suitcase here in my hand,
And I've got a hungry heart,
And I'm going to join the millions,
There before me, on the freedom road;

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5m5VGkihhe4

I found a flat, much closer to work, which was to be my sanctuary for the next four years. Money was incredibly tight, I sometimes had to make the choice between feeding myself or the cat that had adopted me. The cat won every time. The flat had no central heating and I had a very understanding landlord who offered all the firewood I wanted for an open fire. So I used to come home in the winter and go straight out into the shed and chop up logs for that evening. I took to living on my own, like a duck to water, loved it, and have never looked back. I know beyond a doubt that I am meant to be on my own.

The other thing I remember clearly from the time I was married, was just how strong my ‘alternative life in the realms was’ – like it was a strength that was keeping me afloat emotionally, Ye gods and little fishes, as the exclamation goes. Around just that time I was feeling exactly that. I'd come out of the RAF in '85 and looking back it was a time of putting things to bed. There were alliances to gain different understandings from and promises to keep although I didn't realise what was happening at the time. I even had that very same album on tape at that time and that very same song had a significance that was very much having its effect just the same. Late '89 I was with my then partner, but we picked up our shoes the both of us and went off to a new adventure. It was gung-ho at the time but I have no regrets. We packed all we had at the time into a small van and took off for pastures new.

Years later we split up and I found myself in a small, dingy flat just before I was about to find myself out on the streets. No curtains and a mattress on the floor. Two boot loads of a Volkswagen Sirocco was all I had, including the mattress. I learned to live with myself with that, something that hadn't happened up until then. Strangely enough that wasn't long after the 'alternate realm' came crashing into my reality like a train wreck.

I have to be; living alone and taking responsibility for everything. But there have been times, even when doing all that, I’ve been living that alternative life at night. But not for a few years now.

We?? Sometimes we look for things outside of ourselves because we can't find it on the inside, but then the Journey is a pat of that too.

You are part of a Soul Group, twelve plus one. We made a pact that we would find each other in every Lifetime and we've kept to that.

Yes, I’ve been told I have a long life ahead. I’ve always been clear about what I would do when I’m retired but I’m not so sure now. I think I would have to keep a very close eye on myself as I think I could be in danger of becoming reclusive. Anyway, I’m sure life will present something and I’ve no need to think about it for another 12 years.I only have a few years to go, being 61 and all. I don't want to think about it too much but what I do know is that if I don't find something to occupy my time I'll go crazy.

Much as I am resisting labels etc, this is something I keep being drawn back to. All of those categories I feel strongly always. I always thought I had a single life purpose, which is one of the reasons I worked with the spirit guide for many years, preparing myself. I think it’s too simplistic to think you have one life purpose. I think there can be many but for me life/people/situations because of my sensitivity, I’ve tried to shield myself as much as possible. So for me actually fully integrating with life / people would be a major achievement and I think, through work, I’m doing OK.

So, what was my life’s purpose in those realms? Labels are what you make of them, but at the same time often by sheer weight of numbers if anything else people are going to have more similarities than they'd imagine. There's a fractal Universe thing going on and we all start from the same place pretty much, but what happens next makes all the changes. It's pretty much inevitable, this group thing. Like astrology.

If you feel strongly drawn to them then it means there's something there for you. You don't have to become the label or even apply it, but it can be interesting to find similarities with a group of others. Energies, resonant frequencies and all that.

Your Life's Purpose is you and in many ways it is very simple - that simple. But. There are so many aspects to your Life's Purpose that you'd never imagine. So in order to do this you have to go through that, that and all of that lot. Rocket science starts with literacy and school has many experiences, not just learning to read and write.

I'm only getting one small part of the picture, I guess that if I was given the whole picture it would blow my brains out anyway. I've been given a little info on my next Life - which isn't in these human realms - and I don't know even where to begin imagining never mind understanding. There is a 'bigger picture, but anyway....

Your Life's Purpose in those realms -

https://books.google.co.uk/books?id=cWHJLAQ7_XUC&pg=PR13&lpg=PR13&dq=%22golden+ones%22++dimensions&source=bl&ots=I4gG6HjaSd&sig=QSbzHL2WDMwXYrB59Z6--miBW7I&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjOj86M-qXbAhWEIsAKHfEdCtwQ6AEIaDAN#v=onepage&q=%22golden%20ones%22%20%20dimensions&f=false

That's a part of it. Please remember that I'm having to talk in metaphors for some abstract concepts - it's kinda dream interpretation stuff. Also bear in mind that I have met others who remember this.

There was a 'war in heaven and the only way to deal with it was to implode the dimensions as far down as they could go. You were a child when it all started and I wasn't much older. You were one of a group of kids who tended a children's garden, and like many more of us you were devastated when it was all but destroyed. It was then that we decided that when we grew up we'd change things to the way we wanted them to change.

"And God made the heaven and the earth..." No he didn't as Alternate Genesis will tell you. The only way to deal with the war in heaven was to implode the dimensions (we were on the 12th) all the way down to the third - which is the lowest 'practical' dimension. A Golden One was left in each dimension to maintain the links Home - which is what you've already been sensing with your Chris de Burg and feeling very emotional with some of the things I've said. It's also where your Child Inside comes from, and mine.

All of this. all of your Lives past, present and future is 'working towards' those goals, for want of a better expression. When you (all of us) have gained enough we'll go back and do what we need to do.

I've always had the impression that the Big Bang is not the full story, and I can't help feeling this isn't the first cycle of this physical Universe.

I’ve had this last week, some intense ascension symptoms again. It’s been going on for several weeks but I hadn’t put the dots together, thinking they were just isolated occurrences. I had one day of discomfort in my spine, took me some time to realise it wasn’t back pain/muscles but my spine. And it was in in the same place as where I’d felt the kundalini energy when I’d first experienced my healing energy. It was gone the next day. I’ve had several days of mild anxiety/feeling unsettled followed by a real peacefulness and relaxation in the afternoons and of course the churchbells. There were a couple of instances of low blood sugar, with the urgent need to eat, eat eat. The numbers have been intense, every time I look at the clock, had a new one the other day, woke at 4:32.

Now, interesting think about the ‘christian’ thing. I came across a reference to the Lord’s prayer connecting to the chakras. I found that really quite curious. But yes, I think I am back to square one in terms of my own healing energy. I felt it very subtly a few weeks ago, having forgotten about it. I think the CST has got maybe cleared stuff out to the extent I can connect to it again. And I keep seeing ‘work to do’ in my third eye in relation to it. At least it doesn’t cost anything!

PatryciaAscension is a process, it's like Spiritual/existential puberty if you like. You're always going to get symptoms but what will happen is they should reduce in intensity, the intensity is because of the contrasts so as your vibes increase the contrast will decrease. I'm not so much agitated but I am noticing huge shifts happening around me and sometimes they're 'translating' into the physical if you like. It's just small things like the way people look at me and treat me. Often there's a strange look in their eyes as though they're not quite sure of what they're looking it. The peace and the flow is amazing.

Depending on what you believe Jesus wasn't a Christian if he even existed at all, but he's said to have been an Essene, who were Gnostics. It's also been said that in the years he went missing he spent some time in India and the Far east, and apparently he was also in Edinburgh with the Druids. That's not actually so far-fetched because Britain was a part of the Roman Empire and travel then would have been relatively easier, which is supposedly where this came from

" And did the King, in ancient times
Walk upon England's mountains green."
From the song Jerusalem.

At the time the Romans were trading in and around Edinburgh. By the way, the second coming wasn't specified as Jerusalem, the prophecy says a city with seven hills - which Jerusalem is. So is Edinburgh. It's also been said that Jesus was into leylines, another reason possibly for his going to Edinburgh. It might not be true but who knows?

It's surprising how much cross-pollination of beliefs was going on at the time, Christianity was neither born from nor existed in as much splendid isolation as most would have you believe. The only culture that was isolated was that of the Indus Valley because of its geography. A lot of esoteric knowledge has been encoded in to the Bible so that the message would be carried on instead of being buried.

The only time you're back at square one is when you think you're back at square one. You walk in a spiral, not a straight line nor a circle and you're not AT square one, you're ABOVE it. Think about it.

If you think about how a human brain works you'll get the picture, in the way the signals are sent from point to point. Energy is like that. Every chakra is a point through which energy travels to be directed through to specific places in the body - and there are more chakras than the 'main' ones. Did you know you have a chakra a couple of feet above your head? You can't feel it yourself, nobody can but it's there just the same. It's never been 'popularised' but it's there, and it's been called the 'Celestial Chakra'. It's the one that's the 'direct energy' channel from 'up there'.

Patrycia-Rose

03-06-2018, 07:19 AM

Morning Mr G,

It's beautiful here, you want some?

Thank you for the offer but I'm glad to say it's beautiful here too this morning.

There's a lot of new energy systems flying around you right now, and it doesn't take any great shakes to work that one out. It's going to be interesting to see what happens in the interaction between you and your new job as you beat it into submission.

Yes, I feel as if I’m emerging into a new phase, with the new job, Matt on my shoulder guiding me through any little wobbles, the re-emergence of the healing energy at the same time as drawing a line in the sand with the previous trauma. Interesting times ahead ...........

And sometimes we move forwards by going backwards. Strange but true. Every time we come back to the same place we can gain greater insights.

Yes I remember Matt saying similar in one of his videos and that often what helped us in the beginning of your journey won't make any sense anymore. Much of that was about the old paradigm teaching of ‘letting go’.

It's understandable to see how your faith in what should have been a support mechanism for you has let you down so badly, not only in causing it in the first place but also in not being of much use in the cure. The flipside is that here you are today with your empowerment and regardless of beliefs in Karmic Obligations and others of that ilk, it's played its part in you becoming who and what you are now. Juts a thought.

I would have to agree when I think about how I started reading and researching about nutrition, supplements and the hidden chemicals, toxins and poisons that we’re surrounded by every day and how to avoid them. You never know, if I hadn’t have taken that action, I could have some sort of illness etc that I don’t have now because of my knowledge and the things I’ve done. I saw an article the other day that said if you reach the age of 50 and you haven’t been diagnosed with at least one illness/disease and are not on at least one medication, you’re not just lucky, you’re extraordinarily lucky ........

It took me a little while to figure this out. I've heard of these things happening before but often the way people describe them they're going off into some kind of fairy land. Not that I think you are, mind you. Some of the stories have been fantastical at best so when I hear of things like this the scepticism in me kicks in. Not long after I met Mrs G and a couple of friends who were working mediums (a lot all kicked off at the same time then) I was attacked by a Spirit who literally wanted me dead. There was a Past Life thing going on with the Spirit and she didn't want me to finish something I'd started way back. That was scary enough

Ah, so you do have some understanding/experience of this kind of thing. When I think back to that part of my life, I consider it quite an exceptional thing to be doing. This Chinese man appeared to me in my living room, not in my third eye, but actually in my living room back in 2004 ish. I recall turning away several times, thinking I was imagining it but I wasn’t; there he was sitting crossed legged on my floor, dressed in turquoise with his arms outstretched. I remember having a dream two years before, which I looked up at the time, because this was the same person. Shortly thereafter, I used to meditate and visualise going up through the layers and I created a garden where we would meet and we would talk. I would go with a whole load of questions and as he answered I would, in real life, pick up a digital voice recorder and record what he said and type it up afterwards. I’ve got a lever arch file full of our conversations. And that’s how it was for about five years, every Sunday morning. I got a whole lot of insight into me, and the workings of life, spirit, and pretty much everything in between. I didn’t know about protection at that point. Several of the mediums I was seeing over the years acknowledged he was my guide, describing him perfectly. I thought I was safe. One of the things I wanted to do, and I carefully listed a whole load of questions, was about what happens when you pass to spirit the actual process of passing from the physical body and life on the other side, reincarnation etc. I’m glad I completed that shortly before I ended contact. I almost had that published at one point.

And then one day, he introduced some energy into my physical body, I can’t remember the precise detail, anyway I could barely walk the next day. Over the coming weeks, I remember trying to run (I was well into running at the time) and collapsing in tears as I just couldn’t do it. I did several meditations, giving him a chance to fix it and he couldn’t / wouldn’t. So I went to see the medium lady I’d been seeing over the last ten years and she said my root chakra had been unbalanced, she was able to heal me partially. And she said my Nan was saying to stop meditating and working with him. Which was fine with me, I wasn’t going to continue anyway as my trust had been destroyed. Some years later when the subject came up with a medium I’d not seen before, they told me that it wasn’t him who had caused it but a ‘discarnate entity’. But that didn’t change anything as he should have been aware and protected me.

So I still have that weakness and although I was able to resume running, last October it became harder and harder, requiring greater amounts of concentration just to stay upright, that it took all the enjoyment away and here we are .............. no longer running!

So the two trauma symptoms I can draw a line under, but the weakness I can’t. When I’m out walking, I’m aware of every step I take as I constantly have this lack of co-ordination. More than anything right now, it is in my mind constantly, so I’m not sure what do about it, if there is anything I can do. Funnily enough, this last week or so, whenever I think about it I see a circle formation of a red circle beside a white circle, then the same formation with black circles around it and then the two circles merging together. I’ve put a diagram at the end of the post of what it looks like. Lord only knows what it all means. Reminds me of all those triangles I was seeing months ago.

Anyways, I still haven't come to grips with all this psychic, energy and physical relationship a yet - and the power of the mind too I suppose. I have sore hips and one of them clicks sometimes if I'm not careful about how I sit, it just seems to be in a certain position. Come time I'm going to need a new one so psychic healers aren't going to be much good there and years ago the x-ray said there was a lot of wear and tear. However, the degree of pain seems to subside when I go back to how it happened and what I was going through at the time. Thinking of the progress seems to ease it, whether there's something energetic going on or whether it's just my mind being distracted away from the pain I din't know. Sometimes it feels energetic because I can sense the shifts but whether they're the cause or the result I don't know for sure. What I do know is if I think about it later it still doen't hurt as much.

Mmm, that’s interesting. I would say that as the pain is decreasing when you think about it, means it’s responsive to energy, so that to me suggests it could well be helped with an energy medicine such as EFT, TAT, Australian Bush Flower Essences. There’s about 14 Australian Essences that are helpful for arthritis. There’s plenty of info about them on the net. You need to look at each of the individual essences and select which one you resonate with the most; the ones off the top off my head I can remember for arthritis are Boab, Flannel Flower, Isopogon, Southern Cross, Sturt Desert Pea. You can either get the blend made up for you or buy a stock bottle and prepare your own (that’s the more cost effective way). There was a time I was majorly into these essences and have several books. They are different than the Bach remedies as they’re grown under the full strength of the Australian sun. As well as taking the essences, I put them sometimes directly on my skin. You have nothing to lose by investigating any or all these. Taking the Angel Sword essence is what sparked my spiritual awakening. There’s also plenty of Youtube videos of how to do EFT, although I would suggest going to Gary Craig’s website as he is the founder of EFT.

If you do go down the operation front, you need to think carefully about the timing. You don’t want to leave it so long in years that you don’t have a robust constitution to be able to recover. My dear old dad had a hip op on both hips. The first one went OK. The second one they broke his leg in two places and as they say, that was the beginning of the end.
Have you researched supplements:

https://www.arthritisresearchuk.org/arthritis-information/complementary-and-alternative-medicines/cam-report/complementary-medicines-for-osteoarthritis/devils-claw.aspx

Ye gods and little fishes, as the exclamation goes. Around just that time I was feeling exactly that. I'd come out of the RAF in '85 and looking back it was a time of putting things to bed. There were alliances to gain different understandings from and promises to keep although I didn't realise what was happening at the time. I even had that very same album on tape at that time and that very same song had a significance that was very much having its effect just the same. Late '89 I was with my then partner, but we picked up our shoes the both of us and went off to a new adventure. It was gung-ho at the time but I have no regrets. We packed all we had at the time into a small van and took off for pastures new.

I suppose I should be used to these sorts of coincidences between us but they still make me smile.

I understand what you mean about being ‘gung-ho’ as I wouldn’t do that now, although I’ve no need to. I was young, thought life wasn’t going to be one big adventure and it was in a way, an adventure into discovering what worked and what didn’t and how some of those characteristics that had always been there in me, came to the fore; like the need to be a free soul and not beholden to anyone.

I have to say though that Chris de Burgh album, Flying Colours, was one album of many of his. I was first introduced to him by my older brother who had a copy of Best Moves. I was mesmerised at the time by Crusader and Spanish Train, never heard anything like it. That was it really, bought many of his albums over the years, particular favourites being The Getaway and Into the Light.

This is one of all time favourtie songs of his:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ugu5mSdN_ls

It was when I first moved into my flat, that I got really into writing my first novel, joined a writing class, met someone who was to become a really good friend for many years, was adopted by a cat I had for the next 18 years. Life was hard, but good with my parents still around, so I had that sense of a safety net under me. I recall those days with fondness and the memories are very clear.

I only have a few years to go, being 61 and all. I don't want to think about it too much but what I do know is that if I don't find something to occupy my time I'll go crazy.

Why did I think you were the same age as me, 55?

If you feel strongly drawn to them then it means there's something there for you. You don't have to become the label or even apply it, but it can be interesting to find similarities with a group of others. Energies, resonant frequencies and all that.

You may be right. The more I see lists of descriptions of Indigos, it is so much me, particularly the thing about bucking authority. I did have a look at an Indigo forum but to be honest, the sorts of questions being posed were pretty much the same as the posts on this entire forum. And also, I don’t feel as though it changes anything; I’m still the same person, same characteristics, the same difficulties. I did see one website saying Indigo’s life purpose is to heal themselves and then other people, so I’m not doing very well on that front!

Your Life's Purpose in those realms -

https://books.google.co.uk/books?id=cWHJLAQ7_XUC&pg=PR13&lpg=PR13&dq=%22golden+ones%22++dimensions&source=bl&ots=I4gG6HjaSd&sig=QSbzHL2WDMwXYrB59Z6--miBW7I&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjOj86M-qXbAhWEIsAKHfEdCtwQ6AEIaDAN#v=onepage&q=%22golden%20ones%22%20%20dimensions&f=false

I must admit I hoovered up that information on the ‘look inside’. But are you saying I’m supposed to be a past life regressionist, undertake a past life regression or the answer to life purpose would be from a past life ……….. so many interpretations.

I did promise myself I would never do a past life regression, due to the experience with the spirit guide, I would never want to be in such a vulnerable position. That’s why I did the past life sitting with a medium, lots of information came through about the past life that is influencing this one, and no hypnosis required.

Ascension is a process, it's like Spiritual/existential puberty if you like. You're always going to get symptoms but what will happen is they should reduce in intensity, the intensity is because of the contrasts so as your vibes increase the contrast will decrease. I'm not so much agitated but I am noticing huge shifts happening around me and sometimes they're 'translating' into the physical if you like. It's just small things like the way people look at me and treat me. Often there's a strange look in their eyes as though they're not quite sure of what they're looking it. The peace and the flow is amazing.

I do seem to be having a milder version of the emotional symptoms of when this first started. I recall the anxiety I had at first was overwhelming but now it’s more a vague anxiety. I seem to be doing depression this last week. But I am going through some pretty aggressive physical ascension symptoms since last Oct/Nov the time I started to find I didn’t have the energy to run.

Yesterday, I found this link which is up to date which reports of ascension symptoms for 2018. One of the symptoms is pain in the left side “due to integrating the Divine Feminine energies”. It had not occurred to me that the increase in weakness in my left leg may well be to do with that. Plus the fact that every morning my left calf is incredibly stiff and I just thought that was as a result of no longer running. He also talks about discomfort around the ribs which I am getting along with back muscle discomfort, if I do anything strenuous, that’s anything above plain walking; even mowing the lawn I feel it the next day.

https://divinephaseslightworkermission.wordpress.com/tag/ascension-symptoms-pains/

" And did the King, in ancient times
Walk upon England's mountains green."
From the song Jerusalem.

I have seen many references to those lines being written about Glastonbury, which is none too far from where I live.

If you think about how a human brain works you'll get the picture, in the way the signals are sent from point to point. Energy is like that. Every chakra is a point through which energy travels to be directed through to specific places in the body - and there are more chakras than the 'main' ones. Did you know you have a chakra a couple of feet above your head? You can't feel it yourself, nobody can but it's there just the same. It's never been 'popularised' but it's there, and it's been called the 'Celestial Chakra'. It's the one that's the 'direct energy' channel from 'up there'.

I’ve done a lot of reading, researching and work with my own chakras over the years. There are many satellite chakras in the system and one which is little written about; the Ananda Khanda which is masculine and turquoise in colour and sits opposite the green, feminite heart chakra. I only came to know about it due to having a great deal of pain from it after a psychic experience and then discovering that it plays a strong part in Aura Soma. When I first discovered the Turquoise Pomander and put that on that chakra, it was like fireworks going off. I also include the AK chakra now when I dowse.

Patrycia

Greenslade

03-06-2018, 01:45 PM

Morning Mr G,

Thank you for the offer but I'm glad to say it's beautiful here too this morning.Good morning Rose.

You're very welcome,, just had yo share the fineness of the morning. It's coming up for the Solstice and my quad biking trip into the Grampian National Park.

Yes, I feel as if I’m emerging into a new phase, with the new job, Matt on my shoulder guiding me through any little wobbles, the re-emergence of the healing energy at the same time as drawing a line in the sand with the previous trauma. Interesting times ahead ...........You're going to start "coming into your own" soon, whatever that means and no I'm not going to ask. You've been going through quite a shift and much of it is a new paradigm for you so there's going to be wobbles - but you won't fall down. You'll probably find that the healing energy is different too. And if it does blow your socks off you'll know you don't need them.

Yes I remember Matt saying similar in one of his videos and that often what helped us in the beginning of your journey won't make any sense anymore. Much of that was about the old paradigm teaching of ‘letting go’. A little nostalgia does help, even if it's to realise that we've moved on from where we were. Our vibrations change and some things don't resonate with us any more so we either let them go or fret about trying to hold onto them. In your case it's physical and mental too because of the new job, but it's also experientially because how you perceive the Universe generally will/is changing.

I would have to agree when I think about how I started reading and researching about nutrition, supplements and the hidden chemicals, toxins and poisons that we’re surrounded by every day and how to avoid them. You never know, if I hadn’t have taken that action, I could have some sort of illness etc that I don’t have now because of my knowledge and the things I’ve done. I saw an article the other day that said if you reach the age of 50 and you haven’t been diagnosed with at least one illness/disease and are not on at least one medication, you’re not just lucky, you’re extraordinarily lucky ........ Often it's simple common sense, really all you have to do is go back to when it all began and follow the trail from there, and you can say the same for a lot of the threads that run through our Lives. This happened which caused that which made that happen - the 'real' Karma in action, folks. What it does though is let you see things from a Life's Purpose perspective in that Life does have purpose and meaning after all. So now you're looking at it from that perspective, if it hadn't happened in the first place what else might you have succumbed to along the way?

Ah, so you do have some understanding/experience of this kind of thing. When I think back to that part of my life, I consider it quite an exceptional thing to be doing. This Chinese man appeared to me in my living room, not in my third eye, but actually in my living room back in 2004 ish. I recall turning away several times, thinking I was imagining it but I wasn’t; there he was sitting crossed legged on my floor, dressed in turquoise with his arms outstretched. I remember having a dream two years before, which I looked up at the time, because this was the same person. Shortly thereafter, I used to meditate and visualise going up through the layers and I created a garden where we would meet and we would talk. I would go with a whole load of questions and as he answered I would, in real life, pick up a digital voice recorder and record what he said and type it up afterwards. I’ve got a lever arch file full of our conversations. And that’s how it was for about five years, every Sunday morning. I got a whole lot of insight into me, and the workings of life, spirit, and pretty much everything in between. I didn’t know about protection at that point. Several of the mediums I was seeing over the years acknowledged he was my guide, describing him perfectly. I thought I was safe. One of the things I wanted to do, and I carefully listed a whole load of questions, was about what happens when you pass to spirit the actual process of passing from the physical body and life on the other side, reincarnation etc. I’m glad I completed that shortly before I ended contact. I almost had that published at one point.

And then one day, he introduced some energy into my physical body, I can’t remember the precise detail, anyway I could barely walk the next day. Over the coming weeks, I remember trying to run (I was well into running at the time) and collapsing in tears as I just couldn’t do it. I did several meditations, giving him a chance to fix it and he couldn’t / wouldn’t. So I went to see the medium lady I’d been seeing over the last ten years and she said my root chakra had been unbalanced, she was able to heal me partially. And she said my Nan was saying to stop meditating and working with him. Which was fine with me, I wasn’t going to continue anyway as my trust had been destroyed. Some years later when the subject came up with a medium I’d not seen before, they told me that it wasn’t him who had caused it but a ‘discarnate entity’. But that didn’t change anything as he should have been aware and protected me.

So I still have that weakness and although I was able to resume running, last October it became harder and harder, requiring greater amounts of concentration just to stay upright, that it took all the enjoyment away and here we are .............. no longer running!

So the two trauma symptoms I can draw a line under, but the weakness I can’t. When I’m out walking, I’m aware of every step I take as I constantly have this lack of co-ordination. More than anything right now, it is in my mind constantly, so I’m not sure what do about it, if there is anything I can do. Funnily enough, this last week or so, whenever I think about it I see a circle formation of a red circle beside a white circle, then the same formation with black circles around it and then the two circles merging together. I’ve put a diagram at the end of the post of what it looks like. Lord only knows what it all means. Reminds me of all those triangles I was seeing months ago.

To be honest I don't know how to go forwards with this part because it sounds like a crazy conspiracy theory even to me. If it's any consolation you're not the only one this has happened to, it seems there's a price to pay for what's going on. Did you know you had a Black Pearl inside you? It's an.... artefact from a Past Life, a reminder if you like. If you do find it, just break it and relax and that will release the energies. Just don't ask any questions about how it will affect you because it's individual, but it will be beneficial.

Back... must have been around 87 or so when I was sitting on my friend's settee, I was tired at the time and my mind was drifting. He had a light on in the middle of the ceiling and I was drawn to it. Suddenly I was in a place of pure light, and standing before me was a young man in a two-piece toga. There were shiny metal plates on his toga with no visible means of attachment. "We are the Golden Ones, we are here to teach you." I'll never forget the look on his face, there was a 'you have no idea what you're in for' smirk on his face. My head exploded and I found myself back on earth. Not long afterwards I was being downloaded into. Names, places, languages, sometimes signs... None of it made any sense, nobody around me knew what any of it was but it felt as though it was just being dumped in my head. I'd start feeling strange, then I'd go and sit down and write it all about. Then one day it just stopped dead, and that was as strange as it being there. Later on I got to the back of it but it did take a few years. It also sparked off a lot of stuff too.

You're not the first of the people like you/us I've met, but hey all seem to have the same things to say. And it does sound like a conspiracy theory because there's always been 'dark forces' around that seems to be having effects in their Lives. Unless I'm surrounded by a bunch of headcases of course. So 'discarnate entities' are quite popular. The struggle for me was to find some common ground with you because you'd never picked up on some of the hints I was throwing at you. Perhaps this is the common ground and probably the strongest with you.

The trick to understanding Sacred Geometry is like using a spreadsheet - you see numbers in the box but behind those numbers is a formula. Bash in other numbers and the answer changes but the formula remains unchanged. Generally circles are spheres - spheres of thought, realms of existence and the like - that's the 'formula' and what they represent are relationships/overlaps depending on how they're portrayed. Also the colours have significance. In Eastern culture red signifies death but in Spirituality there is no such thing, so it becomes a metaphorical death or moving on and leaving things behind. Red is also vibrant, energetic or danger. White usually represents Spirit or purity. And yes if you looked it up you'd find a ton of meanings but there will be some that resonate with you - discernment is the key to unlocking this.

If the circles are apart it means there is no real relationship - you here, Spirit there, no-man's-land between. Overlapping means a coming together, closer relationship. Red can mean vibrant you or 'dead'/old you.

Mmm, that’s interesting. I would say that as the pain is decreasing when you think about it, means it’s responsive to energy, so that to me suggests it could well be helped with an energy medicine such as EFT, TAT, Australian Bush Flower Essences. There’s about 14 Australian Essences that are helpful for arthritis. There’s plenty of info about them on the net. You need to look at each of the individual essences and select which one you resonate with the most; the ones off the top off my head I can remember for arthritis are Boab, Flannel Flower, Isopogon, Southern Cross, Sturt Desert Pea. You can either get the blend made up for you or buy a stock bottle and prepare your own (that’s the more cost effective way). There was a time I was majorly into these essences and have several books. They are different than the Bach remedies as they’re grown under the full strength of the Australian sun. As well as taking the essences, I put them sometimes directly on my skin. You have nothing to lose by investigating any or all these. Taking the Angel Sword essence is what sparked my spiritual awakening. There’s also plenty of Youtube videos of how to do EFT, although I would suggest going to Gary Craig’s website as he is the founder of EFT.

If you do go down the operation front, you need to think carefully about the timing. You don’t want to leave it so long in years that you don’t have a robust constitution to be able to recover. My dear old dad had a hip op on both hips. The first one went OK. The second one they broke his leg in two places and as they say, that was the beginning of the end.
Have you researched supplements:

https://www.arthritisresearchuk.org/arthritis-information/complementary-and-alternative-medicines/cam-report/complementary-medicines-for-osteoarthritis/devils-claw.aspx

I had it x-rayed a few years ago and they said there was wear and tear, but the lady who gave me the results wasn't in much of a mood and was very dismissive. Originally the doctor said they might send me for physio but that never appeared and being trusting of the doctors..... I think what I;m looking at here is a new hip, which isn't as bad an operation as it used to be. The downside is that I don't know if there's a threshold, as in it needs to be beyond a certain pint before they'll replace it. The other good news is that I might make it to retirement before I need a new one, so that will give me all the recuperation time I need. It's not all doom and gloom. It feels as though the bone is damaged in some way and I can't feel anything that shouldn't be there.

A friend of mine did mention some supplement that I can't remember the name of for the Life of me, but he was hailing it as some kind of miracle cure. I need to get may backside into gear though so what I will do is have a look at some of the things you're suggesting. EFT seems to be cropping up so that's a huge hint. I feel drawn to the essences though so I'm going to have to check them out. Thank you. The crazy thing is though that I'm comfortable with the discomfort.

I suppose I should be used to these sorts of coincidences between us but they still make me smile.

I understand what you mean about being ‘gung-ho’ as I wouldn’t do that now, although I’ve no need to. I was young, thought life wasn’t going to be one big adventure and it was in a way, an adventure into discovering what worked and what didn’t and how some of those characteristics that had always been there in me, came to the fore; like the need to be a free soul and not beholden to anyone.

I have to say though that Chris de Burgh album, Flying Colours, was one album of many of his. I was first introduced to him by my older brother who had a copy of Best Moves. I was mesmerised at the time by Crusader and Spanish Train, never heard anything like it. That was it really, bought many of his albums over the years, particular favourites being The Getaway and Into the Light.

This is one of all time favourtie songs of his:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ugu5mSdN_ls

It was when I first moved into my flat, that I got really into writing my first novel, joined a writing class, met someone who was to become a really good friend for many years, was adopted by a cat I had for the next 18 years. Life was hard, but good with my parents still around, so I had that sense of a safety net under me. I recall those days with fondness and the memories are very clear. Coincidences - yeah right.:hug3:

I'm just letting YouTube go through the playlist. It's actually strange because there have been a few musicians that Ilve reonated with in the past on a more personal level, Chris deBurgh being one and David Bowie being the other. And a touch of Jethro Tull. Yeah, we did lose Jerusalem and there seems to be a vein of... Interesting that this comes in a time when we're speaking about that Past Life in particular.

"Take the waters to the sea."

Why did I think you were the same age as me, 55?Because you remember me as the same age as you in a different Life.

You may be right. The more I see lists of descriptions of Indigos, it is so much me, particularly the thing about bucking authority. I did have a look at an Indigo forum but to be honest, the sorts of questions being posed were pretty much the same as the posts on this entire forum. And also, I don’t feel as though it changes anything; I’m still the same person, same characteristics, the same difficulties. I did see one website saying Indigo’s life purpose is to heal themselves and then other people, so I’m not doing very well on that front! As much as I hate to repeat myself the question remains for you, what you're trying to heal and what are the reasons yet remains the question. What many people don't think about is the 'bigger picture' and that - with great respect - is what you're missing. It's also where your overlapping circles come in as a visualisation. You see, you are eternal and this Life - although for you it might feel as though it's all there is - is only one aspect of the bigger picture. And while it's easy to do all this 'We are Eternal' stuff, the realisation is very different. But you understand that and you also understand that there is far more that you can't quite grasp. That's OK.

Yes you are the same in so many ways but you are different in others, simply because of the context in which you exist right now. I have a group of people standing behind me who will testify that you're doing better than fine. Damn, I'm all tears and snot now.

I must admit I hoovered up that information on the ‘look inside’. But are you saying I’m supposed to be a past life regressionist, undertake a past life regression or the answer to life purpose would be from a past life ……….. so many interpretations.

I did promise myself I would never do a past life regression, due to the experience with the spirit guide, I would never want to be in such a vulnerable position. That’s why I did the past life sitting with a medium, lots of information came through about the past life that is influencing this one, and no hypnosis required.I'm not saying you should do anything unless you feel the need to. Talking to me has 'awakened' things in you and you still have a lot to explore, whether you do or not is your choice. But the operative phrase here is "things in you". Your choices in music what resonates with Chris deBurg and lyrics from Solsbury Hill tell me it's there somewhere. You don't need a Past Life regression but if you feel the need by all means.

If you are going to connect with it all you'll do it in your own way and in your own time. If you ask me questions then I'll try and answer in ways you'll grasp. If you want something as a guide, look to your feelings and what resonates with you.

I do seem to be having a milder version of the emotional symptoms of when this first started. I recall the anxiety I had at first was overwhelming but now it’s more a vague anxiety. I seem to be doing depression this last week. But I am going through some pretty aggressive physical ascension symptoms since last Oct/Nov the time I started to find I didn’t have the energy to run.

Yesterday, I found this link which is up to date which reports of ascension symptoms for 2018. One of the symptoms is pain in the left side “due to integrating the Divine Feminine energies”. It had not occurred to me that the increase in weakness in my left leg may well be to do with that. Plus the fact that every morning my left calf is incredibly stiff and I just thought that was as a result of no longer running. He also talks about discomfort around the ribs which I am getting along with back muscle discomfort, if I do anything strenuous, that’s anything above plain walking; even mowing the lawn I feel it the next day.

https://divinephaseslightworkermission.wordpress.com/tag/ascension-symptoms-pains/

I often wonder if it's something to do with the contrast or the dichotomy but I never seem to have anything like the same symptoms. I just roll with it whatever happens. What I do feel is the changing of energy systems, sometimes it flows gently and other times it feels like a stormy river with currents and eddies all over the place. But it all feels so natural. Whether that gives me an advantage in that I'm more in tune with what's going on I don't know. Sometimes I often wonder if people get caught up in the hype. I've seen some really bonkers posts about the Ascension/Wakening process where people just get too carried away.

I have seen many references to those lines being written about Glastonbury, which is none too far from where I live. I suppose you've done the energy bit around Glastonbury? By the way, the Scots and especially people from my neck of the woods were at the building of Stonehenge. They found the remains of certain species of plants and animals that were only found in the Aberdeenshire area. King Arthur was supposedly Scottish according to new research and the Isle of Avalon was really Skye.

I’ve done a lot of reading, researching and work with my own chakras over the years. There are many satellite chakras in the system and one which is little written about; the Ananda Khanda which is masculine and turquoise in colour and sits opposite the green, feminite heart chakra. I only came to know about it due to having a great deal of pain from it after a psychic experience and then discovering that it plays a strong part in Aura Soma. When I first discovered the Turquoise Pomander and put that on that chakra, it was like fireworks going off. I also include the AK chakra now when I dowse.

PatryciaOK, now it makes sense.

"Surely there is a window from heart to heart:
they are not separate and far from each other…..

….When love for God has been doubled in your heart,
there is no doubt that God has love for you."

~ Rumi

Interesting that you put the diagram at the end, which is where it all begins and began. I know what I mean.

Your symbols? The red one is the energetic, vibrant 'you' and the white one is Spirit/Higher Self/Monadic 'you'. I'm trying to keep this simple because it can get horribly complicated too quickly but at least some explanation would help. Not all of 'you' becomes incarnate into this dimension because it's just not possible - think of a rainbow with all its colours, and one colour is the vibrations of this existence. What is left 'up there' is open to beliefs but it can go by the name of Overself, Higher Self, Monad......

"Surely there is a window from heart to heart:
they are not separate and far from each other….."

One of your circles is 'your' heart and the other is your heart. Ascension is the process of bringing those two hearts closer, your circles represent the two hearts and your diagram is telling you a story. You still haven't quite connected with her, have you? You know she's there.

Patrycia-Rose

10-06-2018, 07:02 AM

Morning Mr G,

You're going to start "coming into your own" soon, whatever that means and no I'm not going to ask. You've been going through quite a shift and much of it is a new paradigm for you so there's going to be wobbles - but you won't fall down. You'll probably find that the healing energy is different too. And if it does blow your socks off you'll know you don't need them.

I’ve only instigated the healing energy a couple of times and it’s a lot more subtle than it used to be. Maybe because I’m used to it and know what it feels like, it doesn’t need to be so obvious. I have used crystals with it at the same time, in fact holding a crystal seems to trigger it. I’ve also had occasions where 528 hz music triggers it. I guess it will evolve at its own pace and in its own way. I have noticed that when I have a healing session, I often feel emotionally lifted afterwards. I do hope that at some time in the future, it gets to the point where it can heal me physically. That would be awesome and maybe, just maybe, it’s the reason why no other healing method has worked.

Often it's simple common sense, really all you have to do is go back to when it all began and follow the trail from there, and you can say the same for a lot of the threads that run through our Lives. This happened which caused that which made that happen - the 'real' Karma in action, folks. What it does though is let you see things from a Life's Purpose perspective in that Life does have purpose and meaning after all. So now you're looking at it from that perspective, if it hadn't happened in the first place what else might you have succumbed to along the way?

More than what I’d said previously, I couldn’t guess; I suspect that information may well come out in the Life Review. It would be interesting to see what would have happened in life if I had not had that experience. I may well be able to answer that question myself towards the end of this life.

To be honest I don't know how to go forwards with this part because it sounds like a crazy conspiracy theory even to me. If it's any consolation you're not the only one this has happened to, it seems there's a price to pay for what's going on. Did you know you had a Black Pearl inside you? It's an.... artefact from a Past Life, a reminder if you like. If you do find it, just break it and relax and that will release the energies. Just don't ask any questions about how it will affect you because it's individual, but it will be beneficial.

I’m puzzled. Are you saying you don’t believe me? But then you say I’m not the only one this has happened to?

Back... must have been around 87 or so when I was sitting on my friend's settee, I was tired at the time and my mind was drifting. He had a light on in the middle of the ceiling and I was drawn to it. Suddenly I was in a place of pure light, and standing before me was a young man in a two-piece toga. There were shiny metal plates on his toga with no visible means of attachment. "We are the Golden Ones, we are here to teach you." I'll never forget the look on his face, there was a 'you have no idea what you're in for' smirk on his face. My head exploded and I found myself back on earth. Not long afterwards I was being downloaded into. Names, places, languages, sometimes signs... None of it made any sense, nobody around me knew what any of it was but it felt as though it was just being dumped in my head. I'd start feeling strange, then I'd go and sit down and write it all about. Then one day it just stopped dead, and that was as strange as it being there. Later on I got to the back of it but it did take a few years. It also sparked off a lot of stuff too.

So how does that experience differ from the one I described? (Apart from the physical harm).

If the circles are apart it means there is no real relationship - you here, Spirit there, no-man's-land between. Overlapping means a coming together, closer relationship. Red can mean vibrant you or 'dead'/old you.

I believe the red circles are related to the root chakra, as I began receiving them whenever I thought about the problem with my left leg (the legs are of course governed by the root chakra). Also, the same thing has begun happening with blue and the throat chakra is one of the sites of the other trauma). I’m thinking that the white circle is a healing energy hence the merging of the two.

I had it x-rayed a few years ago and they said there was wear and tear, but the lady who gave me the results wasn't in much of a mood and was very dismissive. Originally the doctor said they might send me for physio but that never appeared and being trusting of the doctors..... I think what I;m looking at here is a new hip, which isn't as bad an operation as it used to be. The downside is that I don't know if there's a threshold, as in it needs to be beyond a certain pint before they'll replace it. The other good news is that I might make it to retirement before I need a new one, so that will give me all the recuperation time I need. It's not all doom and gloom. It feels as though the bone is damaged in some way and I can't feel anything that shouldn't be there.

A friend of mine did mention some supplement that I can't remember the name of for the Life of me, but he was hailing it as some kind of miracle cure. I need to get may backside into gear though so what I will do is have a look at some of the things you're suggesting. EFT seems to be cropping up so that's a huge hint. I feel drawn to the essences though so I'm going to have to check them out. Thank you. The crazy thing is though that I'm comfortable with the discomfort.

There will be a threshold and this may well be down to individual GPs and health authorities. This is where my dad was let down as he had been going to the GP for years complaining about the pain and they used to say as long as you can walk (fill in the blank measurement) unaided, you’re not eligible. So they waited until he was late seventies/early eighties and of course he didn’t have the physical resilience to cope with the second op when it went wrong. If they’d operated in his mid sixties, he would have been physically stronger. The ideal scenario would be not to have one. And that’s going to be down to how much pain you are in, now and in the future, and if you feel you can live with it. It may well be that if you’re in very little discomfort and there are times when you forget about it, with energy medicine and the right supplements, lifestyle and exercises you could well put it off permanently. What do your guides have to say about this?

The supplement your friend recommended may have been a very popular one used for arthritis called Glucosamine. No harm in trying it if your arthritis is at the stage, which is sounds like it is, where it could respond to supplements. I’ve a friend who has arthritis and he advocates Devil’s Claw. Also you want to ensure you’re getting good omega oils but get a good quality one that has been filtered for heavy metals. You don’t want to begin taking all of these at once. I would go for the omega oils as that’s a good all rounder and you’ll benefit in other ways.

EFT is very effective. When I do it, I sometimes get a surge of energy in response to some of the statements I use, so I know I’ve hit the spot. It would be good to find a local practitioner who can show you how it works. I was shown by a practitioner. There’s a lot of Youtube vids etc and some people use slightly different tapping points. It can potentially be a bit confusing to see different people using different points. A good book which is by Gary Craig, founder of EFT is:

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Eft-Manual-Dawson-Church/dp/1604152141/ref=dp_ob_title_bk

There’s an introductory video on the link on the official EFT page.

https://www.emofree.com/new-to-eft.html

Do you have any emotions to the arthritis? You mentioned it was as a result of judo, maybe why you took it up in the first place, any strong emotions linked to that, so you may want to have a think and see if you can join the dots. Often when people say EFT doesn’t work, they’ve not got to the root issue.

To some extent it’s going to be trial and error to begin with, because you’re learning something new. But the more you do it, the more expert you’ll become and be able to address the issues. If you want some help in creating set up statements let me know.

The good thing about EFT is that once you’ve learned how to do it, you can apply it for almost anything.

I would take a slow approach to all of this. Don’t combine Flower Essences with EFT and supplements as you could overload your system. Maybe start with the EFT and omega oils, or flower essence and omega oils.

As much as I hate to repeat myself the question remains for you, what you're trying to heal and what are the reasons yet remains the question. What many people don't think about is the 'bigger picture' and that - with great respect - is what you're missing. It's also where your overlapping circles come in as a visualisation.

I daresay the reasons are the same reasons as why you would like to have your hip healed.

I accept there is a bigger picture from a soul point of view, ie. I created that situation before I came down. If I am to realise / learn what that bigger picture is in this lifetime, beyond the learning of nutrition/supplements and how to better take care of myself, then perhaps it has yet to be revealed.

Yes you are the same in so many ways but you are different in others, simply because of the context in which you exist right now. I have a group of people standing behind me who will testify that you're doing better than fine. Damn, I'm all tears and snot now.

Thank you, I do feel that I’m doing OK at the moment. My physical body is changing; I’ve put on a few pounds since I’ve stopped running, and eating more but that’s fine I’ve a very slight, light frame and it’s kinda of nice having some insulation.

Sometimes I often wonder if people get caught up in the hype. I've seen some really bonkers posts about the Ascension/Wakening process where people just get too carried away.

Yes I can relate to that. I do wonder whether Ascension is what is happening to me, or whether I’m beginning to fall apart but it seems that everything I have / have had, you google it and it’s connected to Ascension, so I’m keeping an open mind. What I do know, from when this first kicked off, of all the weird and wonderful things that were happening, is that the physical discomfort is very real, enough to think you’re developing some dreaded lurgy but then after a few weeks/months it goes as quickly and mysteriously as it came. All I can do is keep a close eye on things and see how it all unfolds.

I’ve been watching a lot of Dolores Cannon videos, very interesting woman. I don’t disagree with anything she’s said so far, it just affirms what I already know. Interestingly, on a couple of occasions, she’s said that one of the main reasons why we’re here is to learn how to manipulate energy. But unfortunately, I haven’t found anything yet where she describes how to do this. I want to get her book The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth. There’s an excerpt from the book which piqued by curiosty:

................... “The first wave of these souls, in their late 40s to early 60s have had the most difficult time adjusting. They don’t like the violence and ugliness they find in this world and want to return “home” – even though they have no idea, consciously, where that might be. Emotions disturb and even paralyze them especially strong ones like anger and hate. They cannot handle being around people expressing them. These dramatically affect them, as though emotions are foreign to them. They are used to peace and love because that was what they experience where they came from. Even though these people seem to have a good life, loving family and a good job, many of them try to commit suicide. There seems to be no logical reason, yet they are so unhappy they don’t want to be here.”

And of course Matt’s new book has just arrived, in time for a few days’ holiday.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Everything-Here-Help-You-Evolution/dp/1401954952/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1528465193&sr=1-1&keywords=matt+kahn

I suppose you've done the energy bit around Glastonbury?

I’ve got up the Tor a few times. It’s an interesting place but I don’t recall sensing / picking up energy from the place. I was more aware of the energies of the other people there.

Interesting that you put the diagram at the end, which is where it all begins and began. I know what I mean.

Purely technical reasons for that; you can only add a picture at a particular place in the post if you are inserting it from an online source. If you’re doing it from your own computer, it has to go at the end.

One of your circles is 'your' heart and the other is your heart. Ascension is the process of bringing those two hearts closer, your circles represent the two hearts and your diagram is telling you a story. You still haven't quite connected with her, have you? You know she's there.

You’ve lost me there, unless you’re referring to my mother?

Patrycia

Greenslade

10-06-2018, 12:58 PM

Morning Mr G, A good morning to you Patrycia. It's the first day of two weeks hols. Hurrah!!

I’ve only instigated the healing energy a couple of times and it’s a lot more subtle than it used to be. Maybe because I’m used to it and know what it feels like, it doesn’t need to be so obvious. I have used crystals with it at the same time, in fact holding a crystal seems to trigger it. I’ve also had occasions where 528 hz music triggers it. I guess it will evolve at its own pace and in its own way. I have noticed that when I have a healing session, I often feel emotionally lifted afterwards. I do hope that at some time in the future, it gets to the point where it can heal me physically. That would be awesome and maybe, just maybe, it’s the reason why no other healing method has worked. One of the reasons why you felt the energies as stronger than you do now is because there would have been so much contrast 'back then'. Energy tends to 'rub off' on you as much as you become more used to it, either way it means that you are the energies are more in tune - the less you notice the less the contrast there is. Emotions are also energies in motion and lifted means higher frequencies.

More than what I’d said previously, I couldn’t guess; I suspect that information may well come out in the Life Review. It would be interesting to see what would have happened in life if I had not had that experience. I may well be able to answer that question myself towards the end of this life. Sometimes looking at things in a different way helps to put things into perspective - even if it's a stark contrast. I'll think 'OK, what if things had happened that way and not this?' If you had just accepted your fate instead of trying to heal yourself?

I’m puzzled. Are you saying you don’t believe me? But then you say I’m not the only one this has happened to? I;m saying that what I'm thinking sounds like a conspiracy theory to me, even though I know it's not there's still a feeling that it's bonkers. I believe you, really.

So how does that experience differ from the one I described? (Apart from the physical harm). Not so much at all, but it's another similarity.

I believe the red circles are related to the root chakra, as I began receiving them whenever I thought about the problem with my left leg (the legs are of course governed by the root chakra). Also, the same thing has begun happening with blue and the throat chakra is one of the sites of the other trauma). I’m thinking that the white circle is a healing energy hence the merging of the two. I was just throwing bones to see what you'd bite on, it's your vision so only your own interpretations count. It's been said that when you unlock the meaning of symbols you unlock the secrets of the Universe, because they are a form of communication. Feedback or confirmation perhaps?

There will be a threshold and this may well be down to individual GPs and health authorities. This is where my dad was let down as he had been going to the GP for years complaining about the pain and they used to say as long as you can walk (fill in the blank measurement) unaided, you’re not eligible. So they waited until he was late seventies/early eighties and of course he didn’t have the physical resilience to cope with the second op when it went wrong. If they’d operated in his mid sixties, he would have been physically stronger. The ideal scenario would be not to have one. And that’s going to be down to how much pain you are in, now and in the future, and if you feel you can live with it. It may well be that if you’re in very little discomfort and there are times when you forget about it, with energy medicine and the right supplements, lifestyle and exercises you could well put it off permanently. What do your guides have to say about this?

The supplement your friend recommended may have been a very popular one used for arthritis called Glucosamine. No harm in trying it if your arthritis is at the stage, which is sounds like it is, where it could respond to supplements. I’ve a friend who has arthritis and he advocates Devil’s Claw. Also you want to ensure you’re getting good omega oils but get a good quality one that has been filtered for heavy metals. You don’t want to begin taking all of these at once. I would go for the omega oils as that’s a good all rounder and you’ll benefit in other ways.

EFT is very effective. When I do it, I sometimes get a surge of energy in response to some of the statements I use, so I know I’ve hit the spot. It would be good to find a local practitioner who can show you how it works. I was shown by a practitioner. There’s a lot of Youtube vids etc and some people use slightly different tapping points. It can potentially be a bit confusing to see different people using different points. A good book which is by Gary Craig, founder of EFT is:

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Eft-Manual-Dawson-Church/dp/1604152141/ref=dp_ob_title_bk

There’s an introductory video on the link on the official EFT page.

https://www.emofree.com/new-to-eft.html

Do you have any emotions to the arthritis? You mentioned it was as a result of judo, maybe why you took it up in the first place, any strong emotions linked to that, so you may want to have a think and see if you can join the dots. Often when people say EFT doesn’t work, they’ve not got to the root issue.

To some extent it’s going to be trial and error to begin with, because you’re learning something new. But the more you do it, the more expert you’ll become and be able to address the issues. If you want some help in creating set up statements let me know.

The good thing about EFT is that once you’ve learned how to do it, you can apply it for almost anything.

I would take a slow approach to all of this. Don’t combine Flower Essences with EFT and supplements as you could overload your system. Maybe start with the EFT and omega oils, or flower essence and omega oils.A friend has just had a new hip put in and it was only because she was in so much pain, they only last for so long so I guess the NHS would rather get their money's worth. Just right now it's a nuisance but I do feel it sometimes, and there's also a clicking if I sit awkwardly. That's not as bad as it was for some reason. They didn't say much about it after the x-ray but I'm guessing there's physical damage as opposed to anything arthritic or similar.

I took up judo because at the time I was a very angry young man and I needed something to vent the anger out of me. That came from many years of physical and emotional abuse, and being used as a pawn in a complex family dynamic. Very long story. One night I was in a particularly angry mood and I picked a fight that I should have had the sense to avoid, and I ended up on the mat in a heap and in great pain. I should have had it x-rayed but my fear was that it would stop me fro getting into the RAF, at the time I was waiting for an entry date. I can't help but wonder if my anger had 'rubbed off' on the guy I picked the fight with, it felt like it.

What's on my mind about having a dodgy hip is the restrictions, because not being mobile enough means I have to be in a situation I really don't want to be in at work. It's not bad but to me it's Soul-destroying. I enjoy what I'm doing and I'm left alone to get on with it, if I have to change jobs then..... it's like being put in a mental cage and that for me is very hard to deal with. That's not good, fertile ground for any kind of healing right now and yes, only I can change that.

I'm already taking Omega oils and they do seem to be helping in a small way, and once I get my head around being a knackered and grumpy old git I'm going to give the EFT a serious try because I'm drawn to it for some reason. That'll be an adventure I think. Being rid of the discomfort is like getting rid of a friend that's given me so much insight.

I do appreciate your efforts here, so thank you. A kick up the backside was much needed.

I daresay the reasons are the same reasons as why you would like to have your hip healed.

I accept there is a bigger picture from a soul point of view, ie. I created that situation before I came down. If I am to realise / learn what that bigger picture is in this lifetime, beyond the learning of nutrition/supplements and how to better take care of myself, then perhaps it has yet to be revealed.To be honest I'm in two minds about healing my hip right now but that will pass.

Nikolai Tesla said "I have not failed a thousand times, I have learned of a thousand ways it can't be done."

So if I heal my hip, what then? What will I be healing, really? The dodgy hip reminds me that I am human after all with everything that brings and I can accept myself as being human, flawed, imperfect, not ideal...... That despite my flaws I've done some things in my Life that I'm going to allow myself to be proud of, because there are so many things that have happened for me not to be proud of myself. When there is nothing but perfection so many things come cheap.

Thank you, I do feel that I’m doing OK at the moment. My physical body is changing; I’ve put on a few pounds since I’ve stopped running, and eating more but that’s fine I’ve a very slight, light frame and it’s kinda of nice having some insulation.You're very welcome, and now you're getting the idea.

Yes I can relate to that. I do wonder whether Ascension is what is happening to me, or whether I’m beginning to fall apart but it seems that everything I have / have had, you google it and it’s connected to Ascension, so I’m keeping an open mind. What I do know, from when this first kicked off, of all the weird and wonderful things that were happening, is that the physical discomfort is very real, enough to think you’re developing some dreaded lurgy but then after a few weeks/months it goes as quickly and mysteriously as it came. All I can do is keep a close eye on things and see how it all unfolds.

I’ve been watching a lot of Dolores Cannon videos, very interesting woman. I don’t disagree with anything she’s said so far, it just affirms what I already know. Interestingly, on a couple of occasions, she’s said that one of the main reasons why we’re here is to learn how to manipulate energy. But unfortunately, I haven’t found anything yet where she describes how to do this. I want to get her book The Three Waves of Volunteers and the New Earth. There’s an excerpt from the book which piqued by curiosty:

................... “The first wave of these souls, in their late 40s to early 60s have had the most difficult time adjusting. They don’t like the violence and ugliness they find in this world and want to return “home” – even though they have no idea, consciously, where that might be. Emotions disturb and even paralyze them especially strong ones like anger and hate. They cannot handle being around people expressing them. These dramatically affect them, as though emotions are foreign to them. They are used to peace and love because that was what they experience where they came from. Even though these people seem to have a good life, loving family and a good job, many of them try to commit suicide. There seems to be no logical reason, yet they are so unhappy they don’t want to be here.”

And of course Matt’s new book has just arrived, in time for a few days’ holiday.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Everything-Here-Help-You-Evolution/dp/1401954952/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1528465193&sr=1-1&keywords=matt+kahn
Falling apart is an integral part of Ascension once you start thinking about what it is that's falling apart. Mostly it's outmoded beliefs and paradigms, the shell or suit of armour we've wrapped ourselves in to keep us safe and warm - or just to get us through Life. It's not that you have a physical discomfort it's how you deal with it that counts and what it's telling you. Integrating pain and mental health issues can be quite challenging so what happens when those present themselves? It's only in those kinds of spaces where Ascension really occurs. Ascension is about vibration and vibration is about being.

I must admit I haven't seen much of Dolores Cannon, to be honest sometimes I'm not sure what to make of her. I remember her talking about the shift into the fifth dimension and to be honest I just thought she'd jumped on the bandwagon with that one. Other times though she seemed to be down-to-earth and sometimes trying to justify herself to the audience as though she needed to reinforce something to herself. Is this 'New Earth' just New Age on steroids? What you've quoted from the book has been happening for centuries.

I'm officially on hols, feels god don't it? We're off top spend time in the Cairngorms National Park and I'll be off quad-biking. Mud and water flying off the wheels, power-drifting through bends with my backside hanging over the edge of the bike. Yeehaa! Oh, and lots of scenery and wide open spaces. Doesn't get any more Spiritual, sorry Matt but you're a close second there matey.

I’ve got up the Tor a few times. It’s an interesting place but I don’t recall sensing / picking up energy from the place. I was more aware of the energies of the other people there. There's a megalithic circle near us called Aikey Brae, Back in the day it was a meeting place for the farming community and there was a huge fair there for years. It was one of my father's favourite places/events. Depending on the time of year I don't get many feelings from the place but the Solstice does it every time. Last year I had an interesting experience with three people who had unwittingly tapped into the energies and I was getting a bit of a lightshow. That was way cool.

Purely technical reasons for that; you can only add a picture at a particular place in the post if you are inserting it from an online source. If you’re doing it from your own computer, it has to go at the end. It just triggered something in my head is what I meant. I'm aware that often my thought processes are convoluted at best. Just seeing it there brought me back to the beginning.

You’ve lost me there, unless you’re referring to my mother?I'm referring to 'you' yourself, your Self. I get the feeling she's waiting for you and I guess you'll have a better understanding of what that means than I will.

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Patrycia-Rose

17-06-2018, 08:16 AM

Morning Mr G,

One of the reasons why you felt the energies as stronger than you do now is because there would have been so much contrast 'back then'. Energy tends to 'rub off' on you as much as you become more used to it, either way it means that you are the energies are more in tune - the less you notice the less the contrast there is. Emotions are also energies in motion and lifted means higher frequencies.

Interestingly, I’ve been combining crystals with the healing energy because I’ve had direct messages from my pendulum to do so, and it does add another dimension. Also, I sometimes receive one of my existing crystals into my third eye and I check with my pendulum to use that one. I’ve been seeing a large clear quarts point of late, and I don’t have one of those although have always wanted one, so went to Glastonbury on Saturday to get one. The place I went into, the shopkeeper offered that I sit down with one I was drawn to and as soon as I did so, my feet and hands started getting warm so I knew that was the one.

Sometimes looking at things in a different way helps to put things into perspective - even if it's a stark contrast. I'll think 'OK, what if things had happened that way and not this?' If you had just accepted your fate instead of trying to heal yourself?

If I had simply accepted my fate I wouldn’t have been motivated to learn about supplements and nutrition and there would be some people who I’ve helped, still walking around with some fairly unpleasant ailments!

I;m saying that what I'm thinking sounds like a conspiracy theory to me, even though I know it's not there's still a feeling that it's bonkers. I believe you, really.

OK, so what are you thinking?

Not so much at all, but it's another similarity.

Ah yes, so it is! Pleased that you were unharmed!

I took up judo because at the time I was a very angry young man and I needed something to vent the anger out of me. That came from many years of physical and emotional abuse, and being used as a pawn in a complex family dynamic. Very long story. One night I was in a particularly angry mood and I picked a fight that I should have had the sense to avoid, and I ended up on the mat in a heap and in great pain. I should have had it x-rayed but my fear was that it would stop me fro getting into the RAF, at the time I was waiting for an entry date. I can't help but wonder if my anger had 'rubbed off' on the guy I picked the fight with, it felt like it.

Well, there’s plenty there to work with. The bits in bold are the things that jump out. Once you understand how EFT works, you can use those experiences to create ‘set up’ statements. I would work on the first sentence in bold as that occurred first. I know you’ve done quite a bit of work on that yourself, so it may be you need to focus on the second experience. It would also be worth learning the Gamut Procedure which is very similar to EMDR and makes the EFT more effective still. I usually reserve the Gamut Procedure for anything especially deep or traumatic.

What's on my mind about having a dodgy hip is the restrictions, because not being mobile enough means I have to be in a situation I really don't want to be in at work. It's not bad but to me it's Soul-destroying. I enjoy what I'm doing and I'm left alone to get on with it, if I have to change jobs then..... it's like being put in a mental cage and that for me is very hard to deal with. That's not good, fertile ground for any kind of healing right now and yes, only I can change that.

OK, so that’s a bit more tricky. I do understand what you’re saying about soul destroying jobs. Didn’t you say that you’ve only a few more years to go until retirement at which point you could review whether that’s the right time? Unless of course you’re planning to work past retirement age?

I'm already taking Omega oils and they do seem to be helping in a small way, and once I get my head around being a knackered and grumpy old git I'm going to give the EFT a serious try because I'm drawn to it for some reason. That'll be an adventure I think. Being rid of the discomfort is like getting rid of a friend that's given me so much insight.

Omega oils are good. The other supplement you may want to investigate is turmeric as that is both a painkiller and anti-inflammatory. But if you do go down that front, make sure you take it with black pepper and a spoonful of coconut oil as it’s difficult for the body to absorb the turmeric on its own.

I do appreciate your efforts here, so thank you. A kick up the backside was much needed.

No worries, glad to help. :smile:

To be honest I'm in two minds about healing my hip right now but that will pass.

I'd leave it then for the moment, and wait until the time is right.

So if I heal my hip, what then? What will I be healing, really? The dodgy hip reminds me that I am human after all with everything that brings and I can accept myself as being human, flawed, imperfect, not ideal...... That despite my flaws I've done some things in my Life that I'm going to allow myself to be proud of, because there are so many things that have happened for me not to be proud of myself. When there is nothing but perfection so many things come cheap.

Mmmm, wish I could think more like that.

You're very welcome, and now you're getting the idea.

Yes, I‘m quite pleased with the way I seem to have let the running go and easing into the new more ‘insulated’ me. I trusting in my body, that it’s doing what it needs to do, whatever that is. I do hope though that at some point in the future, the enthusiasm and desire to do some sort of exercise comes back. Maybe something new, I do periodically look at rowing machines, elliptical trainers etc. I did watch a Qi Gong DVD the other day and may like to try that at some point, it all looks very graceful and a far cry from pounding the ground!

I must admit I haven't seen much of Dolores Cannon, to be honest sometimes I'm not sure what to make of her. I remember her talking about the shift into the fifth dimension and to be honest I just thought she'd jumped on the bandwagon with that one. Other times though she seemed to be down-to-earth and sometimes trying to justify herself to the audience as though she needed to reinforce something to herself. Is this 'New Earth' just New Age on steroids? What you've quoted from the book has been happening for centuries.

I don’t believe she’s jumping on the bandwagon as she created her past life regression technique herself back in the 60s when hardly any of the information she was receiving through her clients was around. But interestingly, my pendulum is saying there’s nothing for me to learn here and steering back to Matt.

I’ve finished watching all his videos now and have started reading his book. I would like at some point to re-watch certain videos and try to really implement it.

Do you recall you said there was a way of downloading youtube vids to the computer. I can’t seem to find a way of doing this without downloading any software. The putting an ‘s’ before the URL doesn’t seem to take me where it should.

There's a megalithic circle near us called Aikey Brae, Back in the day it was a meeting place for the farming community and there was a huge fair there for years. It was one of my father's favourite places/events. Depending on the time of year I don't get many feelings from the place but the Solstice does it every time. Last year I had an interesting experience with three people who had unwittingly tapped into the energies and I was getting a bit of a lightshow. That was way cool.

That does sound good! In the past and for a great many years, I would go off to spend several holidays a year with my parents. My mum and I were/are so close, shared the same sensitivity / humour, we’d go off to the spiritualist church and have other adventures. Those memories have been on my mind the last few days quite heavily, tinged with sadness. My relationship with my mum will start again once she’s passed over. She is between the two worlds really as she has gone down the dementia path, caused by a major head trauma. But she has come through to me in a couple of medium readings which is quite amazing really.

Talking of amazing experiences, the other night I had a dream I was in a car park trying to find a place to park. I came across what looked to be like a blockage in the roads in the car park but then I saw that it was not a blockage but a mirror and I was able to drive through.

So, just of late I have not been remembering my dreams unless it stands out so I noted it in my journal.

Every morning, I draw three oracle cards from three different decks. The third card from my newly acquired Energy Oracle was the Magician and the Mirror - reversed. I immediately connected with the dream and read the following explanation:

“The magician and the mirror reversed is warning you that you may be missing a great opportunity. The time is right but you're not taking advantage of the creative energy of this cycle. You do have the power to transform things for yourself to create something new with a home,business, family or life direction. You may be resistant to or even disbelieving of the unlimited power you possess but it's time to wake up. The misinformation and perceived limitations that linger from the past can no longer sustain you. Your life is the mirror that reflects your inner energy yet you have the ability to change what you see. You must fully open up to the complete truth of your eternal Wisdom, Talents and abilities and take the risk of believing in yourself. Now is the time to dig deep. Find the confidence and courage within to make the most of this opportune cycle. You have all the resources you need as the unlimited force of the universe is at your disposal. It's waiting for you to recognise and ignite the Phenomenal powers that are eternally yours.”

And then when I got home, I was mowing the lawn listening to Stars / Simply Red and one of the songs that came on was ‘Look in the Mirror’! Spirit do sometimes like to drive the point home!

Patrycia

Greenslade

17-06-2018, 12:00 PM

Morning Mr G,Morning Patrycia

I'm nursing my butt still, having a skinny one isn't much help when it's atop a bucking quad bike that's had far too many fat ones on it and flattened all the padding. Still, Henry didn't stop me even with all the rain and wind he brought with him, it just made everything more of a challenge, the troughs deeper and made it easier to powerdrift through the bends.

Interestingly, I’ve been combining crystals with the healing energy because I’ve had direct messages from my pendulum to do so, and it does add another dimension. Also, I sometimes receive one of my existing crystals into my third eye and I check with my pendulum to use that one. I’ve been seeing a large clear quarts point of late, and I don’t have one of those although have always wanted one, so went to Glastonbury on Saturday to get one. The place I went into, the shopkeeper offered that I sit down with one I was drawn to and as soon as I did so, my feet and hands started getting warm so I knew that was the one. Crystals are useful for focussing and amplifying the energies, and they're often an extension of ourselves - not only in the energy department but in the atomic structure as well, since both are carbon-based. It's even more interesting when you and your crystals are in tune. I believe that things happen for a reason and your need to go get that particular crystal isn't so much of a random event. It would be interesting to see where that leads.

If I had simply accepted my fate I wouldn’t have been motivated to learn about supplements and nutrition and there would be some people who I’ve helped, still walking around with some fairly unpleasant ailments! Exactly, and those are the realisations.

OK, so what are you thinking? You are what I would call Elder Race, beings that come from a time before time - prior to the Big Bang. Specifically you are one of a group of twelve plus one - not thirteen, the twelve plus one is a 'magical' number. You are the second-to-last that is to be 'found', I've connected with all the rest but one in this Lifetime in one way or another and there is one yet to come - but they're not far away. You have something inside you and you know it's there, you just haven't connected with it as yet. Our group always felt as though something wasn't quite right, there was something that we couldn't quite put our collective finger on but we knew it was there just the same. That's why - in part at least - there are 'establishments' that you rebel against because it's in your very nature. For instance, your dislike of Christianity or the dislike for the established meanings of symbols. There are things that you feel you need to 'fix', things that aren't quite right and you don't know where that comes from.

Your parents in this Life were your parents in 'that' Life, that's because the circle is being closed. It ends where it begins, it begins where it ends. So to answer your question, within a Soul Group sometimes the 'roles' change depending on what's needed for that particular incarnation. For this Lifetime the circle needs to be closed, it has to end where it began and our parents -yours and mine - need to 'prepare for our coming'.

One of your Guides is not your Guide, but don't get paranoid. One of your Guides has taken on the role because they need to be close to you, to keep the connection as strong as possible. Your mindset is sometimes a little too literal, which is why you've been getting symbols - not just the Soma bottles but the numbers too. By the way the Viking is on our side.

Ah yes, so it is! Pleased that you were unharmed! Thank you, me too.

Well, there’s plenty there to work with. The bits in bold are the things that jump out. Once you understand how EFT works, you can use those experiences to create ‘set up’ statements. I would work on the first sentence in bold as that occurred first. I know you’ve done quite a bit of work on that yourself, so it may be you need to focus on the second experience. It would also be worth learning the Gamut Procedure which is very similar to EMDR and makes the EFT more effective still. I usually reserve the Gamut Procedure for anything especially deep or traumatic. The really strange thing is that I'm OK with it all - all of it. It is deep because I've integrated all of it as part of myself because it's what has brought me here, and I'm not at odds with any of it. It began before I was born and here I am today as I am, and because of the thread of my Life some pretty amazing things have happened - and we could all say that if we sat down and really looked. There are no regrets, there is purpose and there are reasons and sometimes the pain is a reminder of that.

Picking a fight that I couldn't hope to win taught me a lot too, believe it or not. It reminded me that I was the only thing that I couldn't run away from and that I shouldn't let my ego go on the rampage unchecked. I got cocky and got slapped down and that stayed with me to this day. For all practical purposes it kept me in my place but I can understand how that was quite the 'lesson'. I've forgiven the people involved and myself, and if it was all decided while I was in Spirit (Karmic Obligations/Life Purpose) I've forgiven me and 'him' too.

Unconditional Love for yourself perhaps happens best when there are conditions to overcome.

OK, so that’s a bit more tricky. I do understand what you’re saying about soul destroying jobs. Didn’t you say that you’ve only a few more years to go until retirement at which point you could review whether that’s the right time? Unless of course you’re planning to work past retirement age? I wasn't planning to work beyond retirement age but then I'm not planning to sit on my backside all day neither. The conundrum that seems to come up is between EFT/healing and letting it go to the stage where I can have an operation to fix it once and for all, because my self-healing may just be delaying what could lead to a permanent fix.

Omega oils are good. The other supplement you may want to investigate is turmeric as that is both a painkiller and anti-inflammatory. But if you do go down that front, make sure you take it with black pepper and a spoonful of coconut oil as it’s difficult for the body to absorb the turmeric on its own. There's a friend of mine that has a trendy tea shop in Ireland, well she calls then infusions. If I remember rightly she had a recipe for a turmeric infusion, maybe that would be worth a try as the infusion might help the digestion. And it would be cooler than a spoonful of medicine. :smile:

No worries, glad to help. :smile: I don't know if it's psychological or what's going on but this is a special time of year for me because of the up-coming Solstice. Our anniversary is on the 14th and we usually go quad-biking, but Mrs G can't ride because of her neck. It blows the cobwebs out of my head and I always feel recharged somehow and this year is no different. This should be an interesting Solstice because already the energies are on the rampage.

I'd leave it then for the moment, and wait until the time is right. I doubt it's going to work when I'm not in the right frame of mind.

Mmmm, wish I could think more like that.The only thing that's stopping you is you, as in -

If I had simply accepted my fate I wouldn’t have been motivated to learn about supplements and nutrition and there would be some people who I’ve helped, still walking around with some fairly unpleasant ailments!So take the next step.

Yes, I‘m quite pleased with the way I seem to have let the running go and easing into the new more ‘insulated’ me. I trusting in my body, that it’s doing what it needs to do, whatever that is. I do hope though that at some point in the future, the enthusiasm and desire to do some sort of exercise comes back. Maybe something new, I do periodically look at rowing machines, elliptical trainers etc. I did watch a Qi Gong DVD the other day and may like to try that at some point, it all looks very graceful and a far cry from pounding the ground! That reminds me, I have a Tai Chi video that I downloaded and never got around to looking at. It's the graceful movements for me too and it's based on energies. It feels right somehow.

I don’t believe she’s jumping on the bandwagon as she created her past life regression technique herself back in the 60s when hardly any of the information she was receiving through her clients was around. But interestingly, my pendulum is saying there’s nothing for me to learn here and steering back to Matt.

I’ve finished watching all his videos now and have started reading his book. I would like at some point to re-watch certain videos and try to really implement it.

Do you recall you said there was a way of downloading youtube vids to the computer. I can’t seem to find a way of doing this without downloading any software. The putting an ‘s’ before the URL doesn’t seem to take me where it should. Back in the day, yes she was a forerunner and very much in the frontier of that kind of stuff, but things have changed so much since the 60s. The 60s was very much a renaissance of Spirituality and people were just letting loose, they wanted to rid themselves of the establishment. Nowadays it's very different because society has changed and today we have Generation Snowflake and the Millennials whereas the hippies were out-and-out rebels.

You did know Matt was 'one of us'?

I use Firefox browser, have done since the early days when it first came out during the 'browser wars' because it was my way of being rebellious. Anyway, what I like about it is that it has themes and extensions which have been developed by people who just like developing. One of the extensions I use is for downloading YouTubes, and it's quite easy to do. Firefox is free and most of the extensions are too, although often there are nags to get you to buy the professional versions. If you don't like downloading software then that might not be an option because you'll have to download Firefox first. Another option is to sign on with keepvid.com, although I haven't actually tried it so.....

That does sound good! In the past and for a great many years, I would go off to spend several holidays a year with my parents. My mum and I were/are so close, shared the same sensitivity / humour, we’d go off to the spiritualist church and have other adventures. Those memories have been on my mind the last few days quite heavily, tinged with sadness. My relationship with my mum will start again once she’s passed over. She is between the two worlds really as she has gone down the dementia path, caused by a major head trauma. But she has come through to me in a couple of medium readings which is quite amazing really.

Talking of amazing experiences, the other night I had a dream I was in a car park trying to find a place to park. I came across what looked to be like a blockage in the roads in the car park but then I saw that it was not a blockage but a mirror and I was able to drive through.

So, just of late I have not been remembering my dreams unless it stands out so I noted it in my journal.

Every morning, I draw three oracle cards from three different decks. The third card from my newly acquired Energy Oracle was the Magician and the Mirror - reversed. I immediately connected with the dream and read the following explanation:

“The magician and the mirror reversed is warning you that you may be missing a great opportunity. The time is right but you're not taking advantage of the creative energy of this cycle. You do have the power to transform things for yourself to create something new with a home,business, family or life direction. You may be resistant to or even disbelieving of the unlimited power you possess but it's time to wake up. The misinformation and perceived limitations that linger from the past can no longer sustain you. Your life is the mirror that reflects your inner energy yet you have the ability to change what you see. You must fully open up to the complete truth of your eternal Wisdom, Talents and abilities and take the risk of believing in yourself. Now is the time to dig deep. Find the confidence and courage within to make the most of this opportune cycle. You have all the resources you need as the unlimited force of the universe is at your disposal. It's waiting for you to recognise and ignite the Phenomenal powers that are eternally yours.”

And then when I got home, I was mowing the lawn listening to Stars / Simply Red and one of the songs that came on was ‘Look in the Mirror’! Spirit do sometimes like to drive the point home!

PatryciaMy mother inherited her Spirituality from my grandmother, and I inherited mine from her. There were no Spiritualist churches or anything close to that here in those days, there aren't any anywhere close even today so we both had to fly by the seat of our pants. She's clairvoyant, although the ability scares her and she's very narrow in her acceptance of it. For her it's more of an extended family thing. She's just been diagnosed as having dementia, and for a long time I've suspected something 'wasn't right' with her. She's come through to me too, not so much her herself but more of a Spiritual counterpart if you like.

I don't know what's going on but everything feels different to how it felt this time last year, whether it's actually the case or whether it's me and my perceptions I don't know. There's a feeling of agitation but it's not because there's something wrong, it's because the energies are so very different. I don't feel fear or any kind of afraid, just... not even uncertain.

The Universe is a reflection of you and not the other way around, and if you want the Universe to smile you have to smile first, then the Universe has no option but to smile back at you.

But then; As Above, So Below.

Patrycia-Rose

24-06-2018, 08:45 AM

Good Morning Mr G on this fabulous day,

I'm nursing my butt still, having a skinny one isn't much help when it's atop a bucking quad bike that's had far too many fat ones on it and flattened all the padding. Still, Henry didn't stop me even with all the rain and wind he brought with him, it just made everything more of a challenge, the troughs deeper and made it easier to powerdrift through the bends.

Ha! I’m with you on that one. I was heavily into cycling about 20 years ago, had a neat racing bike and used to do about 30 miles on a Saturday morning but I used to find it a tad uncomfortable no matter how many saddles I tried. Not having that discomfort was one of the good things about running.

Since I’ve stopped running, my body feels like it seizing up. The tightness in my left calf is on the mend as I’ve found some stretching exercises that are working a treat. But my mid – back muscles are at times agony. So I’ve decided to go and see a sports injury clinic and see if they can help. I like the fact that the clinic isn’t a spiritual intervention, and who knows if he sorts my back out, I might ask if he can help with the left leg situation.

My energy levels are gradually getting better. I think, only think at this point, that I’ve traced it down to a particular vitamin deficiency. Easily remedied you’d think but I’ve a very sensitive constitution and it’s finding something that works for me. A lot of vitamins and sublinguals come with artificial sweeteners, additives, bulking agents and I don’t want to put any of this **** into my body. You have to be so careful when choosing supplements for the above reasons plus some vitamins can be the synthetic version, or a version that your body needs to convert. Fortunately, I’m pretty good at knowing what to look for and a few brands that I rely on.

I’ve been walking about two miles a day, plus have introduced some light pilates, and new to me, a bit of weight lifting. I’ve been working on strengthening my left leg to see if that gets me anywhere.

I have to say, I’m sitting here, typing this up listening to my ‘running play list’ and appreciating the songs for what they are, along with the memories. I’m going to see where this sports injury clinic takes me. And if you’ve not guessed, I Have Not giving up on getting back to running. I know I’ve got a long way to go to get my body back into a good place to start. But I have started years ago, after the trauma, literally starting with running for one minute and gradually increasing. So I know I can do it. But I also accept that if the time has come to move on, and find something different, then so be it. I’ve already started a little with the weight lifting and that can be expanded upon. I have seen various articles saying that as you get older, it’s more important to have good core strength and muscular strength than cardiovascular, so we see

Crystals are useful for focussing and amplifying the energies, and they're often an extension of ourselves - not only in the energy department but in the atomic structure as well, since both are carbon-based. It's even more interesting when you and your crystals are in tune. I believe that things happen for a reason and your need to go get that particular crystal isn't so much of a random event. It would be interesting to see where that leads.

Yes, I agree it wasn’t random, particularly given that I’d gone round the whole town not finding anything and thought I’ll just go back to the first shop I tried just in case I’d missed something and sure enough, I had missed something!

On Sunday last when I used it with the healing energy, I kept seeing the colour turquoise and could see a turquoise heart in it. Also I’ve noticed a few times that I see the crystal in my third eye and then I see it fill with colour, all very curious.

I does I feel need some serious cleansing; you never know what the journeys are of crystals, what people, energies it’s come into contact with, and then being close inside a glass cabinet for who knows how long. I’ve done the usual of cleaning in salt water etc but I’ve placed it in the sunlight for days with a couple of rose quartz crystals nearby.

You are what I would call Elder Race, beings that come from a time before time - prior to the Big Bang. Specifically you are one of a group of twelve plus one - not thirteen, the twelve plus one is a 'magical' number. You are the second-to-last that is to be 'found', I've connected with all the rest but one in this Lifetime in one way or another and there is one yet to come - but they're not far away. You have something inside you and you know it's there, you just haven't connected with it as yet. Our group always felt as though something wasn't quite right, there was something that we couldn't quite put our collective finger on but we knew it was there just the same. That's why - in part at least - there are 'establishments' that you rebel against because it's in your very nature. For instance, your dislike of Christianity or the dislike for the established meanings of symbols. There are things that you feel you need to 'fix', things that aren't quite right and you don't know where that comes from.

So, curious: at what point did you suspect that I was or could be one of the group?

I’ve always felt that there is something within, but I don’t know what, I don’t have a feeling of what it is, maybe something to do with the healing energy. It’s one of the reasons that over the years I’ve used crystals, runes, dowsing, tuning forks, singing bowls, guided meditations, looked into all sorts of things such as shamanism, Buddhism, the list goes on; kind of hoping that something will fall into place but nothing has.

Yes, I’ve always had a problem with authority particularly if someone tells me I can’t do something, or you have to do it that way. I will find that my natural way of doing it will be different than all the rest or I’ll go all out to find my way of doing it sometimes just for the sheer joy of doing it my way and not yours! Many a ‘telling off’ at school.

A medium once told me I was persecuted in a past life by religious establishment; that’s why I can’t abide it, plus the fact that it is a human creation meant to control the masses, so it loses on both sides!

Things that I need to fix and that begins with my physical body.

Your parents in this Life were your parents in 'that' Life, that's because the circle is being closed. It ends where it begins, it begins where it ends. So to answer your question, within a Soul Group sometimes the 'roles' change depending on what's needed for that particular incarnation. For this Lifetime the circle needs to be closed, it has to end where it began and our parents -yours and mine - need to 'prepare for our coming'.

Yes, I'm aware of that.

One of your Guides is not your Guide, but don't get paranoid. One of your Guides has taken on the role because they need to be close to you, to keep the connection as strong as possible. Your mindset is sometimes a little too literal, which is why you've been getting symbols - not just the Soma bottles but the numbers too. By the way the Viking is on our side.

The medium I saw in January told me, that I have a very strong mind and that even as a small child if I didn’t want to do something, I just wouldn’t do it! Fortunately, my parents handled that very well and would never force me to do something. He said that I like to receive information in a certain way. I wasn’t aware of that but that ties in with what you’re saying.

Viking?

There's a friend of mine that has a trendy tea shop in Ireland, well she calls then infusions. If I remember rightly she had a recipe for a turmeric infusion, maybe that would be worth a try as the infusion might help the digestion. And it would be cooler than a spoonful of medicine. :smile:

I found out the other day you can also get something called a turmeric latte!

You did know Matt was 'one of us'?

What makes you say that?

I use Firefox browser, have done since the early days when it first came out during the 'browser wars' because it was my way of being rebellious. Anyway, what I like about it is that it has themes and extensions which have been developed by people who just like developing. One of the extensions I use is for downloading YouTubes, and it's quite easy to do. Firefox is free and most of the extensions are too, although often there are nags to get you to buy the professional versions. If you don't like downloading software then that might not be an option because you'll have to download Firefox first. Another option is to sign on with keepvid.com, although I haven't actually tried it so.....

I don’t mind downloading Firefox as that’s a genuine browser. I already have Chrome but I see that Firefox has extensions for youtube vids. So I’ll keep that in mind, in case I need it.

My mother inherited her Spirituality from my grandmother, and I inherited mine from her. There were no Spiritualist churches or anything close to that here in those days, there aren't any anywhere close even today so we both had to fly by the seat of our pants. She's clairvoyant, although the ability scares her and she's very narrow in her acceptance of it. For her it's more of an extended family thing.

Oh, here we go! Same for me, my mother is a spiritualist and her mother, my Nan, also. The place where we lived fortunately had a small spiritualist church and I know my mum and Nan used to go there a lot. I have a memory of when I was about 11, these rather stern looking men would come round to our house and they would go into my Nan’s lounge and I would here these deep voices talking. Years later, I found out they were mediums who would come and see her regularly.

When I started to see mediums myself, my mum used to go with me and one of them said that when he opened the door to us, the three of us were standing there; me, mum and Nan (who would have been in spirit).

She's just been diagnosed as having dementia, and for a long time I've suspected something 'wasn't right' with her. She's come through to me too, not so much her herself but more of a Spiritual counterpart if you like.

More synchronicity!

Patrycia

Greenslade

24-06-2018, 01:46 PM

Good Morning Mr G on this fabulous day,Good morning Patrycia

The sun shines on the righteous.

Ha! I’m with you on that one. I was heavily into cycling about 20 years ago, had a neat racing bike and used to do about 30 miles on a Saturday morning but I used to find it a tad uncomfortable no matter how many saddles I tried. Not having that discomfort was one of the good things about running.

Since I’ve stopped running, my body feels like it seizing up. The tightness in my left calf is on the mend as I’ve found some stretching exercises that are working a treat. But my mid – back muscles are at times agony. So I’ve decided to go and see a sports injury clinic and see if they can help. I like the fact that the clinic isn’t a spiritual intervention, and who knows if he sorts my back out, I might ask if he can help with the left leg situation.

My energy levels are gradually getting better. I think, only think at this point, that I’ve traced it down to a particular vitamin deficiency. Easily remedied you’d think but I’ve a very sensitive constitution and it’s finding something that works for me. A lot of vitamins and sublinguals come with artificial sweeteners, additives, bulking agents and I don’t want to put any of this **** into my body. You have to be so careful when choosing supplements for the above reasons plus some vitamins can be the synthetic version, or a version that your body needs to convert. Fortunately, I’m pretty good at knowing what to look for and a few brands that I rely on.

I’ve been walking about two miles a day, plus have introduced some light pilates, and new to me, a bit of weight lifting. I’ve been working on strengthening my left leg to see if that gets me anywhere.

I have to say, I’m sitting here, typing this up listening to my ‘running play list’ and appreciating the songs for what they are, along with the memories. I’m going to see where this sports injury clinic takes me. And if you’ve not guessed, I Have Not giving up on getting back to running. I know I’ve got a long way to go to get my body back into a good place to start. But I have started years ago, after the trauma, literally starting with running for one minute and gradually increasing. So I know I can do it. But I also accept that if the time has come to move on, and find something different, then so be it. I’ve already started a little with the weight lifting and that can be expanded upon. I have seen various articles saying that as you get older, it’s more important to have good core strength and muscular strength than cardiovascular, so we seeI bought a brand new Raleigh Palm Beach with my paperboy wages and that was a taste of freedom and adventure, I was never off the damned thing. One of my favourite runs took me into the country roads where the traffic was slower and Life itself seemed to have that kind if laid back pace, so I felt safer. There was up hill and down dale, the feeling of leaving it all behind and it disappearing into the distance. It was always the Journey and experience. Today I sit in my Jag and do the same Journey... well not so much.

Strangely enough I've been getting cramps in my left calf, even to having to jump out of bed in real pain. I spend all day every day on my feet so sitting on my backside is also part of the holidays for me and that really brings it on. Mind you, with all that walking I have a bum to die for. I'm also getting pains in about the same region in my back, no doubt some of that comes from years ago when I was working in a factory and some from sitting in a truck all day long. It doesn't help if I sit on my backside too long slouching, so just being a little more careful of posture does the trick for me. My mother also had a lot of back problems so I wonder if it's genetic or the Lives we've led - or some of both.

