Coming2
30-01-2011, 06:22 PM
Greetings!! Long Post..sorry
I have been a member of SF for well over 2 years and it is the first time I have ever visited this forum. I am usually in Angels and Guides, Reincarnation and Life After Death...even Divination. With that being said I have had more of a metaphysical outlook on Spirituality. I was raised in the Catholic church but when I married I joined my husbands Apostolic Church which was a very harsh experience. I was being terribly abused by my husband and when I went to the pastor seeking guidance he told me that if my faith was stronger and I prayed more that he wouldnt beat me anymore. I went to church everyday and laid at the foot of the cross, cried and prayed for help. Obviously nothing changed and I felt like my faith meant nothing to God and it was against the practice of the church to get divorced. It took me along time to escape the misery I faced daily but once I did my faith in God had dwindled.
All my life I have been gifted with the ability to communicate with spiritual beings and have seen my Guardian Angel many times. This is what drew me to more metaphysical forms of learning. I have been committed to this lifestyle for years now but in the back of my mind I always felt if I was denying Jesus Christ. I pray all day long but my prayers are to God, not Jesus. I dont know why I struggle with it as much as I do.
Last night my daughter, who is 15, came home and told me that she and some friends played with a Ouija board. I was definitely upset about it and she told me that after asking it 3 or 4 questions they asked if they should stop using it...it said yes...one of the boys asked if they could ask 3 more questions and it said WHY!! I TOLD YOU TO STOP!! Thank God it scared the kids. They all took hands and asked for forgiveness and continued to pray through the night and got rid of the board. The perplexing thing was the question my daughter asked the board. She asked the board if I would be forgiven for all the things I have done in my life.(I am a recovering alcoholic)....the answer that she got back was " Most Likely if she accepts me"....When she told me that I began to cry because I knew in my heart that it was Jesus relaying a message from the mouth of a child. I know how dangerous those things are and we talked at length about how demons can trick you using those things and they are not toys and I feel they are evil.
I know that Jesus was the Son of God and I know He died on the cross for my sins. I also know that the only way to God is through the Son...so why do I struggle with the concept of Jesus?? My beliefs over the years has been that all we really need is to have love for all men and that I believe in all paths to God no matter what religion. If God is all loving why in the world would he deny others the path to heaven because they believe what was passed down from their forefathers. So many people in the world do not even know about Christianity, does that mean they can not go to heaven??
Any advice or suggestion would be greatly appreciated and if this is in the wrong place I do certainly apologize....
I have been a member of SF for well over 2 years and it is the first time I have ever visited this forum. I am usually in Angels and Guides, Reincarnation and Life After Death...even Divination. With that being said I have had more of a metaphysical outlook on Spirituality. I was raised in the Catholic church but when I married I joined my husbands Apostolic Church which was a very harsh experience. I was being terribly abused by my husband and when I went to the pastor seeking guidance he told me that if my faith was stronger and I prayed more that he wouldnt beat me anymore. I went to church everyday and laid at the foot of the cross, cried and prayed for help. Obviously nothing changed and I felt like my faith meant nothing to God and it was against the practice of the church to get divorced. It took me along time to escape the misery I faced daily but once I did my faith in God had dwindled.
All my life I have been gifted with the ability to communicate with spiritual beings and have seen my Guardian Angel many times. This is what drew me to more metaphysical forms of learning. I have been committed to this lifestyle for years now but in the back of my mind I always felt if I was denying Jesus Christ. I pray all day long but my prayers are to God, not Jesus. I dont know why I struggle with it as much as I do.
Last night my daughter, who is 15, came home and told me that she and some friends played with a Ouija board. I was definitely upset about it and she told me that after asking it 3 or 4 questions they asked if they should stop using it...it said yes...one of the boys asked if they could ask 3 more questions and it said WHY!! I TOLD YOU TO STOP!! Thank God it scared the kids. They all took hands and asked for forgiveness and continued to pray through the night and got rid of the board. The perplexing thing was the question my daughter asked the board. She asked the board if I would be forgiven for all the things I have done in my life.(I am a recovering alcoholic)....the answer that she got back was " Most Likely if she accepts me"....When she told me that I began to cry because I knew in my heart that it was Jesus relaying a message from the mouth of a child. I know how dangerous those things are and we talked at length about how demons can trick you using those things and they are not toys and I feel they are evil.
I know that Jesus was the Son of God and I know He died on the cross for my sins. I also know that the only way to God is through the Son...so why do I struggle with the concept of Jesus?? My beliefs over the years has been that all we really need is to have love for all men and that I believe in all paths to God no matter what religion. If God is all loving why in the world would he deny others the path to heaven because they believe what was passed down from their forefathers. So many people in the world do not even know about Christianity, does that mean they can not go to heaven??
Any advice or suggestion would be greatly appreciated and if this is in the wrong place I do certainly apologize....