I'm feeling some really strange energetic undercurrents of late and I don't know what's going on, I was planning on going to the megalithic site at Aikey Brae but all my senses were screaming at me not to. Weird I know but that's how I felt. I feel somewhere between 'old me' and a 'new me' if that makes sense. Energetically we make quantum leaps in energy states. there is no gradual process of going from this level to that level. What I feel right now is that I'm neither here nor there, the level has changed energetically but the effects have yet to manifest themselves. This is the third density after all. The weird thing is that there feels as though there's a lot more integration going on, and things that I'd forgotten seem to be part of my 'regular' consciousness. Like saying that the effects have yet to manifest themselves, those are words that were given to me years ago and I'd forgotten them, then slap-bang into my consciousness I remember who said them, when and what I was going through.

It's going to come across as condescending but it's not meant to be that way, it's just my perception. You saying that you accept that if the time has come to move on seems to be something of a milestone for you. There's a kind of 'sigh of relief' feeling to it somehow, and it is acceptance rather than surrender.

My core strength is on the floor right now. I went to the doctor over a year ago and the upshot was that I know I don't have prostate cancer - which is good but still no answer or fix. Mrs G and I have been discussing retirement finances and options and have decided to find some local advice before going any further. That in itself is a galactic change of paradigm for someone who has spent his Life flying by the seat of his pants. It's kind of the same with my health, I have just over ten years of a clean attendance record but I'd blow it all away to get ready for retirement.

Yes, I agree it wasn’t random, particularly given that I’d gone round the whole town not finding anything and thought I’ll just go back to the first shop I tried just in case I’d missed something and sure enough, I had missed something!

On Sunday last when I used it with the healing energy, I kept seeing the colour turquoise and could see a turquoise heart in it. Also I’ve noticed a few times that I see the crystal in my third eye and then I see it fill with colour, all very curious.

I does I feel need some serious cleansing; you never know what the journeys are of crystals, what people, energies it’s come into contact with, and then being close inside a glass cabinet for who knows how long. I’ve done the usual of cleaning in salt water etc but I’ve placed it in the sunlight for days with a couple of rose quartz crystals nearby.Just as I read this I had the urge to check out the grey quartz pendant that Mrs G bought me many years ago. I rushed up the stairs and picked it up, after having not worn it for absolute yonks. It's a semi-transparent light brown now, where originally it was opaque grey. It's changed colours a few times over the years but never during a spell when I haven't worn it. Putting it on feels like remembering an old friend and I had a 'buzz' too. I feels good around my neck.

Crystals can become like old friends, and I believe that the closer to an old friend it feels the closer you resonate with it. Like your feeling the need to cleanse it. When you talk of cleansing the crystal and placing it in the sun with rose quartz crystals, are you talking about your clear crystal or yourself?

So, curious: at what point did you suspect that I was or could be one of the group?

I’ve always felt that there is something within, but I don’t know what, I don’t have a feeling of what it is, maybe something to do with the healing energy. It’s one of the reasons that over the years I’ve used crystals, runes, dowsing, tuning forks, singing bowls, guided meditations, looked into all sorts of things such as shamanism, Buddhism, the list goes on; kind of hoping that something will fall into place but nothing has.

Yes, I’ve always had a problem with authority particularly if someone tells me I can’t do something, or you have to do it that way. I will find that my natural way of doing it will be different than all the rest or I’ll go all out to find my way of doing it sometimes just for the sheer joy of doing it my way and not yours! Many a ‘telling off’ at school.

A medium once told me I was persecuted in a past life by religious establishment; that’s why I can’t abide it, plus the fact that it is a human creation meant to control the masses, so it loses on both sides!

Things that I need to fix and that begins with my physical body.There's a kind of instinct that kicks in and you just know that you know. It's called Gnosis for the technically-minded. It's a feeling beyond feeling, a knowing beyond knowing. It hit very early on in a few of the very first interactions we've had, it felt like your energy was coming off the page at me.

For now you're very much concentrated on your healing but I suspect it's going to loosen up a little, it already has by the look of it. Whether that means you're going to start opening up to other aspects of yourself remains to be seen. However, a lot of what you've said is good conformation, so thank you. And in another massive synchronicity, the part about finding your own way? Me too, very much so. I also used to be very much against the establishment, how I survived nine years in the RAF I'll never know. Nowadays though I use the establishment for my own ends instead of fighting against it, I find out how it works then work with that to suit me.

Sometimes our incarnations are based on specific themes, and in different Lives we have different perspectives of a particular theme. So you're being persecuted by a religious establishment and rebelling fits a particular theme. Similarly with your need to fix your physical body.

Yes, I'm aware of that.I'm not sure if that was said for your benefit or mine, if you're aware then I guess it was for me. What was going through my mind at the time was that our parents knew each other in Spirit. I'm kind of travelling a Path that I'd thought was long gone, for whatever reason. Perhaps it's a reminder that 'gone' isn't gone.

The medium I saw in January told me, that I have a very strong mind and that even as a small child if I didn’t want to do something, I just wouldn’t do it! Fortunately, my parents handled that very well and would never force me to do something. He said that I like to receive information in a certain way. I wasn’t aware of that but that ties in with what you’re saying.

Viking?You haven't connected to those aspects of yourself as yet and that's OK, if you haven''t you don't need to for the time being. If you need to, you will. Again, thank you for the confirmation.

You've had a very strong male character in your Life that you've clashed with a few times - it's a clash of personalities, where irresistible force vs immovable object. You've thought he was a part of the 'establishment' and I'm using that word very loosely. Personality-ways he's been a bit Viking-like.

I found out the other day you can also get something called a turmeric latte! That sounds a little trendy but I'll have a look out for that. Thank you.

What makes you say that?Just the feeling I've had so many times before.

I don’t mind downloading Firefox as that’s a genuine browser. I already have Chrome but I see that Firefox has extensions for youtube vids. So I’ll keep that in mind, in case I need it. I've never liked chrome for some reason, it just feels clunky. Firefox has a different feel to it and it has a developer community that creates all kinds of toys to play with.

Oh, here we go! Same for me, my mother is a spiritualist and her mother, my Nan, also. The place where we lived fortunately had a small spiritualist church and I know my mum and Nan used to go there a lot. I have a memory of when I was about 11, these rather stern looking men would come round to our house and they would go into my Nan’s lounge and I would here these deep voices talking. Years later, I found out they were mediums who would come and see her regularly.

When I started to see mediums myself, my mum used to go with me and one of them said that when he opened the door to us, the three of us were standing there; me, mum and Nan (who would have been in spirit). That's really freaky. Mrs G's a bit of a Charmed freak and the Power of Three comes to mind.

More synchronicity! I'm not quite sure what's going on here, whatever it is there's more to this than meets the eye.

Patrycia-Rose

01-07-2018, 08:17 AM

Morning Mr G,

I bought a brand new Raleigh Palm Beach with my paperboy wages and that was a taste of freedom and adventure, I was never off the damned thing. One of my favourite runs took me into the country roads where the traffic was slower and Life itself seemed to have that kind if laid back pace, so I felt safer.

My first real bike was a Raleigh Spacemaster, red with silver mudguards. As soon as I got home from school, I was straight out on it. I would cycle to school, friends, round to see my grandparents, everywhere on that bike. And when I wasn’t on it, I was cleaning and shining it.

Strangely enough I've been getting cramps in my left calf, even to having to jump out of bed in real pain.

Again? Seriously?! :icon_eek:

Cramps like that are often a sign of low magnesium, rather than what I’ve got which isn’t cramps but just a tight calf muscle which was evident as soon as getting out of bed, it’s sorted now.

You might want to think about taking some magnesium. Many people are low in magnesium as it’s not rich in our soil anymore. But in addition to a supplement, you may want to try this, which is a transdermal magnesium and put it on the calf after a shower. It will smart to begin with, which is just a sign that you need the magnesium and after a few days that will ease off.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Better-You-Magnesium-Original-Spray/dp/B002VPDX4W/ref=sr_1_5_s_it?s=drugstore&ie=UTF8&qid=1529932918&sr=1-5&keywords=transdermal+magnesium

It may be that you could also experiment with the stretching exercises I’ve been doing. Rather than me explaining it badly, this is what I’ve been doing, and it’s worked a treat, my calf is now back to normal. Also, my back problems have eased up considerably and I am wondering if there is a link. Maybe it’ll work for you too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2gqQcHJ9JEw

If you live in a bungalow, as I do, I happened to have one of these in my loft, which is perfect for doing the exercises. I was doing them about six times a day and have eased down to about once a day now.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Costway-Aerobic-Adjustable-Training-Exercise/dp/B073R8PKH4/ref=sr_1_2_sspa?s=sports&ie=UTF8&qid=1529932949&sr=1-2-spons&keywords=aerobic+step&psc=1

See how you go and let me know how you get on.

It's going to come across as condescending but it's not meant to be that way, it's just my perception. You saying that you accept that if the time has come to move on seems to be something of a milestone for you. There's a kind of 'sigh of relief' feeling to it somehow, and it is acceptance rather than surrender.

I don’t take that as condescending and in fact, I’m quite chuffed that you picked up on this for your perception is on the money! There have been a lot of spiritual experiences of late for me; the card/dream/song about the mirror, the quartz crystal, the numbers happening throughout the day / night and a few other experiences. But what’s really moved me forward, is I’ve done so much work / healing on the trauma on an emotional level as you know, but was having difficulty releasing that last little bit which was forgiveness of myself, for not having listened to my intuition although at the same time, acknowledging and understanding why my intuition was drowned out by the people / circumstances. I don’t want to say too much about this but an interaction / occurrence re MK has just blasted that final bit out of my orbit. I am now easily able to forgive myself, no problem and not only do I have that forgiveness, but the gift of how it came about.

Also, for the last few weeks there has been a card I pick from the Earth Wisdom oracle that keeps reoccurring every day, every other day, it’s always the same card ….. ‘Clear the Aura’. I’ve dowsed and asked if this is something I’m actively supposed to do but it said not, that it was happening anyway, more than likely of things I’m working through and the turnabout in my thoughts.

So slowly but gradually I’ve been learning a new approach to life and the fact that I’m not running at the moment is obviously meant to be. Because what drove the running for six years was my enthusiasm / desire and those qualities are no longer there – because they’re not meant to be. I keep seeing in my 3rd eye the message that I am in the recovery stages of ascension so I’m coming out of that intense phase I went through I the winter. I feel like I’ve had a few of Matt’s energy upgrades. My energy levels are recovering care of the right B12 supplement (which in itself has taken a time to find). I’m beginning to see life working in a new way, so I’m very happy to stand back, and let this experience unfold to wherever it leads. My body obviously needs this time. Running has put me in a good position health wise, so I’m still reaping the benefits. And who knows maybe I’ll return to it, or when the time is right it’ll possibly something new.

My core strength is on the floor right now. I went to the doctor over a year ago and the upshot was that I know I don't have prostate cancer - which is good but still no answer or fix. Mrs G and I have been discussing retirement finances and options and have decided to find some local advice before going any further. That in itself is a galactic change of paradigm for someone who has spent his Life flying by the seat of his pants. It's kind of the same with my health, I have just over ten years of a clean attendance record but I'd blow it all away to get ready for retirement.

I’m a bit puzzled here, are you saying your core strength is poor and you’re not sure why? Do you mean that your muscles feel weak, or you’ve got digestive issues?

If you could retire, that would be awesome! I’d love to be able to go part time, to get a better balance but can’t see it happening. One thing I do worry about is what the future looks like: working to 67 is a worrying prospect unless my ‘higher self’ has something tucked up its sleeve. You never know, I do have a good amount of premium bonds.

Just as I read this I had the urge to check out the grey quartz pendant that Mrs G bought me many years ago. I rushed up the stairs and picked it up, after having not worn it for absolute yonks. It's a semi-transparent light brown now, where originally it was opaque grey. It's changed colours a few times over the years but never during a spell when I haven't worn it. Putting it on feels like remembering an old friend and I had a 'buzz' too. I feels good around my neck.

Awww, that’s lovely!

Crystals can become like old friends, and I believe that the closer to an old friend it feels the closer you resonate with it. Like your feeling the need to cleanse it. When you talk of cleansing the crystal and placing it in the sun with rose quartz crystals, are you talking about your clear crystal or yourself?

I’ve been placing the clear quartz in the sun by itself but last Sunday afternoon I had a couple hours of sunbathing in the garden and I took the crystal out and placed it on the ground beside me, so it had the benefit of being in the full sun, outside in the summer air and connecting to Mother Earth and also being within my energy field. I do feel like this crystal has massive potential, and also an ‘old friend’ in the making, which is why I want to give it some freedom and respect. I expect I’ll get messages or the urge to use it when the time’s right.

There's a kind of instinct that kicks in and you just know that you know. It's called Gnosis for the technically-minded. It's a feeling beyond feeling, a knowing beyond knowing. It hit very early on in a few of the very first interactions we've had, it felt like your energy was coming off the page at me.

Ah right, I wondered if it had started with Uriah Heep but it sounds like it was before that and before all these synchronicities and coincidences started.

For now you're very much concentrated on your healing but I suspect it's going to loosen up a little, it already has by the look of it. Whether that means you're going to start opening up to other aspects of yourself remains to be seen. However, a lot of what you've said is good conformation, so thank you. And in another massive synchronicity, the part about finding your own way? Me too, very much so. I also used to be very much against the establishment, how I survived nine years in the RAF I'll never know. Nowadays though I use the establishment for my own ends instead of fighting against it, I find out how it works then work with that to suit me.

Yes, it took me many years and many jobs learning how it all works, not to get drawn into office politics, not to get too close or too distant to anyone, appear to play by the rules. Got it down to a fine art now but every so often I do find something will cause me to bristle!
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You've had a very strong male character in your Life that you've clashed with a few times - it's a clash of personalities, where irresistible force vs immovable object. You've thought he was a part of the 'establishment' and I'm using that word very loosely. Personality-ways he's been a bit Viking-like.

There is a former manager that comes to mind with that description, an incredibly difficult time for me and the whole team for many years in my previous job. Unbelievably stressful at times. However, it worked itself out and they left under somewhat dubious circumstances. And I went from having the worst manager ever to the best manager ever until the whole team was closed down as part of a review

Just the feeling I've had so many times before.

Just a few weeks ago, I probably wouldn’t have believed that but purely from an energy resonance viewpoint and from what’s occurred over the last couple of weeks, I can quite believe it now.

I'm not quite sure what's going on here, whatever it is there's more to this than meets the eye.

I must admit, a little while back, after the UH coincidence, Chris de Burgh album, the similar jobs and half a dozen or more other coincidences, I wondered whether there may be one or two other synchronicities to be revealed – but it’s got to the point where, it feels to me anyway, it’s gone beyond synchronicity into something else, although I’ve no idea what the something else is. Is there anything beyond synchronicity? Maybe we’re creating it.

By the way, does this song hold any meaning for you?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2drKRQIUQk

Patrycia

Greenslade

02-07-2018, 10:32 PM

Morning Mr G,Good evening Patrycia. Just as I was embarking on a reply on a lovely quiet Sunday morning my friend came over so we could sort his head out. Jolly hockey sticks and such.

My first real bike was a Raleigh Spacemaster, red with silver mudguards. As soon as I got home from school, I was straight out on it. I would cycle to school, friends, round to see my grandparents, everywhere on that bike. And when I wasn’t on it, I was cleaning and shining it.That doesn't surprise me, it's in line with your running.

Again? Seriously?! :icon_eek:

Cramps like that are often a sign of low magnesium, rather than what I’ve got which isn’t cramps but just a tight calf muscle which was evident as soon as getting out of bed, it’s sorted now.

You might want to think about taking some magnesium. Many people are low in magnesium as it’s not rich in our soil anymore. But in addition to a supplement, you may want to try this, which is a transdermal magnesium and put it on the calf after a shower. It will smart to begin with, which is just a sign that you need the magnesium and after a few days that will ease off.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Better-You-Magnesium-Original-Spray/dp/B002VPDX4W/ref=sr_1_5_s_it?s=drugstore&ie=UTF8&qid=1529932918&sr=1-5&keywords=transdermal+magnesium

It may be that you could also experiment with the stretching exercises I’ve been doing. Rather than me explaining it badly, this is what I’ve been doing, and it’s worked a treat, my calf is now back to normal. Also, my back problems have eased up considerably and I am wondering if there is a link. Maybe it’ll work for you too.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2gqQcHJ9JEw

If you live in a bungalow, as I do, I happened to have one of these in my loft, which is perfect for doing the exercises. I was doing them about six times a day and have eased down to about once a day now.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Costway-Aerobic-Adjustable-Training-Exercise/dp/B073R8PKH4/ref=sr_1_2_sspa?s=sports&ie=UTF8&qid=1529932949&sr=1-2-spons&keywords=aerobic+step&psc=1

See how you go and let me know how you get on. Yep, seriously. It's only flared up in the last couple of weeks or so so I'm not sure what that was about. I had it really bad a few years ago but that was because of my job, lifestyle and diet. At the time I was doing security and standing about most of the day, and my diet consisted mainly of canteen food because of shift times, etc. A change of job and diet straightened that out. Once it in a while I'll feel a little stiff (stop laughing) but that usually goes after stretching it on the stairs. It seems to be when I've slept or sat in an awkward position that really brings it on.

I don’t take that as condescending and in fact, I’m quite chuffed that you picked up on this for your perception is on the money! There have been a lot of spiritual experiences of late for me; the card/dream/song about the mirror, the quartz crystal, the numbers happening throughout the day / night and a few other experiences. But what’s really moved me forward, is I’ve done so much work / healing on the trauma on an emotional level as you know, but was having difficulty releasing that last little bit which was forgiveness of myself, for not having listened to my intuition although at the same time, acknowledging and understanding why my intuition was drowned out by the people / circumstances. I don’t want to say too much about this but an interaction / occurrence re MK has just blasted that final bit out of my orbit. I am now easily able to forgive myself, no problem and not only do I have that forgiveness, but the gift of how it came about.

Also, for the last few weeks there has been a card I pick from the Earth Wisdom oracle that keeps reoccurring every day, every other day, it’s always the same card ….. ‘Clear the Aura’. I’ve dowsed and asked if this is something I’m actively supposed to do but it said not, that it was happening anyway, more than likely of things I’m working through and the turnabout in my thoughts.

So slowly but gradually I’ve been learning a new approach to life and the fact that I’m not running at the moment is obviously meant to be. Because what drove the running for six years was my enthusiasm / desire and those qualities are no longer there – because they’re not meant to be. I keep seeing in my 3rd eye the message that I am in the recovery stages of ascension so I’m coming out of that intense phase I went through I the winter. I feel like I’ve had a few of Matt’s energy upgrades. My energy levels are recovering care of the right B12 supplement (which in itself has taken a time to find). I’m beginning to see life working in a new way, so I’m very happy to stand back, and let this experience unfold to wherever it leads. My body obviously needs this time. Running has put me in a good position health wise, so I’m still reaping the benefits. And who knows maybe I’ll return to it, or when the time is right it’ll possibly something new. Sometimes as I write to you I'm getting 'inspiration from above' and the sigh was coming from 'up there'. It is relief but in a nice kind of way, as if someone is glad that you've finally reached this stage.

Forgiving yourself is probably one of the biggest things anyone can do, it's one of those double-whammies where you admit you're less than perfect and you're not blaming yourself for it. I've been through a lot of that in the last year or so and it's such a damned relief, as though all the baggage is finally dropping away. The Universe is also a reflection of you, which is why you're getting so much of a variety of communication from the Universe. It's as though that's kicked the door open and the Universe has an 'all areas access pass' to your field of perception.

The good thing about forgiving yourself and having the gift of how it came about means you'll expand your consciousness. I was having trouble with something I'd read in the forums and every answer seemed to be leading me up my own backside, then my Guide popped in with the answer. "It is encompassing." That's what fifth dimensional consciousness is, and it's what you're doing here.

One of the things that's been hanging around in your auric field is the being at odds with yourself, it's been in your core vibrations for quite a while now. Because you're finding it easier to forgive yourself the vibes created by you being at odds with yourself will/have been clear/clearing. In part yes it's the turnaround in your thoughts but forgiving yourself is very much a deeper level than thoughts, it's your core being. As for your running, well, you're not running away from yourself the same.

I’m a bit puzzled here, are you saying your core strength is poor and you’re not sure why? Do you mean that your muscles feel weak, or you’ve got digestive issues?

If you could retire, that would be awesome! I’d love to be able to go part time, to get a better balance but can’t see it happening. One thing I do worry about is what the future looks like: working to 67 is a worrying prospect unless my ‘higher self’ has something tucked up its sleeve. You never know, I do have a good amount of premium bonds.
A bit of both. I'm going to see the vet at the end of the week and hopefully get a good overhaul and find out what's happening. Over two years ago I suddenly lost a fair bit of weight and started feeling as though I just didn't have the strength any more. I'm getting acid reflux which I'm managing and while it isn't all that serious it can't be good, and some times it's worse than others.

The Universe gives us what we need when we need it, and that's been particularly true for me since we moved here in 2005. It's not your Higher Self that's got something tucked up her sleeve, you do. You'll be fine, as long as needs and wants aren't on different planets.

I'm working part time, when we came up here we decided we'd work to live and not live to work. To be honest I was sick of the rat race. We're not rich but we're not short neither and everything is in a nice, easy balance. I'm not stressing about having work my chops off to pay for an expensive holiday that's badly needed after working my chops off. I doubt I could sit on my backside for long enough anyway, I'd have to find something to keep me going. If a lottery win is on the cards then it's photography classes and a motorhome, and definitely a microlight pilot's licence.

Awww, that’s lovely!It keeps changing colours and it's done so a few times over the years. Often it changes then goes back to the opaque grey again but this time it's kept the changes for longer.

I’ve been placing the clear quartz in the sun by itself but last Sunday afternoon I had a couple hours of sunbathing in the garden and I took the crystal out and placed it on the ground beside me, so it had the benefit of being in the full sun, outside in the summer air and connecting to Mother Earth and also being within my energy field. I do feel like this crystal has massive potential, and also an ‘old friend’ in the making, which is why I want to give it some freedom and respect. I expect I’ll get messages or the urge to use it when the time’s right. I get the feeling you and the crystal are going to be BFFs, there's always a purpose or a reason for these things coming into our Lives. I also have a clear quartz with a silver dragon wrapped around it and it reminds me of my own dragon. I don't know why but I;m getting a lot of the energies that were coming through when I was writing my stories so I'm not sure what's happening there. For now it's just little things like wearing the crystals again and little 'messages' coming through.

Ah right, I wondered if it had started with Uriah Heep but it sounds like it was before that and before all these synchronicities and coincidences started.It started a long time before the Heep,l I can't remember what thread it was but our Paths have crossed at least once before this one. I knew then, it's just an intuition beyond intuition if that makes sense.

Yes, it took me many years and many jobs learning how it all works, not to get drawn into office politics, not to get too close or too distant to anyone, appear to play by the rules. Got it down to a fine art now but every so often I do find something will cause me to bristle! Someone once told me that Old Souls often have the worst problems here, it's because they're never fully integrated into this dimension. Interestingly she was a Native American Thunder Being, and her energies were very pure. It's like the saying, "On the earth but not of it" or words to that effect. I've always felt... not at odds but never quite comfortable with this dimension, as though I'm here but not really.

There is a former manager that comes to mind with that description, an incredibly difficult time for me and the whole team for many years in my previous job. Unbelievably stressful at times. However, it worked itself out and they left under somewhat dubious circumstances. And I went from having the worst manager ever to the best manager ever until the whole team was closed down as part of a reviewI'm also guessing that you learned or gained something from your encounter with him, other than him being the stuff nightmares are made of. It's said that during the most difficult of times we learn the greatest of lessons.

Just a few weeks ago, I probably wouldn’t have believed that but purely from an energy resonance viewpoint and from what’s occurred over the last couple of weeks, I can quite believe it now. Everything's changed, everything is different. Everything looks the same but everything has changed and it feels like a very different reality, one that I'm not used to.

I must admit, a little while back, after the UH coincidence, Chris de Burgh album, the similar jobs and half a dozen or more other coincidences, I wondered whether there may be one or two other synchronicities to be revealed – but it’s got to the point where, it feels to me anyway, it’s gone beyond synchronicity into something else, although I’ve no idea what the something else is. Is there anything beyond synchronicity? Maybe we’re creating it.

By the way, does this song hold any meaning for you?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2drKRQIUQk

PatryciaWe're a long way from done yet, I get the feeling that this is preparation. What's next is anyone's guess.

I never was much of a 10CC fan at all but my cousin was, she was sweet on Lol Creme. That came out around the time I was potato-picking and staying with my aunt and uncle in the country, they'd got me a job for a few weekends with his boss. That was back-breaking work. It was also the first time I drove a tractor, at least on my own anyway. Around that time I was coming out the other side of a lot of not-so-nice stuff and family relationships changed for the better, but only just. The song was rattling around in my noggin a few weeks back but I couldn't figure out why, it was really random and didn't make any sense. Then again, at the time I was going through a lot of digging deep into my past and what I went through. I didn't make the connection then but I'm wondering if there was something in the song being in my head 'telling' me that I'd come out the back of the worst of digging through my past.

For some reason I needed to give you the right Jon and Vangelis link, especially after you saying you'd liked Vangelis' Bladerunner soundtrack. I didn't realise he'd also worked with Tangerine Dream and Kitaro. Kewl. Anyway, although it's a tad dramatic in places it hits the right spots for me -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aqEL-BPa9TM

Patrycia-Rose

08-07-2018, 07:25 AM

Hello Mr G,

Really pleased to hear from you; I was concerned that something had happened but I’m sure you were able to help out your friend, aided by some whisky perhaps!!

That doesn't surprise me, it's in line with your running.

You mean the physical activity or the throwing myself into something 110% as can be my way?

Yep, seriously. It's only flared up in the last couple of weeks or so so I'm not sure what that was about. I had it really bad a few years ago but that was because of my job, lifestyle and diet. At the time I was doing security and standing about most of the day, and my diet consisted mainly of canteen food because of shift times, etc. A change of job and diet straightened that out. Once it in a while I'll feel a little stiff (stop laughing) but that usually goes after stretching it on the stairs. It seems to be when I've slept or sat in an awkward position that really brings it on.

Ah, you’ve discovered the ‘stretching on the stair’s trick – works a treat. Mine’s fine now.

But seriously, both of us with the same problem in the same place!!! It reminds me of something that happened back in 2006. I was involved in a car accident after some idiot went into the back of my car when I was stopped at a pedestrian crossing. This was in the day when some cars didn’t have head restraints and I ended up with a severe case of whiplash. I rang a friend and he took me down to casualty to get me checked out. I came home about 8 in the evening and thought about phoning my mum to tell her what had happened but thought it was getting late and I didn’t want her to spend the night worrying, so I left it to the next morning.

When I rang in the morning, she told me that the previous night, she’d had pains in her neck. And that was before she knew about the accident. And then quite a few years later, the experience was reversed when she developed a case of plantar fasciitis and I developed pain in my right foot.

Sometimes as I write to you I'm getting 'inspiration from above' and the sigh was coming from 'up there'. It is relief but in a nice kind of way, as if someone is glad that you've finally reached this stage.

I would guess the someone “up there” would be my Nan or my dad, or both. Dad was on the earth plane when it happened and he was my super support, ringing me twice a day. And my Nan, when she comes through in medium readings, has given me support at the level of my spiritual understanding at the time. It’s only taken 13 years but I have finally got there! And as Matt said in one of his recent videos I’ve learned that I can take a hit, a big one, and I survived. And when he said that, it really struck a chord with me, and I actually felt a smidgeon of pride!

Forgiving yourself is probably one of the biggest things anyone can do, it's one of those double-whammies where you admit you're less than perfect and you're not blaming yourself for it. I've been through a lot of that in the last year or so and it's such a damned relief, as though all the baggage is finally dropping away. The Universe is also a reflection of you, which is why you're getting so much of a variety of communication from the Universe. It's as though that's kicked the door open and the Universe has an 'all areas access pass' to your field of perception.

Yes, baggage dropping away is exactly what it feels like.

Do you think that’s what the numbers are? I’ve had two instances where I’ve woken one night at 11.11, then the next night it’s 2.22 and the next 3.33. And that’s happened twice. I asked my guides what the numbers were all about and the reply was ”divine rightness / correctness.“

You’re right, I am experiencing many new spiritual experiences. The other day, I was doing a meditation/relaxation to a chakra CD with singing bowsl and binaural beats. It’s not usual for me to do this, I just felt compelled to do it. When the track reached the throat chakra (one of the chakras severely upset by the trauma) I started spontaneously coughing. And then the next day I discovered I can whistle again! I used to whistle a lot but just lost the ability and now suddenly, I’m whistling away to anything. And the other thing that happened in the meditation was my arms started to lift off the ground about 25 inches, it was though they were being supported by some energy. I’ve never experienced that before. So there’s all kinds of stuff going on.

The good thing about forgiving yourself and having the gift of how it came about means you'll expand your consciousness. I was having trouble with something I'd read in the forums and every answer seemed to be leading me up my own backside, then my Guide popped in with the answer. "It is encompassing." That's what fifth dimensional consciousness is, and it's what you're doing here.

I definitely feel that I’m changing; inside and out. I think the vit B12 is starting to have a real impact and I think being low in this has affected me more than I realised. I’m still getting the occasional low blood sugar event and my guides said there is a link with low B12, so I looked that up and sure enough there is. But I’m no longer going into work with no energy. Plus of course with the lovely hot weather which I’m relishing, I’m getting a good dose of Vit D. The cards are telling me exactly where I am every day, they’re so on the money! I’m constantly also picking the fertility card from the Psychic Tarot and Divine Connection is another frequent one.

Matt’s teachings have gone to a deeper level with me somehow, and I can’t quite explain what I mean by that. The other day I was watching a video and taking about 10 pages of notes but afterwards I couldn’t recollect any words, sentences, nothing. Yet so many of the ones I’d seen months ago, I could still recall well. This really, really bothered and troubled me for several days until my guides finally popped in and said you’re not remembering it because you don’t need that one, you’ve done it; you are living it.

Also, now with what’s happening for him personally that’s triggered other stuff in me that’s come up to be dealt with. I think the quartz crystal is here to help me with some healing to do with the heart and the ananda khanda chakra and I tried to use it the other day but I could feel some resistance in me – so I had a Southern Comfort instead!! :biggrin:

So I know I’ve got some work to do with how to move forward with this but Matt’s helping me with that too plus he’s got the second of two new videos out which I just know there will be some magic words that will show me the way forward. In fact, although I’m really enjoying life at the moment, Saturday morning is where I want to be; in front of the computer, listening, watching, recording, showing me what’s next. It feels like I’m studying at degree level. You know my quality of solid, unswerving, 120% enthusiasm – that’s it, right there on a Saturday morning! It’s one of the characteristics I really like about me, there’s no ‘trying’ to do something, ‘must’ do something, ‘should’ do, etc. When motivation is off the scale like this, it takes no ‘trying’ it has a life of its own. That’s what my running was like!

One of the things that's been hanging around in your auric field is the being at odds with yourself, it's been in your core vibrations for quite a while now. Because you're finding it easier to forgive yourself the vibes created by you being at odds with yourself will/have been clear/clearing. In part yes it's the turnaround in your thoughts but forgiving yourself is very much a deeper level than thoughts, it's your core being. As for your running, well, you're not running away from yourself the same.

Yes, I feel that’s what’s happening; I’m clearing stuff physically, mentally, emotionally, I think that’s why I keep selecting the ‘clear the aura’. Also from this new Energy Oracle which I’m growing to really like I’ve selected the ‘Door to Personal Health and Happiness’ a number of times.
Do you have any oracle cards, I’m sensing they’re not quite your thing but may be wrong?

A bit of both. I'm going to see the vet at the end of the week and hopefully get a good overhaul and find out what's happening. Over two years ago I suddenly lost a fair bit of weight and started feeling as though I just didn't have the strength any more. I'm getting acid reflux which I'm managing and while it isn't all that serious it can't be good, and some times it's worse than others.

Did you know unexplained weight loss and lack of strength/energy can be a symptom of low B12?

Acid reflux is not good as it can often accompany other things; been helping someone at work with this who had a hernia as well as Helicobacter pylori. It can be a complicated situation as reflux can be the only symptom but can also be part of a wider issue. B12 can help with acid reflux.

https://www.viridian-nutrition.com/blog/nutrition-news-and-views/do-i-have-vitamin-b12-deficiency

It can be made worse by certain foods such as spicy, fatty and some fruits and pretty much everything is worse if you get stressed. Have you kept a note of what you’re eating and drinking to see if you can identify the trigger? You could try eliminating gluten, dairy for a few weeks (separately).

I can only tell you that going down the allopathic medicine root is not something I would do. Its usual aim is to treat the symptoms, not the cause and can cause more or new problems. The natural way is always better. You may want to take a look at this:

https://www.peoplespharmacy.com/2017/01/02/how-to-help-acid-reflux-without-a-ppi/

I haven’t been to the vets for years! My approach would be to have the tests, interpret them and then find my own way. Like I was on the verge of going to ask for various tests to track down the low energy levels but it looks like I’ve solved that one myself.

If you want to start the journey of helping yourself, it takes time to research and commitment and finding something that works for you. A good place to start is here:

https://articles.mercola.com/home-remedies-heartburn-acid-reflux-ulcer.aspx

Reading through the comments at the end is just as educational!

Give the B12 a try because on a separate note, if we’re experiencing similar physical issues, if I’m responding so well to the B12, chances are you could. Just make sure you get a good quality supplement with no artificial sweeteners. This is the one I use

https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B013AV1TEG?aaxitk=by7v79GloGql9ysQpkGuyQ&pd_rd_i=B013AV1TEG&pf_rd_m=A3P5ROKL5A1OLE&pf_rd_p=5525970907818403459&pf_rd_s=desktop-sx-top-slot&pf_rd_t=301&pf_rd_i=vegan+b12+drops&hsa_cr_id=5519740580502

I'm also guessing that you learned or gained something from your encounter with him, other than him being the stuff nightmares are made of. It's said that during the most difficult of times we learn the greatest of lessons.

I thought I don’t ever want to work for a jerk of a manager again! And actually the three managers I’ve worked for at my current place of six years, have been the nicest managers to work for. One of the main reason for me staying.

Everything's changed, everything is different. Everything looks the same but everything has changed and it feels like a very different reality, one that I'm not used to.

Everything feels really different at the moment, inside, outside physically, the weather, the lot!

We're a long way from done yet, I get the feeling that this is preparation. What's next is anyone's guess.

I guess we’ll have to let the universe show us and, as my guides are so fond of saying, let it unfold!

The song was rattling around in my noggin a few weeks back but I couldn't figure out why, it was really random and didn't make any sense.

Well that must have been me then sorry about that!!

That song is really significant for me by association. I was 13 when it was released and I was getting bullied quite badly by a local neighbour boy. I dreaded the walk home from school in case he should appear and he used to spy on me playing in the garden. So one day I told the boy next door about it, as we were good friends. Then one day shortly after, I recall it so clearly, I was in the upstairs room listening to the radio, 10CC Life is a Minestrone - looking down into next door’s driveway and the boy next door had cornered and was standing over the bully boy and hit him a few times. I just knew at the time, this was about me. And so it was, as he never bothered me again. But whenever I hear that song, I can see it all so clearly in my mind.

For some reason I needed to give you the right Jon and Vangelis link, especially after you saying you'd liked Vangelis' Bladerunner soundtrack.

I don’t know that track but I think it’s the same singer as in this one, which is also significant for me, beginning of 80’s :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6_p5CV5plc

Patrycia

Greenslade

08-07-2018, 01:27 PM

Hello Mr G,

Really pleased to hear from you; I was concerned that something had happened but I’m sure you were able to help out your friend, aided by some whisky perhaps!!Hi there Patrycia

I'm like the wicked with from the Wizard of Oz... "Aaaaarrrrg I'm melting."

This was a different friend. This one is younger and has mental health issues, as far as we can discern from being in care when he was a young child. Very tangled story. He has a chapter in his Life that he's blocked out completely so that's gong to be fun.

You mean the physical activity or the throwing myself into something 110% as can be my way?[/quote/]Whatever you decide to do it's never done half-heartedly.

Ah, you’ve discovered the ‘stretching on the stair’s trick – works a treat. Mine’s fine now.

But seriously, both of us with the same problem in the same place!!! It reminds me of something that happened back in 2006. I was involved in a car accident after some idiot went into the back of my car when I was stopped at a pedestrian crossing. This was in the day when some cars didn’t have head restraints and I ended up with a severe case of whiplash. I rang a friend and he took me down to casualty to get me checked out. I came home about 8 in the evening and thought about phoning my mum to tell her what had happened but thought it was getting late and I didn’t want her to spend the night worrying, so I left it to the next morning.

When I rang in the morning, she told me that the previous night, she’d had pains in her neck. And that was before she knew about the accident. And then quite a few years later, the experience was reversed when she developed a case of plantar fasciitis and I developed pain in my right foot.Glad you're on the mend, one less distraction you don't need.

Luckily I haven't had too many serious things happen to me, physically anyway. I was run over and nearly killed when I was a child, but ended up with bruises instead. I ended up best friends with the woman who ran me down's brother-in-law and worked with her hubby, he taught me how to use a capstan lathe. Many years later and the woman and I still talk. Other than that though, nothing serious.

My mother has always known when I'm going through a hard time emotionally or if things aren't all they could be. Very often my father hangs around her to let her know something isn't right, or she'll feel as though something is badly wrong. Just with me it seems, not any of my other three brothers.

I'm also a very strongly emotional guy (yeah, the irony of that) and there were times when I'd been feeling very emotional and Mrs G would come running into the room wondering what was going on. Not so much now because she's learned to understand the reasons but she still feels it. Her hubby was abusive to her and her vertebrae in her neck were damaged beyond repair, and they won't operate in case they end up paralysing her. Not long after she found that out I started having problems with my neck, nothing major but if I was sitting awkwardly or not moving my head enough it would come out with an audible crack.

Empathy is one thing and sometimes it can be all in the mind, but when there's something more physical it's more than coincidence.

I would guess the someone “up there” would be my Nan or my dad, or both. Dad was on the earth plane when it happened and he was my super support, ringing me twice a day. And my Nan, when she comes through in medium readings, has given me support at the level of my spiritual understanding at the time. It’s only taken 13 years but I have finally got there! And as Matt said in one of his recent videos I’ve learned that I can take a hit, a big one, and I survived. And when he said that, it really struck a chord with me, and I actually felt a smidgeon of pride! I'm getting that you have a strong support network 'up there', focussed on your Nan it seems because there's a very strong female presence there yet she's staying in the background. I also have the feeling there should be a three but that's for you to figure out. They're waiting for you to remember????

Yes, baggage dropping away is exactly what it feels like.

Do you think that’s what the numbers are? I’ve had two instances where I’ve woken one night at 11.11, then the next night it’s 2.22 and the next 3.33. And that’s happened twice. I asked my guides what the numbers were all about and the reply was ”divine rightness / correctness.“

You’re right, I am experiencing many new spiritual experiences. The other day, I was doing a meditation/relaxation to a chakra CD with singing bowsl and binaural beats. It’s not usual for me to do this, I just felt compelled to do it. When the track reached the throat chakra (one of the chakras severely upset by the trauma) I started spontaneously coughing. And then the next day I discovered I can whistle again! I used to whistle a lot but just lost the ability and now suddenly, I’m whistling away to anything. And the other thing that happened in the meditation was my arms started to lift off the ground about 25 inches, it was though they were being supported by some energy. I’ve never experienced that before. So there’s all kinds of stuff going on.It's very liberating isn't it, when the **** finally starts to fall way. The broken wings learn to heal.

Enough with the synchronicities already. I used to whistle and sing when I was younger, at one stage I'd just learned to whistle through my teeth and I used to do it so much it was driving my mother nuts. At the time Whistling Jacksmith was on the radio. I stopped for a long time then started to do it again when - strangely enough - I discovered the Celestine Prophecy. I'd gone down to get a copy and there was a pile of books, so I grabbed one. When I'd sat down to read it it was the Experiential Guide. Read the book, do the exercises and learn how it works in your Life. Again the whistling, singing but different song. It was the one about whistling and singing 'til the greenwoods rang and he won the heart of a lady. That was a huge turning point in my Life.

Recently though I've been having a half-hearted whistle to myself, more of a curiosity than anything else.

If you're receiving numbers and the like it's because you're able to, if you weren't able to then you wouldn't receive them. What it means is that you're tuned in at least, and what you do with what comes through is your choice. What you do need to be aware of however is what you do with what you're given, that's what's important. If you're dismissive then it'll stop in time - not just the numbers but everything. You'll tune yourself out of those vibrations, essentially. You're not keen on the established meanings of the numbers, but they can be a guide if nothing else. All of those things are communications of a sort and they'll have meaning for you personally. What Spirit will also do is tap into things that are very much connected with you - like your church bells. Yes they're Christian but if you'd gone past that you would have found that they connected with something deep inside.

Similarly with your numbers. 11:11 is the Ascension number and obviously 2:22 and 3:33 are sequential - and it's the sequence that's important. You sitting comfortably?

the numbers 11:11 mean Ascension, you, what's been happening to you since you started this thread... etc and however you see that. The number 2 is the symbol of peace and unity between two entities - how's your Higher Self doing these days? Is how you think about 'her' any different now to what what it would have been prior to this thread? Good old 3.33, that's the doozy. Three is trinity and while it's Christian they stole it from the Pagans. Three threes is the trinity of trinities. Now then, three is the strongest of all shapes in geometry and the building blocks of all the other shapes. The internal angles are multiples of three. While triangles probably aren't of much use to you they are a good visualisation for understanding. Pagans and quite a few others believe in threes - thrice, threefold, power of three..... and that's what the significance is here. The power of three that's the strongest shape/relationship. There are a lot of threes going on in your life right now.

What I'm getting is 'as it should be', which is another way of saying divine rightness/correctness. What hasn't happened yet is that you haven't quite joined the dots, but you know they're there. There's your Higher Self, your Nan and your dad all 'working together up there'/geometry/related - the three/trinity of them. You are an aspect of your Higher Self as much as your Past Lives are also aspects. Some would call that the Gestalt Reality of the multi-Dimensional Self and the Sufis (amongst others) would call it the Monad. Keeping it as simple as possible you are a trinity - mind, body, Spirit. So, two triangles going head-to-head if you like - dad, Nan, Higher Self and you as in mind, body and Spirit.

I'd like to tell you how I feel but there are no words for it, really. Spaced out would do it. For quite a while I've been feeling the need to make changes but as soon as I start thinking about them, my head falls apart. Literally, I can't even see straight so I've stopped. What has changed though is my perceptions of the rest of the Universe 'out there' and it feels as though it's vibrating at a very different frequency. It's not disconcerting in any way, just curious. People are also reacting to me differently, which is weird too. My home is my sanctuary and I guess what I needed was something that didn't change too drastically, an.... unchanging reference point that I could come back to.

I definitely feel that I’m changing; inside and out. I think the vit B12 is starting to have a real impact and I think being low in this has affected me more than I realised. I’m still getting the occasional low blood sugar event and my guides said there is a link with low B12, so I looked that up and sure enough there is. But I’m no longer going into work with no energy. Plus of course with the lovely hot weather which I’m relishing, I’m getting a good dose of Vit D. The cards are telling me exactly where I am every day, they’re so on the money! I’m constantly also picking the fertility card from the Psychic Tarot and Divine Connection is another frequent one.

Matt’s teachings have gone to a deeper level with me somehow, and I can’t quite explain what I mean by that. The other day I was watching a video and taking about 10 pages of notes but afterwards I couldn’t recollect any words, sentences, nothing. Yet so many of the ones I’d seen months ago, I could still recall well. This really, really bothered and troubled me for several days until my guides finally popped in and said you’re not remembering it because you don’t need that one, you’ve done it; you are living it.

Also, now with what’s happening for him personally that’s triggered other stuff in me that’s come up to be dealt with. I think the quartz crystal is here to help me with some healing to do with the heart and the ananda khanda chakra and I tried to use it the other day but I could feel some resistance in me – so I had a Southern Comfort instead!! :biggrin:

So I know I’ve got some work to do with how to move forward with this but Matt’s helping me with that too plus he’s got the second of two new videos out which I just know there will be some magic words that will show me the way forward. In fact, although I’m really enjoying life at the moment, Saturday morning is where I want to be; in front of the computer, listening, watching, recording, showing me what’s next. It feels like I’m studying at degree level. You know my quality of solid, unswerving, 120% enthusiasm – that’s it, right there on a Saturday morning! It’s one of the characteristics I really like about me, there’s no ‘trying’ to do something, ‘must’ do something, ‘should’ do, etc. When motivation is off the scale like this, it takes no ‘trying’ it has a life of its own. That’s what my running was like!I've asked Mrs G to get me some B12 supplement to try that, I've been getting all the symptoms so it's worth at try. My diet changed and things started happening from there, and many of the things I'd stopped eating are on the list. Strangely enough I've had a passion for eggs of any kind so maybe my body is trying to tell me something. Maybe it'll help with my digestion, and when I'm getting cold sores in the middle of a heatwave it's time to take notice.

The mind is lazy and likes autopilot, in the way you don't need to concentrate when you're forking food into your mouth or driving your car. After a while the brain does things automatically and we don't give them a second thought - like pushing Matt's teachings into your noggin so hard it has little choice but to become automatic. The mind doesn't need to recall it and it's probably stored in a part of your brain that's locked away because access isn't needed. But then, 'back then' you needed the teachings because you thought you were 'lacking', that you needed them. Now that you're actually living with them not only are you embodying it all you don't have the same need to learn. You don't feel the need any more - not for that particular material anyway. So again, there's another 'indicator' of how far you've come. And give yourself permission to acknowledge at least, if you're not comfortable with the idea of feeling pride.

Part of the Ascension process -probably the whole point - is releasing and dealing with things that we've been holding onto for too long. Vibrations aren't raised by packing your head full of knowledge, vibrations are raised by encompassing, embodying and becoming those things. The trinity of things that you're doing. What also tends to happen is that it opens the floodgates and it can become very silly very quickly as one thing leads to something else and it all comes trooping out.

"You have always been here."
Kosh,
Ambassador for Vorlon,
Babylon 5

Yeah I know, I draw my inspirations from the strangest of places but even those that write sci-fi scripts can be Spiritual too. Your quality of 120% enthusiasm wasn't so much a quality, it was always a deeper part of your core being and that goes a dozen levels deeper than quality. It wasn't - and isn't - just what you had it's who you are/were. Please excuse the tenses mix-up but sometimes they're just the same thing for me.

Yes, I feel that’s what’s happening; I’m clearing stuff physically, mentally, emotionally, I think that’s why I keep selecting the ‘clear the aura’. Also from this new Energy Oracle which I’m growing to really like I’ve selected the ‘Door to Personal Health and Happiness’ a number of times.
Do you have any oracle cards, I’m sensing they’re not quite your thing but may be wrong?It's actually very natural when you think about it, this Ascension process. As your vibrations change what you resonate with is bound to change as well. If that means letting go of what was holding you back or coming to terms with who or what you are physically, emotionally..... It's all very natural, like puberty for the Soul.

I tend to trust my intuition in the moment and so far it's kept me right. I don't really get messages from the cards, even if I'm using them for a reading they're more of a prop than anything else and everything comes from inside or 'up there'. Out of a mere whim I asked Mrs G to get me some B12, it just felt right. I also looked up some of the symptoms and I tick most of the boxes, but at the same time I'm wary of self-diagnosis. Still, it's not as though B12 is coma-inducing if it's not the right stuff to take so it can't hurt to at least try. This feels like the right time that I need to do things differently somehow, the energies feel right for it. I have two Tarot decks that I haven't used in a while so I might dig them out and see what happens. I've been wearing my dragon crystal again as well, the one I sometimes used to dowse with. It's all indicative of internal/energetic changes.

Did you know unexplained weight loss and lack of strength/energy can be a symptom of low B12?

Acid reflux is not good as it can often accompany other things; been helping someone at work with this who had a hernia as well as Helicobacter pylori. It can be a complicated situation as reflux can be the only symptom but can also be part of a wider issue. B12 can help with acid reflux.

https://www.viridian-nutrition.com/blog/nutrition-news-and-views/do-i-have-vitamin-b12-deficiency

It can be made worse by certain foods such as spicy, fatty and some fruits and pretty much everything is worse if you get stressed. Have you kept a note of what you’re eating and drinking to see if you can identify the trigger? You could try eliminating gluten, dairy for a few weeks (separately).

I can only tell you that going down the allopathic medicine root is not something I would do. Its usual aim is to treat the symptoms, not the cause and can cause more or new problems. The natural way is always better. You may want to take a look at this:

https://www.peoplespharmacy.com/2017/01/02/how-to-help-acid-reflux-without-a-ppi/

I haven’t been to the vets for years! My approach would be to have the tests, interpret them and then find my own way. Like I was on the verge of going to ask for various tests to track down the low energy levels but it looks like I’ve solved that one myself.

If you want to start the journey of helping yourself, it takes time to research and commitment and finding something that works for you. A good place to start is here:

https://articles.mercola.com/home-remedies-heartburn-acid-reflux-ulcer.aspx

Reading through the comments at the end is just as educational!

Give the B12 a try because on a separate note, if we’re experiencing similar physical issues, if I’m responding so well to the B12, chances are you could. Just make sure you get a good quality supplement with no artificial sweeteners. This is the one I use

https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B013AV1TEG?aaxitk=by7v79GloGql9ysQpkGuyQ&pd_rd_i=B013AV1TEG&pf_rd_m=A3P5ROKL5A1OLE&pf_rd_p=5525970907818403459&pf_rd_s=desktop-sx-top-slot&pf_rd_t=301&pf_rd_i=vegan+b12+drops&hsa_cr_id=5519740580502
Thank you, I'll have a look at that later but as I've said, it's a done deal. It wouldn't do any harm to have a look anyway. It all looks related because I've cut out some foods that would have led to a B12 deficiency a while ago and all the symptoms seem to be related to that. There are some things that make the acid reflux worse, one of them being the vegetable soup at work, that's a pain because it's a ritual of mine to sneak a cup just before I leave work, it's a rebel ritual. The tomato is pretty ******. I also need to look at when I eat as well, usually I don't have breakfast but that's beginning to change too and I'm thinking of buying cereal or something, I couldn't stomach anything heavier. Other than that my diet is fairly healthy because although I do eat meat I also have plenty of fruit and veg too along the way. I don't drink much coffee any more, about two cups per day. There's nothing that I can pinpoint exactly, it feels as though it's more of a general build-up through the day and it happens no matter what I eat.

There's a part of me that's simply had enough and it goes down to the Soul level. It's not depression or anything like that, it's a complete lack of enthusiasm for anything at all. It's feeling as though it's the last long mile that I need to get through. On a more moving-on note Mrs G and I did some research into supplements and she'll be getting me those as of tomorrow, so I'll be stuffing my chops with pills.

I thought I don’t ever want to work for a jerk of a manager again! And actually the three managers I’ve worked for at my current place of six years, have been the nicest managers to work for. One of the main reason for me staying. Sometimes we gain as much from the bad guys as we do the good guys.

Everything feels really different at the moment, inside, outside physically, the weather, the lot!It feels like a different Universe, as though the core frequencies have changed somehow.

I guess we’ll have to let the universe show us and, as my guides are so fond of saying, let it unfold!That's the fun part.

Well that must have been me then sorry about that!!

That song is really significant for me by association. I was 13 when it was released and I was getting bullied quite badly by a local neighbour boy. I dreaded the walk home from school in case he should appear and he used to spy on me playing in the garden. So one day I told the boy next door about it, as we were good friends. Then one day shortly after, I recall it so clearly, I was in the upstairs room listening to the radio, 10CC Life is a Minestrone - looking down into next door’s driveway and the boy next door had cornered and was standing over the bully boy and hit him a few times. I just knew at the time, this was about me. And so it was, as he never bothered me again. But whenever I hear that song, I can see it all so clearly in my mind. Beyond synchronicity????

I don’t know that track but I think it’s the same singer as in this one, which is also significant for me, beginning of 80’s :

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A6_p5CV5plc

PatryciaThat was the track I was going to link you to initially but somehow the other one seemed more pertinent. Anyway, the same singer. Jon Anderson used to be in a band called Yes for many years, they were one of the pioneers of progressive rock and a collection of the greatest musicians of their time. He also met Vangelis around the same time and Vangelis worked with Yes for a few weeks, they wanted to replace Rick Wakeman. It didn't happen because the music is very different. I still have a few Yes cassettes, including their very first one - probably collectors pieces by now. I remember seeing Anderson on TOTP and trying to work out what the hell he was doing with that stupid ukulele he was strumming away at, it didn't seem to work with Vangelis' keyboards. Still, I have everything the two of them ever did. Donna Summer covered their State of Independence with Gorgio Moroder and had a huge disco hit. I always wondered how it might have sounded with Vangelis' music and Donna Summer's vocals.

Patrycia-Rose

15-07-2018, 07:55 AM

Hi there Mr G

I'm like the wicked with from the Wizard of Oz... "Aaaaarrrrg I'm melting."

I’m loving the sun and heat, I seem to have a great tolerance for the heat and I love it!

This was a different friend. This one is younger and has mental health issues, as far as we can discern from being in care when he was a young child. Very tangled story. He has a chapter in his Life that he's blocked out completely so that's gong to be fun.

Ooh, that’s a very difficult path. Reminds me of some of the cases in my hitherto days in the child protection arena.

I'm getting that you have a strong support network 'up there', focussed on your Nan

My Nan was a very strong female, very spiritual but a hard life but we were very close. Her funeral, when I was 15, traumatised me and I swore I’d never go to another funeral. And I didn’t until 2012 when I went to my father’s funeral. Apparently, a medium once told me, that Nan had taken lots of notes of things about spiritual experiences in her day, but they were destroyed. The ‘third’ person would be my mother, but she has full blown Alzheimer’s - it will be good when she finally passes as we had so many conversations about evidence she would give me. A medium said to me that the three of us will exist on the same plane when all of us are in spirit.

Enough with the synchronicities already. I used to whistle and sing when I was younger

It is unusual for a woman to whistle, at least, that’s what my colleagues used to tell me when they went in search of who’s whistling! Last several days since its come back, there are times when it goes again but when I’m able to whistle, it makes me smile just because I’ve not been able to do it for so long, which actually must mean maybe my throat chakra is beginning to heal, or things are beginning to change on that front.

What you do need to be aware of however is what you do with what you're given, that's what's important. If you're dismissive then it'll stop in time - not just the numbers but everything”

In no way would I be dismissive of them. I think the message is not in the individual numbers, unless I get the same number over and over. It’s the number of times it happens during a day. For instance, whilst on a day off, I decided to write down the times when it happened as a matter of curiosity. Now this was when I was watching Matt and he’d say something that struck a chord, or I would stop to make a cup of tea, or I had a profound thought myself, a knock on the door etc. So it started that morning with 4.44 09.09 10.00 10.10 11.11 12.11 12.22 13.30 13.43 14.22 14.41 15.05 16.26 17.07. 18.18 And that’s a fairly typical day.

I’m going through a milder version of ascension symptoms I had with the initial awakening. I’m getting waves of emotion that feel incredibly intense for a few seconds, and I start to cry and then literally in a millisecond, it’s gone and I feel fine. It feels very odd. And those deep heat moments are happening at night again (nothing to do with the weather). I’ll wake up quite suddenly and about 10 seconds later this deep heat fills my whole body and I’ll then look at the clock at notice it’s 11.11, or 2.22 etc. I read on the net that the kundalini energy is free to roam at night because the conscious, awake mind ‘ off line’. Last night, I had one major one which felt really intense and went on for a long time. I took the opportunity to tune into my body and feel where it was and it is the solar plexus. Interestingly, the last week I’ve begun dowsing my chakras in the morning and found that the physical, first three chakras are going anti clockwise and the spiritual chakras are closed. So I’m guessing the kundalini is busy clearing stuff out of the solar.

I don’t mind the church bells but the gold symbols have eased off, I do get them occasionally but not the frequency I had to begin with.
Lately I’ve been getting a silver, pewter cross.

How's your Higher Self doing these days?

My higher self? I’ve no idea, the term for me sounds like an airy fairy, pie in the sky concept. I’m not concerned about my higher self. I can only tell you how MY-self is and at the moment, I’m smokin’! Now the voice inside my head that is the ‘wise one’ that offers solace, reasoning and wisdom to the ‘me’ that gets a little cranky or irritated at times, or offer’s one of Matt’s helping strategies at times of need, then if that is the higher self, I can accept that, I would just like to find another term for it. I found a definition on the net of higher self, and it said that it is the highest level of wisdom you can attain in the physical body. So that, and my experience, seems to fit.

I'd like to tell you how I feel but there are no words for it, really. Spaced out would do it. For quite a while I've been feeling the need to make changes but as soon as I start thinking about them, my head falls apart

What kind of changes are you wanting to make? Maybe there’s something about the kind of change you’re thinking about that’s closing you down, maybe it’s that you’re not ready yet.

Often when I have a problem, I will do my usual of wanting to have it sorted immediately. But then the wisdom kicks in and I just acknowledge that I don’t know the answer yet and I just let it be, and I find a though will trickle to the surface and that’s when I get going with action

After a while the brain does things automatically and we don't give them a second thought - like pushing Matt's teachings into your noggin so hard it has little choice but to become automatic. The mind doesn't need to recall it and it's probably stored in a part of your brain that's locked away because access isn't needed. But then, 'back then' you needed the teachings because you thought you were 'lacking', that you needed them. Now that you're actually living with them not only are you embodying it all you don't have the same need to learn. You don't feel the need any more - not for that particular material anyway.

It was only one of Matt’s videos that I couldn’t recall (and my guides saying because I didn’t need that one as I was living it). I absolutely still have an almost driven need to hoover up every video and the radio broadcasts he’s started doing recently. So much so, that I have gone back to the beginning and am re-watching some of the earlier videos because I only took a few sentences or paragraphs. It’s interesting to flick through the lever arch file of neatly typed and fully indexed notes and see the more in tune with him I’ve become, the notes start to expand from one sentence to about 10 pages. And also, some of the things he said in those first videos would have gone over my head but now they make sense.

I can’t imagine that I will never Not be interested in what he has to say, because he is evolving as a person as well and receiving downloads from the universe which are addressing the current situation.

Part of the Ascension process -probably the whole point - is releasing and dealing with things that we've been holding onto for too long. Vibrations aren't raised by packing your head full of knowledge, vibrations are raised by encompassing, embodying and becoming those things. The trinity of things that you're doing. What also tends to happen is that it opens the floodgates and it can become very silly very quickly as one thing leads to something else and it all comes trooping out.

Actually, I couldn’t have put this any better. I’ve released all the stuff to do with the trauma, I don’t think about the physical symptoms much. The last little bit was the self forgiveness which I’ve been able to do now.
It started with absorbing Matt’s teachings but, as you say, embodying and becoming those things. That’s where I’m at.

Yeah I know, I draw my inspirations from the strangest of places but even those that write sci-fi scripts can be Spiritual too.

Oh totally, I thought Star Trek (the original of course) was very spiritual. I was a massive ST fan back in the day, I could watch just a few seconds of an episode and tell you what the episode was called. I’ve got up in the loft somewhere the original Star Trek Technical Manual. Have all the films, novels and photonovels (although I have sold those now). Captain Kirk is / was one of my childhood heroes.

Thank you, I'll have a look at that later but as I've said, it's a done deal. It wouldn't do any harm to have a look anyway. It all looks related because I've cut out some foods that would have led to a B12 deficiency a while ago and all the symptoms seem to be related to that. There are some things that make the acid reflux worse, one of them being the vegetable soup at work, that's a pain because it's a ritual of mine to sneak a cup just before I leave work, it's a rebel ritual. The tomato is pretty ******. I also need to look at when I eat as well, usually I don't have breakfast but that's beginning to change too and I'm thinking of buying cereal or something, I couldn't stomach anything heavier. Other than that my diet is fairly healthy because although I do eat meat I also have plenty of fruit and veg too along the way. I don't drink much coffee any more, about two cups per day. There's nothing that I can pinpoint exactly, it feels as though it's more of a general build-up through the day and it happens no matter what I eat.

OK, much work to do here.

The fact that you’re reacting to certain foods tells me that you have a sensitive digestive system (which you already know). But as well as reacting to foods, you could well be reacting to the preservatives, antioxidants, flavourings etc that are used in many foods. The vegetable and tomato soup is probably a case in hand. I'm guessing that this is from a tin or a packet? Take a look at what you are eating in terms of the preservatives, antioxidants, flavourings etc. It can be quite a shock to see how much of this stuff is in everyday foods, even so called healthy food. It will be down to you and how far you want to take this but you may want to discard anything that isn’t natural. It can be a massive change so you want to go slowly but if you open your kitchen cupboards and start looking in detail at the additives in foods, particularly anything with artificial sweeteners, mono sodium glutamate, as it will be a real education. Be aware that the first item listed in the ingredients will be the greatest amount.

As an example, I helped a man at work who was having problems in the "bathroom department - waterworks." He had been to the vets several times and had had number of tests which had not revealed the problem. He was due to have a very ‘invasive’ test and was dreading it. He talked to me about all this and within 10 minutes I knew instinctively what the problem was. He was drinking sugar free soft drinks and the culprit was aspartame. He cut these out and the problem improved significantly in days, although did not disappear completely. So a further conversation revealed he was eating fat-free yoghurt which also contained aspartame. He cut these out as well and problem resolved itself completely and he didn’t have to go through the test he was dreading. So that is an indication of how damaging some of these additives can be.

As you know, it is not good to skip breakfast. I would not choose a cereal as again this is going to be laden with added sugar, preservatives and contain little or no nutrition. You could try an organic muesli or granola with a couple of dessert spoons of organic yoghurt. There are so many different types of museli out there, you’re bound to find one that suits you. Pertwood do an organic wheat-free muesli if you want to go down the gluten-free path. You could alternate with something light such a scrambled egg/s on a slice of organic toast. This would give you breakfast and also satisfy your craving for eggs (which may well be your body’s need for protein). On a side note, I discovered that if you’re going through ascension, your body can crave protein. I know at a certain phase I was craving cheese.

There are a couple more supplements I would like you to consider. The first is magnesium. Almost everyone is deficient in magnesium and acid reflux can make that deficiency worse (more so if you’re taking PPIs) and yet it is needed by every cell in the body. Magnesium relaxes the muscles and may well help with your cramps as well as the acid reflux. There are several different types of magnesium but EAP is the best tolerated. This is the one I use.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/BioCare-EAP-Complex-90-Capsules/dp/B0013GAE5Q/ref=sr_1_2_s_it?s=drugstore&ie=UTF8&qid=1531131108&sr=1-2&keywords=biocare+magnesium+eap

The other thing would be good to consider digestive enzymes. As you get older your ability to produce digestive enzymes decreases. Taking good quality enzymes give your body a rest from making them as well as making the process of digesting a lot more efficient. Also it will help your body absorb the nutrients from food and enzymes are needed for many functions in the body aside from digestion. Take one a day, at the beginning of your main meal.

Because I have a sensitive digestion myself, these are the enzymes I use as they are a broad spectrum enzyme containing sucrase as I have a slight difficulty digesting sugar but that is much better now due to these:

https://www.amazon.co.uk/BioCare-Polyzyme-Forte-Enzyme-Complex/dp/B0013G4AEC/ref=sr_1_4_s_it?s=drugstore&ie=UTF8&qid=1531131217&sr=1-4&keywords=biocare+digestive+enzyme

Also, I think you may be slightly run down which would explain the cold sores. I have a few ideas on how to boost the immune system but first wait until you’ve been on the B12 for a week or so, then introduce the magnesium and then when you’ve been on that a week, introduce the enzymes, or you could take the enzymes first and then the magnesium, whichever you feel drawn to. When you’ve been on that regime for a few months, see how you feel and we can take it from there.
I’m suggesting all this assuming that acid reflux is your main problem as I don’t know if you have any illnesses, are on any medication or other difficulties that I’m not aware of? Please feel free to PM if you need to.
Let me know what you decide to do? It feels a little odd for me helping someone in this way (i.e over the internet). I’m accustomed to helping people at work that I come into contact with every day and I know them and am able to have in depth conversations about their diet, lifestyle, etc and ongoing progress reports. I feel at a disadvantage here but am still willing to help.

I would encourage you to also do your own research into the supplements I’ve suggested, so you can see the benefits for yourself.

There's a part of me that's simply had enough and it goes down to the Soul level. It's not depression or anything like that, it's a complete lack of enthusiasm for anything at all. It's feeling as though it's the last long mile that I need to get through. On a more moving-on note Mrs G and I did some research into supplements and she'll be getting me those as of tomorrow, so I'll be stuffing my chops with pills.

That was me a year ago, no Enthusiasm for anything and quite frankly was ready to "go home". and it had been that way more less for years and in fact in my journal that I keep, at the beginning of each new year I used to write in it "same **** different year!" but what has really turned me around is Matt, that's simple.

I used to feel depressed at the thought of having another 30 years ahead of me. But now I am glad I have another 30 years ahead of me as it will give me plenty of time to become the epitome of Matt's teachings, if that is at all possible, however I do feel as though I have got off to a good start. My guides are telling me this too.

Maybe you could have a look at this, I have a feeling it might make an impact.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26oP5VXEyHg

Beyond synchronicity????

Again! Do tell, I’d be interested in your experience.

That was the track I was going to link you to initially but somehow the other one seemed more pertinent. Anyway, the same singer. Jon Anderson used to be in a band called Yes for many years, they were one of the pioneers of progressive rock and a collection of the greatest musicians of their time. He also met Vangelis around the same time and Vangelis worked with Yes for a few weeks, they wanted to replace Rick Wakeman. It didn't happen because the music is very different. I still have a few Yes cassettes, including their very first one - probably collectors pieces by now. I remember seeing Anderson on TOTP and trying to work out what the hell he was doing with that stupid ukulele he was strumming away at, it didn't seem to work with Vangelis' keyboards. Still, I have everything the two of them ever did. Donna Summer covered their State of Independence with Gorgio Moroder and had a huge disco hit. I always wondered how it might have sounded with Vangelis' music and Donna Summer's vocals

Georgio Moroder! You gotta be kiddin’, that takes me right back to 1977! I was 15 years old when From Here to Eternity was released and I drove everyone in the household around the bend with my constant playing of it. I still think it is an amazing piece of music and even more so for the mid 70s. In fact a few years ago I tried to find the original recording but all the versions I found had been changed and as I'm sure you would agree there are some original things that should not be changed.

Patrycia

Greenslade

15-07-2018, 12:32 PM

Hi there Mr G

I’m loving the sun and heat, I seem to have a great tolerance for the heat and I love it! Morning Patrycia,

I always feels as though my nappy has been filled when it's like this, but on the upside it bleaches my hair blond and it's free. Seeing as how I still have a full head of hair and only a small wisp of grey I'm making the best of it.

Ooh, that’s a very difficult path. Reminds me of some of the cases in my hitherto days in the child protection arena.Yes it is and it's affected him quite deeply. He also has a bit of a temper and no filters, something will get his goat and he'll flair up and shout his mouth of without thinking. And sometimes it can be threatening stuff, also it's just him spouting off.

I was in the against child abuse arena for a few years but that all imploded, probably a good thing really.

My Nan was a very strong female, very spiritual but a hard life but we were very close. Her funeral, when I was 15, traumatised me and I swore I’d never go to another funeral. And I didn’t until 2012 when I went to my father’s funeral. Apparently, a medium once told me, that Nan had taken lots of notes of things about spiritual experiences in her day, but they were destroyed. The ‘third’ person would be my mother, but she has full blown Alzheimer’s - it will be good when she finally passes as we had so many conversations about evidence she would give me. A medium said to me that the three of us will exist on the same plane when all of us are in spirit.Right, all of that makes sense. Both my parents were my parents in that first Life too, which is the three. I've spoken to a few others about the same thing and two close relatives/parents seems to be a pattern, there's often a trio along the way somewhere. What I was getting at the time was you in the front, your Nan on the right behind you and your mum on the left. The right usually signifies either male or strength.

Thinking back, I used to have a folder where I'd keep loose leafs of handwritten paper, it began in the mid-nineties but I felt almost compelled to write it all down. I went through a bit of a bad period in my Life which brought about quite a turnaround for the better and later I was told that at that time there were 'changes in Spirit'. No details but it was curious. I spoke to two other people who said the same thing, their notes had gone. I;m not going to make anything out of other than a curiosity though.

It is unusual for a woman to whistle, at least, that’s what my colleagues used to tell me when they went in search of who’s whistling! Last several days since its come back, there are times when it goes again but when I’m able to whistle, it makes me smile just because I’ve not been able to do it for so long, which actually must mean maybe my throat chakra is beginning to heal, or things are beginning to change on that front. Whistling is a dying art, I can't remember the last time I heard someone whistle, other than a wolf-whistle. And I don't think I've heard a female whistle either for even longer. Whether there's a physiology thing going on or not I don't know but it's certainly unusual.

I think more of your early days is going to come to you, but not always about the trauma - if they haven't already. I know we've talked about some of it but this is going to be very different.

In no way would I be dismissive of them. I think the message is not in the individual numbers, unless I get the same number over and over. It’s the number of times it happens during a day. For instance, whilst on a day off, I decided to write down the times when it happened as a matter of curiosity. Now this was when I was watching Matt and he’d say something that struck a chord, or I would stop to make a cup of tea, or I had a profound thought myself, a knock on the door etc. So it started that morning with 4.44 09.09 10.00 10.10 11.11 12.11 12.22 13.30 13.43 14.22 14.41 15.05 16.26 17.07. 18.18 And that’s a fairly typical day.

I’m going through a milder version of ascension symptoms I had with the initial awakening. I’m getting waves of emotion that feel incredibly intense for a few seconds, and I start to cry and then literally in a millisecond, it’s gone and I feel fine. It feels very odd. And those deep heat moments are happening at night again (nothing to do with the weather). I’ll wake up quite suddenly and about 10 seconds later this deep heat fills my whole body and I’ll then look at the clock at notice it’s 11.11, or 2.22 etc. I read on the net that the kundalini energy is free to roam at night because the conscious, awake mind ‘ off line’. Last night, I had one major one which felt really intense and went on for a long time. I took the opportunity to tune into my body and feel where it was and it is the solar plexus. Interestingly, the last week I’ve begun dowsing my chakras in the morning and found that the physical, first three chakras are going anti clockwise and the spiritual chakras are closed. So I’m guessing the kundalini is busy clearing stuff out of the solar.

I don’t mind the church bells but the gold symbols have eased off, I do get them occasionally but not the frequency I had to begin with.
Lately I’ve been getting a silver, pewter cross.I think you're right about it not being so much about the numbers themselves, by the look of it it's about the frequency. There's a steady progression up to 13:43 then it's all over the place, as though there's a pattern emerging then it's lost. Curious it happens at the 13 mark. By the way, 13 isn't an unlucky number but it signifies something much more - twelve plus one.

I'm getting strong emotions too for no reason, seemingly. We were watching Merlin (her idea lol), I like to slob for a while after work and that's as good a way as any. It was an episode about a dragon egg and as though it had been switched on I was almost in tears. That's been happening a lot lately.

My dreams are complete bonkers and I' not even going to try to analyse them right now. What my subconscious is processing will remain a mystery I think, but Mrs G's got to the stage where she's thinking of going into the spare room because she's worried I might hit her in my sleep. I;m told that I 'do things' in my sleep but when I sleep I go into a very deep sleep, probably because of years living on an active frontline RAF station. I often wake up hot and /or sweaty and when I first get out of bed I'm very cold for a few moments, and it feels as though my head is struggling to wake up because my consciousness isn't quite 'there'. Sometimes it feels as though I'm flicking between awake and asleep consciousness. There's something going on but because I'm such a heavy sleeper it's not affecting my sleep.

The gold symbols and the church bells are a reminder more than anything, a signal if you like. They'll also fade to your focus a little too because you're not paying them much attention. That's OK too.

My higher self? I’ve no idea, the term for me sounds like an airy fairy, pie in the sky concept. I’m not concerned about my higher self. I can only tell you how MY-self is and at the moment, I’m smokin’! Now the voice inside my head that is the ‘wise one’ that offers solace, reasoning and wisdom to the ‘me’ that gets a little cranky or irritated at times, or offer’s one of Matt’s helping strategies at times of need, then if that is the higher self, I can accept that, I would just like to find another term for it. I found a definition on the net of higher self, and it said that it is the highest level of wisdom you can attain in the physical body. So that, and my experience, seems to fit. One of the problems I have with the term 'Higher Self' is not that it sounds so airy-fairy but how other people have talked about it in the forums. I'm the same way with a few other things. It's one of those terms that people have picked up on and it's blown out of all proportion and common sense.

If you want to use another term try Overself/Oneself or Monad. or even aspect of your Multi-Dimensional Gestalt Reality if you want something more pretentious or tongue-in-cheek. Give her a name if you like, she is you after all and I don't think she'd mind. In Gestalt Reality the idea is that there are aspects that make up the whole, but the whole isn't just more than the sum of its parts the whole or the Gestalt is a new being in itself, essentially. So as you are a Gestalt Being in your own right - you have work Patrycia, at home Partycia, forums Partycia..... similarly with your alter being. She includes you, your Past and Future Lives and all the individual aspects of those.

Your Higher Self is your highest form of wisdom in the human body, it kinda maintains the links to Spirit if you like. There's quite a gap between human and Spirit consciousness so your Higher Self 'translates' and Guides, but your relationship with her is entirely between the two of you, it's very personal. Gestalt Reality isn't in conflict with that, what it does though is ties everything together in a more sensible way.

What kind of changes are you wanting to make? Maybe there’s something about the kind of change you’re thinking about that’s closing you down, maybe it’s that you’re not ready yet.

Often when I have a problem, I will do my usual of wanting to have it sorted immediately. But then the wisdom kicks in and I just acknowledge that I don’t know the answer yet and I just let it be, and I find a though will trickle to the surface and that’s when I get going with actionJust right now there are energy currents flowing and I don't know if it's me, something out there or both. I feel as though I want to make changes, I'll go to make a move then every fibre of my being will scream to stop. Then I have to make the coffee and let the feeling of frustration subside. It's happening with everything. I want to go buy the parts to build a new computer but I get the feeling that if I do right now it'll explode in my face - and I don't have the urge. While everything 'in here' is feeling the need to change everything 'out there' is telling me not to.

My default with problems now is waiting to see, if there's nothing obvious to be done at that time. The initial reaction is to hang on, then I'll get the feeling of action being needed as and when. If there is no feeling of action being needed initially then I won't act.

I think there's a lot going on under the surface and what I'm feeling is a reaction to the energy flows that I know are happening. Yesterday I went for a drive through my old stomping grounds, but they've all changed so much that I don't have the same affinity with them any more. It's like that part of me is being shut down.

It was only one of Matt’s videos that I couldn’t recall (and my guides saying because I didn’t need that one as I was living it). I absolutely still have an almost driven need to hoover up every video and the radio broadcasts he’s started doing recently. So much so, that I have gone back to the beginning and am re-watching some of the earlier videos because I only took a few sentences or paragraphs. It’s interesting to flick through the lever arch file of neatly typed and fully indexed notes and see the more in tune with him I’ve become, the notes start to expand from one sentence to about 10 pages. And also, some of the things he said in those first videos would have gone over my head but now they make sense.

I can’t imagine that I will never Not be interested in what he has to say, because he is evolving as a person as well and receiving downloads from the universe which are addressing the current situation. The key phrase is that particular material and not all of Matt's in general. It's like when you're learning to drive and all the things you have to do at once are overwhelming, soon much of it becomes automatic. It's the same with Matt's material, the more you embody the more of it will become 'automatic'. I bet you don't stick your tongue out when you're writing any more. The other thing is that sometimes it's nice to have some kind of confirmation that we're changing and progressing. How you resonate with the materials also tells you something, you're grasping more and more of it so.....

It's interesting. I found a thread in the forums about someone who is worried that their being successful might conflict with their Spirituality. I guess they never thought that the person writing the book about how Spiritual people shouldn't be materialistic is getting paid handsomely for their Spiritual wisdom. What struck me the most is that Matt has no pretensions about being a guru, he's quite happy being an ordinary Joe.

Actually, I couldn’t have put this any better. I’ve released all the stuff to do with the trauma, I don’t think about the physical symptoms much. The last little bit was the self forgiveness which I’ve been able to do now.
It started with absorbing Matt’s teachings but, as you say, embodying and becoming those things. That’s where I’m at.I guess what I'm pointing at is that there's a process here hat begins in your early childhood that leads you to where you are today. There's also a 'don't look back in anger' feeling going on too. The progress isn't just marked by what material of Matt's you're absorbing or not, it's also about this little piece.

Oh totally, I thought Star Trek (the original of course) was very spiritual. I was a massive ST fan back in the day, I could watch just a few seconds of an episode and tell you what the episode was called. I’ve got up in the loft somewhere the original Star Trek Technical Manual. Have all the films, novels and photonovels (although I have sold those now). Captain Kirk is / was one of my childhood heroes.I was always interested in sci-fi and had read quite a few books that fired my imagination, but ST pretty much kicked the door down and came stomping in wearing heavy boots. When ST first came out I was in a very transitory period in my Life and one of my bugbears was not always being able to catch it when it aired. One week I'd be arguing between ST and Dallas or the next I'd be sitting in a truck on the motorway. I also spent six months on a tropical island with no TV so that didn't help any. I think Kirk was a bit of a role model for me in some ways. One of his sayings was "Give me a tall ship and a star to steer her by." My mother always said that I sailed three sheets to the wind, I think I lost that along the way somewhere.

OK, much work to do here. This is going to be something of a longer-term project and today I'm fast running out of time. I'm fast realising that I need to look far more closely at what I'm stuffing into my chops. It's also a work in progress and I'm seeing benefits coming through slowly, although they're not happening overnight granted. Mrs G also bought some magnesium supplements after what you were saying about it, so consider my ear well and truly bent and progress is on-going. Thank you. She puts a small pot of pills with my morning coffee. I also used to have a packet of Skittles sometimes for a treat but that flares up the reflux, so more more Skittles. I guess that applies to anything similar. I don't have any kind of fizzy drinks or non-sugar versions, if I do buy bottles it's always plain water. At work I usually drink the diluted stuff and only have two cups of coffee all day. Once in a while there's Scottish Tablet for sale in the canteen and I refuse to give that up. It's almost pure sugar with some condensed milk and vanilla extract, but I don't have it often and it's my treat. So there.

I was often run down as a kid, I always had bronchitis every winter without fail along with cold sores and whatever else. Interesting that it's all flaring up again. Anyway. My pills include B12 and magnesium and it's been a week so early days as yet, but the reflux is easing a little and I haven't had cramps. Skittles and lack of brekky seems to be the major factors so that's being fixed, but as per your advice I need to change the cereal.

I'm not on medications and I don't have any major illnesses that I know of, the reflux is the pain but I'm guessing that it's affecting the processing of food so that might explain the lethargy a little. It can't be helping.

I'm listening to your advice, so thank you for that. I think it's going to take time to try this or that and wait for results, I've already made changes thanks to your advice but obviously more is needed. Please don't feel at a disadvantage, here it's a case of try it, suck it and see, adjust, suck it and see. It's not going to happen overnight.

That was me a year ago, no Enthusiasm for anything and quite frankly was ready to "go home". and it had been that way more less for years and in fact in my journal that I keep, at the beginning of each new year I used to write in it "same **** different year!" but what has really turned me around is Matt, that's simple.

I used to feel depressed at the thought of having another 30 years ahead of me. But now I am glad I have another 30 years ahead of me as it will give me plenty of time to become the epitome of Matt's teachings, if that is at all possible, however I do feel as though I have got off to a good start. My guides are telling me this too.

Maybe you could have a look at this, I have a feeling it might make an impact.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=26oP5VXEyHg

It's going to sound judgemental but it's just to illustrate. The feeling I get in the forums as that people are just intellectually so far up their own backsides. I'm completely disenchanted with what's being said and the people saying it that the whole thing is fast becoming a pastiche. To me it's not even Spirituality, it's like a bunch of students are having a few beers and feeling clever with themselves. It's like looking at a bunch of schoolkids. It's not what I resonate with any more. Very technical and eloquent, delivered for the sake of being technical and eloquent but of little use after that.

There was a young seagull standing outside the store, it had probably lost its mother and couldn't fly. I stood there for a while just watching it as it walked back and forth, and while it ran away from everyone else it was quite happy to walk over my toes and not feel threatened. I was also talking to the trolley-boy, apparently they've closed all the small holes they had to stop the birds getting in, but what that's done is stopped the swallows from nesting, There used to be about six or seven breeding pairs but now there's one solitary swallow. I built up a 'relationship' with a swallow over time. We 'met' one stormy autumn day. Those creatures taught me more about consciousness than anything anyone has said in the forums for a long time, and I guess those that bang on about 'absolute reality' have never spent any time in a psyche ward.

I'm not dreading the future, there are times when I look forwards to it even for a number of reasons. I get the feeling that this is what I'm being 'geared up' for lately and diet is a part of that too. I also think this is what's been manifesting through my need to change. Everything feels focussed on retirement, when I feel as though I'll 'come into my own'. It just feels right, vibrates right. What I am right now is disenchanted, that there are so many things that are 'not me'.

Again! Do tell, I’d be interested in your experience. I don't know quite what's happening but I've had some dream 'snippets' that have never made sense, they just seem to come and go and it's as though I'm being shown a movie clip. I remember dreaming exactly what you've described and it struck me when you said it. What's confusing is that when I was dreaming it I felt as though I was a kid again, and the scene took place outside where I used to live. Some of the details had changed though, what was prominent was a high wooden fence and a gravel drive. I've been getting a few of those with you, as though I'm being shown snippets of your Life before you tell me about them.

Georgio Moroder! You gotta be kiddin’, that takes me right back to 1977! I was 15 years old when From Here to Eternity was released and I drove everyone in the household around the bend with my constant playing of it. I still think it is an amazing piece of music and even more so for the mid 70s. In fact a few years ago I tried to find the original recording but all the versions I found had been changed and as I'm sure you would agree there are some original things that should not be changed.

PatryciaI wasn't a fan of Georgio Moroder himself but I thought what he was doing was amazing, it was very ground-breaking stuff at the time and not many were doing anything even close. Tangerine Dream were integrating it and Popcorn did more of a novelty track. It was him and Donna Summer that was the attraction because I fancied Donna Summer like crazy. She was The Babe! The music was the kind of stuff that set my whole being in motion too. Yep, that was when my disco phase kicked in. I think that pretty much paved the way for people like Jean Michel Jarre and Kraftwerk. Interestingly I have Donna Summer's McArthur Park banging away in my head, which nicely explains how I feel about things right now.

"I don't think that I can take it
Because it took so long to bake it

And I'll never have that recipe again"

Patrycia-Rose

22-07-2018, 07:45 AM

Hi there Mr G,

I always feels as though my nappy has been filled when it's like this, but on the upside it bleaches my hair blond and it's free. Seeing as how I still have a full head of hair and only a small wisp of grey I'm making the best of it

The sun also makes my blonde hair lighter and I tan very easily without burning (and without plastering my skin with toxic chemicals). The hot weather looks set to continue.

I was in the against child abuse arena for a few years but that all imploded, probably a good thing really.

Me too. I worked in child protection for 22 years and I think that was long enough. For some years after, I would keep up to date with new practice and changes in the law but I let all that go many years now and am content working in my new field. The job is settling down nicely too.

Whistling is a dying art, I can't remember the last time I heard someone whistle, other than a wolf-whistle. And I don't think I've heard a female whistle either for even longer. Whether there's a physiology thing going on or not I don't know but it's certainly unusual.

Pin your ears back, Mr G, I’ve found something awesome!! I was having lunch and casually surfing youtube and just happened to discover this American/Italian singer/songwriter - Laura Pergolizzi, known as LP. I was totally blown away by her voice, best female vocalist I’ve ever heard! Ever! I listened to several tracks on Youtube and immediately ordered the CD, loved it and have just got a second CD which is just as awesome, and guess what, she whistles!! Her two CDs have been the soundtrack to my summer. My rediscovering my whistling coincided with this finding this. Have a listen and can well recommend the CDs. The more I listen to them, they better they get.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O7mjEoGgMqg

I think you're right about it not being so much about the numbers themselves, by the look of it it's about the frequency. There's a steady progression up to 13:43 then it's all over the place, as though there's a pattern emerging then it's lost. Curious it happens at the 13 mark. By the way, 13 isn't an unlucky number but it signifies something much more - twelve plus one.

Ah see, I’m not good with numbers, I can do the basics and create excel formulas etc but I don’t like maths (school days and all!) So I hadn’t noticed any pattern to them as you did. Things have got even more intense with the numbers lately, I’ve started getting 7s and I was at work the other day and I received an orange circle with the words ‘life path’ in it and the number 999 – more about that later.

I'm getting strong emotions too for no reason, seemingly. We were watching Merlin (her idea lol), I like to slob for a while after work and that's as good a way as any. It was an episode about a dragon egg and as though it had been switched on I was almost in tears. That's been happening a lot lately.

Oh blimey, Merlin takes me back to a very distressing time in my life. It was / is my third all time favourite series (Smallville being no 1, and X-files no 2). Merlin would have made it to number 2 had it not been that for god awful ending! I have the DVD box sets and I adored that programme, the magic, the characterisations, Gaius, the dragon and his riddles; I was well and truly hooked! So when the last episode aired, which was a matter of weeks after my father’s passing, I was so shocked and distressed by how it ended, I was completely grief struck for months! I’d handled my dad’s funeral and passing really well but I found myself thrust into grief by the death of Arthur and the fact that the promised ‘golden age’ never happened. I can’t watch the series now knowing how it all ended! I remember a year later on the anniversary of that episode, I spent that Christmas writing my own ending which was also the beginning of a series six. That was purely for my own benefit so I could have some sort of closure.

My dreams are complete bonkers and I' not even going to try to analyse them right now. What my subconscious is processing will remain a mystery I think, but Mrs G's got to the stage where she's thinking of going into the spare room because she's worried I might hit her in my sleep. I;m told that I 'do things' in my sleep but when I sleep I go into a very deep sleep, probably because of years living on an active frontline RAF station. I often wake up hot and /or sweaty and when I first get out of bed I'm very cold for a few moments, and it feels as though my head is struggling to wake up because my consciousness isn't quite 'there'. Sometimes it feels as though I'm flicking between awake and asleep consciousness. There's something going on but because I'm such a heavy sleeper it's not affecting my sleep.

That sounds as though you’re working through some major issues, or something’s disturbing your sleep.

If you want to use another term try Overself/Oneself or Monad. or even aspect of your Multi-Dimensional Gestalt Reality if you want something more pretentious or tongue-in-cheek. Give her a name if you like, she is you after all and I don't think she'd mind. In Gestalt Reality the idea is that there are aspects that make up the whole, but the whole isn't just more than the sum of its parts the whole or the Gestalt is a new being in itself, essentially. So as you are a Gestalt Being in your own right - you have work Patrycia, at home Partycia, forums Partycia..... similarly with your alter being. She includes you, your Past and Future Lives and all the individual aspects of those.

Whenever I see the word ‘Gestalt’ it reminds me of that former manager I mentioned and sort of closes me down.

I am sure I do have a higher self, or whatever you want to call it but I feel no need to connect to it, if it isn’t already connected. My intuition recently feels like it’s had an upgrade and I’m doing OK with or without it, without feeling the need to go searching for it.

Just right now there are energy currents flowing and I don't know if it's me, something out there or both. I feel as though I want to make changes, I'll go to make a move then every fibre of my being will scream to stop. Then I have to make the coffee and let the feeling of frustration subside. It's happening with everything. I want to go buy the parts to build a new computer but I get the feeling that if I do right now it'll explode in my face - and I don't have the urge. While everything 'in here' is feeling the need to change everything 'out there' is telling me not to.

I have this thing that I’ve come to recognise and respect. If I want to wash the car, do some painting, do something practical and if I don’t feel in the mood, that’s it, I won’t do it. I’ll wait because I know that in the weeks to come, there will be a time when I am in the mood to do it and then I’ll do it well and enjoy it rather than doing it and not enjoying the task.
So with you, have some thoughts about how you may do it when the time is right, what you might investigate in the meantime, and then when the time is right, you’ll be in the right frame of mind and have the energy for it. It works for me a treat!

How you resonate with the materials also tells you something, you're grasping more and more of it so.....

99% of the time, he’s speaking to my soul. There is the occasional broadcast where I’m thinking, no I don’t do that to myself (might have done 10 years ago, but not now). He’s just released a new one called Unknow Yourself and I’m currently working my way through that, although it’ll take several weekends with the translations and notes and everything else that’s going on.

What struck me the most is that Matt has no pretensions about being a guru, he's quite happy being an ordinary Joe.

Yes, I feel that so strongly. Along with the videos and all the radio broadcasts and interviews he’s done and I’ve watched I’ve picked up a lot of information about his early childhood and early adulthood. He said that he has been a Buddhist monk in a past life, you can really see that in him and recently he also said he was a psychologist in a former life. I just find that all so fascinating. He also does his own social media which is pretty unusual (which is how I came about my gift).

I guess what I'm pointing at is that there's a process here hat begins in your early childhood that leads you to where you are today. There's also a 'don't look back in anger' feeling going on too. The progress isn't just marked by what material of Matt's you're absorbing or not, it's also about this little piece.

The spiritual experiences have been ramping up of late to almost daily occurrences. Two of the most profound ……

I’d a few days off from work and one of them I was feeling a little off, so in the afternoon decided to have a rest. I was sitting in my lounge chair and dozed off. I woke up with a start and immediately, my cat of 18 years was on my mind (passed now) and this wave of intense emotion hit me and I went to cry and then the emotion was gone, just like that. It left me unsettled and I felt in need of something soothing. So I decided to listen to one of Matt’s videos and chose one that I’d got plenty of notes on, so I wouldn’t feel the need to take notes. I started to listen to the Light I Am and just sat calmly, eyes closed, and as the video progressed I suddenly found myself (via my third eye) standing outside a building on a beach, when I was five years old and newly out of hospital from that operation. Inside the building was an object that was to traumatise me at five years old and cause a lifetime of fear whenever I came across it – and that was frequently. It all links to that past life I mentioned when I was a five year old boy who died in pretty horrible circumstances. Being traumatised in this life wasn’t supposed to happen (a medium told me) but being the same age and the atmosphere, smell, darkness of that object in the building, sparked the memory from the past life. And here we are, major phobia in this life. So here I was, as I am today, an adult standing outside this building. I felt compelled to go inside and very slowly, even now as an adult, it’s terrifying, I walked in and slowly went up to this object. At that precise second, Matt started doing one of his ‘repeat after me’ and I started to say the words to this object, ending with I am the Light, the Light I am.” And then we finished the words and I walked out quite calmly. Even as I type this now, it seems incredible. And then when I opened my eyes, it was 17.27, I started watching it at 17.00, saw 17.07 go by and then the end at 17.27.

Then, this feels even more incredible. Last Monday at work I saw in my third eye an orange sphere with ‘999’ on it. This happened a couple of times Mon/Tues and I’m so used to this sort of thing I barely registered it, just thinking I hadn’t seen any 9s yet, must look that up at some point. Then on Wednesday I was reading what Matt was saying about numbers, that anytime there’s an ascending sequence liked 123, 456 (which I’d had in the past few weeks) it’s a message from the universe that you’ve integrated as much of the healing and expansions that have been sent your way, in order to be lifted in consciousness to enter a new portal of possibility, which is the 11:11 portal. And he was saying that once this portal has been opened, you begin see angel numbers like 222, 333 etc and I’ve been seeing those for a couple of years. Then he mentioned 666, again which I saw a couple of times, gets flipped around to become 999! (which I’d only seen the previous two days) He said that 999 is the sign of karmic completion. Took me several days to absorb that experience.

This is going to be something of a longer-term project and today I'm fast running out of time. I'm fast realising that I need to look far more closely at what I'm stuffing into my chops. It's also a work in progress and I'm seeing benefits coming through slowly, although they're not happening overnight granted. Mrs G also bought some magnesium supplements after what you were saying about it, so consider my ear well and truly bent and progress is on-going. Thank you. She puts a small pot of pills with my morning coffee. I also used to have a packet of Skittles sometimes for a treat but that flares up the reflux, so more more Skittles. I guess that applies to anything similar. I don't have any kind of fizzy drinks or non-sugar versions, if I do buy bottles it's always plain water. At work I usually drink the diluted stuff and only have two cups of coffee all day. Once in a while there's Scottish Tablet for sale in the canteen and I refuse to give that up. It's almost pure sugar with some condensed milk and vanilla extract, but I don't have it often and it's my treat. So there.

So I think my intuition was correct, as well as some foods, your acid reflux is being sparked by additives.

Look at the ingredients in this:

https://www.spanglercandy.com/candy-store/skittles-original-54oz

Now look at this:

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/02/24/are-you-or-your-family-eating-toxic-food-dyes.aspx

The picture begins to fall into place? And yes, anything similar will most likely cause the same reaction. If you want a snack, go for something natural, how are you with Brazil, walnuts, medjool dates etc?

Now you’re aware of this sensitivity, you’ll be tuned in if something disagrees with you. If it happens, look at the food and the ingredient list of whatever it is that you’ve eaten. You can have a sensitivity to anything - even something seemingly innocent. It took me some time to track down I had a sensitivity to phytic acid.

For sure, have your Scottish tablet treat if it doesn’t cause the reflux.

I’m really pleased you’re taking the magnesium as it’s such an important mineral.

But - and this is really important - do not take all of these supplements together, they need to be spaced apart throughout the day. This is because they will compete for absorption. Don’t take the magnesium with food, try taking it with a cup of tea, glass of water – I wouldn’t take anything with coffee because again, caffeine can affect absorption. Take one magnesium at the beginning of the day, and the other at night.

The B12, I’m taking it you’ve got the drops I recommended? If so, put the drops under your tongue and keep there for 15 seconds or so, and then down the hatch. The reason I’m saying this is because they’re sublingual, which means they’re designed to be absorbed through the tissues of the mouth but of course, they need to stay in the mouth for this to happen. Again, don’t take eat or drink anything about 20 minutes either side. (I take my B12 about half an hour before my evening meal) which works well.
Your coffee’s fine, ground, organic if possible. You can get organic instant however, I’ve not found one I like, I have Douwe Egberts, just one cup a day and then the rest of the day it’s filtered water and white tea. Coffee can trigger reflux so just be aware of that.

I was often run down as a kid, I always had bronchitis every winter without fail along with cold sores and whatever else. Interesting that it's all flaring up again. Anyway. My pills include B12 and magnesium and it's been a week so early days as yet, but the reflux is easing a little and I haven't had cramps. Skittles and lack of brekky seems to be the major factors so that's being fixed, but as per your advice I need to change the cereal.

How is your lung function, any wheeziness, tight chest, etc?

The fact you’ve got cold sores is a sign you’re run down and that your immune system is struggling. The health of the digestive system is directly linked to the strength of the immune system, so if we can get that back on track, the immune system may naturally strengthen. If not, I’ve one or two ideas that would be tonic based rather than supplement.

It’s wonderful news that the reflux is easing and you’ve not had any cramps after just one week. That means the magnesium is doing its work.

What I would like you to consider, as I think you would really benefit from this is the digestive enzymes I mentioned last week (if you’ve not got them already!). It will take the pressure off your digestive system as it will take up the slack and make the process of digestion a lot more efficient as well as helping the acid reflux. Take just one per day at the beginning of your main meal of the day. Enzymes will also help you to absorb nutrients from your food. I know you like things in threes, so with the magnesium and B12, digestive enzymes will make three extremely effective supplements. These three alone, with the changes in your diet, could well be enough to turn the situation around.

The ones I recommended last week are broad spectrum but it also contains some lactobacillus acidophilus live probiotic bacteria, so you will benefit from this no end.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/BioCare-Polyzyme-Forte-Enzyme-Complex/dp/B0013G4AEC/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=drugstore&ie=UTF8&qid=1531749822&sr=1-1&keywords=biocare+polyzyme+forte

I'm not on medications and I don't have any major illnesses that I know of, the reflux is the pain but I'm guessing that it's affecting the processing of food so that might explain the lethargy a little. It can't be helping.

That’s great news that you’re not on any medication and you don’t have any illnesses as it gives me a blank canvass on which to work. And you’re right, the reflux will affect the digestion of food and in turn, the absorption of nutrients which is why your immune system is struggling. The B12 may also uplift your mood.

I'm listening to your advice, so thank you for that. I think it's going to take time to try this or that and wait for results, I've already made changes thanks to your advice but obviously more is needed. Please don't feel at a disadvantage, here it's a case of try it, suck it and see, adjust, suck it and see. It's not going to happen overnight.

You’re welcome. It sounds to me as though you’ve made a brilliant start already and yes, absolutely, it can be a case of trial and error as although you may need a supplement there are many on the market and all supplements are not made equal. I use Biocare mostly as they are consistently the best.

Thank you for the reassurance too, as that gives me confidence to continue.

Please let me know how you’ve been this week including what you’re doing for breakfast and any cramps? Have you had any acid reflux and if so, what had you eaten? Also, how is the core strength you said felt weak, is that improving?

Funnily enough I felt very elevated last Sunday after reading that the reflux and cramps had settled and when I looked up the time was 17.17. And if that wasn’t enough, I went into my dining room and found a small white feather in the middle of the floor!

I'm not dreading the future, there are times when I look forwards to it even for a number of reasons. I get the feeling that this is what I'm being 'geared up' for lately and diet is a part of that too. I also think this is what's been manifesting through my need to change. Everything feels focussed on retirement, when I feel as though I'll 'come into my own'. It just feels right, vibrates right. What I am right now is disenchanted, that there are so many things that are 'not me'.

Moving into a new phase and if we can get your health back on track, it will all fall into place nicely.

Patrycia

Greenslade

22-07-2018, 12:27 PM

Hi there Mr G,

The sun also makes my blonde hair lighter and I tan very easily without burning (and without plastering my skin with toxic chemicals). The hot weather looks set to continue. Good morning Patrycia

Just a hint of sun and my skin peels and I look like a zombie. What's worse is the feeling of wearing a full nappy.

Me too. I worked in child protection for 22 years and I think that was long enough. For some years after, I would keep up to date with new practice and changes in the law but I let all that go many years now and am content working in my new field. The job is settling down nicely too.I learned a lot about so much ion those days and actually gained some huge Spiritual revelations from it. Some of it was understanding why the Universe is the way it is and not having the seep-rooted feeling that it needs changing somehow. I also learned the the 'fight' against child abuse was all about ego and damaged people.

Pin your ears back, Mr G, I’ve found something awesome!! I was having lunch and casually surfing youtube and just happened to discover this American/Italian singer/songwriter - Laura Pergolizzi, known as LP. I was totally blown away by her voice, best female vocalist I’ve ever heard! Ever! I listened to several tracks on Youtube and immediately ordered the CD, loved it and have just got a second CD which is just as awesome, and guess what, she whistles!! Her two CDs have been the soundtrack to my summer. My rediscovering my whistling coincided with this finding this. Have a listen and can well recommend the CDs. The more I listen to them, they better they get.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O7mjEoGgMqg
You're a pain sometimes. :hug3: You'll come out with stuff and I'll go off to Google for a long diversion. Anyway. Her voice reminded me of quite a few similar-sounding ones but from the TV series House (he's the man) -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7K72X4eo_s

She's kinda similar to Cyndi Lauper too, although Lauper's vocals are usually stronger.

Ah see, I’m not good with numbers, I can do the basics and create excel formulas etc but I don’t like maths (school days and all!) So I hadn’t noticed any pattern to them as you did. Things have got even more intense with the numbers lately, I’ve started getting 7s and I was at work the other day and I received an orange circle with the words ‘life path’ in it and the number 999 – more about that later. Yep, that's pretty much me with numbers and actually they leave me cold. I had a bad experience with a tutor who was supposed to be teaching me spreadsheets but it made a huge impact on me for the better. And I ended up learning the hard way, which worked out for the best. However, I will admit to being a pattern junkie though - it's in my blood.

Oh blimey, Merlin takes me back to a very distressing time in my life. It was / is my third all time favourite series (Smallville being no 1, and X-files no 2). Merlin would have made it to number 2 had it not been that for god awful ending! I have the DVD box sets and I adored that programme, the magic, the characterisations, Gaius, the dragon and his riddles; I was well and truly hooked! So when the last episode aired, which was a matter of weeks after my father’s passing, I was so shocked and distressed by how it ended, I was completely grief struck for months! I’d handled my dad’s funeral and passing really well but I found myself thrust into grief by the death of Arthur and the fact that the promised ‘golden age’ never happened. I can’t watch the series now knowing how it all ended! I remember a year later on the anniversary of that episode, I spent that Christmas writing my own ending which was also the beginning of a series six. That was purely for my own benefit so I could have some sort of closure. I don't know why but watching some of the episodes have left me swallowing down a huge lump in my throat, not something I would admit to in public by the way. It's mainly associated with the dragon, and when I saw what Morgana had done to the baby dragon I wanted to jump into the screen and strangle her. I was incensed. While I don't see stuff like that as portents of any kind I do take notice because it means I'm resonating with something.

So with that in mind, is there something deep within yourself that Merlin had touched?

That sounds as though you’re working through some major issues, or something’s disturbing your sleep.Bit of both. Part of the Ascension process is working through the dust that's been accumulating for years so I'm not too worried about that because it's more of a flushing the system. It's also physical though. Mrs G's just come out the back of a heart attack and she's on blood thinners, and that means what I feel as a high temperature she feels as normal to her. Even in this weather recently, I open a window because it's too warm and she closes it because she's too cold.

Whenever I see the word ‘Gestalt’ it reminds me of that former manager I mentioned and sort of closes me down.

I am sure I do have a higher self, or whatever you want to call it but I feel no need to connect to it, if it isn’t already connected. My intuition recently feels like it’s had an upgrade and I’m doing OK with or without it, without feeling the need to go searching for it.If your former manager is who I think he is then yes, 'Gestalt' would work. If you don't feel the need to go get your Higher Self then that's all to the good, if you did feel the need it would mean you're missing something.

I have this thing that I’ve come to recognise and respect. If I want to wash the car, do some painting, do something practical and if I don’t feel in the mood, that’s it, I won’t do it. I’ll wait because I know that in the weeks to come, there will be a time when I am in the mood to do it and then I’ll do it well and enjoy it rather than doing it and not enjoying the task.
So with you, have some thoughts about how you may do it when the time is right, what you might investigate in the meantime, and then when the time is right, you’ll be in the right frame of mind and have the energy for it. It works for me a treat! Very much a ditto there, everything needs to be done when the time feels right, not until.

99% of the time, he’s speaking to my soul. There is the occasional broadcast where I’m thinking, no I don’t do that to myself (might have done 10 years ago, but not now). He’s just released a new one called Unknow Yourself and I’m currently working my way through that, although it’ll take several weekends with the translations and notes and everything else that’s going on.Often things like this can be a 'measure' of your progress or the Universe reflecting back at you that you're doing OK. Unknow Yourself should be interesting if it's what I think it is.

Yes, I feel that so strongly. Along with the videos and all the radio broadcasts and interviews he’s done and I’ve watched I’ve picked up a lot of information about his early childhood and early adulthood. He said that he has been a Buddhist monk in a past life, you can really see that in him and recently he also said he was a psychologist in a former life. I just find that all so fascinating. He also does his own social media which is pretty unusual (which is how I came about my gift). Actually that's interesting. I've been told that this is my final Life, and in the next phase of existence (???) I'm going to be a teacher of Life (???). I have no idea what that means and I'm not going to ask, but it makes sense. For Matt, so many things in his Past Lives are at work so if that happens to me too? It would make sense of so many things.

The spiritual experiences have been ramping up of late to almost daily occurrences. Two of the most profound ……

I’d a few days off from work and one of them I was feeling a little off, so in the afternoon decided to have a rest. I was sitting in my lounge chair and dozed off. I woke up with a start and immediately, my cat of 18 years was on my mind (passed now) and this wave of intense emotion hit me and I went to cry and then the emotion was gone, just like that. It left me unsettled and I felt in need of something soothing. So I decided to listen to one of Matt’s videos and chose one that I’d got plenty of notes on, so I wouldn’t feel the need to take notes. I started to listen to the Light I Am and just sat calmly, eyes closed, and as the video progressed I suddenly found myself (via my third eye) standing outside a building on a beach, when I was five years old and newly out of hospital from that operation. Inside the building was an object that was to traumatise me at five years old and cause a lifetime of fear whenever I came across it – and that was frequently. It all links to that past life I mentioned when I was a five year old boy who died in pretty horrible circumstances. Being traumatised in this life wasn’t supposed to happen (a medium told me) but being the same age and the atmosphere, smell, darkness of that object in the building, sparked the memory from the past life. And here we are, major phobia in this life. So here I was, as I am today, an adult standing outside this building. I felt compelled to go inside and very slowly, even now as an adult, it’s terrifying, I walked in and slowly went up to this object. At that precise second, Matt started doing one of his ‘repeat after me’ and I started to say the words to this object, ending with I am the Light, the Light I am.” And then we finished the words and I walked out quite calmly. Even as I type this now, it seems incredible. And then when I opened my eyes, it was 17.27, I started watching it at 17.00, saw 17.07 go by and then the end at 17.27.

Then, this feels even more incredible. Last Monday at work I saw in my third eye an orange sphere with ‘999’ on it. This happened a couple of times Mon/Tues and I’m so used to this sort of thing I barely registered it, just thinking I hadn’t seen any 9s yet, must look that up at some point. Then on Wednesday I was reading what Matt was saying about numbers, that anytime there’s an ascending sequence liked 123, 456 (which I’d had in the past few weeks) it’s a message from the universe that you’ve integrated as much of the healing and expansions that have been sent your way, in order to be lifted in consciousness to enter a new portal of possibility, which is the 11:11 portal. And he was saying that once this portal has been opened, you begin see angel numbers like 222, 333 etc and I’ve been seeing those for a couple of years. Then he mentioned 666, again which I saw a couple of times, gets flipped around to become 999! (which I’d only seen the previous two days) He said that 999 is the sign of karmic completion. Took me several days to absorb that experience. Have you ever had the feeling that things in your Life and perhaps your Life itself is 'out of time'? What I mean by that is 'out of sync'. That feeling has plagued me since I was a kid, that the timing was all out.

OK, this is going to sound way freaky, and by the way I haven't ruled out autosuggestion. When you were looking at the building on the beach, did you get the feeling that someone was sitting on your shoulder? I remember a dream I had, watching a woman standing outside a building on the beach. The sea was on her left and there was thick, bushy vegetation on her right. In front was a single-storey foyer of mainly glass with a light-coloured high building behind that. The wind was blowing her long, fair hair. She had on a simple white dress but that gave me the impression that it she was on a Spiritual 'mission'. She also had to go into the building on her own to face her greatest fear. Anyways....

What can happen in the framework of their being no time, is that the perception of time is much more fluid. In our perception we can go back in time and affect what we consider the past or future - it has to do with quantum theory more than anything else. By the way, our brains are also quantum-capable so there is a scientific answer to all of this. What can happen is that in this Life we can resolve things from our Past Lives, it sounds whacked but we can go back in time perceptually/energetically and help our past selves. So, out of curiosity, do you feel any changes because of what's happened?

When all of this really kicked off for me, I had the experience that I went back in time (energetically/perceptually) and watched my younger self. I remember my younger self as having the experience that I was being watched by someone I didn't recognise. If that's the case then it's not a huge leap to think that you could have changed things for your own younger self.

Your second episode, well here's where things get a little more freaky because that's not the full story. When things come in threes it means that you're connecting to a 'higher power'. Christians do the Holy Trinity, Pagans do their power of three. the pre-Toaist alchemists did Triplex Unity.... and so on. Your numbers are coming in threes, and that's part of the pattern. What you probably haven't seen is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wZRVb2fkXw

So I think my intuition was correct, as well as some foods, your acid reflux is being sparked by additives.

Look at the ingredients in this:

https://www.spanglercandy.com/candy-store/skittles-original-54oz

Now look at this:

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/02/24/are-you-or-your-family-eating-toxic-food-dyes.aspx

The picture begins to fall into place? And yes, anything similar will most likely cause the same reaction. If you want a snack, go for something natural, how are you with Brazil, walnuts, medjool dates etc?

Now you’re aware of this sensitivity, you’ll be tuned in if something disagrees with you. If it happens, look at the food and the ingredient list of whatever it is that you’ve eaten. You can have a sensitivity to anything - even something seemingly innocent. It took me some time to track down I had a sensitivity to phytic acid.

For sure, have your Scottish tablet treat if it doesn’t cause the reflux.

I’m really pleased you’re taking the magnesium as it’s such an important mineral.

But - and this is really important - do not take all of these supplements together, they need to be spaced apart throughout the day. This is because they will compete for absorption. Don’t take the magnesium with food, try taking it with a cup of tea, glass of water – I wouldn’t take anything with coffee because again, caffeine can affect absorption. Take one magnesium at the beginning of the day, and the other at night.

The B12, I’m taking it you’ve got the drops I recommended? If so, put the drops under your tongue and keep there for 15 seconds or so, and then down the hatch. The reason I’m saying this is because they’re sublingual, which means they’re designed to be absorbed through the tissues of the mouth but of course, they need to stay in the mouth for this to happen. Again, don’t take eat or drink anything about 20 minutes either side. (I take my B12 about half an hour before my evening meal) which works well.
Your coffee’s fine, ground, organic if possible. You can get organic instant however, I’ve not found one I like, I have Douwe Egberts, just one cup a day and then the rest of the day it’s filtered water and white tea. Coffee can trigger reflux so just be aware of that. Your intuition is smack on the money.

I knew there were things in many foods and the like that we're too kind to our bodies, and I'd heard that there were things in sweets that would make kids into tantrum-throwing monsters. To be fair I'm not really a sweetie person (don't say it) although I will admit to having the odd packet once in a while. I have an old biddy that I often help out and she always give me a sweet, and it would be offensive to no. What I do though is make it last a week, that feels like a good compromise. The reflux has really highlighted it though and I've gone all anti-preservatives. It's taking time but I'm on the right track and making a difference. Go me. I used to eat those breakfast bar things as a snack, getting back into them might curb the sweetie withdrawal symptoms.

At the moment I'm taking B12 pills, didn't realise that made a difference too. Change there then. I don't drink much coffee, only two cups per day so I'll cut myself some slack there. It doesn't seem to affect the reflux any so that's not so bad. What's really kicking it off is the cooked food at work. If I have a salad it's fine but anything at all cooked and off it goes. There doesn't seem to be anything specific. Oh well, that doesn't bode well.

I never thought about absorption. Mrs G does all my tablets and pills in one of those little hospital cups, she's an organise junkie.

How is your lung function, any wheeziness, tight chest, etc?

The fact you’ve got cold sores is a sign you’re run down and that your immune system is struggling. The health of the digestive system is directly linked to the strength of the immune system, so if we can get that back on track, the immune system may naturally strengthen. If not, I’ve one or two ideas that would be tonic based rather than supplement.

It’s wonderful news that the reflux is easing and you’ve not had any cramps after just one week. That means the magnesium is doing its work.

What I would like you to consider, as I think you would really benefit from this is the digestive enzymes I mentioned last week (if you’ve not got them already!). It will take the pressure off your digestive system as it will take up the slack and make the process of digestion a lot more efficient as well as helping the acid reflux. Take just one per day at the beginning of your main meal of the day. Enzymes will also help you to absorb nutrients from your food. I know you like things in threes, so with the magnesium and B12, digestive enzymes will make three extremely effective supplements. These three alone, with the changes in your diet, could well be enough to turn the situation around.

The ones I recommended last week are broad spectrum but it also contains some lactobacillus acidophilus live probiotic bacteria, so you will benefit from this no end.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/BioCare-Polyzyme-Forte-Enzyme-Complex/dp/B0013G4AEC/ref=sr_1_1_s_it?s=drugstore&ie=UTF8&qid=1531749822&sr=1-1&keywords=biocare+polyzyme+forte

My brother suffers from COPD and has really bad reflux, so I've been keeping my eye on that. The other thing is that I've stopped smoking and it does take a lot of time for it to all work through the system. So far though, nothing major lung-ways that I've noticed.

It actually feels as though I'm not processing my food, which is the reason I went to the vet in the first place. I've never really been muscular even when I was pumping weights, but I've never felt this weak neither. Digestive enzymes it is then. Thank you for taking the time with this.

That’s great news that you’re not on any medication and you don’t have any illnesses as it gives me a blank canvass on which to work. And you’re right, the reflux will affect the digestion of food and in turn, the absorption of nutrients which is why your immune system is struggling. The B12 may also uplift your mood.Being not so close to the knackers' yard is a blessing in itself, and right now it is just trial and error to see what's going to work or not.

You’re welcome. It sounds to me as though you’ve made a brilliant start already and yes, absolutely, it can be a case of trial and error as although you may need a supplement there are many on the market and all supplements are not made equal. I use Biocare mostly as they are consistently the best.

Thank you for the reassurance too, as that gives me confidence to continue.

Please let me know how you’ve been this week including what you’re doing for breakfast and any cramps? Have you had any acid reflux and if so, what had you eaten? Also, how is the core strength you said felt weak, is that improving?

Funnily enough I felt very elevated last Sunday after reading that the reflux and cramps had settled and when I looked up the time was 17.17. And if that wasn’t enough, I went into my dining room and found a small white feather in the middle of the floor!It's kinda weird but I'm feeling ahead of myself. My moods are different and I feel a little more back to my old self, and it feels as though the difference has been already made although physically there's the feeling that there's still a way to go. The reflux has gone down quite a bit because I'm eating far less of the canteen-prepared foods, and I'm just wondering if what they're cooking in is making the difference. I need to get their allergens info and see if that sheds any light.

Having breakfast is making a difference but then that's just common sense after all. The core strength is so bad and I don't feel quite as weak, but the big test is yet to come. Mrs G wants rid of a large chair and that's going to be fun to shift.

I thought that doing all this stuff would be a bit of a chore but somehow it all feels very natural. There's no feeling of "Oh Gawd, getting nagged at again" at all feels like "OK, good, fine"

Moving into a new phase and if we can get your health back on track, it will all fall into place nicely.

PatryciaVery much a new phase, there's a feeling of energetic wind of change/fresh breeze stuff going on. It took long enough lol.

Lucky

26-07-2018, 12:21 AM

The word Ascension was also put in my head as I embarked on my spiritual journey. I had not had this term in my vocabulary either. Since then I have been on a roller coaster and have had physical symptoms too.

Patrycia-Rose

29-07-2018, 07:42 AM

Good morning Mr G

Oh dear, the hot weather has gone and I'm missing it already. The plus side is the new plants get a decent watering.

You're a pain sometimes. :hug3: You'll come out with stuff and I'll go off to Google for a long diversion. Anyway. Her voice reminded me of quite a few similar-sounding ones but from the TV series House (he's the man) -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7K72X4eo_s

She's kinda similar to Cyndi Lauper too, although Lauper's vocals are usually stronger.

In fairness the link was demonstrating the whistling. At the risk of being a pain, try this one for a stronger vocal. When I first heard this, it made me feel incredibly emotional as it was pure perfection. I’ve got two CDs now, and they are truly awesome, and I will be ordering a third fairly soon. Discovering this singer has been one of the highlights of my summer. I love (albeit very badly) trying to whistle along.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRzvLJGJoCA

I don't know why but watching some of the episodes have left me swallowing down a huge lump in my throat, not something I would admit to in public by the way. It's mainly associated with the dragon, and when I saw what Morgana had done to the baby dragon I wanted to jump into the screen and strangle her. I was incensed. While I don't see stuff like that as portents of any kind I do take notice because it means I'm resonating with something.

So with that in mind, is there something deep within yourself that Merlin had touched?

Such a simple question. So difficult to answer. On a production point, the writers of Merlin said they were inspired by Smallville and you can definitely see the comparisons.

I guess I identified with Merlin in having magical (spiritual) abilities and having to keep them hidden. I was very much like that in the past, not talking about my knowledge of the afterlife, medium sittings, crystal healing and particularly dowsing. It was a protection thing, like Merlin, and also wanting to appear normal and fit in.

His connection to the dragon I could so relate to because much of the time he didn’t know what to make of the dragon because it would talk a lot of the time in riddles. This reminded me of working with my spirit guide. The bond he had with Gaius was just a wonderful father/son relationship (obviously that bit I didn’t relate to) but I used to love those scenes. That slogging on because you think you’ve got a higher path, although not necessarily knowing what it is; always wanting to make the right decision, do the right thing and agonising over making it.

So the ending devastated me. All those sacrifices, all the keeping the magic secret whilst saving people and situations and not being acknowledged for those abilities, amounted to nothing. Arthur died, there was no golden age and Merlin was left alone to age, waiting for Arthur to return. The writers wanted to continue for a sixth season and the actors didn’t and I think they took their revenge on the characters. I’d like to think that maybe one day I could watch it again but just the thought leaves me cold.

Thank God Smallville had a good ending. Every couple of years, I get the DVD boxsets out and watch from the beginning. I’ll never tire of that show, it was / is everything to me!

Part of the Ascension process is working through the dust that's been accumulating for years so I'm not too worried about that because it's more of a flushing the system. It's also physical though. Mrs G's just come out the back of a heart attack and she's on blood thinners, and that means what I feel as a high temperature she feels as normal to her. Even in this weather recently, I open a window because it's too warm and she closes it because she's too cold.

I’m sorry to hear about Mrs G; shock can often show up as being cold.

Talking of asension, where are you in the process? Currently, I am experiencing about 3 – 4 times a night being woken up with Kundalini energy. I’ve seen it described as ‘fire’ and it does feel exactly like. I’ve noticed that strong emotion can trigger it. I was starting to get to the point (particularly in this hot weather) of feeling a bit peed off with it and in the last few days, it’s been happening during the last two hours before I go to bed. According to my dowsing, the kundalini has an intelligence so I don’t know if it picked up on my feelings and switched to it firing up in the evening, so I could get a decent night’s kip. I read somewhere that kundalini is prevalent in July, so that’s spot on!

The other thing I’m curious about is that not everyone experiences a spiritual awakening and not even people who say they are spiritual have an awakening or ascension. So what says that you will have one? I can only think I signed up for this before I came down. Also, according to Matt’s descriptions, I would be part of this first wave of ascension. It fits with being an indigo adult. Would you feel to be part of the first wave?

On the number front, I am getting 7’s extremely intensely; on the car tripometer, the time, receipts, I even continued to read Matt’s book where I’d left it, page 77.

Often things like this can be a 'measure' of your progress or the Universe reflecting back at you that you're doing OK. Unknow Yourself should be interesting if it's what I think it is.

Unknow Yourself is a new video that’s only come out in the last fortnight, unless you’ve beaten me to it!!

Have you ever had the feeling that things in your Life and perhaps your Life itself is 'out of time'? What I mean by that is 'out of sync'. That feeling has plagued me since I was a kid, that the timing was all out.

No, I can’t say I have. What I am able to do, is recall in great detail, any person, place, situation, workplace, houses and memories from any time in my life. And recently I have been presented with several random memories from my past, including just walking down a particular street.

OK, this is going to sound way freaky, and by the way I haven't ruled out autosuggestion. When you were looking at the building on the beach, did you get the feeling that someone was sitting on your shoulder? I remember a dream I had, watching a woman standing outside a building on the beach. The sea was on her left and there was thick, bushy vegetation on her right. In front was a single-storey foyer of mainly glass with a light-coloured high building behind that. The wind was blowing her long, fair hair. She had on a simple white dress but that gave me the impression that it she was on a Spiritual 'mission'. She also had to go into the building on her own to face her greatest fear. Anyways....

I didn’t get the feeling that someone was sitting on my shoulder. It was like the adult me was sitting on the me that was 5 shoulders and the me that was 5 was sitting on the adult’s shoulders.

I think maybe you were tuning into someone else as I would have been wearing shorts and t-shirt, I hated dresses (still do) and my hair would have been cut short as my mum had it all cut off so I wouldn’t get stressed in hospital with someone trying to brush it.

What can happen in the framework of their being no time, is that the perception of time is much more fluid. In our perception we can go back in time and affect what we consider the past or future - it has to do with quantum theory more than anything else. By the way, our brains are also quantum-capable so there is a scientific answer to all of this. What can happen is that in this Life we can resolve things from our Past Lives, it sounds whacked but we can go back in time perceptually/energetically and help our past selves. SSo, out of curiosity, do you feel any changes because of what's happened?

I wondered I’d feel differently but unfortunately I don’t. There is a situation at work whereby I occasionally have to negotiate the object and I had to last week and the fear is still there, just about manageable. But this phobia/fear is so strong and believe me, I’ve had all kinds of therapy including hypnosis, to sort it – to no avail. I’m sure it will be with me for the rest of my days, I’m hoping that there aren’t any in spirit!!

Your second episode, well here's where things get a little more freaky because that's not the full story. When things come in threes it means that you're connecting to a 'higher power'. Christians do the Holy Trinity, Pagans do their power of three. the pre-Toaist alchemists did Triplex Unity.... and so on. Your numbers are coming in threes, and that's part of the pattern. What you probably haven't seen is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5wZRVb2fkXw

That video made me feel as though I was sitting in class, the whole thing going over my head and thinking, when’s it playtime!
So if I was missing something, I’m still missing it!

Your intuition is smack on the money.

Thank you, no mean feat over the internet!

I knew there were things in many foods and the like that we're too kind to our bodies, and I'd heard that there were things in sweets that would make kids into tantrum-throwing monsters

Yes, you are thinking of kids with ADHD becoming hyper active due to the additives in some sweets.

I used to eat those breakfast bar things as a snack, getting back into them might curb the sweetie withdrawal symptoms.

I used to eat these which you could try as a snack. There’s so many different flavours.

https://www.hollandandbarrett.com/shop/product/eat-natural-almond-apricot-with-a-yoghurt-coating-60089736?skuid=089736

At the moment I'm taking B12 pills, didn't realise that made a difference too. Change there then. I don't drink much coffee, only two cups per day so I'll cut myself some slack there. It doesn't seem to affect the reflux any so that's not so bad. What's really kicking it off is the cooked food at work. If I have a salad it's fine but anything at all cooked and off it goes. There doesn't seem to be anything specific.

Canteen food is little better than fast food. If you think about it, they are going to be using products that are bought in bulk, containing preservatives, additives, artificial flavourings, high fructose corn syrup, transfats, hydrolyzed vegetable proteins, MSG, table salt, sugar, processed meat which is more than likely GMO – the list goes on! I’m not surprised your acid reflux is kicking off. Salad can’t be messed around with (unless you smother it with salad cream). You see the difference? So you say there’s nothing specific? The specific thing is the canteen food; that is the common denominator!

So I would encourage you to ditch the canteen food altogether. And I am not speaking without experience here. I worked in a life assurance company in my early twenties, ate in their canteen every day (seem to remember a liking for chocolate mousse!) and developed a nice case of colitis. I had many trips to the hospital and I took the usual course of taking medication as I didn’t know any different. But I switched to salads and sandwiches and got myself off the medication eventually but my diet then was no where clean as it is today.

Instead of tinkering with canteen food and trying to see what works and what doesn’t, how about taking the short cut and stopping it altogether? Can you take your own food in? Prepare something before you leave? Take some of the previous night’s meal if you have access to a microwave or, whilst you try different things, have salad.

I never thought about absorption. Mrs G does all my tablets and pills in one of those little hospital cups, she's an organise junkie.

OK, so I hope that you’re now spacing them out throughout the day and understand the reasoning.

I’m not sure what B12 tablets you’ve got but the reason I recommended the drops is because you’re already compromised on nutrient absorption, so holding the drops under your tongue for 15 seconds, you’re getting it into your system via the tissues of of the mouth rather than trying to absorb it through an already compromised digestive system.

Also, there are some vitamins that are synthetic, B12 being one of them. The synthetic version is known as cyanocobalamin and is used in cheaper supplements. The body has to work to convert this into a form it can use. B12 methylcobalamin is already converted to the bioavailable form your body needs and it stays in the body longer. This is the same for some other vitamins, including vitamin D. So, that is what I mean when I said all supplements are not made equal.

It would be worth having a look at the supplements you bought and see if it’s cyanocobalamin or methylcobalamin.

My brother suffers from COPD and has really bad reflux, so I've been keeping my eye on that. The other thing is that I've stopped smoking and it does take a lot of time for it to all work through the system. So far though, nothing major lung-ways that I've noticed.

My father had COPD.

So reflux is a hereditary / family thing; which makes getting a handle on your diet even more crucial as you have a predisposition. It would be worth having a conversation with your brother to find out, if he is aware, of what foods spark his AR, you may find some commonality.

I hadn’t realised you smoked (that’s the kind of thing I would miss doing this over the internet but I’ll work with what I have). You may not know this but nicotine blocks absorption of B12 and other nutrients in general, so between that and the AR, I wouldn’t be surprised if your B12 levels are on the floor. You should do well on this once it gets into your system; it will take a couple of weeks. Your body will be changing and recovering from the smoking; you may well find your sense of taste improves.

It actually feels as though I'm not processing my food, which is the reason I went to the vet in the first place. I've never really been muscular even when I was pumping weights, but I've never felt this weak neither. Digestive enzymes it is then. Thank you for taking the time with this.

No problem, you’re welcome.

It is a steep learning curve for you and it depends how far you want to take it. I’ve been researching all this for about 12 years or more (as you can probably tell!) and I’m trying to gently nudge you in the right direction, point things out and raise your awareness so you can figure things out from your own experience – like why you’re reacting to the canteen food and the skittles. Once you get to a point where you have several days without the reflux and you are able to see this is because you’ve avoided certain foods, the whole healthy eating thing will take on a life of its own.

Not to put too fine a point on it but if it’s coming out the other end, then you are processing your food (although it is possible to have undigested food showing up and that’s not good). I think what’s happening is you’re not getting nutrients because of the reflux which could be causing the weakness / lack of energy. The B12 drops will help enormously with this and B12 is also needed to aid digestion.

As a matter of interest what did the vet have to say?

Please let me know if you get the specific digestive enzymes I suggested; the reason being they contain lactobacillus acidophilus which is a live probiotic bacteria and will help your gut flora.

If money is an issue let me know and I’ll try to search for something cheaper. There are a couple of brands that would fit the bill but they probably won’t contain all of the enzymes.

The whole issue of quality supplements is a subject in itself. A lot of high street / supermarket products use synthetic vitamins, bulking agents, binders and artificial sweeteners to name a few. You would be ingesting these and getting very little, if any of the vitamin or mineral, as well as the possibilty of reacting to some of the ingredients and potentially creating new problems. This is why I have several brands that are my ‘go to’, one of them being Biocare.

Have a look around the Biocare website as it is (well for me anyway) a fascinating look.

https://www.biocare.co.uk/

You mentioned some time ago, you were taking omega oils. Are you still taking them? And if so, can you give me a link to the brand you’re taking. Are you taking any other supplements?

It's kinda weird but I'm feeling ahead of myself. My moods are different and I feel a little more back to my old self, and it feels as though the difference has been already made although physically there's the feeling that there's still a way to go. The reflux has gone down quite a bit because I'm eating far less of the canteen-prepared foods, and I'm just wondering if what they're cooking in is making the difference. I need to get their allergens info and see if that sheds any light.

This is really interesting. I’ve noticed this before when helping some people. Very occasionally when I start recommending certain supplements and explaining what they will do and why, it happened particularly with one woman, as we were talking she started instantly feeling a lot better. I’ve had this a time or two myself. I believe you are connecting energetically to the energy of the supplement before you’ve got it.

You’re absolutely right to think about what they are cooking in. They’re most likely using cheap vegetable oil, corn oil, sunflower oil, possibly even using the same oil for days. These oils are heavily processed and really bad for your health, so yes, you may well be reacting to the oils.

I find the best oils to cook with are advocado oil, olive oil (for salads and light frying) and coconut oil.

I thought that doing all this stuff would be a bit of a chore but somehow it all feels very natural. There's no feeling of "Oh Gawd, getting nagged at again" at all feels like "OK, good, fine"

What higher motivation can there be to look after your health, especially when you start getting results? For me, it’s a case of if my stomach is happy, then I’m happy.

I’m giving you information, a little bit of knowledge, a gentle nudge and hopefully some encouragement that you can entirely take your health into your own hands. The rest is up to you.

So, how have you been this last week?

You didn’t mention the cramps last week, so has that cleared up?

How has it gone this week food wise?

Where are you with spacing out the supplements and have you got the enzymes and B12 drops? Just generally, how are you doing? :smile:

Patrycia

Greenslade

30-07-2018, 12:00 AM

Good morning Mr G

Oh dear, the hot weather has gone and I'm missing it already. The plus side is the new plants get a decent watering.Not so much oh dear though, it's been nice to get a break from the heat even for a little while. We had some pretty thunderstorms and the garden was looking sorry for itself.

In fairness the link was demonstrating the whistling. At the risk of being a pain, try this one for a stronger vocal. When I first heard this, it made me feel incredibly emotional as it was pure perfection. I’ve got two CDs now, and they are truly awesome, and I will be ordering a third fairly soon. Discovering this singer has been one of the highlights of my summer. I love (albeit very badly) trying to whistle along.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IRzvLJGJoCA

She hasn't got a bad voice really so I won't chastise you for being a pain. I put YouTube on autoplay so I could listen along and up came https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T4JYVUlMtNg

I'm a huge live music fan and was the live events manager for a multi-media studio for a few years, and there's always something more natural about a live performance. It's easy to throw technology and make a scalded cat sound good, not so easy live. Her vocals are unchanged from the studio sound so that says a lot. It's OK, I can see the appeal she'd have for you, really.

If you want to practice your whistle-along..... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LY5RRsoUrcY

Such a simple question. So difficult to answer. On a production point, the writers of Merlin said they were inspired by Smallville and you can definitely see the comparisons.

I guess I identified with Merlin in having magical (spiritual) abilities and having to keep them hidden. I was very much like that in the past, not talking about my knowledge of the afterlife, medium sittings, crystal healing and particularly dowsing. It was a protection thing, like Merlin, and also wanting to appear normal and fit in.

His connection to the dragon I could so relate to because much of the time he didn’t know what to make of the dragon because it would talk a lot of the time in riddles. This reminded me of working with my spirit guide. The bond he had with Gaius was just a wonderful father/son relationship (obviously that bit I didn’t relate to) but I used to love those scenes. That slogging on because you think you’ve got a higher path, although not necessarily knowing what it is; always wanting to make the right decision, do the right thing and agonising over making it.

So the ending devastated me. All those sacrifices, all the keeping the magic secret whilst saving people and situations and not being acknowledged for those abilities, amounted to nothing. Arthur died, there was no golden age and Merlin was left alone to age, waiting for Arthur to return. The writers wanted to continue for a sixth season and the actors didn’t and I think they took their revenge on the characters. I’d like to think that maybe one day I could watch it again but just the thought leaves me cold.

Thank God Smallville had a good ending. Every couple of years, I get the DVD boxsets out and watch from the beginning. I’ll never tire of that show, it was / is everything to me! I think there always comes a point when you realise the reasons you did what you did, and for me it doesn't matter if anyone else knows or not. You do what you do 'for the cause' because it's the right thing to do. You see Patrycia, deep down are the real reasons you do things and the only thing that matters in any situation is who you create yourself to be - not the situation itself, not the reasons you find yourself in it, not the people around you. Not the recognition. Merlin understood that, and it's why he did what he did. He was happy to play the fool because it served his purpose, being honest I think recognition would have changed him too much, because at the very least it would have coloured his reasons for doing anything. And if you're doing it for recognition? Arthur being alive to call him an idiot was recognition enough.

The ending really did suck, on that we can firmly agree. As soon ans I saw the road and the truck I was gone, and the determined look on Merlin's face.... Whoever wrote that needs shooting, along with the people that shot it.

If there is no Golden Age because we are yet in the process of creating it?

I’m sorry to hear about Mrs G; shock can often show up as being cold.

Talking of asension, where are you in the process? Currently, I am experiencing about 3 – 4 times a night being woken up with Kundalini energy. I’ve seen it described as ‘fire’ and it does feel exactly like. I’ve noticed that strong emotion can trigger it. I was starting to get to the point (particularly in this hot weather) of feeling a bit peed off with it and in the last few days, it’s been happening during the last two hours before I go to bed. According to my dowsing, the kundalini has an intelligence so I don’t know if it picked up on my feelings and switched to it firing up in the evening, so I could get a decent night’s kip. I read somewhere that kundalini is prevalent in July, so that’s spot on!

The other thing I’m curious about is that not everyone experiences a spiritual awakening and not even people who say they are spiritual have an awakening or ascension. So what says that you will have one? I can only think I signed up for this before I came down. Also, according to Matt’s descriptions, I would be part of this first wave of ascension. It fits with being an indigo adult. Would you feel to be part of the first wave?

On the number front, I am getting 7’s extremely intensely; on the car tripometer, the time, receipts, I even continued to read Matt’s book where I’d left it, page 77.Thank you. Mrs G's OK with things now, it was a bit of a pain until she got herself settled into her routine, coming on the back of retirement didn't help neither. She's on all kinds of medications, one of them being blood thinners. The upshot of that is that while she's freezing her **** off, I'm sweating my nuts off. Ho hum.

I don't know what's going on in my sleep because I'm a very heavy sleeper, so night time kundalini wouldn't be noticed. There is something going on at night because I know I'm dreaming but i can't remember, and there's a kind of residual energy thing going on. It feels as though my energies change at night and deciding to go to bed seems to trigger it. Lying in bed just before I fall asleep feels like a kind of energetic twilight between worlds. In the morning I do feel like a different 'me' yet around me everything is the same - same old Universe but different 'me' experiencing it. I used to feel as though I was still in an almost-asleep state but now it feels more like a slow change in energetic states. If any of that makes sense.

The kundalini is triggered by emotion for me, emotion is energy in motion anyway so.... It used to happen a lot when I thought of our Spirit kids, it felt as though someone was taking hold of my spinal chord and yanking it. The kids have been taking a back seat lately because there are things I have to get on with, the things that usually connect me to them haven't so I guess that means leave it be for now. They're still there, but the do feel different.

I have what I can only describe as a fractured personality, as far as I can make out it happened when I was a child, the combination of abuse and a few other factors that were happening at the time. It was a survival mechanism I think. I felt things, there was no escape from the pain but how I experienced it was pretty weird as I recall. That part of me is still here, it had an effect for years so I don't think it's going away too easily, and it feels like a different personality. It comes through once in a while but he's looking for acknowledgement, feeling like nobody and trying hard to be somebody but not succeeding..... Thing is, there's a definite change in my energies when he comes along and there's a definite energetic 'being' there in its/his own right.

I remember my Guide and myself having quite a heart-to-heart one day and I said that I wanted to experience the Universe as he does. He laughed. At the time I realised that he was experiencing the Universe as I did, he could 'look through my eyes'. I think now the laugh was one of those 'you have no idea what's coming, kiddo'.

'Spiritual awakening' is a contradiction in terms. You came from Spirit - we all did, even the ones who are not 'awakening' and the bad guys. Everyone has a Soul inside and what we've forgotten in the rush to attach meaning to a label is that we've made the choice to come here for our development as Spirit. That changes everything. In a realm where there is only Unconditional Love, Unconditional Love is all there is. There are no mountains to climb because there are no depths to plunge into, there is no forgiveness when there is nothing to forgive. 'Ascended' only exists in relation to 'not ascended'.

You have not ever been asleep, you have always been Spirit with voluntary amnesia because you Love yourself enough to give yourself this experience.

Unknow Yourself is a new video that’s only come out in the last fortnight, unless you’ve beaten me to it!! I caught that in the passing on the YouTube list and it caught my eye. I'm not sure where I'm going Spiritually at the moment, perhaps the best way for now is to let the dust settle first.

No, I can’t say I have. What I am able to do, is recall in great detail, any person, place, situation, workplace, houses and memories from any time in my life. And recently I have been presented with several random memories from my past, including just walking down a particular street.Perhaps that's just a difference in the perception of time. My time drives Mrs G crazy, 'in a minute' can mean anything from ten minutes to sometime never.

Your memories aren't random, you're having them for a reason - it's your subconscious communicating with you. Which in itself says something.

I didn’t get the feeling that someone was sitting on my shoulder. It was like the adult me was sitting on the me that was 5 shoulders and the me that was 5 was sitting on the adult’s shoulders.

I think maybe you were tuning into someone else as I would have been wearing shorts and t-shirt, I hated dresses (still do) and my hair would have been cut short as my mum had it all cut off so I wouldn’t get stressed in hospital with someone trying to brush it. Ah right, you're getting the third party perspective rather than the direct experience, that would make sense.

Things like this are symbolism rather than literal. I could never imagine you as a flowing dress person, but that would symbolise a Spiritual 'you' rather than a physical/actual. And it was the adult that had the long hair.

I wondered I’d feel differently but unfortunately I don’t. There is a situation at work whereby I occasionally have to negotiate the object and I had to last week and the fear is still there, just about manageable. But this phobia/fear is so strong and believe me, I’ve had all kinds of therapy including hypnosis, to sort it – to no avail. I’m sure it will be with me for the rest of my days, I’m hoping that there aren’t any in spirit!! Perhaps your fear was the overriding factor there, if there had been any difference it would have been subtle.

Fear is a reaction to a large energetic differential, it's like a high voltage. It's also been a survival technique since we were swinging in the trees so don't put too much store in it. In Spirit you know everything, you fear what you don't know. Once you start dismantling your fear, it happens for all fears in time until you don't feel it any more. Allow yourself to experience it, because often the best way to understand anything is to experience it.

That video made me feel as though I was sitting in class, the whole thing going over my head and thinking, when’s it playtime!
So if I was missing something, I’m still missing it! For you, perhaps the video is out of context because you don't have the grounding in that kind of material. It's a bit like advanced car mechanics for the Luddites. Basically it means you're connecting to Sacred Geometry and the building blocks of the Universe itself.

Thank you, no mean feat over the internet!Credit where credit's due, and it's an internet of a different kind but still no mean feat.

Yes, you are thinking of kids with ADHD becoming hyper active due to the additives in some sweets. Luckily I don't have kids that are susceptible but I have spoken to a few parents, and now I think twice if I have any sweets.

I used to eat these which you could try as a snack. There’s so many different flavours.

https://www.hollandandbarrett.com/shop/product/eat-natural-almond-apricot-with-a-yoghurt-coating-60089736?skuid=089736

OOh no, not apricot. Yech! But thanks, I'll give anything a try. The local Tesco has a lot of that kind of stuff, just need to make sure that it's really natural. I'm weaning off coffee too and drinking trendy infusions. Mrs Go bought a box of different kinds so I'm ploughing my way through that.

Canteen food is little better than fast food. If you think about it, they are going to be using products that are bought in bulk, containing preservatives, additives, artificial flavourings, high fructose corn syrup, transfats, hydrolyzed vegetable proteins, MSG, table salt, sugar, processed meat which is more than likely GMO – the list goes on! I’m not surprised your acid reflux is kicking off. Salad can’t be messed around with (unless you smother it with salad cream). You see the difference? So you say there’s nothing specific? The specific thing is the canteen food; that is the common denominator!

So I would encourage you to ditch the canteen food altogether. And I am not speaking without experience here. I worked in a life assurance company in my early twenties, ate in their canteen every day (seem to remember a liking for chocolate mousse!) and developed a nice case of colitis. I had many trips to the hospital and I took the usual course of taking medication as I didn’t know any different. But I switched to salads and sandwiches and got myself off the medication eventually but my diet then was no where clean as it is today.

Instead of tinkering with canteen food and trying to see what works and what doesn’t, how about taking the short cut and stopping it altogether? Can you take your own food in? Prepare something before you leave? Take some of the previous night’s meal if you have access to a microwave or, whilst you try different things, have salad.My shifts are really awkward because of where they fall in the day. I don't start until a bit later so it feels like lunch five minutes in even after having had something to eat, and getting home it's early evening so I sometimes I can't be bothered. It seems to be pretty much the whole spectrum of canteen food that's doing it so it's got to be the way they cook it, and I dare say the food is as full of all kinds as you say. I'd think most of it comes pre-cooked and in bulk, and all the canteen staff have to do is reheat it.

To be honest the food isn't that great neither but it's been good enough, now not so much so alternatives are on the cards for sure. I'll have to retrain my stomach to expect more too, it's been so used to the bulk because I'm a pig when I start. This is going to be worse than stopping smoking lol. Curses and damnation.

OK, so I hope that you’re now spacing them out throughout the day and understand the reasoning.

I’m not sure what B12 tablets you’ve got but the reason I recommended the drops is because you’re already compromised on nutrient absorption, so holding the drops under your tongue for 15 seconds, you’re getting it into your system via the tissues of of the mouth rather than trying to absorb it through an already compromised digestive system.

Also, there are some vitamins that are synthetic, B12 being one of them. The synthetic version is known as cyanocobalamin and is used in cheaper supplements. The body has to work to convert this into a form it can use. B12 methylcobalamin is already converted to the bioavailable form your body needs and it stays in the body longer. This is the same for some other vitamins, including vitamin D. So, that is what I mean when I said all supplements are not made equal.

It would be worth having a look at the supplements you bought and see if it’s cyanocobalamin or methylcobalamin.I do the tablets in two lots and when I take them they don't have too much competition. In the morning it's only cereal and a couple of hours after supper, which usually isn't much more than a snack to tide me over. I'll have a check of the supplements though, I wasn't aware there was a difference.

My father had COPD.

So reflux is a hereditary / family thing; which makes getting a handle on your diet even more crucial as you have a predisposition. It would be worth having a conversation with your brother to find out, if he is aware, of what foods spark his AR, you may find some commonality.

I hadn’t realised you smoked (that’s the kind of thing I would miss doing this over the internet but I’ll work with what I have). You may not know this but nicotine blocks absorption of B12 and other nutrients in general, so between that and the AR, I wouldn’t be surprised if your B12 levels are on the floor. You should do well on this once it gets into your system; it will take a couple of weeks. Your body will be changing and recovering from the smoking; you may well find your sense of taste improves. It's mainly things like dairy and pasta that's the worst for him and certain vegetables, there doesn't seem to be any common ground in that respect. He's also had it worse and for longer so that's perhaps making a difference.

It's been a year past the first week in March since I stopped smoking. Go me!!! A few months after I treated myself to a bag of fizzy sour sweeties and they nuked my taste buds into orbit. I thought I'd gain some weight when I stopped but no such luck so far, but then if my digestive system is ****-up...

No problem, you’re welcome.

It is a steep learning curve for you and it depends how far you want to take it. I’ve been researching all this for about 12 years or more (as you can probably tell!) and I’m trying to gently nudge you in the right direction, point things out and raise your awareness so you can figure things out from your own experience – like why you’re reacting to the canteen food and the skittles. Once you get to a point where you have several days without the reflux and you are able to see this is because you’ve avoided certain foods, the whole healthy eating thing will take on a life of its own.

Not to put too fine a point on it but if it’s coming out the other end, then you are processing your food (although it is possible to have undigested food showing up and that’s not good). I think what’s happening is you’re not getting nutrients because of the reflux which could be causing the weakness / lack of energy. The B12 drops will help enormously with this and B12 is also needed to aid digestion.

As a matter of interest what did the vet have to say?

Please let me know if you get the specific digestive enzymes I suggested; the reason being they contain lactobacillus acidophilus which is a live probiotic bacteria and will help your gut flora.

If money is an issue let me know and I’ll try to search for something cheaper. There are a couple of brands that would fit the bill but they probably won’t contain all of the enzymes.

The whole issue of quality supplements is a subject in itself. A lot of high street / supermarket products use synthetic vitamins, bulking agents, binders and artificial sweeteners to name a few. You would be ingesting these and getting very little, if any of the vitamin or mineral, as well as the possibilty of reacting to some of the ingredients and potentially creating new problems. This is why I have several brands that are my ‘go to’, one of them being Biocare.

Have a look around the Biocare website as it is (well for me anyway) a fascinating look.

https://www.biocare.co.uk/

You mentioned some time ago, you were taking omega oils. Are you still taking them? And if so, can you give me a link to the brand you’re taking. Are you taking any other supplements?
It was kinda obvious that you were well and truly clued up about this stuff, only a Richard Cranium would have missed that one.

I don't get fanatical about anything, but this is one of those things that I've decided I can't live with any more and I want it gone. I'll have to find different treats that don't taste like soggy cardboard but those natural bars you've suggested might do the trick, it's just that a treat now and then does me good. I also need to work on my neuroplasticity because there's still the automatic choice of what isn't always good for me. Time for new habits I guess.

I haven't had the time so see the vet being honest. The past couple of weeks have been silly with trying to get Mrs G's father up here. He had a stroke a few years back and was left with the use of only one arm, and that's limited, as is his vocabulary. She'd been down to see him after some family carry-on and he was a mess - and as for the care he was paying through the nose for.... She came back in tears. We've finally managed to ship him and his belongings up here, so now it's getting him in and settled. Being honest the reflux isn't a priority right now, although it's not going to be much longer before it is. I was about to go into the kitchen for a lost of what pills I'm throwing down my neck but a stressed Mrs G threw me out while she sorts Sunday lunch. She's still in the process of de-stressing after us spending the day at her father's place.

This is really interesting. I’ve noticed this before when helping some people. Very occasionally when I start recommending certain supplements and explaining what they will do and why, it happened particularly with one woman, as we were talking she started instantly feeling a lot better. I’ve had this a time or two myself. I believe you are connecting energetically to the energy of the supplement before you’ve got it.

You’re absolutely right to think about what they are cooking in. They’re most likely using cheap vegetable oil, corn oil, sunflower oil, possibly even using the same oil for days. These oils are heavily processed and really bad for your health, so yes, you may well be reacting to the oils.

I find the best oils to cook with are advocado oil, olive oil (for salads and light frying) and coconut oil.It's like most things ritual I suppose, the frame of mind puts things into motion and the energy system begins to build up. With he consciousness it's already happened, but in the lower energetic density it takes a little more than an instant.

I don't have many cooked foods any more, luckily they have salads and the local Tesco has quite a good selection of sarnies and the like so I don't go hungry, and if I really fancy a change there are chippies and a Subway. There isn't much at work that doesn't set it off, about the only thing I can really enjoy is mince and tatties. While I quite like them it's monotonous.

Greenslade

30-07-2018, 12:04 AM

What higher motivation can there be to look after your health, especially when you start getting results? For me, it’s a case of if my stomach is happy, then I’m happy.
I’m giving you information, a little bit of knowledge, a gentle nudge and hopefully some encouragement that you can entirely take your health into your own hands. The rest is up to you.

So, how have you been this last week?

You didn’t mention the cramps last week, so has that cleared up?

How has it gone this week food wise?

Where are you with spacing out the supplements and have you got the enzymes and B12 drops? Just generally, how are you doing?

PatryciaI've lived through forces food and some of it not in the gourmet league, not to mention how uncivilised the cooking can be when you're camping half-way up a mountain in rubbish weather. I guess old age is taking it's toll, not only is my stomach becoming more delicate but but needs a week's notice to do what I used to do all night.

I do appreciate your input here, it's not something I usually worry about but I suppose there had to come a time when the system would begin to step closer to that giant scrapheap in the sky. For me it's a bit like surrendering and that's a tad galling so the mindset needs changing too.

I've been OK these past few weeks although the heat sucks the Life out of me anyway, it's a nightmare for me when I'm sweating both night and day but generally better, thank you. A little more energy and better mood, although I wasn't cranky anyway but I do enjoy a laugh more. The cramps have all but gone, they only happen if I've been sitting awkwardly which is what I often do if I'm concentrating. The sudden pain reminds me that the feet need to be firmly on the floor and not wrapped around the computer table.

Foodways it's been a lot better with nothing major for a while, it's beginning to settle down a bit finally so that's a blessing. Even when I'm being very good it twinges a little to remind me, but I'm guessing it's just that my system has 'got into the habit'. Yoghurt seems to be helping and the lack of chips is a culture shock, at least canteen chips anyways.

Just generally I'm not sure. All-in-all better thanks to your advice mainly but a lot of strangeness going on both in my head and Spiritually. As far as I've been able to work out my personality was fractured as a child, it got to the stage where I was disconnecting from the pain, I still felt it but it wasn't mine. If that makes any sense. It was a survival technique akin to the mind shutting itself off. Once in a while I'll feel my energies shifting and I'll feel like a different 'me' for a short time, as though there's an autonomous aspect of myself that needs expression. It's not bad but it is noticeable and sometimes I'm miffed if I feel that I am not being listened to when 'other me' is in charge. I'm borderline schizophrenic anyway, which is interesting anyway but it's not like that at all. It's as although I have two energetic beings 'in here' sometimes.

I've also been having random thoughts where I think things and they just happen, maybe the quantum-capable microtubules in the brain have been doing their thing and become entangled with the future. Yeah I know.

Patrycia-Rose

05-08-2018, 08:24 AM

Good morning Mr G,

She hasn't got a bad voice really so I won't chastise you for being a pain. I put YouTube on autoplay so I could listen along and up came https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T4JYVUlMtNg

I'm a huge live music fan and was the live events manager for a multi-media studio for a few years, and there's always something more natural about a live performance. It's easy to throw technology and make a scalded cat sound good, not so easy live. Her vocals are unchanged from the studio sound so that says a lot. It's OK, I can see the appeal she'd have for you, really.

That was awesome! And I completely agree with you, she sounds the same live as in the studio and that is rare. I also find her such a refreshing change and a fascinating character. I’ve watched several interviews and she’s so interesting to listen to and definitely her own person.

Did you find this on your youtube travels? I’ve never really liked the song but her version is amazing. There’s a bloke in the audience (about 3.06) clearly enjoying her brilliance).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6X0PqIWfzQ

If you want to practice your whistle-along..... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LY5RRsoUrcY

I smiled my way through that!

The ending really did suck, on that we can firmly agree. As soon ans I saw the road and the truck I was gone, and the determined look on Merlin's face.... Whoever wrote that needs shooting, along with the people that shot it. If there is no Golden Age because we are yet in the process of creating it?

I can accept all that plus he did get that recognition from Gaius.

But yes, the ending sucked big time! That last scene with the truck was just ..... well there are no words. :icon_sad:

I don't know what's going on in my sleep because I'm a very heavy sleeper, so night time kundalini wouldn't be noticed. There is something going on at night because I know I'm dreaming but i can't remember, and there's a kind of residual energy thing going on. It feels as though my energies change at night and deciding to go to bed seems to trigger it. Lying in bed just before I fall asleep feels like a kind of energetic twilight between worlds. In the morning I do feel like a different 'me' yet around me everything is the same - same old Universe but different 'me' experiencing it. I used to feel as though I was still in an almost-asleep state but now it feels more like a slow change in energetic states. If any of that makes sense.

Yeah, I can get all that. Curiously I also can’t remember my dreams for months now. There was a time when I used to do a lot of dream work, would have the most in depth and incredibly detailed dreams. But can’t remember a thing now. I think it’s a case of having moved beyond the need for that work now. When I wake up at night now, I start sending out blessings of light to the sun/moon, Earth, plants, the oceans, forests, animals and then all beings, chakras, egos, etc like Matt taught. I find it takes my mind off worrying about anything, I am being spiritually productive and it sends me to sleep. I can do this once a night or up to five times a night. And when I get up I think oh, I’ve had a busy night! But my guides have asked me to stop doing this whilst the kundalini is active and doing its stuff.

Have you heard of spiritual imprinting? I had a message from my guides recently during the night for me to clear my crown chakra of spiritual imprinting from my mother’s Alzheimers! To be honest, it freaked me out a little as I’d not heard of imprinting. They suggested I google it, and a search revealed much information saying that the spiritual imprinting between mother and daughter can be particularly strong. And I guess crown chakra because we were close and shared the same spiritual views plus her head injury and resultant alzheimers. I saw one website that said the power animals associated with crown chakra clearing were white birds (I’d been seeing a dove and swan), owls and butterflies, all of which I’d been seeing in the last few days, so that was pretty awesome!

But my upbeat mood and good emotional energy literally evaporated in the space of one afternoon and now I feel totally exhausted! Kundalini still around, so I must have moved into a different phase, one called ‘knackeredness’! It’s not much fun when you have to put in a full day’s work.

I have what I can only describe as a fractured personality, as far as I can make out it happened when I was a child, the combination of abuse and a few other factors that were happening at the time. It was a survival mechanism I think. I felt things, there was no escape from the pain but how I experienced it was pretty weird as I recall. That part of me is still here, it had an effect for years so I don't think it's going away too easily, and it feels like a different personality. It comes through once in a while but he's looking for acknowledgement, feeling like nobody and trying hard to be somebody but not succeeding..... Thing is, there's a definite change in my energies when he comes along and there's a definite energetic 'being' there in its/his own right.

My memory is creaking a bit thinking back to my CP days, but isn’t that emotional detachment and as you say, a survival mechanism. That would have led to the feeling of having a fractured personality.

That part of you will still be there and I guess it’s trying to find a way of bringing him back into the adult in a safe and secure way. I suspect that was why you were getting the feeling of him wanting acknowledgement, wanting to succeed.

The thing about the change in energies, when he comes along, is prompting you I think to connect, understand, forgive, love, however you want to put it. The child that experienced abuse needs to be acknowledged and loved by the adult; for the adult is the only one who can provide that.

But ........ I would be hesitant to go into it too deeply. You’ve had a lifetime of managing / coping mechanisms and sometimes it’s best to leave it alone.
The reason I’m saying this is because, well years ago I went to an evening class and much to my horror, discovered the object of my phobia (since 5 years) inside the building. There was an additional element to the setting and it made me go light headed, almost pass out type feeling and I never went back (even though I lost money doing so). But following the incident I decided to try and cure it by having CBT.

The woman who was ‘helping’ me wanted us to go round the local town in search of these objects to observe how I reacted and also to ‘de-sensitise’ me and the following week she wanted me to go in search myself and confront it. When I tried to do this several times (believing she knew what she was doing) I just couldn’t do it, standing outside, just couldn’t do it and over the course of those weeks I couldn’t sleep and when I did I would have nightmares, I lost my appetite, was tearful, light-headed, anxious and could barely function at work. So I decided to quit. But the damage was done. A situation which I could just about manage before, provided it wasn’t at the extreme end, was no longer manageable. I was a total wreck! So I decided to go for hypnotherapy where no real life confrontation was needed and I could go at the pace my own subconscious wanted to. And I said to the practitioner that really, I wasn’t expecting to resolve this completely, I just wanted to get back to the level I was at before I tried the CBT. It worked fortunately, over about eight weeks and I did have a profound insight in that it was influenced by having just come out of hospital, so I was vulnerable. At that point though, I was unaware of the connection to the past life death (only found that out in 2013). Needless to say I have no faith in CBT, won’t ever go near that again. So that’s the reason I say sometimes it’s best to leave things alone.

You have not ever been asleep, you have always been Spirit with voluntary amnesia because you Love yourself enough to give yourself this experience.

I realise that spiritual awakening is just a new age term. And I agree also with coming onto the earth plane with amnesia. A medium once told me that we have all the experiences and knowledge of our past lives inside us, like a computer, and I believe that is true. It was how I was able to access where my fear of travelling long distances on my own came from.

I caught that in the passing on the YouTube list and it caught my eye. I'm not sure where I'm going Spiritually at the moment, perhaps the best way for now is to let the dust settle first.

I’m giving the videos a rest for the time being, but that’s only because I’m reading his book and pretty awesome it is too! There’s a lot of clearings and activations in the last chapter but I am having to take that extremely slowly as with everything that’s going on at the moment spiritually, and on top of work, I don’t want to overload my system.

Your memories aren't random, you're having them for a reason - it's your subconscious communicating with you. Which in itself says something.

Interesting, I’m not sure what is says but I just allow / welcome the memory when it arrives but sometimes I do think I wonder why that one?

Ah right, you're getting the third party perspective rather than the direct experience, that would make sense.

Things like this are symbolism rather than literal. I could never imagine you as a flowing dress person, but that would symbolise a Spiritual 'you' rather than a physical/actual. And it was the adult that had the long hair.

You’d be right, the adult me does have long hair.

A third party perspective to the original incident is all I could face. Even now, as an adult, I would freeze in fear. Well, actually I wouldn’t freeze because there is no way I would put myself in a position of attempting it. When out and about, when I know the area, I know which places are OK and which to avoid.

I can remember when I had hypnotherapy that I was strapped up to a monitor of some sort and the therapist could tell I was standing outside with the intent of maybe going inside, because some rate or other was increasing.

I am not expecting to get over this in this lifetime. And it’s not something I want to explore anymore. I’ve done loads of hypnotherapy sessions, EFT, TAT (paid for sessions), even had a ‘soul retrieval’ which cost £400 and it still terrifies me!

Fear is a reaction to a large energetic differential, it's like a high voltage. It's also been a survival technique since we were swinging in the trees so don't put too much store in it. In Spirit you know everything, you fear what you don't know. Once you start dismantling your fear, it happens for all fears in time until you don't feel it any more. Allow yourself to experience it, because often the best way to understand anything is to experience it.

I’ve experienced the fear all my life in varying manageable degrees. It’s an extremely unusual situation and I’ve not taken many people into my confidence but when I explain the detail, most people can understand why it would be frightening for a 5 year old and that’s without knowing about the past life thing; I only found that out myself in 2013 when it came up again at work. I thought I was going to have to leave but I explained the situation to my manager in terms of what I needed to be able to manage the situation, and thankfully he sorted it for me. But I don’t want to start dismantling it because of what happened last time.

For you, perhaps the video is out of context because you don't have the grounding in that kind of material. It's a bit like advanced car mechanics for the Luddites. Basically it means you're connecting to Sacred Geometry and the building blocks of the Universe itself.

I shall humbly accept your word on that if it gets me out of a maths class!

Credit where credit's due, and it's an internet of a different kind but still no mean feat.

Thank you.

OOh no, not apricot. Yech! But thanks, I'll give anything a try.

I’m not overly keen on apricot either but this is the main website. My favourite used to be the date and walnut.

https://www.eatnatural.com/products/?categories=bars

It was kinda obvious that you were well and truly clued up about this stuff, only a Richard Cranium would have missed that one.

I’d not heard of that expression before and googled it and almost choked on my tea with laughter!

A little more energy and better mood, although I wasn't cranky anyway but I do enjoy a laugh more. The cramps have all but gone, they only happen if I've been sitting awkwardly which is what I often do if I'm concentrating. The sudden pain reminds me that the feet need to be firmly on the floor and not wrapped around the computer table.

Foodways it's been a lot better with nothing major for a while, it's beginning to settle down a bit finally so that's a blessing. Even when I'm being very good it twinges a little to remind me, but I'm guessing it's just that my system has 'got into the habit'. Yoghurt seems to be helping and the lack of chips is a culture shock, at least canteen chips anyways.

So the cramps have pretty much gone, I’ll consider that a success! :smile:

You didn’t say if you were on the enzymes or in the process of getting them, not sure where you are with the B12, if you’re sticking with the supplements you bought or if you’re going to get the drops, or what omega oils you’re on.

I can see that you have your time taken up at the moment with settling in your father in law, so I am going to leave all this to you for now. Your main issue is to keep clear from the canteen food. The digestive enzymes (if you get them), magnesium and B12 will support you but you’ll only benefit if you can change your diet. If you can sort your diet, settle in with the supplements, we can see what you’re left with and take it from there.

You have the information and links to go back over and if, when you get the time to read it back through, you’ll probably see that there is some information you overlooked.

I’m here if you want any further help down the line but it’s over to you for now.

I’m typing this up listening to one of my all time fave Quo songs:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKiaGcyYOPY

Patrycia

Greenslade

05-08-2018, 03:14 PM

Good morning Mr G,Good morning Patrycia. Today, for some reason, everything feels different.

That was awesome! And I completely agree with you, she sounds the same live as in the studio and that is rare. I also find her such a refreshing change and a fascinating character. I’ve watched several interviews and she’s so interesting to listen to and definitely her own person.

Did you find this on your youtube travels? I’ve never really liked the song but her version is amazing. There’s a bloke in the audience (about 3.06) clearly enjoying her brilliance).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6X0PqIWfzQ
Yeah, I get the feeling that she's there under her own terms, there's a kind of air of authenticity about her. I also get the feeling she's been classically-trained or she's been singing opera, in one of her YouTubes it struck me that the voice might well have come from someone with an orchestra at the back of her. Her whole stage is quietly vibrant in a subtle and understated way.

Yep. I can understand where that bloke's coming from.

I smiled my way through that! Oh good. That's one that I;ve never seen covered by anyone, maybe you should send the link to LP?

I can accept all that plus he did get that recognition from Gaius.

But yes, the ending sucked big time! That last scene with the truck was just ..... well there are no words. :icon_sad: Sometimes we do things because we feel we have to do them, recognition or not. But what would recognition have gained him, other than being burned at the stake?

Yeah, I can get all that. Curiously I also can’t remember my dreams for months now. There was a time when I used to do a lot of dream work, would have the most in depth and incredibly detailed dreams. But can’t remember a thing now. I think it’s a case of having moved beyond the need for that work now. When I wake up at night now, I start sending out blessings of light to the sun/moon, Earth, plants, the oceans, forests, animals and then all beings, chakras, egos, etc like Matt taught. I find it takes my mind off worrying about anything, I am being spiritually productive and it sends me to sleep. I can do this once a night or up to five times a night. And when I get up I think oh, I’ve had a busy night! But my guides have asked me to stop doing this whilst the kundalini is active and doing its stuff.

Have you heard of spiritual imprinting? I had a message from my guides recently during the night for me to clear my crown chakra of spiritual imprinting from my mother’s Alzheimers! To be honest, it freaked me out a little as I’d not heard of imprinting. They suggested I google it, and a search revealed much information saying that the spiritual imprinting between mother and daughter can be particularly strong. And I guess crown chakra because we were close and shared the same spiritual views plus her head injury and resultant alzheimers. I saw one website that said the power animals associated with crown chakra clearing were white birds (I’d been seeing a dove and swan), owls and butterflies, all of which I’d been seeing in the last few days, so that was pretty awesome!

But my upbeat mood and good emotional energy literally evaporated in the space of one afternoon and now I feel totally exhausted! Kundalini still around, so I must have moved into a different phase, one called ‘knackeredness’! It’s not much fun when you have to put in a full day’s work. My dreams of late have been a lot better, still can't remember but I'm not waking up feeling so shattered that I need another night's sleep. My dreams have changed too, there's a very different..... residual energy to them as though they're not as heavy.

I understand the idea of energetic imprinting but it hasn't happened with me. While my abuse was traumatic I always vowed not to be 'like him' as a father, so in a way it's note of an anti-imprint I guess, that he he was the role model I didn't want to be like. Certainly in more recent years I've understood how it's played a part in my Life to the stage where I felt I wanted to thank him.

When all this 'Ascension' stuff really kicked off I was drawn back to my very early childhood, back to where much of it really started. In this town it's hard not to because many of the people I went to school with or were friends with as a youngster are still around. Short trousers and snotty nose, knees always skinned and legs always bruised. I went back to the bus stop where I stood waiting for the bus in the middle of a snowstorm, and I was standing there in short trousers because that's all I had. My step-father had thrown me out for going against him, and that was only going to visit my grandmother. I've brought that Child Inside to my bosom a few times.

Much of this has come naturally to me, I've never really sought out cures and the like but the Universe seems to have provided 'cures' as and when. I have an original Topper Toys Johnny Seven gun that was given to me a couple of years ago, at the time it was the ultimate toy, something my parents could never afford to buy me and to set a pattern, the one time they did have enough they'd stopped production. Gotta adore that irony.

My memory is creaking a bit thinking back to my CP days, but isn’t that emotional detachment and as you say, a survival mechanism. That would have led to the feeling of having a fractured personality.

That part of you will still be there and I guess it’s trying to find a way of bringing him back into the adult in a safe and secure way. I suspect that was why you were getting the feeling of him wanting acknowledgement, wanting to succeed.

The thing about the change in energies, when he comes along, is prompting you I think to connect, understand, forgive, love, however you want to put it. The child that experienced abuse needs to be acknowledged and loved by the adult; for the adult is the only one who can provide that.

But ........ I would be hesitant to go into it too deeply. You’ve had a lifetime of managing / coping mechanisms and sometimes it’s best to leave it alone.
The reason I’m saying this is because, well years ago I went to an evening class and much to my horror, discovered the object of my phobia (since 5 years) inside the building. There was an additional element to the setting and it made me go light headed, almost pass out type feeling and I never went back (even though I lost money doing so). But following the incident I decided to try and cure it by having CBT.

The woman who was ‘helping’ me wanted us to go round the local town in search of these objects to observe how I reacted and also to ‘de-sensitise’ me and the following week she wanted me to go in search myself and confront it. When I tried to do this several times (believing she knew what she was doing) I just couldn’t do it, standing outside, just couldn’t do it and over the course of those weeks I couldn’t sleep and when I did I would have nightmares, I lost my appetite, was tearful, light-headed, anxious and could barely function at work. So I decided to quit. But the damage was done. A situation which I could just about manage before, provided it wasn’t at the extreme end, was no longer manageable. I was a total wreck! So I decided to go for hypnotherapy where no real life confrontation was needed and I could go at the pace my own subconscious wanted to. And I said to the practitioner that really, I wasn’t expecting to resolve this completely, I just wanted to get back to the level I was at before I tried the CBT. It worked fortunately, over about eight weeks and I did have a profound insight in that it was influenced by having just come out of hospital, so I was vulnerable. At that point though, I was unaware of the connection to the past life death (only found that out in 2013). Needless to say I have no faith in CBT, won’t ever go near that again. So that’s the reason I say sometimes it’s best to leave things alone.I'm a firm believer that things will happen when they're ready to. Piece by piece I'm putting myself back together again but it doesn't feel as if there's anything wrong. I'm quite happy being these different aspects because it gives me a very different perspective on Life. In many ways I'm forever young. There's been a lot of nostalgia going on and times when, as a child. I've felt another presence close to me. I'd got used to my father being there but this one was different somehow. While I haven't ruled out false memory I'm pretty sure there was a conscious and energetic 'back the future' thing going on.

No I'm not digging, these things will come out in their own good time. When they happened I was emotionally detached from it all although not to the state of not feeling the pain. I also remember a lot of what was going through my mind at the time and it wasn't what you'd expect. I remember my step-father walking across the room towards me looking menacing, but it was as though he was wearing a mask. I just wanted him to get on with it so he could be done with it.

Whoever told you to go find your phobia and confront it needs shooting, seriously. That's not just stupid it's a level of dangerous on top. I get the feeling you're not supposed to come to terms with that one in this Life, it's certainly deep down in your psyche and it's buried that deep for a reason.

I realise that spiritual awakening is just a new age term. And I agree also with coming onto the earth plane with amnesia. A medium once told me that we have all the experiences and knowledge of our past lives inside us, like a computer, and I believe that is true. It was how I was able to access where my fear of travelling long distances on my own came from.For me it puts a whole new light on things, because if we came from Spirit with amnesia with the intention of developing Spiritually, isn't that telling? Allan Watts said that if you are Spiritual you are God playing at being not-God.

I’m giving the videos a rest for the time being, but that’s only because I’m reading his book and pretty awesome it is too! There’s a lot of clearings and activations in the last chapter but I am having to take that extremely slowly as with everything that’s going on at the moment spiritually, and on top of work, I don’t want to overload my system. There's an energetic lull happening right now where the sudden rapid changes that have been happening are beginning to settle down a little, and it feels that's in preparation for some more. You've also been through the mill of late so a break wouldn't be a bad thing.

Interesting, I’m not sure what is says but I just allow / welcome the memory when it arrives but sometimes I do think I wonder why that one? All you have to do is think about how you react to it. If it puzzles you then there's something you haven't figured out about it. If it makes you turn around three times and spit then it's telling you that there's a curse on you and you need to spit it out. The subconscious isn't logical, at least not to the mind anyway. For instance, what can happen is that your subconscious needs to shift something that can seem totally unrelated to your mind, but that will allow a more free flow of energy which will make a difference to.... and so on.

You’d be right, the adult me does have long hair.

A third party perspective to the original incident is all I could face. Even now, as an adult, I would freeze in fear. Well, actually I wouldn’t freeze because there is no way I would put myself in a position of attempting it. When out and about, when I know the area, I know which places are OK and which to avoid.

I can remember when I had hypnotherapy that I was strapped up to a monitor of some sort and the therapist could tell I was standing outside with the intent of maybe going inside, because some rate or other was increasing.

I am not expecting to get over this in this lifetime. And it’s not something I want to explore anymore. I’ve done loads of hypnotherapy sessions, EFT, TAT (paid for sessions), even had a ‘soul retrieval’ which cost £400 and it still terrifies me! Have you tried Shadow Work? It has been mentioned before in the conversation but I don't remember the details. My head leaks. Thing is, what I'm hearing from you is that you've spent a lot of time, effort and money on external 'cures' for this and you're still no better off. Or worse. I also think a perceptual lack of control that can come from being wired up can be trying to use the same hammer that caused it in the first place. Perhaps what would work better for you is something more 'internal', where you could ask questions then deal with what comes from them at your own depth and pace.

I’ve experienced the fear all my life in varying manageable degrees. It’s an extremely unusual situation and I’ve not taken many people into my confidence but when I explain the detail, most people can understand why it would be frightening for a 5 year old and that’s without knowing about the past life thing; I only found that out myself in 2013 when it came up again at work. I thought I was going to have to leave but I explained the situation to my manager in terms of what I needed to be able to manage the situation, and thankfully he sorted it for me. But I don’t want to start dismantling it because of what happened last time. Have you looked at the fear itself and not the cause? Sometimes it helps when we perceive what we feel as a being or a symbolic form, so fear could look like a dark monster with claws and teeth. When that happens it becomes more tangible to the human mind and the mind is more able to deal with it on its own terms.

I shall humbly accept your word on that if it gets me out of a maths class! LOl. It's really not that bad, most of this Sacred Geometry is about patterns more than anything else.

Thank you.You're very welcome.

I’m not overly keen on apricot either but this is the main website. My favourite used to be the date and walnut.

https://www.eatnatural.com/products/?categories=bars
{/quote]I'll get Mrs G right on it. She's been doing her thing lately and has literally gone to town on getting my new diet up and running, and everything I eat has now been duly scrutinised. The good thing is that it's easing off, and the vet should have blood test results when I go back mid-week.

I’d not heard of that expression before and googled it and almost choked on my tea with laughter!It's ancient, I first heard it when I was sin the RAF but it never gets old. You should try it with your colleagues and see how they react - if they have the sense of humour.

So the cramps have pretty much gone, I’ll consider that a success! :smile:

You didn’t say if you were on the enzymes or in the process of getting them, not sure where you are with the B12, if you’re sticking with the supplements you bought or if you’re going to get the drops, or what omega oils you’re on.

I can see that you have your time taken up at the moment with settling in your father in law, so I am going to leave all this to you for now. Your main issue is to keep clear from the canteen food. The digestive enzymes (if you get them), magnesium and B12 will support you but you’ll only benefit if you can change your diet. If you can sort your diet, settle in with the supplements, we can see what you’re left with and take it from there.

You have the information and links to go back over and if, when you get the time to read it back through, you’ll probably see that there is some information you overlooked.

I’m here if you want any further help down the line but it’s over to you for now.

I’m typing this up listening to one of my all time fave Quo songs:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKiaGcyYOPY

PatryciaYep, a success down to you. Thank you.

At the moment I'm on Omega-3 Fish Oil, which is about all it says about it. I also seem to remember that there was an article about how it wasn't that much healthy after all so I'm not sure on that one. It's Vitamin B complex which has B12, the reason I got that one was because of the other ** that'll help too. I'm also on potassium supplements and eat bananas regularly for the potassium amongst other things. To be honest I've made a lot of changes over the past couple of weeks so right now I just feel it's a good time to settle down a little. My diet has also taken a wallop so..... It's not that I'm complaining and I am grateful really, but right now it feels as though I should wait for the tests and what might come from them. It's kinda weird but I don't feel like 'me' any more. Mrs G's just coming out the back of some major emotional **** with her father, and that's been happening for about a year or so. It's been settling down but it came with an almighty bump and things happened very quickly. And it's had its effect on me too, especially after her heart attack because of it. There's been a huge change to my eating habits and with all the pills and potions and that's brought a change of paradigm - it's not something I'm used to, having just shovelled it down lol. I just want to catch my breath because there's something in the wind.

Again I'll say thank you and stress that I do appreciate it, and that it's something I'm not used to people doing for me.

I'm not much of a Quo fan being honest but I found this quite good. I usually go for music that has a lot going on at the same time. Try this, just coz it's bonkers - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8vBKI3ya-l0

Patrycia-Rose

12-08-2018, 07:21 AM

Good morning Mr G,

Not liking this cooler rainy weather. The heatwave was a blast and such fun all round!

Yeah, I get the feeling that she's there under her own terms, there's a kind of air of authenticity about her. I also get the feeling she's been classically-trained or she's been singing opera, in one of her YouTubes it struck me that the voice might well have come from someone with an orchestra at the back of her. Her whole stage is quietly vibrant in a subtle and understated way. Yep. I can understand where that bloke's coming from.

That's beautiful! :hug3:

It’s funny you should mention classically trained as I found this on my googling. Just a bit of innocent fun but at 3.08!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K4nrkpL9RJY

When I went to order a second CD I was preparing myself for something I’m sure you would recognise. You enjoy a CD so much, order a second one and extreme disappointment, it’s not as good and it was a one trick pony! So with this in mind I put on the first track fully prepared to be disappointed and it was so brilliant, I was quite overcome with emotion! And not only is this album excellent, I almost prefer it to the first one I ordered as it’s a little heavier / rock.

I’ve had several sunbathing sessions in my garden listening to this under the blue sky / full sun looking at the bees on the lavender – and it was one of those ‘perfect’ moments that feels emotionally overwhelming – in a good way. I call them crown chakra moments!

I wake up in the night with these songs blaring out loud and clear in my head.

These are the two albums I have:

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Lost-You-UK-Version-Tracks/dp/B06Y2MDKW7/ref=sr_1_1?s=music&ie=UTF8&qid=1533553481&sr=1-1&keywords=laura+pergolizzi+cd

This is the second, rockier version which sounds pretty awesome on my rather ancient Bang & Olufsen!

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Forever-Now-Deluxe-LP/dp/B075CMNSHX/ref=sr_1_2?s=music&ie=UTF8&qid=1533553481&sr=1-2&keywords=laura+pergolizzi+cd

Whoever told you to go find your phobia and confront it needs shooting, seriously. That's not just stupid it's a level of dangerous on top. I get the feeling you're not supposed to come to terms with that one in this Life, it's certainly deep down in your psyche and it's buried that deep for a reason.

Yes, that’s what the hypnotherapist said to me, or a more polite version, I could tell she wasn’t impressed. I remember being really worried that I’d done myself some serious, possibly permanent, damage as this had gone on for weeks and it was the ‘not being able to function at work’ that really worried me as it was in a high pressure job in my CP days and here I was falling apart at the seams, completely de-stabilised! I was fortunate that I found a good hypnotherapist who was able to calm things down. There’s a lot of misunderstanding about being hypnotised, mainly due to the stuff on TV; but it just takes you to a deep state of relaxation, I was fully aware of everything, what I said etc. The monitor I mentioned was put on my finger and was just an indication to the therapist that I was in a sufficient state of relaxation and also when I was brought out of it, again it helped the therapist to know I was out.

As you say, I don’t think I’m going to come to terms with this in this lifetime. If you think that the terror that I feel is linked to a rather horrible death at 5 years old in a past life, that’s pretty big odds to overcome, so I’m not surprised that nothing’s touched it.

There's an energetic lull happening right now where the sudden rapid changes that have been happening are beginning to settle down a little, and it feels that's in preparation for some more. You've also been through the mill of late so a break wouldn't be a bad thing.

Thank you, that made me feel cared for. I’m so used to looking out for myself, and not always getting it right either, it’s good when someone else points this out as it’s like a big sign waving in front of me!

I’m certainly going through an incredibly intense new phase. Since the initial exhaustion which came out of nowhere a few weeks ago, my energy levels have recovered. But I’m into a phase where what seems to be happening is I’m experiencing intense emotions that are triggered by events, like I’ve had three experiences of extreme disappointment, a couple of frustration/anger and one of extreme shock. And it feels like these events are being triggered to burn these emotions out of my field. I also feel in my solar plexus a sense of peace / content / willingness to go with the flow. All this is being accompanied by the ongoing kundalini energy; it feels like three of four times a day and sometimes in the night, it feels like I’ve stepped into a sauna! But it’s more maneagable now the weather has cooled.

The ‘shock’ incident was awful. I was driving to work (I live in a rural area) and a deer ran out in front of me, about a metre in front of my car. It was over so quickly I didn’t even have time to react, just a sharp intake of breath. How I didn’t hit it, I don’t know! I’ve always been very strong with the power animals and I would have devastated had I injured/killed it. The universe was clearly looking after the deer and me. It really did shake me up for the day and I’m sure looking back that was about bringing shock to the surface to have it burned out of my field, as has happened with the other emotions brought to the surface.

You remember all those triangle formations back in December. One formation of two triangles side by side in pink, has come back; something to do with DNA activation as I recall. And then last night, these two triangles appeared within in white circle. And this morning I’m seeing a slightly elongated purple triangle.

And then Matt posted this on his blog, which describes perfectly what’s going on:

https://mattkahn.org/energy-update-exploring-dark-night-of-the-soul/

Have you tried Shadow Work? It has been mentioned before in the conversation but I don't remember the details.

Yes you’ve mentioned shadow work before and I did some and discovered the link between my recent trauma and the hospital experience I had when I was 5 (I wrote about it many posts ago).

Have you looked at the fear itself and not the cause? Sometimes it helps when we perceive what we feel as a being or a symbolic form, so fear could look like a dark monster with claws and teeth. When that happens it becomes more tangible to the human mind and the mind is more able to deal with it on its own terms.

That’s a really good question. The fear I feel physically which freezes me, also freezes my brain/mind so it’s not something I’ve ever thought about breaking down into smaller chunks.

The fear itself feels - this is going to come out in a very childlike way as this would be the 5 year old speaking - it feels as though the object is very large against me who is very small and that I’m going to be gobbled up and die! As an adult the object is still twice as large as me. I’ve been plagued by nightmares all my life but a little less of late. But this is directly related to a death in a past life so the only way of tackling it would be via a past life regression and I ain’t about to do that, not with my track record!

The good thing is that it's easing off, and the vet should have blood test results when I go back mid-week.

What did the vet test for? I’m thinking, hoping, it would be for Helicobacter pylori, a bacterial infection, that may cause AR as well as other digestive issues. Please let me know just in case it changes anything.

It's ancient, I first heard it when I was in the RAF but it never gets old. You should try it with your colleagues and see how they react - if they have the sense of humour.

I asked one of the blokes I get on really well with at work and he completed my sentence before I finished asking about it!

At the moment I'm on Omega-3 Fish Oil, which is about all it says about it. I also seem to remember that there was an article about how it wasn't that much healthy after all so I'm not sure on that one. It's Vitamin B complex which has B12, the reason I got that one was because of the other ** that'll help too. I'm also on potassium supplements and eat bananas regularly for the potassium amongst other things. To be honest I've made a lot of changes over the past couple of weeks so right now I just feel it's a good time to settle down a little.

OK, I can see my work is not over just yet:

Omega Oils:

Yes, there is new research that is saying fish oils are not good for you, particularly if you have a compromised immune system. But I’m not entirely convinced about this as that would be like saying eating fish isn’t good for you. What I do agree with is the concern that fish these days are heavily contaminated with PCBs, dioxin and mercury etc. If you remember the government, years ago, recommended restricting fish to two portions a week due to heavy metal contamination and that situation won’t have resolved itself. I need to do some more research as I remember hearing all this about a year ago but got waylaid by Professor Kahn! The recommendation was to get oils from a plant based source. But according to other research, you can’t get all of the oils you need from a plant based source only and the fish oils are in the form needed for the body.

You also need to get the ratio correct between 3 and 6. My immediate thoughts on this is that a balanced approach is best. The ones I use are these: they take their fish oil from anchovies which is one of the least contaminated fish sources, it also contains evening primrose oil (plant based) and has mixed tocopherals (that’s Vit E) and is both 3 and 6. I get on well with these and if I stop them, I notice I’m not as mentally sharp. So you may want to consider changing to these to get the balance right between 3 and 6, less contaminated and a blend of fish/plant oils.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Omega-3-6-Essential-Evening-Primrose-Capsules/dp/B007W1JIQ2/ref=sr_1_1_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1533724631&sr=8-1&keywords=vegepa

Vitamin B complex

OK, I didn’t realise you’d gone for a complex but they will be helping you as there will be B12 in there as well as all the other B vits. But the effectiveness of the B Complex is going to entirely depend on the quality of supplement you have bought.

Remember a few posts back, I said that not all supplements are made equal. If you’ve picked this up from the high street or supermarket they are more than likely not going to be a good quality:

Look on the back of your B complex.

If the B12 is listed as Cyanocobalamin, it is the synthetic version. If it is listed as Methylcobalamin, it is the natural version.

If the vitamin B6 is listed as Pyridoxine Hydrochloride it is the synthetic version. If it is listed as Pyridoxal-phosphate (it may be listed also as PLP) is the natural form.

If what you have is the synthetic version, it means that your body has to work hard to convert this into the version it needs which, considering your AR, is going to be difficult. Plus the synthetic versions can create new problems. The natural version is already converted, so your body doesn’t have to do it and drops are even better as they enter the system via the tissues of the mouth, not the digestive system.

If you need further evidence:

https://www.globalhealingcenter.com/natural-health/synthetic-vs-natural-vitamins/

https://flightamins.com/pages/natural-vs-synthetics

So can you now see why the brand and quality of your supplement is critical?

Potassium supplements

If you smoke you can be low on potassium but it can aggravate acid reflux. If you look at the amount you’re getting from your supplement, it is minimal and that is because excess potassium can cause problems.

https://www.healthline.com/health/potassium

Once you are confident you’ve kicked the smoking, you should be able to get your daily potassium from bananas; also coconut water is very high in potassium as well as being rather nice and a natural way to get it. Also if you start to use Pink Himalayan salt in your cooking that is high in potassium. There are other ways to get nutrients, e.g via foods but you need to know what to look for.

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/315081.php

So you’re on B Complex, magnesium, omega 3 and potassium. That isn’t excessive. If all comes back clear from the vet, it would be good for you to consider the digestive enzymes for all the reasons I’ve described before. I think you would massively benefit from these and if you are digesting your food better, you will be absorbing the nutrients from your food better, so double win.

Here’s the link to the specific enzymes I use (and please don’t get a ‘high street’ enzyme).

https://www.amazon.co.uk/BioCare-Polyzyme-Forte-Enzyme-Complex/dp/B0013G4AEC/ref=sr_1_1_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1533553052&sr=8-1&keywords=biocare+polyzyme+forte

I have provided brief explanations for each point but have given links as well, as if I had to fully explain all this, I’d be here all day!

If I get some time, I’ll put together a few pointers for cleaning up your diet, what to look out for, what to avoid and a few specific items.

So you’re off to a good start so I’ll leave all this with you now and in the meantime, I’ve been asked to help someone at work who has high blood pressure and someone else suffering from cramps. so that’ll be my next port of call.

Again I'll say thank you and stress that I do appreciate it, and that it's something I'm not used to people doing for me.

You're very welcome, happy that I could help. :hug3:

Patrycia

Greenslade

12-08-2018, 03:01 PM

Good morning Mr G,
Not liking this cooler rainy weather. The heatwave was a blast and such fun all round!Good morning Patrycia

This I can cope with. For weeks I've been going home and wringing my socks out, my poor toes looking like prunes. Certainly too much of a good thing.

That's beautiful! :hug3:

It’s funny you should mention classically trained as I found this on my googling. Just a bit of innocent fun but at 3.08!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K4nrkpL9RJY

When I went to order a second CD I was preparing myself for something I’m sure you would recognise. You enjoy a CD so much, order a second one and extreme disappointment, it’s not as good and it was a one trick pony! So with this in mind I put on the first track fully prepared to be disappointed and it was so brilliant, I was quite overcome with emotion! And not only is this album excellent, I almost prefer it to the first one I ordered as it’s a little heavier / rock.

I’ve had several sunbathing sessions in my garden listening to this under the blue sky / full sun looking at the bees on the lavender – and it was one of those ‘perfect’ moments that feels emotionally overwhelming – in a good way. I call them crown chakra moments!

I wake up in the night with these songs blaring out loud and clear in my head.

These are the two albums I have:

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Lost-You-UK-Version-Tracks/dp/B06Y2MDKW7/ref=sr_1_1?s=music&ie=UTF8&qid=1533553481&sr=1-1&keywords=laura+pergolizzi+cd

This is the second, rockier version which sounds pretty awesome on my rather ancient Bang & Olufsen!

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Forever-Now-Deluxe-LP/dp/B075CMNSHX/ref=sr_1_2?s=music&ie=UTF8&qid=1533553481&sr=1-2&keywords=laura+pergolizzi+cd
Thank you.

That was enjoyable, it's nice to see a star not taking themselves too seriously sometimes.

It depends, sometimes I've had a better first album or next album, I guess you can't please all the people all the time so sometimes it's inevitable that you're going to have a track or album here or there that isn't to your liking.

The last album I actually bought was Moby's Porcelain, and that must have been around 2006 or thereabouts. I download everything now, even movies - which is useful because it saves me a fortune.

Yes, that’s what the hypnotherapist said to me, or a more polite version, I could tell she wasn’t impressed. I remember being really worried that I’d done myself some serious, possibly permanent, damage as this had gone on for weeks and it was the ‘not being able to function at work’ that really worried me as it was in a high pressure job in my CP days and here I was falling apart at the seams, completely de-stabilised! I was fortunate that I found a good hypnotherapist who was able to calm things down. There’s a lot of misunderstanding about being hypnotised, mainly due to the stuff on TV; but it just takes you to a deep state of relaxation, I was fully aware of everything, what I said etc. The monitor I mentioned was put on my finger and was just an indication to the therapist that I was in a sufficient state of relaxation and also when I was brought out of it, again it helped the therapist to know I was out.

As you say, I don’t think I’m going to come to terms with this in this lifetime. If you think that the terror that I feel is linked to a rather horrible death at 5 years old in a past life, that’s pretty big odds to overcome, so I’m not surprised that nothing’s touched it.Sometimes what can help is kind of nibbling at the edges of it rather than going head on. You mentioned terror for instance, if you just analyse what you feel in the moment rather than trying to find the root cause that begins to erode it a little. Always make sure you have an 'escape route', that you know you can back out if need be. The other thing to remember is that you're not dealing with a horrible death any more, what you're dealing with is your perceptions and not the death itself. It was a Past Life after all so it's more of a third party perspective.

Sometimes you have to run with what you feel. If this is rearing its ugly head then it's doing so for a reason, and bear in mind that it's a part of your being anyway. What you also have to remember is that you've changed quite considerably since you had that reaction, so the question is are you afraid of having that same reaction again?

Part of this could be that it's not there to be dealt with directly, but the reasons you choose to deal with it or not and this can be a part of the Ascension process. It's been said that if you don't feel seven shades of hate for yourself you've not really been through the Ascension process. What it can do is make us dig deep into the darkest corners of our Shadow Self, which is where all those pesky things we don't want to deal with are stored. Terror and how we deal with it can tell us a lot about ourselves.

The terror you feel here and now should be dealt with on a here-and-now basis and even though it may well be linked to a Past Life, it's what you feel right here right now. You can deal with that accordingly by analysing your feelings objectively. What that can do is start an avalanche, for want of a better description. Your energies are focussed on finding an understanding instead of the terror so that's a double whammy in itself, and because you are energetically linked to the Past Life if your energies ease so will 'theirs'.

I'm not going to tell you what to do but your reasons and intentions are what's going to make the changes, not - for now at least - resolving it. The bottom line is that you're going to move on from here, the only question is what with?

Thank you, that made me feel cared for. I’m so used to looking out for myself, and not always getting it right either, it’s good when someone else points this out as it’s like a big sign waving in front of me!

I’m certainly going through an incredibly intense new phase. Since the initial exhaustion which came out of nowhere a few weeks ago, my energy levels have recovered. But I’m into a phase where what seems to be happening is I’m experiencing intense emotions that are triggered by events, like I’ve had three experiences of extreme disappointment, a couple of frustration/anger and one of extreme shock. And it feels like these events are being triggered to burn these emotions out of my field. I also feel in my solar plexus a sense of peace / content / willingness to go with the flow. All this is being accompanied by the ongoing kundalini energy; it feels like three of four times a day and sometimes in the night, it feels like I’ve stepped into a sauna! But it’s more maneagable now the weather has cooled.

The ‘shock’ incident was awful. I was driving to work (I live in a rural area) and a deer ran out in front of me, about a metre in front of my car. It was over so quickly I didn’t even have time to react, just a sharp intake of breath. How I didn’t hit it, I don’t know! I’ve always been very strong with the power animals and I would have devastated had I injured/killed it. The universe was clearly looking after the deer and me. It really did shake me up for the day and I’m sure looking back that was about bringing shock to the surface to have it burned out of my field, as has happened with the other emotions brought to the surface.

You remember all those triangle formations back in December. One formation of two triangles side by side in pink, has come back; something to do with DNA activation as I recall. And then last night, these two triangles appeared within in white circle. And this morning I’m seeing a slightly elongated purple triangle.

And then Matt posted this on his blog, which describes perfectly what’s going on:

https://mattkahn.org/energy-update-exploring-dark-night-of-the-soul/
You're most welcome, and you are cared for.:hug3:

Sometimes there's a 'purging' that goes on, a flushing out of the system if you like. Emotions are energy in motion and what can happen to us poor humans is that we don't know how to let them go sometimes, and sometimes we don't know we're holding on to them until something pokes them with a sharp stick. It's part of the clearing out the 'old you' to make way for the 'new you'. It's not fun sometimes but it's always worth it. The extremity you feel it isn't so much about the energy itself but the depths to which you are capable of feeling, and I'm guessing that what you've been feeling in your experiences is what you wouldn't normally 'give vent' to - you wouldn't let disappointment linger inside you for too long before you felt you had to turn it around.

For me there was a.... knowing that everything was OK, and I was OK with being me for the first time in a long time. The Universe around me was OK.

That was a pretty cool shock, not so much when it was happening but afterwards certainly. If you like getting your system working that's a damned good way to do it. I guess you're not always good at dealing with the unexpected? Sometimes it feels as though your mind has conjured up the experience leaving you to wonder if it really happened. Are you left wondering if the deer didn't somehow defy the laws of physics?

Just noticed, it's been a year we've been rattling away with this. Happy thread anniversary.

Yeah, I think Matt's describing too perfectly what's going on. I had a quick look but to be honest I wasn't quite ready to face it in any kind of depth right now. I caught snippets here and there and it's bookmarked for later. There's been times in my Life when I've gone through major changes and they've been very much Dark Night of the Soul stuff but this is crazy in comparison. Usually I tend to shut myself off, not wanting to relate to the outside world until I'm good and ready. This time it feels more like an integration of the aspects of my self; the fractured personality, the Child Inside......

Yes you’ve mentioned shadow work before and I did some and discovered the link between my recent trauma and the hospital experience I had when I was 5 (I wrote about it many posts ago).I do remember you writing about your hospital experience. Once you discover that there is a link you can do something that can be very productive. We can't change history but we can change our perspective of it and that can make a huge difference. I know from my own experiences that we can give our past selves a little comfort even though we can't change the event itself.

That’s a really good question. The fear I feel physically which freezes me, also freezes my brain/mind so it’s not something I’ve ever thought about breaking down into smaller chunks.

The fear itself feels - this is going to come out in a very childlike way as this would be the 5 year old speaking - it feels as though the object is very large against me who is very small and that I’m going to be gobbled up and die! As an adult the object is still twice as large as me. I’ve been plagued by nightmares all my life but a little less of late. But this is directly related to a death in a past life so the only way of tackling it would be via a past life regression and I ain’t about to do that, not with my track record! There are a number of ways you can tackle this - if you're going to tackle it at all. The thing to remember is that you're not dealing with the Past Life trauma, what you're actually dealing with is how you feel right now. Right here right now you're feeling fear so deal with that.

The mind works best with visualisations so use them to your advantage. If the 5-year-old is speaking then it's obviously a visualisation of a childhood trauma, so keep everything in that context. From your perspective now, you could see yourself as someone standing beside the girl coaching and comforting her to get her through this. Remember that your consciousness isn't as constrained as your physical body, so consciously you can be both as you are now and comforting the little girl, or you could be the little girl being comforted by 'adult you'.

What did the vet test for? I’m thinking, hoping, it would be for Helicobacter pylori, a bacterial infection, that may cause AR as well as other digestive issues. Please let me know just in case it changes anything. The vet tested for a whole list of things that she thought it could possibly be, and sucked out about three gallons of blood. OK I exaggerate but it felt like it. She could find nothing at all that would cause the AR or my feeling weak. I was also weighed and was shocked, because I've put on weight since I was first there so that didn't make any sense neither. She said that the haemoglobin count should be five and that mine was 4.9, but that was hardly worth the mention. She did ask me if I was depressed but that didn't figure because there's really nothing to be depressed about. I have days where life isn't perfect but then not enough to get depressed about.

What I was thinking is that it all seemed to start around the same time as this Ascensions stuff so I'm wondering if there's an energetic link happening there. The other thing it could be is a psychological reaction to the Spiritual changes. If the problems are in my head/emotional that would make sense because I've been digging very deep into childhood issues.

I asked one of the blokes I get on really well with at work and he completed my sentence before I finished asking about it! Interesting.

OK, I can see my work is not over just yet: Actually this is scary for me because I have an 'anti-ego', which I guess hasn't helped in the past. Paying myself all this attention doesn't sit right so I'm doing this through gritted teeth. And before you say it I know, but it's just...

Omega Oils:

Yes, there is new research that is saying fish oils are not good for you, particularly if you have a compromised immune system. But I’m not entirely convinced about this as that would be like saying eating fish isn’t good for you. What I do agree with is the concern that fish these days are heavily contaminated with PCBs, dioxin and mercury etc. If you remember the government, years ago, recommended restricting fish to two portions a week due to heavy metal contamination and that situation won’t have resolved itself. I need to do some more research as I remember hearing all this about a year ago but got waylaid by Professor Kahn! The recommendation was to get oils from a plant based source. But according to other research, you can’t get all of the oils you need from a plant based source only and the fish oils are in the form needed for the body.

You also need to get the ratio correct between 3 and 6. My immediate thoughts on this is that a balanced approach is best. The ones I use are these: they take their fish oil from anchovies which is one of the least contaminated fish sources, it also contains evening primrose oil (plant based) and has mixed tocopherals (that’s Vit E) and is both 3 and 6. I get on well with these and if I stop them, I notice I’m not as mentally sharp. So you may want to consider changing to these to get the balance right between 3 and 6, less contaminated and a blend of fish/plant oils.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Omega-3-6-Essential-Evening-Primrose-Capsules/dp/B007W1JIQ2/ref=sr_1_1_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1533724631&sr=8-1&keywords=vegepa

Vitamin B complex

OK, I didn’t realise you’d gone for a complex but they will be helping you as there will be B12 in there as well as all the other B vits. But the effectiveness of the B Complex is going to entirely depend on the quality of supplement you have bought.

Remember a few posts back, I said that not all supplements are made equal. If you’ve picked this up from the high street or supermarket they are more than likely not going to be a good quality:

Look on the back of your B complex.

If the B12 is listed as Cyanocobalamin, it is the synthetic version. If it is listed as Methylcobalamin, it is the natural version.

If the vitamin B6 is listed as Pyridoxine Hydrochloride it is the synthetic version. If it is listed as Pyridoxal-phosphate (it may be listed also as PLP) is the natural form.

If what you have is the synthetic version, it means that your body has to work hard to convert this into the version it needs which, considering your AR, is going to be difficult. Plus the synthetic versions can create new problems. The natural version is already converted, so your body doesn’t have to do it and drops are even better as they enter the system via the tissues of the mouth, not the digestive system.

If you need further evidence:

https://www.globalhealingcenter.com/natural-health/synthetic-vs-natural-vitamins/

https://flightamins.com/pages/natural-vs-synthetics

So can you now see why the brand and quality of your supplement is critical?

Potassium supplements

If you smoke you can be low on potassium but it can aggravate acid reflux. If you look at the amount you’re getting from your supplement, it is minimal and that is because excess potassium can cause problems.

https://www.healthline.com/health/potassium

Once you are confident you’ve kicked the smoking, you should be able to get your daily potassium from bananas; also coconut water is very high in potassium as well as being rather nice and a natural way to get it. Also if you start to use Pink Himalayan salt in your cooking that is high in potassium. There are other ways to get nutrients, e.g via foods but you need to know what to look for.

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/315081.php

So you’re on B Complex, magnesium, omega 3 and potassium. That isn’t excessive. If all comes back clear from the vet, it would be good for you to consider the digestive enzymes for all the reasons I’ve described before. I think you would massively benefit from these and if you are digesting your food better, you will be absorbing the nutrients from your food better, so double win.

Here’s the link to the specific enzymes I use (and please don’t get a ‘high street’ enzyme).

https://www.amazon.co.uk/BioCare-Polyzyme-Forte-Enzyme-Complex/dp/B0013G4AEC/ref=sr_1_1_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1533553052&sr=8-1&keywords=biocare+polyzyme+forte

I have provided brief explanations for each point but have given links as well, as if I had to fully explain all this, I’d be here all day!

If I get some time, I’ll put together a few pointers for cleaning up your diet, what to look out for, what to avoid and a few specific items.

So you’re off to a good start so I’ll leave all this with you now and in the meantime, I’ve been asked to help someone at work who has high blood pressure and someone else suffering from cramps. so that’ll be my next port of call.I need to move forwards with the right intentions so....

Fresh omega oils are now on the shopping list. Mrs G was told by the doctor after her heart attack to take that particular Omega-3 so using the same ones made sense, but if your recommendations have more oomph then I'll run with that. Mrs G's on the case, she's had a thing about organising everybody since she had her stroke so.....

I've been stopped smoking for a year past March and I'm definitely not going back, even though right now I could use one. Even the smell on other people makes me feel pukey so I doubt I'll be able to stomach actually smoking. Mrs G tells me she has a shaker with Himalayan salt, which is good news because we stopped using salt when she went on her health kick and I miss the taste. Bargain!!

To be honest right now I'm a little wary of taking enzymes because I've been prescribed with Omeprazole twice-daily, which is apparently quite a hefty dose to keep the AR down - the recommended is one per day. The vitamin complex is fine according to Mrs G because she's checked. Spiffing.

So yes, a good start for the time being so thank you. There are some things I really miss eating but they'll have to go. I still haven't got my head around all this healthy eating malarkey but a bit of perseverance and neuroplasticity should sort that out.

You're very welcome, happy that I could help. :hug3:

PatryciaAgain, thank you.

Patrycia-Rose

19-08-2018, 07:24 AM

Morning Mr G

The last album I actually bought was Moby's Porcelain, and that must have been around 2006 or thereabouts. I download everything now, even movies - which is useful because it saves me a fortune.

The last few CDs I got were Jack Savoretti; a friend introduced him to me and I immediately liked his music. I’ve never got into downloading music. I like to have a hard copy CD, then I can play it on my CD player in the lounge, put it onto my laptop / transer it onto my MP3 player and I’ve always got the CD if laptop/MP3 player goes wrong.

Sometimes you have to run with what you feel. If this is rearing its ugly head then it's doing so for a reason, and bear in mind that it's a part of your being anyway. What you also have to remember is that you've changed quite considerably since you had that reaction, so the question is are you afraid of having that same reaction again?

I don’t know why that experience happened recently of re-visiting that memory as an adult; I had and still have no intention of actively trying to confront it. I’ve had a life time of trying and it not helping. It’s so entrenched in my make up I think it would take a miracle not to feel that fear.

Part of this could be that it's not there to be dealt with directly, but the reasons you choose to deal with it or not and this can be a part of the Ascension process. It's been said that if you don't feel seven shades of hate for yourself you've not really been through the Ascension process. What it can do is make us dig deep into the darkest corners of our Shadow Self, which is where all those pesky things we don't want to deal with are stored. Terror and how we deal with it can tell us a lot about ourselves.

I’ve never had any kind of hate for myself. I’ve left that to other people lol! I’ve always been the odd one out, always doing things naturally a different way from everyone else and basically going against the grain. I was certainly not going to add to that by hating myself.

Matt said in the ‘Unknow Yourself’ video .... “that should be the national anthem in the new paradigm. I've got 99 problems but myself ain't one!”

Sometimes there's a 'purging' that goes on, a flushing out of the system if you like. Emotions are energy in motion and what can happen to us poor humans is that we don't know how to let them go sometimes, and sometimes we don't know we're holding on to them until something pokes them with a sharp stick. It's part of the clearing out the 'old you' to make way for the 'new you'. It's not fun sometimes but it's always worth it. The extremity you feel it isn't so much about the energy itself but the depths to which you are capable of feeling, and I'm guessing that what you've been feeling in your experiences is what you wouldn't normally 'give vent' to - you wouldn't let disappointment linger inside you for too long before you felt you had to turn it around.

For sure, whatever I was feeling disappointed about, the rational, soothing, mind would kick and start trying to sort it for me.

That was a pretty cool shock, not so much when it was happening but afterwards certainly. If you like getting your system working that's a damned good way to do it. I guess you're not always good at dealing with the unexpected? Sometimes it feels as though your mind has conjured up the experience leaving you to wonder if it really happened. Are you left wondering if the deer didn't somehow defy the laws of physics?

Totally, how I missed it or it missed me, I’ll never know! In all my 25 years of living here, that has never happened before!

Just noticed, it's been a year we've been rattling away with this. Happy thread anniversary.

I thought it must be getting near that ‘year’ time! That also means that my studying and learning from Matt is also approaching a year as it wasn’t too far into this thread that you recommended I watch The First Wave of Ascension and the rest, as they say, is history! It’s really a good way see how far I’ve come as I was recently re-visiting one of the first videos I watched which was the Path of Courage. I wrote down one sentence to ‘capture’ the message of the video, the rest of it going over my head. But now I understand all of it and not only that, I chose to re-watch that one now and it kinda describes where I’m at. I’ve made such progress under his watch.

Yeah, I think Matt's describing too perfectly what's going on. I had a quick look but to be honest I wasn't quite ready to face it in any kind of depth right now. I caught snippets here and there and it's bookmarked for later. There's been times in my Life when I've gone through major changes and they've been very much Dark Night of the Soul stuff but this is crazy in comparison. Usually I tend to shut myself off, not wanting to relate to the outside world until I'm good and ready. This time it feels more like an integration of the aspects of my self; the fractured personality, the Child Inside......

I must admit I hoovered up every word! Having had a number of these experiences of being disappointed / shocked / angry, the bit that jumped out to me was ......” In most cases, in order to inspire the nervous system to empty out the layers of density that are ready to be healed, we undergo the process of being emotionally triggered.”

That describes exactly what’s been happening of late. He’s just started doing these energy updates and they’re usually bang on the money. I just find it so reassuring and it helps makes sense of what’s going on for me.

In another recent update, he spoke in depth about numbers. Again, I’d been seeing numbers such as 2.34, 4.56 and he explained that ....”anytime we see a sequence, such as 123, 456, 789 in any form of encodement, it is a message from the Universe that you are taking the necessary steps in your journey and have integrated much of the healing and expansions sent your way, in order to be lifted in consciousness to enter a new portal of possibility.”

Also he explains about 666 and 999 and in the two days before he released this, I’d been seeing 999. Sublime synchronicity!

https://mattkahn.org/entering-the-portal/

The mind works best with visualisations so use them to your advantage. If the 5-year-old is speaking then it's obviously a visualisation of a childhood trauma, so keep everything in that context. From your perspective now, you could see yourself as someone standing beside the girl coaching and comforting her to get her through this. Remember that your consciousness isn't as constrained as your physical body, so consciously you can be both as you are now and comforting the little girl, or you could be the little girl being comforted by 'adult you'.

I’ll hold it in mind, but unless I get a significant prod from the universe I’m leaving well alone!

I was also weighed and was shocked, because I've put on weight since I was first there so that didn't make any sense neither.

What I was thinking is that it all seemed to start around the same time as this Ascensions stuff so I'm wondering if there's an energetic link happening there.

If you remember, since I stopped running, I’ve put on a few pounds but the relentless eating has settled down and with the pilates I’ve been doing to strengthen my abdominals/core, I’ve toned up and lost a few pounds. I have read that putting on a bit of weight due to ascension is common as it is the body’s way of putting on a protective layer of fat, so that may well fit your description too. The odd thing is with me is that although I know I’ve put on weight as my trousers are not as loose as they were, the scales are saying I’m still 8 stone. How weird is that!

I think that ascension is really tough on the physical body. What does get to me occasionally is the fact that I have a full time job to do on top of everything else. It’s tough for sure. And it’s frustrating but funny at the same time, when you’re in a meeting and you have a great big purple triangle in your third eye the whole time and the instant it’s there you notice the time is 14.44!

I just hope it’s all worth it wherever this is going.

Interesting.

Interesting?? Do tell?

Actually this is scary for me because I have an 'anti-ego', which I guess hasn't helped in the past. Paying myself all this attention doesn't sit right so I'm doing this through gritted teeth. And before you say it I know, but it's just...

That doesn’t sound helpful. I can’t think of a better way of loving yourself / looking after yourself, giving yourself the greatest chance of health – than by eating wholesome, nutritious food. Also, the ascension process will go more smoothly if your body isn’t burdened by toxins and processed food. I don’t eat any processed or unnatural foods at all, it’s loads of fruit/veg, organic meat, full fat organic dairy, herbs/spices, organic white tea, spring water (in glass bottles only) and I know what and how to avoid GMO, including secondary GMO, what to cook in and what not to cook in and the chemicals to avoid in everyday cleaning products, self care and beauty products.

This is all second nature to me now as I’ve been doing it for so long. In fact at work they had a mug made for me with the words ‘no ta’ on it as every time anyone offers me a cake or biscuit etc, the answer would be a polite no thank you!

To be honest right now I'm a little wary of taking enzymes because I've been prescribed with Omeprazole twice-daily, which is apparently quite a hefty dose to keep the AR down - the recommended is one per day.
That is a commonly recommended PPI for AR.

We had got off to a good start with sorting the cramps and you said the AR had eased as a result of keeping off additives which was a pretty amazing start. It would have been good to see where the digestive enzymes would have taken you, and there were some possibilities I had in mind to settle things further but a couple of weeks, and without the enzymes, is not long enough to see where this would have taken you. The natural approach and medication don’t really go together – so if you are going to go down the medication route, then I can’t really help any further other than suggesting you continue to identify trigger foods as I am fairly confident this is where your problems lie.

Recently I’ve been watching the original Star Wars trilogy, half an hour or an hour in the evening. It’s a really good way to watch something as I’ve just not got the attention span or am too knackered to watch a complete film in one go these days; too many other conflicting interests! But it’s strange how you can come back to something years later and see/hear things from a different angle. What struck me was Yoda describing the force to Luke.

“A Jedi's strength flows from the Force. But beware of the dark side. Anger... fear... aggression. The dark side of the Force are they. Easily they flow, quick to join you in a fight. If once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny, consume you it will, as it did Obi-Wan's apprentice.”

Just made me think the force is universal / spiritual energy and the ‘dark side’ is the inflamed human ego.

Patrycia

Greenslade

19-08-2018, 01:35 PM

Morning Mr GGood morning Patrycia, and even more splendid because it's hols time. Not so splendid because Mrs G has me organised for most of the week. Sigh.

The last few CDs I got were Jack Savoretti; a friend introduced him to me and I immediately liked his music. I’ve never got into downloading music. I like to have a hard copy CD, then I can play it on my CD player in the lounge, put it onto my laptop / transer it onto my MP3 player and I’ve always got the CD if laptop/MP3 player goes wrong. A friend of mine asked me if I could find some music for him, he was running around with a huge CD case-full of it. I asked him for a list and a memory stick, now he has something like 2,000 tracks on his keyring. More often than not downloading means I can find obscure/outdated music more easily, and since my computer is also the TV, CD and radio all in one....

I don’t know why that experience happened recently of re-visiting that memory as an adult; I had and still have no intention of actively trying to confront it. I’ve had a life time of trying and it not helping. It’s so entrenched in my make up I think it would take a miracle not to feel that fear.The things we can't or won't deal with are consigned to the Shadow Self, which is something Spiritual people seem to point blank ignore yet it can make a huge difference in our psychology - even to the point of being one of the reasons we decide to be Spiritual. It resides in the subconscious and that doesn't play by the same rules as the conscious mind, logic and reason can be blown out of the window for the sake of different priorities. The subconscious is where your dreams come from.

Fear is a very low-vibrational state of existence but I'm not being prejudiced there. Also bear in mind what you've been through this past long while with your ascension process, so while your vibrations have been rocketing skywards you still have a lead balloon in there. The subconscious mind has its own priorities and tends not to do things in a linear fashion, which throws the mind off - but that doesn't mean there isn't a logic there just the same. The natural state for your conscious and subconscious minds is harmony, fear and ascension are polar opposites and are not in harmony with each other.

Yes it probably is entrenched in your psyche, fear is one of the most primordial instincts man has and has done him a lot of service since he climbed out of the trees. And miracles do happen; you are a walking, talking miracle in yourself. But y'know, sometimes giving fear a safe haven within ourselves is interesting because it can show you so much.

You are the answer looking for the question; what are the reasons for actively confronting it? If it is so entrenched, is confronting it the best way to deal with it, or is it there to tell you something?

I’ve never had any kind of hate for myself. I’ve left that to other people lol! I’ve always been the odd one out, always doing things naturally a different way from everyone else and basically going against the grain. I was certainly not going to add to that by hating myself.

Matt said in the ‘Unknow Yourself’ video .... “that should be the national anthem in the new paradigm. I've got 99 problems but myself ain't one!”I think the moral behind that was to express the way ascension can force us into looking into all those dark, dusty corners that we'd forgotten about, and in doing that some/most wouyldn't like themselves very much. And yes, I understand going against the grain. I've had so many 'recollections' that I could have hated myself so easily, but if I can't accept my own warts how can I accept those of others?

For sure, whatever I was feeling disappointed about, the rational, soothing, mind would kick and start trying to sort it for me.There's something called 'cognitive dissonance', in simple terms it's the 'lock-on, lock-out' principle; when you lock onto something you lock everything else out. It's at that point where the brain shunts it to either the conscious mind or the subconscious Shadow Self.

Totally, how I missed it or it missed me, I’ll never know! In all my 25 years of living here, that has never happened before!I've had a few of those, there's no real explanation as far as the mind can discern sometimes but it happens just the same. Whatever the reason for it happening - if there is one - it says that the Universe still has a lot up its sleeve.

I thought it must be getting near that ‘year’ time! That also means that my studying and learning from Matt is also approaching a year as it wasn’t too far into this thread that you recommended I watch The First Wave of Ascension and the rest, as they say, is history! It’s really a good way see how far I’ve come as I was recently re-visiting one of the first videos I watched which was the Path of Courage. I wrote down one sentence to ‘capture’ the message of the video, the rest of it going over my head. But now I understand all of it and not only that, I chose to re-watch that one now and it kinda describes where I’m at. I’ve made such progress under his watch.There are times when I'm pretty much forced to take stock and this is one of them, my 'anti-ego' often deflects when I should be acknowledging. It took me over a year to pop the cork on that bottle of that rather fine single malt the boss gave me for winning the regional Unsung Hero award. There's something special in helping people find their own Light that never gets old, in standing still to watch them pick up the baton and run with it. It's just nice to be a part of that process, an honour actually. I guess so many want to feel as though they're a part of something bigger than themselves, that there's something beyond their own skin.

Thank you, sincerely, for that co-creation.

I must admit I hoovered up every word! Having had a number of these experiences of being disappointed / shocked / angry, the bit that jumped out to me was ......” In most cases, in order to inspire the nervous system to empty out the layers of density that are ready to be healed, we undergo the process of being emotionally triggered.”

That describes exactly what’s been happening of late. He’s just started doing these energy updates and they’re usually bang on the money. I just find it so reassuring and it helps makes sense of what’s going on for me.

In another recent update, he spoke in depth about numbers. Again, I’d been seeing numbers such as 2.34, 4.56 and he explained that ....”anytime we see a sequence, such as 123, 456, 789 in any form of encodement, it is a message from the Universe that you are taking the necessary steps in your journey and have integrated much of the healing and expansions sent your way, in order to be lifted in consciousness to enter a new portal of possibility.”

Also he explains about 666 and 999 and in the two days before he released this, I’d been seeing 999. Sublime synchronicity!

https://mattkahn.org/entering-the-portal/
Numbers!! Damned numbers!!!!! I had to fill something in at work when a voice said to me "Those are your numbers." I was trying the 'work with the Universe more consciously' bit and did all the LoA stuff about attracting and changing paradigms, so I asked the HS for the winning numbers for the lottery. He said I'd get them. So there I was filling in this form and hearing the voice so I made a note of the numbers. It was the date - 16/08/18. They went on the lottery ticket along with multiples of eight, along with five and three for the bonus balls. I had to get it done by seven on Friday - another magic number. Walking up to the stand they had a screen that was showing the expected draw - £88million. I couldn't lose, could I? Gues what, no Rolls Royce Cullinan called Rocky (Rocky the roller, geddit?) for me then. Oh well. Interestingly numbers leave me cold so they're not the kind of thing I'd usually take any real notice of.

I am going through a hell of a lot of emotional stuff right now and I'm trying not to resist its expression but.... Being a very emotional kinda guy doesn't help any. I've always had an affinity with Matt's material and it han't changed, but now it's hitting me very emotionally and it's becoming a little overwhelming to be honest.

I’ll hold it in mind, but unless I get a significant prod from the universe I’m leaving well alone!It'll happen in its own good time.

If you remember, since I stopped running, I’ve put on a few pounds but the relentless eating has settled down and with the pilates I’ve been doing to strengthen my abdominals/core, I’ve toned up and lost a few pounds. I have read that putting on a bit of weight due to ascension is common as it is the body’s way of putting on a protective layer of fat, so that may well fit your description too. The odd thing is with me is that although I know I’ve put on weight as my trousers are not as loose as they were, the scales are saying I’m still 8 stone. How weird is that!

I think that ascension is really tough on the physical body. What does get to me occasionally is the fact that I have a full time job to do on top of everything else. It’s tough for sure. And it’s frustrating but funny at the same time, when you’re in a meeting and you have a great big purple triangle in your third eye the whole time and the instant it’s there you notice the time is 14.44!

I just hope it’s all worth it wherever this is going. Sometimes you just can't fight metabolism. I'm destined to be a skinny runt so I've just made myself comfortable in my own skin and got on with it.

I used to work in a training organisation, the third largest provider in the UK. The job itself was chaos because because I had little choice but to react - you can't plan when people are going to not understand databases or copy-and-paste. I'm more of an energy person and that's what I'd continually sense, it felt as though the whole room was awash with eddies of energy currents and I'd be swimming through treacle. I;d be sitting next to someone and taking them through their first encounter with a spreadsheet but feeling everything they felt. Very disconcerting most times. My current job is great because now I'm left to get on with it, and as long as I keep my nose clean nobody bothers me. It's a strange feeling sometimes but it's as though I'm the hermit that people respect, and if they don't they'll get turned into a toad.

It's all very aerodynamic.

Interesting?? Do tell? Ooh nooooo!! That's your Path.:tongue:

That doesn’t sound helpful. I can’t think of a better way of loving yourself / looking after yourself, giving yourself the greatest chance of health – than by eating wholesome, nutritious food. Also, the ascension process will go more smoothly if your body isn’t burdened by toxins and processed food. I don’t eat any processed or unnatural foods at all, it’s loads of fruit/veg, organic meat, full fat organic dairy, herbs/spices, organic white tea, spring water (in glass bottles only) and I know what and how to avoid GMO, including secondary GMO, what to cook in and what not to cook in and the chemicals to avoid in everyday cleaning products, self care and beauty products.

This is all second nature to me now as I’ve been doing it for so long. In fact at work they had a mug made for me with the words ‘no ta’ on it as every time anyone offers me a cake or biscuit etc, the answer would be a polite no thank you! Actually it's very helpful because now I have to learn to love myself and look after other certain aspects of myself - health being the obvious. For me, this is quite a shift in my paradigm and to be honest a lot of the time I'm having to really think about it. The canteen staff still haven't quite come to terms with it, they used to see me coming and put chips and beans on a plate ready. When you're trying to get used to something you've never been used to....

That is a commonly recommended PPI for AR.

We had got off to a good start with sorting the cramps and you said the AR had eased as a result of keeping off additives which was a pretty amazing start. It would have been good to see where the digestive enzymes would have taken you, and there were some possibilities I had in mind to settle things further but a couple of weeks, and without the enzymes, is not long enough to see where this would have taken you. The natural approach and medication don’t really go together – so if you are going to go down the medication route, then I can’t really help any further other than suggesting you continue to identify trigger foods as I am fairly confident this is where your problems lie.

Recently I’ve been watching the original Star Wars trilogy, half an hour or an hour in the evening. It’s a really good way to watch something as I’ve just not got the attention span or am too knackered to watch a complete film in one go these days; too many other conflicting interests! But it’s strange how you can come back to something years later and see/hear things from a different angle. What struck me was Yoda describing the force to Luke.

“A Jedi's strength flows from the Force. But beware of the dark side. Anger... fear... aggression. The dark side of the Force are they. Easily they flow, quick to join you in a fight. If once you start down the dark path, forever will it dominate your destiny, consume you it will, as it did Obi-Wan's apprentice.”

Just made me think the force is universal / spiritual energy and the ‘dark side’ is the inflamed human ego.

PatryciaI've been living with this for over two years now and that's taken its toll in not just my physical state but my psychological state too. To be honest I'm sick to the back teeth of feeling this way and I know a 'quick fix' is no long term solution but just right now I need a clean slate. It seems that short of not eating at all I don't have much that hasn't triggered the AR, and that includes 'rabbit food'. For the best part of a week I had little besides salads but it didn't make a difference. I even went as far as cutting out fruit because of any acid content and drinking just water - no diluting stuff. It's got to the stage where I'm noticing that my voice has changed, it's become much more gravelly so I can't help but wonder if the AR has affected it. If it's got to that stage then what else has it affected?

I don't want to Live with the medication for the rest of my Life, I'd much rather find a better way through natural/supplement/proper diet means but right now I'm angry and frustrated, and I want it gone. Yeah I know it sounds like an over-reaction but it's in line with everything else that's happening inside. Sorry for venting, but it's coming close to wits' end territory. It sounds bonkers but it feels good to just break wind and not feel yourself bracing against what you know too well is coming.

So, for now at least it's receded and I can eat without having to worry about the consequences, but at the same time I'm still conscious that I need to pay attention to my diet. I guess it's a knackered old git thing, old age doesn't come on its own. It's just as likely to be an ascension symptom, and if they are yearly then perhaps it'll subside on its own. Maybe this will give my system a chance to sort itself out so that later on I can get more benefit from more natural means.

That damned Yoda was too clever for his own good, and in many ways the themes only wear different clothes. What Yoda's talking about I think is our capacity for the expression of good or evil, and how narrow and difficult the 'right Path' is. But then, if Darth Vader had never embraced the dark side would would he ever have been faced with the dilemma of Luke versus Sith lord, would he have been saved at all?

The ego has always been given some bad press, and frankly some of it.... Not very Spiritual. It's been our friend for a long time, it's given us survival techniques and even made us Spiritual, because Spirituality is built on the frameworks the ego has created. Jung said that the ego is a sense of I am, so if you can say "I am Spiritual?"

Patrycia-Rose

26-08-2018, 07:50 AM

Good morning Mr G,

What a rather cool, rainy day - I do hope we get some more hot weather before the summer comes to an end.

The things we can't or won't deal with are consigned to the Shadow Self, which is something Spiritual people seem to point blank ignore yet it can make a huge difference in our psychology - even to the point of being one of the reasons we decide to be Spiritual. It resides in the subconscious and that doesn't play by the same rules as the conscious mind, logic and reason can be blown out of the window for the sake of different priorities. The subconscious is where your dreams come from.

It is not true to say I “won’t” deal with it, as I have tried many times. I tried Cognitive behavioural Therapy for several months before it destroyed my equilibrium. Followed by hypnotherapy which settled things down again and gave me an understanding of how this happened as a result of several different strands happening at once. I also had Tapas Acupressure Technique sessions with a practitioner.

If someone said to me this is the way to deal with, work hard and it will be released, I would. But given my experiences of how that has not worked for me, with things settled, I’m not going to risk dealing with it when it is rarely an issue now. Also, I am in a job where I need to be sharp and focused. I am not going to risk attempting to deal with it when the result could be I fall apart again. My livelihood depends on it.

Also, for years I would have frequent nightmares. Now I hardly have any.

Fear is a very low-vibrational state of existence but I'm not being prejudiced there. Also bear in mind what you've been through this past long while with your ascension process, so while your vibrations have been rocketing skywards you still have a lead balloon in there. The subconscious mind has its own priorities and tends not to do things in a linear fashion, which throws the mind off - but that doesn't mean there isn't a logic there just the same. The natural state for your conscious and subconscious minds is harmony, fear and ascension are polar opposites and are not in harmony with each other.

Maybe, but the fear is not with me constantly. The instances of these things occurring now is much less, particularly as buildings become modernised. Also, because I rarely venture out anywhere unknown these days, it’s even more rare.

And just because I have this phobia, does not mean I am not in harmony. In fact these days, I am far more IN harmony than I have ever been.

Thank you, sincerely, for that co-creation.

Co-creation is a work in progress at the moment as it is something I don’t completely understand yet.

But thank you also as I don’t have anyone I can discuss ascension with, particularly some of the more unusual stuff like the triangles.

And also thank you for introducing Matt to me. I would just be doing the same old same old if it wasn’t for his teachings.

I am going through a hell of a lot of emotional stuff right now and I'm trying not to resist its expression but.... Being a very emotional kinda guy doesn't help any. I've always had an affinity with Matt's material and it han't changed, but now it's hitting me very emotionally and it's becoming a little overwhelming to be honest.

I understand being overwhelmed by Matt’s materials. I remember, very well, when I’d listened to just a couple of his videos that had got my attention. I got up on a Saturday morning at 6 am as I usually do to go and get my shopping from the supermarket (to avoid the crowds). So I thought whilst I was having breakfast I’d start another video and began to listen to “The End of Inner Conflict”. It really hit me hard as I recognised the self-limiting and critical behaviour towards myself all those years. And I sat there sobbing over my museli!

I used to cry a lot with his earlier videos as I could see how corrosive my thoughts had been and the messages that I had been sending to myself in the past and how the new blueprint of his teachings liberated me from all that. Nowadays I find it affirming when he describes certain limiting behaviours and I think no, I don’t do that and I don’t think like that anymore. It’s like my mind has been broken open over the past year, I’ve seen the damaging effects of my thoughts and actions, and then gently put back together with a new way of thinking, a new way of approaching life, a far more gentler way of being with myself and others. And whilst all that has been occurring, I’ve had been having kundalini deep heat up to 12 times day/night burning out all that emotional debris, so I feel much lighter in myself.

Ooh nooooo!! That's your Path.:tongue:

Ah, if you’re thinking of some sort of romantic liaison, that is not on the cards! I’ve lived happily on my own for almost 30 years and am not looking for that to change. The last romantic connection I had was in 2016 in the ‘realms’ and that’s the main reason I want to get back there. But alas the energy needed for that liaison to be at it most profound, is not there at the moment. Too much other stuff going on, and I know that if that relationship was happening, it would be too much of a distraction and I wouldn’t have made the progress I’ve made over the last year. But I do think about him a lot and if it’s meant to be, it will happen when the time is right.

I don't want to Live with the medication for the rest of my Life, I'd much rather find a better way through natural/supplement/proper diet means but right now I'm angry and frustrated, and I want it gone. Yeah I know it sounds like an over-reaction but it's in line with everything else that's happening inside. Sorry for venting, but it's coming close to wits' end territory. It sounds bonkers but it feels good to just break wind and not feel yourself bracing against what you know too well is coming.

You sound like I did for twelve years, angry and frustrated and wanted it gone! Made even more angry by the fact that nothing worked! What I was told by a medium is that anger is acidic, which isn’t doing any good ; kind of a catch 22. But I do understand, I had years of it myself, with a bedroom door which was the target of my anger and which still needs repairing.

You mentioned you’d had his for two years; is there something that happened two years ago that could have sparked this off? Change of location, redundancy, emotional upset etc.

One of the reasons I ask is sometimes these things can be sparked by emotions. Years ago I had a digestive issue which would not return to normal. It had even got to the stage where I’d made an appointment with the vet. And then one day I sat at home and dowsed to try and sort it out. After an hour of dowsing I discovered that the emotion of ‘exasperation’ had lodged in my digestive system slowing it down, which in turn caused more exasperation with it not functioning as it should – so that was a catch 22. I created half a dozen EFT statements, perfecting them throughout the day in my mind with the intention of doing them the next morning. I didn’t even have to do the EFT - because as I was perfecting the statements, they were working their magic and normality was restored that very day!

So you could try tackling this with EFT.

So, for now at least it's receded and I can eat without having to worry about the consequences, but at the same time I'm still conscious that I need to pay attention to my diet. I guess it's a knackered old git thing, old age doesn't come on its own. It's just as likely to be an ascension symptom, and if they are yearly then perhaps it'll subside on its own. Maybe this will give my system a chance to sort itself out so that later on I can get more benefit from more natural means.

That’s the trouble with ascension; you don’t know if any symptom is genuine or ascension. Have you googled ascension and AR?

This last week the kundalini deep heat moments which had been happening for up to a dozen times a day has pretty much eased off now and yesterday and last night, there was nothing at all. It’s taken a few days to adjust as I almost missed it. What’s happening now is I’m getting the black and white triangles again in my third eye during the day and also during the night. I’ve attached a digram at the end of the post as to what they look like. Looking back on my notes, this is a sign that DNA strands are being activated to do with the lightbody.

And I am beginning to dream again. I’ve had two dreams that I remember and rather bizarrely both were about ………… drum roll ………… painting! Of all the things!

Patrycia

Greenslade

26-08-2018, 11:54 AM

Good morning Mr G,

What a rather cool, rainy day - I do hope we get some more hot weather before the summer comes to an end.Good morning Patrycia,

It's nice to see the seasons change, to notice these things and not let them pass without being acknowledged. So many people going nowhere faster and with ever more stress. It was on a wild and windy Autumnal day that I met the Flaky Flier and his/her friends, a small flock of swallows that were surfing the currents of the trees. I spent a long time standing watching them that day, and it led to quite a few realisations.

We used to call it Tankerpool Sunshine when I was in the RAF. Every day was Tankerpool Sunshine.

It is not true to say I “won’t” deal with it, as I have tried many times. I tried Cognitive behavioural Therapy for several months before it destroyed my equilibrium. Followed by hypnotherapy which settled things down again and gave me an understanding of how this happened as a result of several different strands happening at once. I also had Tapas Acupressure Technique sessions with a practitioner.

If someone said to me this is the way to deal with, work hard and it will be released, I would. But given my experiences of how that has not worked for me, with things settled, I’m not going to risk dealing with it when it is rarely an issue now. Also, I am in a job where I need to be sharp and focused. I am not going to risk attempting to deal with it when the result could be I fall apart again. My livelihood depends on it.

Also, for years I would have frequent nightmares. Now I hardly have any.I was talking more generally here, and after coming to know you I won't suggest that it's something you would choose not to do.

A couple of years back I was talking to someone about Life's Purpose, I think what she wanted initially was to understand that there was such a thing. She'd lost her son to cancer and while she said she wanted to understand generally, later on it came out that she wanted to know if there was one at play with her son. That lead to all kinds of weirdness, Past Life stuff and receiving messages and seeing him in dreams. Anyway, the upshot was that the traumas he'd gone through in this Life were having an impact on what he was doing in Spirit. It was as though his Soul wanted to carry them on to the next Life.

Sometimes the best we can do is not heal but come to terms.

Maybe, but the fear is not with me constantly. The instances of these things occurring now is much less, particularly as buildings become modernised. Also, because I rarely venture out anywhere unknown these days, it’s even more rare.

And just because I have this phobia, does not mean I am not in harmony. In fact these days, I am far more IN harmony than I have ever been.It's more of a pain in the backside to put a lighter spin on it than being in a state of disharmony. Part of the Ascension process is bringing out the dark and dusty corners of ourselves that we'd wish away if that were at all possible, the things we thought we'd dealt with 'back then' but they come back to haunt us anyway. I'd guess that given an ideal situation you'd rather be in a position where you could venture any old where you liked.

I said this in the context of you wondering why these things have suddenly surfaced, and it's part-and-parcel of the Ascension process. I'm not saying you should confront them and gouge them out with a plastic spoon, nor am I saying your vibrational state is sadly lacking. What I am saying is that as part of the process is that you have these things buried in your subconscious and it needed to express to your conscious mind that it still holds hose things, After that it's entirely up to you what you do with them. Deal with them, accept them, acknowledge them and store them away for another rainy day......

The real irony is in the definition of how people define Spiritual, because often they completely miss the Spirituality of it all. As Spirit we have access to the Akashic Records, collective consciousness blah blah, yet here we are for our Spiritual Development so for me, already the questions come thick and fast. Sometimes the most Spiritual we can be is by being very human, because it's all an experience to Spirit. It's a very human thing to have lead balloons and dark corners and if you can accept yourself as having them, you're doing OK.

Co-creation is a work in progress at the moment as it is something I don’t completely understand yet.

But thank you also as I don’t have anyone I can discuss ascension with, particularly some of the more unusual stuff like the triangles.

And also thank you for introducing Matt to me. I would just be doing the same old same old if it wasn’t for his teachings. There's still something playing itself out as yet and I'm not sure what it is, but something's definitely hiding in the shadows. And you're very welcome, it's been of mutual benefit soi thank you too.

I understand being overwhelmed by Matt’s materials. I remember, very well, when I’d listened to just a couple of his videos that had got my attention. I got up on a Saturday morning at 6 am as I usually do to go and get my shopping from the supermarket (to avoid the crowds). So I thought whilst I was having breakfast I’d start another video and began to listen to “The End of Inner Conflict”. It really hit me hard as I recognised the self-limiting and critical behaviour towards myself all those years. And I sat there sobbing over my museli!

I used to cry a lot with his earlier videos as I could see how corrosive my thoughts had been and the messages that I had been sending to myself in the past and how the new blueprint of his teachings liberated me from all that. Nowadays I find it affirming when he describes certain limiting behaviours and I think no, I don’t do that and I don’t think like that anymore. It’s like my mind has been broken open over the past year, I’ve seen the damaging effects of my thoughts and actions, and then gently put back together with a new way of thinking, a new way of approaching life, a far more gentler way of being with myself and others. And whilst all that has been occurring, I’ve had been having kundalini deep heat up to 12 times day/night burning out all that emotional debris, so I feel much lighter in myself. I was watching the last ever episode of Babylon 5 the sci-fi series when I collapsed into a blubbering wreck, and even talking about it now is reducing me to an emotional mess. John Sheridan the hero was on his final day after having been brought back from the dead. He got up to meet the sunrise and left his wife behind, he went to the space station to find them turning off the lights. Then he took off into space and just as he was dying, Lorien - one of the First Ones - came for him and spirited him away to beyond the Rim. He had been waiting for him. I've yet to find a Spiritual movie or anything that could move me in that way, and I'm sorry to say that includes Matt's. The symbolism hits some pretty major buttons for me.

I have to admit that sometimes Matt's teachings go over my head or grate on my nerves a little, but then those are the times that 'keep it real' for me. If I was just sucking it down and everything was too harmonious I'd think there was something badly wrong. But it's lovely to realise the difference to when I first discovered him, because 'back then' much of it was going straight over my head. It's the same with Bashar, he's a bit more 'technical' that Matt but some of his stuff is coming a lot easier. I don't really try and emulate Matt's teachings because for me at the moment I need to be 'myself', if that makes sense. I just feel the need not to change too much because I'm the right person for this particular 'job', but at the same time it's good to know I have the capacity to resonate with him more harmoniously.

I've never really had damaging thoughts, not as such. I think you're a lot more polarised than I am, I'm very aerodynamic and while I understand the depths and heights part I much prefer as even a keel as possible. We are our thoughts and understandings at the time and they are what they are in that moment. I think that if we define them as 'damaging' then we're missing out on all the good stuff but then if they are damaging then they can be fixed.

For me it's not about the mind, it's about the inner feeling. I'm Gnostic I suppose, to use a label for understanding. For me it begins inside and I tend to listen to my inner... knowing I suppose you could call it. I wouldn't usually watch a Spiritual YouTube unless there was a compelling reason, but something told me to watch Matt. At the time much of it was confirmation more than anything else, I knew I was going through something but didn't quite understand. It was nice to know it was all 'natural' and that I wasn't weird. I don't turn to Matt's teachings for inspiration as such but for confirmation more than anything. It's good to sit and think "Yep, got that."

Ah, if you’re thinking of some sort of romantic liaison, that is not on the cards! I’ve lived happily on my own for almost 30 years and am not looking for that to change. The last romantic connection I had was in 2016 in the ‘realms’ and that’s the main reason I want to get back there. But alas the energy needed for that liaison to be at it most profound, is not there at the moment. Too much other stuff going on, and I know that if that relationship was happening, it would be too much of a distraction and I wouldn’t have made the progress I’ve made over the last year. But I do think about him a lot and if it’s meant to be, it will happen when the time is right. I reckon you'd find a relationship a little awkward, people who have been on their own for long enough tend to shy away from sharing their Lives too readily, or if they do it's too much of a culture shock. I think sometimes it's enough to know that this kind of thing can happen at all, even though it's on your own terms and at a distance.

But then the Universe is a reflection of us.

You sound like I did for twelve years, angry and frustrated and wanted it gone! Made even more angry by the fact that nothing worked! What I was told by a medium is that anger is acidic, which isn’t doing any good ; kind of a catch 22. But I do understand, I had years of it myself, with a bedroom door which was the target of my anger and which still needs repairing.

You mentioned you’d had his for two years; is there something that happened two years ago that could have sparked this off? Change of location, redundancy, emotional upset etc.

One of the reasons I ask is sometimes these things can be sparked by emotions. Years ago I had a digestive issue which would not return to normal. It had even got to the stage where I’d made an appointment with the vet. And then one day I sat at home and dowsed to try and sort it out. After an hour of dowsing I discovered that the emotion of ‘exasperation’ had lodged in my digestive system slowing it down, which in turn caused more exasperation with it not functioning as it should – so that was a catch 22. I created half a dozen EFT statements, perfecting them throughout the day in my mind with the intention of doing them the next morning. I didn’t even have to do the EFT - because as I was perfecting the statements, they were working their magic and normality was restored that very day!

So you could try tackling this with EFT. I'm going to apologise because I vented my spleen a little with this when I wrote it, these emotions of mine have been playing up for a few weeks now and I guess I was venting about the emotions more than the AR itself. Yeah I was angry at the time but it's more acceptance now, I'm learning to deal with it and accept it as another aspect of myself that I need to just get on and deal with more aerodynamically. Grrr!! Gnash!!

As far as I can work out it began with this damned Ascension stuff, round abouts. At the time I was going through some emotional stuff and if I remember rightly it's about the time when I first discovered Matt's First Wave of Ascension. Normally I wouldn't touch even the title with a barge pole but the inner voice compelled me to. It started about then with indigestion and went on from there, at the time I thought it was just my habit of eating fast and getting on the move again.

I don't know if I'm going to be going through this for a long time yet but I think this is going to be a particularly emotional time for me, because they certainly seem to be welling up inside. Yeah I'd get a lump in my throat while watching a movie or something but it's been accelerating of late and the AR has accelerated along with it, or so it feels anyway. This is quite an emotional hiatus right now and hopefully it won't get any more hiatus and this Catch 22 situation will calm itself down. This is one of the reasons I don't want to make too much of it, because it'll make it worse if I focus too much attention on it energetically.

That’s the trouble with ascension; you don’t know if any symptom is genuine or ascension. Have you googled ascension and AR?

This last week the kundalini deep heat moments which had been happening for up to a dozen times a day has pretty much eased off now and yesterday and last night, there was nothing at all. It’s taken a few days to adjust as I almost missed it. What’s happening now is I’m getting the black and white triangles again in my third eye during the day and also during the night. I’ve attached a digram at the end of the post as to what they look like. Looking back on my notes, this is a sign that DNA strands are being activated to do with the lightbody.

And I am beginning to dream again. I’ve had two dreams that I remember and rather bizarrely both were about ………… drum roll ………… painting! Of all the things!

PatryciaThe symptoms are genuine enough, genuine enough to be affecting my voice and I have a sneaky suspicion that it's Ascension-related. Plus maybe a hint of old age too because my body's going through knackered-old-git changes. They're going to send me for a stomach scan and I'm hoping it's a boy, but I have a gut on me and I feel bloated all the time so I know something isn't quite right with it. There's also a lot of wind for what seems to be no reason, even when I'm sitting having my first coffee of the morning. Perhaps they'll have a better idea after the scan, but it feels like everything is going straight through without being processed properly yet at the same time there's a blockage.

Interestingly enough sometimes I want to sit and sob my heart out because I feel all this emotion inside but it won't come out, as if there's a blockage and I'm not processing it properly. Even when I was sobbing at Babylon 5 I still felt as though I was holding back, although it was involuntary.

I'm getting 'hot spells' sometimes that I've never experienced before and I'm not sure if that's AR-related or not. I've asked Mrs G to give me a quick check because she was a nurse, but she can't find anything wrong. Pulse and blood pressure disgustingly normal. I used to get spams down my back as though someone had taken a hold of my spinal chord and yanked, and it would come out through the top of my head. What I'm getting now is a 'heat' but it's just below the skin and across my whole back almost, it lasts for hours and feels a little nauseous sometimes. Whether it's Ascension or AR or what I don't know, but just for right now I'm trying to get through the day.

So, other than your notes, what do you make of your triangles?

Drum roll yes, bizarrely maybe not so much. Painting is expression, a picture paints a thousand words, symbolism, you as the artist if you're dreaming about you painting, bigger picture..... Your subconscious also paints a picture in your conscious mind by using dreams. If you are doing the painting then your subconscious is painting a picture of you painting a picture, and that's heady stuff to wrap your mind around but cool just the same.

Patrycia-Rose

02-09-2018, 07:47 AM

Hi there Mr G,

On your LP travels, did you find this? Just discovered it, awesome! When she starts whistling, it reminds me of some of the old westerns ......

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcNKas73zrA

A couple of years back I was talking to someone about Life's Purpose, I think what she wanted initially was to understand that there was such a thing. She'd lost her son to cancer and while she said she wanted to understand generally, later on it came out that she wanted to know if there was one at play with her son. That lead to all kinds of weirdness, Past Life stuff and receiving messages and seeing him in dreams. Anyway, the upshot was that the traumas he'd gone through in this Life were having an impact on what he was doing in Spirit. It was as though his Soul wanted to carry them on to the next Life.

I can understand that; carrying the issue into the next life to try and deal with / overcome it. From a spiritual perspective, that’s going to be a common theme.

From what I understand from the medium I went to see in 2013 when the situation occurred at work; she said I was vulnerable after I came out of hospital and put into a situation where I was taken into the object. Although the object itself wasn’t part of how I died as a little boy of five in a previous life, there were elements that were similar. She said, and her guides were telling her, that it should not have come back to me in this life, it shouldn’t have happened but happen it did. And I’ve done my best to tackle it but I now think it’s best left alone.

It's more of a pain in the backside to put a lighter spin on it than being in a state of disharmony. Part of the Ascension process is bringing out the dark and dusty corners of ourselves that we'd wish away if that were at all possible, the things we thought we'd dealt with 'back then' but they come back to haunt us anyway. I'd guess that given an ideal situation you'd rather be in a position where you could venture any old where you liked.

Absolutely. It affected me very badly when I was younger because the darn things are everywhere and there’s no escape. I used to have a very good man friend years ago, looking back we had a friend / soul group connection. He was one of the few people I took into my confidence and explained it all to him. And he had a similar issue, although not as intense as mine. And when we went out anywhere, he would always go ahead of me, like a search party, to check things out and report back to me if the situation occurred as to whether he thought I could handle it.

There's still something playing itself out as yet and I'm not sure what it is, but something's definitely hiding in the shadows. And you're very welcome, it's been of mutual benefit so thank you too.

I think you’ve got more of a sense of that; maybe one day we’ll know what it is. But in the meantime, it’s wonderful for me to have a new mate! :hug3:

I ]have to admit that sometimes Matt's teachings go over my head or grate on my nerves a little[/B], but then those are the times that 'keep it real' for me. If I was just sucking it down and everything was too harmonious I'd think there was something badly wrong. But it's lovely to realise the difference to when I first discovered him, because 'back then' much of it was going straight over my head. It's the same with Bashar, he's a bit more 'technical' that Matt but some of his stuff is coming a lot easier. I don't really try and emulate Matt's teachings because for me at the moment I need to be 'myself', if that makes sense. I just feel the need not to change too much because I'm the right person for this particular 'job', but at the same time it's good to know I have the capacity to resonate with him more harmonious

I would never associated the word ‘grate’ with Matt’s teachings! Some of his teachings have more of an impact than others, particularly in the early days. Over the bank holiday weekend, I was reading what I’d been up to this time last year, and that was when I was really getting into his videos. In my journal I was writing about some of the things he was saying, and how it changed how I viewed things, some real life changing stuff, many tears of relief, being set free. Certainly, at the beginning some of the phrases he would use, I didn’t get but as I continued to watch videos, he expanded on the phrases and I began to understand. A couple of things I’m still not totally sure of yet like ‘co-creation’ and ‘object consciousness’ is one which I’ve only recently just about got.

Over the years, I’ve read loads of books, ones which I’ve discarded after only a few pages or chapters and many teachings that others have raved about I would look at and think no, just no, I can’t be bothered to even try and get that. So clearly, I’ve been saving it all up for Matt for I find his videos and teachings completely in harmony. I’ve yet to see / hear something that doesn’t make sense on a deeply spiritual level yet also has that all important factor for me, of being logical (too many episodes of Star Trek!)

I had a look at Bashar, about four different videos and as a case in point, I lasted about 20 seconds in each!

For me, I am finding myself WITHIN Matt’s teachings.

I reckon you'd find a relationship a little awkward, people who have been on their own for long enough tend to shy away from sharing their Lives too readily, or if they do it's too much of a culture shock. I think sometimes it's enough to know that this kind of thing can happen at all, even though it's on your own terms and at a distance.

I’ve done all the relationship stuff being married and other relationships in my twenties but I know, beyond a shadow of doubt, that I’m to navigate this life on my own. Also, I’m very aware and moreso recently, that I am the last female in the line of Nan / mum / me. My Nan, as was common for her time, had a difficult life, difficult early start in life, she had four kids which she brought up alone. My mum was very sensitive and didn’t have the smoothest of times with my dad at times. She had a healing gift and was very spiritual but she didn’t have the opportunity or encouragement to develop any of that and now she has Alzheimers. So I feel a kind of healing of the ancestral line if you like, that I’m free to focus on spiritual matters, I am completely independent, solvent, own my own property and steering my own ship. And when I go, that’ll be it – all three of us will go back to the same spiritual plane, and I daresay there will be a lot of swapping of notes and experiences and I want to be able to say yep, I did that, experienced / healed that for all of us. So I don’t want to let them down.

Having said that, I am down here having a human experience of which love is a primary experience. So I have had all my life, this ability / access to a dimension / a world where I can have romantic liaisons. I never knew what love was until late 2001 where I had an encounter that just blew my world apart in the best possible way and I developed a relationship that was more real and profound that anything I’d experienced on the earth plane.

It was the most extraordinary experience I’d had, so I didn’t discover real love until 40. It did, over the years, face many challenges, like we weren’t going to be together permanently, it was like the odds were stacked against us and that energy eventually faded.

I thought that was my one experience of unconditional love and thought that a lot of people don’t get to experience that depth of love and was content with the ‘better to have loved and lost than never loved at all’ scenario. And I firmly believed love like that could not be experienced twice. But then in 2016 it happened again with someone new. And this man was perfect for me as I’d grown and matured as a person myself.

And it was all accompanied by pulling romance cards, synchronicities ‘our song’ on the radio. But what really blew me away was the medium that I went to see shortly after. He started describing a man to me and I was puzzled as I thought why would he be describing my husband but then I realised it did not fit my husband’s description, it was this new man. The medium was describing his looks, his character, personality, his thoughts and touched on some of the conversations we’d been having. Honestly, you could have knocked me off the chair! I knew the relationship was real to me, but it was also real enough to be picked up so accurately from a medium, so this is not ‘just’ my imagination. And I could tell the medium did not know where this relationship existed, he was calling it like an earth bound relationship.

I'm going to apologise because I vented my spleen a little with this when I wrote it, these emotions of mine have been playing up for a few weeks now and I guess I was venting about the emotions more than the AR itself. Yeah I was angry at the time but it's more acceptance now, I'm learning to deal with it and accept it as another aspect of myself that I need to just get on and deal with more aerodynamically. Grrr!! Gnash!!

No worries, believe me, if anyone gets it, I do.:hug2:

It started about then with indigestion and went on from there, at the time I thought it was just my habit of eating fast and getting on the move again.

but it's been accelerating of late and the AR has accelerated along with it, or so it feels anyway. This is quite an emotional hiatus right now and hopefully it won't get any more hiatus and this Catch 22 situation will calm itself down. This is one of the reasons I don't want to make too much of it, because it'll make it worse if I focus too much attention on it energetically.

We ‘digest’ our emotions in the sacral chakra/abdomen so your digestive problems occurring at the same time as feeling intense emotions may very well be linked. Which is why it could be that EFT may help. You could try tapping on the acid reflux and take it from there.

I put many links some posts ago but if you want me to re-post let me know.

The symptoms are genuine enough, genuine enough to be affecting my voice and I have a sneaky suspicion that it's Ascension-related. Plus maybe a hint of old age too because my body's going through knackered-old-git changes. They're going to send me for a stomach scan and I'm hoping it's a boy, but I have a gut on me and I feel bloated all the time so I know something isn't quite right with it. There's also a lot of wind for what seems to be no reason, even when I'm sitting having my first coffee of the morning. Perhaps they'll have a better idea after the scan, but it feels like everything is going straight through without being processed properly yet at the same time there's a blockage.

On the ascension front: I googled acid reflux/ascension and found a link describing AR connected with solar plexus chakra issues, Solar being the seat of personal strength, identity, will power etc.

On a practical level two things occur: bloating and AR can be a major indicator of lactose intolerance (and also gluten for that matter). It is entirely possible to develop sensitivities to things that we’ve not had a problem with in the past. Remembering your brother is lactose intolerant; have you tried swapping to soya milk or preferably goat’s milk for a week or so and cut out all cows’ dairy products like ice-cream. You said that this starts with your coffee first thing in the morning. Remember I said that coffee can aggravate AR but it may not be the coffee but the dairy you use in it, assuming you have milk with your coffee? Try switching to goat’s milk and butter etc.

Secondly, have you been tested for Helicobacter Pylori, as this can cause what you are describing. If you don’t know, don’t assume anything, phone the vet and ask them, the receptionist should be able to tell you if you have been tested and what the results were.

If you’re going through the NHS, a scan will no doubt take time to come through. Use this time to your advantage by experimenting. Swapping milk for a week is a good example.

I'm getting 'hot spells' sometimes that I've never experienced before and I'm not sure if that's AR-related or not. I've asked Mrs G to give me a quick check because she was a nurse, but she can't find anything wrong. Pulse and blood pressure disgustingly normal. I used to get spams down my back as though someone had taken a hold of my spinal chord and yanked, and it would come out through the top of my head. What I'm getting now is a 'heat' but it's just below the skin and across my whole back almost, it lasts for hours and feels a little nauseous sometimes. Whether it's Ascension or AR or what I don't know, but just for right now I'm trying to get through the day.

That to me sounds like kundalini energy. I noticed, when reading my journal that I was experiencing this in July/August last year and I saw something on the net that said kundalini is most prevalent in July time. And the back / spinal cord is the energy running up and down the energy / chakra system and up to the crown chakra. I had these ‘hot spells’ up to 12 times a day. It would get really intense and ease off after several minutes. But it’s going to be different for everyone, so yours could last a few hours and yes, there were times when I also experienced light nausea.

So, other than your notes, what do you make of your triangles?

Very little to be honest. I’ve looked at the meaning of triangles and pyramids and I just think ok, whatever. I just see them, think they’re activating DNA, and trust it’s doing its thing without me having to understanding intellectually. The black and white hadn’t escaped my notice. They stopped for now.

This last week I have been going through a phase of coming out of the intense kundalini and the high energy that the summer gave me into a feeling of almost boredom, lethargy, no drive, no motivation. It is very odd but I’ve gone with it. I guess things need to settle to see where I’m at after all the DNA activations etc.

I did try using some crystals at the weekend but every time I use crystals it upsets my left leg and makes it like jelly. My guides have told me that the high vibrational energy of crystals is ‘incompatible’ with the energy that caused the trauma in my left leg (psychic trauma if you remember me explaining about all that). It doesn’t matter what crystals I use, the result is always the same, wobbly left leg the next day. So I’m going to stop using them.

I’ve also had a really bad stomach; not related to diet as I’ve not changed anything but according to several net sources, the stomach can come in for a really challenging time due to ascension, all kinds of unpleasant stuff, so much that I thought I’m not reading the whole thing. Stomach/sacral is feeling a lot more settled last night and this morning, so I am hoping I’ve turned a corner.

I’ve also been getting a lot of zeros like the time is 2.06, 3.00, 1.00, waking at night the time will always have a 0 in it. Last night, classic, I woke at 11.00 then 12.34 and then 2.22, so a mix of all the old sequences and the new.

Some blurb said zeros can represent a ‘nothingness’ and that’s how I feel. I’ve got no desire or enthusiasam to get into anything new, which is just as well as there is nothing that needs doing!

Patrycia

Greenslade

02-09-2018, 10:42 PM

Hi there Mr G,

On your LP travels, did you find this? Just discovered it, awesome! When she starts whistling, it reminds me of some of the old westerns ......

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcNKas73zrA

Good morning Patrycia

It's another wonderful day out there and it's the time of year when we won't see to many of them to come. The swallows have been practising their flying skills in the wind current eddies caused by the trees in preparation again, they'll be flying south for the winter soon.

Just waiting for John Wayne to ride off into the sunset. :smile:

I can understand that; carrying the issue into the next life to try and deal with / overcome it. From a spiritual perspective, that’s going to be a common theme.

From what I understand from the medium I went to see in 2013 when the situation occurred at work; she said I was vulnerable after I came out of hospital and put into a situation where I was taken into the object. Although the object itself wasn’t part of how I died as a little boy of five in a previous life, there were elements that were similar. She said, and her guides were telling her, that it should not have come back to me in this life, it shouldn’t have happened but happen it did. And I’ve done my best to tackle it but I now think it’s best left alone. The problem with the Ascension process is that it touches the parts nothing else can reach and that can spark things off that should have stayed deeply dormant. It can blur the lines and cause shirt-circuits. Sometimes it can cause a bit of a stir with 'them up there' as things go a little sideways. Still, it keeps them on their toes.

Absolutely. It affected me very badly when I was younger because the darn things are everywhere and there’s no escape. I used to have a very good man friend years ago, looking back we had a friend / soul group connection. He was one of the few people I took into my confidence and explained it all to him. And he had a similar issue, although not as intense as mine. And when we went out anywhere, he would always go ahead of me, like a search party, to check things out and report back to me if the situation occurred as to whether he thought I could handle it. Strangely I was quite the opposite, at the time I was cantankerous and rebellious, and no damned thing was going to stop me doing what I wanted to do.

I think you’ve got more of a sense of that; maybe one day we’ll know what it is. But in the meantime, it’s wonderful for me to have a new mate! :hug3:It's so damned good to be able to talk to someone who 'gets it', it's liberating actually.

I would never associated the word ‘grate’ with Matt’s teachings! Some of his teachings have more of an impact than others, particularly in the early days. Over the bank holiday weekend, I was reading what I’d been up to this time last year, and that was when I was really getting into his videos. In my journal I was writing about some of the things he was saying, and how it changed how I viewed things, some real life changing stuff, many tears of relief, being set free. Certainly, at the beginning some of the phrases he would use, I didn’t get but as I continued to watch videos, he expanded on the phrases and I began to understand. A couple of things I’m still not totally sure of yet like ‘co-creation’ and ‘object consciousness’ is one which I’ve only recently just about got.

Over the years, I’ve read loads of books, ones which I’ve discarded after only a few pages or chapters and many teachings that others have raved about I would look at and think no, just no, I can’t be bothered to even try and get that. So clearly, I’ve been saving it all up for Matt for I find his videos and teachings completely in harmony. I’ve yet to see / hear something that doesn’t make sense on a deeply spiritual level yet also has that all important factor for me, of being logical (too many episodes of Star Trek!)

I had a look at Bashar, about four different videos and as a case in point, I lasted about 20 seconds in each!

For me, I am finding myself WITHIN Matt’s teachings. I've been in a strange place for a while now, according to Matt it's clearing out the old energies so they're manifesting more so we can acknowledge and flush them. Sometimes with Matt's materials there's an energetic difference that just... grates on my nerves. It's nothing bad and I'd worry if I just sucked everything down too easily, if anything it shows me that I have something there that is on that level, if it didn't grate then it would be so far away that it couldn't anyway. If you see what I mean.

Co-creation comes in the space between you and your relationship with.... everything really. You and Matt have been co-creating your reality for a while now - and you're writing in your journal about how what he's said has changed your Life. I think the trick to understanding co-crating is not to try and understand it but look a little deeper at how you come to understand the Universe around you in any way you do. Matt has his teachings and you have your thoughts on it. Between you you are co-creating your consciousness and what goes in it - sometimes you understand, sometimes you don't and since you discovered him you've co-created from the person that didn't know he existed. What you understand is the result of the co-creation, because if you'd never had access to his material you wouldn't have been able to create the understanding.

'Object consciousness' is something I'd never heard of being honest but I found a very good Tolle YouTube on it that I found interesting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBRKUOaDqhg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=830PdIAgT-8

I haven't actually bought many books. I was given some Lobsang Rampa many years ago and even though I wasn't in any way Spiritual they were understandable. Other than that, about twenty years ago I bought The Celestine Prophecy, but that was the last one. Just before that I bought Gary Zukav's Seat of the Soul and I didn't finish the first chapter. A lot of Matt's teachings are more confirmation and that's going to sound big-headed lol. Gnosis has played a large part in my Spirituality, but then it's never been about the ideologies and theologies - the difference between object consciousness as in the thought process and space consciousness as in apart from or above the thoughts I guess.The attraction with Matt for me is that it's more existential than anything else, he's talking about understanding the 'real reality' and not some fairy tale.

I quite like Bashar, the idea of a sixth-dimensional alien appeals as does the way he puts things across sometimes. While he's quite a wise being he has his moments where he's just the same as all the rest.

By the way, Spock has been known to bend logic sometimes, it wasn't all straight and narrow lol.

I’ve done all the relationship stuff being married and other relationships in my twenties but I know, beyond a shadow of doubt, that I’m to navigate this life on my own. Also, I’m very aware and moreso recently, that I am the last female in the line of Nan / mum / me. My Nan, as was common for her time, had a difficult life, difficult early start in life, she had four kids which she brought up alone. My mum was very sensitive and didn’t have the smoothest of times with my dad at times. She had a healing gift and was very spiritual but she didn’t have the opportunity or encouragement to develop any of that and now she has Alzheimers. So I feel a kind of healing of the ancestral line if you like, that I’m free to focus on spiritual matters, I am completely independent, solvent, own my own property and steering my own ship. And when I go, that’ll be it – all three of us will go back to the same spiritual plane, and I daresay there will be a lot of swapping of notes and experiences and I want to be able to say yep, I did that, experienced / healed that for all of us. So I don’t want to let them down.

Having said that, I am down here having a human experience of which love is a primary experience. So I have had all my life, this ability / access to a dimension / a world where I can have romantic liaisons. I never knew what love was until late 2001 where I had an encounter that just blew my world apart in the best possible way and I developed a relationship that was more real and profound that anything I’d experienced on the earth plane.

It was the most extraordinary experience I’d had, so I didn’t discover real love until 40. It did, over the years, face many challenges, like we weren’t going to be together permanently, it was like the odds were stacked against us and that energy eventually faded.

I thought that was my one experience of unconditional love and thought that a lot of people don’t get to experience that depth of love and was content with the ‘better to have loved and lost than never loved at all’ scenario. And I firmly believed love like that could not be experienced twice. But then in 2016 it happened again with someone new. And this man was perfect for me as I’d grown and matured as a person myself.

And it was all accompanied by pulling romance cards, synchronicities ‘our song’ on the radio. But what really blew me away was the medium that I went to see shortly after. He started describing a man to me and I was puzzled as I thought why would he be describing my husband but then I realised it did not fit my husband’s description, it was this new man. The medium was describing his looks, his character, personality, his thoughts and touched on some of the conversations we’d been having. Honestly, you could have knocked me off the chair! I knew the relationship was real to me, but it was also real enough to be picked up so accurately from a medium, so this is not ‘just’ my imagination. And I could tell the medium did not know where this relationship existed, he was calling it like an earth bound relationship. I have three brothers and my step-father was never much of a father nor a husband, not really, and he would probably have been better off not being there at all in fact. My grandmother was very wise and intuitive, she was also psychic as far as I'm aware but that doesn't mean she couldn't have been something more. My mother is clairvoyant and she sees Spirit as clear as she sees everything else, she's also highly sensitive to energies although the whole idea scares her. Interesting synchronicities there too

I've had so many relationships, and while that may sound as though I'm not the kind of guy to have a relationship with, often I feel as though I've been playing a role. I remember my first Love very clearly and she broke my heart in so many pieces. There had been one or two before her but there was never going to be anything on the cards. The one I was sweet on decided she couldn't handle the long distance relationship, I was about go go into the RAF at the time. When My first real Love was on the go things went a bit silly and I was completely overwhelmed I guess, both emotionally and Spiritually, yet ill-equipped to deal with them. That didn't go down too well.

A lot of the time after that I guess I was trying to find her again, and we did almost get back together but she never had the courage to get back in touch. She could find me but I had no idea where she was. She did keep tabs on my Life for many years. We shared a Past Life thing, you 'met' her there but she was just a snippet of an annoying little girl to you. Interesting that I'm getting those kinds of visions.

Mrs G and I have a long Past Life mystery and you met her too, from that time you don't remember. I want to add 'as yet' for some reason, as if there will come a time when you will.

Just before I met Mrs G my world was going a little bonkers. There were all kinds of stuff happening around synchronicities and people coming and going who could help me understand how they played a large part in my Life. I;d been through some bad **** and was in the beginning of starting over again, literally from scratch. At the time my senses were going a little crazy, and I was trying to find a decent Spiritualist church, it was something I felt I really had to do. One of the things I was determined not to do at the time was attach songs to events, some of the things I didn't want reminding of. I felt there was going to be someone coming into my Life but I couldn't find her. I knew she existed and at times when I'd sit alone in my flat I'd feel a hand on my shoulder or see a shadow passing on the edge of my vision.

There's quite a long story as to how Mrs G and I actually met and what happened after that, the upshot is she was the one I was energetically feeling. As soon as she 'arrived' it all calmed down and everything started falling into place.

So yes, I can understand what you're experiencing at least from my own perspective. As for the rest, only time will tell.

No worries, believe me, if anyone gets it, I do.:hug2: Thank you. To be honest it's getting on my **** now. Oops, look at me I'm human after all.

We ‘digest’ our emotions in the sacral chakra/abdomen so your digestive problems occurring at the same time as feeling intense emotions may very well be linked. Which is why it could be that EFT may help. You could try tapping on the acid reflux and take it from there.

I put many links some posts ago but if you want me to re-post let me know. It's kind of strange but it feels like the time isn't quite right for anything to happen. I've had a look at the EFT you've sent me already and I've bookmarked some of it, but somehow it doesn't feel right. It's a nuisance but I don't feel the need to bust my chops to fix anything, if that makes sense. There's the feeling that it's something I need to be experiencing for the time being and when this spell I'm going though is over it'll sort itself out.

On the ascension front: I googled acid reflux/ascension and found a link describing AR connected with solar plexus chakra issues, Solar being the seat of personal strength, identity, will power etc.

On a practical level two things occur: bloating and AR can be a major indicator of lactose intolerance (and also gluten for that matter). It is entirely possible to develop sensitivities to things that we’ve not had a problem with in the past. Remembering your brother is lactose intolerant; have you tried swapping to soya milk or preferably goat’s milk for a week or so and cut out all cows’ dairy products like ice-cream. You said that this starts with your coffee first thing in the morning. Remember I said that coffee can aggravate AR but it may not be the coffee but the dairy you use in it, assuming you have milk with your coffee? Try switching to goat’s milk and butter etc.

Secondly, have you been tested for Helicobacter Pylori, as this can cause what you are describing. If you don’t know, don’t assume anything, phone the vet and ask them, the receptionist should be able to tell you if you have been tested and what the results were.

If you’re going through the NHS, a scan will no doubt take time to come through. Use this time to your advantage by experimenting. Swapping milk for a week is a good example. OK, all of that would make sense. I have been feeling weaker for about two years now, which was the original reason I went to the vets, and while it's cool that I don't have cancer there's still no solution. My sense of identity had been floating around in space somewhere lately but that's fine because it's given me an unusual perspective. Will power is a pain though because it's about non-existent and at times I have to brow-beat myself into doing anything most times.

I'm going to start drinking posh teas to see if that makes a difference. I can't drink coffee without milk but to be fair I only have two cups per day, plus a little in my cereal. This is where my sense of identity isn't helping because 'I' have difficulty identifying with anything that'll make 'me' better or change the way I live. I get the feeling that there are 'links' between what I'm going through physically and my Spirituality - obviously there is but it's as though my ailments are here to teach me something. Anyway, it's a pain that I'm developing all these intolerances at this time of Life, so culture shock here we come.

I have to go back and see the vet after this course of tablets, which will finish in a fortnight and hopefully they'll start weaning me off the damned things. Hopefully by then my neuroplasticity will have kicked in and I won't have to think too hard about what I'm eating. Chips are a no-go and that's ever such a nightmare. I'll ask them about the Helico. Pylori and see if they tested for that. Come to think of it it might be worth asking what they did test for, but as far as I'm aware they ordered a battery of tests for all kinds of possibilities.

Really there isn't much in my diet that's any kind of the same, it's mostly fresh veg and the like which is annoying sometimes lol. I'm having to be more careful now because although the AR has been reduced my stomach just refuses certain stuff. I treated myself to egg and chips on Friday and it didn't sit well at all, so no more chips. Eggs seem to be fine so more omelettes, which I'm happy about. If I have to give up my only two cups of coffee someone's I will not be best pleased. Although goat's milk has to be worth a try.

That to me sounds like kundalini energy. I noticed, when reading my journal that I was experiencing this in July/August last year and I saw something on the net that said kundalini is most prevalent in July time. And the back / spinal cord is the energy running up and down the energy / chakra system and up to the crown chakra. I had these ‘hot spells’ up to 12 times a day. It would get really intense and ease off after several minutes. But it’s going to be different for everyone, so yours could last a few hours and yes, there were times when I also experienced light nausea. I've been getting these kundalini blasts for years and never thought much about them because they went as quickly as they come, although they were so intense that people used to think there was something wrong. Lately it's more dizzy spells or hot flushes although they aren't nauseous in any way, and often after they've happened I perceive everything around me differently for a while. It's a weird sensation but I feel more etheric than solid and it feel as though my consciousness has expanded outside of myself. Very strange. The spells can last anything up to almost an hour often and my head doen't always go back to completely 'normal', while I'm my regular self I still perceive everything around me differently for long enough.

I think my not being over-keen to get myself fixed, my losing a sense of identity and these sensations and perceptions are ll linked. At the very least they must be having an effect.

Very little to be honest. I’ve looked at the meaning of triangles and pyramids and I just think ok, whatever. I just see them, think they’re activating DNA, and trust it’s doing its thing without me having to understanding intellectually. The black and white hadn’t escaped my notice. They stopped for now.

This last week I have been going through a phase of coming out of the intense kundalini and the high energy that the summer gave me into a feeling of almost boredom, lethargy, no drive, no motivation. It is very odd but I’ve gone with it. I guess things need to settle to see where I’m at after all the DNA activations etc.

I did try using some crystals at the weekend but every time I use crystals it upsets my left leg and makes it like jelly. My guides have told me that the high vibrational energy of crystals is ‘incompatible’ with the energy that caused the trauma in my left leg (psychic trauma if you remember me explaining about all that). It doesn’t matter what crystals I use, the result is always the same, wobbly left leg the next day. So I’m going to stop using them.

I’ve also had a really bad stomach; not related to diet as I’ve not changed anything but according to several net sources, the stomach can come in for a really challenging time due to ascension, all kinds of unpleasant stuff, so much that I thought I’m not reading the whole thing. Stomach/sacral is feeling a lot more settled last night and this morning, so I am hoping I’ve turned a corner.

I’ve also been getting a lot of zeros like the time is 2.06, 3.00, 1.00, waking at night the time will always have a 0 in it. Last night, classic, I woke at 11.00 then 12.34 and then 2.22, so a mix of all the old sequences and the new.

Some blurb said zeros can represent a ‘nothingness’ and that’s how I feel. I’ve got no desire or enthusiasam to get into anything new, which is just as well as there is nothing that needs doing!

PatryciaSymbols are the language of the consciousness and when you begin to understand the language you begin to understand your own consciousness at a much deeper level. Often they are abstractions and at first seem to hold no reference to the realm of form, which is where I think you don't connect with them the same - you use your logical/reasoning mind and you can't deal with them because as you've already said, their meanings are often relative. On the surface yes, a certain symbol may have no meaning to you and may have a lot of meaning for me, but the underlying sub-consciousness that brings them to the conscious mind all talks the same language. There's really no intellect needed, it's not a science.

Your Ascension process in particular has been very intense in so many ways, not just in the process itself but also in the way you meet it - the way you put so much intense energy into Matt's materials. We're human after all and I doubt we could sustain any prolonged and major changes to our energies and consciousness - you must have come close to burning yourself out on a couple of levels. Give yourself a break on just as many levels, if you can't be bothered with anything then don't be, give yourself time to breathe again. If you relax into it that will give the changes time to manifest themselves, what will happen is they'll settle in better and you'll get less 'glitches' later on.

Your energies will have changed, as will any reactions to energies you might be having - like your crystals. Their crystalline structure is actually the same as that of the body, we are carbon-based Life forms after all. Crystal tends to focus energy and the carbon in our bodies makes us antennae for sending and receiving energies. Also bear in mind that your energies will have changed of late.

Ascension also hits the base energies, part of which is a flushing out of the lower frequency stuff. There are links between energy frequencies and physical ailments. closer than we'd imagine sometimes - like not wanting to eat if we're worried or stressed. A bad stomach during the Ascension process isn't an airy-fairy notion, sometimes it just takes a little shift in the way you think about things. You'll probably find another few changes too in both your physical and consciousness. If you feel like a wet rag that's been wrung out and thrown in a corner, that's usually a sign that your system had had enough and you need time to sort yourself out again.

Although they don't always do it, a zero is often signified with a dot in the centre, and if you think about computers you'll get the idea. There's a definite difference between an 'O' (the letter) and a proper '0' (zero) with a dot in the centre. The dot doesn't happen on clocks and the like. Similarly with symbols, the 'O' symbol means emptiness, encompassing and sometimes consciousness itself - or to be more precise sphere of consciousness. A '0' with a dot in the middle is the Point of Origin - you - which encompasses the your Sphere of Consciousness as well as you as the origin.

If you feel there's nothing to do then relax and give yourself a break, there's nothing wrong with taking the time after what's been quite a long spell of getting your tail kicked this way and that Spiritually. Perhaps when you come to terms with yourself again the benefits will start to show.

That could be interesting.

Patrycia-Rose

09-09-2018, 08:41 AM

Good morning Mr G,

Strangely I was quite the opposite, at the time I was cantankerous and rebellious, and no damned thing was going to stop me doing what I wanted to do.

Yep, that would also be me with pretty much everything else. Many a time on school reports teachers would say something along the lines of ‘Patrycia will just carry on in her own sweet way despite being taught otherwise!”. But a phobia as strong as the one I have isn’t something you can negotiate with.

It's so damned good to be able to talk to someone who 'gets it', it's liberating actually.

Yes, I know what you mean and the ascension feels as though it is all getting very intense.

I've been in a strange place for a while now, according to Matt it's clearing out the old energies so they're manifesting more so we can acknowledge and flush them.

I’d agree with that and this is something that’s been happening a lot just recently with situations that have been created just to bring an emotion to the surface for it to be cleared out, such as the shock of the deer. But just yesterday I awoke feeling incredibly agitated for no apparent reason with a nice headache to go with it. Yet this morning all that’s gone and I feel calm but tired.

Co-creation comes in the space between you and your relationship with.... everything really. You and Matt have been co-creating your reality for a while now - and you're writing in your journal about how what he's said has changed your Life. I think the trick to understanding co-crating is not to try and understand it but look a little deeper at how you come to understand the Universe around you in any way you do. Matt has his teachings and you have your thoughts on it. Between you you are co-creating your consciousness and what goes in it - sometimes you understand, sometimes you don't and since you discovered him you've co-created from the person that didn't know he existed. What you understand is the result of the co-creation, because if you'd never had access to his material you wouldn't have been able to create the understanding.

Thank you for that, that’s a lovely explanation.

'Object consciousness' is something I'd never heard of being honest but I found a very good Tolle YouTube on it that I found interesting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBRKUOaDqhg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=830PdIAgT-8

Oh lord! ET! Honestly, the few seconds I managed of those hurt my brain!
I think Matt is describing something else; I’m not sure, possibly about the ego; the ego likes to have possessions, friends, apps etc anything which appeals to it.

I haven't actually bought many books. I was given some Lobsang Rampa many years ago and even though I wasn't in any way Spiritual they were understandable. Other than that, about twenty years ago I bought The Celestine Prophecy, but that was the last one. Just before that I bought Gary Zukav's Seat of the Soul and I didn't finish the first chapter. A lot of Matt's teachings are more confirmation and that's going to sound big-headed lol. Gnosis has played a large part in my Spirituality, but then it's never been about the ideologies and theologies - the difference between object consciousness as in the thought process and space consciousness as in apart from or above the thoughts I guess.The attraction with Matt for me is that it's more existential than anything else, he's talking about understanding the 'real reality' and not some fairy tale.

I’ve got many mediumship books by Gordon Smith, John Edward, Colin Fry, Tony Stockwell and more recently Tyler Henry. I’m just so interested, and always have been, on what people say once they’re on the other side.
I also have The Celestine Prophecy from years ago and was particularly enthused to read it; I recall the first chapter or so introducing the theme of synchronicity and if you had this you were ready for the message in the book.

I also have half a dozen or so books by Toni Ann Winninger which are a fascinating read;

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Exploring-Reincarnation-Peter-Watson-Jenkins/dp/0982952953/ref=sr_1_7?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1536061529&sr=1-7

I have found this chap on Youtube and he describes the current ascension process and what is coming up for a particular month. He’s interesting and I find him quite down to earth. This is right up to date as he's talking about the new moon of today (9th)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7x9ck9squ4

It's kind of strange but it feels like the time isn't quite right for anything to happen. I've had a look at the EFT you've sent me already and I've bookmarked some of it, but somehow it doesn't feel right. It's a nuisance but I don't feel the need to bust my chops to fix anything, if that makes sense. There's the feeling that it's something I need to be experiencing for the time being and when this spell I'm going though is over it'll sort itself out.

I understand what you’re saying about not fixing it, because I have at times (old habits die hard) begun to think about my various issues such as the left leg and osephagus issues in a ‘everything is here to help you’ way. Fortunately, Matt also said you don’t necessarily have to understand How it may be here to help you but to just know that it is.” So a slightly new way of thinking as I say, not all the time but flashes and there is a part of me that absolutely will not give up on restoring health. And it’s gotten really restless of late; I found myself thinking ok, ready to give something else a try. I’d pondered a few things and then dropped into my head ‘reiki’. I have had this before, one good experience, one not so good and it was many years ago. So I’ve found a place and a therapist who seems to hold a good reputation and have booked an appointment for early October. So I’m off again and we’ll have to see how that pans out. I seem to remember it was around this time last year I started Bowen.

I'm going to start drinking posh teas to see if that makes a difference. I can't drink coffee without milk but to be fair I only have two cups per day, plus a little in my cereal. This is where my sense of identity isn't helping because 'I' have difficulty identifying with anything that'll make 'me' better or change the way I live. I get the feeling that there are 'links' between what I'm going through physically and my Spirituality - obviously there is but it's as though my ailments are here to teach me something. Anyway, it's a pain that I'm developing all these intolerances at this time of Life, so culture shock here we come.

If (we don’t know for sure, it’s trying it and see) if you have a lactose intolerance or have developed a sensitivity, you would need to cut it out completely, as if you ‘only’ have a bit with your coffee and only another ‘bit’ with cereal, then essentially you’re drip feeding your system, and therefore not giving it a break from what’s upsetting it, let alone enabling it to recover and heal.

Come to think of it it might be worth asking what they did test for, but as far as I'm aware they ordered a battery of tests for all kinds of possibilities.

Find out everything they’ve tested for, as it’s all information and can help eliminate things.

Really there isn't much in my diet that's any kind of the same, it's mostly fresh veg and the like which is annoying sometimes lol. I'm having to be more careful now because although the AR has been reduced my stomach just refuses certain stuff. I treated myself to egg and chips on Friday and it didn't sit well at all, so no more chips. Eggs seem to be fine so more omelettes, which I'm happy about. If I have to give up my only two cups of coffee someone's I will not be best pleased. Although goat's milk has to be worth a try.

If these are oven chips, they could well contain gluten.

Try the goat’s milk; it can take a few days to get used to the taste but once you’ve got used to it, you can use it just like regular milk. Goat’s is much easier for humans to digest that cow’s.

I think my not being over-keen to get myself fixed, my losing a sense of identity and these sensations and perceptions are ll linked. At the very least they must be having an effect.

It’s very weird and I sometimes wonder if we’ve been at this ascension longer than we know.

In this last week, I’ve had two new things been happening; the first is itchiness, particularly on my back and head. Apparently, this is the body getting rid of toxins. I’ve also had a little eczema which I’ve not had since my early twenties!

And secondly, when I’ve been brushing or washing my hair I’ve been losing a lot. And I thought that couldn’t be linked to ascension now could it! But apparently, it could! Losing hair is a sign of crown chakra activity. I seem to be doing the whole ascension symptoms from A- Z!

Your Ascension process in particular has been very intense in so many ways, not just in the process itself but also in the way you meet it - the way you put so much intense energy into Matt's materials.

This second phase which began last December is very different from the first phase which was sparked by taking the Angelsword essence. The emotional stuff is not as intense but rather more subtle. The biggest impact this time is on the physical body. Not being able to run when I continued in the first phase. I still do a two mile walk every day and a little pilates and some basic weightlifting but that’s about it. My feeling is that it is important for me to relax as much as possible to let all this assimilate and for the changes to occur. It amazes me really that for 6 years, I had the drive, enthusiasm and excitement to run three times a week. And now, all those qualities have just gone. But then I don’t think that’s a coincidence. How much worse would it be if I had the desire and enthusiasm to run but couldn’t because I didn’t have the physical energy. So maybe one day it will all come back or I’ll have more energy to pursue something new.

Patrycia

Greenslade

09-09-2018, 09:32 PM

Good morning Mr G,Good morning Patryica. The swallows have been strengthening their wings again ready for the migration south, and the weather is telling me it's time to get the winter accoutrements out of mothballs.

Yep, that would also be me with pretty much everything else. Many a time on school reports teachers would say something along the lines of ‘Patrycia will just carry on in her own sweet way despite being taught otherwise!”. But a phobia as strong as the one I have isn’t something you can negotiate with. You would have fitted in very nicely with the group I used to write with, what seems a lifetime ago almost.

Have you ever come across Gestalt Reality? The idea of Gestalt Reality is that the sum of the parts is not greater than the whole, the idea is that the sum of the parts is a whole new entity in its own right. Some have said that thoughts have an existence of their own, as 'separate' entities of consciousness and as such contribute to the 'sum of the parts' that create the Patrycia entity. As would your phobia?

Yes, I know what you mean and the ascension feels as though it is all getting very intense. It's certainly interesting, admittedly. I don't do intense, I have a large nose and ears which makes me aerodynamic, and everything just whistles past. .

I’d agree with that and this is something that’s been happening a lot just recently with situations that have been created just to bring an emotion to the surface for it to be cleared out, such as the shock of the deer. But just yesterday I awoke feeling incredibly agitated for no apparent reason with a nice headache to go with it. Yet this morning all that’s gone and I feel calm but tired. Just right now I have a very strong nervous energy. The only plans I have for today is going up to see Mrs G's dad and having a drink with him, he likes his beer and I've bought a small bottle of single malt to try. I have spells of intense feelings sometimes and I feel different from moment-to-moment. One moment I'm a naturally nice guy and the next I'm gritting my teeth just to be civil.

Thank you for that, that’s a lovely explanation. You're very welcome. Don't you think that sometimes it's a little bit galling when we create all this magic yet never stop and realise it's happening? Isn't that just bonkers crazy?

Oh lord! ET! Honestly, the few seconds I managed of those hurt my brain!
I think Matt is describing something else; I’m not sure, possibly about the ego; the ego likes to have possessions, friends, apps etc anything which appeals to it. I guess if it hurts your brain then maybe you have object consciousness rather than space consciousness. Actually you have space consciousness but you tend to run with your object consciousness.

What Tolle is saying is pretty much the same thing and him and Matt are both bringing something very ancient into a new setting. There's also a 'target audience' thing going on. The idea of being Spiritual is appealing to many people because it smacks of bigger, better, higher... Beliefs are also held as possessions sometimes, and people put them on display in the forums as they would the china tea set when friends come around. Beliefs are possessions that they can own. Tolle says something very similar in that object consciousness is form, the form of neurology and electrical signals flying around in the brain. Beliefs formed of reason, logic, etc are objects and the consciousness comes from there. Ego, form, possessions..... All the same stable.

'Back in the day' there was something called Gnosis, which is basically knowing without knowing how you know. Much of what Jesus was saying - the God within - is Gnostic teachings that can be traced back to the ancient Egyptians. It's been said that is where Christ Consciousness comes from. That sounds very much like what Tolle is calling Space consciousness - something that is beyond the mind/brain. Something that comes from nowhere seemingly but it's there just the same. Offhand I ncan't think of anything similar from Matt but then my head leaks anyway. I think most of Matt's teachings are more pragmatic than most because he doesn't discuss beliefs as such, and I'd question if what he's giving is teaching. I wouldn't call Matt's material object consciousness as such.

I’ve got many mediumship books by Gordon Smith, John Edward, Colin Fry, Tony Stockwell and more recently Tyler Henry. I’m just so interested, and always have been, on what people say once they’re on the other side.
I also have The Celestine Prophecy from years ago and was particularly enthused to read it; I recall the first chapter or so introducing the theme of synchronicity and if you had this you were ready for the message in the book.

I also have half a dozen or so books by Toni Ann Winninger which are a fascinating read;

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Exploring-Reincarnation-Peter-Watson-Jenkins/dp/0982952953/ref=sr_1_7?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1536061529&sr=1-7

I have found this chap on Youtube and he describes the current ascension process and what is coming up for a particular month. He’s interesting and I find him quite down to earth. This is right up to date as he's talking about the new moon of today (9th)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7x9ck9squ4
I used to watch Colin Fry on Sky TV, it was when Mrs G and I first came back here, we were living with my mother while trying to get ourselves sorted out. It reminded me of what I used to do, although that was only in local church halls and the like. I did complete a mediumship course that was very interesting to say the least. I broke some of the rules but I was also told to give what I was given, and that was interesting to say the least.

Talking of synchronicity, I went in to grab a copy of the Celestine Prophecy because someone had told me it was in the local bookstore. There was a pile of them neatly stacked on the floor so I grabbed a copy and ran. When I got home it was the experiential guide, I'd missed the smaller print on the cover. However, I did go through the exercises diligently and came to the realisations about it.

To be honest I wouldn't read a book on reincarnation because it's something I've actually lived. I have an instinct about people whom I've shared Past Lives with and it's always turned out to be smack on the money. Very often books such as these have different or even opposing perspectives on the 'technical' side, and it's something I'm not too interested in. What interests me is the person and where/how we've shared. I'm with Haile Selassie, in that Spirituality is experienced.

I had a quick peek at your YouTube link, but it's a 'look at it later' thing because it's hitting my filters, but it's more his presentation as much as anything else. His 'packaging' doesn't quite work for me. The moon can have an effect on our bodies and heads, it can make tides so it's not too difficult to think that it can change us in a small way - which is where Jekyll and Hyde comes from. Sanitoriums have been saying the same, some people are actually sensitive to it. The Equinox is coming up and the seasons are changing, and that happens every year at this time. Did you also know that the 11th of September is actually Jesus' birthday? That's why they hit the Twin Towers on that date. Jesus is more of a product of esoteric mythos than fact.

I understand what you’re saying about not fixing it, because I have at times (old habits die hard) begun to think about my various issues such as the left leg and osephagus issues in a ‘everything is here to help you’ way. Fortunately, Matt also said you don’t necessarily have to understand How it may be here to help you but to just know that it is.” So a slightly new way of thinking as I say, not all the time but flashes and there is a part of me that absolutely will not give up on restoring health. And it’s gotten really restless of late; I found myself thinking ok, ready to give something else a try. I’d pondered a few things and then dropped into my head ‘reiki’. I have had this before, one good experience, one not so good and it was many years ago. So I’ve found a place and a therapist who seems to hold a good reputation and have booked an appointment for early October. So I’m off again and we’ll have to see how that pans out. I seem to remember it was around this time last year I started Bowen.Just right now I'm very much in a 'it'll happen when it's ready' kind of mood. EFT is more of a mindset/energetic therapy and right now it doesn't feel right, it's almost as though I feel protective of certain things in my Life right now. It doesn't make sense to me neither but I tend to trust my instincts, and that's how I feel.

I don't want to stay like this, being honest some of it is getting to the stage where I just want it fixed and get it over with but at the same time there's something telling me to leave well alone. I think the time will come when I need to heal it.

I think the two of us seem to be the same, in very different ways. You're so intent on your healing but my healing isn't physical, at least not yet anyway. I feel as though I'm going though a lot of energetic healing right now and that's what I need to focus on, in the same way as you're focussing on your physical healing. It just feels as though some of the physical healing will be detrimental to that healing, as though I need the pain and discomfort. You'd better be right, Mr Khan!!!!

If (we don’t know for sure, it’s trying it and see) if you have a lactose intolerance or have developed a sensitivity, you would need to cut it out completely, as if you ‘only’ have a bit with your coffee and only another ‘bit’ with cereal, then essentially you’re drip feeding your system, and therefore not giving it a break from what’s upsetting it, let alone enabling it to recover and heal. I guess this is where things start to make sense, in the things being here to help you. I have what might be termed as an anti-ego, because I have difficulty in acknowledging the good stuff about myself. When people compliment me they might as well be talking to someone else because I actually 'detach' from myself. It feels as though I take an astral step back from it all, I'm standing behind myself watching it all. I feel the same way with all of this, it's very alien and against my paradigm.

The capsules the vet prescribed for me dulls down any reactions my stomach might have so that's going to affect things. The chips I had a bad reaction to but not potatoes because I'm OK with mash, etc. That leads me towards what they're cooked in. I've pretty much cut out most things I've been eating prior to this and now I'm quietly introducing things to see how they react, and so far milk hasn't given me any kind of reaction so for the time being I'm going to count that as OK. After I'm off the capsules that may change but as log as I'm on them I really don't have any kind of way of telling what might be doing it or not, and the alternative is cutting out everything that might be causing it just in case. Just right now there's no real way to tell if I am lactose intolerant or not because so far there hasn't been any kind of reaction that I can sense.

Find out everything they’ve tested for, as it’s all information and can help eliminate things.Maybe I should just stick to hay and bran flakes lol.

If these are oven chips, they could well contain gluten.

Try the goat’s milk; it can take a few days to get used to the taste but once you’ve got used to it, you can use it just like regular milk. Goat’s is much easier for humans to digest that cow’s.The chips are fried and they have (I think) allergen information so I need to get a hold of that. I'll try goat's milk anyway, but having to hold my nose to pour it down is not considered as a viable long-term solution, I'll have you know.:hug3:

It’s very weird and I sometimes wonder if we’ve been at this ascension longer than we know.

In this last week, I’ve had two new things been happening; the first is itchiness, particularly on my back and head. Apparently, this is the body getting rid of toxins. I’ve also had a little eczema which I’ve not had since my early twenties!

And secondly, when I’ve been brushing or washing my hair I’ve been losing a lot. And I thought that couldn’t be linked to ascension now could it! But apparently, it could! Losing hair is a sign of crown chakra activity. I seem to be doing the whole ascension symptoms from A- Z!To be honest I'm not sure, because hair loss is pretty natural. Both my daughters have eczema and it can flare up without warning then go away for years, but it seems to happen when they're feeling - as they describe it - a bit meh! By what you've been telling me it wouldn't surprise me if you've been feeling meh! for a while, that you're just generally a bit run down. It was only last week when you told me that you felt as though you felt a bit like the life had been sucked out of you. As good a time as any for those nasty eczema beasties to hit you, when your system is pretty much shot to pieces.

This second phase which began last December is very different from the first phase which was sparked by taking the Angelsword essence. The emotional stuff is not as intense but rather more subtle. The biggest impact this time is on the physical body. Not being able to run when I continued in the first phase. I still do a two mile walk every day and a little pilates and some basic weightlifting but that’s about it. My feeling is that it is important for me to relax as much as possible to let all this assimilate and for the changes to occur. It amazes me really that for 6 years, I had the drive, enthusiasm and excitement to run three times a week. And now, all those qualities have just gone. But then I don’t think that’s a coincidence. How much worse would it be if I had the desire and enthusiasm to run but couldn’t because I didn’t have the physical energy. So maybe one day it will all come back or I’ll have more energy to pursue something new.

PatryciaWhat were the reasons you felt driven to run, there did the enthusiasm and the excitement come from? If you were in training for the Olympics or a marathon I can understand the drive to run but that doesn't seem to be the case, or at least you've never mentioned it. We humans tend to do things for reasons, although not always for ones of logic admittedly so did you have reasons beyond the need to run? Was your running an expression of something deeper inside? If it was then you have your answer, your Ascension has certainly had its affect on you and one of the affects may well be to come to terms with aspects of yourself that perhaps you'd never even thought about.

Patrycia-Rose

16-09-2018, 08:36 AM

Hello Mr G

You would have fitted in very nicely with the group I used to write with, what seems a lifetime ago almost.

I had one of those back in the 90's, a group of us that originally met at a writing class decided to go it alone as just a few of us were writing novels and the rest of the class were writing poetry. So we used to go to each other's houses once a week and read our latest offering and get comments and feedback. Those were the days!

Have you ever come across Gestalt Reality?

Yes, I have come across Gestalt. If you recall, the term reminds me of a former manager who was very much into it and that manager was the worst manager I’d ever and so the term closes me down.

The only plans I have for today is going up to see Mrs G's dad and having a drink with him[/B], he likes his beer and I've bought a small bottle of single malt to try. I have spells of intense feelings sometimes and I feel different from moment-to-moment. One moment I'm a naturally nice guy and the next I'm gritting my teeth just to be civil

So are you retired now? I recall you saying it was the in the planning.

I can definitely relate to that, and it’s difficult playing out those dynamics in the workplace.

You're very welcome. Don't you think that sometimes it's a little bit galling when we create all this magic yet never stop and realise it's happening? Isn't that just bonkers crazy?

Absolutely. I love creating magic but oftentimes, I think because I’m used to getting on with life on my own, I don’t realise I am creating it and it’s only when you point it out, in that rather lovely way, do I realise that’s what I am doing.

'Back in the day' there was something called Gnosis, which is basically knowing without knowing how you know. Much of what Jesus was saying - the God within - is Gnostic teachings that can be traced back to the ancient Egyptians. It's been said that is where Christ Consciousness comes from. That sounds very much like what Tolle is calling Space consciousness - something that is beyond the mind/brain. Something that comes from nowhere seemingly but it's there just the same. Offhand I ncan't think of anything similar from Matt but then my head leaks anyway. I think most of Matt's teachings are more pragmatic than most because he doesn't discuss beliefs as such, and I'd question if what he's giving is teaching. [B]I wouldn't call Matt's material object consciousness as such.
I’ve not heard of the term space consciousness at all.

No, neither would I. I’ve only heard him mention the term a couple of times.

I used to watch Colin Fry on Sky TV, it was when Mrs G and I first came back here, we were living with my mother while trying to get ourselves sorted out. It reminded me of what I used to do, although that was only in local church halls and the like. I did complete a mediumship course that was very interesting to say the least. I broke some of the rules but I was also told to give what I was given, and that was interesting to say the least.

If you were doing mediumship within a church platform setting, that’s pretty impressive. I’m taking you don’t do this now?

Talking of synchronicity, I went in to grab a copy of the Celestine Prophecy because someone had told me it was in the local bookstore. There was a pile of them neatly stacked on the floor so I grabbed a copy and ran. When I got home it was the experiential guide, I'd missed the smaller print on the cover. However, I did go through the exercises diligently and came to the realisations about it.

I recall there being an ‘exercise book’ of it but didn’t pursue that. The novel’s OK, good at the time but it may feel a bit outdated now.

I had a quick peek at your YouTube link, but it's a 'look at it later' thing because it's hitting my filters, but it's more his presentation as much as anything else. His 'packaging' doesn't quite work for me. The moon can have an effect on our bodies and heads, it can make tides so it's not too difficult to think that it can change us in a small way - which is where Jekyll and Hyde comes from.

Yep, I listen loosely to what he’s saying. There are many videos he’s done about his personal experience of the ascension process, those maybe more interesting. I’ve never really been into astrology and new moons etc. I’ve been told by a medium that I’m affected by the changing moons but I’ve not felt an inclination to look into.

I don't want to stay like this, being honest some of it is getting to the stage where I just want it fixed and get it over with but at the same time there's something telling me to leave well alone. I think the time will come when I need to heal it.

It’s good to trust your instincts even when they seem to go against what would be considered a logical course of action. It could well be that similar to some of my symptoms, that it is serving a purpose.

I think the two of us seem to be the same, in very different ways. You're so intent on your healing but my healing isn't physical, at least not yet anyway. I feel as though I'm going though a lot of energetic healing right now and that's what I need to focus on, in the same way as you're focussing on your physical healing. It just feels as though some of the physical healing will be detrimental to that healing, as though I need the pain and discomfort. You'd better be right, Mr Khan!!!!

I understand exactly what you mean which is why in some ways I’m also not rushing to fix anything. In fact I’ve been having doubts about whether to do the Reiki in October. I’ll see nearer the time how I’m getting on. For quite a few months now my guides have suggested I don’t use anything, no crystals, no flower essences, no pomanders, aura soma, tuning forks, no essential oils, nothing, so how I am now is me without any influences.

Like you, I also feel as though I’m going through a clearing of old energetic patterns, and I’m suddenly a little wary of disrupting the process by introducing something like Reiki, mmmm, will have to consider nearer the time.

I guess this is where things start to make sense, in the things being here to help you. I have what might be termed as an anti-ego, because I have difficulty in acknowledging the good stuff about myself. When people compliment me they might as well be talking to someone else because I actually 'detach' from myself. It feels as though I take an astral step back from it all, I'm standing behind myself watching it all. I feel the same way with all of this, it's very alien and against my paradigm.

Have to say, I’m like that as well. If someone pays me a compliment it’s like I don’t hear it. But I am getting much better now at complimenting myself when there’s a genuine situation, like Matt said, because that goes through your own heart centre. I’m very good at complimenting other people and knowing what words they need to make them feel better.

The chips I had a bad reaction to but not potatoes because I'm OK with mash, etc.

That’s because potatoes and mash are natural and chips are processed, because they have gone through a process.

I'll try goat's milk anyway, but having to hold my nose to pour it down is not considered as a viable long-term solution, I'll have you know.:hug3:

If goat’s doesn’t appeal, try soya for a couple of weeks (as long as you don’t have a dodgy thyroid).

To be honest I'm not sure, because hair loss is pretty natural. Both my daughters have eczema and it can flare up without warning then go away for years, but it seems to happen when they're feeling - as they describe it - a bit meh! By what you've been telling me it wouldn't surprise me if you've been feeling meh! for a while, that you're just generally a bit run down. It was only last week when you told me that you felt as though you felt a bit like the life had been sucked out of you. As good a time as any for those nasty eczema beasties to hit you, when your system is pretty much shot to pieces.

Some hair loss is natural yes but for a few weeks it was noticeable. But it’s settled down now.

I don’t feel run down at the moment. We’re on the back end of summer and I thrive in the summer. The eczema, if that is what it is, is curious. The itching is at the base of my spine, and I’m fairly sure it’s related to kundalini. Anyway, after a few days of using eczema cream which wasn’t doing anything and I don’t like using anyway, I made up a blend of organic coconut oil and essential oil of chamomile and it’s settling down nicely.

What were the reasons you felt driven to run, there did the enthusiasm and the excitement come from? If you were in training for the Olympics or a marathon I can understand the drive to run but that doesn't seem to be the case, or at least you've never mentioned it.

That’s really difficult to answer as drive, enthusiasm and excitement to run wasn’t something I needed to work at it was just always there. I’ve just always enjoyed being active. I try to explain. When I was a little kid of about 5/6, we had a large garden and I used to put wooden boxes, large bricks, chairs, anything I could get my hands on and build an obstacle course and then cycle round it as fast as I could and see if I could get faster and faster. When I was older and allowed out as soon as I got home from school, I would change into shorts and t-shirt and out on my bike climbing trees and generally exploring.

At school my favourite lesson was PE. I was particularly good at long jump, high jump, long distance running, sprinting, tennis. I hated netball and rounders (looking back anything that was a team sport I didn’t like and anything ‘solo’ was good).

All of that activity stopped when I fell down stairs and badly hurt my leg and all exercise pretty much stopped. When I was married I was at my most unfit. When I moved into my flat I took up aerobics but that was only once a week.

It was when I moved into my bungalow and got settled that I really wanted to get fit, so I went swimming every week, got an indoor exercise bike, an elliptical trainer which I wasn’t all that keen on, then a racing bike and I got up to doing about 45 miles on the bike and then I discovered running and never looked back. Of all the exercises I’ve done, running is my favourite. Cardiovascular exercise is really good for you, it positively influences your metabolism, hormones etc. I used to experience runners’ high which was great.

I was running before the trauma occurred and stopped for several years after to enable me to recover. I honestly thought my running days were over but I bought a treadmill and literally thought we’ll see how far I can get, not believing I’d get anywhere near the level I was at before the trauma. I literally started off with a few minutes a time with fast walking and uphill walking in-between gradually building up patiently over months and months just pushing here and there when it felt right for that extra minute.

When running – and I miss this so much – I would get flashes of inspiration – I guess because my thinking mind was offline cos I was concentrating. I would listen to motivating music which used to push me on. Also I feel that after my trauma, in which I was in a pretty bad way, the odds were against me getting it all back. But I did it! I’ve always had this thought, as long as I’m running, I’m doing OK.

In all fairness I haven’t felt as though my health is suffering because I’m not running, at the moment anyway. And I do feel very much it is all by design because the natural desire and enthusiasm is not there. I think my physical energy is being taken up making changes to DNA and other ascension related things. So, all that leads me to think, I could make my way back to running, I’ve done it before, I can do it again. But it depends on whether I get the drive and motivation and energy back, so this is where I’m going with the flow, if it’s meant to be it will be and the universe will give me a message the time is right If not, then it’ll be something else. I’m doing some very basic weight lifting every day with a two mile walk and I might look to extend the weightlifting, maybe get a bench, but one thing I am sure about – doing nothing is not an option!

Patrycia

Greenslade

16-09-2018, 11:18 AM

Hello Mr GGood morning Patrycia

I had one of those back in the 90's, a group of us that originally met at a writing class decided to go it alone as just a few of us were writing novels and the rest of the class were writing poetry. So we used to go to each other's houses once a week and read our latest offering and get comments and feedback. Those were the days!We did it all online, which was interesting. We also had a chatroom and a forum where we could discuss story plots so at least we were all on the same page but from our character's perspective. That proved pretty interesting.

Yes, I have come across Gestalt. If you recall, the term reminds me of a former manager who was very much into it and that manager was the worst manager I’d ever and so the term closes me down.Ah yes, sorry but my head leaks sometimes. Old age and all that.

So are you retired now? I recall you saying it was the in the planning.

I can definitely relate to that, and it’s difficult playing out those dynamics in the workplace. Tcha!! I wish!! No lottery win so no retirement so no motorhome so no touring. For the time being anyway.

I used to be quite a laid-back kinda guy and external dynamics didn't affect me so much, but now it does for some reason.

Absolutely. I love creating magic but oftentimes, I think because I’m used to getting on with life on my own, I don’t realise I am creating it and it’s only when you point it out, in that rather lovely way, do I realise that’s what I am doing. Aren't you a work of magic and aren't you co-creating you?

I’ve not heard of the term space consciousness at all.

No, neither would I. I’ve only heard him mention the term a couple of times. I guess the gurus have to come up with new ideas every once in a while to keep them in business.

Interestingly enough what Tolle was saying about object/space consciousness really resonated with me and I grasped it almost immediately because it was something that was going through my head t the time. I took that to be space consciousness because it just felt as though it came to me, rather than being the result of electrical jiggery-pokery in my head. Much of Matt's material has gone the same way, it's as though I just 'get it' rather than having to think and ponder over it.

If you were doing mediumship within a church platform setting, that’s pretty impressive. I’m taking you don’t do this now? Thank you. It was pretty interesting and certainly added another dimension to things that's for sure. I never really felt comfortable on the stage though and that was a bone of contention sometimes. I hated rules and I wanted to be in with the crowd.

I'm not doing it now, not on the stage at least. The abilities haven't gone, it's more like they're not needed but they do come to the fore sometimes. It makes Life a little more interesting. Sometimes I have one-to-one sessions with people and that's usually more interesting but it can get very intensive most times.

I recall there being an ‘exercise book’ of it but didn’t pursue that. The novel’s OK, good at the time but it may feel a bit outdated now. Everything gets outdated, it comes with time unfortunately but it helped at the time. I prefer things practical so the experiential guide was right up my street.

Yep, I listen loosely to what he’s saying. There are many videos he’s done about his personal experience of the ascension process, those maybe more interesting. I’ve never really been into astrology and new moons etc. I’ve been told by a medium that I’m affected by the changing moons but I’ve not felt an inclination to look into.To be honest the whole concept of ascension doesn't sit right with me although I'll use the word for the discussion. Matt's definition is that ascension is bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness 'down' into this dimension, which sits a lot better than the mainstream concept.

One of the things that always puzzled me is what made the Big Bang go bang? Science can tell you what happened micro-seconds after it popped its cork but not what happened before. Where did all that stuff come from? What made it pop its cork? Apparently what happened is that consciousness was there all along and matter is emergent of consciousness, not the other way around. Are we a part of that process? And yes, I'm aware that I'm implying that I'm a God. Apparently one of the things we are here for is to learn how to manipulate the energies, and there are some very strong links between consciousness and quantum theory so none of this is so far-fetched really.

Perhaps we are not ascending, perhaps we are emergent. That would be cool though.

It’s good to trust your instincts even when they seem to go against what would be considered a logical course of action. It could well be that similar to some of my symptoms, that it is serving a purpose.Logic and reason are relative to one's own agenda anyway, and my instincts have served me well so far. If everything is here to help you why can't ailments/symptoms do the same thing? At the very least it's giving us the strength to endure.

I understand exactly what you mean which is why in some ways I’m also not rushing to fix anything. In fact I’ve been having doubts about whether to do the Reiki in October. I’ll see nearer the time how I’m getting on. For quite a few months now my guides have suggested I don’t use anything, no crystals, no flower essences, no pomanders, aura soma, tuning forks, no essential oils, nothing, so how I am now is me without any influences.

Like you, I also feel as though I’m going through a clearing of old energetic patterns, and I’m suddenly a little wary of disrupting the process by introducing something like Reiki, mmmm, will have to consider nearer the time. I have been making changes to my diet, slowly but surely and that's beginning to have an effect. By the way, goat's milk??? Experimentation, I get it. The small changes seem to be needed but that's so that I'm not as much at odds with myself. If my system isn't right and especially my stomach then it makes me really grouchy so that's not a good foundation for changes. Perhaps it's also a sign/symptom that my lower chakras are going through changes too because I have been noticing subtle changes in that direction.

The Tai Chi DVD is still sitting there and sometimes I'll think that it would be cool to try it, I'm into those graceful movements. Next second I want to run from it, as though there's something bad going to happen. No it doesn't make sense but right now that's the way it is. What's probably happening is that sneaky Spiritual me is blind-siding cranky old git me so that the energetic changes go flying through unnoticed.

Have to say, I’m like that as well. If someone pays me a compliment it’s like I don’t hear it. But I am getting much better now at complimenting myself when there’s a genuine situation, like Matt said, because that goes through your own heart centre. I’m very good at complimenting other people and knowing what words they need to make them feel better. It would be so easy to let the ego go on the rampage but that wouldn't be too clever, so I reach a compromise in allowing the feeling of "It's nice to be nice" and call it quits there. At the same time though I know what it's like to feel not acknowledged so I'll do just that with others. It doesn't hurt and it goes a long way.

That’s because potatoes and mash are natural and chips are processed, because they have gone through a process.At the time I didn't think about it, I was hungry and the food was available so I dived in. It was something simple so it couldn't hurt, right? Seems it told me what was causing the most upset because for long enough I'd had chips every day. The chips are fried and I've avoided anything fried since, and it's felt like relief.

If goat’s doesn’t appeal, try soya for a couple of weeks (as long as you don’t have a dodgy thyroid). It's certainly eased since the change in milk too so I'm going to add dairy to the list for the time being. I used to eat a fair bit of yoghurt too and now I'm aware that it has an effect, but at the same time I don't want to get paranoid. The goat's milk has had a week and I still have to hold my nose so I guess it's a taste that isn't going to be acquired. The good news is that Tescos has a range of alternatives, isn't that exciting? Sorry, please forgive my silly mood right now.

Week after next is appointment with the vet to see hwhat's happening with these damned pills, week after that is ultrasound scan to see what they can see. Oh joy.

Some hair loss is natural yes but for a few weeks it was noticeable. But it’s settled down now.

I don’t feel run down at the moment. We’re on the back end of summer and I thrive in the summer. The eczema, if that is what it is, is curious. The itching is at the base of my spine, and I’m fairly sure it’s related to kundalini. Anyway, after a few days of using eczema cream which wasn’t doing anything and I don’t like using anyway, I made up a blend of organic coconut oil and essential oil of chamomile and it’s settling down nicely. Come to think of it I was having a fair bit of hair loss, it must have been quite a bit because I noticed it. My head and especially the back has been really itchy of late, as though the hair has been growing back in.

This time of year has always been particularly bad for me, and what seems to spur it on is all the Christmas broohaha. I hate it with a vengeance. Next week is the equinox so Sunday I'll be up at the megalithic site, it's something I feel I have to do this year and this equinox in particular. It's actually on the Saturday but I'm covering for a colleague. After that it's downhill all the way, the nights have been drawing in and the swallows have been preparing for migration.

Talking of which - Seasonal Adjustment Disorder. It's not run down as such but it can make us feel out of sorts, as the summer comes to a close and the dark nights get darker. It's a collective subconscious thing, winter wasn't a lot of fun for our cavemen ancestors. There's a lot of it going on around here especially, probably one of the reasons being that it's a small community and a fishing/farming one at that. People are just that little bit closer to their environment around here, and there are noticeable environmental changes going on with nature. As an outdoors person you'd be prone to it as well, possibly.

That’s really difficult to answer as drive, enthusiasm and excitement to run wasn’t something I needed to work at it was just always there. I’ve just always enjoyed being active. I try to explain. When I was a little kid of about 5/6, we had a large garden and I used to put wooden boxes, large bricks, chairs, anything I could get my hands on and build an obstacle course and then cycle round it as fast as I could and see if I could get faster and faster. When I was older and allowed out as soon as I got home from school, I would change into shorts and t-shirt and out on my bike climbing trees and generally exploring.

At school my favourite lesson was PE. I was particularly good at long jump, high jump, long distance running, sprinting, tennis. I hated netball and rounders (looking back anything that was a team sport I didn’t like and anything ‘solo’ was good).

All of that activity stopped when I fell down stairs and badly hurt my leg and all exercise pretty much stopped. When I was married I was at my most unfit. When I moved into my flat I took up aerobics but that was only once a week.

It was when I moved into my bungalow and got settled that I really wanted to get fit, so I went swimming every week, got an indoor exercise bike, an elliptical trainer which I wasn’t all that keen on, then a racing bike and I got up to doing about 45 miles on the bike and then I discovered running and never looked back. Of all the exercises I’ve done, running is my favourite. Cardiovascular exercise is really good for you, it positively influences your metabolism, hormones etc. I used to experience runners’ high which was great.

I was running before the trauma occurred and stopped for several years after to enable me to recover. I honestly thought my running days were over but I bought a treadmill and literally thought we’ll see how far I can get, not believing I’d get anywhere near the level I was at before the trauma. I literally started off with a few minutes a time with fast walking and uphill walking in-between gradually building up patiently over months and months just pushing here and there when it felt right for that extra minute.

When running – and I miss this so much – I would get flashes of inspiration – I guess because my thinking mind was offline cos I was concentrating. I would listen to motivating music which used to push me on. Also I feel that after my trauma, in which I was in a pretty bad way, the odds were against me getting it all back. But I did it! I’ve always had this thought, as long as I’m running, I’m doing OK.

In all fairness I haven’t felt as though my health is suffering because I’m not running, at the moment anyway. And I do feel very much it is all by design because the natural desire and enthusiasm is not there. I think my physical energy is being taken up making changes to DNA and other ascension related things. So, all that leads me to think, I could make my way back to running, I’ve done it before, I can do it again. But it depends on whether I get the drive and motivation and energy back, so this is where I’m going with the flow, if it’s meant to be it will be and the universe will give me a message the time is right If not, then it’ll be something else. I’m doing some very basic weight lifting every day with a two mile walk and I might look to extend the weightlifting, maybe get a bench, but one thing I am sure about – doing nothing is not an option!

Patrycia

I’ve always had this thought, as long as I’m running, I’m doing OK.I was always active when I was younger, not as much as you but I was certainly running around and always on the go as if I has my backside on fire. Stupid stunts was my favourite and I'm surprised I survived childhood at all. But always cycling, running around..... Hockey was my favourite, it was the only sport I was any good at. I liked to run but I wasn't a sprinter, but I ran because I loved the feeling of wind in my face and hair. It gave me a sense of freedom. Judo and the people I met because of it calmed me down to and gave me a channel to vent. Then one day it all went. All of it. I had no anger, I had no motivation to run or anything else - not even gain more grades at judo. Swimming helped too, particularly diving because they had a great board and I could fly from it. And I could swim a whole length underwater, that was an achievement.

It was around that time when everything changed and I was starting to leave aspects of myself behind, you do that kind of thing at the 17-/18-/19-year-old mark sometimes. At the time my psychic abilities were coming to the fore as well, and I was waiting for a date to join the RAF. I've never felt the motivation for anything physical since. There have been dabbles but nothing serious, it was more of a social thing than anything else.

The upshot for me was that with the judo in particular but other things as well, I was... venting/expressing something deeper inside and when that didn't need venting/expressing any more there was no need for the exercise. Perhaps the reason you don't have the drive or motivation right now - and granted that may change in the future - is that you don't have the same subconscious need. Believe it or not, far more happens with us subconsciously than consciously. Given now that you've gone through you're ascension process, or at least this stage anyway.

Say what?? This stage???

LadyMay

16-09-2018, 09:06 PM

I maybe wouldn't call it 'ascension' personally but yes I think these symptoms are common during spiritual awakening. Grounding is the key to managing them.

Patrycia-Rose

23-09-2018, 08:06 AM

Hello Mr G

Two days of solid rain, but thankfully it's (apparently) going to brighten up next week.

We did it all online, which was interesting. We also had a chatroom and a forum where we could discuss story plots so at least we were all on the same page but from our character's perspective. That proved pretty interesting.

That does sound interesting. So, did you already know each other before the writing or did you meet online through a forum?

Aren't you a work of magic and aren't you co-creating you?

I definitely am (more about that later). I’m certainly looking and handling life in a different way c/o Matt’s teachings so in some ways I feel the same me, likes, dislikes, still HSP but it’s like taken the edge off what I would have referred to as the negative feelings, it all feels like it is smoothing out for want of a better term.

Much of Matt's material has gone the same way, it's as though I just 'get it' rather than having to think and ponder over it.

Yes, it’s like when I’m listening and watching, what he is saying makes so much sense to me, there’s deep explanations and examples and humour to drive home the message. What is so interesting to me at the moment, is having watched all his videos, is going back to the start and seeing which ones I had only noted down one sentence, or a small paragraph because most of it went over my head, although I wasn’t aware it was going over my head at the time. So now I listen and it’s taking it to that deeper level now that I’m fully tuned into his language, phrases, tone, themes. And it’s clear to see in my lever arch file of translations, the more videos I’ve watched, the longer the notes. So now it’s like I’ve got a good grasp of it all, what areas do I want to focus on a bit more?

And last weekend, I had a real ‘aha’ magic moment. For a couple of months, I’ve been wondering about surrender. Matt mentions it a lot and I thought it was just letting go and where you end up is where you’re supposed to be. But in a recent video he was saying that is a common misperception and that there is a lot of misunderstanding about surrender especially when life expects you to fully participate. So I thought, how do you get the balance right? And then last weekend, up in the suggested youtube videos was Heart of Ascension. I was drawn to the title and looking back at my notes, saw that this was one of the first I’d watched and had noted a small paragraph. I was so drawn to the title as I just knew there would be so much more to it now. And I couldn’t believe it, it was all about surrender!

So having gone through it and understanding now the art of surrender, he was also talking about welcoming in what we would call those not so easy emotions such as sadness, anger, fear etc. And he was talking specifically about fear and doing one of his humorous takes which he uses to drive the message home. I was listening intently at this stage on how to respond to this in myself and he said about welcoming in the emotion of fear within yourself and …… “anything you wish to say please share it with me and I will be here to give you the love that you may not have ever received.“ And it literally dropped into my mind in a fraction of a second, as Matt said those words, that my phobia/fear – that the little boy who died in fear had never known love – he had died not knowing love. If you recall I’d described in a very childlike way the fear when near this object, felt like I was going to be ’gobbled up and die’. In that moment I knew my fear in this life is not the fear of dying (because I’m not afraid of dying) it’s the fear of having never known love. And I chose my parents in this lifetime to heal that because from a very small child, I always knew I was loved. A profound and very emotional experience, took me a while to integrate all that.

I know that sounds a bit all over the place and I’m not explaining it very well. It’s something that struck me in second and I’m trying to explain it rationally and not doing a very good job. But it made me feel tearful and emotional so I must have been onto something. I also noticed a dull ache in the heart. I noticed that when that moment occurred it was 12.22.

And that night, whilst all of this was settling in my mind, I started to get all this synchronicity. When I went to bed the first thing to come into my third eye was 999, the number of karmic completion and then in the middle of the night I heard church and I hadn’t had that for months.

So, this is the second experience I’ve had around this phobia, maybe spirit have got plans. And it's also the second time I've had a profound insight from something Matt has said!

Thank you. It was pretty interesting and certainly added another dimension to things that's for sure. I never really felt comfortable on the stage though and that was a bone of contention sometimes. I hated rules and I wanted to be in with the crowd.

Yes, I wouldn’t want to be up on stage and would prefer one to one but that is very much me and very much a trait of HSP.

It’s a useful ability to have and a good way of spirit being able to communicate with you.

To be honest the whole concept of ascension doesn't sit right with me although I'll use the word for the discussion. Matt's definition is that ascension is bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness 'down' into this dimension, which sits a lot better than the mainstream concept.

I do agree that ascension can sound a bit lofty! I’d never heard of the word before but when this second phase kicked off my guides put the word in my third eye. The only time I’d heard the word was to do with resurrection and all that ……… so I rather tentatively googled the word and all these sites came up and it was an ‘aha’ moment – so that’s what’s going on. This was way before you introduced me to Matt so by the time I’d got a bit of a handle on what was going on, he then started to refer to it and it’s all fitted nicely.

And I do totally agree it’s about bringing fifth dimensional heart centred consciousness to the earth plane.

So what is the mainstream concept? Is that different from Matt’s definition?

Apparently one of the things we are here for is to learn how to manipulate the energies, and there are some very strong links between consciousness and quantum theory so none of this is so far-fetched really.

I’ve heard Dolores Cannon say that on more than one occasion.

Logic and reason are relative to one's own agenda anyway, and my instincts have served me well so far. If everything is here to help you why can't ailments/symptoms do the same thing? At the very least it's giving us the strength to endure.

Yes exactly; a new way of thinking for me. It has caused me to stop fighting various bits and pieces. I’d still like to be healed but as you say, they could be serving a purpose, and I don’t have to know what that purpose is. It’s all the divine anyway. That’s kind of why I’m not sure about the Reiki in October although I’ve had contact with my guides about it. I’ve one not so good experience of Reiki and several good experiences from a wonderful medium I’ve seen over a ten year period (retired now) who used to give me healing if there was a need. When I was having doubts and doing the Reiki in October, my guides put an image in my mind of me receiving Reiki from the medium and encouraged me to recall the positive experiences with her. So I’m assuming this is there way of maybe encouraging me to go ahead with it.

The Tai Chi DVD is still sitting there and sometimes I'll think that it would be cool to try it, I'm into those graceful movements. Next second I want to run from it, as though there's something bad going to happen. No it doesn't make sense but right now that's the way it is. What's probably happening is that sneaky Spiritual me is blind-siding cranky old git me so that the energetic changes go flying through unnoticed.

I have to confess to a qui gong DVD still sat on the shelf. I watched it through a couple of times and felt much better afterwards!

I’ve been recently looking into exercising with kettlebells. I’m already doing some basic weightlifting with dumbbells (start at 6 in the morning) and it would seem after doing much reading, that dumbbells are more suited to focused weightlifting whereas kettlebells can be swung around and is a different approach to strengthening. I also read on the Mercola website that as you get older, it is more important to keep your muscles strong than to do cardiovascular. So I’m seeing how the idea settles in my mind and I may get a kettlebell. I’ve found a good DVD so I may be heading that way. That doesn’t mean I’m hanging up my running shoes yet, I don’t know yet what the outcome of that will be. But in many ways, my knees and joints and hips aren’t knackered through running, so it may well be the time is right for something else whilst I’m still in good shape.

At the time I didn't think about it, I was hungry and the food was available so I dived in. It was something simple so it couldn't hurt, right? Seems it told me what was causing the most upset because for long enough I'd had chips every day. The chips are fried and I've avoided anything fried since, and it's felt like relief.

Ah so now you’re discovering natural food – which has not gone through a process - is the way to go.

There’s more to processed food than just being a ‘ready meal.’ It is any food which has gone through a process of having something taken out or put in.
Case in point, many years ago, I had an organic half fat cheddar cheese. Nothing wrong with that surely? I couldn’t understand why it upset my stomach. So I tried the same brand, same range, full fat cheese. No upset stomach. So whatever process that cheese was put through, upset me. So now, I don’t touch low fat, no sugar etc. I have full fat foods, untouched and natural.

It's certainly eased since the change in milk too so I'm going to add dairy to the list for the time being. I used to eat a fair bit of yoghurt too and now I'm aware that it has an effect, but at the same time I don't want to get paranoid. The goat's milk has had a week and I still have to hold my nose so I guess it's a taste that isn't going to be acquired. The good news is that Tescos has a range of alternatives, isn't that exciting? Sorry, please forgive my silly mood right now.

Good for you for trying the goat’s milk. You may need a couple of weeks to adjust to the taste, I have full fat and cow’s tastes odd now. There is a goat’s yoghurt which is far less ‘goaty’ than milk. Goat’s milk is much easier to digest than cow’s and many people’s eczema, asthma and other allergies have cleared up after swapping.

There are plenty of alternatives out there including A2 milk and lactose free and various nut milks. I’m not a fan of these nut milks as I don’t like some of the ingredients they use such as carrageenan which is E407 and you can be straying into GMO.

As a natural alternative for you and to avoid anything which is processed, I would continue with the goat’s, particularly if your stomach is preferring it. It’s natural and more easily digested. It will just be a matter of your taste buds adapting. No need to give up yoghurt either, as St Helen’s Farm do a lovely goat’s yoghurt (and all the other dairy things like ice-cream, butter, cream etc – dependent on what your local supermarket stock).

Week after next is appointment with the vet to see hwhat's happening with these damned pills, week after that is ultrasound scan to see what they can see. Oh joy.

They may well suggest continuing with the medication particularly if you say things are settling down, as they will think this is due to the medication and not the changes in your diet. And also you don’t know to what extent the changes in your diet are making as the medication will be dulling your reaction.

This time of year has always been particularly bad for me, and what seems to spur it on is all the Christmas broohaha. I hate it with a vengeance. Next week is the equinox so Sunday I'll be up at the megalithic site, it's something I feel I have to do this year and this equinox in particular. It's actually on the Saturday but I'm covering for a colleague. After that it's downhill all the way, the nights have been drawing in and the swallows have been preparing for migration.

Talking of which - Seasonal Adjustment Disorder. It's not run down as such but it can make us feel out of sorts, as the summer comes to a close and the dark nights get darker. It's a collective subconscious thing, winter wasn't a lot of fun for our cavemen ancestors. There's a lot of it going on around here especially, probably one of the reasons being that it's a small community and a fishing/farming one at that. People are just that little bit closer to their environment around here, and there are noticeable environmental changes going on with nature. As an outdoors person you'd be prone to it as well, possibly.

I could have written that! I also hate this time of year, summer gone, the nights are drawing in, fireworks are going off, then it’s the fair, then the clocks go back and by the time Christmas is here, I’m constantly cold, depressed and I just want to hibernate.

I seem to go through almost a grieving process as one season ends and another comes in. For me January and February are the worst. I always go through some sort of crisis in January/February.

. Given now that you've gone through you're ascension process, or at least this stage anyway.

I think it is ‘this stage’ – looking back I can see various stages. Thing is, does it ever end? I’m not sure that it will – we’re evolving all the time.

Patrycia

Greenslade

23-09-2018, 01:50 PM

Hello Mr G

Two days of solid rain, but thankfully it's (apparently) going to brighten up next week.Good morning, Patrycia

Scotland often gets a bad name but even these last few weeks it's only been a bit meh instead of eeeyuch, even today the sun is shining bright. The swallows have been out in force though so it can't be too long before they're gone.

That does sound interesting. So, did you already know each other before the writing or did you meet online through a forum? We met in a couple of forums, we were scattered across the UK at the time but we did go and see some of them. That was good fun too, it was interesting to put faces to characters.

I definitely am (more about that later). I’m certainly looking and handling life in a different way c/o Matt’s teachings so in some ways I feel the same me, likes, dislikes, still HSP but it’s like taken the edge off what I would have referred to as the negative feelings, it all feels like it is smoothing out for want of a better term. You mean a more balanced you, and your experience of what's around you isn't bouncing from extreme this to extreme that quite so much?

Yes, it’s like when I’m listening and watching, what he is saying makes so much sense to me, there’s deep explanations and examples and humour to drive home the message. What is so interesting to me at the moment, is having watched all his videos, is going back to the start and seeing which ones I had only noted down one sentence, or a small paragraph because most of it went over my head, although I wasn’t aware it was going over my head at the time. So now I listen and it’s taking it to that deeper level now that I’m fully tuned into his language, phrases, tone, themes. And it’s clear to see in my lever arch file of translations, the more videos I’ve watched, the longer the notes. So now it’s like I’ve got a good grasp of it all, what areas do I want to focus on a bit more?

And last weekend, I had a real ‘aha’ magic moment. For a couple of months, I’ve been wondering about surrender. Matt mentions it a lot and I thought it was just letting go and where you end up is where you’re supposed to be. But in a recent video he was saying that is a common misperception and that there is a lot of misunderstanding about surrender especially when life expects you to fully participate. So I thought, how do you get the balance right? And then last weekend, up in the suggested youtube videos was Heart of Ascension. I was drawn to the title and looking back at my notes, saw that this was one of the first I’d watched and had noted a small paragraph. I was so drawn to the title as I just knew there would be so much more to it now. And I couldn’t believe it, it was all about surrender!

So having gone through it and understanding now the art of surrender, he was also talking about welcoming in what we would call those not so easy emotions such as sadness, anger, fear etc. And he was talking specifically about fear and doing one of his humorous takes which he uses to drive the message home. I was listening intently at this stage on how to respond to this in myself and he said about welcoming in the emotion of fear within yourself and …… “anything you wish to say please share it with me and I will be here to give you the love that you may not have ever received.“ And it literally dropped into my mind in a fraction of a second, as Matt said those words, that my phobia/fear – that the little boy who died in fear had never known love – he had died not knowing love. If you recall I’d described in a very childlike way the fear when near this object, felt like I was going to be ’gobbled up and die’. In that moment I knew my fear in this life is not the fear of dying (because I’m not afraid of dying) it’s the fear of having never known love. And I chose my parents in this lifetime to heal that because from a very small child, I always knew I was loved. A profound and very emotional experience, took me a while to integrate all that.

I know that sounds a bit all over the place and I’m not explaining it very well. It’s something that struck me in second and I’m trying to explain it rationally and not doing a very good job. But it made me feel tearful and emotional so I must have been onto something. I also noticed a dull ache in the heart. I noticed that when that moment occurred it was 12.22.

And that night, whilst all of this was settling in my mind, I started to get all this synchronicity. When I went to bed the first thing to come into my third eye was 999, the number of karmic completion and then in the middle of the night I heard church and I hadn’t had that for months.

So, this is the second experience I’ve had around this phobia, maybe spirit have got plans. And it's also the second time I've had a profound insight from something Matt has said! [/quote]I don't think you're going to have too much trouble with surrendering and finding the balance between that and having the experience, you\re already quite a way there with your "smoothing out". Positive and negative are extremes of the same thing so once they start smoothing out surrender and experiencing will too, what's happening is that 'negative' is this case is non-acceptance/surrender and positive is a deep embracing.

The phrase I picked up from Bashar is "commensurate with your higher Self," and I know you're not a huge fan of the term 'Higher Self' but it's convenient for communication. I had a dream once which explains it nicely. I was in a room with what looked like a map table and there was HS showing me how it all worked. I felt myself change, becoming a different person and as I did so the map changed, the paths readjusted themselves, new ones came into being while others winked out. All the time, at every change the destination was the same. I had this thought that I really wanted to do something but that changed the destination and at that point HS intervened.

Sometimes I don't know if I'm talking to as a person or your Soul sometimes, and that skews the conversation a little bit too although I do try my best to talk to the person. What also makes it more difficult is that I have all this 'other Life' stuff in my head that's so easily accessible. Not sure why I needed to say that right now but there you have it anyway. My head's a tad Pythonesque at the moment.

I'm not going to make a lot of rational sense here but it's annoying me so I have to get it off my chest. Anyway. Way back I had this very strong feeling of a little boy who was dying alone in the dark, I had the feeling that his parents had died when he was too young to remember them. There was a hole inside him that he knew he would never fill, and at the time I initially thought that the little boy was myself somehow but it became clear that wasn't the case. With him it wasn't the fear of not having known Love but the regret, and in never having known my father I could empathise with him deeply there. It seemed to make him feel a little better that someone could relate to him on his level, something he'd never had before. I felt as though I was being pulled away and told him I had to go, but at the time I felt as though someone else was coming. There was a female feeling. He looked really sad when I told him I had to go, as though he was accepting the inevitable but he perked up a little. Just after that I came out of it.

A little later I was given that the boy was 'one of us' as it was put, so it all made sense after that. I can't quite make the connections even if there are any but I just needed to say it anyway. I think we've both been carrying 'baggage' from Lifetimes far in the distant past and the circle needs to be closed in this existence. or more accurately the cycle needs to be ended - hence your Karmic completion. What resonates with me right now is the cessation of Karma.

Anyway. E-motions are energy in motion and often phobias are the darkest and most deep-rooted of them all. They're buried deep in our psyche and have kept us alive as a species, when they made us run from lions and tigers and bears, oh my. Part of the Ascension process is moving away from those primeval instincts and doing something more constructive with them.

Yes, I wouldn’t want to be up on stage and would prefer one to one but that is very much me and very much a trait of HSP.

It’s a useful ability to have and a good way of spirit being able to communicate with you. It was a pain being up there and on display, or at least that's what it felt like but the energies were pretty incredible. It's been interesting that's for sure.

I do agree that ascension can sound a bit lofty! I’d never heard of the word before but when this second phase kicked off my guides put the word in my third eye. The only time I’d heard the word was to do with resurrection and all that ……… so I rather tentatively googled the word and all these sites came up and it was an ‘aha’ moment – so that’s what’s going on. This was way before you introduced me to Matt so by the time I’d got a bit of a handle on what was going on, he then started to refer to it and it’s all fitted nicely.

And I do totally agree it’s about bringing fifth dimensional heart centred consciousness to the earth plane.

So what is the mainstream concept? Is that different from Matt’s definition?The word's been around in various guises for years actually, way back it was called the dawning of the age of Aquarius, although nobody is quite sure when that is exactly. It's somewhere between been here a while and sometime in the far distant future. I think what brought it to popular attention was the aftermath of 2012 and how the world is today. It seems the more things change the more they stay the same and we're still looking for God to come and save us 2,000 years on. Yeah I know, cynical old me.

By the way - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L84963JVy_g

I've never actually seen a mainstream definition, at least not one with a consensus of opinion but it seems to be that it means higher vibrations and floating off to some higher dimension as a cloud of steam-like energy. No more learning the lessons and being the epitome of perfection.

I’ve heard Dolores Cannon say that on more than one occasion.That would fit nicely with Matt's definition of Ascension because consciousness and energy are closely linked. more so than many would want to understand it seems.

Yes exactly; a new way of thinking for me. It has caused me to stop fighting various bits and pieces. I’d still like to be healed but as you say, they could be serving a purpose, and I don’t have to know what that purpose is. It’s all the divine anyway. That’s kind of why I’m not sure about the Reiki in October although I’ve had contact with my guides about it. I’ve one not so good experience of Reiki and several good experiences from a wonderful medium I’ve seen over a ten year period (retired now) who used to give me healing if there was a need. When I was having doubts and doing the Reiki in October, my guides put an image in my mind of me receiving Reiki from the medium and encouraged me to recall the positive experiences with her. So I’m assuming this is there way of maybe encouraging me to go ahead with it. This is very much linked to your balancing again, as soon as you say 'positive' or 'negative' you're in the mindset of bouncing off extremes. The 'negatives' can be of more help than the 'positives' so which is which? W£hat you're left with now is not the experience of the Reiki because obviously that's long gone, what you're left with is your memories and perceptions of the experience. So wasn't that 'negative' experience not here to help you too, and if so how?

Often the best way to know is to clear the space for the understanding to come, nature abhors a vacuum and the human consciousness can only handle so much so if it's full of misconceptions there's no room for understanding.

I think for me it's coming to the understanding that I'm getting old and knackered and the spring chicken is a tough old bird. Sad but true it seems, although through it all I'm still young at heart. The swallow's display is exciting and I don't want to lose that.

I have to confess to a qui gong DVD still sat on the shelf. I watched it through a couple of times and felt much better afterwards!

I’ve been recently looking into exercising with kettlebells. I’m already doing some basic weightlifting with dumbbells (start at 6 in the morning) and it would seem after doing much reading, that dumbbells are more suited to focused weightlifting whereas kettlebells can be swung around and is a different approach to strengthening. I also read on the Mercola website that as you get older, it is more important to keep your muscles strong than to do cardiovascular. So I’m seeing how the idea settles in my mind and I may get a kettlebell. I’ve found a good DVD so I may be heading that way. That doesn’t mean I’m hanging up my running shoes yet, I don’t know yet what the outcome of that will be. But in many ways, my knees and joints and hips aren’t knackered through running, so it may well be the time is right for something else whilst I’m still in good shape. Good luck with the weight-lifting though. All this health stuff with the digestive system started off with me feeling weaker to the point where it was getting harder to do my job, and so far there's been no answers. I'm hoping that once they have this sorted out I won't feel like I'm so damned weak. Exercising doesn't seem to help right now, so for the time being it's trying to work out what's going on. It had to come I suppose, old age doesn't come on its own as they say.

Ah so now you’re discovering natural food – which has not gone through a process - is the way to go.

There’s more to processed food than just being a ‘ready meal.’ It is any food which has gone through a process of having something taken out or put in.
Case in point, many years ago, I had an organic half fat cheddar cheese. Nothing wrong with that surely? I couldn’t understand why it upset my stomach. So I tried the same brand, same range, full fat cheese. No upset stomach. So whatever process that cheese was put through, upset me. So now, I don’t touch low fat, no sugar etc. I have full fat foods, untouched and natural.Interestingly enough Tescos magazine has a range of easy. natural recipes so I'm going to try some out. The biggest pain is that by the time I get home Mrs G's day is about done so laborious cooking is out, and it's also a weird time of day by the time I get home and settled. All part of the process of changing and adapting Lifestyles I guess. At that time of day I just need something quick and easy so I;m going to give the alternatives a try and see what happens from there. At the same time though my gut instinct says it's time to change so......

Good for you for trying the goat’s milk. You may need a couple of weeks to adjust to the taste, I have full fat and cow’s tastes odd now. There is a goat’s yoghurt which is far less ‘goaty’ than milk. Goat’s milk is much easier to digest than cow’s and many people’s eczema, asthma and other allergies have cleared up after swapping.

There are plenty of alternatives out there including A2 milk and lactose free and various nut milks. I’m not a fan of these nut milks as I don’t like some of the ingredients they use such as carrageenan which is E407 and you can be straying into GMO.

As a natural alternative for you and to avoid anything which is processed, I would continue with the goat’s, particularly if your stomach is preferring it. It’s natural and more easily digested. It will just be a matter of your taste buds adapting. No need to give up yoghurt either, as St Helen’s Farm do a lovely goat’s yoghurt (and all the other dairy things like ice-cream, butter, cream etc – dependent on what your local supermarket stock). It's actually easing off a lot of it so it's not so bad. What I feel I need to do for the time being at least is find a 'safe place' where I know what's not going to set me off and start from there. Same goes for the goat's milk, it gives me an after taste but it's making a difference so I'm happy with that. The goat's milk and the coffee don't agree but I can live with that and later on I can try other/different combinations. It tastes better on the muesli but crappier on the coffee, so that sounds about par for the course.

Think I'll stay away from GMO foods, the last think I need is to start growing boobs though. The upside is that I have new tastes to discover so I guess even that is telling me something too.

They may well suggest continuing with the medication particularly if you say things are settling down, as they will think this is due to the medication and not the changes in your diet. And also you don’t know to what extent the changes in your diet are making as the medication will be dulling your reaction. This is the quandary I have right now. I could go on thinking the goat's milk is doing me the power of good and them when I'm off the meds it could throw me a curved loop. I guess I just need to be ready just in case but I doubt the goat's milk is going to cause any damage either way. As long as I'm as 'safe' as can be any potential reaction is going to be minimised. Once I feel brave enough I'll tentatively try other things and see what happens from there.

I could have written that! I also hate this time of year, summer gone, the nights are drawing in, fireworks are going off, then it’s the fair, then the clocks go back and by the time Christmas is here, I’m constantly cold, depressed and I just want to hibernate.

I seem to go through almost a grieving process as one season ends and another comes in. For me January and February are the worst. I always go through some sort of crisis in January/February. I actually don't mind the natural part of this time of year because there's obviously rhymes and reasons, and it's nice to feel as though I'm a part of that process even if it's only observing. The swallows are getting ready to go, the leaves are falling and the sunsets are becoming more spectacular and earlier. The leaves are getting blown off the trees and it won't be long before the autumn colours about. It also won't be long before I hear the callings of the geese and ducks as they fly in for the winter, we have a bird sanctuary just a few miles up the road.

What I do hate is the supermarkets putting their Christmas stock on the shelves already, it just serves to drive home the commercialism of it all. People's attitudes don't help neither. I've always hated Christmas as a kid because it was never the way it was portrayed in the movies, and the 'What did you get from Santa' is one of the questions I've always loathed with a vengeance. It doesn'y help that it's coming up for the anniversary of my father's death.

I think it is ‘this stage’ – looking back I can see various stages. Thing is, does it ever end? I’m not sure that it will – we’re evolving all the time.

PatryciaThe only conclusions are the ones we choose to make, and there comes a time when they become illusionary.

Patrycia-Rose

30-09-2018, 07:49 AM

Morning Mr G,

What an awesome week it's been, all that lovely sunshine!

You mean a more balanced you, and your experience of what's around you isn't bouncing from extreme this to extreme that quite so much?

Yes balanced, I just feel more at ease with everything, even what I would have referred previously to as negative emotions. It’s kind of interesting to observe. The other day I stumbled across something called Grabavoi numbers which is about a number originally used in radionics for healing. The idea with the Grabavoi numbers is to visualise the number and it sends the same energy into your system. I started reading, watching about it with my usual intensity. Got home and immediately my mood dropped and eventually I realised this was a ‘same old same old’ pattern and that I wasn’t going to pursue this. If anything is meant to heal it will, or not, because it is my divine plan, created by me before I came into the body. And so I chucked all the papers in the bin and felt much better! I would never have been capable of that a year ago!

Sometimes I don't know if I'm talking to as a person or your Soul sometimes, and that skews the conversation a little bit too although I do try my best to talk to the person. What also makes it more difficult is that I have all this 'other Life' stuff in my head that's so easily accessible. Not sure why I needed to say that right now but there you have it anyway. My head's a tad Pythonesque at the moment

Maybe a bit of both, particularly where this past life/phobia issue is concerned. I don’t mind which you talk to, whichever you feel inspired, it’s all me. :smile:

Do you mean ‘other life’ as in past life stuff or ‘other life’ as in the realms?

I'm not going to make a lot of rational sense here but it's annoying me so I have to get it off my chest. Anyway. Way back I had this very strong feeling of a little boy who was dying alone in the dark, I had the feeling that his parents had died when he was too young to remember them. There was a hole inside him that he knew he would never fill, and at the time I initially thought that the little boy was myself somehow but it became clear that wasn't the case. With him it wasn't the fear of not having known Love but the regret, and in never having known my father I could empathise with him deeply there. It seemed to make him feel a little better that someone could relate to him on his level, something he'd never had before. I felt as though I was being pulled away and told him I had to go, but at the time I felt as though someone else was coming. There was a female feeling. He looked really sad when I told him I had to go, as though he was accepting the inevitable but he perked up a little. Just after that I came out of it.

A little later I was given that the boy was 'one of us' as it was put, so it all made sense after that. I can't quite make the connections even if there are any but I just needed to say it anyway. I think we've both been carrying 'baggage' from Lifetimes far in the distant past and the circle needs to be closed in this existence. or more accurately the cycle needs to be ended - hence your Karmic completion. What resonates with me right now is the cessation of Karma.

This is ………….! I don’t know what the word is. That little boy dying alone in the dark would have been an accurate description of me dying in that past life, according to the detail the medium told me. The medium didn’t tell me, but it would fit very well, that his parents had both died and he was being brought up by relatives or people who didn’t care about him, hence why he was mistreated and locked outside in a dark lean to (which is where he died). So the ‘one of us’ would fit with it being one of my past lives and that my phobia would be ‘baggage’ from that previous life. I don’t know if there is more to come here; if it does, it’ll be spiritually inspired as in the previous two experiences as this is bigger than anything I can do or my mind.

Part of the Ascension process is moving away from those primeval instincts and doing something more constructive with them.

It’s certainly interesting to see how much I’ve changed over the last year.

But there is no let up in the intensity. I’ve gone into another phase. The other day, I was watching Matt do some chakra mantras and I found them really suiting me well – except – for when it came to the throat chakra. The words I could feel were being rejected by the throat. And I knew the reason is because there is a lot of trauma there from the experience of 2005. Also, I found really interesting watching how he was getting these mantras instantly and live as it were.

Anyway, this was playing on my mind and I thought I wonder if I could do that, get an instant throat chakra mantra from my guides. So I asked them, please give me a mantra for my throat chakra that would suit it. And I got immediately ‘I am healing, I am whole, I sing with joy.” Well it really liked that and when I said it, I could feel all this energy swirling around in my oesophagus.

Then the next phase kicks in; I noticed a slight worsening of some ailments and some very odd things going on in the physical body. So my guides put in my third eye, “releasing trauma”. So I asked ‘why now?’ And they gave me a triangle. At the top was ‘Matt’s teachings’ at the bottom left was ‘the throat chakra mantra’ and bottom right ‘spiritual timeline’. How cool is that? Really interesting about the spiritual timeline.

This is very much linked to your balancing again, as soon as you say 'positive' or 'negative' you're in the mindset of bouncing off extremes. The 'negatives' can be of more help than the 'positives' so which is which? What you're left with now is not the experience of the Reiki because obviously that's long gone, what you're left with is your memories and perceptions of the experience. So wasn't that 'negative' experience not here to help you too, and if so how?

I guess it’s finding someone you can trust, healers can pass on their own stuff to you, you’re mixing energy fields, auras etc. It’s made me wary that you’re not just dealing with a therapy, what’s more important is the therapist. I’ve had cranio sacral from three different people; two excellent, one not. So it’s a matter of finding the right practitioner, which we’ll see what happens in October with the Reiki. I am getting the feeling now that it is something I’m going to need to do.

Interestingly enough Tescos magazine has a range of easy. natural recipes so I'm going to try some out. The biggest pain is that by the time I get home Mrs G's day is about done so laborious cooking is out, and it's also a weird time of day by the time I get home and settled. All part of the process of changing and adapting Lifestyles I guess. At that time of day I just need something quick and easy so I;m going to give the alternatives a try and see what happens from there. At the same time though my gut instinct says it's time to change so......

I love nothing more at the end of the day, than getting out all the cooking equipment and all the lovely organic ingredients and cooking up a meal. I usually am listening to music on the headphones whilst I’m doing it and I just love the feeling, it’s very much looking after and nurturing yourself.

It's actually easing off a lot of it so it's not so bad. What I feel I need to do for the time being at least is find a 'safe place' where I know what's not going to set me off and start from there. Same goes for the goat's milk, it gives me an after taste but it's making a difference so I'm happy with that. The goat's milk and the coffee don't agree but I can live with that and later on I can try other/different combinations. It tastes better on the muesli but crappier on the coffee, so that sounds about par for the course.

That’s good; it could be that the goat’s milk is giving your system a break.

I do agree that goat’s doesn’t sit well with coffee, so if you’re having one or two cups of coffee a day, you could try soya.

So if cows has been the culprit, you want to ensure you are avoiding cow’s in hidden stuff. If you look on the back of anything you buy, it will have the word ‘dairy’ in bold.

Think I'll stay away from GMO foods, the last think I need is to start growing boobs though. The upside is that I have new tastes to discover so I guess even that is telling me something too.

Understanding GMO and secondary GMO is needed to avoid this. Download this app onto your tablet or phone and it’ll do the work for you. It is shocking how much ‘food’ in supermarkets contains GMO.

http://shopgmofree.co.uk/

This is the quandary I have right now. I could go on thinking the goat's milk is doing me the power of good and them when I'm off the meds it could throw me a curved loop. I guess I just need to be ready just in case but I doubt the goat's milk is going to cause any damage either way. As long as I'm as 'safe' as can be any potential reaction is going to be minimised. Once I feel brave enough I'll tentatively try other things and see what happens from there.

You may want to think about cutting down from the meds gradually rather than just stopping them. If you’re taking one a day, trying half a day and so on. The goat’s milk will be better for you than cow’s in any case. It’s trial and error but I would cut down gradually rather than just stop.

I’m guessing you had the scan and appointment by now. What were they able to tell you?

What I do hate is the supermarkets putting their Christmas stock on the shelves already, it just serves to drive home the commercialism of it all. People's attitudes don't help neither. I've always hated Christmas as a kid because it was never the way it was portrayed in the movies, and the 'What did you get from Santa' is one of the questions I've always loathed with a vengeance. It doesn'y help that it's coming up for the anniversary of my father's death.

Yes, me too. I hate the commercialism. The day for me now is one spent on my own and just enjoying the time off with some good food.

Synchronicity again. My dad’s birthday was on 27th September and it is now approaching the anniversary of his passing in late October. But I know he’s around me and I talk to him a lot and I ask him for help. He never lets me down on a car park space!

I was watching a recent episode of TOTP2 and was reminded of the first record I ever bought at the tender age of 10.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUqAGoPtfto

Patrycia

Greenslade

30-09-2018, 09:43 PM

Morning Mr G,

What an awesome week it's been, all that lovely sunshine!Good morning Patrycia

I guess we're on different planets then, but here we have our own personal weather systems that are usually different from the surrounding countryside. It has something to to do with a small hill that keeps the worst at bay.

Yes balanced, I just feel more at ease with everything, even what I would have referred previously to as negative emotions. It’s kind of interesting to observe. The other day I stumbled across something called Grabavoi numbers which is about a number originally used in radionics for healing. The idea with the Grabavoi numbers is to visualise the number and it sends the same energy into your system. I started reading, watching about it with my usual intensity. Got home and immediately my mood dropped and eventually I realised this was a ‘same old same old’ pattern and that I wasn’t going to pursue this. If anything is meant to heal it will, or not, because it is my divine plan, created by me before I came into the body. And so I chucked all the papers in the bin and felt much better! I would never have been capable of that a year ago! There is a 'space' where everything just is. There's no 'positive' and there's no 'negative', there's just emotion or anything else. As soon as you use the word 'positive' and especially 'negative' you create a downwards spiral for yourself - energy flows where the attention goes. The Universe doesn't read your mind so if you put your attention on 'negative' the Universe gives you more to fight against. The attention goes on the fight, not the 'negative' or changing it. Sometimes it's that simple. It's your definitions that create your reality.

I was talking to someone I 'met' on a Life's Purpose thread yonks ago, she has a friend staying with her and her friend doesn't believe in anything that isn't tangible. She was saying that her friend didn't believe in synchronicities but they were happening anyway and she had little choice but to acknowledge that. It's that kind of thing that I find so damned fascinating, but how much could be said of so many similar things - like being a part of your divine plan?

I've been watching some stuff about emergence and although it's all science it applies so much to Spirituality. "All of time is happening all of the time." You're already healed but you're not conscious of it. "All of time affects all of time all of the time," which is talking about causality loops. So, did a 'future you' as far as your consciousness is concerned decide that you needed something to heal in that present, so you sent your consciousness back in time to give yourself the need to heal in this present? And while it sounds completely bonkers it's actually quite plausible.

Equally, if you could project how you deal with your 'negative emotions' into the future? Sometimes it's not about the healing, it's often about changing the mindset/energies that think it needs healing. As you've just found out. It's also less about 'meant to happen' and more about 'already happening' if there is no time (for simplicity's sake).

Maybe a bit of both, particularly where this past life/phobia issue is concerned. I don’t mind which you talk to, whichever you feel inspired, it’s all me. :smile:

Do you mean ‘other life’ as in past life stuff or ‘other life’ as in the realms? I know you understand, I just needed to express it I suppose because it can get confusing for some. It gets particularly bonkers when I do readings.

It's 'other Life' stuff as in the realms, 'Spirit you' if you like.

This is ………….! I don’t know what the word is. That little boy dying alone in the dark would have been an accurate description of me dying in that past life, according to the detail the medium told me. The medium didn’t tell me, but it would fit very well, that his parents had both died and he was being brought up by relatives or people who didn’t care about him, hence why he was mistreated and locked outside in a dark lean to (which is where he died). So the ‘one of us’ would fit with it being one of my past lives and that my phobia would be ‘baggage’ from that previous life. I don’t know if there is more to come here; if it does, it’ll be spiritually inspired as in the previous two experiences as this is bigger than anything I can do or my mind. I'm not even going to try and find the words for this but I feel as if I was there in Spirit form when he died in that lean-to. It was pretty shabby to say the least and not a way for anyone to go. And I haven't ruled out my mind playing tricks by the way. The images are so clear and they're telling me that they've been there for a while, waiting to be released. Or I'm insane, one of the two. The 'one of us' I was referring to was the Life from the other realms, 'Spirit you', so I guess being one of your Past Lives would fit that well. It's not the first time I've seen myself in this form, in this situation and I'm getting emotional.

It’s certainly interesting to see how much I’ve changed over the last year.

But there is no let up in the intensity. I’ve gone into another phase. The other day, I was watching Matt do some chakra mantras and I found them really suiting me well – except – for when it came to the throat chakra. The words I could feel were being rejected by the throat. And I knew the reason is because there is a lot of trauma there from the experience of 2005. Also, I found really interesting watching how he was getting these mantras instantly and live as it were.

Anyway, this was playing on my mind and I thought I wonder if I could do that, get an instant throat chakra mantra from my guides. So I asked them, please give me a mantra for my throat chakra that would suit it. And I got immediately ‘I am healing, I am whole, I sing with joy.” Well it really liked that and when I said it, I could feel all this energy swirling around in my oesophagus.

Then the next phase kicks in; I noticed a slight worsening of some ailments and some very odd things going on in the physical body. So my guides put in my third eye, “releasing trauma”. So I asked ‘why now?’ And they gave me a triangle. At the top was ‘Matt’s teachings’ at the bottom left was ‘the throat chakra mantra’ and bottom right ‘spiritual timeline’. How cool is that? Really interesting about the spiritual timeline.According to Lobsang Rampa the Sacred Sound Syllable is AUM and not Om. The concept is that the 'AAAAA' begins the Journey and vibrates deep in the body, almost as if it's coming from the bottom of the stomach. The 'UUUU' is more middle ground and vibrates around the top of the chest/shoulders area awhile 'MMMMM' vibrates on the lips, the last place it can vibrate before it leaves the body. It's the most complete vibratory expression the voice is capable of into this realm of existence. We often look at things the wrong way and while we're busy trying to heal what's wrong with us, what we're not doing is expressing it out into the Universe. It's not a 'woe is me' mindset but there is a kind of a flow as we are expressions of the Universe itself expressing back and releasing to the Universe. The complete mantra is Aum mane padme hum which means 'All hail to the jewel of the lotus' - ourselves.

Actually yes it is quite interesting about the Spiritual timeline. Just keep a tight grip on your sanity lol. By the way, I remember you saying to me that you could never be like Matt. Just saying. I think the whole thing is pretty cool.

I guess it’s finding someone you can trust, healers can pass on their own stuff to you, you’re mixing energy fields, auras etc. It’s made me wary that you’re not just dealing with a therapy, what’s more important is the therapist. I’ve had cranio sacral from three different people; two excellent, one not. So it’s a matter of finding the right practitioner, which we’ll see what happens in October with the Reiki. I am getting the feeling now that it is something I’m going to need to do. I suppose the energies are akin to personal hygiene, in that they are an energetic cleanliness or purity, and if the practitioner isn't that bothered then it can be passed on like germs. I think often their intentions make a difference too, if they intend to heal you it's one set of energies and if the intention is to make money that's different again.

I love nothing more at the end of the day, than getting out all the cooking equipment and all the lovely organic ingredients and cooking up a meal. I usually am listening to music on the headphones whilst I’m doing it and I just love the feeling, it’s very much looking after and nurturing yourself. By the end of my day I just want to sit on my backside and have done with it. Nurturing myself isn't something I've ever done being honest, even when I've had the time to do it. It's also about the end of Mrs G's day as well, so for her it's coming up on bedtime. I have been thinking about it but it's still part of the culture shock lol.

That’s good; it could be that the goat’s milk is giving your system a break.

I do agree that goat’s doesn’t sit well with coffee, so if you’re having one or two cups of coffee a day, you could try soya.

So if cows has been the culprit, you want to ensure you are avoiding cow’s in hidden stuff. If you look on the back of anything you buy, it will have the word ‘dairy’ in bold.I've made so many changes that I still can't attribute anything to anything at the moment, but at the same time it caan't hurt. Although I don't eat a lot of chocolate I do like a treat here and there and it doesn't affect me, but then there wouldn't be a lot of dairy in chocolate anyway. As long as it doesn't hit my stomach I'll call that a winner. At the moment I'm having a cuppa and it doesn't taste so bad, perhaps it's beaten my taste buds into submission. The good thing is that my system has very much settled down fr now as at least I have a stable baseline to work from. Later on when I'm weaning off the meds things might change and it'll be more sensitive, but it'll be tweaks rather than great shocks.

Understanding GMO and secondary GMO is needed to avoid this. Download this app onto your tablet or phone and it’ll do the work for you. It is shocking how much ‘food’ in supermarkets contains GMO.

http://shopgmofree.co.uk/
Thanks but I don't have a mobile phone lol. The last one I had was about 2005 and I've never had one since. Just never felt the need.

You may want to think about cutting down from the meds gradually rather than just stopping them. If you’re taking one a day, trying half a day and so on. The goat’s milk will be better for you than cow’s in any case. It’s trial and error but I would cut down gradually rather than just stop.

I’m guessing you had the scan and appointment by now. What were they able to tell you? I ran out of meds last weekend, I thought I had more than I actually did so for a couple of days I didn't have any. Not making that mistake again that's for sure. They're keeping me on a double dose for the time being until I get the scan, which is happening on Friday. It's been hanging over me like a dark cloud and I've about had enough.

Yes, me too. I hate the commercialism. The day for me now is one spent on my own and just enjoying the time off with some good food.

Synchronicity again. My dad’s birthday was on 27th September and it is now approaching the anniversary of his passing in late October. But I know he’s around me and I talk to him a lot and I ask him for help. He never lets me down on a car park space!

I was watching a recent episode of TOTP2 and was reminded of the first record I ever bought at the tender age of 10.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tUqAGoPtfto

PatryciaWe have Mrs G's father up here now and her and her daughter have already got it all planned out with him and what's happening where. There's a kind of feeling that this is for him - with it is of course but there just feels like a deep, underlying Spiritual thing happened. My own father died on the Boxing Day before I was born and my mother sank into a deep depression, and I got some of those epigenetics I think. It's always been the same for some reason ever since I can remember. This time of the year is the lead-up to so many bad things that have been with me since childhood.

I guess that's another interesting parallel between us, the closeness of the anniversaries and feeling our fathers with us. We both keep our distances in this Life because the feelings of Love are just so overwhelming, but knowing he's around is enough.

I was always a rocker, Alice Cooper embodied the rebel in me and especially because my parents hated him, while David Bowie brought out this alter ego/other worldy stuff I had going on at the time. And Bachman Turner Overdrive was just good old solid rock. I remember my mother bought me Slade's Cum On Feel the Noize, then played it on the stereogram until the windows shook. Well, it was the right record for the done thing.

Patrycia-Rose

07-10-2018, 08:52 AM

Good morning Mr G,

Another week of sunshine, I'm lapping up every day of warmth!

There is a 'space' where everything just is. There's no 'positive' and there's no 'negative', there's just emotion or anything else. As soon as you use the word 'positive' and especially 'negative' you create a downwards spiral for yourself - energy flows where the attention goes. The Universe doesn't read your mind so if you put your attention on 'negative' the Universe gives you more to fight against. The attention goes on the fight, not the 'negative' or changing it. Sometimes it's that simple. It's your definitions that create your reality.

Yes, it’s also about judgement of a situation or feeling, which I still catch myself doing, although I’m immediately aware that it’s a judgement. I just thank it for letting me know. Judgement is one of those areas which I’ve been wanting to get a bit more of an understanding. And, as synchronicity would have it, in this last week Matt’s released a brand new video called “Unpacking Judgements” – you’ve got to love it when that happens, so I’m busy this weekend watching, learning and noting.

I was talking to someone I 'met' on a Life's Purpose thread yonks ago, she has a friend staying with her and her friend doesn't believe in anything that isn't tangible. She was saying that her friend didn't believe in synchronicities but they were happening anyway and she had little choice but to acknowledge that. It's that kind of thing that I find so damned fascinating, but how much could be said of so many similar things - like being a part of your divine plan

I love that kind of thing also. This is a wonderful example which I revisit from time to time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NF7g0d4VSYQ

Equally, if you could project how you deal with your 'negative emotions' into the future? Sometimes it's not about the healing, it's often about changing the mindset/energies that think it needs healing. As you've just found out. It's also less about 'meant to happen' and more about 'already happening' if there is no time (for simplicity's sake).

That reminds me of something Matt said recently which was another ‘a ha’ moment. He was saying that the reason you go from healer to healer and it doesn’t work, is because life is saying this “this is a gift not a curse”. That it is a gift called your process and to take it from you because your ego is inconvenienced, would be to take you off your path.

I thought well that’s me; spending all those years trying all those different things and none of them made the slightest difference. Now I know why. That’s what led me to think that if anything heals, it’ll be because it’s in my divine plan.

Though having said that, if the time – were – to be right the physical body may need a vehicle through to which to heal, so it could be right time, right therapy. And on that note, I had the first Reiki session last week.

It was very interesting. I found that whilst I was discussing what I was going for, my body started heating up and she said this was the reiki already activating. I’ve had similar things happen before but it was nevertheless fascinating. The actual reiki felt like a solid warmth, there were nothing unusual which was good for me as it was a first session and I need to gain confidence. I have a further session booked for a couple of weeks. So we see where this takes me, if anywhere.

Last week I had a white cross into my third eye, then a black one (yep, back to that again) and then the white cross was joined by a small white coffin. A few years back that would have seriously rattled me but I just let the images come and go with no desire to seek it’s meaning, although at a rough guess the cross would mean protection and the coffin the death of something.

Anyway, on the day of the reiki I was feel anxious so decided to ask “upstairs” for protection during the session and I had the most beautfiul pink cross drop into my third eye. And it was with me all through the session.

And church bells again one night during the week.

It's 'other Life' stuff as in the realms, 'Spirit you' if you like.

That’s two different things for me. Spirit is spirit and ‘the realm’s is where my other life was/is, although having said that, this was your term for it, so I used that for the sake of reference. I’ve not got a name for that world for me that is somewhere between spirit and my imagination.

This could get very confusing! :smile:

I'm not even going to try and find the words for this but I feel as if I was there in Spirit form when he died in that lean-to. It was pretty shabby to say the least and not a way for anyone to go. And I haven't ruled out my mind playing tricks by the way. The images are so clear and they're telling me that they've been there for a while, waiting to be released. Or I'm insane, one of the two. The 'one of us' I was referring to was the Life from the other realms, 'Spirit you', so I guess being one of your Past Lives would fit that well. It's not the first time I've seen myself in this form, in this situation and I'm getting emotional.

OK, I get all that, and you’re not insane, or else both of us are! The images being there for a while is not a surprise, as they would have been there for all of my 50 years and of course I don’t know what century that little boy was on the earth plane, so in our time those images could have been hanging around for a long time.

I also wondered if these two experiences I’ve had of late around the phobia have come about to try and release the fear from me – and also heal the energy that would have been left when this boy passed over. I asked my pendulum whether I should try to consciously release or try and do something to release for the boy but it said no. Thing is, this could get very confusing, as me - the child and the adult - have been affected and I don’t want to make it worse for me as it’s something I have to still cope with. And all this keeps it in my mind. I do think that if that’s what spirit have in mind, then it will play itself out.

Actually yes it is quite interesting about the Spiritual timeline. Just keep a tight grip on your sanity lol.

I think my sanity left the building some years ago! :smile: To be honest, I can only guess by spiritual timeline, they mean the time in my personal divine plan. Not heard of the term before. But I like it when they use words or phrases which I’ve not come across before as I then know it isn’t me making this stuff up.

By the way, I remember you saying to me that you could never be like Matt. Just saying. I think the whole thing is pretty cool.

Did I say that? I can believe I did. But am excessively happy to be wrong on this occasion! What I like about listening to him and reading about the things he does as part of his own spiritual practice and abilities, I like to experiment with, see if I can do it and see how it feels to me.

By the end of my day I just want to sit on my backside and have done with it. Nurturing myself isn't something I've ever done being honest, even when I've had the time to do it. It's also about the end of Mrs G's day as well, so for her it's coming up on bedtime. I have been thinking about it but it's still part of the culture shock lol.

I don’t spend more than 20 minutes preparing a meal. A mushroom or red onion/cheese omelette doesn’t take 10 minutes and is healthy.

A friend of mine cooks up large batches of meals at the weekend, stews, bolognese etc freezes them for use in the week.

It’s about routine really.

I've made so many changes that I still can't attribute anything to anything at the moment, but at the same time it can't hurt. Although I don't eat a lot of chocolate I do like a treat here and there and it doesn't affect me, but then there wouldn't be a lot of dairy in chocolate anyway.

There’s no dairy at all in real chocolate. Dark chocolate is good for you. This is what I go for, usually the 70% percent.

https://www.greenandblacks.co.uk/our-ranges/g-b-organic-range/bars.html

Thanks but I don't have a mobile phone lol. The last one I had was about 2005 and I've never had one since. Just never felt the need.

I have a works mobile but switch it off when I leave work. I don’t have a phone at home, only a landline for the broadband but it’s permanently switched off. I don’t like speaking on the phone when I get home and the doorbell is switched off. Once I get home, I like to sink into blissful isolation!

I ran out of meds last weekend,

So how did you get on with not having any for a few days? That would be a good indicator of how things are without the influence of the pills? If it made no difference at all, then it could be that cow’s milk was the culprit and you could gradually ease off the tabs?

Any news on the scan? Sometimes if it’s the right sort of scan, they and you can see what’s going on the time they’re doing it.

This time of the year is the lead-up to so many bad things that have been with me since childhood.

I do agree, I dislike it intensely. I can be prone to depression/being run down specially January/February. Thinking back to last year, yuk! I’m wondering / hoping that maybe this newfound balance may help. We’ll have to wait and see.

I guess that's another interesting parallel between us, the closeness of the anniversaries and feeling our fathers with us. We both keep our distances in this Life because the feelings of Love are just so overwhelming, but knowing he's around is enough.

Too right there, it normally hits me like a freight train if I listen to something I know he liked, such as this one:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mb3iPP-tHdA

Patrycia

Greenslade

07-10-2018, 11:16 PM

Good morning Mr G,

Another week of sunshine, I'm lapping up every day of warmth!
good afternoon Patrycia, and how is your virtual reality programme going? Mine is glitching because we've had cold winds and rain most of the week and today is no exception. Last night I started to drive home in a panic, there was an extra amber light on the dashboard that I hadn't seen before and I didn't have time to look at it initially. It turned out to be the external temperature warning light and I hadn't seen it in months.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]Yes, it’s also about judgement of a situation or feeling, which I still catch myself doing, although I’m immediately aware that it’s a judgement. I just thank it for letting me know. Judgement is one of those areas which I’ve been wanting to get a bit more of an understanding. And, as synchronicity would have it, in this last week Matt’s released a brand new video called “Unpacking Judgements” – you’ve got to love it when that happens, so I’m busy this weekend watching, learning and noting. quote]Judgement actually comes from our survival instincts, where we decide if something is good/safe or not and on iut's own judgement is that bad. It's when people then act on that judgement it becomes discrimination, and that's where the problems begin. Personally I think it's OK for us to judge "I don't want to be like that" as long as we don't treat the person any differently.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]I love that kind of thing also. This is a wonderful example which I revisit from time to time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NF7g0d4VSYQ
I've seen that clip before somewhere, or something similar enough to it. There are always ways in which Spirituality happens in Real Life, I think all we have to do is be open to it all. There's a huge amount of comfort there.

That reminds me of something Matt said recently which was another ‘a ha’ moment. He was saying that the reason you go from healer to healer and it doesn’t work, is because life is saying this “this is a gift not a curse”. That it is a gift called your process and to take it from you because your ego is inconvenienced, would be to take you off your path.

I thought well that’s me; spending all those years trying all those different things and none of them made the slightest difference. Now I know why. That’s what led me to think that if anything heals, it’ll be because it’s in my divine plan.

Though having said that, if the time – were – to be right the physical body may need a vehicle through to which to heal, so it could be right time, right therapy. And on that note, I had the first Reiki session last week.

It was very interesting. I found that whilst I was discussing what I was going for, my body started heating up and she said this was the reiki already activating. I’ve had similar things happen before but it was nevertheless fascinating. The actual reiki felt like a solid warmth, there were nothing unusual which was good for me as it was a first session and I need to gain confidence. I have a further session booked for a couple of weeks. So we see where this takes me, if anywhere.

Last week I had a white cross into my third eye, then a black one (yep, back to that again) and then the white cross was joined by a small white coffin. A few years back that would have seriously rattled me but I just let the images come and go with no desire to seek it’s meaning, although at a rough guess the cross would mean protection and the coffin the death of something.

Anyway, on the day of the reiki I was feel anxious so decided to ask “upstairs” for protection during the session and I had the most beautfiul pink cross drop into my third eye. And it was with me all through the session.

And church bells again one night during the week. There's a phrase that I picked up many years ago, I think it was the title of a book but I liked a particular quote from it. The title was "Turning Hurts Into Halos. Just as interesting though the quote was about asking the right questions, so instead of asking 'Why' it's best to ask 'What are the reasons?' because that seeks genuine wisdom. So you have an ailment - of any description and if Life's Purpose means anything then it was meant to be there. What are the reasons it's there? What is it telling you, what can you gain from it? What is it you're really trying to heal and what are the reasons?

In Spirit Love comes so easily but here in this density not so much, it's not easy to Love that road rage driver when you're the butt of their focus, and when you're less than the epitome of perfection you have so many reasons not to Love yourself. When you Love your own warts and all????

It's the ego that feels the bruises, the Spirit sees 'tools' for development. Those warts are here to help you too, and they make you perfect in your imperfections.

All of time is happening all of the time, and all of time is affecting all of time all of the time. Where things become skewed is when we think in linear timeframes - which it isn't in Spirituality or science. Which puts the kybosh on karma and Spiritual development by the way, technically. What I've learned is the those 'bad things' have made me the person I am today, so given the ability to 'bend time' what would I do? If I was conscious today that I had to go through those 'bad things' in order to be - for instance - talking to you right now, would I change anything in the past? Or, if these things hadn't happened and I was conscious that I needed to be a different person, what then? Would I have myself a causality loop?

Just go have your Reiki and see where it leads you. You see, just being there will tell you so much - you said "see where this takes me, if anywhere." That tells you so much. I take it that all the 'signs' were there so allow yourself the experience and forget the rest for now. You're not dealing with treatments that didn't work any more, you're dealing with your perceptions and memories and from that perspective everything is very different.

Spirit uses what's deeply rooted into our subconscious so the Christian symbolism is all about you. The cross represents divinity, protection.... etc. It also means resurrection and for Jesus that's just what it was. It wasn't about dying but rebirth, and white usually signifies purity or innocence. In dream symbolism, to dream of death means new Life which is where your coffin comes in. It can also mean the 'death' of the old self. Pink usually signifies healing, as does green.

That’s two different things for me. Spirit is spirit and ‘the realm’s is where my other life was/is, although having said that, this was your term for it, so I used that for the sake of reference. I’ve not got a name for that world for me that is somewhere between spirit and my imagination.

This could get very confusing! :smile:When it becomes confusing it means the distinctions begin to blur.

OK, I get all that, and you’re not insane, or else both of us are! The images being there for a while is not a surprise, as they would have been there for all of my 50 years and of course I don’t know what century that little boy was on the earth plane, so in our time those images could have been hanging around for a long time.

I also wondered if these two experiences I’ve had of late around the phobia have come about to try and release the fear from me – and also heal the energy that would have been left when this boy passed over. I asked my pendulum whether I should try to consciously release or try and do something to release for the boy but it said no. Thing is, this could get very confusing, as me - the child and the adult - have been affected and I don’t want to make it worse for me as it’s something I have to still cope with. And all this keeps it in my mind. I do think that if that’s what spirit have in mind, then it will play itself out. I really do understand what you're saying about leaving it alone but it keeps cropping up for some reason. I think it's about acknowledgement more than anything else, to recognise that it happened to the boy. I also don't think it's something that can be dealt with in this Lifetime but it feels as though it's important not to forget for whatever reason.

I think my sanity left the building some years ago! :smile: To be honest, I can only guess by spiritual timeline, they mean the time in my personal divine plan. Not heard of the term before. But I like it when they use words or phrases which I’ve not come across before as I then know it isn’t me making this stuff up.I had a weird dream one night when I was taken 'upstairs' to meet my Higher Self. He was poring over what looked like a map table and he was pointing out my Life from beginning to end. I had the sense that there was no time as such, more like event strings where this happened then that happened. The trouble with a Spiritual timeline is that it might be referring to Spirit's/Higher Self's perspective, which can take in present and future Lifetimes.

Did I say that? I can believe I did. But am excessively happy to be wrong on this occasion! What I like about listening to him and reading about the things he does as part of his own spiritual practice and abilities, I like to experiment with, see if I can do it and see how it feels to me. Yep, you said it and I remember at the time thinking "Dream on, baby" because it was quite obvious where you were heading. You and Matt aren't on distant planets by the way so it's going to be interesting as to how this pans out lol.

I don’t spend more than 20 minutes preparing a meal. A mushroom or red onion/cheese omelette doesn’t take 10 minutes and is healthy.

A friend of mine cooks up large batches of meals at the weekend, stews, bolognese etc freezes them for use in the week.

It’s about routine really. I hate routine but it's getting that way. I use to cook on a Sunday when I was on my own, it was easier and if I was putting the oven on for Sunday lunch I might as well do it for the rest of the week too. Mrs G used to cook but since she's had her heart attack she's shutting down by the time I get home, so it's really as much for her convenience. The trouble is though that since I've been on this health kick my eating habits have changed and I'm at the stage where I need to change them even more.

There’s no dairy at all in real chocolate. Dark chocolate is good for you. This is what I go for, usually the 70% percent.

https://www.greenandblacks.co.uk/our-ranges/g-b-organic-range/bars.html

Just bright now, if it stays down I'm calling it a win. I have a thing about white chocolate with strawberries through it but I only eat six squares at a time.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]I have a works mobile but switch it off when I leave work. I don’t have a phone at home, only a landline for the broadband but it’s permanently switched off. I don’t like speaking on the phone when I get home and the doorbell is switched off. Once I get home, I like to sink into blissful isolation! I'm the same when I get home. I like the first hour to myself doing nothing much in particular and that usually means playing computer games, and having a solitary coffee. Mrs G has it sitting at my desk when I get in and she won't disturb me after that. It's my switch-over time.

So how did you get on with not having any for a few days? That would be a good indicator of how things are without the influence of the pills? If it made no difference at all, then it could be that cow’s milk was the culprit and you could gradually ease off the tabs?

Any news on the scan? Sometimes if it’s the right sort of scan, they and you can see what’s going on the time they’re doing it. It went very badly being honest, and it took a couple of days to settle down again. So, for the foreseeable future the pills stay. The vet did say she was going to wean me off them later but wanted to keep the double-dose for the time being, so I'm wondering if the sudden stop made it flare up worse. I did ask about the scan but they wouldn't say, apparently only the doctor is allowed to but if everything was OK, I wonder if they would tell me. The results aren't due back until Friday.

I do agree, I dislike it intensely. I can be prone to depression/being run down specially January/February. Thinking back to last year, yuk! I’m wondering / hoping that maybe this newfound balance may help. We’ll have to wait and see.There's a lot of seasonal adjustment disorder at that time of year because it's short days with long nights, and it's cold and horrible weather. Christmas is also traumatic for some people as well, because of all the family and financial stress. I guess you won't be quite so affected by those.

Too right there, it normally hits me like a freight train if I listen to something I know he liked, such as this one:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mb3iPP-tHdA

PatryciaI remember them pretty well, they were just coming into my musical radar at the time and if I remember they won an award for Whiter Shad of Pale. It was probably a metaphor for Life and a warning to Spirituality, in that the lyrics were surreal and defied interpretation, and if you tried to work it out you missed its meaning.

Patrycia-Rose

14-10-2018, 07:25 AM

Good morning Mr G (or good evening),

Two days of solid rain and I'm blissfully holed up at home studying Matt's new online course.

Personally I think it's OK for us to judge "I don't want to be like that" as long as we don't treat the person any differently.

Yes I agree with that; you can make a judgement as long as you don’t use it against yourself or other people.

In Spirit Love comes so easily but here in this density not so much, it's not easy to Love that road rage driver when you're the butt of their focus, and when you're less than the epitome of perfection you have so many reasons not to Love yourself. When you Love your own warts and all????

This is the one area where I immediately react from the human perspective, and then apologise to the car for swearing and then the higher response follows.

Just go have your Reiki and see where it leads you. You see, just being there will tell you so much - you said "see where this takes me, if anywhere." That tells you so much. I take it that all the 'signs' were there so allow yourself the experience and forget the rest for now. You're not dealing with treatments that didn't work any more, you're dealing with your perceptions and memories and from that perspective everything is very different.

I haven’t had any signs as such, other than the pink cross which I asked for. I’m glad actually that they’re not giving me loads of symbols because that happened with the Bowen and that didn’t go so well, so the absence of them with the Reiki is welcome. The only thing the guides have done is suggesting I go ahead with it, when I was having doubts.

Yes, I’m aware of all the past experiences of healing and how they turned out. I think because I’ve accepted my trauma symptoms I’m going in with no real expectations, it is just an experience / experiment and see what happens. Mind you, I had some very strange reactions to the first session. I had some really angry dreams on Friday night, where I had to be restrained from attacking someone! So I think the Reiki has stirred up something and I’ve had some strange sensations in my legs ever since, particularly at night.

Matt did a radio broadcast recently about how to feel good about feeling bad, really intense, in depth stuff and I just felt so much calmer listening to it, as it’s given me the bigger picture and also a coping strategy if this throws up any more strong emotions. He always seems to have a knack of providing teachings when I’m currently asking or pondering about a subject, or in this case a strategy for coping with triggered emotions when I wasn’t sure how to react to them. I needed something direct, right at the heart, and that’s what I got!

So my next session is next week and am I am looking forward to it. At the moment, I feel my physical body / energy field needs to become accustomed to the Reiki energy, and I suspect there may be more to come within or after the appointment. The energy will more than likely have an accumulative effect which will either suit me or it won’t.

Spirit uses what's deeply rooted into our subconscious so the Christian symbolism is all about you. The cross represents divinity, protection.... etc. It also means resurrection and for Jesus that's just what it was. It wasn't about dying but rebirth, and white usually signifies purity or innocence. In dream symbolism, to dream of death means new Life which is where your coffin comes in. It can also mean the 'death' of the old self. Pink usually signifies healing, as does green.

There’s definitely something going on around that. They’ve told me more than once that I am being ‘reborn’. They also told me several times that ‘you won’t be here much longer.’ At first I thought they meant that my time had come to pass and I was getting all excited about my dad and nan coming to collect me and seeing my cat again, and the awesome thing would be I would be there when my mum passed over. In fact, I woke up the following morning from them telling me that, slightly disappointed to find myself still here! And having to go to work!! :laughing5:

I really do understand what you're saying about leaving it alone but it keeps cropping up for some reason. I think it's about acknowledgement more than anything else, to recognise that it happened to the boy. I also don't think it's something that can be dealt with in this Lifetime but it feels as though it's important not to forget for whatever reason.

It’ll have to be something that is reviewed when I pass over. It will be a very interesting observation I'm sure.

The trouble with a Spiritual timeline is that it might be referring to Spirit's/Higher Self's perspective, which can take in present and future Lifetimes.

Yes, it could be a number of things. But it was in reference to trauma being released from me, so I will take that spiritual timeline refers to my divine plan on this earthly plane. They did tell me something more about it the other night but we do have conversations at night when I’m semi awake hence unless it’s monumental, I often don’t remember it the next morning.

Yep, you said it and I remember at the time thinking "Dream on, baby" because it was quite obvious where you were heading.

I don't feel it’s obvious where this is heading, in fact now I’ve mostly let go of my wants and desires, I’ve no idea where I’m heading if at all anywhere. And it’s not about the ultimate destination but more focused on the now and living from a heart centred perspective. I’m not saying it’s like that all the time, I still have the odd pang ‘I wish this or that’ but it doesn’t feel strong or frustrating like it used and it doesn’t take long for the 5D thinking/perspective to kick in.

You and Matt aren't on distant planets by the way so it's going to be interesting as to how this pans out lol.

Not sure what you mean but it sounds nice! I have heard him mention once the planet Sirius and that people from that planet see flashes of blue light. That made me sit up because I often see flashes of blue light around me. Not saying I’m from Sirius but it is an interesting perspective.

It went very badly being honest, and it took a couple of days to settle down again. So, for the foreseeable future the pills stay. The vet did say she was going to wean me off them later but wanted to keep the double-dose for the time being, so I'm wondering if the sudden stop made it flare up worse. I did ask about the scan but they wouldn't say, apparently only the doctor is allowed to but if everything was OK, I wonder if they would tell me. The results aren't due back until Friday.

Suddenly stopping would cause a flare up which is why it would be better, when the time comes, to reduce gradually.

So you would have got the scan results by now, did they show anything?

There's a lot of seasonal adjustment disorder at that time of year because it's short days with long nights, and it's cold and horrible weather. Christmas is also traumatic for some people as well, because of all the family and financial stress. I guess you won't be quite so affected by those.

Actually, I enjoy the dark nights, I always experience them as going by really fast. It’s the cold I don’t like.

Yep, and it always makes me chuckle when I'm queuing at the supermarket around Christmas and people ask me what I'm doing and I say I'm spending the day on my own, lots of good food, films etc and they all say they're dreading it etc! Believe me, I don't take it for granted. Having said that it's a time for reflection too as I remember all the great memories of Christmas with my mum and dad.

LP has a new album coming out around December. Can't remember the last time I felt this excited about getting a new release! Back in the day when ever Status Quo, Genesis, Level 42, released a new album I'd get it straight away. So it does feel rather good to be anticipating the release from a (to me) brand new artist! :smile:

Patrycia

Greenslade

14-10-2018, 02:07 PM

Good morning Mr G (or good evening),

Two days of solid rain and I'm blissfully holed up at home studying Matt's new online course. Good morning Patrycia

We've had a week of rain but it never dampens the Spirits. I know people who would love to walk out in it and get good and wet.

Yes I agree with that; you can make a judgement as long as you don’t use it against yourself or other people. If we were to be honest we all judge, it's a survival instinct. Discrimination isn't, that's a choice.

This is the one area where I immediately react from the human perspective, and then apologise to the car for swearing and then the higher response follows.Someone once told me that you can tell how a person really is by the way they drive their car, it has to do with feeling safe and secure in it.:smile:

I haven’t had any signs as such, other than the pink cross which I asked for. I’m glad actually that they’re not giving me loads of symbols because that happened with the Bowen and that didn’t go so well, so the absence of them with the Reiki is welcome. The only thing the guides have done is suggesting I go ahead with it, when I was having doubts.

Yes, I’m aware of all the past experiences of healing and how they turned out. I think because I’ve accepted my trauma symptoms I’m going in with no real expectations, it is just an experience / experiment and see what happens. Mind you, I had some very strange reactions to the first session. I had some really angry dreams on Friday night, where I had to be restrained from attacking someone! So I think the Reiki has stirred up something and I’ve had some strange sensations in my legs ever since, particularly at night.

Matt did a radio broadcast recently about how to feel good about feeling bad, really intense, in depth stuff and I just felt so much calmer listening to it, as it’s given me the bigger picture and also a coping strategy if this throws up any more strong emotions. He always seems to have a knack of providing teachings when I’m currently asking or pondering about a subject, or in this case a strategy for coping with triggered emotions when I wasn’t sure how to react to them. I needed something direct, right at the heart, and that’s what I got!

So my next session is next week and am I am looking forward to it. At the moment, I feel my physical body / energy field needs to become accustomed to the Reiki energy, and I suspect there may be more to come within or after the appointment. The energy will more than likely have an accumulative effect which will either suit me or it won’t. I meant all the signs that Reiki was the right thing to do, right now is the right time etc...

What I think I'm trying to point to is that you're changing in ways you perhaps hadn't noticed. The Bowen was most likely too intense for you if it was opening you up to symbols that you couldn't deal with, so you were looking at an 'overload' perhaps. So if back then you were using a crowbar and a lot of energy to crack an egg? It sounds like the Reiki is a little more in tune with you right now, if that's not so intense and is of some benefit at least. Your dreams aren't anything to worry about, the Reiki tends to get itself into the dark and dusty energetic corners so yes, it would stir things up. Dreams are often the subconscious processing and sending you information and they often need interpreting. Anger to the stage of needing restrained could be your processing of deep-rooted energies/emotions and them coming to the surface so they can be vented. The "attacking someone" may not mean a person, it could be yourself or an issue even. And you use your legs for running.

So going back to your accepting your trauma symptoms and dropping your expectations - a huge leap by the way, just to acknowledge that - perhaps you were ready to release that 'anger' in your dreams.

Emotions are energy in motion, and on the Path to Enlightenment we can become Enlightened. The irony is that Enlightenment means less as we Enlighten ourselves of the burdens we have become used to, and become more Enlightened to ourselves. Nothing can be released unless it's been brought to the surface, so now perhaps is as good a time as any for you to deal with what's been buried deep for a long time.

Spirit is obviously working with you on this one, so there's your triangles at work right there. Its nicely tangible, which often helps. If your Guides are encouraging you then there's something there for you, and you can bet your shirt there's more to this than meets the eye. The Reiki is the context in which it's all going to happen, and the catalyst so it's not about the Reiki itself but what it will bring you.

There’s definitely something going on around that. They’ve told me more than once that I am being ‘reborn’. They also told me several times that ‘you won’t be here much longer.’ At first I thought they meant that my time had come to pass and I was getting all excited about my dad and nan coming to collect me and seeing my cat again, and the awesome thing would be I would be there when my mum passed over. In fact, I woke up the following morning from them telling me that, slightly disappointed to find myself still here! And having to go to work!! :laughing5:Definitely know that feeling very well. But then if you know where to look you'll see that something has very much changed.

It’ll have to be something that is reviewed when I pass over. It will be a very interesting observation I'm sure. A while back (must be over two years ago) I joined a thread about Life's Purpose. One of the people that was posting I resonated with deeply at the time, the same 'one of our own' feeling I have with you. Anyway, even though she didn't know it at the time she was looking for a reason for her son's death and what might have been the reasons for what had happened. Not just with him getting cancer but why he refused treatment. Even in his last days he knew what was going to happen. He was rational and sane, he knew it wasn't going to be easy but he wanted to go through that experience anyway, regardless. What can happen with people is that they know the end isn't going to be easy but they meet it with courage just the same, there's a certain dignity even in the most painful of endings that can only be found in the pain. I guess even non-Spiritual people can have huge amounts of Spirituality and know things deep down.

What's left to us sometimes is the anger that it happened that way, the sadness, the screaming at the world that this is badly wrong. Everything else goes missing, all the 'real stuff' is lost. Anyway. She's come to terms not just with her son's death but her own Life too, and she's been given messages by myself and other mediums to say he's fine. Her lasting image of him is his beating his chest to the words "Warrior! Warrior! Warrior!" In 'human terms' he is on a special mission with some other high-level beings, and that could not have happened without hie earthly experiences.

It's in that space that everything changes, rhymes and reasons become so apparent.

Yes, it could be a number of things. But it was in reference to trauma being released from me, so I will take that spiritual timeline refers to my divine plan on this earthly plane. They did tell me something more about it the other night but we do have conversations at night when I’m semi awake hence unless it’s monumental, I often don’t remember it the next morning. It's all the same thing.

I don't feel it’s obvious where this is heading, in fact now I’ve mostly let go of my wants and desires, I’ve no idea where I’m heading if at all anywhere. And it’s not about the ultimate destination but more focused on the now and living from a heart centred perspective. I’m not saying it’s like that all the time, I still have the odd pang ‘I wish this or that’ but it doesn’t feel strong or frustrating like it used and it doesn’t take long for the 5D thinking/perspective to kick in. Welcome to my world, at least from your own perspective. It's OK not to Live in 5D all the time, perhaps if we did we'd be space cadets all day and sometimes we need things to keep us rooted into this density so we can get the job done. Being human is getting the job done, and if you didn't have those pangs perhaps you wouldn't notice the changes so much.

Not sure what you mean but it sounds nice! I have heard him mention once the planet Sirius and that people from that planet see flashes of blue light. That made me sit up because I often see flashes of blue light around me. Not saying I’m from Sirius but it is an interesting perspective. You are what I mean by that, just to be a little more aggravatingly evasive but I'll explain. If I plonked you on a stage, stuck a microphone in your face and all in front of an audience - who are just like you were pre-Matt - could you give them a Matt-like talk?

There's nothing wrong with playing with the idea that you're from Sirius as long as you keep it in perspective, which I know you will anyway. What can happen is that allowing hose thoughts - just allowing - can often change how we think because your mind is jumping out of the box a little. There's no reason you can't be from Sirius, there's no reason you can't allow yourself fanciful thoughts, because they might be the ones that open you up to the thoughts that will resonate deeply with you.

Suddenly stopping would cause a flare up which is why it would be better, when the time comes, to reduce gradually.

So you would have got the scan results by now, did they show anything? When they were doing the scan I remember her paying a lot of attention to one spot in particular and I had one of those ominous feelings. When I came back from work on Monday Mrs G said that the doctor had called and sounded surprised that I was at work, I was surprised because I was told the results would take a week. This was pretty much next working day. We went in to see the doctor, Mrs G would have come even if I'd poked her back with a sharp stick. The doctor had obviously steeled herself to deliver the bad news and did so quite professionally. I have a mass in my gastric area, it's 6cm by 4cm by 2cm, and they think it's malignant. It's also attached to my liver and pancreas, which would explain the lack of energy. If that's the case then it's been there for at least two years because that's how long I've felt as though I had no strength or energy. Other than they they can't say for sure, so I'm in for a CT scan tomorrow evening, from which they'll work out what's going on. Mrs G was in tears, the doctor looked so serious so I said what they'll do is shove in a plastic tube and suck it out. And there was also mention of an alien that would burst out with accompanying actions. It was probably the silliest 'you could die from this' session the doctor ever delivered. We had quite s laugh.

I don't know what's going to happen but for me, being faced with my own mortality is the coolest, most Spiritually enlightening experience. Ever ever. It's kind of like a gift.

Actually, I enjoy the dark nights, I always experience them as going by really fast. It’s the cold I don’t like.

Yep, and it always makes me chuckle when I'm queuing at the supermarket around Christmas and people ask me what I'm doing and I say I'm spending the day on my own, lots of good food, films etc and they all say they're dreading it etc! Believe me, I don't take it for granted. Having said that it's a time for reflection too as I remember all the great memories of Christmas with my mum and dad.

LP has a new album coming out around December. Can't remember the last time I felt this excited about getting a new release! Back in the day when ever Status Quo, Genesis, Level 42, released a new album I'd get it straight away. So it does feel rather good to be anticipating the release from a (to me) brand new artist! :smile:

PatryciaI like getting home cold and wet after a day of it, the home is warm and Mrs G has a coffee waiting for me. I've done the character-building part and now it's time for a little pampering, the dark is an excuse to lock myself away and shut down for the evening.

A few years back I went mad at Mrs G, for a few years before she'd been trying to make Christmas special but it wasn't happening. She has a tendency to over-compensate and that's just what was happening. Nowadays it's more like Sunday lunch plus than Christmas, and that makes us all feel a lot better. She's not stressing about making it special, I'm not getting cranky with her stressing and everything is nicely chilled.

Mrs G has the quad-biking trip all booked and paid for again. Every time we go up is like a new adventure so that's pretty cool and the guys that come with us always seem to change too so that changes the whole excursion. She says she's going to slap me if she has to try for a refund.

Patrycia-Rose

21-10-2018, 07:37 AM

Hello there, Mr G

Someone once told me that you can tell how a person really is by the way they drive their car, it has to do with feeling safe and secure in it.:smile:

Ah yes, that’s one thing people do say is they feel safe when I’m driving. I always look after my cars, get them regularly serviced, genuine parts and I know how to look after them in terms of driving style. I have an instinct, particularly with the car I have, if something is wrong and what it is and I take it into my usual garage and tell them what’s wrong with it and 9 times out of 10 I’m right. Back in the day, I used to watch my brother and father repairing their cars and took an avid interest, so I knew my way an engine. Many years ago, me and a friend took my Escort apart and de-coked it and put it back together. That little experience taught me not to shortcut on genuine parts! That isn’t so much nowadays as cars have changed so much, but I do still have an instinct as to my current one. In testimony, I’ve been d
riving since I was 21 and I’m still only on my third car! I’ve had my current car 15 years and have just repaired the central locking and digital clock myself care of a couple of Youtube videos! Has that surprised you?

Dreams are often the subconscious processing and sending you information and they often need interpreting. Anger to the stage of needing restrained could be your processing of deep-rooted energies/emotions and them coming to the surface so they can be vented. The "attacking someone" may not mean a person, it could be yourself or an issue even. And you use your legs for running.

I’m keeping a close eye on my dreams at the moment and it seems odd in a way because I’ve been through months of not having any at all. I used to do a lot of dream journals, so I’m accustomed to having a feel for what’s going on subconsciously by my dreams (more about that later).

So going back to your accepting your trauma symptoms and dropping your expectations - a huge leap by the way, just to acknowledge that - perhaps you were ready to release that 'anger' in your dreams.

Thank you, it does feel like, well a very different feeling.

Spirit is obviously working with you on this one, so there's your triangles at work right there. Its nicely tangible, which often helps. If your Guides are encouraging you then there's something there for you, and you can bet your shirt there's more to this than meets the eye. The Reiki is the context in which it's all going to happen, and the catalyst so it's not about the Reiki itself but what it will bring you.

For sure, there usually is with me. And I think you’re right.

I had my second session during the week. As I was walking to the appointment into my third eye came a gold box and the lid opened and this white mist came out of it. Then when I was in the waiting room I saw the word “perfect” across the door way to where the practitioners room was and then a blue cross dropped in – my protection. Three things there.

The session was enjoyable, relaxing which is good in itself with subtle shifts of energy going. I felt very peaceful and content after, got home late and thought I’d finish off the evening by watching The End of Inner Conflict, which is the first of Matt’s videos that really hit home.

Then, oh lord, I got up the next day, zero energy and feeling utterly depressed and low. I couldn’t seem to get a grip of 5D thinking, it seemed it had gone. But I was aware enough, just about, to just know it would pass and most likely a healing crisis. No dreams that Friday night.

But, this is where the synchronicity of it all is magical. Matt had done a radio broadcast called a step beyond fear which I was just too tired to listen to, so Saturday morning, still tired, but had the time to listen. It was mostly about the breath and that when we are in a state of fear we are in a state of panic based on what we anticipate is about to change or be lost. I was listening to this and suddenly it occurred to me that the Friday when I’d felt so low, I was literally residing in ego, it was all ‘if only this’ ‘if only that’ ‘if I hadn’t’. Pure ego thoughts. And then someone rang in to speak to him and he did a repeat after me about releasing cellular memories where ‘the breath was held, 'held beyond my power,' hurt and persecuted’. This had a massive impact and I sat there crying over my computer. Because I’d noticed in the last several weeks there were moments when I noticed I wasn’t breathing, just holding my breath. So this was all timely and perfect.

Really, there’s no let up. Then in the early hours of this morning, I dreamt that I was with several people (unknown) in an old house. Suddenly three men broke through the door with guns. One of them said ‘who’s the first to die?’ and went up to each person. I remember thinking ‘I might need your assistance with this one, dad’. This man pushed a gun into my forehead. I was completely calm, closed my eyes thinking OK I’m ready and the last thing I thought was wondering if I’d hear the gun go off. Then I woke up. That felt like a lucid dream it was so real. I’d stared death in the face – which a significant factor of my trauma. Still feel a little tired but back to my (new) normal. It’s all so intense! So I think the Reiki is giving me what I need (soul level) rather than what I want (ego perspective). And to top it all the two cards I pulled this morning were Moving On and Victory!

So my next appointment is in three weeks time and they need to be that far apart for me to integrate all this.

A while back (must be over two years ago) I joined a thread about Life's Purpose. One of the people that was posting I resonated with deeply at the time, the same 'one of our own' feeling I have with you. Anyway, even though she didn't know it at the time she was looking for a reason for her son's death and what might have been the reasons for what had happened. Not just with him getting cancer but why he refused treatment. Even in his last days he knew what was going to happen. He was rational and sane, he knew it wasn't going to be easy but he wanted to go through that experience anyway, regardless. What can happen with people is that they know the end isn't going to be easy but they meet it with courage just the same, there's a certain dignity even in the most painful of endings that can only be found in the pain. I guess even non-Spiritual people can have huge amounts of Spirituality and know things deep down.

Yes, yes, yes! This is why I have been so interested in mediums and their work, since 15 when I had my first sitting. I think the work and gifts of mediums is so valuable. There was a time several years ago when I went through a phase of seeing mediums in theatre settings, I saw Tony Stockwell several times and I used to go to see others get messages. And so often, you would see people who didn’t believe in that sort of thing, who’d been dragged along by their partners and often the medium would go to the non believer and deliver such powerful messages that were awesomely accurate, that that person would literally become a believer on the spot (rather like that link I posted last week). I find that kind of experience so uplifting to watch. People can go to these events in the depths of despair, have a few minutes and messages from loved ones that they’re OK etc, it’s so healing and you can see the despair just lift from them. To me that’s magic!

Welcome to my world, at least from your own perspective. It's OK not to Live in 5D all the time, perhaps if we did we'd be space cadets all day and sometimes we need things to keep us rooted into this density so we can get the job done. Being human is getting the job done, and if you didn't have those pangs perhaps you wouldn't notice the changes so much.

It’s about getting the balance right, but not having to work at the balance. Work grounds me which is a balance in itself.

You are what I mean by that, just to be a little more aggravatingly evasive but I'll explain. If I plonked you on a stage, stuck a microphone in your face and all in front of an audience - who are just like you were pre-Matt - could you give them a Matt-like talk?

A simple question with many different facets.

If you stuck me on said stage to talk about diet, nutrition, supplements, modern day health pitfalls I could do that quite happily.

Also on said stage I could talk about knowledge of the afterlife, spiritual signs and experiences; I’ve a whole folder of knowledge from the spirit guide I worked with about the process of passing over, life on the other side, life on this side and everything in-between. People at work talk to me about their ‘weird’ experiences such as orbs appearing in their videos, strong smells and visitations from someone who’s passed and I’m able to give them information which assures them they’re “not going mad” and it all makes sense. They usually go away much happier. A medium told me years ago, I have a knack for giving people information and talking to them in a way that makes them feel good.

But a Matt-like talk, I’m not sure I’m at that stage yet. For a couple of reasons. This is all very new to me still, despite its influence. And, this is going to be difficult to explain, it is something I Feeeeel rather than can explain in a logical, coherent and eloquent fashion. I have a friend who I’ve introduced to Matt and she says she doesn’t understand his language and loses interest very quickly with his videos (and that was an eye opener for me as in terms of fit, I find him easy to understand generally). So I try to explain it to her but I don’t do it very well, although she’s interested. I tend to talk to her in snippets of information that drop into my head and that’s enough for her.

I did several years ago do a speaking in public course as I thought my path was going to be teaching my chakra healing system to others in a workshop setting. It didn’t come off, can’t remember why. So if the topic I’m discussing I’m confident about yes, I could do it but not living from a heart centred perspective, not just yet. But thank you for that, an interesting thought!

There's nothing wrong with playing with the idea that you're from Sirius as long as you keep it in perspective, which I know you will anyway. What can happen is that allowing hose thoughts - just allowing - can often change how we think because your mind is jumping out of the box a little. There's no reason you can't be from Sirius, there's no reason you can't allow yourself fanciful thoughts, because they might be the ones that open you up to the thoughts that will resonate deeply with you.

Totally agree with all that and the reason why …… I’ve always been excessively open minded, even from an early age watching all the different species of Star Trek from the bridge of the Enterprise itself to the planets they visited. You don’t watch all that without it having a deep impact.

The spirit guide I would meet every Sunday morning and have direct conversations with him, he told me all about life on other planets, life in spirit, so many different things and I accepted it all, believed it all. But after the incident in which my leg was damaged, I’m not saying I changed my mind about the information he gave me, but I now like to keep myself firmly rooted on the earth. I won’t meditate or visualise going ‘ upstairs ‘ as harm can and has happened to me and I wouldn’t want to risk that happening again. So yes, whilst I hear and read about Sirius, the pleidians etc, it doesn’t actually change who I am in this lifetime.

I don't know what's going to happen but for me, being faced with my own mortality is the coolest, most Spiritually enlightening experience. Ever ever. It's kind of like a gift.

I’m sorry to hear this; I have been thinking about this quite a bit as certain elements are a reflection of my trauma.

With anything like this, there’s the grounded part of what’s happening physically which involves the medical route - and the way forward physically (which I personally believe there’s more than one way).

And of course, the spiritual side. What’s this all about, what is it telling me, showing me, what experiences await me and how you decide it’s going to be met. I guess for you, the factor that needs to be taken into account with any decision, is Mrs G and your family.

Anyway, I’m here for you buddy, whichever way you want to go with this.

“May the blessings of men, elves and all free folk go with you.”

A few years back I went mad at Mrs G, for a few years before she'd been trying to make Christmas special but it wasn't happening. She has a tendency to over-compensate and that's just what was happening. Nowadays it's more like Sunday lunch plus than Christmas, and that makes us all feel a lot better. She's not stressing about making it special, I'm not getting cranky with her stressing and everything is nicely chilled.

Nicely chilled makes for a good Christmas. I did ask a friend whether they’d like to go out for a Christmas meal this year but she declined to be with family. I wasn’t sure I was disappointed or relieved, but to me, it’s enough that I asked!

Patrycia

Greenslade

21-10-2018, 01:31 PM

Hello there, Mr GHello Patrycia

As they say around here at this time of year, "The nights are fair drawin' in, eh?" It probably came fro that great Scottish philosopher Angus McCoatup who once said as a treatise on the dynamism of the Universe - "On yonder hill there stood a coo, it must've shifted cuz it's no there noo." It's stunning, how profound that is. Move over, Khan.

Ah yes, that’s one thing people do say is they feel safe when I’m driving. I always look after my cars, get them regularly serviced, genuine parts and I know how to look after them in terms of driving style. I have an instinct, particularly with the car I have, if something is wrong and what it is and I take it into my usual garage and tell them what’s wrong with it and 9 times out of 10 I’m right. Back in the day, I used to watch my brother and father repairing their cars and took an avid interest, so I knew my way an engine. Many years ago, me and a friend took my Escort apart and de-coked it and put it back together. That little experience taught me not to shortcut on genuine parts! That isn’t so much nowadays as cars have changed so much, but I do still have an instinct as to my current one. In testimony, I’ve been d
riving since I was 21 and I’m still only on my third car! I’ve had my current car 15 years and have just repaired the central locking and digital clock myself care of a couple of Youtube videos! Has that surprised you?I used to do all my own repairs and servicing many years ago but it came to the point where I just didn't have a workshop to do anything with. Cars are also too damned complicated too, with everything done by computer. I must admit that I'm very sensitive to any nuances that signal changes to the car in any way, like how it handles and steering differently. Luckily with this car I haven't had anything drastic since it took an almighty wallop with a pothole in January, soon after it was into the garage because the suspension rod was bent but I knew it had taken damage anyway by the way it drove.

Actually no, it doesn't surprise me being honest, after the chat we've been having since you started this thread I'd be surprised if you hadn't done it yourself.

I’m keeping a close eye on my dreams at the moment and it seems odd in a way because I’ve been through months of not having any at all. I used to do a lot of dream journals, so I’m accustomed to having a feel for what’s going on subconsciously by my dreams (more about that later).I can't remember the last time I dreamt but I am having them, because Mrs G is talking about single beds because of my kicking and flinging at night.

Thank you, it does feel like, well a very different feeling. You're very welcome. And when you can't find the words for the feeling then it's likely that it's a feeling above emotion, when it becomes beyond words you're talking about a whole new level of.... experiencing?.... being?

For sure, there usually is with me. And I think you’re right.

I had my second session during the week. As I was walking to the appointment into my third eye came a gold box and the lid opened and this white mist came out of it. Then when I was in the waiting room I saw the word “perfect” across the door way to where the practitioners room was and then a blue cross dropped in – my protection. Three things there.

The session was enjoyable, relaxing which is good in itself with subtle shifts of energy going. I felt very peaceful and content after, got home late and thought I’d finish off the evening by watching The End of Inner Conflict, which is the first of Matt’s videos that really hit home.

Then, oh lord, I got up the next day, zero energy and feeling utterly depressed and low. I couldn’t seem to get a grip of 5D thinking, it seemed it had gone. But I was aware enough, just about, to just know it would pass and most likely a healing crisis. No dreams that Friday night.

But, this is where the synchronicity of it all is magical. Matt had done a radio broadcast called a step beyond fear which I was just too tired to listen to, so Saturday morning, still tired, but had the time to listen. It was mostly about the breath and that when we are in a state of fear we are in a state of panic based on what we anticipate is about to change or be lost. I was listening to this and suddenly it occurred to me that the Friday when I’d felt so low, I was literally residing in ego, it was all ‘if only this’ ‘if only that’ ‘if I hadn’t’. Pure ego thoughts. And then someone rang in to speak to him and he did a repeat after me about releasing cellular memories where ‘the breath was held, 'held beyond my power,' hurt and persecuted’. This had a massive impact and I sat there crying over my computer. Because I’d noticed in the last several weeks there were moments when I noticed I wasn’t breathing, just holding my breath. So this was all timely and perfect.

Really, there’s no let up. Then in the early hours of this morning, I dreamt that I was with several people (unknown) in an old house. Suddenly three men broke through the door with guns. One of them said ‘who’s the first to die?’ and went up to each person. I remember thinking ‘I might need your assistance with this one, dad’. This man pushed a gun into my forehead. I was completely calm, closed my eyes thinking OK I’m ready and the last thing I thought was wondering if I’d hear the gun go off. Then I woke up. That felt like a lucid dream it was so real. I’d stared death in the face – which a significant factor of my trauma. Still feel a little tired but back to my (new) normal. It’s all so intense! So I think the Reiki is giving me what I need (soul level) rather than what I want (ego perspective). And to top it all the two cards I pulled this morning were Moving On and Victory!

So my next appointment is in three weeks time and they need to be that far apart for me to integrate all this. If there's one thing I've learned it's that there's always more to everything than meets the eye.

Gold is one of the highest Spiritual colours, alongside purple some would say although purple is usually more associated with wealth, courtesy of the Romans. Just out of curiosity more than anything else but what does gold represent to you? Interesting that a white mist came from it too.

It's possible that you 'overdosed' a little after the Reiki session, Reiki does shift your energies usually and even though it might feel subtle enough, the changes can be a lot more radical underneath. Put a video that probably has a lot of emotional attachment on top of that and you have quite a heady mix. No wonder your couldn't get a grip of 5D thinking. Essentially your reality is defined by your definitions so defining your experience as a 'healing crisis' means that it became a crisis in your reality.

What really helps in situations leading to us holding our breath is being mindful in the first instance, that can give you some advanced warning if you feel yourself slipping away. When that happens, take a four-breath - inhale to the count of four, hold to the count of four and exhale to the count of four. In time it becomes automatic but just the breath and those 12 short seconds can make all the difference.

There's a lot of releasing that's been going on with you especially over the past handful of weeks or so. This is going to have a bigger impact than you can imagine although I suspect it's all going to happen on a very subtle level. You're not quite done with the fireworks just yet though, so don't forget your breathing. Can't help wonder if your revelation in getting what you need rather than what you want would have had a different impact when you first started to try all those healing modalities. No judgement, just a thought that might be worth thinking about in retrospect.

There's a wonderful feeling that comes with thinking "OK, I'm ready," it's a huge release and the burden seems to fall away as though it was never there in the first place. It's so liberating. But what happens when what you need becomes what you want? Yeah you will feel a little tired, it'll take the energies a while to settle back down again and for you to become used to the shift. But it's a great experience, isn't it? And when you put it into a wider perspective it can blow your socks off.

Yes, yes, yes! This is why I have been so interested in mediums and their work, since 15 when I had my first sitting. I think the work and gifts of mediums is so valuable. There was a time several years ago when I went through a phase of seeing mediums in theatre settings, I saw Tony Stockwell several times and I used to go to see others get messages. And so often, you would see people who didn’t believe in that sort of thing, who’d been dragged along by their partners and often the medium would go to the non believer and deliver such powerful messages that were awesomely accurate, that that person would literally become a believer on the spot (rather like that link I posted last week). I find that kind of experience so uplifting to watch. People can go to these events in the depths of despair, have a few minutes and messages from loved ones that they’re OK etc, it’s so healing and you can see the despair just lift from them. To me that’s magic!Every medium's experience is different I think, simply because of the nature of their gifts and who they are personally. I've spoken to a few who have been more detached from it all, granted they understood the impact but they weren't so immersed. I also think that very often people have no hope and aren't expecting anything fro the hocum, but something drives them there anyway.

I'm clairsentient and very emotional, so that's completely the wrong mix. Very often love is the driver of these things as those in Spirit want to reassure the sceptics that they're alright and that death is not the end. The emotions can run pretty high and I tend to get it from the person I'm talking to and the Spirit I'm in contact with. I've been in tears a few times, but it's worth it every time.

It’s about getting the balance right, but not having to work at the balance. Work grounds me which is a balance in itself. I prefer to think of it 'tools for the job'. We operate at different levels and a specific consciousness range is needed depending on where our head is t in the moment. Doing the daily routine is one consciousness, sitting typing a post is a different one and none of them are in competition.

A simple question with many different facets.

If you stuck me on said stage to talk about diet, nutrition, supplements, modern day health pitfalls I could do that quite happily.

Also on said stage I could talk about knowledge of the afterlife, spiritual signs and experiences; I’ve a whole folder of knowledge from the spirit guide I worked with about the process of passing over, life on the other side, life on this side and everything in-between. People at work talk to me about their ‘weird’ experiences such as orbs appearing in their videos, strong smells and visitations from someone who’s passed and I’m able to give them information which assures them they’re “not going mad” and it all makes sense. They usually go away much happier. A medium told me years ago, I have a knack for giving people information and talking to them in a way that makes them feel good.

But a Matt-like talk, I’m not sure I’m at that stage yet. For a couple of reasons. This is all very new to me still, despite its influence. And, this is going to be difficult to explain, it is something I Feeeeel rather than can explain in a logical, coherent and eloquent fashion. I have a friend who I’ve introduced to Matt and she says she doesn’t understand his language and loses interest very quickly with his videos (and that was an eye opener for me as in terms of fit, I find him easy to understand generally). So I try to explain it to her but I don’t do it very well, although she’s interested. I tend to talk to her in snippets of information that drop into my head and that’s enough for her.

I did several years ago do a speaking in public course as I thought my path was going to be teaching my chakra healing system to others in a workshop setting. It didn’t come off, can’t remember why. So if the topic I’m discussing I’m confident about yes, I could do it but not living from a heart centred perspective, not just yet. But thank you for that, an interesting thought! You can explain things to the people who ask you and you have a knack for talking to people and making them feel good. Close to what Matt's doing. Interesting about what the medium told you because I think this is the territory I was trying to head for. Well, that too. You did know that Matt channels but he calls it a download of information, he get's it all off-stage then repeats it in front of his audience. And by the way he talks sometimes it's also something of a Journey for him too, because he sometimes says that he's gained revelations from thinking over what's been downloaded. If you're getting snippets that pop into your head, that's along he same lines as the way Matt works, only it's coming to you in shorter bursts. You could also call it clair setentient/cognizant or Gnosis. So you're not a million lies away from where Matt is, and granted he's had a lot more experience than you - I guess he makes a living out of it. By giving yourself enough time you could probably explain much of what ypou're learned from him at least from your own perspective and before you say it there's nothing wrong with that. I did say "Matt-like" not "Matt-identical." If you find him easy to understand you're at least on the same 'frequency range' although granted your grasp my not be as tangible as his.

You're most welcome. The reason I asked was to get you to think about how far you've come.

Totally agree with all that and the reason why …… I’ve always been excessively open minded, even from an early age watching all the different species of Star Trek from the bridge of the Enterprise itself to the planets they visited. You don’t watch all that without it having a deep impact.

The spirit guide I would meet every Sunday morning and have direct conversations with him, he told me all about life on other planets, life in spirit, so many different things and I accepted it all, believed it all. But after the incident in which my leg was damaged, I’m not saying I changed my mind about the information he gave me, but I now like to keep myself firmly rooted on the earth. I won’t meditate or visualise going ‘ upstairs ‘ as harm can and has happened to me and I wouldn’t want to risk that happening again. So yes, whilst I hear and read about Sirius, the pleidians etc, it doesn’t actually change who I am in this lifetime. As someone once said to me, "It's OK to stick your head in the clouds as long as you keep your feet on the floor." I think it's nice sometimes to entertain the thoughts and allow the feelings because they are aspects of our consciousness just the same, and for all we know there could be some quantum entanglements going on.

I’m sorry to hear this; I have been thinking about this quite a bit as certain elements are a reflection of my trauma.

With anything like this, there’s the grounded part of what’s happening physically which involves the medical route - and the way forward physically (which I personally believe there’s more than one way).

And of course, the spiritual side. What’s this all about, what is it telling me, showing me, what experiences await me and how you decide it’s going to be met. I guess for you, the factor that needs to be taken into account with any decision, is Mrs G and your family.

Anyway, I’m here for you buddy, whichever way you want to go with this.

“May the blessings of men, elves and all free folk go with you.” I'm the kind of guy who won't deal with anything until it's there to deal with, so for the moment everything is up for grabs. I'm going to stay with the medical route for now, unless a faith healer who can drag this lump out of me suddenly appears. I'll know more when the scan results come back, until then everything is a probability.

Mrs G's collapsed in tears a few times because of it, and she's been taking Pat Lives into account as well. If the worst does come to the worst then I suppose it's fitting that my first and last Lives were 'cut short'. There's always been a feeling that this Life was 'out of sync' somehow. Other than that it's very liberating, because there's a feeling of completion and moving on to other things. In this I feel ready. My only real worry is that my daughter is getting married in August, but other than the the family will be fine, after some tears obviously. For my mother I can't say. She has dementia so in a way I'm hoping that's going to turn out to be a blessing, maybe it'll 'insulate' her. When my father was killed she almost committed suicide, she would have done if she hadn't been pregnant with me. She's been waiting to join him ever since. If she has to bury her oldest son as well.... She hasn't picked up on any of it so far, so......

I've been feeling Soul-deep tired for quite a few years now and that feeling has certainly come home the past week or so. I just want a conclusion so I can get on with it, either way. I've seriously been contemplating refusing treatment but that's going to depend on the prognosis. Once its done it's done and everybody can just get on with their Lives, including me.

Thank you Patrycia, I do appreciate that. Right now it's just waiting for the results then we'll see from there but whatever happens from here, I am ready.

Nicely chilled makes for a good Christmas. I did ask a friend whether they’d like to go out for a Christmas meal this year but she declined to be with family. I wasn’t sure I was disappointed or relieved, but to me, it’s enough that I asked!

PatryciaJust right now I'm not sure what's happening but I get the feeling treatment isn't going to happen until after Chrimbo. Sue's father's here now and her and her daughter are busily organising, it's the first they've been together in over twenty years anyway and he might not have too many of them left. If I get through this in one emotional peace I'll consider that a gift from Santa.

Patrycia-Rose

28-10-2018, 08:34 AM

Morning Mr G,

How are you doing?

Finally relented yesterday and turned the heating on, clocks gone back, summer's well and truly gone. If I could flick a switch and move to Australia right now, I'd go for it!

You're very welcome. And when you can't find the words for the feeling then it's likely that it's a feeling above emotion, when it becomes beyond words you're talking about a whole new level of.... experiencing?.... being?

Ah so that’s what’s happening – yes it is very much feeling and experiencing. That in itself is a new experience for me as usually I’m very able to articulate my feelings / emotions.

Gold is one of the highest Spiritual colours, alongside purple some would say although purple is usually more associated with wealth, courtesy of the Romans. Just out of curiosity more than anything else but what does gold represent to you? Interesting that a white mist came from it too.

I don’t have any particular resonance with gold, other than that was the colour of all the symbols I received as part of my initial awakening a couple of years ago.

The thing with the gold box has been going on for a few weeks. When I go to bed at night, as soon as I close my eyes, I get all manner of colours, objects and things float into my third eye. But one night I kept seeing a gold box probably about half a metre wide, so quite large and each time I saw it, it was closed. I sort of wondered what was inside with no inclination to open it. Later it opened by itself and out came fairies, angels, butterflies and fairy dust. So the box was with me since then and I’ve seen colours come out of it, magenta and blue together. So the box was familiar to me at the point I saw it on the way to my appointment, but not with white mist coming out of it.

It's possible that you 'overdosed' a little after the Reiki session, Reiki does shift your energies usually and even though it might feel subtle enough, the changes can be a lot more radical underneath. Put a video that probably has a lot of emotional attachment on top of that and you have quite a heady mix. No wonder your couldn't get a grip of 5D thinking. Essentially your reality is defined by your definitions so defining your experience as a 'healing crisis' means that it became a crisis in your reality.

Yes, I think maybe in hindsight, not one of my brighter ideas, although well intentioned.

I used the term ‘healing crisis’ as it is a common term that can be experienced after reiki, cranio sacral, acupuncture etc such as the things I was describing such as loss of energy and low mood (amongst other things). I’ve only had two sessions but each one has had a real reaction, almost like a theme to it. So it’s definitely bringing things to the surface.

However re-watching one of my favourite videos did yield a little surprise. Right at the end, he made a significant observation and noticed that the time was 8.44 and said this was the perfect Fibonacci sequence. I would have ignored that the first time round but I had a look on the net for an explanation and saw the reasoning as 1, 1, 2, 3, 5 etc and by golly, I got it! Did a little online test and got it right. So really chuffed with myself. And that very night I woke at 1.23 and smiled as not only was that one of those ‘ascending’ numbers but also a Fibonacci sequence.

There's a lot of releasing that's been going on with you especially over the past handful of weeks or so. This is going to have a bigger impact than you can imagine although I suspect it's all going to happen on a very subtle level. You're not quite done with the fireworks just yet though, so don't forget your breathing. Can't help wonder if your revelation in getting what you need rather than what you want would have had a different impact when you first started to try all those healing modalities. No judgement, just a thought that might be worth thinking about in retrospect.

I would not have understood the mindset I’m in now back then. Would have dismissed it as some kind of airy fairy spiritual talk and would have become very frustrated with it. I don’t think I would have been ready for it anyway, as this would have been 13 years ago. But without a but, you introduced Matt to me at the very time it was supposed to happen.

I agree a lot of releasing that seems to have been the whole theme of this phase of ascension from last December. So the Reiki is continuing the theme of releasing.

The other night I had the most odd dream. I dreamt I was talking on the phone to Matt, trying to explain about my trauma and I got stuck on trying to describe the intensity of terror. At that moment (still in the dream) I was lying in bed and a white misty outline of a person was standing on the left side of my bed and a black misty outline of a person on the right side (black and white!) I tried to turn on the light and it didn’t work. I woke up at that point, feeling a tad unsettled.

One of the things that’s surprising me, but not surprising me at the same time because I know this can happen, is that I’m thinking about a particular aspect or experiencing something which I could do with Matt’s help on, and he’ll release a video or do a radio broadcast, which answers my specific question or state at that moment. At first I thought it was ‘just’ a coincidence but it’s happened too many times for it to be a coincidence. It’s just become very noticeable.

I'm clairsentient and very emotional, so that's completely the wrong mix. Very often love is the driver of these things as those in Spirit want to reassure the sceptics that they're alright and that death is not the end. The emotions can run pretty high and I tend to get it from the person I'm talking to and the Spirit I'm in contact with. I've been in tears a few times, but it's worth it every time.

I don’t think you’re alone there; I’ve seen Tyler Henry or more than one occasion very tearful not so much from the impact of who he’s doing a reading for, but more from the intensity of feeling from the spirit person.

You did know that Matt channels but he calls it a download of information, he get's it all off-stage then repeats it in front of his audience. And by the way he talks sometimes it's also something of a Journey for him too, because he sometimes says that he's gained revelations from thinking over what's been downloaded. If you're getting snippets that pop into your head, that's along he same lines as the way Matt works, only it's coming to you in shorter bursts. You could also call it clair setentient/cognizant or Gnosis. So you're not a million lies away from where Matt is, and granted he's had a lot more experience than you - I guess he makes a living out of it. By giving yourself enough time you could probably explain much of what ypou're learned from him at least from your own perspective and before you say it there's nothing wrong with that. I did say "Matt-like" not "Matt-identical." If you find him easy to understand you're at least on the same 'frequency range' although granted your grasp my not be as tangible as his.

Yes, I’ve seen how it all works for him; he’s explained it a time or too and I’ve often heard him say that he forgets a lot of what he’s been told afterwards, because he’ll refer to something he said in an earlier video but not what the entire video was about or what it was called (makes me laugh though because I can find what video he’s talking about as it’s all transcribed). But I think because there are similar themes in what he’s talking about, he’s drawing from a ‘database’ of information as it were. I think it’s just knowing your subject area well. And there has been the occasional time when I know the word he is going to use just before he uses it.

Maybe I’m doing myself a slight disservice because when something happens at work, it’s not too long before I’m considering the 5D response and I can hear his voice / his words and it’s all there in my mind. But I can’t seem to answer my friend very well. I’ve heard him say a time or two that’s it not to be remembered, it’s how it feels in the body when you hear it.

You're most welcome. The reason I asked was to get you to think about how far you've come.

I guess so, it just still all feels new and there are areas where it doesn’t come quite so easily, so to that extent, it’s a work in progress. But thank you, because living on your own and not being able to talk about it all, I don’t think about how far I’ve come.

I'm the kind of guy who won't deal with anything until it's there to deal with, so for the moment everything is up for grabs. I'm going to stay with the medical route for now, unless a faith healer who can drag this lump out of me suddenly appears. I'll know more when the scan results come back, until then everything is a probability.

A faith healer – would that be the same thing as psychic surgery?? I recall someone saying they had psychic surgery for fibromyalgia and it was successful. Thing is with that, you need to find someone who is genuine, you can trust and who is good. Do you have any spiritual contacts in your neck of the woods

If the worst does come to the worst then I suppose it's fitting that my first and last Lives were 'cut short'.

I know that feeling - the life as the boy who died at 5 was cut short and the life in the Egyptian time, I know I was poisoned at 55, and I did wonder whether I would die in this lifetime at 55 but I’m 56 now, so that’s gone.

It’s always harder on the ones left behind but I think this is where being a spiritualist comes in handy. I was quite impressed with the way I handled by dad’s funeral. The bit that completely freaked me out was the meeting afterwards and seeing relations I hadn’t seen in twenty years when I just wanted to be alone; I found that deeply disturbing, I remember bawling my eyes out on the two hour journey home. It wasn’t long after that I went to see the trusted medium I’ve seen over the last ten years and I wasn’t expecting my dad to come through as I’d gone about something else and I thought it would be too soon, but he did come through, heavily aided by my Nan and gave me some incredible information about how he had seen the light before he’d passed. And since then when I’ve seen a medium both my dad and my nan come through, sometimes together, sometimes not.

For my mother I can't say. She has dementia so in a way I'm hoping that's going to turn out to be a blessing, maybe it'll 'insulate' her. When my father was killed she almost committed suicide, she would have done if she hadn't been pregnant with me. She's been waiting to join him ever since. If she has to bury her oldest son as well.... She hasn't picked up on any of it so far, so......

My mum’s been in a care home with full blown Alzheimer’s for six years or so. I was absolutely dreading telling my father when the day came to tell him that she’d gone. In the end I didn’t have to because he ended up going first and my mother was so far gone by that point, she wouldn’t have understood any of it. So as it worked out, neither of them had to go through the distress of hearing that the other one had gone. I’ll always consider that a gift for them as well as me.

I wouldn’t tell your mother to be honest, there’s nothing to be gained; she probably wouldn’t understand depending on how far her condition has gone or it would upset her initially and then she would feel unsettled without knowing why. Her being insulated is the best thing for her, particularly given the situation with her almost committing suicide over your father. Also best for you in that you don’t have the distress of telling her and not knowing how she’ll react.

I've been feeling Soul-deep tired for quite a few years now and that feeling has certainly come home the past week or so. I just want a conclusion so I can get on with it, either way. I've seriously been contemplating refusing treatment but that's going to depend on the prognosis. Once its done it's done and everybody can just get on with their Lives, including me.

Interesting you say that; I’ve had this conversation with myself many times. I know for a fact that I would be too sensitive for chemo. So I would have an operation to remove anything that could be removed, then I would turn to CBD oil as there have been many articles in the media of people having fully recovered using CBD Oil. If you did happen to go down the chemo route, CBD oil can make it more effective and protects you against the side effects. So I wouldn’t refuse treatment, I would just refuse the chemo or radio therapy and go down the CBD front.

But like you say, one step at a time. Do you have any faith healer/psychic surgery contacts? Have your guides given you any information?

Patrycia

Greenslade

28-10-2018, 02:18 PM

Morning Mr G,

How are you doing?

Finally relented yesterday and turned the heating on, clocks gone back, summer's well and truly gone. If I could flick a switch and move to Australia right now, I'd go for it!
Good morning Patrycia

I'm doing OK thanks. Just finished a week off and spent pretty much all of it an my backside lol. Got my new computer up and running so that's even better.

The wind's been howling almost for a week now and today it's finally stopped, but yes, winter is here now almost but you're off to Australia on your own I'm afraid. I like the changing of the seasons and what comes with them. There's nothing quite like that feeling when you come home to a warm house and a cuppa's waiting for you. It's like a metaphor for Life.

Ah so that’s what’s happening – yes it is very much feeling and experiencing. That in itself is a new experience for me as usually I’m very able to articulate my feelings / emotions. Sometimes what you're connecting to doesn't translate too well, most of the time you can say "Well I feel..." but sometimes there just isn't the words and the need to express them isn't there neither. Sometimes it just feels as it feels, and there's quite a few understandings in that.

I don’t have any particular resonance with gold, other than that was the colour of all the symbols I received as part of my initial awakening a couple of years ago.

The thing with the gold box has been going on for a few weeks. When I go to bed at night, as soon as I close my eyes, I get all manner of colours, objects and things float into my third eye. But one night I kept seeing a gold box probably about half a metre wide, so quite large and each time I saw it, it was closed. I sort of wondered what was inside with no inclination to open it. Later it opened by itself and out came fairies, angels, butterflies and fairy dust. So the box was with me since then and I’ve seen colours come out of it, magenta and blue together. So the box was familiar to me at the point I saw it on the way to my appointment, but not with white mist coming out of it. The colour gold is something I thought might have come through from that 'other Life' and I get the feeling it's kind of hovering in the background with you. Obviously either not the time or not meant to be at all perhaps, but the 'influences' are there just the same. If you did resonate with it I don't it would be good, but that's a different story.

The box is a container and gold is the highest Spiritual colour/material, which is why gold is so revered. As minerals go it's pretty abundant no it's not as though it's any kind of rare, and there are far rarer metals out there. Many cultures have associated gold with their religions across the globe and history. Similarly with the Shining Ones, they've been around in folklore since the most ancient of times - which is where the word angels come from.

There's something called the collective subconsciousness which came from Jung - and it's why Spiritual people are afraid of the dark. Certain avatars as they are known have been imprinted into the collective subconsciousness, and they affect us at a very deep level and we don't even realise it. Angels, fairies and butterflies are avatars and even for people who have no interest in Spirituality they still represent something deeply Spiritual.

The box was a gift for you.

Yes, I think maybe in hindsight, not one of my brighter ideas, although well intentioned.

I used the term ‘healing crisis’ as it is a common term that can be experienced after reiki, cranio sacral, acupuncture etc such as the things I was describing such as loss of energy and low mood (amongst other things). I’ve only had two sessions but each one has had a real reaction, almost like a theme to it. So it’s definitely bringing things to the surface.

However re-watching one of my favourite videos did yield a little surprise. Right at the end, he made a significant observation and noticed that the time was 8.44 and said this was the perfect Fibonacci sequence. I would have ignored that the first time round but I had a look on the net for an explanation and saw the reasoning as 1, 1, 2, 3, 5 etc and by golly, I got it! Did a little online test and got it right. So really chuffed with myself. And that very night I woke at 1.23 and smiled as not only was that one of those ‘ascending’ numbers but also a Fibonacci sequence.
With any energetic changes it's usually best to not rock the boat so much as you've found out. They often need a little time for the symptoms to dissipate, and often the best way to do that is to do something 'normal' - like get the polish and duster out.

I don't know why but lately I've had this 'thing' about words, their meanings and how they affect someone's reality - your reality is defined by your definitions and words have power over you so it's often best to choose carefully.I know I shouldn't but at times I just have to. It's just that 'crisis' is a strong word that comes from a certain mentality, when really it's a natural part of the progression. While it might not be fun it's necessary.

On a lighter note I'd be careful with the Fibonacci sequence, you did know Trump's head and hairdo conforms to the sequence? I kid you not. The sequence is the basis for the Phi Spiral and the Golden Mean, which is into Sacred Geometry territory and if you're getting it right then you're resonating with that level of consciousness. It's also relevant to your Path because of the spiral. We don't actually walk in a straight, linear fashion - in a more picturesque Spirituality - we walk in a spiral that both extends upwards and outwards at the same time, encompassing and rising as we traverse it. This is why we often have the past coming back into our Lives and it feels as though we're back at 'Square One'. What's actually happening is that we've walked the spiral and we can observe something from both an elevated position and different perspective.

It really doesn't matter if you're going to be an aficionado of Sacred Geometry or not, what does matter is that your synchronising with the Universe on a different level. If you use the Phi Spiral as a visualisation it'll help you understand.

I would not have understood the mindset I’m in now back then. Would have dismissed it as some kind of airy fairy spiritual talk and would have become very frustrated with it. I don’t think I would have been ready for it anyway, as this would have been 13 years ago. But without a but, you introduced Matt to me at the very time it was supposed to happen.

I agree a lot of releasing that seems to have been the whole theme of this phase of ascension from last December. So the Reiki is continuing the theme of releasing.

The other night I had the most odd dream. I dreamt I was talking on the phone to Matt, trying to explain about my trauma and I got stuck on trying to describe the intensity of terror. At that moment (still in the dream) I was lying in bed and a white misty outline of a person was standing on the left side of my bed and a black misty outline of a person on the right side (black and white!) I tried to turn on the light and it didn’t work. I woke up at that point, feeling a tad unsettled.

One of the things that’s surprising me, but not surprising me at the same time because I know this can happen, is that I’m thinking about a particular aspect or experiencing something which I could do with Matt’s help on, and he’ll release a video or do a radio broadcast, which answers my specific question or state at that moment. At first I thought it was ‘just’ a coincidence but it’s happened too many times for it to be a coincidence. It’s just become very noticeable.I have no idea why but for some reason there's a need for you to recognise how far you've come right now, it's a metaphorical going over your notes and noting the progress you've made to date. It's not going to stop the progress in any way but I think you're on a plateau where you need to catch your breath a little. So with a little synchronicity this is where your Phi Spiral visualisation would be a good tool. Retrospect is a good tool to, and to realise how much you're come in 13 years isn't ego but acknowledgement.

It's about enlightenment and ascension, so you are en-lightning yourself to ascend to a new vibration of existence and en-lightening yourself of what holds you back. There is a saying - "If you want to understand Spirit you have to think like Spirit." You 'talking to Matt' is your subconsciousness' way of telling you that you're thinking more like Spirit. If you think about it you'll see that plastered across almost every word in this - and a few before - post.

The Matt in your dream is a representation of what you consider as a level of Spirituality and talking/voice is vibration, so you're vibrating at his level. How well/equal the conversation went is how well you vibrate at the same level as him. Trying to tell him about the intensity of the terror is you trying to express it at that level, or understand it at that level. The two are very different vibrations.

The misty people at your side represents two things. The white one is the healing process that you are aware of, and the black one is the process you don't know of. If the black/unknown presence is on your right, that means its the most dominant/strongest aspect of your healing. They are both you but 'reside' in different parts of yourself. Sometimes the black/dark side of us is known as the Shadow Self, and that's where all the stuff that we can't or won't deal with goes.

Well there goes your black and white, both surprising and not surprising. Actually it never gets old, it just gets crazier.

I don’t think you’re alone there; I’ve seen Tyler Henry or more than one occasion very tearful not so much from the impact of who he’s doing a reading for, but more from the intensity of feeling from the spirit person.There's really no way to describe the feeling but to try it feels more like a power than an emotion. Often emotions can be put down to electro-chemical reactions but this is in a whole new ball-park. It can knock me on my backside sometimes but to be able to feel it at all is amazing.

Yes, I’ve seen how it all works for him; he’s explained it a time or too and I’ve often heard him say that he forgets a lot of what he’s been told afterwards, because he’ll refer to something he said in an earlier video but not what the entire video was about or what it was called (makes me laugh though because I can find what video he’s talking about as it’s all transcribed). But I think because there are similar themes in what he’s talking about, he’s drawing from a ‘database’ of information as it were. I think it’s just knowing your subject area well. And there has been the occasional time when I know the word he is going to use just before he uses it.

Maybe I’m doing myself a slight disservice because when something happens at work, it’s not too long before I’m considering the 5D response and I can hear his voice / his words and it’s all there in my mind. But I can’t seem to answer my friend very well. I’ve heard him say a time or two that’s it not to be remembered, it’s how it feels in the body when you hear it. There are actually scientific explanations for what Matt does, and they come from a Nobel Prize-winning physicist. The human brain is already quantum-entangled with the probability field so that would explain what Matt is doing - the drawing from the 'database' or Akashic Records. By the way he talks I don't think he actually started off as being very knowledgeable and sometimes he comes across as being as human as everyone else. Other than his abilities of course. Matt receives downloads, mediums get their information on the fly and intuitive people just know, it's really different ways of tapping into the same source and expressing it.

OK, try something with your friend. The next time you talk to her concentrate on your voice and less on the words themselves. In your mind, think that your intention is to send her your vibrations in a way that will assist her to vibrate at the same level. The problem might not be her understanding but her level of vibration, and once you raise her vibrations what you're trying to tell her will come automatically to her. What you then need to look out for is not what she says but how she says it, because her interpretations and yours will be very different. By the way, there's a reason for this behind the mask.

I guess so, it just still all feels new and there are areas where it doesn’t come quite so easily, so to that extent, it’s a work in progress. But thank you, because living on your own and not being able to talk about it all, I don’t think about how far I’ve come.It's all progress and no real conclusions, except where you catch your breath for a few moments. And you're very welcome. This is the main reason why you're friend is here, so you have a dichotomy or contrast to think about. By the way, you are not trying to make him/her into 5D you're trying to bring 5D into her/him. Very different. It's about their awakening, and yours. You know how it feels to be them.

A faith healer – would that be the same thing as psychic surgery?? I recall someone saying they had psychic surgery for fibromyalgia and it was successful. Thing is with that, you need to find someone who is genuine, you can trust and who is good. Do you have any spiritual contacts in your neck of the woodsNot so much a neck of the woods here but a barren wasteland. Being honest I dan't really thought about it but perhaps it's worth at try. A couple of years back I wanted to get into Reiki because I wanted to know if I had what it takes more than anything. That turned out to be a non-starter for a few reasons. Perhaps if this is a 'meant to be' time then it's worth a try.

I know that feeling - the life as the boy who died at 5 was cut short and the life in the Egyptian time, I know I was poisoned at 55, and I did wonder whether I would die in this lifetime at 55 but I’m 56 now, so that’s gone.

It’s always harder on the ones left behind but I think this is where being a spiritualist comes in handy. I was quite impressed with the way I handled by dad’s funeral. The bit that completely freaked me out was the meeting afterwards and seeing relations I hadn’t seen in twenty years when I just wanted to be alone; I found that deeply disturbing, I remember bawling my eyes out on the two hour journey home. It wasn’t long after that I went to see the trusted medium I’ve seen over the last ten years and I wasn’t expecting my dad to come through as I’d gone about something else and I thought it would be too soon, but he did come through, heavily aided by my Nan and gave me some incredible information about how he had seen the light before he’d passed. And since then when I’ve seen a medium both my dad and my nan come through, sometimes together, sometimes not.I've had to tell my line manager about this and she's freaked, quite honestly. She's sitting there expecting me to be morbid because in her eyes I may be looking at a death sentence, and I'm sitting have a right old laugh about it. I can't do much about how people will react if I pop my clogs, they have their own Paths to tread and there's really little I can do about it. My daughters will be in pieces and the grandkids my not really understand because they're too young. My mother I din't know about though, she might not be able to handle losing both me and my dad in this Lifetime, but her dementia might play a dissociative part. With everyone else Life will go on, I just feel there's a cutting of ties going on right now.

My mum’s been in a care home with full blown Alzheimer’s for six years or so. I was absolutely dreading telling my father when the day came to tell him that she’d gone. In the end I didn’t have to because he ended up going first and my mother was so far gone by that point, she wouldn’t have understood any of it. So as it worked out, neither of them had to go through the distress of hearing that the other one had gone. I’ll always consider that a gift for them as well as me.

I wouldn’t tell your mother to be honest, there’s nothing to be gained; she probably wouldn’t understand depending on how far her condition has gone or it would upset her initially and then she would feel unsettled without knowing why. Her being insulated is the best thing for her, particularly given the situation with her almost committing suicide over your father. Also best for you in that you don’t have the distress of telling her and not knowing how she’ll react.I've told very few people because what I don't want is sympathy, frankly that would drive me crazy. I haven't told my mother as yet but either way she'll need to be told. It wouldn't do if Mrs G went up to her one day and told her that her son had gone. She's psychic and usually she would have picked up on this already, so far she hasn't and I can't help but wonder what the reason is.

Interesting you say that; I’ve had this conversation with myself many times. I know for a fact that I would be too sensitive for chemo. So I would have an operation to remove anything that could be removed, then I would turn to CBD oil as there have been many articles in the media of people having fully recovered using CBD Oil. If you did happen to go down the chemo route, CBD oil can make it more effective and protects you against the side effects. So I wouldn’t refuse treatment, I would just refuse the chemo or radio therapy and go down the CBD front.

But like you say, one step at a time. Do you have any faith healer/psychic surgery contacts? Have your guides given you any information?

PatryciaTo be honest I'm still processing that it's there and how I feel about it. I can't deal with anything until it's here to deal with so just right now there's little point in coming to any decisions about possible treatments. I appreciate what you're saying but that's how I get through Life, because that way I can meet it with a clearer head. I'm going to have an explore with faith healers and even sources of medical marijuana, because that sound like a jolly plan but other than that.... It might be that they shove a tube up my nose and suck the little sod right out. Or I could go into convulsions at work while a scary creature fights its way out of me.

I haven't asked my Guides being honest, it's not often that they come to me but that isn't a bad thing. I feel the same thing here, that this Journey is all mine and not for anyone else to influence in any way. Mrs G's been in bits because of the Past Lives connections but that just doesn't affect me in any way. It's one helluva place to be in right now because there's so much going on in my head and all of it is OK. For most people this would be a curse, for me it's one of the greatest gifts.

Patrycia-Rose

04-11-2018, 08:54 AM

Good morning Mr G,

Another mixed week of weather but I am embracing every beam of sunshine when it shines. :smile:

Got my new computer up and running so that's even better.

Oooh, that sounds interesting, what do you have? I have a Samsung laptop running Windows 7. I like Windows 7 and feel no rush to upgrade, we’ll have to see what I do when support ends for 7 in about 2020.

I’ve rebuilt my laptop from scratch, twice after picking up a virus. I now do monthly system images as it’s a pain to put all the software and settings back on, it takes days (in-between work). Picked up a problem about the third of the way through my last rebuild and after many weeks of reading, testing, creating, pinned it down to a corrupted download of IE. I have to say, although it was tiring, I really enjoyed trying different things, My knowledge increased substantially, taking copious notes, just in case I needed to do it again.

The wind's been howling almost for a week now and today it's finally stopped, but yes, winter is here now almost but you're off to Australia on your own I'm afraid. I like the changing of the seasons and what comes with them. There's nothing quite like that feeling when you come home to a warm house and a cuppa's waiting for you. It's like a metaphor for Life.

I wouldn’t expect anything else, quite used to doing my own thing, which seems to always go against the grain of what everybody else’s thing is.

Sometimes what you're connecting to doesn't translate too well, most of the time you can say "Well I feel..." but sometimes there just isn't the words and the need to express them isn't there neither. Sometimes it just feels as it feels, and there's quite a few understandings in that.

Gosh, yes that’s so true. Apart from my friend who I would like to express how it is, but can’t quite manage it.

The colour gold is something I thought might have come through from that 'other Life' and I get the feeling it's kind of hovering in the background with you. Obviously either not the time or not meant to be at all perhaps, but the 'influences' are there just the same. If you did resonate with it I don't it would be good, but that's a different story.

Do you mean the Egyptian life? Gold wouldn’t have been around me so much because I was kept in the background purposely. The medium I saw told me I was gifted at predicting and they were afraid of me so they kept me in the background and tried several times to kill me by sending me off on these long and dangerous journeys on my own, hoping I’d meet my end on the way! Lovely, eh? That’s why I have a fear of travelling long distances on my own.

There's something called the collective subconsciousness.

The collective sub-conscious – is that the same as Matt’s collective un-conscious?

I had a real tangible experience of the collective unconscious back in the summer. I started to wonder whether it was time to change my car and started looking at specific models. Saw a couple I liked but they were too far away for me to go and look at and I got ridiculously stressed over ‘right car / wrong place’. I test drove two local cars but each time I just didn’t feel the excitement that I know would be there for me when buying a new car. I got quite stressed over weeks with this should I, shouldn’t I – yet every time I saw the ‘perfect’ car ie. mileage, price, colour etc, it just wasn’t happening. Eventually this intensity of having to get a new car gradually faded and I made the decision to keep my existing one. And then, I kid you not, both next door neighbours and the neighbour over the road all got new cars within a week of each other! I reckon I was picking up on the energy / thought patterns from around me. Fascinating eh?

With any energetic changes it's usually best to not rock the boat so much as you've found out. They often need a little time for the symptoms to dissipate, and often the best way to do that is to do something 'normal' - like get the polish and duster out

That’s so funny, if I’m ever upset or unsettled, I like to clean, clean, clean!

I don't know why but lately I've had this 'thing' about words, their meanings and how they affect someone's reality - your reality is defined by your definitions and words have power over you so it's often best to choose carefully.I know I shouldn't but at times I just have to. It's just that 'crisis' is a strong word that comes from a certain mentality, when really it's a natural part of the progression. While it might not be fun it's necessary.

I’ve been thinking about that. ‘Healing crisis’ – it’s almost an oxymoron. But definitely belongs in the old spiritual paradigm. I heard Matt describing someone’s similar experience recently and called it cellular purging. I like that much better, more accurate and also more than likely the truth.

It really doesn't matter if you're going to be an aficionado of Sacred Geometry or not, what does matter is that your synchronising with the Universe on a different level. If you use the Phi Spiral as a visualisation it'll help you understand.

Really, the first explanation of how it works was enough. When it started to go on about labelling something with ‘x’ and formulas, that’s it! I was just pleased that the first bit made sense to me. I had a look at the spiral, not sure how that would help me. How far I’ve come is relative to the starting point and end point, neither of which can be quantified.

I have no idea why but for some reason there's a need for you to recognise how far you've come right now, it's a metaphorical going over your notes and noting the progress you've made to date. It's not going to stop the progress in any way but I think you're on a plateau where you need to catch your breath a little. So with a little synchronicity this is where your Phi Spiral visualisation would be a good tool. Retrospect is a good tool to, and to realise how much you're come in 13 years isn't ego but acknowledgement.

Yes, I get why you would feel that. I don’t know if it’s the onset of autumn/winter, which I always feel very keenly, but I’ve been a bit wobbly the last few weeks, experiencing some very low days. My dreams have also been very detailed from ex-partners, blocked drains to not being able to remember where I’d parked my car and endlessly looking for it trying to trace my steps, painting the castors of chairs a different colour so as to differentiate them.

It has been a very strange feeling, very difficult to describe apart from feeling very low with a hollow, empty type feeling. I woke up two nights ago in the middle of the night and had this feeling that something was majorly wrong to be feeling this way and nothing like my usual self. This feeling of hollowness and lowness, like a heavy energy, I could feel all through my body and particularly in the Solar area. I asked my guides and spirit to help me and I immediately saw a gold cross. When I woke up in the morning everything felt free and easy again and the hollow heavy feeling has gone from my body. The feeling has not returned. Looking through my journal this had been going on for two weeks. I have no idea what it was but the experience was very real, possibly some integration from the extreme Ascension symptoms of the summer or possibly the Reiki, I am just thankful it has gone.

The Matt in your dream is a representation of what you consider as a level of Spirituality and talking/voice is vibration, so you're vibrating at his level. How well/equal the conversation went is how well you vibrate at the same level as him. Trying to tell him about the intensity of the terror is you trying to express it at that level, or understand it at that level. The two are very different vibrations.

The conversation went well until I started talking about my trauma. I know why I dreamt it, because I’ve thought many, many times if I ever I got to speak to him I’d want to tell him about it, with some specific questions and see where he’d go with it.

OK, try something with your friend. The next time you talk to her concentrate on your voice and less on the words themselves. In your mind, think that your intention is to send her your vibrations in a way that will assist her to vibrate at the same level. The problem might not be her understanding but her level of vibration, and once you raise her vibrations what you're trying to tell her will come automatically to her. What you then need to look out for is not what she says but how she says it, because her interpretations and yours will be very different. By the way, there's a reason for this behind the mask.

I shall try that; won’t have too long to wait neither because I’m seeing her in a few weeks.

Very different. It's about their awakening, and yours. You know how it feels to be them.

I’ve said that a couple of times to her that she is like I was a year ago, asking the same questions. That is why I tried to explain it to her a time or two but you can’t relay a year of study in a brief conversation. She is interested in what I say and she says it’s all fascinating but for me, there’s a difference between being interested in something and throwing yourself in 100% but then that is very much my style. I also think it’s possibly about the timing as she has much on at the moment, funnily enough the same care of elderly parents I had many years ago, so I think timing is crucial and if I tell her about it, then she has it to remember and maybe one day she’ll feel ready for it and want to spend the time to understand his language and phraseology. But then also, everyone is on their own path and it may not be for her.

I've told very few people because what I don't want is sympathy, frankly that would drive me crazy. I haven't told my mother as yet but either way she'll need to be told. It wouldn't do if Mrs G went up to her one day and told her that her son had gone. She's psychic and usually she would have picked up on this already, so far she hasn't and I can't help but wonder what the reason is.

I guess it depends on how far her dementia has gone. If she missed your regular visits and was aware that you weren’t going, then yes some explanation may be necessary. But if she wasn’t aware that you weren’t going to visit her, that’s different, there would be no benefit to her knowing. She probably wouldn’t retain the information and would have an overall feeling of being distressed without knowing why. The fact that she’s psychic and hasn’t picked up on it, could be because she’s not being given that information by spirit. The reason she hasn’t sensed it could well be a protective factor for her (and for you).

I haven't asked my Guides being honest, it's not often that they come to me but that isn't a bad thing. I feel the same thing here, that this Journey is all mine and not for anyone else to influence in any way. Mrs G's been in bits because of the Past Lives connections but that just doesn't affect me in any way. It's one helluva place to be in right now because there's so much going on in my head and all of it is OK. For most people this would be a curse, for me it's one of the greatest gifts.

I totally get all that, it’s kind of like time becomes focused, priorities come to the fore. The medical marijuana sounds interesting and is what I would be researching, I believe you can get this prescribed now, I think the law’s changed only recently. I did have a look some months ago on one of my Saturday morning excursions and I found a forum solely for people who were taking it for medical reasons; all swapping experiences, it was very interesting and I made a mental note of it.

There's an advert on the tv currently, using the soundtrack to Solsbury Hill. Made me chuckle, was going to revisit the lyrics to see if I felt any differently about them.

Patrycia

Greenslade

04-11-2018, 03:06 PM

Good morning Mr G,

Another mixed week of weather but I am embracing every beam of sunshine when it shines. :smile:Good morning Patrycia

Even in the worst of weathers there is always sunshine in my heart, and above the clouds the sun is never obscured. It's an opportunity to practice my indomitable Spirit.

Oooh, that sounds interesting, what do you have? I have a Samsung laptop running Windows 7. I like Windows 7 and feel no rush to upgrade, we’ll have to see what I do when support ends for 7 in about 2020.

I’ve rebuilt my laptop from scratch, twice after picking up a virus. I now do monthly system images as it’s a pain to put all the software and settings back on, it takes days (in-between work). Picked up a problem about the third of the way through my last rebuild and after many weeks of reading, testing, creating, pinned it down to a corrupted download of IE. I have to say, although it was tiring, I really enjoyed trying different things, My knowledge increased substantially, taking copious notes, just in case I needed to do it again. I have a bag of bits and bobs. I was thinking about upgrading anyway because the one I had was around six years old, ancient in today's technology. My brother's a complete speed freak when it comes to PCs and he had a few bits and pieces going spare, he got a hold of a pre-production motherboard so it's tech that isn't even on the market as yet. I have his old Intel I7, which has enough oomph for me, 16Gb of RAM and a 2TB hard drive Did that make me sound geeky??? It cost me the price of the hard drive and the powerpack, so that's a bargain. I've got Windows 7 too, I wasn't that keen on 10 to be honest. It took me less than a day to build it and get it up and running.

I have a 1TB external hard drive and anything I need to transfer over to another computer is simply copied onto there. Bookmarks are exported and the rest is a straight copy so it's a lot less palaver. I like simple and easy.

I wouldn’t expect anything else, quite used to doing my own thing, which seems to always go against the grain of what everybody else’s thing is.That's one of the signs of being an Old Soul, doing your own thing regardless.

Gosh, yes that’s so true. Apart from my friend who I would like to express how it is, but can’t quite manage it. It's in that space where it becomes really interesting. There are times when I've not needed to express anything, the other person just knows because they've been there. It's the look that Sam and Frodo have between them when they arrive back in Rivendell. It sets people apart yet creates another layer of understanding.

Do you mean the Egyptian life? Gold wouldn’t have been around me so much because I was kept in the background purposely. The medium I saw told me I was gifted at predicting and they were afraid of me so they kept me in the background and tried several times to kill me by sending me off on these long and dangerous journeys on my own, hoping I’d meet my end on the way! Lovely, eh? That’s why I have a fear of travelling long distances on my own.I mean in the Life before time, the one that you haven't connected with as yet. You have never been on your own, even when you were totally alone.

I still haven't found a way to connect you to 'that Life, the one from before time and in a way it's so damned frustrating lol. Yeah I know, it'll happen when it's ready if ever.

The collective sub-conscious – is that the same as Matt’s collective un-conscious?

I had a real tangible experience of the collective unconscious back in the summer. I started to wonder whether it was time to change my car and started looking at specific models. Saw a couple I liked but they were too far away for me to go and look at and I got ridiculously stressed over ‘right car / wrong place’. I test drove two local cars but each time I just didn’t feel the excitement that I know would be there for me when buying a new car. I got quite stressed over weeks with this should I, shouldn’t I – yet every time I saw the ‘perfect’ car ie. mileage, price, colour etc, it just wasn’t happening. Eventually this intensity of having to get a new car gradually faded and I made the decision to keep my existing one. And then, I kid you not, both next door neighbours and the neighbour over the road all got new cars within a week of each other! I reckon I was picking up on the energy / thought patterns from around me. Fascinating eh? Yep, I'm not familiar with Matt's definition but it sounds like the same thing. And by the sound of it you certainly tapped into the energies created by people wanting to change their cars. I dare say your neighbours thought about making the changes for as long as you did, and so generated that sub-consciousness that you subsequently tapped into.

Things come to us when we're ready, to use the old adage it's the bit about the half-full glass - an empty glass is full of unrealised potential. When your consciousness was focussed on not having - which is essentially what you were telling yourself - then your vibrations changed to something more compatible with allowing something else top come into your reality. Realising you could tap into the collective sub/unconsciousness couldn't happen at the vibrations of not having. But I have to admit, it's a cool feeling just the same, that you have that capability.

That’s so funny, if I’m ever upset or unsettled, I like to clean, clean, clean! Yep, it's kinda bonkers but there you go anyway.

I’ve been thinking about that. ‘Healing crisis’ – it’s almost an oxymoron. But definitely belongs in the old spiritual paradigm. I heard Matt describing someone’s similar experience recently and called it cellular purging. I like that much better, more accurate and also more than likely the truth. 'Cellular purging' would work too, pretty much anything that has a more productive feel to it would work. Doing the clean, clean, clean is also cellular purging in that it can flush the system out but the envisioning of a toilet may not work for some.

Really, the first explanation of how it works was enough. When it started to go on about labelling something with ‘x’ and formulas, that’s it! I was just pleased that the first bit made sense to me. I had a look at the spiral, not sure how that would help me. How far I’ve come is relative to the starting point and end point, neither of which can be quantified. In this there is nothing external to you, and everything is absolutely relative. Even the word 'absolute' is relative to the word 'relative'. Ain't that a doozy? Sacred Geometry makes more sense to the thinking mind and it's used as an envisioning tool, nothing more. No, the Universe doesn't have structure but the mind needs the image of structure. You have a sphere of consciousness, the centre of which is your being. That can be represented by a single point of a circle whose radius encompasses all that you are conscious of. This thread is the context in which you and your sphere of consciousness and me in mine come together. This is where the understanding of how the Vesica Pisces and the overlapping spheres of consciousness comes into play. If I had never replied to this thread perhaps you would never have met Matt. I'm not taking credit for that but using it as an illustration. I'm not sure how you could quantify meeting Matt but it happened anyway in the 'eye' where our two circles overlap.

The labelling comes from what Tolle said is object consciousness, or consciousness of the brain/mind combination. Sacred geometry comes from what Tolle described as Space consciousness, the consciousness that simply knows. Where Sacred Geometry and all symbolism is that the symbolism is a 'translation' of the space consciousness that can be understood by the mind. That is the difference that makes the difference. You are experiencing space consciousness - your neighbours buying new cars - but you are still using object consciousness to try and understand it. Forget trying to understand the geometry itself, look behind the geometry/symbolism and find where the knowing comes from.

Yes, I get why you would feel that. I don’t know if it’s the onset of autumn/winter, which I always feel very keenly, but I’ve been a bit wobbly the last few weeks, experiencing some very low days. My dreams have also been very detailed from ex-partners, blocked drains to not being able to remember where I’d parked my car and endlessly looking for it trying to trace my steps, painting the castors of chairs a different colour so as to differentiate them.

It has been a very strange feeling, very difficult to describe apart from feeling very low with a hollow, empty type feeling. I woke up two nights ago in the middle of the night and had this feeling that something was majorly wrong to be feeling this way and nothing like my usual self. This feeling of hollowness and lowness, like a heavy energy, I could feel all through my body and particularly in the Solar area. I asked my guides and spirit to help me and I immediately saw a gold cross. When I woke up in the morning everything felt free and easy again and the hollow heavy feeling has gone from my body. The feeling has not returned. Looking through my journal this had been going on for two weeks. I have no idea what it was but the experience was very real, possibly some integration from the extreme Ascension symptoms of the summer or possibly the Reiki, I am just thankful it has gone.At this time of year many people have a psychological disorder called Seasonal Adjustment Disorder. It actually comes fro the collective subconsciousness, would you believe 'Back in the day' the onset of autumn and subsequently winter badly affected our distant ancestors. To them winter was Life or death, very literally. To this day, even with cars, ventral heating and supermarkets we're still affected by it in our own ways. It's coming up for Christmas so that means carry on, road rage in the carparks and who's going to pay the bills? grumpy kids, dark nights and snotty noses. All really good things to be looking forwards to.

Your dreams are your subconscious mind trying to communicate with you, but your subconsciousness can only use the surreal and symbolisms to communicate. You can learn things from your ex-partners, more of then than not they were their for just that reason. The drains are blocked because your mind is blocked and you still need to flush your old paradigms that no longer serve you. Not being able to find your car is not being able to find something that will move you forwards, retracing your steps is retrospection and painting the castors is differentiating aspects of your consciousness.

What isn't realised is that people's energies don't change in nice graduations but in quantum leaps. There's is no sliding scale between this level and the next, there's just a flick of a switch from 'here' to 'there'. Often the changes are so subtle they're hardly noticed, then Ascension comes along and kicks you upside your head. Remember you talking about Matt saying that the consciousness knows you're already healed but the heavier, more dense energy and physicality needs a little more time? Same here. You consciousness has already adjusted to the leap but your denser self not to much, so your consciousness perceives the gap between what your energies are to match the frequency it's on with the frequency your energies are actually vibrating at. Your consciousness is a little 'ahead' of your actual energies, so it is actually very real. This translates to you as feeling hollow (full of as yet unrealised potential) and lowness as in your energies needing the time to 'catch up' with your consciousness.

The conversation went well until I started talking about my trauma. I know why I dreamt it, because I’ve thought many, many times if I ever I got to speak to him I’d want to tell him about it, with some specific questions and see where he’d go with it.If you imagine how that conversation would go?

I shall try that; won’t have too long to wait neither because I’m seeing her in a few weeks.You are 'infectious', we all are - carbon-based and emitting electrical signals that are transmitted/received. Vesica Pisces 'spheres of consciousness' interacting.... Your voice is en expression of your vibrations and your intentions are important, so the question is what are you actually trying to communicate? Are you trying to get her to understand or are you trying to raise her vibrations first so she'll resonate more harmoniously?

I’ve said that a couple of times to her that she is like I was a year ago, asking the same questions. That is why I tried to explain it to her a time or two but you can’t relay a year of study in a brief conversation. She is interested in what I say and she says it’s all fascinating but for me, there’s a difference between being interested in something and throwing yourself in 100% but then that is very much my style. I also think it’s possibly about the timing as she has much on at the moment, funnily enough the same care of elderly parents I had many years ago, so I think timing is crucial and if I tell her about it, then she has it to remember and maybe one day she’ll feel ready for it and want to spend the time to understand his language and phraseology. But then also, everyone is on their own path and it may not be for her. There's such a deep understanding here that you haven't realised as yet. She's the reason you're retracing your steps to find your car keys - 'keys' being the operative word. If you had gone back in time, sat down with yourself and said "OK kiddo, pin your ears back. There's this guy called Matt Khan and...."?????

In the context of whatever she has going on in her Life being interested is perhaps the best she can hope for. Perhaps it's just not a priority for her, and perhaps you could look back on your own Journey and come to realisations in the dichotomy between you and her. You see, there's always something behind the mask. You talking to her at all and showing her some patience may well have more of an affect on her than understanding anything Matt says. It might be that she's finding it difficult to process, it happens with some people. She might not have the basis upon which you've built your understandings - there are numerous barriers and when you begin to understand those things you can start making some headway. But you see, perhaps you've missed the most important thing of all. You're spending time with her, you're showing her the patience without - hopefully - bopping her one on the nose for being so damned frustrating. That's something that you can't buy.

You've found some common ground with the parents bit, that's a good place to put your feet with her. It's all about layers of relationships in the end.

I guess it depends on how far her dementia has gone. If she missed your regular visits and was aware that you weren’t going, then yes some explanation may be necessary. But if she wasn’t aware that you weren’t going to visit her, that’s different, there would be no benefit to her knowing. She probably wouldn’t retain the information and would have an overall feeling of being distressed without knowing why. The fact that she’s psychic and hasn’t picked up on it, could be because she’s not being given that information by spirit. The reason she hasn’t sensed it could well be a protective factor for her (and for you). ]/quote]At the moment I don't know but my gut instinct says that it's not my time as yet and she'll be there waiting for me. Besides, I have a promise to keep with a little girl that I'm damned if I'm going to break. I find it hard to deal with ifs and buts so at this stage in the game there's no point in going too far down the speculation route. Things like this tend to have an affect on the jolly old perspective, and dealing with what is keeps me at least some kind of level-headed.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]I totally get all that, it’s kind of like time becomes focused, priorities come to the fore. The medical marijuana sounds interesting and is what I would be researching, I believe you can get this prescribed now, I think the law’s changed only recently. I did have a look some months ago on one of my Saturday morning excursions and I found a forum solely for people who were taking it for medical reasons; all swapping experiences, it was very interesting and I made a mental note of it.

There's an advert on the tv currently, using the soundtrack to Solsbury Hill. Made me chuckle, was going to revisit the lyrics to see if I felt any differently about them.

PatryciaIn a curious twist in the tale the CT results came back. They're not sure what it actually is so they're going to schedule a biopsy to find out what's really going on. Apparently it's not attached to any major organs after all so at least no part of my gubbins isn't going to be affected. So, it might well be an alien of unknown origin and I'll know I'm in trouble when Sigourney Weaver appears. They don't know how they're going to progress for the time being, they might just cut it out or it might be radio/chemotherapy. I've been talking to my brother about it because he knows a lot of this medical marijuana and CBD oil stuff, and what he's saying for now is that I need more info before even thinking about it otherwise it can have detrimental effects.

What's going through my mind is the heep's Beautiful Dream from Return to Fantasy, because in many was right now it is a beautiful dream. Nobody knows my name because there are no names to know.

Patrycia-Rose

11-11-2018, 08:34 AM

Hi Mr G,

What a week! I’ve had two days off work to do some DIY and other chores as well as relaxing, although there doesn’t seem to be much relaxing happening, too much to do.

Even in the worst of weathers there is always sunshine in my heart, and above the clouds the sun is never obscured. It's an opportunity to practice my indomitable Spirit.

That’s a lovely ability to have.

I have a 1TB external hard drive and anything I need to transfer over to another computer is simply copied onto there. Bookmarks are exported and the rest is a straight copy so it's a lot less palaver. I like simple and easy.

I’ve also got a couple of external hard drives. I’ve actually got two laptops; one for documents, music, photos etc only and not linked up to the internet and another for the net only, both running Windows 7.

That's one of the signs of being an Old Soul, doing your own thing regardless.

Wished I known that years ago, I’ve always been accused of ‘going your own sweet way’ and it landing me in trouble - especially in the face of ‘authority’!

It's in that space where it becomes really interesting. There are times when I've not needed to express anything, the other person just knows because they've been there. It's the look that Sam and Frodo have between them when they arrive back in Rivendell. It sets people apart yet creates another layer of understanding.

Ah yes, LOTR. I’m actually watching the Harry Potter films on a Saturday night, just love that series and the first two in particular are just magical. Even though I’m not a huge fan of autumn/winter, the darkening evenings with fireworks going off outside, is the perfect time to watch them.

I may well do a similar re-visit with Lord of the Rings. The Fellowship of the Ring (my favourite of the three) also holds magic.

I mean in the Life before time, the one that you haven't connected with as yet. You have never been on your own, even when you were totally alone

Do you mean life between lives? That time before you come down to the earth plane? I know we’re not alone, but I do feel alone. I’ve always felt a strong sense of being alone (I don’t mean being lonely which is different). But being alone as in my likes, desires, views being different from the crowd. That aloneness has become more keen since my parents have gone, I rarely speak to my brother (my fault, I know, because I am ***p at picking up the phone)

I still haven't found a way to connect you to 'that Life, the one from before time and in a way it's so damned frustrating lol. Yeah I know, it'll happen when it's ready if ever.

Sorry about that, I don’t like to be the source of anyone’s frustration. Perhaps if you could give me some information about it, it may strike a chord.

But I have to admit, it's a cool feeling just the same, that you have that capability.

I’d not thought of it as a capability, I’m sure looking back that I pick up on the collective unconscious more than I have realised. I wouldn't describe that particular experience as pleasant.

. This is where the understanding of how the Vesica Pisces and the overlapping spheres of consciousness comes into play. If I had never replied to this thread perhaps you would never have met Matt. I'm not taking credit for that but using it as an illustration. I'm not sure how you could quantify meeting Matt but it happened anyway in the 'eye' where our two circles overlap.

I know, I often think that if I hadn’t have joined this forum, I wouldn’t have linked up with you and I wouldn’t have met Matt. A real changer on both accounts. Thing is for me, I haven’t joined that many forums, a couple of practical ones like a windows seven forum. But forums aren’t usually my type of thing because I know my views / opinions / knowledge are not ‘of the majority’.

At this time of year many people have a psychological disorder called Seasonal Adjustment Disorder. It actually comes fro the collective subconsciousness, would you believe 'Back in the day' the onset of autumn and subsequently winter badly affected our distant ancestors. To them winter was Life or death, very literally.

I think I do get the seasonal adjustment disorder. Once I get into the autumn/winter and a routine, I can tolerate it and even find the occasional good thing, like the aforementioned film watching. So when the clocks change again, and the lighter nights come in, I’m then sort of grieving for the loss of that stuff, so I feel I can’t win! But yes, I hadn’t thought about the impact of winter on our distant ancestors and the collective unconscious (again!).

Your dreams are your subconscious mind trying to communicate with you, but your subconsciousness can only use the surreal and symbolisms to communicate. You can learn things from your ex-partners, more of then than not they were their for just that reason. The drains are blocked because your mind is blocked and you still need to flush your old paradigms that no longer serve you. Not being able to find your car is not being able to find something that will move you forwards, retracing your steps is retrospection and painting the castors is differentiating aspects of your consciousness.

Thank you for all that, that’s really insightful and feels kind of on the money. I shall have to tell you about the repetitive dream of my teens/twenties at some point.

If you imagine how that conversation would go?

I knew you were going to ask me that! To be honest, I wouldn’t want to try and pre-empt it because I know I wouldn’t do it justice.

But …. that comment led to doing some in-depth dowsing last Sunday evening and amongst various questions, I asked, do I have the same level of trauma from the experience in my physical body now as five years ago? And it gave me a huge ‘no’. I checked a few times, re-phrasing the question but each time it gave the same answer. And it is true that although I still have the symptoms as a result of the trauma, they are slightly less, very slightly, but it is noticeable. This reduction, according to dowsing, is a result of the impact of Matt’s teachings alongside ascension.

And following that, during the week I had the most extraordinary experience. I woke up one night at 3 am precisely and instantly started thinking (in that semi-sleep mode) about the trauma. And I suddenly heard Matt’s voice in my head, crystal clear, ‘try these words out loud’ and I just went along with it, repeating the words, each time saying what was arising in my body after each section. And then there would be a new ‘repeat after me.’

In the cold light of day, I don’t remember what was said exactly, there was much about releasing the trauma, being set free, breathing easily. But one phrase I do remember clearly (because I was thinking at the same time this is amazing / where’s this coming from!) ….. “the experience does not define you and you are not defined by the experience.” I do wonder if that was my imagination, my guides, my higher self – but it was Matt’s voice. A pretty cool experience.

You're spending time with her, you're showing her the patience without - hopefully - bopping her one on the nose for being so damned frustrating. That's something that you can't buy.

I am actually very patient with her, it wouldn’t occur to me to be anything else. It’s good for me too to be able to talk and share as she Is interested and it’s also a signpost to me as I can hear myself talking about it and checking to see if I think it makes sense, is there a better way of putting it, how is she reacting. If nothing else, I get very enthused about it all (which is a rarity for me anyway) so she is able to see the impact it has on me, which may be enough.

In a curious twist in the tale the CT results came back. They're not sure what it actually is so they're going to schedule a biopsy to find out what's really going on. Apparently it's not attached to any major organs after all so at least no part of my gubbins isn't going to be affected. So, it might well be an alien of unknown origin and I'll know I'm in trouble when Sigourney Weaver appears. They don't know how they're going to progress for the time being, they might just cut it out or it might be radio/chemotherapy. I've been talking to my brother about it because he knows a lot of this medical marijuana and CBD oil stuff, and what he's saying for now is that I need more info before even thinking about it otherwise it can have detrimental effects.

A very curious twist. It’s good that it’s not attached to any organs, as I would assume it would be easier for it to be removed, but they need to establish what it is so they can extract it safely. If that was me, I would ask them to remove it; chemo is so damaging as it takes the good as well as the bad. I agree with your brother though, I wouldn’t go down the marijuana stage as you need to know what you’re dealing with. But if it’s not malignant and not attached to any organs, I would have thought straightforward removal would be the choice. Before agreeing to chemo, if it comes to that, I would encourage you to do much research so you’re aware of all the facts.

What's going through my mind is the heep's Beautiful Dream from Return to Fantasy, because in many was right now it is a beautiful dream. Nobody knows my name because there are no names to know.

That came on my MP3 player just last Sunday and it strikes me how some of Heep’s lyrics become so meaningful in a different way as you get older.

Patrycia

Greenslade

11-11-2018, 03:30 PM

Hi Mr G,

What a week! I’ve had two days off work to do some DIY and other chores as well as relaxing, although there doesn’t seem to be much relaxing happening, too much to do. Hey there Patrycia

"If you can't hear your breathing you're going too fast," something I stole from Matt that works quite well.

That’s a lovely ability to have.Thank you. It's also quite powerful in its own way and it beats the hell out of positive thinking.

I’ve also got a couple of external hard drives. I’ve actually got two laptops; one for documents, music, photos etc only and not linked up to the internet and another for the net only, both running Windows 7.Mrs G and I download all kinds of series that we binge watch, it's nice to sit down and do a couple of episodes and a meal after work. The only trouble is that they take up a huge amount of room.

Wished I known that years ago, I’ve always been accused of ‘going your own sweet way’ and it landing me in trouble - especially in the face of ‘authority’! And would it have made you more accepting of authority? Like me, I think you would have gone your own sweet way regardless and your own nature would have been the motivator.

Ah yes, LOTR. I’m actually watching the Harry Potter films on a Saturday night, just love that series and the first two in particular are just magical. Even though I’m not a huge fan of autumn/winter, the darkening evenings with fireworks going off outside, is the perfect time to watch them.

I may well do a similar re-visit with Lord of the Rings. The Fellowship of the Ring (my favourite of the three) also holds magic.I'm not much of a Harry Potter fan being honest although I will watch it if Mrs G has it on. We used to have Sundays where we'd sit with the kids and a coffee table of munchies and watch the three LOTR on the trot. Always something new with them. The Hobbit doesn't quite do that but it's amazing just the same. It's interesting when you watch them again, for the first time.

Do you mean life between lives? That time before you come down to the earth plane? I know we’re not alone, but I do feel alone. I’ve always felt a strong sense of being alone (I don’t mean being lonely which is different). But being alone as in my likes, desires, views being different from the crowd. That aloneness has become more keen since my parents have gone, I rarely speak to my brother (my fault, I know, because I am ***p at picking up the phone)I mean the time before time itself existed, prior to the Big Bang. Not fitting in and feeling alone/very singular is a 'symptom' of being an Old Soul. Apparently Old Souls never fully integrate into this dimension and that gives them the 'alone/don't fit' feeling. At the moment I feel as though I'm disconnecting or cutting ties with people in this Life, and it's been happening for a couple of years. At first I was concerned that I was isolating myself but it feels more like a stepping back. It's kind of eerie in some ways how the energy plays itself out into the physical..

Sorry about that, I don’t like to be the source of anyone’s frustration. Perhaps if you could give me some information about it, it may strike a chord.[/quote[It's OK, there's no frustration really and it's interesting more than anything else. If it's going to happen it'll happen in its own sweet time, it's just that sometimes as you write I'll pick up on the odd few words that look as though they have an LED light on behind them.It's really weird. I was reading what you were saying earlier in the post about your being a rebel and the vision of you there came slamming into my mind. Kinda like one of those 'when you were a baby...' things.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]I’d not thought of it as a capability, I’m sure looking back that I pick up on the collective unconscious more than I have realised. I wouldn't describe that particular experience as pleasant. It can be a double-edged sword some of it, while it's great to have that capability tapping into it brings its own 'dangers'. While the discussion of 'We Are One' and collective consciousness might be cool we're a long way off from being able to experience it.

I know, I often think that if I hadn’t have joined this forum, I wouldn’t have linked up with you and I wouldn’t have met Matt. A real changer on both accounts. Thing is for me, I haven’t joined that many forums, a couple of practical ones like a windows seven forum. But forums aren’t usually my type of thing because I know my views / opinions / knowledge are not ‘of the majority’. It's really interesting how things play themselves out often-times, and sometimes I think "What are the odds?" Perhaps not knowing is a part of the Child Inside's wonderings and mysteries. It's cool whatever it is, and in many ways it's a blessing to be a part of that.

I knew fine well I was going to be an outcast on this forum because of the energies, I can often feel them coming off the page. I'm still at loggerheads with a couple of the members and some I'll talk to with gritted teeth, but it's when I come across people like yourself that makes it all worth it. There are a few diamonds in the rough, a few very beautiful Souls. It's like everything else, there's always something to be gained in the interaction. I get the feeling that what I'm gaining here has something to do with my next existence, and no I'm not even going to ask. It's an intuitive feeling that there's a purpose behind it.

I think I do get the seasonal adjustment disorder. Once I get into the autumn/winter and a routine, I can tolerate it and even find the occasional good thing, like the aforementioned film watching. So when the clocks change again, and the lighter nights come in, I’m then sort of grieving for the loss of that stuff, so I feel I can’t win! But yes, I hadn’t thought about the impact of winter on our distant ancestors and the collective unconscious (again!).OK, so what's with anther whammy on the collective consciousness? One I can understand but two in the same post? And not just talking about it but bringing the experience into your awareness?

This area has a long history of farming and fishing, although the fishing industry has been decimated. People have been connected to nature all their Lives and even though their history isn't in farming or fishing they're still very much connected with nature in the passing of the seasonal weather. Always just after the clocks go back people express a feeling of being down in the dumps that lasts for around a week or so. Even if you have little connection to nature you can't help but notice the days getting shorter and thoughts of Chrimbo creeping in.

Thank you for all that, that’s really insightful and feels kind of on the money. I shall have to tell you about the repetitive dream of my teens/twenties at some point.You're very welcome and I have no idea where any of that come from. Actually I have. I wouldn't mind hearing about your recurring dream, and it's reminded me that I used to have one but I don't remember what it was.

I knew you were going to ask me that! To be honest, I wouldn’t want to try and pre-empt it because I know I wouldn’t do it justice.

But …. that comment led to doing some in-depth dowsing last Sunday evening and amongst various questions, I asked, do I have the same level of trauma from the experience in my physical body now as five years ago? And it gave me a huge ‘no’. I checked a few times, re-phrasing the question but each time it gave the same answer. And it is true that although I still have the symptoms as a result of the trauma, they are slightly less, very slightly, but it is noticeable. This reduction, according to dowsing, is a result of the impact of Matt’s teachings alongside ascension.

And following that, during the week I had the most extraordinary experience. I woke up one night at 3 am precisely and instantly started thinking (in that semi-sleep mode) about the trauma. And I suddenly heard Matt’s voice in my head, crystal clear, ‘try these words out loud’ and I just went along with it, repeating the words, each time saying what was arising in my body after each section. And then there would be a new ‘repeat after me.’

In the cold light of day, I don’t remember what was said exactly, there was much about releasing the trauma, being set free, breathing easily. But one phrase I do remember clearly (because I was thinking at the same time this is amazing / where’s this coming from!) ….. “the experience does not define you and you are not defined by the experience.” I do wonder if that was my imagination, my guides, my higher self – but it was Matt’s voice. A pretty cool experience.The thought of not being able to do it justice tells you something about yourself, that you're judging yourself a little. Bear in mind that a lot of Matt's teachings are very fresh in your mind and it's one thing to know but something else again to put across your own understanding. The only thing you really need to thing about is your intentions for expressing anything, other than that it can be interesting to take mental notes on how your understanding changes. It's not about doing it justice it's about your understanding in the moment.

Usually the subconscious mind does its own thing in the background, but the subconscious is an amazing bit of kit. Any decision you make you don't really make, it's all done in your subconscious 'committee' and 300ms later you become conscious of it. If you think about what you think about in any decision, there are always a number of factors involved - like it or not one of them is emotion and another can be past experience. In that semi-asleep mode there's a kind of balance that happens as you become more conscious of your subconscious, and the two aren't sulking with each other. So one of two things is happening here. One is that your conscious mind is simply repeating what Matt has said parrot-fashion, the other is that your subconscious and your conscious are talking to each other. If the latter is the case (This parrot is no more. He has ceased to be. He's a stiff) then if you spend more time in that semi-conscious state you'll have access to all kinds of things about yourself.

yes it was a cool experience but also one that can open the door for something even cooler.

Tolle said that there is only the present, the future is expectation and the past is memory, and when you take that perspective a lot changes. Trauma is memory because you're not having the experience of what caused the trauma any more - and I don't want details of the cause. Your memories then consist of what happened to you and how it affected you, so if you had an injury then it limited you in some way. It came from a time when everything was not here to help you so it affected you in that context, now this is a time when everything is here to help you, to be released so you can be free. That's another level up if you like.

It would be Matt's voice because that's what you associate with the strongest. Really, vibrations are electrical signals sent to the brain and processed so there's no reason that process can't be 'hijacked' by your Guides, subconscious, Higher Self..... But then, isn't that something to be a part of?

I am actually very patient with her, it wouldn’t occur to me to be anything else. It’s good for me too to be able to talk and share as she Is interested and it’s also a signpost to me as I can hear myself talking about it and checking to see if I think it makes sense, is there a better way of putting it, how is she reacting. If nothing else, I get very enthused about it all (which is a rarity for me anyway) so she is able to see the impact it has on me, which may be enough.I didn't think you'd be anything less than the epitome of patience. What I was pointing out is what you're telling me here, that talking to your friend is another level of understanding for you. It's the difference between parrot-fashion and actually understanding what you're talking about. Einstein said that if you can explain it simply you know what you're talking about. The rest I could say about it you have nailed down anyway, but what it can give you is another level of consciousness.

Make your enthusiasm work for you, it's energy after all an you can focus that. Use it to watch her reactions, what's going through your own mind and how the process is working. If you can hit it just right you can step outside of that dynamic - and it is an energy dynamic - and experience something very different.

See, you are infectious. We are carbon-based Life forms, which means we have in-built antennae that transmit and receive signals all the time - like when you think your colleague isn't happy with themselves? Your heart sends out a 360degree pulse every time it beats, it's low-level but it's measurable. The body is tuned into that frequency and we can pick up on other people's energies. Everyone has the potential. The question is not if you're making any sense to your friend or not, the question is what energies are you sending out? I know your intentions are to send out only the best you can, but the question is what are the best energies for your friend? 'Technically' what you say might go over her head and if your friend has self esteem issues, that won't help. Are you trying to get her to understand what Matt has said or are you trying to raise her vibrations? And if you're doing that what is the best way? Perhaps laying the ground would be the best favour you could give her, considering she's probably feeling out of her depth because of what she's tried to understand in the past.

It's quite possible that your friend feels inadequate in this particular aspect of her Life. The other thing is what are the reasons she's interested in Spirituality? Generally, most people are trying to find either answers or an escape because they can't find it inside themselves.

A very curious twist. It’s good that it’s not attached to any organs, as I would assume it would be easier for it to be removed, but they need to establish what it is so they can extract it safely. If that was me, I would ask them to remove it; chemo is so damaging as it takes the good as well as the bad. I agree with your brother though, I wouldn’t go down the marijuana stage as you need to know what you’re dealing with. But if it’s not malignant and not attached to any organs, I would have thought straightforward removal would be the choice. Before agreeing to chemo, if it comes to that, I would encourage you to do much research so you’re aware of all the facts.One of the things I'm going through at the moment is not becoming too involved emotionally, although it has been very difficult admittedly. I am a very emotional person at the best of times so this is..... I don't know if it gets any more emotional. What I refuse to do is to think of the ifs. the buts and the maybes because if my head is full of that nonsense it won't be able to deal with what does happen.

The chemotherapy and radiotherapy can be just as damaging if not worse. What Mrs G's freaking out about right now is that her husband died under similar circumstances. He has cancer, it went well then one day it literally exploded inside him. The doctor said that the chemo/radio can do that, as well as - as you say - beat the hell out of the other organs.

The ultrasound said it was attached to the liver and pancreas, and that it was malignant. The CT scan is saying that it's not attached to any organs but they're not sure what it is as yet, so while there's good news there's also more 'wait and see', which hopefully the biopsy will clear up. I'm hoping that after the biopsy someone can sit me down and tell me what's going on. Perhaps it will be a straightforward hack it out with a plastic spoon, in which case I'm OK with that and I'll heal come time. The chemo is a different story again though, because there's really no telling what effect it might have. It can have anything from curing it and being a pain to making the damned lump explode - and the doctor said that was a possibility they couldn't rule out. If it's not cancer then.....

That came on my MP3 player just last Sunday and it strikes me how some of Heep’s lyrics become so meaningful in a different way as you get older.

Patrycia In some ways the meaning remains the same, only in a different context. I still connect to the whole idea of sailing own the stream and all that, just in a slightly different way. What it does though is highlight that no matter how much things change, they stay the same.

Patrycia-Rose

18-11-2018, 08:33 AM

Hi Mr G

"If you can't hear your breathing you're going too fast," something I stole from Matt that works quite well.

Isn't that wonderful, a few clicks of a mouse and I know that this quote came from The Secret of Spiritual Success and the context was: " If you’re not aware of your breath in any activity, you’re going too fast. Enlightenment opens in a being who demonstrates relaxation, not a rush of activity or pursuing spiritual goals."

And on this front it made me quite tearful to recollect this because I feel in some sort of disconnect at the moment. Work has been so busy, just manic, on top of a day out for training, getting my car MOT'd and serviced, some DIY which I hope to finish this morning, it's just all go, I'm constantly shattered, I've got little time to study and when I do I can't concentrate. I keep selecting 'shadow' cards from all my decks, I'm into some sort of weird phase of some sort.

And would it have made you more accepting of authority? Like me, I think you would have gone your own sweet way regardless and your own nature would have been the motivator.

I think it would have let me understand why I had such a problem with authority but yes, I would have carried on regardless.

I'm not much of a Harry Potter fan being honest although I will watch it if Mrs G has it on. We used to have Sundays where we'd sit with the kids and a coffee table of munchies and watch the three LOTR on the trot. Always something new with them. The Hobbit doesn't quite do that but it's amazing just the same. It's interesting when you watch them again, for the first time.

The Hobbit films took me years to get to watch, because I knew they weren’t going to be as magical as the originals. Like the original Star Wars films, nothing can match them. I have no inclination to watch the latest saga.

At the moment I feel as though I'm disconnecting or cutting ties with people in this Life, and it's been happening for a couple of years. At first I was concerned that I was isolating myself but it feels more like a stepping back. It's kind of eerie in some ways how the energy plays itself out into the physical..

I can completely identify with that. My parents have gone and I do have a brother who I get along well with. He doesn’t live near me at all. Trouble is I like to email him and he hates emailing as he does it all day at work and prefers to speak on the phone. And I hate speaking on the phone cos I do it during the day and when I get home I can’t cope with the phone going, so it’s turned off constantly, so hence there’s not too much communication. I do think about him a lot though. I have a cousin who I speak to several times a year. So I seem to have drifted into a situation of being disconnected, but at the same time, it also seems a very natural place for me to be. I know I’m meant to be on my own, simply because if I wasn’t, I would be with someone.

OK, so what's with anther whammy on the collective consciousness? One I can understand but two in the same post? And not just talking about it but bringing the experience into your awareness?
Well the first one was about my experience of the cars. And you explained about seasonal adjustment disorder coming from our ancestors and their way of life. I have heard Matt talk about the collective unconscious many times and although I understood intellectually I had not had a direct experience or anything I was aware that was a direct experience, until the car situation. Now you explaining about a seasonal adjustment disorder and me picking up on this through the collective unconscious is bringing it into my awareness and experience.

I have heard Matt, on several occasions, talk about the importance of setting an intention as a way of not being pulled into the collective unconscious. This was something I wanted to go back and watch again but have not at the time because I am busy studying his online course and I have only got up to lesson number 4 out of 10. There are a number of videos to watch within each lesson so with work and chores and everything else in between, it is taking me some time to go through it. But I imagine it will be the perfect thing over the long cold winter weekends ahead.

You're very welcome and I have no idea where any of that come from. Actually I have. I wouldn't mind hearing about your recurring dream, and it's reminded me that I used to have one but I don't remember what it was.

It was war time and I was in a military vehicle with other soldiers being taken off to fight. We were dropped off in a large open and flat field. Before we could take any action, we were besieged by the enemy who were shooting everyone dead with machine guns. I could see soldiers just dropping dead to the ground around me. I thought the only way I’m going to survive this is by pretending to be dead so I lay face down on the ground holding my breath. A man literally stopped beside me and I could feel the pressure growing to breath but after a few moments he walked away. I lay there for many minutes, too terrified to move but gradually I opened my eyes and slowly got up. It was completely silent; I was the only one alive, everyone else around me was dead.

I used to have that dream in my teens and into my twenties, always exactly the same.

One is that your conscious mind is simply repeating what Matt has said parrot-fashion, the other is that your subconscious and your conscious are talking to each other. If the latter is the case (This parrot is no more. He has ceased to be. He's a stiff) then if you spend more time in that semi-conscious state you'll have access to all kinds of things about yourself.

It definitely wasn’t parrot-fashion because I’d not heard him say those specific words, in that order and also there was a part of my mind that was answering and interacting as I was asked ‘what are you feeling now’ so it was completely spontaneous with the conscious part of my mind interacting.

That state is also when I can have a conversation with my guides without some part of my mind interrupting.

I have also for the last few weeks been seeing the words ‘black and white’ with a gold infinity symbol and the words ‘black and white has started’.

Trauma is memory because you're not having the experience of what caused the trauma any more - and I don't want details of the cause. Your memories then consist of what happened to you and how it affected you, so if you had an injury then it limited you in some way. It came from a time when everything was not here to help you so it affected you in that context, now this is a time when everything is here to help you, to be released so you can be free. That's another level up if you like.

I may be released from it on an emotional level, which I do feel very differently about it. But the physical body still has some way to go.

It would be Matt's voice because that's what you associate with the strongest. Really, vibrations are electrical signals sent to the brain and processed so there's no reason that process can't be 'hijacked' by your Guides, subconscious, Higher Self..... But then, isn't that something to be a part of?

Yep, I must admit it was a pretty spectacular experience.

I know your intentions are to send out only the best you can, but the question is what are the best energies for your friend? 'Technically' what you say might go over her head and if your friend has self esteem issues, that won't help. Are you trying to get her to understand what Matt has said or are you trying to raise her vibrations? And if you're doing that what is the best way? Perhaps laying the ground would be the best favour you could give her, considering she's probably feeling out of her depth because of what she's tried to understand in the past.

Both I would say; I have helped her though because I do understand / know about the sorts of questions she’s asking and that I have the answers and that does help her to see the bigger picture.

There’s also a lovely man I meet when I’m out walking at lunch time, it’s quite remarkable. He’s in his 90s and in an automated wheelchair. We always stop and speak and I don’t know how we got onto the subject, but I find this happens a lot with me, we ended up speaking about spiritual matters and he says it’s something he’s never considered but I’ve told him so much about the ins and outs of all things spiritual, pointing out things that he’s experienced like the aroma of his deceased wife’s perfume that wasn’t his imagination, it’s her way of her letting him know she’s around. He’s so interested in it all, I’ve got him watching Tony Stockwell on youtube and he’s taking it all in and asks me loads of questions. It’s quite incredible really and I’m sure that somehow, all this information I’m giving him it’ll come in useful at some point to him. I just feel there’s a specific reason why we’re having these conversations.

The chemotherapy and radiotherapy can be just as damaging if not worse. What Mrs G's freaking out about right now is that her husband died under similar circumstances. He has cancer, it went well then one day it literally exploded inside him. The doctor said that the chemo/radio can do that, as well as - as you say - beat the hell out of the other organs.

The ultrasound said it was attached to the liver and pancreas, and that it was malignant. The CT scan is saying that it's not attached to any organs but they're not sure what it is as yet, so while there's good news there's also more 'wait and see', which hopefully the biopsy will clear up. I'm hoping that after the biopsy someone can sit me down and tell me what's going on. Perhaps it will be a straightforward hack it out with a plastic spoon, in which case I'm OK with that and I'll heal come time. The chemo is a different story again though, because there's really no telling what effect it might have. It can have anything from curing it and being a pain to making the damned lump explode - and the doctor said that was a possibility they couldn't rule out. If it's not cancer then.....

I’m sorry to hear that about Mrs G, that must be really difficult for her to be dealing with a similar situation.

I know chemo is really hard on the body but I hadn’t heard about the 'exploding' possibility before. I know a woman who had cancer and she went down the alternative route with a plant remedy and I’ve been trying for weeks to remember what it was and then as chance would have it, it one day it appeared on the Mercola website.

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2018/11/07/mistletoe-extract-tumor-treatment.aspx

I’m not suggesting this for you but it does show you there are so many things out there, different options, there’s always more than one way.

So, time for a quick coffee and then launch myself into the DIY! What's making me feel better is listening to this - from the album Aquostic!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gr7FzO5aJQ

Patrycia

Greenslade

18-11-2018, 02:37 PM

Hi Mr GAnd another lovely Sunday morning it is too. The Universe and I seem to be aligning even better that we did before.

Isn't that wonderful, a few clicks of a mouse and I know that this quote came from The Secret of Spiritual Success and the context was: " If you’re not aware of your breath in any activity, you’re going too fast. Enlightenment opens in a being who demonstrates relaxation, not a rush of activity or pursuing spiritual goals."

And on this front it made me quite tearful to recollect this because I feel in some sort of disconnect at the moment. Work has been so busy, just manic, on top of a day out for training, getting my car MOT'd and serviced, some DIY which I hope to finish this morning, it's just all go, I'm constantly shattered, I've got little time to study and when I do I can't concentrate. I keep selecting 'shadow' cards from all my decks, I'm into some sort of weird phase of some sort.Part of my reputation is being so laid back I'm horizontal, that's come from the Desiderata which I read many years ago. "Go quietly amidst the haste and noise" if I remember the quote correctly, which I don't always.

If I may say, you're a person of extremes and this is the fall-out from one of your extremes. There's been an extreme intensity for you to heal your physical ailments, this Ascension stuff has been very intense and if you can find that quote with a few mouse clicks that tells you something as well. Regardless of how Spiritual we'd like to call ourselves we really can't escape our human nature - which is what I think is happening here. You've shut yourself down because enough is enough. And while we are so Spiritual, that Spirituality is pretty much useless when our heads are full because our 'real Lives' have gone to hell in a hand basket. You are never disconnected but sometimes you take yourself by the scruff of the neck and are pointed to something else so that you can process. Someone opened the top of your skull and dumped all this stuff inside it - your whole being in fact. You've got Spiritual PTSD. Forget your cards, forget your studying and deal with what presents itself at the time, deal with what comes when it comes. Your car being MOT'd and serviced means one thing less to worry about. Manage your time at work but act mindfully rather than react, otherwise you're losing control and you 're not comfortable with that. And a training day means you're in the passenger seat for a change. Is it any benefit to having all this knowledge of Matt's at your fingertips if you're not going to use it? Tolle said the same thing - alignment is the key. Align with what is.

I think it would have let me understand why I had such a problem with authority but yes, I would have carried on regardless. This is a Journey to Self and everything around you reflects that so you can see it.

The Hobbit films took me years to get to watch, because I knew they weren’t going to be as magical as the originals. Like the original Star Wars films, nothing can match them. I have no inclination to watch the latest saga.The Hobbit and LOTR are out of time, because the Hobbit is the 'history' of LOTR. Also remember that the films are very much abbreviated version and quite a lot was missed out. There was no Tom Bombadil in the LOTR movie, which ticked me off because that was the character I most wanted to see. Personally I think the Hobbit is just as magical in its own way. One of the last of the books I read was the Silmarillion, which is a kind of Middle Earth Old Testament, but knowing the ending only made me enjoy that even more. If they carry on the series it's going to be to carry on the franchise for money, and that usually ends badly. Star wars has gone the same way though, the originals were pretty good but the offshoots are pale imitations and now it seems as though they're just trying to wring out the last drops of finances.

I can completely identify with that. My parents have gone and I do have a brother who I get along well with. He doesn’t live near me at all. Trouble is I like to email him and he hates emailing as he does it all day at work and prefers to speak on the phone. And I hate speaking on the phone cos I do it during the day and when I get home I can’t cope with the phone going, so it’s turned off constantly, so hence there’s not too much communication. I do think about him a lot though. I have a cousin who I speak to several times a year. So I seem to have drifted into a situation of being disconnected, but at the same time, it also seems a very natural place for me to be. I know I’m meant to be on my own, simply because if I wasn’t, I would be with someone.It's kind of weird yet at the same time quite natural. I've had to keep my boss abreast of what's going on and the plan of attack is easy, but to explain how I'm feeling? How do you say that it's like going home at night feeling the job's done but in the context of your whole Life?

Well the first one was about my experience of the cars. And you explained about seasonal adjustment disorder coming from our ancestors and their way of life. I have heard Matt talk about the collective unconscious many times and although I understood intellectually I had not had a direct experience or anything I was aware that was a direct experience, until the car situation. Now you explaining about a seasonal adjustment disorder and me picking up on this through the collective unconscious is bringing it into my awareness and experience.

I have heard Matt, on several occasions, talk about the importance of setting an intention as a way of not being pulled into the collective unconscious. This was something I wanted to go back and watch again but have not at the time because I am busy studying his online course and I have only got up to lesson number 4 out of 10. There are a number of videos to watch within each lesson so with work and chores and everything else in between, it is taking me some time to go through it. But I imagine it will be the perfect thing over the long cold winter weekends ahead.Sorry but I couldn't help myself, you started talking about SAD then ended with saying that the course would be perfect for the long, cold winder weekends.

I don't think the collective subconsciousness is such a bad thing, I think most people tend to make enemies of what they don't understand rather than make friends of it. It's actually quite useful and I think the awareness of it being there and doing something more constructive with it is very powerful. Come time the practices you're doing now will become automatic, in the way that when you were learning to drive you were concentrating on the gears or the steering wheel, but now you don't. In time Matt's teachings (or the vibrations of) will be more integrated with the collective subconscious with your 'contribution'.

There's something called 'kamma-vipaka'. In short, 'kamma' is intention and kamma-vipaka is the results of intention.The intention of doing something out of the goodness of your heart has a very different kamma-vipaka to doing it because it's noble, just, rewarding... That's why you need to be sure of your intentions. The Seeker is always that which is sought.

I'm going to ask you two questions, the first is the trigger and the second is the realisation. I don't need the answer but I will ask that you be as brutally honest with yourself as you dare to be. The more honest you can be the greater the realisation.

"What is the Spirituality of sitting on the toilet?"

It was war time and I was in a military vehicle with other soldiers being taken off to fight. We were dropped off in a large open and flat field. Before we could take any action, we were besieged by the enemy who were shooting everyone dead with machine guns. I could see soldiers just dropping dead to the ground around me. I thought the only way I’m going to survive this is by pretending to be dead so I lay face down on the ground holding my breath. A man literally stopped beside me and I could feel the pressure growing to breath but after a few moments he walked away. I lay there for many minutes, too terrified to move but gradually I opened my eyes and slowly got up. It was completely silent; I was the only one alive, everyone else around me was dead.

I used to have that dream in my teens and into my twenties, always exactly the same. I've had exactly that dream too, recurring. It's not the dream I can't remember, perhaps it's going to stay buried for a while yet.

At the time I was a very intuitive person and highly psychic, I would be having dreams of people I hadn't met and places I hadn't been to, but that was to come in the future. I was learning that very few were like me, that few liked the truth and fewer still liked having their masks pulled off. I'd always had the feeling that I was different but couldn't come to terms with it, I didn't belong and someone put me here against my will.

The dream is a metaphor for both our Lives, and in order to stay alive we have to play dead.

It definitely wasn’t parrot-fashion because I’d not heard him say those specific words, in that order and also there was a part of my mind that was answering and interacting as I was asked ‘what are you feeling now’ so it was completely spontaneous with the conscious part of my mind interacting.

That state is also when I can have a conversation with my guides without some part of my mind interrupting.

I have also for the last few weeks been seeing the words ‘black and white’ with a gold infinity symbol and the words ‘black and white has started’.I'm brought back to Babylon 5 quotes again, we're doing Koshisms in another thread. However -

"Summoned, I take the place that has been prepared for me. I am Grey. I stand between the candle and the star. We are Grey. We stand between the darkness and the light." Delenn, All Alone in the Night
The Grey Council was the ruling body of the Minbari, and there were three threes. They has the Warrior Caste, the Religious Caste and the Worker Caste, with three members of each on the council. That represented the three main aspects of their civilisation.

You have been summoned to the place appointed to you, Patrycia Rose.

I may be released from it on an emotional level, which I do feel very differently about it. But the physical body still has some way to go.This is the third density and the lowest of them all so yes, it does take time for the physical t heal. And sometimes our hurts contribute to our on-going Spirituality.

Yep, I must admit it was a pretty spectacular experience. But it's all you.

Both I would say; I have helped her though because I do understand / know about the sorts of questions she’s asking and that I have the answers and that does help her to see the bigger picture.

There’s also a lovely man I meet when I’m out walking at lunch time, it’s quite remarkable. He’s in his 90s and in an automated wheelchair. We always stop and speak and I don’t know how we got onto the subject, but I find this happens a lot with me, we ended up speaking about spiritual matters and he says it’s something he’s never considered but I’ve told him so much about the ins and outs of all things spiritual, pointing out things that he’s experienced like the aroma of his deceased wife’s perfume that wasn’t his imagination, it’s her way of her letting him know she’s around. He’s so interested in it all, I’ve got him watching Tony Stockwell on youtube and he’s taking it all in and asks me loads of questions. It’s quite incredible really and I’m sure that somehow, all this information I’m giving him it’ll come in useful at some point to him. I just feel there’s a specific reason why we’re having these conversations. There's a saying, "When the pupil is ready the teacher will come" and I think that works both ways - when the teacher is ready the pupil will come. It's all about synchronicity and putting the right person in the right place at the right time, it's about alignment and how you're allowing the Universe to work through you - which is what Matt said. Your relationship with yourself has changed and that will reflect on your relationship with others, and your relationship with their understanding and your own. Interesting that he's in a wheelchair, not long after you saying that the physical body has some way to go. Interaction is a double-edged sword.

For them and you, you're the right person in the right place at the right time. Matt also said that Ascension is about bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness 'down' and that's exactly what you're doing. More importantly though you're bringing it down and manifesting it into this dimension by helping them understand from an experiential level. Its not some airy-fairy theory you're spouting, it's very real and tangible for them. This should help you realise another level of your own consciousness. Take the next step, Patrycia, and step outside of yourself for a few moments.

You are the reason, you are the answer looking for the question.

I’m sorry to hear that about Mrs G, that must be really difficult for her to be dealing with a similar situation.

I know chemo is really hard on the body but I hadn’t heard about the 'exploding' possibility before. I know a woman who had cancer and she went down the alternative route with a plant remedy and I’ve been trying for weeks to remember what it was and then as chance would have it, it one day it appeared on the Mercola website.

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2018/11/07/mistletoe-extract-tumor-treatment.aspx

I’m not suggesting this for you but it does show you there are so many things out there, different options, there’s always more than one way.

So, time for a quick coffee and then launch myself into the DIY! What's making me feel better is listening to this - from the album Aquostic!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gr7FzO5aJQ

PatryciaThank you. It hasn't been easy for her and last night she did her usual trick of coming down with a bang, she's been winding herself up for a long time. I went for what I was told was going to be a biopsy by the doctor but she missed the consultation part, so that's what I had on Tuesday. The surgeon says it's GastroIntestinal Stromal Tumour that's attached to the stomach tissue and it's neither benign nor malignant. It's curable, but the question for the moment is how it's attached. The biopsy will give the full picture but for now the prognosis is either keyhole surgery and a quick snip if it's attached by a stalk, or a chainsaw and stomach rebuild. It just depends on how it's attached and to what extent, and if there are spots in the surrounding tissues that might mean it's liable to start new growths in other areas. As it's not cancer the mistletoe oil may not work but thank you for your concern. I'll have a chat about it with the vet anyway to see what she says. Chamomile also cropped up as something that might help but whether it will for a Satsuma-sized tumour or not.... Guess I need this three-grand Deutsche car still, for a while anyway. I keep forgetting that Quo and the Moody Blues were contemporaries.

I found this quiet by accident one day ans sat enthralled for so many reasons, and Tubular Bells was one of the first albums I ever bought. At the time I knew I was looking for something very different and TB was it, for that time anyway. It's interesting that something like this should come around again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gy7hKcxpLlM

Patrycia-Rose

25-11-2018, 08:31 AM

Good morning Mr G

The Universe and I seem to be aligning even better that we did before.

It’s good when that happens – I do feel that more nowadays and sometimes that feeling is backed up with number sequences to confirm.

These days I can tell when I’m out of alignment as I’ll see numbers but they’re not in sequence such as 2:43. But when I’m in alignment, I’ll get 1.23, or 2.22 etc but it’s good because either way the numbers confirm where I’m at. I know where I’m at anyway but it’s the universe is agreeing with me.

If I may say, you're a person of extremes and this is the fall-out from one of your extremes. There's been an extreme intensity for you to heal your physical ailments, this Ascension stuff has been very intense and if you can find that quote with a few mouse clicks that tells you something as well. Regardless of how Spiritual we'd like to call ourselves we really can't escape our human nature - which is what I think is happening here. You've shut yourself down because enough is enough.

A few weeks back, it all started with receiving the message that ‘black and white had started’ and the next day, I was wiped out and got the message that it starts with exhaustion. And that led to a really full on week at work, with everything being as difficult and challenging as it could be. I had my car in the garage for a few days as I was having some restoration done on the old boy, so work mates were picking me up and dropping me off; which was lovely of them but I certainly realised how much I missed being able to do my own thing. I also had a few unfinished DIY jobs that I wasn’t looking forward to doing. So I fell back into old ways of being. I had several nights of really unsettling dreams and one night I woke up crying with UH’s Tomorrow’s Child going through my head. Then on Sunday when I looked up the sentence you quoted I saw that it had come from The Secret of Spiritual Success. Once I’d got the DIY done, I saw one request from my guides to take some Emergency Essence and once I did, received the message that B&W had concluded. So I was highly relieved and just sort of felt like my new, usual self again. And I sat down and listened to Matt telling me to ‘slow things down’ – love the way he says that - and could just feel all of the tension falling away and I’ve been fine this last week. So there was definitely something going on, a definite phase, and I’m back to my new normal.

It's kind of weird yet at the same time quite natural. I've had to keep my boss abreast of what's going on and the plan of attack is easy, but to explain how I'm feeling? How do you say that it's like going home at night feeling the job's done but in the context of your whole Life?

I think when you have that knowledge of this life being one of many and total knowledge of passing over etc, it takes away any fear and it’s seen as transitioning from one way of life to another, from form to energy. That information shines through in conversation and being calm about the whole thing, with a dash of humour, and other people who don’t have that knowledge, don’t know how to react.

Sorry but I couldn't help myself, you started talking about SAD then ended with saying that the course would be perfect for the long, cold winder weekends.

The course is perfect – the long cold winter weekends are not, but the perfection of the course will hopefully help balance it out.

I'm going to ask you two questions, the first is the trigger and the second is the realisation. I don't need the answer but I will ask that you be as brutally honest with yourself as you dare to be. The more honest you can be the greater the realisation.

"What is the Spirituality of sitting on the toilet?"

I don’t usually like this sort of question because it reminds me of the type of thing you get asked in school and you can bet your bottom dollar I’ll go in a direction that’s not what people are expecting the answer to be. Anyway, I will say what came into my mind when I saw the question.

The first thing that occurred to me, it felt like whoever originally asked the question felt that there was something UN spiritual about sitting on the toilet.

I think the human body is an incredible creation. You have all these automated systems such as the circulatory system, hormonal, respiratory, endocrine and renal systems etc; all of this functioning without you having to think or do anything. Then there are the senses of hearing things such as sirens warning you of danger to beautiful music, sight where you can behold the face of the person you love, horizons, countryside, sea. All of that in one human body, each with its own personality and character. I see the body as an incredible thing. So why would I see that changing when considering the elimination system? The digestive system is another incredible function. In my early twenties it did not work well for me, because of the dreadful diet I had. Contrast that with now, with only eating whole, natural and organic foods and my digestive system works smoothly and consistently. And recently one of Matt’s teachings was on gratitude for the physical body, so now my morning routine includes being grateful for the efficiency of my body. So, for me, there is much spirituality to be had in sitting on the toilet.

So, probably not the direction you were anticipating - but that’s what came to mind when you asked.

I've had exactly that dream too, recurring. It's not the dream I can't remember, perhaps it's going to stay buried for a while yet.

How would that be possible, to have the exact same dream? I can understand perhaps something with a similar theme but exactly the same?

You have been summoned to the place appointed to you, Patrycia Rose.

Crumbs, I better dust off my best denims and trainers!

This is the third density and the lowest of them all so yes, it does take time for the physical t heal. And sometimes our hurts contribute to our on-going Spirituality.

Well everything is here to help you – and I would add that you may not know how precisely until you pass over into life review. And I’m OK with that, I shall look forward to it!

I feel as if I have led a full and varied life – and I catch myself reflecting on various aspects of my past now – so in some ways I feel as if I am beginning life review now.

But it's all you.

I know what you’re saying but I don’t feel as though it was. I know this will sound cryptic but I’ve ‘seen and experienced’ enough to entertain the possibility that it may not have been.

For them and you, you're the right person in the right place at the right time. Matt also said that Ascension is about bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness 'down' and that's exactly what you're doing. More importantly though you're bringing it down and manifesting it into this dimension by helping them understand from an experiential level. Its not some airy-fairy theory you're spouting, it's very real and tangible for them. This should help you realise another level of your own consciousness.

I must admit that when I see him I feel my spirits lifting because I love answering his questions that he asks with such enthusiasm. Life death and all things spiritual is something I talk about with groundedness and confidence and also matter of factly, I guess because I have been studying and experiencing all this since I was 15. It is interesting because just recently he has spoken about a situation with his son and daughter-in-law where their two children have said that they have seen a man inside the house and they have both described him in the same way, despite seeing him on two different occasions. And of course when one of them went in to find this man there was no one there. This spirit figure was leaning over a lathe. He was telling me about it and seemed somewhat uncomfortable and a little embarrassed, not sure how I would react but I said it all seemed perfectly normal for me. I suggested to him that the energies in the house had become disturbed as a result of recent alterations. I've heard this many a time. Also fairly typical in this situation is that one parent believes in spiritual matters and the other does not. I said to him the most important thing is that they both present a united front in believing what their children are telling them. Of course I may not see him for a while so I don't know how he is getting on.

Take the next step, Patrycia, and step outside of yourself for a few moments.

What do you see as the next step and how do I step outside of myself?

Thank you. It hasn't been easy for her and last night she did her usual trick of coming down with a bang, she's been winding herself up for a long time. I went for what I was told was going to be a biopsy by the doctor but she missed the consultation part, so that's what I had on Tuesday. The surgeon says it's GastroIntestinal Stromal Tumour that's attached to the stomach tissue and it's neither benign nor malignant.

I think I may be reading this incorrectly; are they saying that at this time they don’t know if it is benign or malignant? Or it may be a bit of both? So it looks as though it’s an operation depending on further investigation.

I found this quiet by accident one day ans sat enthralled for so many reasons, and Tubular Bells was one of the first albums I ever bought. At the time I knew I was looking for something very different and TB was it, for that time anyway. It's interesting that something like this should come around again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gy7hKcxpLlM

I remember Tubular Bells but it didn’t really stay with me.

Whereas the Quo – I was introduced to them round about the same time as UH, and in some ways the two seem to go together for me. I listen to the Quo a lot as they lift my spirits if I’m feeling low, and I remember when I first heard Aquostic, the kind of unplugged version. It was on the ‘red button’ on tv. I was totally enthralled by what I was seeing and hearing; the songs so familiar to me (as I’d been singing along to them all my life) yet sounding so different. I couldn’t tear myself away and made myself late for work. I immediately got the CD and have pretty much been playing it ever since. I love comparing the original versions with the new. Just amazing really, Status Quo like Uriah Heep have been my constant companions throughout my entire life.

I’m looking forward to the day I retire. The first day I shall get up and play this at full blast:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_UwVTCjoSE

Patrycia

Greenslade

25-11-2018, 02:52 PM

Good morning Mr GGood morning Patrycia

It’s good when that happens – I do feel that more nowadays and sometimes that feeling is backed up with number sequences to confirm.

These days I can tell when I’m out of alignment as I’ll see numbers but they’re not in sequence such as 2:43. But when I’m in alignment, I’ll get 1.23, or 2.22 etc but it’s good because either way the numbers confirm where I’m at. I know where I’m at anyway but it’s the universe is agreeing with me.We're going to get there either because of or despite ourselves and really, we're never out of alignment with ourselves at the core - regardless of how far off track we think we are. The Universe is 'designed' for us to fulfil our Life's Purpose And if both science and Spirituality is to be believed it already has been.

The Universe 'thinks' in the same way your subconscious does, which is very differently to your mind. If you're dealing with something, for instance, the mind might tackle the problem in a linear fashion because the mind does so like its order but the subconscious has its own priorities. The subconscious might deal with all the small trivialities first even though one or two of them is out of sync to the mind, but that might mean but has a 'straight run' at the main issues. The Universe doesn't disagree nor agree for that matter, it just does its own thing in its own time - which can be different to how the mind might perceive the sequence of events should be.

A few weeks back, it all started with receiving the message that ‘black and white had started’ and the next day, I was wiped out and got the message that it starts with exhaustion. And that led to a really full on week at work, with everything being as difficult and challenging as it could be. I had my car in the garage for a few days as I was having some restoration done on the old boy, so work mates were picking me up and dropping me off; which was lovely of them but I certainly realised how much I missed being able to do my own thing. I also had a few unfinished DIY jobs that I wasn’t looking forward to doing. So I fell back into old ways of being. I had several nights of really unsettling dreams and one night I woke up crying with UH’s Tomorrow’s Child going through my head. Then on Sunday when I looked up the sentence you quoted I saw that it had come from The Secret of Spiritual Success. Once I’d got the DIY done, I saw one request from my guides to take some Emergency Essence and once I did, received the message that B&W had concluded. So I was highly relieved and just sort of felt like my new, usual self again. And I sat down and listened to Matt telling me to ‘slow things down’ – love the way he says that - and could just feel all of the tension falling away and I’ve been fine this last week. So there was definitely something going on, a definite phase, and I’m back to my new normal.This is one of the reasons I asked you what the Spirituality of sitting on the toilet was. We walk in two worlds and as we walk a straight line our emotions and everything else describes a sine wave. One day you're intensely Spiritual and the next your DIY and not having a car is driving you crazy. I'm not saying it's right nor wrong, it's how I perceive things with you. The Spiritual and the physical have more effect on each other than people would like to realise, and sometimes one level has to 'translate' onto the other.

Whether you see those extremes as good or bad it's entirely up to you, but sometimes your 'system' simply needs a break away from it all before it completely overloads. You need a holiday from yourself, even if that's enforced. The Universe gives us what we need and seldom what we want, it gave you the much-needed time to catch up with yourself again. The tension comes from the difference between the mind's thinking we should be somewhere else - which is 'normal' - and where we are. We are where we need to be. I've seen Spiritual people crash and burn because of the intensity of the Spirituality and it's not pretty.

I think when you have that knowledge of this life being one of many and total knowledge of passing over etc, it takes away any fear and it’s seen as transitioning from one way of life to another, from form to energy. That information shines through in conversation and being calm about the whole thing, with a dash of humour, and other people who don’t have that knowledge, don’t know how to react. I think the knowledge is one thing but actual, deep-down believing is something else. Besides that though, it's been something of a physical and emotional Journey and it's taught me a few things that I'm grateful for. I guess the main thing being that I can put my Spiritual money where my Spiritual mouth is, and that it's been in here all along.

The course is perfect – the long cold winter weekends are not, but the perfection of the course will hopefully help balance it out. The long, cold winter nights are the perfect time for the course. Also, don't forget the winter solstice is coming up so you could take some synchronicity from that. But the perfect and the imperfect have come together to create something even more perfect.

I don’t usually like this sort of question because it reminds me of the type of thing you get asked in school and you can bet your bottom dollar I’ll go in a direction that’s not what people are expecting the answer to be. Anyway, I will say what came into my mind when I saw the question.

The first thing that occurred to me, it felt like whoever originally asked the question felt that there was something UN spiritual about sitting on the toilet.

I think the human body is an incredible creation. You have all these automated systems such as the circulatory system, hormonal, respiratory, endocrine and renal systems etc; all of this functioning without you having to think or do anything. Then there are the senses of hearing things such as sirens warning you of danger to beautiful music, sight where you can behold the face of the person you love, horizons, countryside, sea. All of that in one human body, each with its own personality and character. I see the body as an incredible thing. So why would I see that changing when considering the elimination system? The digestive system is another incredible function. In my early twenties it did not work well for me, because of the dreadful diet I had. Contrast that with now, with only eating whole, natural and organic foods and my digestive system works smoothly and consistently. And recently one of Matt’s teachings was on gratitude for the physical body, so now my morning routine includes being grateful for the efficiency of my body. So, for me, there is much spirituality to be had in sitting on the toilet.

So, probably not the direction you were anticipating - but that’s what came to mind when you asked.I was wrestling with an issue I'd read about on the forum, sometimes at work I have time when my mind can wander. Anyway, I;d been thinking this through and getting myself into knots when my Guide asked me that question. My mind went ballistic until I suddenly realised what was happening. The question has little to do with the answer because everyone will have their own answer - that's the point. The aim of the question though is to take a realisation from it, that this is how you think whatever your answer may be.

Most would simply dismiss the question out of hand - which says everything about their Spirituality but you've gone into it in quite a lot of detail and wondered at the whole amazing bit of kit the human body is. I'd actually very much agree with you but in short I'd also say that if it wasn't for the human body and everything else in that 'package', your Spirituality would come to an abrupt halt. I wasn't actually anticipating anything because your answer is not for me, it's for you.

How would that be possible, to have the exact same dream? I can understand perhaps something with a similar theme but exactly the same?Our brains aren't actually that far away - nobody's is really. Our brains have been designed to process information and they do that in a fundamentally similar way and often those with similar Life experiences have the same dreams. Dreams also connect to parts of ourselves that our conscious minds simply can't. For instance, in your dreams you might end up talking to your Higher Self as though you're besties, while your consciousness might not even know you had one. Similarly we have things inside us that we have yet to uncover as far as the conscious mind is concerned but the subconscious has always known. And remember that dreams are the subconscious' way to communicate with the conscious.

Time and again throughout this conversation we've had certain similarities, even though for most of your Life you've felt so different from everybody else. You're very much the stranger in the strange land, the one that's never really integrated into this density or whatever else Old Souls usually do. You're not the only one I've talked to that's had this very dream.

Crumbs, I better dust off my best denims and trainers! You can if you like but they'll get left behind.

Well everything is here to help you – and I would add that you may not know how precisely until you pass over into life review. And I’m OK with that, I shall look forward to it!

I feel as if I have led a full and varied life – and I catch myself reflecting on various aspects of my past now – so in some ways I feel as if I am beginning life review now.We're never going to get all the answers because I doubt they'll do us much good anyway, so perhaps faith and feelings are all we have left sometimes. Which isn't such a bad thing after all, better than confusion anyway.

The bottom line is that this is a Journey to Self, if you like he more poetic Spirituality. For me it's more about closure because it feels as though I;m closing things down and nailing everything down tight, it's not so much a Life review - although it's happening - but more of a bringing things to a conclusion. There's no thought of "Well maybe in the next Life I can try..." it's more of a job done, nailed down and no next.

I know what you’re saying but I don’t feel as though it was. I know this will sound cryptic but I’ve ‘seen and experienced’ enough to entertain the possibility that it may not have been.IKf that's your experience, so be it.

I must admit that when I see him I feel my spirits lifting because I love answering his questions that he asks with such enthusiasm. Life death and all things spiritual is something I talk about with groundedness and confidence and also matter of factly, I guess because I have been studying and experiencing all this since I was 15. It is interesting because just recently he has spoken about a situation with his son and daughter-in-law where their two children have said that they have seen a man inside the house and they have both described him in the same way, despite seeing him on two different occasions. And of course when one of them went in to find this man there was no one there. This spirit figure was leaning over a lathe. He was telling me about it and seemed somewhat uncomfortable and a little embarrassed, not sure how I would react but I said it all seemed perfectly normal for me. I suggested to him that the energies in the house had become disturbed as a result of recent alterations. I've heard this many a time. Also fairly typical in this situation is that one parent believes in spiritual matters and the other does not. I said to him the most important thing is that they both present a united front in believing what their children are telling them. Of course I may not see him for a while so I don't know how he is getting on.That seems to answer the whole 'why are you there' question, it's for the kids firstly and how the adults play their roles. The main thing you've hit on already, that they show a united front in dealing with the kids. If one is Spiritual and the other one isn't really doesn't matter as the individual will deal with it on there own basis but the united front is one key. The main one though is to remember that what the kids are expressing is real to them, and if the parents start denying their reality it can mess with he kids' heads. The man is real to the kids and the parents saying there is no man can skew the kids' cognitive perceptions and doubt their own reality. That strains their self esteem and paradigm, and that stays with them for a long time.

There are psychological reasons for this happening if you want some non-Spiritual common ground that won't mess with the kids' heads. Also bear in mind though that any conflict here will affect the kids in some way, and if they have abilities that are manifesting those might be affected also. Depending on how old the kids are, hormones can play their parts too, and don't forget group psychosis between the siblings. Sometimes the best Spiritual course is to not deal with it from a Spiritual perspective so that it can be 'smoothed out' and things can happen naturally with the least amount of fuss.

What do you see as the next step and how do I step outside of myself?Who has these thoughts, these beliefs?

Tolle said that there is only the Now, the past is memory and the future is expectation. You're dreading the cold, dark nights but looking forwards to the course - light and dark, and either way you have expectations of the course and everything else around that. Those expectations are generated by the mind but there's a part of you that's fully in alignment with what IS, right here right now. There are parts of your physical Life that have to be taken care of so that when the time is right, you'll be where you need to be and doing what you need to be doing. Yep, getting your car restored is a pain but it's necessary, even if only for your peace of mind. So there's a part of you that finds relying on your friends a pain, but at the same time has the Universe put that in place for you so you don't have to catch a bus? There's a 'you' that is OK with that and comes to its own realisations that, if you weren't gritting your teeth, could be a very different experience for you.

You are not your experiences and your experiences are not you, you are not the one they happen to and you are not the one they happen because of. While you're looking forwards to the course and dark nights, there's also a part of you that's already there. The point is though that once you know it's there, you get to choose which perspective you prefer at any given moment.

I think I may be reading this incorrectly; are they saying that at this time they don’t know if it is benign or malignant? Or it may be a bit of both? So it looks as though it’s an operation depending on further investigation. For the moment I'm going to wait until after the endoscopy and biopsy on the 10th because they don't have a full picture at the moment. All he said as that it's neither malignant nor benign, and no doubt things will change after they've had a look-see. It's going to be an operation though, but how much of a one remains to be seen and it won't happen until after Christmas.

I remember Tubular Bells but it didn’t really stay with me.

Whereas the Quo – I was introduced to them round about the same time as UH, and in some ways the two seem to go together for me. I listen to the Quo a lot as they lift my spirits if I’m feeling low, and I remember when I first heard Aquostic, the kind of unplugged version. It was on the ‘red button’ on tv. I was totally enthralled by what I was seeing and hearing; the songs so familiar to me (as I’d been singing along to them all my life) yet sounding so different. I couldn’t tear myself away and made myself late for work. I immediately got the CD and have pretty much been playing it ever since. I love comparing the original versions with the new. Just amazing really, Status Quo like Uriah Heep have been my constant companions throughout my entire life.

I’m looking forward to the day I retire. The first day I shall get up and play this at full blast:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_UwVTCjoSE

PatryciaAs Kate Bush said, "Some say hell is heaven, some say heaven is hell."

It's actually interesting how much the music we like reflects our Lives and often what's going on in our heads at the time. I had this thing about 'dismantling' music, listening to individual instruments then putting it all back together again. I guess that's where my Gestalt Reality comes from. Similarly with music. But if there is one track to play at full blast on retirement day, both physically and Spiritually.......
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4L8L43GieE

Patrycia-Rose

02-12-2018, 08:40 AM

Hello Mr G,

What a blustery old week, in more ways that one!

Whether you see those extremes as good or bad it's entirely up to you, but sometimes your 'system' simply needs a break away from it all before it completely overloads. You need a holiday from yourself, even if that's enforced. The Universe gives us what we need and seldom what we want, it gave you the much-needed time to catch up with yourself again. The tension comes from the difference between the mind's thinking we should be somewhere else - which is 'normal' - and where we are. We are where we need to be. I've seen Spiritual people crash and burn because of the intensity of the Spirituality and it's not pretty.

I would say I was far more into ‘spiritual’ things years ago, looking into pretty much all spiritual hands on things, down Glastonbury most weekends, meeting with the spirit guide every Sunday, all with great expectations that the next thing was going to be the spiritual path / my destiny. All very innocent really but I gave that up that way of thinking many years ago. I realise now I don’t have a spiritual path, I AM the spiritual path, so I’ve already done the crash and burn thing to some extent. And I needed to explore all that spiritual stuff to realise that Matt’s way is where it is at.

I think the knowledge is one thing but actual, deep-down believing is something else. Besides that though, it's been something of a physical and emotional Journey and it's taught me a few things that I'm grateful for. I guess the main thing being that I can put my Spiritual money where my Spiritual mouth is, and that it's been in here all along.

You definitely can, and maybe this experience confirms to you, that not just has it been there all along but it’s now in motion.

Do you think that kind of approach comes with experience and age? Would you have had that approach say in your in your early forties?

The long, cold winter nights are the perfect time for the course. Also, don't forget the winter solstice is coming up so you could take some synchronicity from that. But the perfect and the imperfect have come together to create something even more perfect.

I’ve never really been into astrology, solstice etc. What’s the synchronicity of the solstice or is that for me to make?

The question has little to do with the answer because everyone will have their own answer - that's the point. The aim of the question though is to take a realisation from it, that this is how you think whatever your answer may be.

I'd actually very much agree with you but in short I'd also say that if it wasn't for the human body and everything else in that 'package', your Spirituality would come to an abrupt halt. .

OK, so I’m a tad confused. I understand the first bit that this is an example of how I think which I would say was considered, detailed and respectful of the question as well as actually combining both the physical and spiritual aspects.

But the second part, you’re saying that if I didn’t have a physical body, my spirituality would come to an abrupt halt? If I didn’t have a physical body, I’d be in spirit in which case the question would be irrelevant. Or am I missing something?

Time and again throughout this conversation we've had certain similarities, even though for most of your Life you've felt so different from everybody else. You're very much the stranger in the strange land, the one that's never really integrated into this density or whatever else Old Souls usually do. You're not the only one I've talked to that's had this very dream.

Ah, so actually those who’ve had this dream could be tapping into the collective unconscious?

You can if you like but they'll get left behind.

OK, so where am I going?

We're never going to get all the answers because I doubt they'll do us much good anyway, so perhaps faith and feelings are all we have left sometimes. Which isn't such a bad thing after all, better than confusion anyway.

I think that’s true of understanding life experiences, or rather not understanding life experiences on the earth plane – but once we get over to spirit, we are going to have the bigger picture and my trauma, from where I’m at now, is going to be what I will be most interested to have that bigger picture. It happened, I accept that. Why it happened, I don’t know and I can only guess at why, and it won’t be accurate. Everything is here to help you – I accept that. But, this is what I was saying, I don’t know how - which is why I need to wait until life review, unless the answers come to me later in this lifetime. But isn’t that an ego thing, to want to understand, rather than just accepting it as divine will? (that thought has only occurred to me now as I type).

That seems to answer the whole 'why are you there' question, it's for the kids firstly and how the adults play their roles. The main thing you've hit on already, that they show a united front in dealing with the kids. If one is Spiritual and the other one isn't really doesn't matter as the individual will deal with it on there own basis but the united front is one key. The main one though is to remember that what the kids are expressing is real to them, and if the parents start denying their reality it can mess with he kids' heads. The man is real to the kids and the parents saying there is no man can skew the kids' cognitive perceptions and doubt their own reality. That strains their self esteem and paradigm, and that stays with them for a long time.

Yes, I thought that, I’ve pretty much been through all the above with him. I hope to see him again but with winter here, I’ve not seen him for a while. I’d like to think maybe next Spring, but with him being well into his nineties, can’t be assured. I hope that when his time comes, he’ll be at peace with the process and all the information I’ve given him will be of comfort.

You are not your experiences and your experiences are not you, you are not the one they happen to and you are not the one they happen because of. While you're looking forwards to the course and dark nights, there's also a part of you that's already there. The point is though that once you know it's there, you get to choose which perspective you prefer at any given moment.

I get all that, and I am there on occasion, but I have 55 years of conditioning and slowly it is changing but it takes time, experiencing from the old way versus the new way and it needs patience and understanding.

It has been a very interesting week of experiencing:

I had for the time being, the last session of Reiki on Wednesday. I’ve had no improvements in anything albeit a very interesting experience, particularly this last session. Given that I had been up since 5.45 that day, busy day at work, and the appointment was not until 5 pm followed by a long drive home in the dark and rain, I decided to go for a quick coffee and cake to keep me going. As I was walking through town and also in the coffee shop and to some extent during the appointment, I had the Strongest sense of my mother; stronger that I’ve ever felt someone’s presence. I don’t know if that was just in support of what I was doing, or if she is getting ready to depart. But it was incredibly strong. The memory of that experience keeps coming back to me, it was so so strong.

The other thing that the therapist said is that my left hip felt very hot and that, some thing, I can’t remember the exact word, was wrapped around further than it should be. But the right hip was fine. So that led me to think that from years of walking awkwardly, a mechanical problem has developed, so I’m now thinking that in the New Year a chiropractor may be able to help.

Also, it has been notable this week, like the number of times this has happened, that I have helped quite a few people. There have been two people I have helped with childcare / adoption situations, someone else who has been experiencing arthritis in the hands to quite a significant extent has been helped remarkably with a tuning fork I had lent them; they were really pleased with the difference in the movement of their hands, someone else with issues with his uncle and then the number of people I'd helped this week trickled into my consciousness when, yesterday morning I was in the supermarket, and found a chap in his 80s searching for a brand of biscuits. He was completely in the wrong aisle and I was out of my depth as I haven’t eaten biscuits in 20 years but we spent ten minutes searching and eventually found them so he was happy. And I just thought of Matt talking about shining your light.

For the moment I'm going to wait until after the endoscopy and biopsy on the 10th because they don't have a full picture at the moment. All he said as that it's neither malignant nor benign, and no doubt things will change after they've had a look-see. It's going to be an operation though, but how much of a one remains to be seen and it won't happen until after Christmas.

Bit of a waiting game at the moment; which can give you time to process.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v4L8L43GieE

Epic song that one.

Did you do the electronic thing, as in ….?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=viOAiUH0T1Q

Have several of their albums which I got on CD when I sold my vinyl.

Patrycia

Greenslade

02-12-2018, 04:21 PM

Hello Mr G,

What a blustery old week, in more ways that one!Hi Patrycia

It's December so it's melancholy time in so many ways, and I need that right now.

I would say I was far more into ‘spiritual’ things years ago, looking into pretty much all spiritual hands on things, down Glastonbury most weekends, meeting with the spirit guide every Sunday, all with great expectations that the next thing was going to be the spiritual path / my destiny. All very innocent really but I gave that up that way of thinking many years ago. I realise now I don’t have a spiritual path, I AM the spiritual path, so I’ve already done the crash and burn thing to some extent. And I needed to explore all that spiritual stuff to realise that Matt’s way is where it is at.I guess it depends on what your definition of Spiritual is really, and your definition of Path - and what constitutes 'you' for that matter. You also did another 'crash and burn' because of the intensity of what you were going through, and how much of that was what you were putting yourself through?

I'm not trying to say you're wrong, that things weren't the way you perceived them to be because all that will do is tick you off. Go back to when this all really kicked off and to the time when you really took Matt's teachings top heart. That you can find Matt's quote at the click of a mouse tells you something. The reason you were 'switched off' from Spirituality for a time was because you needed a break from the intensity that came before it.

So, what does the word 'enlightenment' mean to you?

This is where we're going to part company a little. I can understand where you're coming from in saying that Matt's way is where it's at, but it's not for me. Matt's way is Matt's way and I am not Matt. A little poetically, Matt's footprints were with mine for a time and to be honest I am grateful for his understandings at the time, but this for me has always been a Journey to Self.

You definitely can, and maybe this experience confirms to you, that not just has it been there all along but it’s now in motion.

Do you think that kind of approach comes with experience and age? Would you have had that approach say in your in your early forties? Which is pretty cool for me because I've never really considered myself as Spiritual. It was actually somewhere around my forties that I took any real interest in Spirituality. I'd read a couple of books when I was around 18 years old but they went over my head at the time, and living in a one-horse town didn't help because I had nobody to talk to. If I'm going to use a description I'm Gnostic, which basically means that you know without knowing how you know. It's always felt as though there was something in motion even as a youngster and it started unfolding when I was in my forties or so. It's the depth that comes with age I suppose and the 'drilling down' through the layers of dust we put onto ourselves. Drill some, process it, drill some more...

I’ve never really been into astrology, solstice etc. What’s the synchronicity of the solstice or is that for me to make? Synchronicites are almost always personal, however... Back in the day our ancestors would have 'retreated' from the outside world as much as possible, and this time of year would have been a dark time in so many ways. It would have been pretty black. If you have Seasonal Adjustment Disorder does that mean you still have something ancestral in there? What you're looking forwards to doing is... pretty white - gaining knowledge, understandings...

I don't have anything to do with astrology either but as far as I'm concerned the Solstices have nothing to do with that, it's all about earth energies and how we are connected to them.

OK, so I’m a tad confused. I understand the first bit that this is an example of how I think which I would say was considered, detailed and respectful of the question as well as actually combining both the physical and spiritual aspects.

But the second part, you’re saying that if I didn’t have a physical body, my spirituality would come to an abrupt halt? If I didn’t have a physical body, I’d be in spirit in which case the question would be irrelevant. Or am I missing something? The whole point of the question is not to come to some kind of ultimate conclusion, the aim is to stimulate the old brain cells a little. Any answer you come up with is the answer.

So, we're both OK with the first bit. That at least brings some understanding about how the physical and Spiritual are not separate at all but only from the perspective of focus. That brings you back to what you were saying about your Spirituality grinding to a halt and having to concentrate on getting your car fixed - and all the other stuff that happened at the time. And also the synchronicity of the Solstice and your reading. If you think of cycles or waves it makes so much more sense.

As for the second part it's all about beliefs, and again there are no real answers other than your own. As Spirit are we Spiritual or not? Are we only Spiritual because we're here with a body, or are we Spiritual all the time? If what's been projected onto Spirit is true then what are you doing here? As Spirit you have access to the collective consciousness and all of that, so Matt's head is already inside yours. If we are Spiritual all the time then aren't we just as Spiritual when we're not Spiritual? And yes, to me it does become a lot of confusing nonsense.

Right here right now, regardless of any other definitions we are here in human bodies being Spiritual. What does that tell you?

Ah, so actually those who’ve had this dream could be tapping into the collective unconscious? Pretty much, yes. What I've found is that there are people who seem to use the same themes over and over, sometimes the descriptions vary but the underlying theme remain the same. Being dumped in a bare field, the desert, feeling alone and abandoned..... All very common to a certain group of people. Another common word is "Home'. All those are the expressions of the same consciousnesses/energy 'signatures' or collective consciousness.

OK, so where am I going? To where you've always been, to where you've never left. Yeah I know, annoyingly cryptic. Dorothy had to go to Oz to find out that it was in her back yard all along.

I think that’s true of understanding life experiences, or rather not understanding life experiences on the earth plane – but once we get over to spirit, we are going to have the bigger picture and my trauma, from where I’m at now, is going to be what I will be most interested to have that bigger picture. It happened, I accept that. Why it happened, I don’t know and I can only guess at why, and it won’t be accurate. Everything is here to help you – I accept that. But, this is what I was saying, I don’t know how - which is why I need to wait until life review, unless the answers come to me later in this lifetime. But isn’t that an ego thing, to want to understand, rather than just accepting it as divine will? (that thought has only occurred to me now as I type).You did know that you were Gnostic too, didn't you?

The egoic (not a swear word) mind looks for rhymes and reasons, it has the need to understand as if it's trying to justify its existence, and if it didn't have that justification it would wink out of existence. It needs to understand as you say. You're stepping out of the egoic mind in accepting that it's there. So the next understanding is what are the reasons you accept, and what is divine will to you? If your acceptance is because it's the Spiritual thing to do, or is it because somewhere inside you're genuinely accepting of it? And what is divine will, and is it separate from your own will? And if so, did this happen to you or did it happen because of you? And if you are not your experiences and your experiences are not you, whose trauma is it that you're experiencing?

You are the answer looking for the question.

Yes, I thought that, I’ve pretty much been through all the above with him. I hope to see him again but with winter here, I’ve not seen him for a while. I’d like to think maybe next Spring, but with him being well into his nineties, can’t be assured. I hope that when his time comes, he’ll be at peace with the process and all the information I’ve given him will be of comfort. Don't underestimate what you've done already. You've acknowledged the stuff in his head and that most likely stops him from feeling as though he's losing it. It's a huge confirmation for him and that alone can turn things around for him. That alone is probably worth more than everything else you've said.

I get all that, and I am there on occasion, but I have 55 years of conditioning and slowly it is changing but it takes time, experiencing from the old way versus the new way and it needs patience and understanding.

It has been a very interesting week of experiencing:

I had for the time being, the last session of Reiki on Wednesday. I’ve had no improvements in anything albeit a very interesting experience, particularly this last session. Given that I had been up since 5.45 that day, busy day at work, and the appointment was not until 5 pm followed by a long drive home in the dark and rain, I decided to go for a quick coffee and cake to keep me going. As I was walking through town and also in the coffee shop and to some extent during the appointment, I had the Strongest sense of my mother; stronger that I’ve ever felt someone’s presence. I don’t know if that was just in support of what I was doing, or if she is getting ready to depart. But it was incredibly strong. The memory of that experience keeps coming back to me, it was so so strong.

The other thing that the therapist said is that my left hip felt very hot and that, some thing, I can’t remember the exact word, was wrapped around further than it should be. But the right hip was fine. So that led me to think that from years of walking awkwardly, a mechanical problem has developed, so I’m now thinking that in the New Year a chiropractor may be able to help.

Also, it has been notable this week, like the number of times this has happened, that I have helped quite a few people. There have been two people I have helped with childcare / adoption situations, someone else who has been experiencing arthritis in the hands to quite a significant extent has been helped remarkably with a tuning fork I had lent them; they were really pleased with the difference in the movement of their hands, someone else with issues with his uncle and then the number of people I'd helped this week trickled into my consciousness when, yesterday morning I was in the supermarket, and found a chap in his 80s searching for a brand of biscuits. He was completely in the wrong aisle and I was out of my depth as I haven’t eaten biscuits in 20 years but we spent ten minutes searching and eventually found them so he was happy. And I just thought of Matt talking about shining your light.
Time takes time to pass, so be gentle with yourself when your Spiritual brakes are on too.

Your state of mind at the time has more of an impact than you might imagine at the time - so remember that when you're doing your dark nights learning. It can often open up other areas of your awareness and consciousness because of the shift in focus - when your mind is unfocussed because of being up since 5.45 and detaching from the rain and wind other aspects can come through. Like your mother's presence, possibly what happened is a shift to a psychic or beyond-the-mind part of you. There will be a reason for it being there, perhaps it's trying to tell you something.

Old age doesn't come on its own as they say. Strange that we spoke at length about dodgy hips though, and the healing of them. Something else that's going to be 'fixed' in the new year.

There's something special in helping people in small ways, because it's those small and subtle ways that can make all the difference to someone's Life - and perhaps it wasn't just the biscuits that you helped them find when you took the time out to help. The biscuits were obviously important enough to him. But sometimes we're walking so fast that we're not listening to our breathing, sometimes we're rushing so fast to become Spiritual that we're not realising how Spirituality is happening all around us, whether we're aware of it or not.

Bit of a waiting game at the moment; which can give you time to process.I really don't feel as though I have anything to process right now, but it feels a though it has to play itself out though for other people. Mrs G won't settle until the fat lady sings and it's brought out some other things too with my friends and boss. They're shocked at work - "But he's never sick" as they said to Mrs G.

Epic song that one.

Did you do the electronic thing, as in ….?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=viOAiUH0T1Q

Have several of their albums which I got on CD when I sold my vinyl.

PatryciaNOoooo Take it away. Have you no shame at all?:hug3: I'd forgotten that one and what it meant to me at the time, it seemed to touch something inside and made sense out of so many things. I was in the RAF at the time and felt as though I was a number. "I am not a number, I am a free man."It's kinda difficult to say much about that, it's a choice between saying nothing and saying so much.

Patrycia-Rose

09-12-2018, 08:24 AM

Morning Mr G,

What an extraordinary week! More about that later.

I'm not trying to say you're wrong, that things weren't the way you perceived them to be because all that will do is tick you off. Go back to when this all really kicked off and to the time when you really took Matt's teachings to heart. That you can find Matt's quote at the click of a mouse tells you something. The reason you were 'switched off' from Spirituality for a time was because you needed a break from the intensity that came before it.

I still take his teachings to heart, because the ‘wow’ moments are still happening and what is notable for me is that my guides like to join in. A few weeks back, I was sitting relaxing when I got this message that ‘you will have the answer soon’. And I thought OK, the answer to what, I would have many questions. I put it out of my mind and later thought I feel in the mood for watching one of the videos from the course as they’re about 20 minutes or so. And one of the topics was when something occurs in life that you feel is ‘unfair’. Now, there’s a situation at work which has always felt vastly unfair to me. And the explanation came that this is grinding down the ego and a few insights on how to view this. It was Sooo useful to me and of course then I remembered my guides saying about having the answer!

The fact that I can find a quote at the click of a mouse tells me that I’ve been studying, learning and noting like I would any subject I was earnest about learning. I can’t carry around in my head all those teachings, much as I would like to. I feel them - but if I want a quick reminder what he said about something, or a particular subject, then I just fire up the laptop, control and f, put in a few key words and hey presto, I’ve got it.

That kind of methodical detail is also something that is valued at work by my managers.

So, what does the word 'enlightenment' mean to you?

Nothing really - other than it being a word that is banded around spiritual communities as something supposedly desirable to be achieved. I’m not particularly interested in whether I am enlightened or not, whether I reach enlightenment or not. I’m me, I’m doing OK and I’m not concerned about a word I consider to be part of the old paradigm.

This is where we're going to part company a little. I can understand where you're coming from in saying that Matt's way is where it's at, but it's not for me. Matt's way is Matt's way and I am not Matt. A little poetically, Matt's footprints were with mine for a time and to be honest I am grateful for his understandings at the time, but this for me has always been a Journey to Self.

To have introduced him to me you must have been watching for some time before me and you’ll have different mindset and experiences, so if you feel you’ve gained enough, that’s fine. It’s what resonates with you and we’re all different.

I agree that it is about a journey to self but I had reached a point in my life where I guess I had reached stalemate. I’d had my experiences, I had my views about them which hadn’t shifted in ten years, my parents had gone, there was nothing more I wanted to do in life and I didn’t see much point in being here. Every year my journal would start off with the line … ‘same **** different year.’ This had gone on for about ten years or so; at one point I had started to cross myself over before I got forcibly and spiritually pushed back. So yes, a journey to self – and this is where Matt’s teachings have worked so poetically for me, they have shown me HOW to take a journey to self, he has given me meanings, explanations, examples that I can see in myself, with (for me) the all important details and how to have a different view, a different experience – it’s suddenly all fitting together. So, his teachings have changed my life. It’s only been during the last year, due to that ‘personal interaction’, I’ve been able to forgive those involved in my trauma. I would never have thought that possible as I’d looked at many methods, techniques, videos on forgiveness but nothing worked but now, here we are. And how that interaction happened, when I stop and think about it, seems incredulous, the timing and synchronicity of it; it’s something I’ll never forget.

As for the second part it's all about beliefs, and again there are no real answers other than your own. As Spirit are we Spiritual or not? Are we only Spiritual because we're here with a body, or are we Spiritual all the time? If what's been projected onto Spirit is true then what are you doing here? As Spirit you have access to the collective consciousness and all of that, so Matt's head is already inside yours. If we are Spiritual all the time then aren't we just as Spiritual when we're not Spiritual? And yes, to me it does become a lot of confusing nonsense.

We’re spiritual all the time because as The Police once said we’re ‘spirits in the material world.’

You did know that you were Gnostic too, didn't you?

I’d accept that but not really labelled it as such. I think my ‘knowing’ comes to the fore when helping other people; if they talk to me about whatever’s bothering them, I get a feeling from their words, their tone of voice and also where the issues are, like I can tell them why the person who is the subject of their angst/concern is acting/behaving that way – even though I’ve never met, talked to them. It’s become stronger last several years – but I just think that’s me, intuitive, empathic. Don’t know if that is what you call Gnostic?

Old age doesn't come on its own as they say. Strange that we spoke at length about dodgy hips though, and the healing of them. Something else that's going to be 'fixed' in the new year.

Oh yes, well spotted! Fortunately I’m not in any pain with it it’s more of a balance/co-ordination issue. I’ve found someone local to me so will look to do that in the new year (so we'll both be attempting to sort our hips in the new year!)

At the moment, I’m dealing with the aftermath of having a severe exposure to my phobia. A situation at work that I knew was going to happen and had planned how I was going to tackle it fell at the first hurdle when there was a change to the planning. A steady stream of me trying to cope and just getting more and more destabilised and upset with each hour until I decided to go home and work there. A very supportive manager who is aware of the situation, and a plan is in place to switch between wfh and going in whilst the situation at work completes. The physical impact like headaches, nausea, exhaustion, nightmares etc all from exposure to the situation, is going to take a while to settle. Last time this happened which was 2013 it took a good couple of years for it to settle. This situation wasn’t as bad, although there were other factors at play which didn’t help, but the physical and emotional impact of the fear is so de-stabilising. I’ve had so much trauma in my life, I feel as though I must be single handedly clearing fear from the collective!

But Matt’s just released a new video called ‘we are the light’ and as I watched it on Wednesday night, I could feel my energies lifting, it felt so soothing and right. As he was speaking, it occurred to me, that I never turned away from the light during this last week, blamed or got angry with anything or anyone. I still knew I was the light, so I was quite chuffed with myself when I realised that.

There have been some interesting things to come out of it, two very supportive managers who have been happy for me to lead the way in what I feel comfortable in doing. That would have been a million lightyears away in my previous place, as is the ability to work from home. Also, mostly everyone at work knows something is up and people have been coming up to me asking if I’m OK, people have been helping me, particulalry some of the people that I’ve helped in the past, so I thought of you saying that would be the universe reflecting back to me.

NOoooo Take it away. Have you no shame at all?:hug3: I'd forgotten that one and what it meant to me at the time, it seemed to touch something inside and made sense out of so many things. I was in the RAF at the time and felt as though I was a number. "I am not a number, I am a free man."It's kinda difficult to say much about that, it's a choice between saying nothing and saying so much.

None at all! I love New Musik, so different at the time, musically and lyrically. Having got three of their albums there’s some pretty good stuff on there, I posted that one because it’s probably their most well-known track.

I love all kinds of music and I have a pretty eclectic CD collection from Uriah Heep to Mozart, Beethoven, Level 42, Quo, Enya, Chris de Burgh, Diana Krall, Michael Buble, Genesis, ELO, Jarre, Prefab Sprout, George Michael, Medwyn Goodall, Jack Savoretti, Anugama, Nik Kershaw. I’ve got somewhere in the region of about 300 CDs. As John Miles once said ‘music is my first love’!

Patrycia

Greenslade

09-12-2018, 01:04 PM

Morning Mr G,

What an extraordinary week! More about that later.[/Good morning Patrycia

It's been interesting for sure.

I still take his teachings to heart, because the ‘wow’ moments are still happening and what is notable for me is that my guides like to join in. A few weeks back, I was sitting relaxing when I got this message that ‘you will have the answer soon’. And I thought OK, the answer to what, I would have many questions. I put it out of my mind and later thought I feel in the mood for watching one of the videos from the course as they’re about 20 minutes or so. And one of the topics was when something occurs in life that you feel is ‘unfair’. Now, there’s a situation at work which has always felt vastly unfair to me. And the explanation came that this is grinding down the ego and a few insights on how to view this. It was Sooo useful to me and of course then I remembered my guides saying about having the answer!

The fact that I can find a quote at the click of a mouse tells me that I’ve been studying, learning and noting like I would any subject I was earnest about learning. I can’t carry around in my head all those teachings, much as I would like to. I feel them - but if I want a quick reminder what he said about something, or a particular subject, then I just fire up the laptop, control and f, put in a few key words and hey presto, I’ve got it.

That kind of methodical detail is also something that is valued at work by my managers.This came from you telling me about how your Spirituality had become a little 'becalmed'. Really it was about giving yourself a break Spiritually and remembering that there were other aspects of your Life that also needed attention at that time. I w2asn't criticising the fact that you have all this knowledge on the end of a mouse, what I was trying to point out was that You could have been heading for a Spiritual crash-and-burn, and often they're not pretty. You're quite the polarised energy person so a high energy period of Spirituality needs an equal measure of downtime.

Nothing really - other than it being a word that is banded around spiritual communities as something supposedly desirable to be achieved. I’m not particularly interested in whether I am enlightened or not, whether I reach enlightenment or not. I’m me, I’m doing OK and I’m not concerned about a word I consider to be part of the old paradigm.It means many things to many people, but the irony is that if you aren't that interested in being enlightened you already are enlightened.

To have introduced him to me you must have been watching for some time before me and you’ll have different mindset and experiences, so if you feel you’ve gained enough, that’s fine. It’s what resonates with you and we’re all different.

I agree that it is about a journey to self but I had reached a point in my life where I guess I had reached stalemate. I’d had my experiences, I had my views about them which hadn’t shifted in ten years, my parents had gone, there was nothing more I wanted to do in life and I didn’t see much point in being here. Every year my journal would start off with the line … ‘same **** different year.’ This had gone on for about ten years or so; at one point I had started to cross myself over before I got forcibly and spiritually pushed back. So yes, a journey to self – and this is where Matt’s teachings have worked so poetically for me, they have shown me HOW to take a journey to self, he has given me meanings, explanations, examples that I can see in myself, with (for me) the all important details and how to have a different view, a different experience – it’s suddenly all fitting together. So, his teachings have changed my life. It’s only been during the last year, due to that ‘personal interaction’, I’ve been able to forgive those involved in my trauma. I would never have thought that possible as I’d looked at many methods, techniques, videos on forgiveness but nothing worked but now, here we are. And how that interaction happened, when I stop and think about it, seems incredulous, the timing and synchronicity of it; it’s something I’ll never forget. The more we're different the more we're the same. Mrs G says I;m so laid back I'm horizontal and this comes across in my Spirituality too. But then I guess our definitions of Spirituality are different.

"The temple of the most high begins with the body which houses our life, the essence of our existence. Africans are in bondage today because they approach spirituality through religion provided by foreign invaders and conquerors. We must stop confusing religion and spirituality. Religion is a set of rules, regulations and rituals created by humans, which was suppose to help people grow spiritually. Due to human imperfection religion has become corrupt, political, divisive and a tool for power struggle. Spirituality is not theology or ideology. It is simply a way of life, pure and original as was given by the Most High of Creation. Spirituality is a network linking us to the Most High, the universe, and each other…”
Haile Selassie

While Matt's teachings have been important they haven't had the importance that you've placed on your relationship with him. I can understands where you're coming from and I can understand where I;m coming from and understand the dichotomy between you and me. Matt's teachings came at a time when I really needed them and in many ways I could have written close to everything you've said here. The only real difference is in the relationship with the material but for me that brings its own understanding. To me, Matt has never been a tutor or a mentor, he's been more of a compatriot. THE first video of Matt's was about the First Wave of Ascension, I was never a fan of this Ascension malarkey but something inside almost compelled me to watch it. And I was glad I did because he was telling me what I was going through and it came at a time when I was about ready to lose it, quite frankly. What I get from the vids is that they seem to be a confirmation that I'm headed in the right general direction. At the same time i feel as if I have a job to do and I need to be a certain person at a certain level to do what I need to do, and becoming too engrossed with the teachings is going to take something away from that task. At the same time though, it's nice to know that I'm resonating at that level of consciousness. I can relax.

I can't remember which one in particular but I was watching one of Matt's vids and he was doing an affirmation. I never do them because it makes me feel like a complete wally but i was soaking up what he was saying. My experiences didn't define me any more and I wasn't the one who was having these beliefs. And while they came from 'somewhere else' that 'somewhere else' was still 'me'. But not. I feel so disconnected from myself, my beliefs, with this lump in my belly and all the **** around it.... It's not my lump but it needs to be here for me. It only took a couple of days for that to soak through and I wasn't even thinking about it and there it was.

We’re spiritual all the time because as The Police once said we’re ‘spirits in the material world.’The Police said I was speeding. Oops, wrong Police. Still, of we are Spirits in the material world does that mean Spirituality has lost its meaning?

I’d accept that but not really labelled it as such. I think my ‘knowing’ comes to the fore when helping other people; if they talk to me about whatever’s bothering them, I get a feeling from their words, their tone of voice and also where the issues are, like I can tell them why the person who is the subject of their angst/concern is acting/behaving that way – even though I’ve never met, talked to them. It’s become stronger last several years – but I just think that’s me, intuitive, empathic. Don’t know if that is what you call Gnostic? Sometimes labels help us understand more about whatever we're labelling, and sometimes it's not so much a label as a 'pointer' to something else. Basically Gnosis is knowing without knowing how you know, which is what you're doing there.

Oh yes, well spotted! Fortunately I’m not in any pain with it it’s more of a balance/co-ordination issue. I’ve found someone local to me so will look to do that in the new year (so we'll both be attempting to sort our hips in the new year!)

At the moment, I’m dealing with the aftermath of having a severe exposure to my phobia. A situation at work that I knew was going to happen and had planned how I was going to tackle it fell at the first hurdle when there was a change to the planning. A steady stream of me trying to cope and just getting more and more destabilised and upset with each hour until I decided to go home and work there. A very supportive manager who is aware of the situation, and a plan is in place to switch between wfh and going in whilst the situation at work completes. The physical impact like headaches, nausea, exhaustion, nightmares etc all from exposure to the situation, is going to take a while to settle. Last time this happened which was 2013 it took a good couple of years for it to settle. This situation wasn’t as bad, although there were other factors at play which didn’t help, but the physical and emotional impact of the fear is so de-stabilising. I’ve had so much trauma in my life, I feel as though I must be single handedly clearing fear from the collective!

But Matt’s just released a new video called ‘we are the light’ and as I watched it on Wednesday night, I could feel my energies lifting, it felt so soothing and right. As he was speaking, it occurred to me, that I never turned away from the light during this last week, blamed or got angry with anything or anyone. I still knew I was the light, so I was quite chuffed with myself when I realised that.

There have been some interesting things to come out of it, two very supportive managers who have been happy for me to lead the way in what I feel comfortable in doing. That would have been a million lightyears away in my previous place, as is the ability to work from home. Also, mostly everyone at work knows something is up and people have been coming up to me asking if I’m OK, people have been helping me, particulalry some of the people that I’ve helped in the past, so I thought of you saying that would be the universe reflecting back to me.For some reason I have this feeling that I need to allow things to run their course, to allow them to simply fade away. I also feel a change in energies so if that's an actual effect on the Solstice or not I don't know, but it feels right. One good thing about having a dodgy hip is that I don't feel like running around like a spring chicken, which means hopefully the reserves will be there for operation time.Having a dodgy hip is a blessing right now because it's slowing me down and being honest, this lump inside me is having an effect I'd rather not admit to. The dodgy hip is acting like a brake, so that's perhaps a good thing.

I don't know if talking this through from a Spiritual perspective is going to be of any use to you, if so then by all means vent your spleen. If you'd rather not that's OK too.
Just right now my head feels as though it's a snow globe that someone's shaken the hell out of it and laid it down. There's this morass of spazz flying around inside my noggin and the craziest part is that I'm OK with it. I've also gone very cold and shivery, and there's a strange energy flying around.

You're in the right place at the time for you, and with the right people around you. Synchronicity upon synchronicity. That means the conditions are right for this to happen BECAUSE of you and not TO you. Huge difference. The sun leaves an energetic imprint on the earth and people, and this is the understanding of the Solstice - the earth energies are very different around now than the are for the summer Solstice.

Yes you are the Light, in more ways than you realise right now. The Universe is reflecting back at you and putting all this in place for you.

None at all! I love New Musik, so different at the time, musically and lyrically. Having got three of their albums there’s some pretty good stuff on there, I posted that one because it’s probably their most well-known track.

I love all kinds of music and I have a pretty eclectic CD collection from Uriah Heep to Mozart, Beethoven, Level 42, Quo, Enya, Chris de Burgh, Diana Krall, Michael Buble, Genesis, ELO, Jarre, Prefab Sprout, George Michael, Medwyn Goodall, Jack Savoretti, Anugama, Nik Kershaw. I’ve got somewhere in the region of about 300 CDs. As John Miles once said ‘music is my first love’!

PatryciaI always had a passion for things that were outside of the mainstream, especially music and New Musik fitted that bill nicely at the time. At the time I wasn't really an album-buyer, probably a reflection of my nomadic lifestyle and feeling very unsettled with myself. There were a few fits and starts along the way but it's only been since Mrs G really came into my Life that it's really taken off again. I have all kinds of nonsense and I'm not too ashamed to admit one of the CDs is of Gregorian chants. Music seems to be something else we can resonate with on a different level and our tastes in music can tell their own stories too.

Patrycia-Rose

16-12-2018, 09:45 AM

Good morning, Mr G

The energies feel very intense at the moment and I have been experiencing some weird ascension symptoms, I feel sometimes as though I have the symptoms of a cold and then it just goes and a strange metallic taste (I've googled both and both come up many times).

This came from you telling me about how your Spirituality had become a little 'becalmed'. Really it was about giving yourself a break Spiritually and remembering that there were other aspects of your Life that also needed attention at that time. I wasn't criticising the fact that you have all this knowledge on the end of a mouse, what I was trying to point out was that You could have been heading for a Spiritual crash-and-burn, and often they're not pretty. You're quite the polarised energy person so a high energy period of Spirituality needs an equal measure of downtime.

Sorry about that; I am accustomed to people disagreeing with my views and things I do, basically a minority of one is my home! One of the reasons I keep myself to myself, because usually unless I care for someone or about my relationship I can’t be **sed to explain myself. (I think there maybe a vague compliment for you in there somewhere). I have to say this is where Matt’s teachings have helped in letting things be.

But yes, looking back it gave me some time away from things spiritual. I think the phobia resulting in me working from home has been something similar; I’ve taken to it like a duck to water and am so much more productive

It means many things to many people, but the irony is that if you aren't that interested in being enlightened you already are enlightened.

Thank you.

The more we're different the more we're the same. Mrs G says I;m so laid back I'm horizontal and this comes across in my Spirituality too. But then I guess our definitions of Spirituality are different.

"The temple of the most high begins with the body which houses our life, the essence of our existence. Africans are in bondage today because they approach spirituality through religion provided by foreign invaders and conquerors. We must stop confusing religion and spirituality. Religion is a set of rules, regulations and rituals created by humans, which was suppose to help people grow spiritually. Due to human imperfection religion has become corrupt, political, divisive and a tool for power struggle. Spirituality is not theology or ideology. It is simply a way of life, pure and original as was given by the Most High of Creation. Spirituality is a network linking us to the Most High, the universe, and each other…”
Haile Selassie

Blimey, Mr G, you’re not going to start quoting the ‘R’ word at me?! :confused:

While Matt's teachings have been important they haven't had the importance that you've placed on your relationship with him. I can understands where you're coming from and I can understand where I;m coming from and understand the dichotomy between you and me. Matt's teachings came at a time when I really needed them and in many ways I could have written close to everything you've said here. The only real difference is in the relationship with the material but for me that brings its own understanding. To me, Matt has never been a tutor or a mentor, he's been more of a compatriot. THE first video of Matt's was about the First Wave of Ascension, I was never a fan of this Ascension malarkey but something inside almost compelled me to watch it. And I was glad I did because he was telling me what I was going through and it came at a time when I was about ready to lose it, quite frankly. What I get from the vids is that they seem to be a confirmation that I'm headed in the right general direction. At the same time i feel as if I have a job to do and I need to be a certain person at a certain level to do what I need to do, and becoming too engrossed with the teachings is going to take something away from that task. At the same time though, it's nice to know that I'm resonating at that level of consciousness. I can relax.

Without the teachings there would be no relationship and without the relationship there would be no teachings.

I wouldn’t look on him as a tutor/mentor, nor a compatriot, in fact it’s only as you say that, it’s occurred to me I’ve never really considered how I view the relationship. The word ‘friend’ springs to mind which isn’t a million miles from compatriot.

I must admit when I first heard about the first wave of ascension I more or less dismissed it as I had not got a clue what that was about. But now, not only do I understand it, I also think I am part of that first wave. All the descriptions he has given about the characteristics and feelings, profile, fit me and for once I don’t feel that kneejerk ‘don’t label me’ response!

Also I have seen several other spiritual videos, articles about ascension etc. I have heard Dolores Cannon refer to the three waves of volunteers. I thought it was a Matt specific thing but it is not. You may be interested to know that in his new video “we belong to the light” he talks about the second and third waves and describes them with clear descriptions of each and it confirmed to me again, that I’m part of the first wave. My ears were fully alert when he was talking about this as I find it so interesting and also can see clearly the second and third waves in humanity. All this is going to be happening in the next two years, although it’s happening now.

And yes, like you, much of confirms I’m in the right space. Because I’ve always done my own thing spiritually, I never engaged with any spiritual practices and much of what he teaches is disengaging from those old teachings, so I’m ahead of the game there, courtesey of being a bit of a rebel! My learning is in the parts about not blaming / judging /criticising myself but being kind, loving, patient with myself and getting out of moments of victimhood ego.

And I know I’m going at it full throttle but that is my style when I’m enthusiastic about something! And something isn’t going to keep that level of enthusiasm for over a year if there’s nothing there.

This is like a foundation on which to make sense of my past, some aspects of it anyway, give me a bigger yet still spiritual picture and give me a blueprint for the future and let it merge /blend with me and see where it takes me – and that has to be a better way to approach life than the prospect of beginning another journal with ‘same *** different year!”

The Police said I was speeding. Oops, wrong Police. Still, of we are Spirits in the material world does that mean Spirituality has lost its meaning?

No, not at all. Because a great deal Of the planet does not give one iota about Spiritual things! I think you can see this clearly In the people around you, people who might consider spiritual things ‘one day’. There is a man at work who frequently says when you're dead you're 6 foot under and that's your lot! See now years ago I may have tried to talk to him about my experiences to get him to consider a different view. But I don't do that now because it is exhausting for me and even without Matt’s teachings I think there are some people who maybe do not need to have a spiritual contemplation in this life. That does not make them wrong or bad, just right for them in this lifetime. And I am far more accepting of that now than I was a few years ago and that is largely in part due to Matt’s teachings.

I also think that spiritualism, true spiritualism, is about gaining evidence that life continues after we leave our physical bodies, and that is being beamed into people's homes via the likes of programmes by Colin Fry, John Edward, Tyler Henry and Tony Stockwell. People watch these and then consider what a sitting would be like and take it further. Also things like crystal healing and dowsing, reiki etc are far more openly talked about. I think this is opening more people up to the possibility of life after we pass.

Sometimes labels help us understand more about whatever we're labelling, and sometimes it's not so much a label as a 'pointer' to something else. Basically Gnosis is knowing without knowing how you know, which is what you're doing there.

Ah, I didn’t know that, didn’t realise that is what is was called

Having a dodgy hip is a blessing right now because it's slowing me down and being honest, this lump inside me is having an effect I'd rather not admit to. The dodgy hip is acting like a brake, so that's perhaps a good thing.

Anything I can help with? Do you mean an emotional / mental effect, how you’re feeling about it all, or do you mean it’s producing some new / additional symptoms? You’re human as well, so it wouldn’t be the fullest experience if you didn’t have any emotional /mental / physical reaction. Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to feel whatever you are feeling.

You can never predict how something is going to affect you, even if it seems the most unlikely reaction. For instance, last Sunday afternoon, whilst I was still recovering from exposure to the phobia, I had an afternoon of what I can only describe as OCD like behaviour, when suddenly I was noticing every CD that was out of line, speaker cables catching my eye, I had this need to clear away things left out on the worktop, everything had to be cleaned and put away. But I was allowing and kind to myself whilst it played itself out, part of me was getting on with sitting down checking if the cable needed to be moved by another centimetre, whilst the other half was observing with affectionate amusement. It served whatever purpose it needed to and hasn’t been repeated.

I don't know if talking this through from a Spiritual perspective is going to be of any use to you, if so then by all means vent your spleen. If you'd rather not that's OK too.

Just right now my head feels as though it's a snow globe that someone's shaken the hell out of it and laid it down. There's this morass of spazz flying around inside my noggin and the craziest part is that I'm OK with it. I've also gone very cold and shivery, and there's a strange energy flying around

Thank you. I’m not sure how to view it from a spiritual point. As I understand it, based on what I’ve been told it’s from a past life, a specific set of circumstances in this life, aspects of which were similar to the past life death, should not have happened in this life but it was strong enough to break through into this life and has been here ever since. If I am believing that ‘everything is here to help me’, then I can’t pick and choose what I apply that belief to. So I don’t know how abject fear is supposed to help me but again, maybe one of those things that I don’t see the full picture until I cross over.

Cold and shivery can be a sign of shock.

Talking of strange energy flying around, I had the oddest experience last week. I was in the supermarket and was feeling really quite uplifted and good as I did my shopping. I thought I had better get some ibuprofen as I was running low and it is heading into winter time. I rarely take the stuff but this time of year does not seem a good time to be without it. As I stood in the pharmacy department , there was no one around. I looked on the shelves for the painkillers and found them and as I walked away my energy just dropped instantly and I felt quite unwell. It was so sudden. I carried on shopping thinking that it would probably lift and it did. And my thinking is that I must have been picking up the energy from people who had been unwell looking for medication. There is a shop in Glastonbury I can’t go in as it makes me feel light-headed and not right. I guess that is part of being an empath.

Yes you are the Light, in more ways than you realise right now. The Universe is reflecting back at you and putting all this in place for you.

Oooh, that’s kind of cryptic, would you be able to say more?

I always had a passion for things that were outside of the mainstream, especially music and New Musik fitted that bill nicely at the time. At the time I wasn't really an album-buyer, probably a reflection of my nomadic lifestyle and feeling very unsettled with myself. There were a few fits and starts along the way but it's only been since Mrs G really came into my Life that it's really taken off again. I have all kinds of nonsense and I'm not too ashamed to admit one of the CDs is of Gregorian chants. Music seems to be something else we can resonate with on a different level and our tastes in music can tell their own stories too

Nothing wrong with Gregorian chant; I had a CD of that and found it very grounding and very soothing.

You may like this, this is about as different as it gets. It’s by Terry Oldfield (brother of Mike) and called Eyes of the Goddess. It’s taken an age to find it on Youtube. Best listened to on headphones and has a very slow build up but I was hooked when I heard the voices that start about 3.20 mins in. I consider this a real treat. See what you think. Best with headphones though.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChfIiskNqaE

Patrycia

Greenslade

17-12-2018, 11:35 PM

Good morning, Mr G

The energies feel very intense at the moment and I have been experiencing some weird ascension symptoms, I feel sometimes as though I have the symptoms of a cold and then it just goes and a strange metallic taste (I've googled both and both come up many times). Mine were happening in the summer and I was a little confused, because it takes the worst of winter to make me even sniffle. And it tasted like I was chewing aluminium, at the time I had this notion that I actually had been. At the times tough, I was going through all kinds of time dilations.

Sorry about that; I am accustomed to people disagreeing with my views and things I do, basically a minority of one is my home! One of the reasons I keep myself to myself, because usually unless I care for someone or about my relationship I can’t be **sed to explain myself. (I think there maybe a vague compliment for you in there somewhere). I have to say this is where Matt’s teachings have helped in letting things be.

But yes, looking back it gave me some time away from things spiritual. I think the phobia resulting in me working from home has been something similar; I’ve taken to it like a duck to water and am so much more productiveNo worries. You were maybe feeling a little vulnerable at the time because of what you'd been going through. Sometimes the aftermath finds us feeling as though we've had a good kicking or we're not the person we'd always been - that's the most disconcerting of all. The phrase "As Above, So Below" often has more relevance than we think and your suddenly becoming comfortable with working from home could be a sign of how much the Spiritual changes have filtered down.

Thank you.You're very welcome. There are a number of ways you can look at this and they all lead to the same place. You are where you need top be, doing what you need to be doing. And you're going to get to where you're going either despite of or because of yourself.

Blimey, Mr G, you’re not going to start quoting the ‘R’ word at me?! [/quote[I don't swear. Much, anyway. Personally I think the distinction between the R and Spirituality is an important one, especially in the light of Haile Selassie's definitions. For me it turns everything around.

[quote=Patrycia-Rose]Without the teachings there would be no relationship and without the relationship there would be no teachings.

I wouldn’t look on him as a tutor/mentor, nor a compatriot, in fact it’s only as you say that, it’s occurred to me I’ve never really considered how I view the relationship. The word ‘friend’ springs to mind which isn’t a million miles from compatriot.

I must admit when I first heard about the first wave of ascension I more or less dismissed it as I had not got a clue what that was about. But now, not only do I understand it, I also think I am part of that first wave. All the descriptions he has given about the characteristics and feelings, profile, fit me and for once I don’t feel that kneejerk ‘don’t label me’ response!

Also I have seen several other spiritual videos, articles about ascension etc. I have heard Dolores Cannon refer to the three waves of volunteers. I thought it was a Matt specific thing but it is not. You may be interested to know that in his new video “we are the light” he talks about the second and third waves and describes them with clear descriptions of each and it confirmed to me again, that I’m part of the first wave. My ears were fully alert when he was talking about this as I find it so interesting and also can see clearly the second and third waves in humanity. All this is going to be happening in the next two years, although it’s happening now.

And yes, like you, much of confirms I’m in the right space. Because I’ve always done my own thing spiritually, I never engaged with any spiritual practices and much of what he teaches is disengaging from those old teachings, so I’m ahead of the game there, courtesey of being a bit of a rebel! My learning is in the parts about not blaming / judging /criticising myself but being kind, loving, patient with myself and getting out of moments of victimhood ego.

And I know I’m going at it full throttle but that is my style when I’m enthusiastic about something! And something isn’t going to keep that level of enthusiasm for over a year if there’s nothing there.

This is like a foundation on which to make sense of my past, some aspects of it anyway, give me a bigger yet still spiritual picture and give me a blueprint for the future and let it merge /blend with me and see where it takes me – and that has to be a better way to approach life than the prospect of beginning another journal with ‘same *** different year!”Tesla said that if you want to understand the Universe think energy, vibration and frequency. Knowledge plays a part in all of this too because it gives you a comparison if you like, and sometimes 'pointers' but the reason this information is coming into your reality at all is because of your vibrations, they are in harmony with Matt's teachings. There's a harmonious alignment with you and the Universe that's probably closer than it's ever been.

That also happens with the rest of us, so those real Spiritual highs are countered by the lows of 'real Life' as you found out - 'becalmed'. Spirituality is the peak, becalmed is the trough.

I'm very much an energy person and often I feel 'undercurrents', and there are a few happening here. This one's different though, it's got a very different feel to it than anything else I've experienced so far. I think Matt's timeframe is more of a guide or when the critical mass is happening, but sometimes it takes a little time to ramp things up.

This is going to sound big-headed but Matt wasn't telling me a lot I didn't already know, but it was nice to be filled in with some of the details and, like you, confirmation of being in the right space is pretty cool. Just be as gentle with yourself when you hit a trough and remember that although it's not what you might wish for, it's what you need. I've seen a lot of this 'You are the Light' stuff but this is the first time I've come even close to feeling like it.

Everything that you've gone through on your Life has led you to where you are now. Nothing happens TO you, everything happens BECAUSE of you and if you took out perhaps a small chunk of your experiences, there would be no Matt. "We are the Light" "Yeah well, wotevvaaaa!!" Once you start looking at your Life from that perspective so much changes. There's no more victim-hood and everything is here to help you. Blame and judgement fall away and becomes friends and reasons to Love yourself - and when you do that it's easier to Love others too. And yes, it also makes sense of your past, if you allow it to. If you donm't know where you're coming from you don't know where you're going.

No, not at all. Because a great deal Of the planet does not give one iota about Spiritual things! I think you can see this clearly In the people around you, people who might consider spiritual things ‘one day’. There is a man at work who frequently says when you're dead you're 6 foot under and that's your lot! See now years ago I may have tried to talk to him about my experiences to get him to consider a different view. But I don't do that now because it is exhausting for me and even without Matt’s teachings I think there are some people who maybe do not need to have a spiritual contemplation in this life. That does not make them wrong or bad, just right for them in this lifetime. And I am far more accepting of that now than I was a few years ago and that is largely in part due to Matt’s teachings.

I also think that spiritualism, true spiritualism, is about gaining evidence that life continues after we leave our physical bodies, and that is being beamed into people's homes via the likes of programmes by Colin Fry, John Edward, Tyler Henry and Tony Stockwell. People watch these and then consider what a sitting would be like and take it further. Also things like crystal healing and dowsing, reiki etc are far more openly talked about. I think this is opening more people up to the possibility of life after we pass. Your reality is defined by your perceptions, your perceptions are defined by your beliefs and your beliefs are defined by your definitions. When you define what is Spiritual by extension you also define what is not Spiritual. What you do is you end up building yourself fences that only keep you in.

We came here to learn the lessons, phrases of that ilk. What does that tell you? For Spirit, looking at your own mortality in the face is quite an experience, especially if there's nothing but an oblivion that the mind can't fathom. And it's OK to believe anything you like but when you're actually faced with it.... So-called non-Spiritual people can find so much peace in their last moments that you wonder if Spirituality is everything it's cracked up to be.

There is nothing that isn't Spirit.

Ah, I didn’t know that, didn’t realise that is what is was calledDid you also know you have Gnosis? Everybody has.

Anything I can help with? Do you mean an emotional / mental effect, how you’re feeling about it all, or do you mean it’s producing some new / additional symptoms? You’re human as well, so it wouldn’t be the fullest experience if you didn’t have any emotional /mental / physical reaction. Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to feel whatever you are feeling.

You can never predict how something is going to affect you, even if it seems the most unlikely reaction. For instance, last Sunday afternoon, whilst I was still recovering from exposure to the phobia, I had an afternoon of what I can only describe as OCD like behaviour, when suddenly I was noticing every CD that was out of line, speaker cables catching my eye, I had this need to clear away things left out on the worktop, everything had to be cleaned and put away. But I was allowing and kind to myself whilst it played itself out, part of me was getting on with sitting down checking if the cable needed to be moved by another centimetre, whilst the other half was observing with affectionate amusement. It served whatever purpose it needed to and hasn’t been repeated.Thanks for the offer of help but at the moment I'm just processing everything. I've also had a job offer out of the blue and I'm milling it over in my head. It's for driving one of those buses that ferry the old people around and while that may not sound too glamorous, being honest I don't give a toss. My Soul feels tired.

I tend to take things as they come, a long time ago I decided that whatever I felt at any time was OK so I've done that ever since. I just allow myself to feel and not worry about this be positive nonsense.

The mind can play tricks on us and skew reality so much most wouldn't believe, they're often survival techniques that are embedded so deeply in our psyche that we've long forgotten about them - until we suffer enough trauma. There's a part of ourselves that can 'detach' perceptually so that it seems as though we're a third-party observer to what's going on around us - or to our own actions. That very much sounds like a glimpse of what's been happening to me since I was a child, when my personality was fractured. I've often wondered if we make a consciousness shift to the level of being our Higher Self, whether it's the mind playing survival tricks or perhaps a bit of both.

Thank you. I’m not sure how to view it from a spiritual point. As I understand it, based on what I’ve been told it’s from a past life, a specific set of circumstances in this life, aspects of which were similar to the past life death, should not have happened in this life but it was strong enough to break through into this life and has been here ever since. If I am believing that ‘everything is here to help me’, then I can’t pick and choose what I apply that belief to. So I don’t know how abject fear is supposed to help me but again, maybe one of those things that I don’t see the full picture until I cross over.

Cold and shivery can be a sign of shock.

Talking of strange energy flying around, I had the oddest experience last week. I was in the supermarket and was feeling really quite uplifted and good as I did my shopping. I thought I had better get some ibuprofen as I was running low and it is heading into winter time. I rarely take the stuff but this time of year does not seem a good time to be without it. As I stood in the pharmacy department , there was no one around. I looked on the shelves for the painkillers and found them and as I walked away my energy just dropped instantly and I felt quite unwell. It was so sudden. I carried on shopping thinking that it would probably lift and it did. And my thinking is that I must have been picking up the energy from people who had been unwell looking for medication. There is a shop in Glastonbury I can’t go in as it makes me feel light-headed and not right. I guess that is part of being an empath.You're very welcome.

To be honest I;m not a huge fan of 'should have'/'shouldn't have' because that often just serves to confuse the reality that it's happened just the same, so 'shoudn't have' can sometimes lessen the ability to deal with it effectively.

Past Lives are tricky, one of the problems being the model and belief frameworks they're based on. Some have said that in each Life a different aspect of the monad incarnates, and each aspect only incarnates once. The mainstream model is that we are individual Souls/Spirits and we go through a series of Lives, one after the other. The only problem with both of these models is that there is not time, therefore there is no linearity of one Life after the other. When you take time into account it gets silly, and it's been said that there are no Past Lives, only parallel ones - all of time is happening all of the time.

Anything that comes through from one Life to another usually has a reason for being there. It's also possible that according to Lobsang Rampa's model (there's the Overself/Oneself and us incarnations on the end of the tentacles) that there can be a short-circuit between incarnations, and sometimes the Overself can instigate those deliberately. Sometimes our experiences/understandings in this Life can help other incarnations. Given that you're high energy anyway and that fear is one of the strongest and most primal of emotions, it's not hard to think that an emotional short-circuit has happened between incarnations. When you take linear time out of the equation it makes sense. The abject fear may not help Patrycia you, but how you deal with it may help another incarnation of you. If it's any help, think of quantum entanglement because really, it's certainly within the bounds of possibility here.

Cold and shivery is a sign that I have company.

People can leave energetic imprints on places, and sometimes they're very localised - like in different aisles of supermarkets so it's possible that you being an empath is sensing those energies. Similarly with your Glastonbury shop. People also have energetic currents too. Here's a little bit of fun if you find someone who's up for a bit of craziness. Ask someone to hold their hand out flat, then you hover yours just above it. You may have to vary your hand a little, and what you feel might differ. Hover your hand bout two inches or so above theirs, but keep your palm directly above. What you should feel is a slight sensation, and it can vary. One is feeling as though someone is gently blowing across your palm, the other is your palm warming up or feeling as though there's static electricity between you. Sometimes the sensation happens in the shoulder, and it can feel as though your shoulder is full of worms.

Oooh, that’s kind of cryptic, would you be able to say more?Sometimes labels help us to understand who and what we are - like Gnosis. Gnosis isn't a label, it's something that you have - like empathy. And as we talked about earlier, being an Old Soul. The term 'Old Soul' tends to attract bad press but that's only because the younger Souls really don't understand. So, you are an Old Soul and having Gnosis and empathy pretty much comes with the territory. As does being more in touch with Spirit Guides, Higher Self and not you're stepping out of yourself a little - as in you observing yourself. Also as in......

And yes, like you, much of confirms I’m in the right space. Because I’ve always done my own thing spiritually, I never engaged with any spiritual practices and much of what he teaches is disengaging from those old teachings, so I’m ahead of the game there, courtesey of being a bit of a rebel! So let me ask you something. Is Matt teaching you or is he awakening what has always been there all along?

Nothing wrong with Gregorian chant; I had a CD of that and found it very grounding and very soothing.

You may like this, this is about as different as it gets. It’s by Terry Oldfield (brother of Mike) and called Eyes of the Goddess. It’s taken an age to find it on Youtube. Best listened to on headphones and has a very slow build up but I was hooked when I heard the voices that start about 3.20 mins in. I consider this a real treat. See what you think. Best with headphones though.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChfIiskNqaE

PatryciaI remember buying the Gregorian chants CD when I was out shopping in Peterhead, which is about 20 miles away. I had a Saab 900 at the time. On the way back I started playing it and began losing time and decided it was a bad time to be playing it.

This Terry Oldfield track is a bit weird. I seem to remember some mention of Mike having a brother but that he wasn't all that famous. Listening to it feels as though I'm standing in a church in Peru, not just with the Pan pipes but also with the vocals too. I wonder how that would sound whilst standing in Machu Pichu. Definitely a treat though, thank you.

Patrycia-Rose

23-12-2018, 08:44 AM

Greenslade

27-12-2018, 10:37 AM

Hi Patrycia

I'm not ignoring you but recent events have taken over slightly and finding the time for a meaningful reply is in short supply right now. No doubt you're deeply embroiled in your study quest, so I wish you well and hopefully you'll find what you're looking for.

Safe Journey, Patrycia

Patrycia-Rose

27-12-2018, 06:26 PM

Hi Mr G,

I understand, no worries. I hope everything works out OK for you.

All the best to you.

Patrycia

Greenslade

29-12-2018, 03:14 PM

Hi Mr G,

What an absolute manic week at work with some high profile meetings and conferences in between Christmas meals and me getting back to working in the office as opposed to home. I’ve settled back in very quickly and my nervous system is a lot calmer, so I can now deal with the phobic situation.

But the last few days, yesterday in particular, I have this feeling which is so hard to describe that the only way I can describe it is an absence of feeling. And yesterday, I sat in front of the tv for most of the day sleeping on and off. Now that is Not like me in any way. Hi Patrycia

There's still some cave person in all of us, if we'd care to recognise it. At this time of year we're predisposed to slowing down inside at least, even if we're so caught up with the hurly-burly of it all. While people rush around they want so much to just slow down.

Walking in two worlds. While everything around you is seemingly chaotic you walk with calmness, grace and dignity as though you're detached from their energy systems and you travel to the beat of your own drum. It's as though they're moving to the tide that they can't really control, but you create your own inside, and everything is observed from that perspective.

I guess the caveman's brain would slow down this time of year. Mine does.

That’s exactly what it was like; it took several days of thinking what’s going on? I’m becoming more and more accustomed to experiencing something and googling it along with ascension and so far, every odd symptom I’ve had, is connected with ascension. My guides gave me the message some weeks ago that I was in the tail end of ascension and it seems to be going out with a bang as in addition to the metallic taste (which thankfully has gone now), I’ve had loss of hair, which also has thankfully stopped, itching skin, joint aches, muscles aches, tooth ache, chronic back pain for one day and probably a few I’ve forgotten. But emotionally I’m far more stable. The only thing I’ve had is this overwhelming emotion when I start to cry, like it’s the end of the world, it lasts about 10 seconds and then it’s gone and I’m left thinking ‘what was all that about?’ Apparently, from what I have read, from several sources, this is about the light entering the physical body and developing the crystalline body. I do think ascension is quite tough on the physical body; I’m hoping mine can integrate it all OK. When I first heard of all this ascension stuff it was a little bit exciting, admittedly. To the ego I suppose it meant that there was an evolving and growing going on, often despite what so many people had defined Spiritual development as. Then one day the question came crashing into my head - "Why would I get excited at puberty? It's just a natural process." Now that's just what ascension is, it's a natural part of growing up for some at least.

The thing is that there's a link between your energetic framework and your consciousness that few seem to realise, and there's a causality loop going on. While matter is emergent of consciousness (AKA the Big Bang) consciousness is emergent of matter (AKA us and our experiences). When your energetic vibrations change your whole perspective and how you experience and perceive reality changes, and therefore your consciousness changes. Same old energetic system, same old consciousness. If you want a different consciousness you have to change the energetic system that it's emergent of. Sadly, it means that there's a price to pay physically for Ascension because there are no freebies.

What can make the Ascension symptoms tough on the poor old physical body is polarisation - something you've been very prone to. It's not so much the changes themselves that make the difference physically, it's as much our reactions to them. Remember that your mind also has an effect on your physical/emotional well-being so that has to be taken into the mix as well. But then it works the other way too, because you can think that the effects aren't going to be too tough on you.

Emotions are energy in motion, often they're good indicators that something is happening. The intensity of the emotion is caused by the intensity of the energy, and sometimes the energy has to be vented either because it's too much or that we're finished with it. If it's any consolation I want to bawl my eyes out like a big girl's blouse at the least little thing, it certainly feels like a release - of either the energies or the mentality that it's 'not the done thing' - or both.

It all feels so intense, the good stuff, the bad stuff and everything in-between. I was pleased how well I was working at home, but also that I began to actually miss the people. That for me, is a first! I was glad to get back to a first full day at the office, and as I felt so much calmer and relaxed, with a little ‘ come on Patrycia, you can do this’ I was able to handle the phobic situation. I went home the first day feeling like I’d won the lottery and very chuffed with myself. Even more, as I hadn’t been in the office for a couple of weeks, I had people coming up to me and saying ‘where were you’ and that they’d missed me. And my manager’s support was invaluable as I was able to go at my own pace. It was all a bit of a revelation. Such a contrast to the couple of years or stress in 2013 when I was battling this alone – that’s why it took so long to recover. All good signs that a 'new you' is emergent and working a little bit closer with the Universe around you. Fear is quite a primal energy and often it's a survival mechanism - which is what people don't realise. It's the body's way of keeping itself safe, and if we hadn't learned to fear lions and tigers and bears oh my perhaps we would have been munched out of existence already. Handling the phobia is a pretty good sign that your relationship with yourself is very much changing and that your perspective comes from a higher state of existence.

If people have missed you and your manager is giving you so much support then it means you're in the right place doing the right thing, and it's working for you. If your colleagues missed you then either you're having more of an effect on them than you first thought. Not going to mention habit. Oops. Very much a 'coming together' synchronicity on quite a scale.

I had to go back and read it, as first time round, I just saw the ‘R’ word and that closed me down. But yes I agree completely with what he says. I always have done!I actually find religion interesting, not from a religious perspective but from a psychological one. It seems to be a box that people are quite happy to jump into.

Yes, and I really Feeel it too.

I saw someone, can’t remember who it was but I picked something on a youtube vid (from all of the 20 seconds I watched it) and he said one of the experiences we’re here to have is Contrast. Now I’ve been experiencing a lot of this lately; a good case in point is the phobia exposure and all the support I’ve had from people at work and how that’s enabled me to have a completely different experience, the contrast.

So more contrast, from an observational point, is my friend who I tried to introduce Matt to. She’s watched one video and although liked it, she’s just not taken to his teachings in the way that I have. I’m fine with this, as she likes to listen to me talk about it – and in fact I repeated one of his humorous takes on something – and she was laughing. But for me, it’s recently demonstrated again the contrast, particularly that she’s very like me in regularly going to mediums etc but doesn’t, at the moment, seem to be able to consider that there is a different way of being, one that would free her of the self reproach, self criticism etc. That contrast interests me.The good old pointing finger and not enough heavenly glory. but in this case the finger that's pointing to the heavenly glory.

We've gone into this territory before with the contrast, but i was using Sacred Geometry - which you weren't so keen on as I recall. I also mentioned Triplex Unity, and both of those are a dimension above the contrasts because there is a 'third' coming through. So the phobia exposure is one, the support is the other and the resolution/dealing with it is the third or the result, depending on how you want to see it. The phobia is one dimension and the support is another, while the result gives you the third dimension - call it height if you like. Encompassing those gives you four dimensions of consciousness, which can only mean you're vibrating on the fifth. Similarly with you and Matt's teachings being contrasts and the third level being its impact on your Ascension process.

To me that's quite an interesting contrast with your friend too. I've always believed that regardless of the Paths we walk in this Life and whether or not we have the physical capability to be Spiritual (it's down to genetics as to whether we can get our heads around it or not) there's always 'something inside' regardless that remains Spiritual. Sometimes you have to crack the shell to allow the Light to shine in, sometimes you have to crack the shell to allow the Light to shine out.

Absolutely, I’ve done this these last few weeks. Instead of feeling a failure, ridiculous for having this severe phobia and that everyone’s judging me (including myself), I’ve actually really regarded myself as that five year old who’s traumatised, treated her with much love, support and kindness. And really the universe, in the shape of the people around me at work, have reflected that back to me. Really, it’s quite humbling and brings a tear to my eye.That's been a theme which has been running through a lot of this whole process for me, not just the Child Inside but the child who had his personality fractured. I think the first thought I had along those lines was the image I had of myself - short trousers, skinny little runt with a snotty nose - made me realise how much I Loved that kid, and I found I was Loving myself. When I went for the endoscopy they had me curl up into the foetal position, and one of the nurses said she would be at my head throughout. I took a child-like comfort from that, and felt very much like the child who was putting his healing in the hands of the adults he'd always been wary of.

That’s absolutely it. There is still the occasion when I fall into victimhood but it is far less frequent, and I’m there with loving that part, thanking it for reminding me, thanking it for being there and that I’m listening to it. That gently assures it and all is well. And yes, when you recognise your light, it’s easy to see the light in others.We're all human after all, and if we didn't do the 'human thing' once in a while perhaps we'd lose our frame of reference too easily - and find ourselves up our own backsides. The good news is that it's something that can be applied to other things in our Lives - like traumas for instance. It's when you think "Well, OK, that happened, but that cause had that effect" and that realisation can at least take the edge off at least a little. You also find a little compassion for yourself as well as others - as well as their Light of course.

Curious that a job offer arrives at this time?Just what I was thinking. I'm going to have a chat with my friend to get some more details, then discuss it with Mrs G but she'll be OK with it anyway. But it does seem to be worth a look at least.

That’s my way too – now – another opportunity to cultivate some kindness and gentleness and understanding of myself. Matt has a way of approaching this, in not questioning what have I done wrong – but ‘what do I need right now?” Just beautiful.If you are questioning what you've done wrong, what are you really doing? 'Wrong' is judgement and 'done' is not just past but memory. What you need is what you have, that makes it interesting.

I had re-visited the info I was given at the time by the medium. As I was typing the words, that ‘shouldn’t have’ filtered into my mind because it doesn’t fit with the new heart centred perspective. It did happen – because it should have happened. I’m wondering with past / future life perspective, that I’ve brought it into this life to experience that level of fear, maybe there is no further purpose, other than to experience it. Maybe this recent contrast, there is some healing to come from that. I’ve been shown a level of support I’ve never had.

And just recently, I’ve been thinking a lot, there was a situation when I was about 10 and we’d moved into a new house and the phobic situation was there and horrible it was too, that how come my parents’ didn’t try to change things? If I were a parent and my child was demonstrating some of the ‘coping’ behaviours that I was, I went through this scenario in my head what I would have done as a parent to change the situation. It could have been done quite easily with a little insight from my parents. But I don’t want to get into blaming them, at all, as maybe they didn’t realise it was as bad as it was or that I’d grow out of it – but also this recent experience, I couldn’t have been more supported. Loads of contrast. And yes, maybe something similar happens in a future lifetime, and it won’t impact as badly or at all. Plenty of possibilities.I'm going to take a very different tack on this one, maybe a fresh perspective might change things. Regardless, the only sure thing is that it happened and everything else is speculation. If it's something as throng as this then it's happened for a reason, of that you can be sure. OK then, since you mentioned heart-centred consciousness what would fit in with that?

What does your fear - your fear - tell you?

That situation when you were 10, is there another answer to that? While you said you would have changed the situation as a parent, would you actually have done that at the time? Often seeing it from a perspective of not experiencing it looks very different. The other variable is the child and your relationship, because the relationship you might have had with a son/daughter might have been more different to anything you can imagine. On top of that, your parents may have realised that if they had tried to make changes, they might had just been stoking the flames.

Perhaps there are no answers and perhaps no answer is the answer. Sometimes it's OK just to explore, because sometimes when you're poking around in the undergrowth with a stick the answer can jump up and bite you on the backside.

But then, what is the question? If there is no time then what of Past/Future Lives? And if it's not your Life then is it still you that's experiencing it? Or have you been given an insight as to how your Higher Self might experience your existence? That's a real doozy to explore.

Flashing blue lights in my peripheral vision is mine!I still get them but it's more of a 'symptom' that my consciousness has shifted.

An interesting experiment, I would only feel comfortable in trying that with my friend.The one that can't come to grips with Spirituality you mean? Trying it with her would be something moire tangible to tell her there's more than meets the eye. It's a fun thing to do, but it has interesting undertones.

That’s a very interesting question. I would say that he is awakening something that has always been there and dormant - at least that's what it feels like - but teaching, showing, explaining how and why. I have a very specific way of learning and it is that I need the detail. This is where I failed at school, the teachers would say ‘ you do it this way’ and I would say ‘why, who says so? Give me the detail, it’s all in the detail.

So Matt explains, with detail, real examples – so he is explaining things in the very specific way I need. In fact it makes me smile when he says ‘let me give you a few examples’.

I’ve known for a long time that when I feel very emotional at something, the truth’s in there somewhere. When I first started listening to his videos, I spent quite a lot of time crying at things he said because I was waking up out of self criticism, lack of self worth, judgement against myself. I was hearing truth and responding to it.

He talks a lot about the light but I was wondering what do you think is the difference between integrating the light, embodying the light and anchoring the light? I carried out a little experiment and dowsed on a scale of 1 to 10 where I was with each and got a different score for each, so there has to be a difference?If there's one gift I would give anyone - especially you - it's feeling the way I do now after reading this. I'm not going to take any credit but I am going to acknowledge that I'm grateful for having been a part of this something that is so much bigger than myself. There's something very special when you see someone's Light shining through.

A very long time ago someone very wise said to me, "Take what resonates with you as your own Truth, leave the rest behind for it is not yours." That has served me so well and still does in many ways today. Matt is confirmation for me that I'm heading in the right direction. I haven't really responded to any kind of teachings because often they come from people who are too far up their own backsides, and I've always wanted to know what makes me tick Spiritually. Theologies and ideologies hold no interest at all. Matt's more of a compatriot it feels like sometimes, he's not teaching but he's telling things I already know, but from his downloaded knowledge perspective. He has much more detail but I wouldn't remember the half of them anyway because my head leaks, but it certainly feels good to know I'm not a million miles away.

Integrating, embodying and anchoring the light. Well, to use Matt's words of "You are the Light", can you integrate, embody or anchor what you already are? Each one of those three tells you one thing, that you have a relationship with the Light and that it's external, at least initially. But for the sake of discussion... Integrating means that the Light becomes you and you become the Light, you become One with the Light.... Embody means to give it a tangible form, so that in itself tells you something about yourself - that to you it's intangible and external. God-like. Anchoring means to allow it to have its own 'individual' existence and anchor its own source - and again it's external. I guess if you're talking Light then you anchor it so that others can see it.

I’m glad you liked it, it’s one of my favourites. Here’s another favourite of mine by Anugama. I play this every Saturday afternoon. You need to listen through headphones to get the depth:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fCEAAM9J7jI

Wishing you a restful Christmas with your family.

PatryciaThank you for that. Still playing catch-up but some serious chill-out music is what I need for the start of the New Year. Start as you mean to go on, eh?

There's a traditional Doric New Year's blessing that I'd like to give you, it's apt metaphorically too. "Lang may your lum reek." The literal translation is "Long may your chimney smoke" and it means that I wish you enough prosperity to be able to buy coal to warm your hearth.

Patrycia-Rose

30-12-2018, 12:36 PM

Greenslade

30-12-2018, 03:35 PM

Hello Mr G

Thanks for your response, it was good to hear from you and know you’re OK.

In a nice little echo of reciprocity, I’m going to need to take a bit of a break. I’ve had a really challenging few months with the phobia, getting back to the office, a car journey in the most awful circumstances over Christmas (a long unfamiliar journey in dark, thick fog, alone), the car developing some problems and just this morning the boiler’s broken down so no heating or hot water and I’m processing from a session of kinesiology yesterday. But in the midst of all this, I’m finding the spirituality in it all, everything is still here to help me and recently Matt did a short video, right on time too, with a lovely statement which I’m using to good effect “no adversity is more powerful than the light within me.”

So I’m going to need to take some time out to sort all this out as well as continuing to work.

Will post again when I get the opportunity to come up for air!

Wishing you all the best in the meantime and for the New Year.

PatryciaHey there Patrycia

You're very welcome.

Sorry but I couldn't help myself, but I tend to find the whackiest humour in the strangest and often worst of situations. As you said - "a long unfamiliar journey in dark, thick fog, alone." Yep, I guess if you ever needed one of those As Above, So Below-type confirmations that had to me the mother of them all on a couple of levels.

In Jung's allegory of the alchemists and the philospher's stone, he talks about the Prima Materia from which all else is made, and it resides only in the darkness within us if we're brave enough to find it. I guess we're all going to get there after all, either because of or despite ourselves.

Take your time Patrycia, don't break your neck. It'll happen when it's ready. Sometimes we need to spend enough time in the darkness to recognise our own Light and circumstances can conspire to have us do just that. I can't get it out of my mind that it's happening around or just after Solstice time, there's just a weird alignment going on there somehow.

This time last week I was in hospital wired up to a heart monitor in the hospital after coming home from work on Saturday. Long story is that me heartbeat was up at 220 and they couldn't find a pulse, so blue lights into hospital. The plan was to shock my heart to reboot is and bring it back to its natural rhythms. It fleetingly crossed my mind that this was it, in some ways I wanted it to be over but instead of fear it was interest. On the way in I felt sick, then sat up and threw up. The medic was amazed because my heart rate just dropped almost instantly to 110.

Energetically, physically and Spiritually I've been throwing up what doesn't serve me any more.

Anyway. Keep yourself warm though. Just out of curiosity, do you have a high-backed chair that you sit in to read? It's sitting in front of a high window, as you sit on it the window is on your right and the chair is about 45 degrees or so. Just a flash that came into my head.

You take your time and come to terms with yourself and everything that's happening, and give yourself a pat on the back from me.

May the road rise to meet your feet, and heaven will wait.

Patrycia-Rose

13-01-2019, 08:09 AM

Greenslade

13-01-2019, 01:33 PM

Hello Mr G

I’d like to begin by re-affirming my wishes for you for the New Year.

I’ve really had a very intense time since the beginning of December with the phobia, but events seemed to have intensified even more just after Christmas in the journey to Dorset, I won’t ever forget it. I was driving to see my brother, whom I hadn’t seen since our father’s funeral so was keen to catch up with him; a 60 mile journey which I hadn’t done in 6 years. Once I'd got off the main road, I hit fog but I'm OK driving in fog as long as it's not too bad but it got worse and there were a couple of times I thought I was going to have to turn back it was that bad but I carried on as I really wanted to see my brother.

As I was crossing into Dorset, the fog lifted and it was glorious sunshine. Got to the pub and it was good to catch up with my brother. Then it suddenly occurred to me I was going to be going home in the dark. I’m not a fan of driving in the dark, it’s not the driving I don’t like but lights from opposite cars. So I headed off and it was still bright and sunny thinking the fog would have cleared. How wrong was I! At the same place in Dorset – I hit thick fog. I knew where I was and caught up with and followed a large lorry for quite some way.

The fog gradually became thicker and as I was heading into rural Somerset, the cars became fewer. Because I couldn't see signs, I had to rely on memory to know the way and a couple of roundabouts I wasn't completely sure but thank god I got it right. A few turns, still following cars and then with a right and left turn I suddenly realised I WAS the car in front leading the way. At this point, I could only see one white line in front of me and could only do 25 mph. I was anxious but also calm as I was just so focused on every twist and turn in the road. There was no space for internal conversation, just focus but curiously the thought that did come into my head occasionally, was the past life that had left me with a fear of going long distances on my own. And here I was, doing just that, in some pretty horrible circumstances. I thought if I get the car and myself back home safe and sound, it'll be a miracle! I finally got home, a one hour journey which took two, splitting headache where I'd been concentrating and so focused. But quietly proud of myself, not only driving all that way, but in the dark and the fog and alone! It’s not an experience I will forget in a hurry. So you said: Hi there Patrycia

A re-affirmation of good wishes would be good, the energies are changing so going forwards on the right foot would be wise. And on that, may the road always rise to meet your feet.

That's a damned scary situation to find yourself in. To be honest I'm not a big fan of darkness and fog neither but I'll drive through it and just get on with it. I can imagine how scary it might have been for you because Mrs G's just like that, she hates darkness and fog with a vengeance. And it's the light from the on-coming cars that capture her focus, like a rabbit caught in the headlights.

We're going to get there either because of or despite ourselves - wherever that is. It seems to be pretty much inevitable so we'd better settle in for the long haul or go out screaming and feet kicking. It would be interesting to see what you've made of that from a Spiritual perspective because there's a lot there to chew over, although the moral of the tale is to be careful what you wish for because you might just get it. It certainly seems as though all your worst nightmares had come at once though, and if you ever needed something to help you get over your phobias this is it.

The brain has what is called 'neuroplasticity', basically what happens is when there are major changes to our thinking, the brain creates new neural pathways to deal with and accommodate it. Like being Spiritual, that means a whole new way of thinking initially and some find it quite hard, but in time it becomes easier as the pathways become more established. Similarly with fear and coping with it/curing it - as your Journey seems to have been. It resurfaced with your kinesiology so that would have given your brain the opportunity to reinforce the new thought patterns a little - I'd guess anyway. The Universe might well be turning in ways that will help you deal with your phobia better and reinforce your coping strategies.

I have heard of that saying ‘as above, so below’ but not really understanding what it means and also not understanding what this would mean regarding my car journey.

I then had a session of kinesiology. This was the first time I have ever had this although I understand how it works as I dowse myself and I have carried out muscle testing on other people. But I have not had it done by a practitioner as a means of healing. It was a very interesting experience. The practitioner said that I had a lot of fear in my body which did not come as a surprise. The phobia came up and many other things but I responded well to the healing technique she was carrying out and I could feel energy going around my body. I was shattered the next day which was just sign of how effective the session had been and it triggered several nights of intensive dreaming. One dream of note was the phobia because also in the dream was my manager. I could not see him I just knew he was around so his recent support had been bought into my dream as a balancing effect possibly.

As I was recovering from the session the following day, the boiler broke down so I had no heating or hot water. It took a couple of days to get this fixed.

But during all of this I kept repeating a mantra that I had heard Matt recently say and that was no adversity is more powerful than the light within me.

I was also experiencing waves of fear which I think was a combination of the fear being released by the kinesiology and also the fear of being alone and dealing with all this. It felt to me like I was feeling the fear and living with the fear so one kind of hitting off the other. But I know enough now about the heart centred perspective that I was acknowledging the fear, welcoming it in, giving it permission to be here, listen to it and love it. I also think there is something about the collective unconscious in that winter time and it being so cold, can trigger ancestral fear about survival. There has been so much going on but I have come through it or are coming through it and I have been pleased with the way that no adversity how has cause me to turn away from the light or question my light and I have nurtured encouraged and love myself through the whole experience.

The other significant thing, after the kinesiology session which was focussing on the weakness in my left leg, I was relaxing in front of the tv, thinking about the session and whether it could help the weakness when the words ‘ancestral lineage’ came into my third eye. That took a couple of days to process, all the implications, and the first thing that occurred to me was my nan had leg ulcers, and among cousins and aunts there has been loss of legs through a stroke, restless leg syndrome, skin cancer on the legs, so if all this is in my ancestral lineage, there’s a weakness there and is going to leave that area susceptible. My immediate reaction when my guides told me this was ‘how can this be healed’ and they said ‘by the light’ and that they would lead me to it. Because my thinking was that if this is ancestral lineage that’s affected the female side on my nan’s side, that’s too powerful a thing for little old me to heal, makes me realise that’s why nothing’s worked. I also thought that I now am aware of this, there has to be validation for that ancestor and whatever it is that they went through that resulted in this being passed down to generations, it must have been pretty traumatic. So a bit more info which I shall take to my next kinesiology session. Interesting that my guides should drop this info into my head at this time. "As Above, So Below" basically means that 'Above' is a reflection of 'Below' and vice versa. What's often not realised is the Journey the Soul takes and how our earthly experiences reflect on our Soul/Higher Self. We can compartmentalise our consciousness - which is what you were doing when you were driving. Also known as focussing, but so tightly that nothing else encroaches. So for the time you were driving back there was only one single aspect of your existence in focus at that time - just enough to get you home in one piece. You Higher Self does much the same thing, she 'compartmentalises' her consciousness to 'become you' and so her Journey as a Soul is a reflection of your Journey in the fog and dark all alone. And I'm using the term 'Higher Self' very loosely. Your Journeys are reflected, because as you experience so does your Higher Self, because you two are not disconnected. For a being that has never experienced a phobia, a phobia is quite an experience. For you, experiencing the two-hour Journey was an aspect of your whole existence, for your Higher Self you are an aspect of her whole existence - as are all your Past Lives.

Nothing happens to you, it happens because of you and that's a very different understanding. What if the trauma that caused the phobia didn't happen TO you, what about if it happened BECAUSE of you? Just supposing.... You needed something to lead you to the realisation that you are the Light, and the best way to do that is by experience. Call it Life's Purpose or Karmic Obligations if you like. If things happen to you then there's a victim mentality there and that's often quite a dark perspective. If things happen because of you then it changes the mindset completely and suddenly you become a more proactive co-creator of your own reality. If you'd never had this phobia, what then?

Be careful what you wish for, because it looks a though you certainly got it. You've been spending so much consciousness towards embodying Matt's teachings into your everyday Life that it seems you've been given the opportunity to put your money where your mouth is. :smile:

I remember quite a long time ago I was milling something through in my mind and although it wasn't difficult to rationalise, the understanding of why I would choose such adversity as an experience/ Then the voice came - "Did you Love yourself enough to give yourself that experience?" That slammed the experience home in no uncertain terms. I still haven't quite got the hang of this loving myself bit yet, but it's a work in progress. The answer was though that I did indeed Love myself enough to give myself this experience.

Our brains are actually hard-wired for survival, and often Spirituality itself is a survival mechanism. Ever since we've come down from the trees we've been hard-wired to run away from what can harm us and move towards what is good for us. When we do something that is really good for us the brain releases dopamine, which is also known as the happy hormone. If you feel good doing your Spirituality, now you know why. 'Back in the day' darkness and cold would have been life-threatening because of cold and starvation and today it manifests as Seasonal Adjustment Disorder. What's often not recognised is that we have more of our ancestors inside us than we'd like to admit. The collective subconsciousness also has a part to play, and it's often totally ignored in Spirituality. The subconscious is actually far more powerful than the consciousness.

Be proud of yourself, Patrycia. You don't have to allow yourself to get big-headed but allow yourself to acknowledge all of your hard work and progress so far, there's nothing wrong with that. You've also Loved yourself through it all, and I think that's been a long time coming for you. I know very well how that feels.

To cut some of the story short, you know there's a relationship between the energetic and the physical. This is at play with your ancestral lineage too. What happens genetically is that certain things are passed down from generation to generation, so if this is happening to a number of your female family members then you're probably looking at it having been passed down for many a generation. Now; As Above, So Below and that same energy pattern is reflected in Spirit too. Also bear in mind that we have Soul Groups, so the chances are that many of your close friends and relatives have been around you since Spirit and so many Past Lives ago. There are also energetic patterns at play there too.

So again, what are you trying to heal and what are the reasons? Does it really need healing, is it there to offer you realisations, is it to put even more Spiritual money where your mouth is (in a tongue-in-cheek way of course)?

If there is a bottom line to all of this, it's that this is a Journey to Self and often the fun part is coming to the understanding of who/what Self is. You're doing the psychological/collective unconscious bit by your thoughts on winter survival and now the genetic and physical leg trauma. It's been said that if you don't know where you've come from you don't know where you're going.

When I looked (albeit briefly) at sacred geometry, it seemed to be about shapes etc, I can’t recognise the experience of contrast within it?OK, let's start with something very basic and simple. And the right frame of mind. Sacred Geometry is best used as a visualisation - a Venn diagram on a Powerpoint presentation if you like. It's not meant as an true representation, it's about symbols and the symbols can represent anything you like. Draw two spheres, one is your 'sphere of consciousness' as in what you're aware of, and the other is mine. If we had never met on this forum those two spheres/circles would be apart - I wouldn't have come into your sphere of consciousness and vice versa. Because we're interacting our spheres of consciousness are overlapping, there are things we have in common that we've shared on this thread but there are so many other things we don't know about each other. That overlap gives you what's called the Vesica Pisces. It's in that overlap where we 'meet' and as a result I can say to you "Here Patrycia, have a gander at Matt Khan's stuff." and everything else that has happened since for the both of us. It's in that space of interaction that's kicked everything off.

Your fear is 'some thing/something' and so can be represented as a sphere, how you feel about it is 'some thing/something/a sphere' and you have a relationship with it so the spheres are overlapping. It's in the overlap or your relationship with it that the realisations come. Matt's material is a 'sphere', what's in your head about it is another and the two overlap to give you realisations and so forth.

You know, I think that is exactly what’s happened. Also it all very well studying and thinking yes, I think I’ve got it without being put into some adversity to test it out. All this kicked off on 3rd December so I’ve had four weeks of it and I’m pleased with the way I handled it all staying focused where I could, on breathing and a few affirmations along the way. We're going to get there either because of or despite ourselves, as I think the events that have happened with you will affirm it seems. The question is the how? It would be kind of interesting to go back to the time of you OP and follow the chain of events through from there. All things considered your head is (relatively) intact so it's worth acknowledging that at least, and giving yourself the credit. There's also another realisation here and it's that you have become the Spirituality, it's not the Spirituality of having a pile of knowledge lying around in your skull. That's a whole different Spirituality when you think about it, and it makes sense of everything you've been through.

The chair I sit in is cream leather, with the main window to the left, I wouldn’t describe it as high backed, but a typical arm chair.

So, a pretty intense four weeks. According to Matt 2019 is going to be the year of the thriving light worker and I produced an interesting oracle spread for 2019.

How are things with you?

PatryciaOK then, so it wasn't you I had the vision of. Better luck next time I guess.

At the moment I'm not sure how things are with me to be honest. The solstice has passed and the light is very different so that's nice, and it feels as though there's a nice calmness to things right now as they unfold little by little. No great shakes but certainly small realisations just the same.

I was on my way to Aberdeen on Tuesday for an appointment when I was involved in an accident. I was doing just under 70mph and following another car in the right lane of the dual carriageway when the car in front pulled in, and I carried on to overtake him. I was approaching a junction and there was a filter lane for the traffic turning right, and as I approached there was a DHL van waiting to turn. Suddenly the van decided he wanted to go straight on after all and turned into my lane. By this time it was back to two lanes. I had the barrier on my right, a car just off my rear left wing that I had overtaken and a slow-moving truck in front of me. I stood on the brakes but there wasn't even close to enough time. The guy on the left appeared alongside me with his brake lights on, and it looked as though he was going to hit the truck's front left corner. He let the brakes off then shot out, just making it and no more. I tried to swerve into the left hand lane I think, but caught the front right corner of my car. It literally ripped the wing off, including some of the bonnet. I also caught the corner of the bed of the truck with the A-pillar, and if it had been another four inches to the left it would have taken my head off.

How we managed it I don't know because all the momentum was forwards, and even the policeman couldn't understand it. The car spun around and we ended up almost side-on to the on-coming traffic. I remember sitting there waiting for the bang, because I thought it was inevitable that we were going to be hit by on-coming traffic. It never happened though, and I'll swear that we had no business walking away from it. I was shaken, Mrs G was in tears but other than that we were fine.

Other than that things are tickety-boo, thanks for asking lol. I usually feel better with myself in January anyway. I'm still processing the accident and the more I try and make sense of it the less sense it's making. I do know I'm grateful to be alive though and there was divine intervention happening. It just feels good to be right here right now.